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Finally made it to winter break despite the fact this past week was definitely trying to kill me.
Invisible String will update this weekend (or Monday, we'll see). My anxiety was the worst it's been since starting my new medication and it made doing anything this week utterly impossible. But it's the weekend and I have slept and cuddled my dog and I have nothing else I need to do besides go support my friend at her Christmas market tonight.
I've got art and fic plans and feeling like it's probably time to make an updated fic masterlist.
I need to reread Mrs. Dalloway ahead of teaching it in January, but that's like...a single afternoon activity. And we hired a teacher, and it was the sub who was already there, so me and the other department chair don't have to do *anything*. We've made it.
#sloth speaks#my new medication has made everything better including my anxiety#but even that had nothing on the mess that this week was apparently#i was like rushing from interview to class to interview and being like#why do i feel like i'm being hunted for sport#I came home Wednesday and my partner was like 'we have tickets to this fun thing we do every year tonight'#and I nearly burst into tears#it's not that i didn't want to go but more like...i didn't want to go that night#the overwhelm was real#been a long time since it was that bad#this week was just....unrelenting#and now it's saturday morning and i'm like#oh i'm fine now#personal
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You don't wish your disability was worse or more visible, you wish your disability was taken seriously. Please stop confusing the two, I guarantee you would not get the support you need JUST by being more severe or more visible. Please listen to visibly disabled people when we tell you it isn't better on our side
#m/cc#mine#I tried extremely hard to word this nicely because I KNOW people don't mean bad and often even know there are unique challenges#and believe me I know the challenges of invisible disability too!!#I have invisible disabilities!#but as someone who has also been at least visibly 'off' since they were 10 I am SO SICK of invisible disabilities being hailed as like#a unique extra oppression that us lucky visibly disabled people don't have to deal with#there are challenges to invisible disabilities that visibly disabled people DON'T have to deal with!#but you need to understand that *the reverse is also true*#there are MASSIVE benefits to being able to lie about your disability for example#or not dealing with the overt ableism that comes with your disability being obvious to everyone#*I do not have the option to pretend I'm not disabled.* that is never an option I have#I walk weirdly. I use a mobility aid now. my speech and face are 'off.' I lean to one side#for a long time I wore sunglasses 24/7 and often didn't make sense. I sometimes can't speak or won't react to others#for the most part people will always know that at the very least something is wrong with me#and more obviously I have people telling me they'll pray for me; telling me I can't do things I'm already in the process of doing;#wanting to shake my hand to tell me I'm an inspiration for not killing myself; giving me dirty looks for existing in public#and yes. I'm aware that this is very much an in-community issue. I know the average abled person doesn't know invisible disabilities exist#that's why there's so much awareness happening for it#but as a visibly disabled person I get SO TIRED of constantly hearing 'I wish my disability was visible :'('#it's just 'I wish I had your disability!' but from other disabled people
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happy solvermas
#cause t. no actually if christ is the son of god and the solver is god then it'd be like uzimas#quick sketch i pulled out of my ass yesterday to see if i could get myself out of art block/burnout/whatever ive got going on#v was added after cause i had no idea how to work her into the scene#implied nuziv or something look man im just desperate about this ship#and i dont know how to draw fluff or whatever#im so bad at romance i dont know how to express it#but i've been desperately trying to draw nuziv for the past months#i think this is actually like some of my best linework yet im really satisfied with everything right now#been a long time since i've felt that#turns out the “stop overthinking every pixel of the expressions and just draw the approximation the audience will get the jist” approach wo#ks#something something n is the star of their life. tree light chrismtas#it is taking. All of my restraint right now#to not be So Mean to all of you#You Don't Even Know#I Could Do Something. I Might Still.#art#murder drones#murder drones uzi#uzi doorman#murder drones n#serial designation n#murder drones v#serial designation v#murder drones cyn#i need liam to explain whether cyn and the solver are the same person already so i can tag them appropriately its driving me nuts#oh yeah cyn got a plush core to chew on by the way#the idea of giving her a chew toy was rolling around in my head and i think its a very funny visual so here we are
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Different standards
#didnt mean to do this one in quote unquote colour but it wasnt legible without it so. heres a treat i suppose#isat#isat spoilers#in stars and time#in stars and time fanart#isat fanart#isat loop#isat bonnie#lucabyteart#coughs up a lung. anyway. ramble time as per usual. this is what i was warming up for btw in case it wasnt obvious#besides being another entry in the 'letting bonnie read loop for filth on accident' series. this is mostly self indulgent musings on#headcanons (and i will just use that word here.) ive previously rambled about in other tags and posts#namely: in the scenario that loop integrates into the party as a New Person for quite a while before The Truth Come Out. i feel they have#a decent chance at really scoring a slam dunk in becoming a guardian figure for bonnie? loop's demeanor is already colder and a tiny#bit more level-headed than siffrin's in the way they seem to discuss bonnie with them. namely pointing out that bonnie#never really hated them. it seems to be one thing they're genuinely at peace with? they've seen by now the truth that bonnie#was just scared and upset. and likely now knows that what bonnie wants is to be treated with grown-up respect within reason. plus loop#already scores bonus points with bonnie since they didnt 1. fuck up bad like sif did in act 5 and 2. saved sif in the party's eyes#... but then when it turns out that this clean-slate relationship with a stranger was siffrin being deceitful? must have been odd.#bonnie seems to really dislike being lied to. the question is whether they'd see it that way? would they feel betrayed there?#anyway. this is set after all those emotions are at least settled some. loop able to be more physically affectionate... and yet#still not letting themselves be quite as close as they'd like perhaps. perhaps...#anyway translucent pyjamas because i dont care if you're comforting a crying child you've GOT to SERVE!!!#and also i feel like the party probably wouldn't let loop stay completely naked for that long. especially not post-reveal anyway
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Silly guys goin' on silly adventures:]
@rorydrawsandwrites's puppeteer au but the only difference is that jax gives consent
My contribution to this wonderful au has been long overdue:')
Rambling in tags ehe (cw: ribbun:p)
Well maybe it's not the only difference
#I think in this version of the au possesion puts you into an almost dream-like state#Slipping into a sort of weird trance#Like physically you still have control of your body#But mentally you're mindlessly following orders from a disembodied voice#Kinda works like that imperius curse in harry potter (yes ik rowling sucks)#And jax soon figured out it was great for dissasociating😀#Escapism and heavily dependant on those possesion sessions to preserve his own mental stability:')#But *cue dramatic music🥁*#He eventually realises that it was not the possesion that brings him comfort and peace no more#But the presence and embrace of gangle that did<3💖💗💞#Jskhsskhj sorry that was so cheesy🧀#Well more or less its because he hadnt have human interaction in AWHILE it seems#Goose did confirm that it has been a long time since he last got a hug:(#*almost* made me feel bad there#Mkay enough rambling about this slight very minor variation of the story#I hope this whole thing was coherent to even be readable=]#Maybe ill even add emojis✨#tadc gangle#tadc jax#ribbun#the amazing digital circus#Tadc au#tadc fanart#tadc fandom#gangle x jax#jax x gangle#Let me have this guys#Let me indulge-#Her head is a tad bit too small yes IM AWARE#This is actually probably my fastest post to reach 100 notes wth (in like 7-8 hours)
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Welcome to the Restraint! (Restaurant)
Imagine Danny runs to Gotham and starts squatting in an abandoned old building in Crime Alley. Slowly putting some ecto into the place to claim it as his haunt (while recovering from the sudden loss of his old one). And he does the normal stuff to survive. Finds some odd jobs, often as a messenger, and is just surviving. Another thing he does is make his own food. It’s cheaper than takeout and he’s gotten pretty good at cooking (out of necessity instead of eating sentient hotdogs). Then he ends up accidentally taking in some street kids. Or more like they follow him home. He can’t just turn them away so he makes a meal for them and lets them stay the night then sends them on their way. And then it happens again. And again. And ok, so maybe he saved a girl from getting molested. And that older guy from getting his only good blanket stolen. And sure, maybe letting that poor pizza delivery guy rant was unnecessary but he looked like he was having a bad day ok? Pretty sure that kid with the scar is a meta too but…he needed a place to stay a few nights alright? It’s not like any of them stay permanently. Danny’s started picking up a few more odd jobs to pay for all the extra food he’s had to buy. Always keeping his place stocked. At least he doesn’t have to pay for water and a fridge, he just makes some ice (or melts it). Sure the water is cold, but it’s probbaly the cleanest water in Gotham. And then some of the people start paying. Like…actually paying in exchange for food. Not sure if it’s because of guilt or pity but Danny won’t look a gift horse in the mouth. And with all the money, he hasn’t had to take as many dangerous jobs. Soon, his little abandoned apartment became what’s essentially the closest thing to a legitimate restaurant in Crime Alley.
It didn’t look normal. The chairs and tables were more like old couches and stools pulled up to coffee tables and cabinets turned on their side. Although with the bulling becoming more like Danny’s haunt, the walls naturally started repairing themselves so at least it didn’t look like it was gonna collapse anymore. And ok…so Danny might have rescued a few feral kids who…weirdly have gold eyes. And possibly stopped a meta trafficking ring on accident. And look, these people didn’t have anywhere to go! And the apartment did have empty rooms. It was already known as a place someone could crash for the night (last winter the entire place was cramped with people. Danny had to break up multiple fights but they usually calmed down when he got there.)
One benefit from controlling a haunt is controlling the temperature inside so it was one of the only buildings with ‘heat’. But back to his…strays. So yeah…most didn’t seem like they could rejoin society…so he let them stay. And…they kind of became employees? Impromptu bodyguards? (Some of the golden eyed people almost felt like he was rangling feral ghosts again.) they came in all ages. A few kids, lots of teens, and a few adults. Same with the metas he rescued. They mostly helped deliver food to costumers. They even got a phone line working and could take orders. (Although the new…employees…also got more protective whenever a fight broke out.) With all the extra money he’s been getting he was even able to afford some medical supplies. A lot of his customers(?) came in injured and he tried his best to patch them up but now he could do more than tie some ripped clothing around the wound and use ice to numb it. He’s got bandages. And pain killers. Plus other medical stuff. He can even give someone stickers now! All that experience as an injured vigilante was paying off. Even Villains and goons start attending this place. The place was unofficially designated as one of the Alley’s ‘safe zones’ where no fighting takes place inside (the body guards make sure of it.) the metas and Talons are getting an identity for themselves, the street kids even get a job and a hideout, random people can go there for help or to pass messages, this place provides food, shelter, and medical care. No one wants it going down.
So yeah, welcome to the restaurant!
(I’m debating whether I want this to be the weirdest restaurant/safe place/truce area in the alley, or whether I want Danny to accidentally become a crime lord. Possibly both.)
Also, this place is called the Restraint because I keep misspelling Restaurant and I think Danny would do the same so the name stuck. (Or one of the kids spelled it when making a sign or passing around messages to spread the word of this safe place.)
So anyways, to add some angst, after Danny adopts a bunch of crime alley kids/villains they find out about Danny’s powers and that he’s a ghost, only they don’t know about Halfas so they think Danny is fully dead and this super kind guy who has been the only person to ever treat them like people…died. He died likely a long time ago and there’s nothing any of them can do to change that.
(And if the GIW dare to come into the alley, they better be prepared for the entire place to turn on them.)
#Dpxdc#dcxdp#Kizzer55555 ideas#I kinda like the idea of Danny also being able to cure joker venom#So like what could happen is a recent attack caused some people he knew to get infected#they came into the Restraint laughing while tears trailed down their face and they were gasping like they couldn’t breathe.#Danny can immediatly tell something’s wrong and can practically see their veins glowing green.#They had enough joker venom that it should be perminant but Danny uses his powers.#What he does is concentrate and phase shift them and ONLY them. Letting the venom fall through and splatter the ground with a hiss.#It’s the first time anyone has seen Danny use powers but everyone unanimously agrees never to mention it.#Of course. There are many people people who might then bring their loved ones to Danny. Hoping he could help.#You would be surprised how many kids are in the alley because their parents were gassed with joker venom#and the foster system wouldn’t take them. Or people who lost their jobs to pay for medical bills for loved ones.#So then an alley guy brings his gassed sister in. She had been in the hospital for 2 years now and he knows it’s a long shot.#But he has to try.#It’s harder than the fresh venom since the drug had been more absorbed into the girl. Danny has to really focus and it takes longer#But bit by bit he manages to separate the joker venom and her laughing soon turns to sobbing as her mouth stops smiling.#When he’s done the brother and sister are both crying. The girl is malnourished because it’s hard to eat while laughing but she’ll be ok.#Soon all the alley people start bringing in loved ones. It’s very subtle because there’s NO WAY they are exposing Danny’s abilities.#However people start noticing that joker victims have started to disappear from hospitals.#Danny is covered in scars from vigilantism.#He may or may not have vivisection scars.#Whether it was from phantom and he just escaped before revealing his identity or bad reveal is up to you.
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"You know... You didn't have to take that with you."
"But I promised him I'd take him out to see the ocean one day."
#for context uhmm how do i explain this#so around a few weeks after Jd arrives Bruce is like “Hey... where are the others?”#and Jd is like “ooooh 🤪🤪 he doesnt know...”#Since at this time JD believes that the entire tribe is dead. including his brothers and grandma#so Jd has to take Bruce to the now abandoned troll tree and give him the bad news#Bruce doesnt believe it at first. even if the tree is abandoned they cant be dead? right?? they cant be#so he rushes over to their grandma's pod. thinking that theyre just in hiding and waiting for them to return#and all Bruce is able to find in the empty pod is Branch's old stuffed toy Croco#which solidifies to Bruce that everyone is dead. their friends their family. everyone#Bruce is obviously devastated by the news. he doesnt show it a lot but he doesnt take it too well#he ends up bringing Croco with him back to Vacay Island and patches Croco up#since Croco is a bit worn out due to being left in the pod for years#and since then Bruce always keeps Croco hidden in his hair. both as a memoir of his baby brother#and also a reminder of how he failed as an older brother... ouch#ofc the others arent dead. its just that now both Jd AND Bruce believe that the rest of the trolls are dead#also King Trollex is there bc i wanted to put him there. I like Trollex :]#a knee ways more bb au art i promise the next bb au art will be lighthearted#tho now im gonna work on the next violet gijinka batch bc ive been starving my friendlocke audience for too long#sorry friendlocke fans ill feed u next dw#cherris canvas#trolls#trolls band together#trolls john dory#john dory trolls#trolls bruce#bruce trolls#king trollex#beach bros au#sorry for rambling in the tags i hope u dont mind ahaha
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Have you drawn anyone from pokemon conquest before? I was just thinking that Oichi would look super cute in your style 👉👈
I LOVE CONQUEST I LOVE OICHI
#HI ITS BEEN A VERY LONG TIME SINCE I POSTED HERE ???#mix of uni stuff and uhm. 100 hours of octopath traveler 2. and maybe 50 hours of fe3h.my bad#waiting very very patiently fot ot1 to go back on sale♥️ but this isnt about her#i finished conquest like 6 years ago i barely remember it. i loved it#maybe i should play that again instead of falling back into fire emblem#art tag#pokemon#pokemon conquest#jigglypuff#oichi#?????do you have a tag angel#hope conquest comes back somehow some day#pokemons been completely silent for a year bc theyre working on a conquest remake. they told me
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Sketches I did as samples for commissions :>
#hey#it's been a long time#i know#sorry im not as active here on tumblr anymore#i feel bad bc i really like this site#it's just that im to lazy to post here besides Instagram and tiktok#since i been doing a lot of traditional art lately#right know im working in commissions so#and last week was long tired and wild#hopefully#it's over now#but we only have to wait and see for now#rymin#infinity train#infinity train fanart#infinity train book 4#ryan akagi#min gi park#rymin fanart#my art
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Blackberry dyed wool from my partner. Neither of us can remember the breed. Was a bit felted so I combed it and then spun it on some of my little cotton spindles bc I wanted a nice fine yarn. 2 plied on Minifred.
Theres tons and tons of combing waste that I will card into rolags as soon as I unpack my hand cards. Color is so good, I hope it doesn't wash out too much. My fingertips didn't turn purple so I'm taking that as a good sign.
#bigger spindles are not working for me rn but the small ones are which is nice#i think bc smaller spindle=not as far away from your lap#on the cotton birds i can usually get away with propping my hands up on my thighs#still has to be done a little at a time bc its difficult and very tiring and painful but hey ! i am spinning again ! a little bit !#its been a long time since I managed to spin much of anything and it sucked so bad i didnt try it twice#i think i could try this twice#spinning#handspun yarn#i am extremely crossfaded due to extenuating circumstances but i think when i go inside#i will find something else to comb#natural dyeing
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#RWBY#Blake Belladonna#Yang Xiao Long#Bumbleby#rwby spoilers#GOD I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE THIS HAPPENED#IT'S BEEN SUCH A LONG TIME COMING 😭😭😭😭#I've wanted a garden to bloom when they kissed so bad since Ruby crying made it rain#lmao which was honestly the real reason I wasn't completely hyped about the kiss being on a bridge#I wanted my garden#BUT OF COURSE THEY MADE IT WORK#WHEN DO THEY NOT MAKE IT WORK FOR THE BEES#otp: bumblebee#For my own tagging purposes
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5p yuuram bloood twww
#i feel bad for tagging this yuuram cuz its so far from canon LMFAO i will for organization but like...#yuuram#mine#kkm#comics#fanart#its been so long since i got to draw a comic im so happy im flourishing#uhhh anyways#hc time. i think yuuri is the type of person to act before he thinks and therefore i think he would be the first to initiate. not exactlu a#unpopular interpretation of yuuri but i think he likes wolf before he knows it and so his body acts b4 he recognizes the feelings wihin him#i also think wolf wont initiate first cuz his love towards yuuri is very. um. catholic and political lmao.#cuz hes a dog and a human weapon. he thinks the suffering is part of his job. like born duty. and i think he likes it too#cuz theres eomthing about being able to pour ur soul into being obsessed w someone in a gay codependent relationship w/out worrying ab them#reciprocating LMFAO#anyways i think wolf loves in a way that is very intentional. his love is a weapon that he gives to people. its not something to indulge in#i also thinkk his love is a weapon for himself. to sharpen and use. like motivation/justification to exist and also DUTY BABYYY#i talked too much#wolfram von bielefelt#shibuya yuuri#(comic is abuot yuuri. talks about wolfram instead) sorry son.
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Guys, why we debating whether or not LQ has or doesn't have a beak when the answer is obvious?
The Long Quiet is as versatile as Shifty. He's like schrondinger's beak. He both has one and doesn't have one until the need arises for an answer. He has one when he wants one, he has none when he doesn't want one.
Based on the Dragon and the Princess ending, I like to believe every single face of the LQ chooses whether they have a beak or not. And thus I present my hypothesis on the beak statuses of our best boys:
Hero has a beak but doesn't know it or consciously acknowledge it, too distracted by the narrative, that's just his nose wdym, he's doing his best your honor
Opportuntist is pro beak, though perhaps he conceals it until he gets the upper hand
Smitten is no beak because kisses, will only manifest a beak by accident when he's being sinister but would never admit it
Cold is no beak since bro doesn't feel enough for a beak to manifest
Broken is no beak, he's too wimpy for a beak - or alternatively, has a beak if his goddess wants it, anything to please her really
Stubborn seems like a beak guy to me. He'd use it to peck the Adversary's eyes or smth, just so long as it's another weapon to bash against his enemy
Hunted probably no beak, since he ain't no animal, but teeth? Yes, necessary part of survival you see
Paranoid probably no beak, too scared of it getting in the way during a crucial moment and potentially blocking that very necessary 3% of his vision and distracting him for a milisecond too long
Skeptic is the opposite, pro beak because he knows it's there and he wants to keep it in sight at all times because if it disappears that shit's sus
Contrarian IS the schrondinger, he is both pro and no beak at all times. He's half beak. He's demi beak. He is MADE of beak. He doesn't even know what a beak is. He threw the beak out the window
Cheated doesn't care about the damn beak, it's all a crock of shit anyway - just wait, he'll have a beak and then suddenly it's an inconvenience, but the moment he DOESN'T have a beak he'll find a reason to need it, just you wait and see, it'll happen--!
What I'm saying is, all your fanart is valid and all you'all's opinions are correct, have a nice day
#slay the princess#the long quiet#beak vs no beak#the great beak debate#idk what we're calling it#this thought nugget never left my mind since I first played the game#i think we are all correct at all times#no one has ever been wrong ever about anything#do you have a beak?#how many times can you type the word beak before it loses all meaning?#there are no bad endings#or bad beaks#this is a love story#between a vast and nascent god#and his beak
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Digimon Cybersleuth: Nightmare Detectives
#digimon story cyber sleuth#digimon#tokomon#terriermon#lucemon#gargomon#cherubimon#aiba#aashi doodles#it felt like the right time to do a redraw#i was thinking about back when I was watching digimon ghost game and saw a sneak second of lucemon running off screen#i was really excited to see the revival of lucemon antagonist. but as far as i know they never showed#then i started thinking about how stupidly funny it would be if aiba and lucemon duo were episodic antagnonists on the ghost game show#just a couple of teens scaring and bullying a trio of middle schoolers for no reason other than for laughs#its been so long since i touched my cyberspoof skits so im probably not gonna go back to that but#what if i drew a minisode of ghost game but with these jokers as the bad guys of the week?#jkjk hehe#...unless?
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Still very wild to me when people try to gotcha Jason with the whole "if you can kill other people for being evil why can't they kill you" when jason is like. One of the most passively suicidal characters I've ever seen. What if man
#augh i dont want to cw this because im just talking about The Character and i feel bad when i do it for characters but i probably should#suicide mention#ask to tag#while im here i do absolutely believe hes been suicidal since jaybin times. maybe even before just in different ways. but like#going into that building with shelia? yeah#now. i DONT think he was aware of it and if youd ask him hed say no fully believing thats the truth#but like if a ghost jaybin had some introspection time i think he'd maybe eventually be like yeah#his outcomes to him were have a loving parent or die and hes a very big fan of ultimatums like that.#but he doesn't fully see it like that as jaybin because oh hes a hero and saving others when no one else can is what heros do :)#ramble. ivee been feeling it lately yknow how it is#ive once saw a post saying jason was planning to die after the joker was dead in utrh and yeagh i can see that#he puts A BOMB in his HELMET#suicidal characters in the context of hero stories are so fascinating to me. the self sacrifice.#the not caring about your own safety as long as you save someone else. the pushing yourself#the way itd be so easy to make it look like they just fell in battle. to be considered a hero in the end#anyway ive been glancing at suicidal jason todd fics. how bad is it that im still getting mad about characterization#because theyre not killing him right#AND ANOTHER THING. since im here and i try to avoid making posts about The Character like this so might as welk get it all out#think about suicidal jaybin as well as the fact 80s bruce very much considered suicidal people/people attempting like#weak and lazy? yells at them? i think thats about it. Very Much. je seems to straight up just hate them#again very much feel free to ask me to tag this one ^-^'#and i hope no one thinks im being callous here im very worried about that. i just its a very important part of his character to think about#and its fun to explore as someone who is passively suicidal myself#jason todd analysis#anyway no one look at me i am in my corner just rotating him#WAIT to clarify i dont think jaybin fully realized Just becauceof the heros sacrifice thing. i made it sound like that i believe#anyway. if you read him as suicidal since jaybin times and go to ditf with that lens like i did. well. the post death victim blaming..
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#kirby#ask to tag#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#having a lot of feelings today about being so sick for so long.#they're not. good ones.#I turned in the last of the additional evidence for my va disability compensation earlier this week#it was around this time in 2015 that I got whatever bug was going around the barracks because everyone got it that's just how it works#I've been debilitatingly ill ever since.#that's not the day that's filed as the breaking point but it's when things went bad.#(there's a specific day in late january where I ran out of compensatory mechanisms and truly broke.)#(that's how it's saved in my head and also literally what's documented in the military files.)#anywho. thanks for reading my little rambles those of you that do#oh yeah also reminder if you have any prescriptions that will run out before new years you should really refill them asap!#when I'm putting my pill organizer together for the week I always check if I have enough for the following week as well#if I don't I make sure to order it before the end of the week I just put together#(this is not a wholly accurate representation of the number of pill bottles I have to sort every week - it's only about 2/3rds)
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