#and whiny as hell about it

[plutonianplaything2]

do i get jealous over someone flirting with MY mutual? yes but that is none of your business

[colorisbyshe]

new type of haterism unlocked: when i'm told a woman is Redefining Music and you just muuuust listen to her because she just like Really Gets It

and then all of her songs just sound like slow + reverb mixes from youtube

but like... in an early florence welch kinda way

and it's like sure i guess she sure is sad and angry in a relatable way but can we zhuzh it up a bit

can we get a good beat in here or something

[dirkxcaliborn]

I think the next time I graduate, I'm bringing sunglasses, stronger earplugs, and noise cancelling headphones because holy shit is it overstimulating as hell lol

[after-witch]

Omg don’t mind me, I was just looking through your masterlist and I really needed to tell you how much I liked the way you formatted and put everything together. 🥹 Tbh it gave me some serious nostalgia for old fansites from the 90’s and early 00’s, especially with some of those titles I peeped! The only thing you’re missing is a few low quality jpegs lol aaaaand I may or may not be pining for Geocities now, which I’m absolutely going to blame you for xmdmdsmw

But no in all seriousness, I’m so glad a mutual reblogged that Hisoka commission you posted and I was able to catch it on my dash. I’m going to take some time to further peruse your masterlist tomorrow but please know that I’m super excited to read more of your works! I’m very impressed so far!

oh thank you for such a nice message!!

LOL thank you. I miss old anime fansites... custom headers (with or without fanart drawn by the 15 year old webmaster) for every link, endless quizzes, the weird text emoji things, rambling from the webmaster on every page with many dubious stories to try to faux brag about things, characters talking with the webmaster...

I can see it now for my masterlist, really:

These are my Chrollo fics I hope you like them my teacher saw me writing them and was like "I think you could get this published!!" ^^;;; Chrollo: "There are a lot here. You seem a bit obsessed with me." Shhhhhhh and I'll give you a nice book to read later. Chrollo: **annoyed sigh** Fine.

I weep. Nostalgia and cringe perfectly mingled...

I had some Geocities sites, but for the life of me I can't remember what they were about now.

Also NGL my masterlist is several months out of date but I am forcing myself to get that updated this weekend, lol.

But ahh I'm so glad you liked my Hisoka fic! I hope you find other stuff you like! \o/

[bookmark-extraordinaire]

I hate when people say that talent does not exist.

“Uhm sweaty, just draw everyday and you’ll get better, art is 80% practice anyway” bitch I’ve been working on that 80% for years now, it’s that last 20% I’m missing, and I always will. Fuck you. There will always be something too difficult for me to grasp, or something that comes natural to somebody else that I will never be able to replicate, no matter how much practice I do or how many references I use.

I feel so worthless sometimes. Seeing so many younger artists breeze past me in terms of talent, speed, anatomy etc. Maybe I should just find a real job and just keep art as my side hobby instead of trying so hard to make it my profession. My art is way too mediocre, it’ll never be profitable. Nobody cares.

Sometimes I wonder if my style is just missing something. A spark, anything that will get people interested. People look at my art for a whole 2 seconds, leave a like, then forget about it. I’m so tired. I hate complaining but it kinda does suck when you’ve been making art for literal years and never even had a commission. Not even a pity donation on Kofi. But no, the only time my art gets noticed is when I’m doing things for free.

“Oh but you shouldn’t think about money when making art, you should create for yourself first!!!” Shut up. I’m so tired. I’ve done everything wrong. Art was never my path in the first place no matter how much I wanted it to be.

“Oh just practice harder you’ll see the results!” Bitch what do you think I’ve been doing for the past 13 years? Just bang your head against a wall harder, maybe this time you’ll have your big breakthrough! God I’m so tired. I wonder how many people will notice if I stopped posting art completely

[allyouzombies]

my sister, my parents, my friends tell me I was cheated, having to do all but my first semester of grad school during covid, and that I graduated supposedly more employable into the clusterfuck of may 2021. usually I feel resigned to it at much as anyone else does to the first few years of the pandemic. it sucked and everyone was numb.

but sometimes, like when I see happy pictures of friends and family who got their masters and phds pre-pandemic, carrying diploma covers and in the ugly robes with their most loved surrounding them in celebration, I do feel pretty fucking bitter. it does make me feel cheated that my sister and I were first generation college students, graduate students, and my sister an entire fucking doctor of her field, and we didn't get to have our families or anyone celebrate at our schools. nobody traveled out to Iowa because I told them not to, and I didn't go to my own graduation when that kind of ritual means a lot to me, and I didn't buy or rent robes or a cap or a tassel, and I didn't walk anywhere or commemorate the day. what I did was post to my instagram story once I submitted my final project, and I bought a departmental cardigan, and as a member of the LIS student org exec board, I drove all over the county delivering cardigans to others. my family and friends and J were still proud, and I was happy with myself, but yes! yes I did get cheated!

[cashmonei]

Hey Normal Guys who follow me and arent into warriors. dont look at the warrior cats fandom on here's latest opinions about alderheart and tigerheartstar and also the new arc in general. Like half of them are still misogynists and the other half are currently drinking terf koolaid. Do not look @ their opinions just look atthe cool art and stay oblivious 👍

[dirt-str1der]

Whatever

[sweetest-honeybee]

Looking back through my gallery at a ton of old sanders sides art, especially the whole fusion thing, I’m so curious to see how a lot of them would look in my current style 👀

[jupiter-balls]

I really want to go outside but it's 93(34) today so I'm not risking it. Summer is officially here and I'm not happy, fuck this shit 😫

[crystallllines]

is this a migraine or am i just existing in period hell

too anxious to lie down and nap, too headachy to sit up

also too cold to sit up hot damn i want to be in bed right now but because i’m a fidgety mess & Jack is still sleeping, i Cannot

Also cannot due to restless cat syndrome; ie, if i’m not watching him, he’s gonna keep trying to creep upstairs to bother despereaux

[bisexualobiwankenobi]

A playlist, in honour of flintcoded and his Anakin post, with songs that make me think of Anakin Skywalker // Darth Vader

// Burning Alive - 8 Graves // Malevolence - Acacia Ridge // Sweet Dreams of Otherness - Alexisonfire // Boden - Amenra // Sleep Now - Angelspit // Animals - Architects // Riot! - Arrested Youth // Show Me How To Live - Audioslave // A Dangerous Thing - AURORA // Glitter & Gold - Barns Courtney // This Night - Black Lab // Degausser - Brand New // Heavy Is The Crown - Daughtry // Day I Die - DeathbyRomy // I Feel Like A God - DeathbyRomy // The Curse - Diary of Dreams // Bring Me To Life - Evanescence // Centuries - Fall Out Boy // Soldier - Fleurie, Tommee Profitt // Drumming Song - Florence + The Machine // Blood Water - grandson // Gasoline - Halsey // Orphan - Holy Wars // Warrior - Holy Wars // Arsonist’s Lullabye - Hozier // Ready For Combat - Icon For Hire // Bones - Imagine Dragons // Half God Half Devil - In This Moment // Worldwide Torture - Jazmin Bean // The Imperial March - John Williams // Burn - King Woman // Coming Undone - Korn // Art Deco - Lana Del Rey // Dark Matter - Les Friction // By Myself - Linkin Park // In The End - Linkin Park // Breaking The Habit - Linkin Park // How Villains Are Made - Madalen Duke // Depraved - Mammals // IN NOME DEL PADRE - Maneskin // The Hearse - Matt Maeson // Tear Me To Pieces - Meg Myers // The Sharpest Lives - My Chemical Romance // Mama - My Chemical Romance // Head Like A Hole - Nine Inch Nails // Antagonist - Nova Twins // Black Sheep - Palaye Royale // Counting Bodies Like Sheep - A Perfect Circle // Devil in the Details - Placebo // Where Is My Mind - Safari Riot // Black Hole Sun - Soundgarden // Endless War - Within Temptation // Napalm - Zheani //

[tardis--dreams]

My mother complaining about me not getting better- like, I'm sorry? I already feel guilty as hell you don't need to remind me??

[a-tiny-sloth]

they should invent an academia without the fucking exams

[pastaprimavera]

i hate trying to research ashkenazi-centrism in jewish media representation and finding people just..literally repeating antisemitic talking points

[lesboylycan]

when we're finally living with our friend (or, honestly preferably, on our own--but that's probably not happening unless we get lucky), we are not making/eating boxed noodles anymore lol