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slothquisitor · 6 days ago

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Finally made it to winter break despite the fact this past week was definitely trying to kill me.

Invisible String will update this weekend (or Monday, we'll see). My anxiety was the worst it's been since starting my new medication and it made doing anything this week utterly impossible. But it's the weekend and I have slept and cuddled my dog and I have nothing else I need to do besides go support my friend at her Christmas market tonight.

I've got art and fic plans and feeling like it's probably time to make an updated fic masterlist.

I need to reread Mrs. Dalloway ahead of teaching it in January, but that's like...a single afternoon activity. And we hired a teacher, and it was the sub who was already there, so me and the other department chair don't have to do *anything*. We've made it.

#sloth speaks #my new medication has made everything better including my anxiety #but even that had nothing on the mess that this week was apparently #i was like rushing from interview to class to interview and being like #why do i feel like i'm being hunted for sport #I came home Wednesday and my partner was like 'we have tickets to this fun thing we do every year tonight'#and I nearly burst into tears #it's not that i didn't want to go but more like...i didn't want to go that night #the overwhelm was real #been a long time since it was that bad #this week was just....unrelenting #and now it's saturday morning and i'm like #oh i'm fine now #personal

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mythicalcoolkid · 5 months ago

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You don't wish your disability was worse or more visible, you wish your disability was taken seriously. Please stop confusing the two, I guarantee you would not get the support you need JUST by being more severe or more visible. Please listen to visibly disabled people when we tell you it isn't better on our side

#m/cc #mine #I tried extremely hard to word this nicely because I KNOW people don't mean bad and often even know there are unique challenges #and believe me I know the challenges of invisible disability too!!#I have invisible disabilities!#but as someone who has also been at least visibly 'off' since they were 10 I am SO SICK of invisible disabilities being hailed as like #a unique extra oppression that us lucky visibly disabled people don't have to deal with #there are challenges to invisible disabilities that visibly disabled people DON'T have to deal with!#but you need to understand that *the reverse is also true*#there are MASSIVE benefits to being able to lie about your disability for example #or not dealing with the overt ableism that comes with your disability being obvious to everyone #*I do not have the option to pretend I'm not disabled.* that is never an option I have #I walk weirdly. I use a mobility aid now. my speech and face are 'off.' I lean to one side #for a long time I wore sunglasses 24/7 and often didn't make sense. I sometimes can't speak or won't react to others #for the most part people will always know that at the very least something is wrong with me #and more obviously I have people telling me they'll pray for me; telling me I can't do things I'm already in the process of doing;#wanting to shake my hand to tell me I'm an inspiration for not killing myself; giving me dirty looks for existing in public #and yes. I'm aware that this is very much an in-community issue. I know the average abled person doesn't know invisible disabilities exist #that's why there's so much awareness happening for it #but as a visibly disabled person I get SO TIRED of constantly hearing 'I wish my disability was visible :'('#it's just 'I wish I had your disability!' but from other disabled people

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umblrspectrum · 2 days ago

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happy solvermas

#cause t. no actually if christ is the son of god and the solver is god then it'd be like uzimas #quick sketch i pulled out of my ass yesterday to see if i could get myself out of art block/burnout/whatever ive got going on #v was added after cause i had no idea how to work her into the scene #implied nuziv or something look man im just desperate about this ship #and i dont know how to draw fluff or whatever #im so bad at romance i dont know how to express it #but i've been desperately trying to draw nuziv for the past months #i think this is actually like some of my best linework yet im really satisfied with everything right now #been a long time since i've felt that #turns out the “stop overthinking every pixel of the expressions and just draw the approximation the audience will get the jist” approach wo #ks #something something n is the star of their life. tree light chrismtas #it is taking. All of my restraint right now #to not be So Mean to all of you #You Don't Even Know #I Could Do Something. I Might Still.#art #murder drones #murder drones uzi #uzi doorman #murder drones n #serial designation n #murder drones v #serial designation v #murder drones cyn #i need liam to explain whether cyn and the solver are the same person already so i can tag them appropriately its driving me nuts #oh yeah cyn got a plush core to chew on by the way #the idea of giving her a chew toy was rolling around in my head and i think its a very funny visual so here we are

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lucabyte · 3 months ago

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Different standards

#didnt mean to do this one in quote unquote colour but it wasnt legible without it so. heres a treat i suppose #isat #isat spoilers #in stars and time #in stars and time fanart #isat fanart #isat loop #isat bonnie #lucabyteart #coughs up a lung. anyway. ramble time as per usual. this is what i was warming up for btw in case it wasnt obvious #besides being another entry in the 'letting bonnie read loop for filth on accident' series. this is mostly self indulgent musings on #headcanons (and i will just use that word here.) ive previously rambled about in other tags and posts #namely: in the scenario that loop integrates into the party as a New Person for quite a while before The Truth Come Out. i feel they have #a decent chance at really scoring a slam dunk in becoming a guardian figure for bonnie? loop's demeanor is already colder and a tiny #bit more level-headed than siffrin's in the way they seem to discuss bonnie with them. namely pointing out that bonnie #never really hated them. it seems to be one thing they're genuinely at peace with? they've seen by now the truth that bonnie #was just scared and upset. and likely now knows that what bonnie wants is to be treated with grown-up respect within reason. plus loop #already scores bonus points with bonnie since they didnt 1. fuck up bad like sif did in act 5 and 2. saved sif in the party's eyes #... but then when it turns out that this clean-slate relationship with a stranger was siffrin being deceitful? must have been odd.#bonnie seems to really dislike being lied to. the question is whether they'd see it that way? would they feel betrayed there?#anyway. this is set after all those emotions are at least settled some. loop able to be more physically affectionate... and yet #still not letting themselves be quite as close as they'd like perhaps. perhaps...#anyway translucent pyjamas because i dont care if you're comforting a crying child you've GOT to SERVE!!!#and also i feel like the party probably wouldn't let loop stay completely naked for that long. especially not post-reveal anyway

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alicornze7 · 2 months ago

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Silly guys goin' on silly adventures:]

@rorydrawsandwrites's puppeteer au but the only difference is that jax gives consent

My contribution to this wonderful au has been long overdue:')

Rambling in tags ehe (cw: ribbun:p)

Well maybe it's not the only difference

#I think in this version of the au possesion puts you into an almost dream-like state #Slipping into a sort of weird trance #Like physically you still have control of your body #But mentally you're mindlessly following orders from a disembodied voice #Kinda works like that imperius curse in harry potter (yes ik rowling sucks)#And jax soon figured out it was great for dissasociating😀#Escapism and heavily dependant on those possesion sessions to preserve his own mental stability:')#But *cue dramatic music🥁*#He eventually realises that it was not the possesion that brings him comfort and peace no more #But the presence and embrace of gangle that did<3💖💗💞#Jskhsskhj sorry that was so cheesy🧀#Well more or less its because he hadnt have human interaction in AWHILE it seems #Goose did confirm that it has been a long time since he last got a hug:(#*almost* made me feel bad there #Mkay enough rambling about this slight very minor variation of the story #I hope this whole thing was coherent to even be readable=]#Maybe ill even add emojis✨#tadc gangle #tadc jax #ribbun #the amazing digital circus #Tadc au #tadc fanart #tadc fandom #gangle x jax #jax x gangle #Let me have this guys #Let me indulge-#Her head is a tad bit too small yes IM AWARE #This is actually probably my fastest post to reach 100 notes wth (in like 7-8 hours)

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cherrirui-official · 9 months ago

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"You know... You didn't have to take that with you."

"But I promised him I'd take him out to see the ocean one day."

#for context uhmm how do i explain this #so around a few weeks after Jd arrives Bruce is like “Hey... where are the others?”#and Jd is like “ooooh 🤪🤪 he doesnt know...”#Since at this time JD believes that the entire tribe is dead. including his brothers and grandma #so Jd has to take Bruce to the now abandoned troll tree and give him the bad news #Bruce doesnt believe it at first. even if the tree is abandoned they cant be dead? right?? they cant be #so he rushes over to their grandma's pod. thinking that theyre just in hiding and waiting for them to return #and all Bruce is able to find in the empty pod is Branch's old stuffed toy Croco #which solidifies to Bruce that everyone is dead. their friends their family. everyone #Bruce is obviously devastated by the news. he doesnt show it a lot but he doesnt take it too well #he ends up bringing Croco with him back to Vacay Island and patches Croco up #since Croco is a bit worn out due to being left in the pod for years #and since then Bruce always keeps Croco hidden in his hair. both as a memoir of his baby brother #and also a reminder of how he failed as an older brother... ouch #ofc the others arent dead. its just that now both Jd AND Bruce believe that the rest of the trolls are dead #also King Trollex is there bc i wanted to put him there. I like Trollex :]#a knee ways more bb au art i promise the next bb au art will be lighthearted #tho now im gonna work on the next violet gijinka batch bc ive been starving my friendlocke audience for too long #sorry friendlocke fans ill feed u next dw #cherris canvas #trolls #trolls band together #trolls john dory #john dory trolls #trolls bruce #bruce trolls #king trollex #beach bros au #sorry for rambling in the tags i hope u dont mind ahaha

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randomminty · 1 month ago

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Have you drawn anyone from pokemon conquest before? I was just thinking that Oichi would look super cute in your style 👉👈

I LOVE CONQUEST I LOVE OICHI

#HI ITS BEEN A VERY LONG TIME SINCE I POSTED HERE ???#mix of uni stuff and uhm. 100 hours of octopath traveler 2. and maybe 50 hours of fe3h.my bad #waiting very very patiently fot ot1 to go back on sale♥️ but this isnt about her #i finished conquest like 6 years ago i barely remember it. i loved it #maybe i should play that again instead of falling back into fire emblem #art tag #pokemon #pokemon conquest #jigglypuff #oichi #?????do you have a tag angel #hope conquest comes back somehow some day #pokemons been completely silent for a year bc theyre working on a conquest remake. they told me

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mishidefresa · 9 months ago

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Sketches I did as samples for commissions :>

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almea · 2 years ago

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#RWBY #Blake Belladonna #Yang Xiao Long #Bumbleby #rwby spoilers #GOD I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE THIS HAPPENED #IT'S BEEN SUCH A LONG TIME COMING 😭😭😭😭#I've wanted a garden to bloom when they kissed so bad since Ruby crying made it rain #lmao which was honestly the real reason I wasn't completely hyped about the kiss being on a bridge #I wanted my garden #BUT OF COURSE THEY MADE IT WORK #WHEN DO THEY NOT MAKE IT WORK FOR THE BEES #otp: bumblebee #For my own tagging purposes

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gomacave · 1 year ago

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5p yuuram bloood twww

#i feel bad for tagging this yuuram cuz its so far from canon LMFAO i will for organization but like...#yuuram #mine #kkm #comics #fanart #its been so long since i got to draw a comic im so happy im flourishing #uhhh anyways #hc time. i think yuuri is the type of person to act before he thinks and therefore i think he would be the first to initiate. not exactlu a #unpopular interpretation of yuuri but i think he likes wolf before he knows it and so his body acts b4 he recognizes the feelings wihin him #i also think wolf wont initiate first cuz his love towards yuuri is very. um. catholic and political lmao.#cuz hes a dog and a human weapon. he thinks the suffering is part of his job. like born duty. and i think he likes it too #cuz theres eomthing about being able to pour ur soul into being obsessed w someone in a gay codependent relationship w/out worrying ab them #reciprocating LMFAO #anyways i think wolf loves in a way that is very intentional. his love is a weapon that he gives to people. its not something to indulge in #i also thinkk his love is a weapon for himself. to sharpen and use. like motivation/justification to exist and also DUTY BABYYY #i talked too much #wolfram von bielefelt #shibuya yuuri #(comic is abuot yuuri. talks about wolfram instead) sorry son.

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aashiyancha · 2 months ago

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Digimon Cybersleuth: Nightmare Detectives

#digimon story cyber sleuth #digimon #tokomon #terriermon #lucemon #gargomon #cherubimon #aiba #aashi doodles #it felt like the right time to do a redraw #i was thinking about back when I was watching digimon ghost game and saw a sneak second of lucemon running off screen #i was really excited to see the revival of lucemon antagonist. but as far as i know they never showed #then i started thinking about how stupidly funny it would be if aiba and lucemon duo were episodic antagnonists on the ghost game show #just a couple of teens scaring and bullying a trio of middle schoolers for no reason other than for laughs #its been so long since i touched my cyberspoof skits so im probably not gonna go back to that but #what if i drew a minisode of ghost game but with these jokers as the bad guys of the week?#jkjk hehe #...unless?

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daisybell-on-a-carousel · 2 months ago

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Still very wild to me when people try to gotcha Jason with the whole "if you can kill other people for being evil why can't they kill you" when jason is like. One of the most passively suicidal characters I've ever seen. What if man

#augh i dont want to cw this because im just talking about The Character and i feel bad when i do it for characters but i probably should #suicide mention #ask to tag #while im here i do absolutely believe hes been suicidal since jaybin times. maybe even before just in different ways. but like #going into that building with shelia? yeah #now. i DONT think he was aware of it and if youd ask him hed say no fully believing thats the truth #but like if a ghost jaybin had some introspection time i think he'd maybe eventually be like yeah #his outcomes to him were have a loving parent or die and hes a very big fan of ultimatums like that.#but he doesn't fully see it like that as jaybin because oh hes a hero and saving others when no one else can is what heros do :)#ramble. ivee been feeling it lately yknow how it is #ive once saw a post saying jason was planning to die after the joker was dead in utrh and yeagh i can see that #he puts A BOMB in his HELMET #suicidal characters in the context of hero stories are so fascinating to me. the self sacrifice.#the not caring about your own safety as long as you save someone else. the pushing yourself #the way itd be so easy to make it look like they just fell in battle. to be considered a hero in the end #anyway ive been glancing at suicidal jason todd fics. how bad is it that im still getting mad about characterization #because theyre not killing him right #AND ANOTHER THING. since im here and i try to avoid making posts about The Character like this so might as welk get it all out #think about suicidal jaybin as well as the fact 80s bruce very much considered suicidal people/people attempting like #weak and lazy? yells at them? i think thats about it. Very Much. je seems to straight up just hate them #again very much feel free to ask me to tag this one ^-^'#and i hope no one thinks im being callous here im very worried about that. i just its a very important part of his character to think about #and its fun to explore as someone who is passively suicidal myself #jason todd analysis #anyway no one look at me i am in my corner just rotating him #WAIT to clarify i dont think jaybin fully realized Just becauceof the heros sacrifice thing. i made it sound like that i believe #anyway. if you read him as suicidal since jaybin times and go to ditf with that lens like i did. well. the post death victim blaming..

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spoiler-alert-andabunchofnumbers · 3 days ago

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Guys, why we debating whether or not LQ has or doesn't have a beak when the answer is obvious?

The Long Quiet is as versatile as Shifty. He's like schrondinger's beak. He both has one and doesn't have one until the need arises for an answer. He has one when he wants one, he has none when he doesn't want one.

Based on the Dragon and the Princess ending, I like to believe every single face of the LQ chooses whether they have a beak or not. And thus I present my hypothesis on the beak statuses of our best boys:

Hero has a beak but doesn't know it or consciously acknowledge it, too distracted by the narrative, that's just his nose wdym, he's doing his best your honor

Opportuntist is pro beak, though perhaps he conceals it until he gets the upper hand

Smitten is no beak because kisses, will only manifest a beak by accident when he's being sinister but would never admit it

Cold is no beak since bro doesn't feel enough for a beak to manifest

Broken is no beak, he's too wimpy for a beak - or alternatively, has a beak if his goddess wants it, anything to please her really

Stubborn seems like a beak guy to me. He'd use it to peck the Adversary's eyes or smth, just so long as it's another weapon to bash against his enemy

Hunted probably no beak, since he ain't no animal, but teeth? Yes, necessary part of survival you see

Paranoid probably no beak, too scared of it getting in the way during a crucial moment and potentially blocking that very necessary 3% of his vision and distracting him for a milisecond too long

Skeptic is the opposite, pro beak because he knows it's there and he wants to keep it in sight at all times because if it disappears that shit's sus

Contrarian IS the schrondinger, he is both pro and no beak at all times. He's half beak. He's demi beak. He is MADE of beak. He doesn't even know what a beak is. He threw the beak out the window

Cheated doesn't care about the damn beak, it's all a crock of shit anyway - just wait, he'll have a beak and then suddenly it's an inconvenience, but the moment he DOESN'T have a beak he'll find a reason to need it, just you wait and see, it'll happen--!

What I'm saying is, all your fanart is valid and all you'all's opinions are correct, have a nice day

#slay the princess #the long quiet #beak vs no beak #the great beak debate #idk what we're calling it #this thought nugget never left my mind since I first played the game #i think we are all correct at all times #no one has ever been wrong ever about anything #do you have a beak?#how many times can you type the word beak before it loses all meaning?#there are no bad endings #or bad beaks #this is a love story #between a vast and nascent god #and his beak

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kirby-the-gorb · 7 days ago

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#kirby #ask to tag #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #having a lot of feelings today about being so sick for so long.#they're not. good ones.#I turned in the last of the additional evidence for my va disability compensation earlier this week #it was around this time in 2015 that I got whatever bug was going around the barracks because everyone got it that's just how it works #I've been debilitatingly ill ever since.#that's not the day that's filed as the breaking point but it's when things went bad.#(there's a specific day in late january where I ran out of compensatory mechanisms and truly broke.)#(that's how it's saved in my head and also literally what's documented in the military files.)#anywho. thanks for reading my little rambles those of you that do #oh yeah also reminder if you have any prescriptions that will run out before new years you should really refill them asap!#when I'm putting my pill organizer together for the week I always check if I have enough for the following week as well #if I don't I make sure to order it before the end of the week I just put together #(this is not a wholly accurate representation of the number of pill bottles I have to sort every week - it's only about 2/3rds)

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rosalie-starfall · 5 months ago

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Henrietta Woodstone

Ghosts - Holes Are Bad

#Henrietta Woodstone #Hetty Woodstone #Rebecca Wisocky #Ghosts #Holes Are Bad #Ghosts US #CBS Ghosts #US Ghosts #my gifs #tv edits #tv : Sitcom #tv : Comedy #tv : Ghosts #Its been a LONG time since someone has asked me to make a gifset of something I'm actually into so thanks anonymous Hetty friend

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pansyfemme · 2 months ago

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i have been a ball of depression lately as well as my physical health worsening pretty severly this past week due to stress and so my friends have been. trying so hard to get me to get out and do things and its very sweet but i feel bad because the whole time i’m just a total mess

#they say they dont mind but i need to really. stop #im stuck.#and i know it’s hard on my friends to see me like this since i’ve been doing a lot better and now am back to my old habits #but i felt bad because they took me out shopping and to dinner tonight and i just had a headache and was limping and couldnt stop talking #about the recent death in my family and all the stress from classes and socially and how lost i feel #and i just wanted so bad to just. enjoy myself but i couldnt #but my friends know about how severe my depression is and are all very used to it #its in fact more normal than not. but i was really. feeling at my best for several months so the crash back down to not eating and sleeping #and being unable to fully tidy my room and all that stuff has been. difficult for me as well as those around me #it’s been normal for me for so long to live terribly that taking care of myself for a while and then losing the drive to has been. hard #im trying to get better but i slide back down #i need to work on my constant self loathing but i keep walking around just. conviced im such a burden and being sad makes it even worse #i just. am always overcompensating for my lack of #ability to love myself with just. constantly showering everyone around me with love and its. hard for me when i dont have the energy to do #even that anymore. its hard to let people take care of me when i just want to take care of them all the time

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