#anon u r so kind

[maharaanis]

saw this poem on the recent poetry tag and it felt like smth you'd like and i felt the sudden urge to send it to you 😭😭

was scrolling thru my inbox again anon u do not understand for how long i have searched for this poem...sighs i think it's been lost to time unfortunately but if u r still around just know that i love u very much for trying to send me this i feel very very bad forever

[hinamie]

mentor

[mukuberry]

You're such a lovely person, wishing you so many nice moments <3

At the annual Nathan’s Famous hot dog eating contest, Joey Chestnut broke his own world record on July 4th, 2021 by consuming 76 hot dogs in 10 minutes

I just ate 3. Alot less than 76... i'm feeling a little inadequate. Thank you for this ♡

[haomnyangz]

ms chu vs jeok bong in this scene:

[marsbotz]

ok ! [autism explosion]

[stuckinapril]

hi, cianna!! i love your blog so much and you inspire me to study and keep my life together <3

recently, i’ve been reading bell hook’s “communion: the female search for love” and idk if you’ve read it already, but it’s something i think you would find interesting! it talks a lot about our cultural ideas of love and romance, as well as the ways in which that can be disappointing (esp. for women dating men)

anyways i hope you have a great day :))

Omg ok I’ve never committed to reading a bell hooks book before but this synopsis is making me want to buy a copy rn. I am a 21 year old w a stacking pile of disappointments by men I think I could make use of this

[opens-up-4-nobody]

hi so so sorry if this sounds genuinely deranged but I need to know did you write a fanfiction in like 2014 that was set during ww2 where zoro from one piece was sent to a japanese internment camp and sanji went to conversion therapy I remembered it recently because it blew my mind at age 13 and I had to reread it + need a kind of where are they now with the author so if that's you 1) what's your stance on the fic today 2) how much of the research was done during writing and how much did you just know beforehand and used as inspo 3) did you have any ideas for where the other characters ended up because I did always wonder if like idk chopper overcame the trauma of being in the war and also just what usopp's situation would be in general what with the political climate. once again. if you didn't actually write this fic so sorry this must look like the ravings of a crazy person. godspeed

Hi. Uh, yeah I did write that fic. I would have been like only 17 at the time. I did do A LOT of research, like the fic was basically an excuse for me to research Japanese internment and WWII history in general bc I thought it was super fucked up. I was absolutely hyperfixated on the topic and my parents probably thought i was nuts for my ability to talk at length on this particular area of history. I just finished skim reading back through the fic and woof. What a bleak fucking story. I was very cruel to everyone. It's frustrating bc I think it's an interesting and compelling idea for a story. But to me it feels like: here is all the research I did and also characters talking in what feels like a too modern way. Plus, I was 17 and didnt understand people very well. I wish I had the energy and motivation to rewrite it. Although, I forgot I used to do song lyrics at the start of each chapter and the tonal dissonance of Owl City lyrics at the top of a chapter of harrowing events around the time of WWII is unfathomablly unhinged.

[daydadahlias]

Not me using the wayback machine to try to find your old panic fics (yikesssss for that fandom) 💀

In all seriousness though, much respect to you for taking charge over YOUR work. People can be so gross sometimes. Like why plagiarize when you can just leave a nice comment for the author saying you love their work??

pretty crazy how this ask is acknowledging that it's my work and my decision and I should be able to take ownership of it while simultaneously saying that you went actively against those wishes to try and use other means to find said work after I took it down.

it's almost like you're saying "not me being disrespectful lmao! sorry abt everyone else who is also disrespectful!! they suck."

Pot meet kettle.

[lorelune]

loreeeee, i read the blade fic update and i CANT. express. how much i love your writing (again LOL). ugh, the way you write thoughts, mentalities, how ppl navigate and take in info...insane. INSANE. ugh,,,,,,im sorry but having adrenaline "tumble between the eyes" or the weird sureness of his thoughts but still being unidentifiable (unintelligible? or there little understanding of the source of specific thoughts) in and of themselves...the way you write makes me FERAL. im savoring it so much, i just bit into the juiciest orange, the ripest strawberry, took a mouthful of the crispest apple cider ive ever tasted in my life--(sorry im low on sugar rn HAHA)

i have a lot to say. but not enough mental space to go through all of it...but i do want to mention how you wrote the retrospective scenes of blade being washed by kafka, it was captured so well. i know this kind of experience is very nuanced, and i think you expressed how blade processed it well. especially how this shows up in pieces thereafter in the rest of the fic, it's different from just mentioning or referring to a past moment. you threaded the experience to the present and from reading your works overall, i believe this is a "trademark" of your writing, at least to me.

the trademark is that there is purpose in every mention, there is delicacy in choosing a perspective and the lens in which the world is viewed or something is experienced by a character...there is a specific atmosphere, headspace, etc., that you want to convey and the entire thing is brought together with every sentence that follows the previous. youre making these connections, however small they may be, between shards of the characters' lives...it feels like you properly chewed them so you got the texture, flavor profile, salinity, etc., of those characters. it's what got me hooked onto you works, and im afraid (feral, positive) youre only getting better at it. im in trouble (eager) :D

this is small, but i personally love seeing purely from one chara's pov, i love unreliable narrator-esque stuff, it just tickles something in me, maybe bc life is THAT subjective to the one living it (also AP Lit was one of my fav classes back in hs, so is it rlly a surprise LMAO). i love connotations, questionable morals, existential dilemmas, all of it. and seeing that blade is full of the latter two, im SO up for it. i also love how he's constantly (unconsciously) trying to be mindful of the space he takes up, even if he chooses to not care for certain (most) ppl. idk, to me thats a testament to his previous life/experience, and it just adds lore (see what i did there :3) and depth to everything. and im so looking forward to see how he navigates and learns (pog self reflection!) about his violent urges/tendencies, and what they mean for him (and mc)--and even if he doesn't i am looking forward to your writing 🙏

this is not even 1/4 of what i wanted to say LMFAOO, but its 1am for me and i need some sleep...thank you for this lore. :) we are blessed to have you share your talent, its my spiders thread in the hellscape im in (life), love you always, stay healthy and happy lunar new yr if you celebrate!!

SLEEEPY 🥺!! thank you for the kind words!!!!! 🥺💕💕💕!!!!! i am screaming crying throwing UP i appreciate your feedback so so much!!!!!

rambling under the cut <3

writing blade for the architect has been both like.... deeply cathartic and so very different from any character i have written for!!! i don't write a ton in character POV, however blade's feels unique and interesting in a way that keeps me going back to him. the dynamic between blade and reader is so interesting to continue to revisit, and writing their relationship expand and change has been very fun!!

blade is truly monstrous, but not for any of the reasons he thinks. his monstrous is monstrous in the way that he shouldn't exist or be alive, and that he essentially a human weapon, but how he feels isn't monstrous. he's coping. poorly. and through centuries of compounded trauma and an accumulation of mara. he absolutely sees some of himself in reader and can't help but want to ... protect them? if nothing else be near them. it's horrific, the way he thinks, but not monstrous. and i think that's an important distinction in the architect!!!

blade is an incredibly unreliable narrator. it is integral to the story (moreso as we go on) that he is unreliable. his own confusion is woven into the plot and vital to his relationship with the reader. his feelings towards you are a tangled mess, and so much of that comes from his own fractured consciousness.

its been very fun to write and dive into it just like... explore. full send. i started the architect originally as a drabble that was supposed to be uneditted LOL and i didn't want to pull any punches with the implications and like... 'darkness' of the story. i'm glad that you have enjoyed it sleepy and THANK YOU for your comments and elaborations, they truly make my day and get me hype to continue the story too <33 thank you thank you thank you 💞💞💞

[oreosmama]

Just binge read what in a virtue help, I am not normal about how you write this man

✨ anon if you will because I feel like I'm going to yell at you more as soon as the third chapter comes out (if you're planing it, if not then for other fanfic you may have written)

Have a wonderful day because you have made my morning for sure 💖

AHHHH tysm ✨anon you can wreak havoc in my inbox any day. let us scream together about how much of a simp gaz can be at any given moment

[padfootastic]

Hey there ! I missed seeing your posts so I am glad you’re back : ) so last week I reread where you go, i'm going (because there's no me without you) and like I just love it so so much because the main character energy they exude is truly awesome, I mean it’s just so perfect. Also when Sirius took his shirt off so the attention was shifted from James 🥹 was adorable because they’re just always there for each other. I love this fic so much that I reread it so frequently (not just this one tbh I love all your other works too so thank you so much for writing them ) I just wanted to ask you do you have anymore tattoo related head canons ? Also sorry it turned so long

omg hi anon 🥺🥺 thank u so, so much!!! that fic is so dear to me bc i wrote it in one stretch in the notes app of my phone and just. it’s everything i love about j & s and fanfiction, i think. and dude, main character energy is so right??? like just casually reforming extremely advanced magic for no reason other than to fuck around???

(also please never apologise for the length of anything, i am the queen of rambling for no reason here so if anything, it should be saying sorry for making y’all go thru all mt word vomit lol)

as for tattoo related headcanons, hmmm, so. there’s this fic about harry & sirius & tattoos postwar, where each chapter just has more tattoo content lol it has pretty much most of my hcs in some form or the other. what else, hm.

- james’ first tattoo is for sirius, always. he wasn’t really interested in it but he wanted it to get thru sirius’ thick skull that he’s family, always will be, and if he had to mutilate his own skin to prove it, so he will. of course, after that he realised he actually quite liked it so he just. never stopped.

- i mention this in the fic but james is very proper, buttoned up, perfect pureblood heir types & doesn’t have any visible tattoos. (have u seen that ig trend where these super ripped, tattooed dudes do that thing where they’re all well dressed in the beginning and when the beat drops, they’re set against a light backdrop, shirtless, showing off an impressive collection of badass tattoos? that is james potter coded)

- sirius is def the kind of person who’s get inked without a second thought. he loves the pain, the little rush of adrenaline, the feeling of being alive that comes with it. he also gets a tattoo from every single country he travels to, without fail, as a way to preserve memories.

- these dorks def have a marauder tattoo that they get inked on a dare or sumn. surprisingly (or not), remus was the one most hesitant and who had to be pushed into it. peter, of course, was the most eager

- magical tattoos!!! just. so many of them. that’s the tweet. (again, this is in the other fic, but i’m kinda obsessed with runic tattoos that can double as conduits for magic? and j & s doing it on each other, at risk of actual, literal combustion and not caring about it bc they have the invincibility of teenage boyhood)

[earthtooz]

pls know that ur a literary genius. ur bluelock posts are pure gold 😣❤️

MOM… MOM… MOOOOOOOM I MADE IT ‼️‼️ I MADE IT ‼️‼️ *runs of screaming and crying*

[6okuto]

The way you go off about Leander makes me laugh LMFAO keep being you

HELPDFBJS bro if u think about it...this is not my fault. ur all feeding my brain worms im losing so much surface area to him up there. i have 5 asks just about this guy ANYBODY WANNA PICK SOMEONE ELSE?🤨 what about bokuaka🙁no one wants to talk about aki hayakawa making u breakfast in bed... all i have is magic yandere guy im shaking /J /NM

[apollos-boyfriend]

ICARUS YOURE SO FUCKIN AWESOME I have no idea how you’re able to make anything and everyone so interesting…. I’ll think I don’t care abt something then you rant about it and suddenly it’s beautiful and important. You’re so much fun too I absolutely love your artwork

WAHHHHHHHHH THIS IS SO SWEET IM i don’t even have words i am eating this ask forever and ever 🥹🥺🥹

[anonymous opinions ask game]

[girlboyzone]

your existence is really gender-affirming for me. if that makes sense.

live your life loudly.

this is seriously one of the sweetest things i’ve ever been told thank you so much :D wishing u all the best in your journey thru gender and identity and all that and i’m so glad i can be helpful u in that way just by being silly and myself online <3333!!!!!

[carcinized]

btw i want to say that if you’re still supporting dream after this for whatever reason get off my blog. engaging with dsmp content with some semblance of critical thinking is fine but if you’re defending dream rn (like the stupid #supportdream tag on twitter) get out

(more under cut w/ more details and my opinions on the situation, feel free to skip if you’re trying to distract urself rn tho)

like i know ive never liked dream & have been vocal with my criticisms of him for the past 2 years so i probably dont have too many dream stans who stuck around through my lame ass mcc crit but are still supporting him through THIS but i want to say it anyways. dream acted inappropriately with fans, CONFIRMED THAT HIMSELF, and even almost implied that he still responds to fans’ dms like this? whether or not the sexual implications are true, which to me it honestly seems like they are, i do not want to support someone who would have relationships with that sort of power imbalance & any of you who are still supporting him i dont want following me.

it makes me so mad that people are defending him?? he literally admitted to those instagram dms with Amanda meaning he admitted to giving her his private snap ? he mentioned that moving snap accounts likely triggered this CONFIRMING HE GAVE HER HIS PRIV SNAP & TALKED TO HER ON IT ? hi um thats the most irresponsible thing a content creator could ever do regardless of if he sexted with her and regardless of her age ??

and even besides that we KNOW hes irresponsible w/ his platform. weve KNOWN that. getting minors’ addresses doxxed bc he cant stand not responding to crit on Twitter? tweeting stupid ass fucking shit about smaller creators (scott smajor for example) and getting his army of stans to harass them? his general terrible fucking way of dealing with any sort of criticism? if we sweep this under the rug it will happen again but worse and worse. thats the pattern and honestly it sucks that people couldn’t see that until it came out that he groomed someone (possibly multiple people) and he was allowed to continue, but we cannot allow him to continue past this. it will only get worse

(i dont mean to downplay the severity of what hes done in regards to amanda by listing prior things but i just wanted to make the point that this is very much a pattern with dream. he does things like this, tweets a stupidass fucking response, deletes it, releases a twitlonger, then lies low until his fans forgive/forget. DONT LET HIM KEEP DOING THIS. NOT WITH SOMETHING THIS SERIOUS.)

okay sorry ive been trying to be quiet & not say rash things & spare people negativity but i do want to put this out there. anyways if you support dream after this get the fuck off my blog youre not welcome. thanks bye