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I had a dream in November that something was going to change, and I wrote down this date. My brother died on the 12th, but he was cremated on the 18th.
Somehow I knew.
I will never understand how something like this is possible, but the proof is right there. I had no idea what the change would be, but I knew it was coming. And I can honestly say that this has been my biggest life change so far.
#me#personal#not writing#tw death#not sure why I’m even sharing this#it’s just so freaking weird#how did I know?#it was a freak accident#but I remember waking up and just NEEDING to write down the date#I knew something would change and I knew I’d want to remember that I’d seen it coming#and yet I still didn’t#I had no idea this was what was coming#it’s been almost four weeks since it happened and it’s still surreal#it’s all just so unbelievable
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The true meaning behind FNAF princess quest
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#fnaf vanny#fnaf vanessa#fnaf gregory#princess quest#security breach#I actually really like princess quest#especially its main theme is so good#I haven’t done any comics on it just yet because I didn’t know exactly what to do#people still have pretty intense theory fights about PQ#which I never wanna step on toes I’m an artist not a theorist#BUT I GOT this idea#I never really considered how Gregory and Vanessa feel about the game?#I feel like Vanessa in some way knows it’s about her#BUT GREGORY? doesn’t see it#to him she’s nothing like princess BAHAH#TO BE fair she has tired killing him before#kid can’t help but be a lil blunt 🩵
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reading and watching “classic” books and films is such an interesting experience because, before you get into them, when you only know them by name and maybe the vaguest plot outline, they’re intimidating and stuffy and up on a pedestal, but then you finally take the leap and check them out and realize that almost every story that’s achieved such a legendary level of popularity did so because something in its emotional core reached out and grabbed a lot of people by the throat and you are NOT immune.
#not that anyone but me probably needs to hear this but…#it’s OKAY to have Big Feelings about popular things#they’re popular for a reason - it makes sense to have a big reaction#but yeah - i should really know by now but i’m STILL floored every time i read or watch a classic and it Gets Me#like. this story has been Getting people for decades or centuries or MILLENNIA and yet STILL i’m surprised#‘i didn’t think the story would Get me’ says man about story that’s Gotten everyone who’s ever heard it
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I’m getting major yearning vibes from these two. It’s giving hannibal and will. I wanna edit them in a sad edit with Casual by Chappell Roan playing in the background
#I’m still in episode 4 I didn’t finish it yet its quite boring so far I wish they wouldn’t make a season 3 lol#let the poor creator reat#squid game 2#squid game spoilers#squid game#squid game 2 spoilers
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And when you kiss me I am happy enough to die.
#my stuff#dragon age#varric tethras#varric#garrett hawke#hawke#hawke x varric#varrichawke#da2#varric x hawke#hawkevarric#ppl on Reddit said the Florence song is listed as varric’s theme and listening to it again made me so sad man damn#veilguard#I didn’t play it yet tho lmaoo#veilguard spoilers#it’s not related to this piece necessarily but strongly motivated me to draw this so please read A poem and a Mistake on ao3#it’s an amazing fic about them …. im still thinking about it……#datv#datv spoilers#fanart
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the most difficult thing about growing as a person socially, as in getting out of your shell and noticing that you are, is that there will still be times when it doesn’t feel like you’ve grown at all! times when you can’t really connect with anyone around you, times when you fail to enter into an existing conversation, times when you say the wrong thing (or nothing at all when in hindsight you probably should’ve). but that’s also kind of the best thing, because that’s the thing that helps you realize that sometimes, it’s not you or your lack of skills or any shortcoming. sometimes certain environments just aren’t for you and certain people aren’t your people, and that’s okay. that’s human. it’s okay to not feel the progress you have made all the time.
#and that goes for every type of growth#backstory of this post:#after I came back after a few months of doing my international internship I felt so much more confident#it was easier making friends and walking up to people#i took more chances#and generally just heard it a lot from those around me who kept telling me how much i’d changed#this was further supported by my first office job that went pretty well#but then came my grad internship. and while i love the work and have met some great people I noticed it was difficult again#there was one office lunch where no one spoke to me at all! it was my first week and I didn’t know what to say#if i should even say anything#we were all sitting at the same table#not one person even glanced my way#it made me doubt myself; i was doing so well before#was that even real? why can’t I just speak up? this is not the way to connect with people#especially in my first week!#but you know what#i was still doing well. i just had to factor in the fact that these were all middle aged people talking about reality shows i didn’t watch#and bikes i knew nothing about#as well as people who knew i was the new intern yet didn’t speak to me at all even though I’d introduced myself to them all individually#and even so#people I couldn’t really talk to about MY interests outside of work either#my point being:#it’s okay to not feel a connection with everyone you meet#it’s okay to fall back into old habits even though you’ve developed new ones#it will never unravel the process you’ve made and the connections you’ve built#you’re doing fine#after this internship I will surround myself with people who reaffirm that belief#growth in the self#self love#positivity
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Wait you guys are actually buying Disney products I thought it was a joke
(READ TAGS FOR FULL CONTEXT Sorry it’s long dies
#Honestly I’m only bothered bc I feel partially responsible (WTF EGOMANIAC OVER HERE)#I know I can’t control other people’s spending habits and my own habits are. Less than ideal !!#But when I wanted to spread my love for Wreck it Ralph I didn’t want people to get that takeaway 😔#IMPORTANT NOTE ‼️It’s okay to express your love for something through buying official things !!! That DOESN’T make you a “bad person” !!!#Still ! I think we have to let ourselves feel bothered by things and we need to be more critical of exploitative companies#Of course I chose to watch inside out 2 with my mom in theaters so I’m not immune lmao. Also using amazon / Etsy … just as a whole#But if you need help finding Disney movies without supporting them please just ask me!! PLEASE don’t use Disney+ if you can avoid it#I know we are all capable of finding our fulfillment from better places. But sometimes it’s hard#Capitalism sucks and yet that’s how we are endlessly pressured to live :(#We’re all at different points in our lives. Sometimes self care involves consumerism#Be hopeful that it someday won’t have to#Txt#again I’m sorry if this comes off as horribly egotistical to even consider being single-handedly responsible for#Social media is bad …. numbers bad…. Distorts reality and your perception of yourself…..#Or as me trying to guilt trip people in any way. Genuinely do what makes you happy but WE CAN BE HAPPIER & HEALTHIER I KNOW WE CAN#Wreck it ralph#Rant#Also sorry I have huge beef with streaming services I don’t mean to enforce that on other people but also. Sharing my opinion
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i’m still just thinking about how in apocalypse the thing that stops magneto from destroying the world is an edit of charles just seeing the good in him.
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not even his DEAD wife and daughter?
or maybe mutants from the brotherhood?
nope. charles
#i wonder if magda had to just deal with her husband bringing up this old friend of his#but like i love magda though she didn’t deserve to be fridged that quickly 💔😢#the writers failed in giving these guys beard they’re still gay af#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#magneto#moira caused most of the problems in this movie anyway#and yet charles is now randomly somewhat obsessed and checks in everynow and then?#girl she’s technically the reason ur bald and paralyzed#bro did not look interested when they kissed in fc#IF SHES GONNA BE A LOVE INTEREST DONT DELETE THE SCENES WHERE THEIR RELATIONSHIP DEVELOP?#petition to remake the x men prequel but cheeik are actually on screen lovers#i’m rambling in the tags lol#who’s still not over their ex? cherik
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(ACT 5 SPOILERS) Ageswap MDP Moments (RUH ROH)
#isat ageswap au#in stars and time#in stars and time game#in stars and time spoilers#in stars and time fanart#isat fanart#isat au#in stars and time au#isat spoilers#isat act 5 spoilers#the bitter ocean arts#digital doodle#digital sketch#digital drawing#digital art#I haven’t thought of a name for them yet but I wanted it to look like a fusion of all the kids Bonnie looks after#so the tail is loop the hat is Siffrin the glasses are Isa#the jacket is from Odile the outfit is Mira and the person itself/ hair style/ flower is meant to be nille#doesn’t have a mouth but it still can scream/cry#mainly just cries. can speak but it’s usually stuff along the lines of ‘help me’/ why didn’t you save’/ I’m scared’ soWOMP WOMP
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CBS Ghosts is my new guilty pleasure so take my new OCs. The Blanchet family were distant French cousins of the Woodstones who visited the house in the early 1900s, only for a violent house robbery to take the life of their youngest daughter, Mercedes, and her loyal self appointed guard dog, Horse. Only 8 years old, it takes some time for Mercedes to understand her fate, and for some time she’d be very distressed that her family seem to be ignoring her. On the bright side, the other ghosts are there to try and make things easier, though the misfit collective have a hard time caring for a child given their circumstances, and conflicting ideas on how best to raise a little girl.
Of all the ghosts, she is closest with Thorfinn. He has a soft spot for the little girl.
#‘why does her dog have an English name’ because he didn’t have one at first he was just dog. and then they died#and thorfinn who had watched this dog take a bullet in attempt to save his owner#took one look at this thing and went “’AHA! Dog strong like horse!’ and that became his name#he’s also a Great Dane#I chose these names for comedic effect due to all the confusion they could cause#Hetty: oh here comes the horse drawn carriage#Mercedes: horse cannot draw a carriage! he does not know how to hold a pen :(#also as the years go by people mistake Mercedes for a car lmao#and bc horse is a Great Dane she continuously mistakes Thor’s anti-dane rants to be about her dog#art#my art#digital art#fanart#doodle#drawing#cbs ghosts#ghosts#thorfinn#thorfinn ghosts#ghosts thorfinn#ghosts oc#cbs ghosts oc#she could also work for bbc ghosts but I haven’t finished that show yet#and honestly it’s not reaaaallyyy my sense of humour#there’s a lot I like more than cbs don’t get me wrong but in general I find shows where the humour comes from watching everything fall apar#more stressful than entertaining#but I still wanna finish it bc there’s a lot I like#anyways imagine cbs ghosts but in every other scene thorfinn has a child on his hip#oh also Pete becomes very attached to her once he shows up bc dad#OH AND she doesn’t speak much English at first but by the time sam and jay show up she’s actually pretty fluent
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can I get some beginner knitting pattern recommendations (preferably free)? Ive made a scarf, practiced rib and stockinette stitches, and frankly don’t know what to make next.
#knitting#knitblr#this is the best post I’ve ever made I keep getting great suggestions#I tried searching on ravelry but tbh I didn’t find any patterns that I both wanted to make and also had the ability to make#whether that meant the pattern was still accessible (some links were dead) or it required a tool I don’t have yet#(trying to make more than one project before I invest several dollars I don’t have into a new hobby lol)
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An excerpt from a fic I’m writing:
“DON’T-”
The Red Hood turned toward her so fast, he hissed as he felt a sharp pain in his side. Oh right. He’d been shot. Twice.
“Touch that.” Jazz finished quietly. She strode over to his bedside and sat down, revealing a first aid bag. She waited until he nodded his consent to check his bandages and started to change them.
Shit that hurt. Her touch was light but a bullet wound was still a bullet wound. In an attempt to keep his mind off of what she was doing, he asked about the object.
“What is it?” She looked up. He nodded his head toward the… whatever it was. He could have sworn it had a faint green glow around it now.
“Oh that.” She resumed her work while she spoke. “It’s highly contaminated. One touch and your food will come alive and attack you for days until it wears off.”
Ooookay. Not what he expected to hear. And she was so nonchalant about it.
“Really?!” He asked incredulously.
“No!” She finished wrapping his side with new bandages and moved on to his arm.
“I just don’t want you to touch it.” She said with a mischevious smile, then resumed her work.
He chuckled at that, then winced at the pain.
“Careful. Don’t tear the stitches I put in. I won’t do it again.”
#danny phantom#dp x dc#dc x dp#dp x dc prompt#jazz fenton#dp x dc crossover#jasmine fenton#anger management ship#hardcover ship#jason x jazz#jazz x jason#she didn’t mean to scare him#he was about to touch a ghost zone rock or something#I haven’t decided what the object is yet#but it definitely causes ecto-contamination#and she definitely told the truth then lied about it#because she’s pretty positive he won’t believe her#she’s right#for now#red hood still has his helmet on#she wasn’t about to try to take it off until he was conscious#anyway still a lot to write#but chapter 2 is well on its way now#half to death and back again#brainrot is real and I’m mad about it
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#this might be the most scribble thing I post here yet bahahahahahahahahahahaaha#I still like how the hands turned out even though I didn’t finish them😇#but it’s pretty messy and the hands might be the only part I like🥲#but since this blog is my art journey documentation here you are#I was pretty busy today so no good art but maybe tomorrow we’ll see#I am preparing things to FINALLY answer my asks🥹#& if you tagged me in anything I actually have been meaning to respond!!!!!!!! my notifications are the WORST and so confusing on here😵💫#and I’m technology grandma…#hope u all have had an amazing day !!!! 🫶#my brother in law has been fishing and catching SO MANY sargo#(sargo = sea bream for the animal crossing playing English speakers😙)#AND ITS LITERALLY SOOOOOOOOO DELICIOUS !!!!!#i cook it in the weirdest way possible#you just have to gut the fish and cut off its fins etc#then you put it in a wet salt bed and cover it up…cook it for 30 min…AND VOILA ITS DONE !!!!!#I don’t add any spices…NOTHING…and this fish literally has the taste and texture of crab covered in butter#LIKE…😳 it might be my favorite food/fav thing to cook these days bc it’s so easy and fresh caught fish is just delicious😫#well that was my grandma cooking show of the day👩🍳#now you know how to cook sargo a la sal 👩🍳#also going back to the drawing🥹 I just love these two so much…#I love thinking of sweet moments…most of my angst is confined to writinc😆#the chapter I’m writing right now is SO ANGST DEPRESSING (sorry Eloise)#it will get better…I promise…#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hogwarts legacy oc#hogwarts legacy mc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc
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so hey uh.
“I saw you.”
“Of course you did.”
this is Ed and Izzy’s relationship this season in the tiniest little nutshell and I am chewing concrete over it. just bash me in the head with a cannonball because the guy who’s known Ed longer and better than anyone else in his life, the guy who lost a fucking limb to Ed’s downward spiral is standing there still and saying to him it’s okay, I see all of you and I love you anyway.
I’m fine btw
#ofmd#our flag means death#ofmd s2#ofmd season 2#izzy hands#ed teach#izzy x ed#israel hands#edward teach#blackbeard#ed/izzy#steddyhands#steddy hands#izzy x blackbeard#I just love them your honor#and my first instinct after these eps was to feel cheated that ed and Izzy didn’t have a proper conversation#but I think that may still be coming in S3#and also goddamn it we got this moment#Stede doesn’t get it yet… but Izzy does. Izzy does.#chewing glass#screaming crying throwing up#blackhands#con o'neill#con o’neill#taika waititi
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Maya and Carina || Station 19 - 7.08 ‘Ushers of the New World’
#aaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!#been waiting for this for so long… 😭🥰❤️#although it is again a wordless montage and we still didn’t get a kiss or to hear them say ‘i love you’ yet#it's still them and their moment and i love it#just give me all the crumbs… i’ll take it#marina#maya and carina#maya x carina#carina x maya#maya bishop#carina deluca#station 19#station19#station19edit#danielle savre#stefania spampinato#tv: s19#mine#7x08#otp: you’re my home
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Calling it now - this episode is going to really play on the buck wanting kids and Eddie and his constant saving children (and his want for more kids) and play on them wanting to give kids what they didn’t get themselves as children - that’s why Eddie is always first in to save kids and why we’re getting a buck and Jee baking scene.
It’s all about parenthood - the desire to be a parent (to have their kid back).
I think the sperm donor arc might be coming back into play for buck - and be part of the issues that arise with tommy - buck wanting kids v Tommy not wanting them etc.
#I have sooooo many thoughts#yet I cannot srticulate them well#basically though buck will stop sacrificing part of himself for others wants - he will choose to pursue his happiness and kids are a part of#that which he won’t be able to compromise in#Eddie saving children do they can have a childhood when he didn’t get one is key to him understanding himself#and the Shannon Kim thing is a massive part of that - he was still a child when he met Shannon and it was a way to escape his childhood#Kim was him trying to escape his adulthood and his feeling un-repressing themselves and go back to that point in his childhood where he did#feel free and whole - when he didn’t have to face up to his queerness or his parents or being forced into adulthood too soon and too young#911 spoilers#eddie diaz#911 abc#evan buckley#buddie
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