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#google recommended me an article that was like ‘I make 350k a year but I’m paycheck to paycheck and life is so hard :c’ and I just#absolutely zero sympathy#you’re not poor you just fucking suck at managing your money#the summary for the article said they had 120k in car loans and 88k in student debt plus a mortgage and like#why did you buy such and expensive car and house then?#I make $500-ish a paycheck and I’m about to buy a house#I’m paycheck to paycheck too but at least I k ow how to fucking budget#like they literally make 10x more than I do- you ain’t struggling you’re just stupid#also like I get student loans are expensive and hard to control depending on what you want to do but also#big loans like that come from like state colleges and shit#some programs do cost that much but also a lot of times you’re just paying so you can say ‘I went to (popular college)!’#I researched and picked an affordable school with a good program for what I wanted to go for#four and a half years was $36k and I’ve paid it off#and I again I realize sometimes a cheaper school isn’t an option and the cost of a college degree varies by program#but like#I make like maybe $17k a year and my student loans are paid my car loan is paid and I’m about to buy a house#and yeah I’m paycheck to paycheck but like#idk someone who’s making 350k is struggling??? ?? ???#rich people are stupid
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Hello variously irresponsible fellow losers someone please give me the mental permission to spend money on things I want because I can afford it, it makes me happy, and I’ve earned all of the money for it. Just external validation because I Earned The Fun Thing. Please.
#chaoticbuggybitchboy#I earned the money with my big kid job and it’s to spend money on fun things for bands that I like#and there’s this stupid little voice in my head saying that I need to save my money because I don’t have very much#and sure yeah I shouldn’t be spending this much a week bc this is literally how much I make a week almost#<- it’s 1 day of work and I work three days per 2 weeks#so its 1/3 of my paycheck#which is not very much#I make like 150 dollars more or less I’m making minimum wage here#but yeah anyways I can afford a 50$ purchase of little treats once a year#esp since I’ll be able to get a job when I graduate and I’ll work the whole school year too#I don’t need to sit in the corner rocking over this#but uh yeah here I am
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If anyone has art requests for any of the anime I post about on here (tutu, utena, fma, madoka, etc), ESPECIALLY requests for something more painterly please let me know!! I can’t promise I’ll do them for sure, mental illness is absolutely sucking the creativity out of me rn, but I’d love to make something that would make someone happy, you know? Please don’t be shy!!
#if you’re feeling extra generous commissions for Palestine are open rn#though I get that people don’t have the money or are already contributing in other ways#hell when my next paycheck comes in I’m gonna get some esims#but yeah honestly I’m in a place rn where if someone is like wow I’d really love to see x#like I’d love to paint that art exists to make people happy you know??#I’m trying out a new art program that mimics traditional oil painting and I need practice so I’m especially looking for requests#that lean into the painterly aspect#lea talks#oh you can reblog this if you wanna so more people see it idc
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Still wild to me that strangers trust me enough to convince them to spend thousands of dollars
Sales is weird
#I’m like yeah you should spend 9000 dollars#you can trust me because my paycheck is proportional to how much you spend#void screams#i am trustworthy btw#it’s just weird ppl do it lol
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started thinking about gerwigs little women again and I just. I have no idea why it won best costume design, that was total bullshit, and I understand everyone around my internet liking the 1994 movie version better for multiple reasons, (especially how it’s obviously *such* a comfort movie and the costumes are incredible) but like. as a person who did not grow up with the 1994 movie and watched both of them back to back
gerwigs little women is an *incredible* film. and based on it’s merits as just, a film, I think it’s better than the 1994 one. liking the 1994 movie more is legit obviously but. the 2019 one is better.
gerwig took this story that is about and for women and looked at it through a contemporary lens and made an interpretation that just fucking floored me. jo’s “women…”-speech at the end of the movie?? the whole scene with lauire’s proposal where it’s so obvious and jo understands that it doesn’t matter how much she loves him, them getting married would ruin everything they have, but saying no *also* ruins it. that they’re both trapped in the roles society has given them and makes it impossible for them to be human with each other. that society makes it impossible for jo to be human - just a person. and it translates so well to modern audiences while still (in my opinion) preserving the spirit of the original. women want and need and fight and cry and love and they’re just… human.
also everyone in it really put their whole pussy in their performances
#meg in the 2019 one unfortunately can’t even hold a candle to the 1994 one#and I’m not gonna pretend ronan is *better* than ryder she’s just different#I think they’re both lovely#bale as laurie isn’t bad but he feels very much like he’s just doing a paycheck#chalamet acts like he’s in the oscar bait of the year like hot damn#but yeah the ‘women’ monologue is like….#gerWIG#little women#i’m not looking for beef I just love this movie and I think it’s so sad that it gets trashed for inaccurate costumes#and people liking the 1994 one more#which I get! absolutely! it’s a lot warmer and very nostalgic and gorgeous#but the 2019 is also incredible and I wish people would look at it for what it is instead of comparing
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shouldn’t have checked my bank account as expected my mother has taken thousands more dollars from my savings and has almost run me dry more or less. Cool!
#I’m going to fucking call the bank and ask about a second checking account because she’s never going to make her own fucking account#it’s been like a year since she said she would and it’s just not gonna happen#she owes me thousands of dollars via me paying her fucking overdraft fees and she always says ‘what you think I won’t pay you back?’ no!!!!!#no I don’t!!!!!!! because you literally never have!!!!!!!!!!!#and where the fuck are you going to get like 8000 dollars anyway. because that’s what she owes me at the very least#even if you want to factor in like. paying her monthly for the groceries she buys and cat food and whatever that’s still. thousands of#dollars. and the worst part about it is I just have no safety net anymore#because my savings is basically nothing at this point. like nothing that can help in a dire situation anymore.#I keep thinking about whatever im going to have to end up paying for top surgery and I WOULD have a significant amount saved up to#contribute to that but haha! no I don’t! it’s fucking gone!#and I’ve been getting paid basically fucking nothing lately because of how few hours they’re scheduling me so that does not fucking help#my last paycheck was literally like half of what I should be getting. I made like 1K in the past two paychecks. that’s fucking depressing#anyway I’ve given myself a headache#I’ve been avoiding looking at my bank account because I knew it would be bad and it’d stress me the fuck out but I also have been anxious#not knowing and my mother making a few vague comments that implied she must have fucked me over. so I checked today and yeah she sure did#if I don’t make a new checking account that she can’t access i am actually going to be broke within the nenxt few months at this rate#my head hurts and I am so upset I am so upset I work so fucking hard and it doesn’t even matter i just lose money constantly#I get nothing I just pay her fucking fees and pay for my tuition and pay for everything else of any significance#and I am not exaggerating I work my ass off. I am the only person I know at my job who begs to work holidays and extra days and stay as late#as possible and it . doesn’t even matter#im going to kill myself I swear to god. there’s shit I need to buy. what am I supposed to do.#kibumblabs#vent#like shit I need to buy for WORK. my manager is getting on me about not having proper shoes for example and yeah I can get a discount#through shoes for crews but I still dont have the fucking money for anything anymore#not unless I want to run myself into the fucking ground#I need a new binder badly. I need new black pants also for work since mine are so faded at this point.#I only have one fitted sheet that doesn’t have giant holes in it#I can’t stop thinking about my last paycheck it was literally the worst I’ve seen since starting this job a year ago. fucking infuriating
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i fucking hate my life.
one of the other tenants has been constantly turning the heat up to EIGHTY even though it hasn’t dipped below 40. this lead to the heating bill for the unit being like, $300 more than the rest of the boarding house.
so, since we are apparently untrustworthy children and not adults who can be reasoned with, the landlord came while tenant was at work and put one of those plastic locking boxes over the thermostat. tenant came home ranting and screaming, calling husband and me bitches repeatedly, yelling abt how he always gets the mail (?), screaming about how we went behind his back to the landlord (we didn’t), and then SLAMMED his door as hard as he could.
screaming and door slamming are so fucking triggering for me. i had a melt down verging on anxiety attack.
i absolutely Do Not Feel Safe Here.
#but it’s not like we can leave 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃#THIS IS WHAT WE MEAN WHEN WE SAY POVERTY IS FUCKING VIOLENCE#and of course we’re the only ppl we know who are struggling#so it’s not like we even have anyone to talk about how much it fucking blows to be poor#our friends all have houses and good jobs and multiple partners and vacations and social lives#and it’s so fucking alienating to have None Of That#it’s so fucking alienating to be like ‘oh u bought a house/had a kid/got a promotion/whatever#cool. i can’t afford groceries and i’ve been on one (1) vacation in 17 years#but tell me more abt how amazing ur life is yeah totally i love this#it gets harder 2 congratulate ppl on their successes when u have Nothing#when success seems to mock u by its absence#i run out of money between paychecks but tell me more abt ur bonus#i’m struggling to pay back the IRS for basic taxes but tell me more abt ur giant house#i hate myself i hate my life#and husband is like ‘I’m not gonna let Tenant scare u like this!’ ok??? ur never here#and if u confront him he will just wait til u r gone and confront ME#fuck#i hate everything#i’m so fucking tired of being poor.#I HAVE A FUCKING DEGREE WHY CANT I GET A FUCKING JOB!!!!!!!!!#but I don’t have a car so I literally can’t get a job 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃#how do u get a job when there is so little pub transit and everything is 5 towns away#how do u get a job in the us w/o having or being able to afford a car#jokes on me u don’t
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Was informed today that working 5 years at a nonprofit means I’m approaching my “expiration date,” “guess we’ll be saying bye to you soon!”
😂😂😂😂😂😂
#OMINOUS#this was not a coworker tbh just someone else in the industry#I think my response was something like WHAT AM I A CARTON OF MILK#I mean heck yeah just point me towards a higher paycheck and I mean I’m probably there#workplace comedy life#sparkly originals
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#Transitionary periods of life are So! Stressful!!#I hate getting texts and stuff from friends and family like ‘did you get into [prestigious university i applied for] yet?’#like. No! they only let in like 15% of applicants! it’s going to take them a while to decide!!#and their immediate follow-up question is ‘when will you find out?’#That information! is NOWHERE. on their WEBSITE!!!#plus we just had three snow days at work and I missed out on like 20 of my work hours for last week#so my paycheck is gonna be super slim on Friday!#and I have not bought groceries in a while!#thank god I have a remote job or I would probably be freezing my ass off in a tent right now! (woo precarious situations!)#oh. and I have my comprehensive exams to prepare for too.#I have three weekends to write three 5 page (single-spaced; 10 if they’re double-spaced) research papers#these three weekends will be happening in March.#that’s. not very far away from us right now. I got. a few weeks. tops. to prepare for this.#and I did do a lot of prep work already. I took a capstone course. I did an independent study#and I read a LOT of stuff about phonetics/phonology last month#but like. I won’t know the questions until the weekend I have to write the paper. 5 pages in 2 days. that’s stressful.#i am suprised I’m not wearing a rut in the floor from pacing so much!#I will be going insane. through no fault of my own. (unless you count giving up a cushy job and moving internationally a fault? yeah ok)
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My dad has Covid again, and I have a feeling that my mom and I probably do too since we all live in the same house, his symptoms started Friday but he didn’t test until like 10 minutes ago and has just been sitting in our living room unquarantined from us, so I feel like I should just go ahead and call into work
#which is fucking annoying because first thing yesterday morning when I saw him and he sounded HORRIBLE & then started with this awful cough#i told him to test and he made dumb excuses about it even though we had a spare rapid test#so now I’ve probably got it which means I have to call out of work this week which sucks for my paycheck#but also sucks for my job because we have legitimately 3 people that open regularly (including me) and one of the others is on vacation like#out of the country all week#so they’re kinda fucked#but I’m feeling congested#my mom kept saying ‘it could just be a cold your dad gets a cough when he has a cold’ but not like this! this cough sounds the same as the#last time he had Covid!! which I said it then too that it was a Covid cough and not his normal one#so yeah but at least if I’ve got it I’ll have nothing but time this week to finish up the Haechan fic and read some books
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I’m so hashtag spontaneous I’m going to a concert 4 hours away with my friend on literally This Tuesday
#she texted me like hey you like shinedown and 3 days grace? and I’m like hell yeah let’s do it#and the week before finals….. I gotta live a little right??#diary post#the tickets are gonna be expensive for me but whatever I’m about to get paid a fat paycheck#and summer is about to start and I’m working more hours for more wage so I’m okay spending 50 bucks on some random fuckin Tuesday!
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Why have they not made pants that don’t tear yet I haven’t even owned these jeans for a year and they’re completely shredded >:(
#rambles#guess I’m back to one pair of pants now so that’s fun#I’m gonna save the fabric from these ones for sewing but ugh#it’s gonna be a couple paychecks before clothing is in the budget so this just sucks >:(#personal I suppose#also I know they make like patches or smthn for these scenarios but the texture of them#make me want to die so yeah
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so! my job just subtracted a whole dollar per hour from my pay without even fucking telling me (in addition to the $60+ in conveniently ‘lost’ tips)! i feel as though i am going insane!
#and they like me?? they say i do a good job and the co-manager said i match his energy etc?? and i mean they see how i bust my fucking ass#all of the time so like….#I DONT UNDERSTAND THIS LOL. i pour so much energy into this job and honestly i am just feeling quite fucking done!#i missed my window to apply for the most perfectly located post office clerk job the other day btw. why? bc i had to work a long shift ALONE#while we were at capacity; and i was so fucking tired that i just collapsed when i got home and missed my window. (the time available to app#ly to post office jobs is always so forking short.)#and like#that very day i had an anxiety attack in the parking lot and kept feeling like no i can’t fucking do today. i do not have this in me. but i#felt guilty about putting my coworker on the spot so i was like okay. i just have to go in and be conscious and get paid. and then ofc the#second i walk in there - still crying - i have 1000 things to do to just keep things Mildly running bc no one from laundry was even on shift#and i was alone back in aquatics etc etc.#i had zero energy that day and yet i still gave that fucking job my all and it wore the FUCK out of me and now i get my paycheck and it’s li#ke. okay so this is what i get for all that?? a pay decrease without notice and tip theft. what the fuck you absolute fuckers.#SIGH so i’m going to have to find the time to talk to my boss#but i know he doesn’t have enough power to actually influence my pay or whatever so i might have to go talk to his boss (who dislikes me) so#yeah!#yeah! yeah#um in positive news#i think i’m going to go get myself a bagel. one of the fancy ones that’s $3 at the bagel bin.#so yeah. bagels are good.
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idk who needs to hear this but stop adopting animals if u can’t afford to feed urself
#got to thinking abt someone i knew like. 10 years ago ish?#who lived w their parents and two brothers and they were literally paycheck to paycheck#but also kept adopting animals left and right. dogs. cats. rabbits. guinea pigs.#and then kept saying they didn’t have any money to feed anyone….#like ur Current Pets? yeah i get that. animals u have bonded with are important#but don’t add More New Animals to the roster. i’m begging u
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Had a long ass intake appointment for an outpatient program and it ended with the clinician basically saying “yeah you’re really autistic” and then recommending I apply for the program. The appointment wasn’t even supposed to be about my autism it was a mental health crisis evaluation…
#🌱.txt#like every question after i answered he would just be like hmm yeah that’s probably your autism#my autism is making me think I’m being watched my hidden cameras and being tracked by people?#my autism is the reason I get violent thoughts and urges?#are you absolutely sure it’s the autism that’s making me hallucinate bugs crawling up my legs?#I’m not making it to this program either way I would have to take of 5 weeks of work and I can’t do it paid#I’d be without income for over a month and I don’t even live paycheck to paycheck it’s way worse than that#I have to beg for money from my partners to make ends meet every month#I just want help#like real help that will make me able to live normally#and not be terrified of leaving my house bc someone will kill me or I’ll kill someone#I hate being fucking crazy!!!!
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there’s nothing like working your job for a week straight to make you realize you actually don’t have the same passion for your job that you used to when that was the main reason you kept doing it
#lowkey debating finding a new job because i worked all of last week and my paycheck came in and it was NOT worth it#like when work was fun i was like ‘hell yeah i’ll work for a week with ppl i like at a job i like idc about the money’#but now it’s more like ‘i don’t like these people since all the ones who made this job fun left and the week of minwage isn’t worth it’#and when gas for your car is more than a hour’s pay when you have to drive .5 hour to get to work? yeah idk if i wanna do this anymore#maybe i just tell my boss i’m leaving after the summer ends even though i filled out my availability till december :/#job#minimum wage
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