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Such A Mystery - Part 10
Pairing: Max Verstappen x Colette Leclerc (Original Character)
Summary:
Max Verstappen fell in love at the ripe old age of 12 and never looked back.
Colette Leclerc really regrets posting that particular Taylor Swift Lyric to her private Instagram account, because it made George Russell go insane.
The rest of the world has absolutely no idea that the Dutch Lion and Charles Leclerc’s twin sister have been a couple for 15 years and are expecting a baby.
Warnings:
Pregnancy, Mention of multiple miscarriages, Pregnancy complications, George Russell Bashing (he's probably really nice in real life but in this, he's the bad guy, sorry), Jos Verstappen, We have apparently now reached the time where I also bash Ferrari. I am sure they are super nice in real life too. They are not in this. Labour.
Author Notes: Huge thanks to @llirawolf for holding my hand through this. Chapter 10 of 12!
“Breathe,” Victoria kept insisting.
“You are doing so well, Choupinette,” her mother cooed.
Colette was quite certain that she was going to die.
At least it felt like it.
The pain was overwhelming. It didn’t feel like her body could take any more of it. The contractions were so strong and the pain was blinding in its intensity. She wasn’t certain if she could do this anymore.
“I can’t do this,” Colette choked out.
“Yes, you can,” Victoria insisted. Her voice was firm and steady. “You absolutely can do this. You’re already so far along, you just have to push. You can do this.”
"Just breathe," her mother said soothingly, stroking back her hair. "You are doing so well."
But she wasn’t doing well.
She wanted Max. No, she needed Max.
She needed him so badly. She didn’t want to do this by herself.
Colette cried out in pain as another very strong contraction hit her, clenching her teeth through it. "Max," she sobbed. "I need Max."
"I know," Victoria said, stroking her hand. "I know you do. But you can do this. Just a little bit longer, okay? It won’t be long now."
She didn’t want to do this without him. But what other choice did she have?
A strangled sob escaped her throat as she clutched her mother’s hand desperately as another contraction hit.
“We’re going to need you to push now,” the doctor said firmly. “You need to start pushing with the contractions.”
Colette cried out in pain as she tried her very best to push like they were telling her to. The pain was blinding in its intensity. But it hurt. Gods, it hurt more than anything that she had ever experienced. It was like her body was about to rip itself in half.
"You’re doing so well," her mother cooed.
"Keep Pushing."
Another strangled scream escaped her. "Max," she sobbed. "I need Max. I need him. I can’t do this.”
Victoria stroked her hair. "It’s almost over, Colette. It’s almost over. Just a little bit more," Vic promised her.
Colette wanted to give up, she wanted to give in. She wanted the pain to end. But more than anything else, she just wanted Max.
Another scream was torn from her, a ragged cry of pain as a particularly severe contraction tore through her. She was certain that she wasn’t going to survive this. The pain was too severe.
"Keep Pushing."
"Keep Pushing."
"Push, Push, Push"
She didn’t understand how they expected her to keep going. She could feel herself flagging, she was so exhausted.
The room was a blur around her, dark spots dancing at the corner of her vision. The sound of her own screams echoed in her ears, the pain almost overwhelming. She thought she was going to pass out.
She heard the door open.
A small part of the pain-hazed part of her mind registered the sound. She thought she was hallucinating. Surely that wasn’t the sound of the door opening. Surely she was just losing her mind under the excruciating strain.
“That took you too fucking long,” Victoria snapped. Colette would have smiled, if she hadn’t been currently in the middle of pushing. Max's familiar voice echoed in her ears, and for one sweet second, the pain all but vanished.
And then he was there. Her heart jumped and a small sob escaped her. Max. It was really Max. He was there. He was right beside her.
Dry lips pressed against her sweat slick forehead. “Liefje.“
He was there. He was really there.
"Max," she sobbed out. "You’re here. You’re really here."
"Of course I am," he said shakily. He pushed back her sweaty hair from her forehead. "You didn’t think I was going to let you do this without me, do you?"
She wanted to tell him that, in all honesty, she had thought exactly that. If he hadn’t shown up, she would have had to do this without him. But she was too exhausted, and in too much pain to form the words. All she could do was clutch at his hand, desperately clinging onto him like a lifeline.
Max immediately threaded his fingers through hers, holding her hand tightly. "I’m right here," he soothed. "I’m not going anywhere.” He was giving her something solid to hang onto.
“Another push,” the doctor encouraged.
With Max holding her hand, Colette gave one last, desperate push.
She was certain that she was going to pass out. She didn’t understand how she was still conscious. The pain was mind-numbing in its intensity. "Once more,” the doctor said firmly. “I can see the head. Just one more push.”
Colette whimpered, her breath coming in short sharp sobs. "I can’t,” she cried in exhaustion. "I can’t."
"You can,” Max said fiercely. “You are the strongest goddamn person I know, and if anyone can do this, it’s you. Just one more push, come on, liefje."
His grip on her hand was so tight, it was almost painful, but that brief moment of pain was worth it. Feeling Max's presence beside her, holding onto her so desperately with his fingers threaded firmly through hers, it was the only thing that gave her the last little bit of strength that she needed.
With a long, ragged scream, she gave one last push, pouring everything she had into it.
She could hear Max beside her, talking to her soothingly, but the words were all blending together. Her senses were slowly fading. "Push, you can do it, you’re almost done." The words were coming at her from all sides now, swirling and echoing amongst the darkness of her hazy vision, and it was all she could do to grip Max’s hand, and listen to the sound of his voice.
And then it was over.
The searing pain suddenly stopped.
For just a moment, everything was quiet.
A cry cut through the sudden silence
The sound echoed around them, small and shrill and so very loud in the stillness of the room. A choked gasp of relief escaped Colette as she slumped back against the pillows, utterly exhausted.
"There you go," Max murmured, gently wiping back the hair from her forehead. "It’s over, it’s over now. You did so well, liefje. You’ve done it."
She wanted to speak, to say something to him in return, but her tongue was so heavy in her mouth it would hardly form words. Her mind was still a blur of exhaustion, relief and adrenaline. All she could muster was a small whimper as she felt his hand gently stroking her hair.
The sound of the infant’s cries rang out again, more strongly this time. “Here,” the doctor said, sounding a little amused. “Let’s get that little girl on maman’s chest.”
Through the haze, Colette felt an immense amount of exhausted relief, as the doctor carefully placed a small, wiggling bundle on her chest.
The baby was beautiful. Small and new and perfect, and Colette felt like the very breath had been knocked out of her. All the exhaustion and the pain was suddenly entirely worth it as she cradled the tiny baby in her arms.
"Hello, bébé," she breathed softly, the words coming out as a whisper. “I thought you were going to be a boy,” she choked
A broad smile covered her face as she gently stroked the downy soft tufts of dark hair covering the baby’s head. The small, tiny, perfect little fingers wrapped around her own, and Colette’s heart felt so full it felt like it was going to burst.
"I was right," Max said, the words somewhat choked. His voice sounded almost strangled, and she didn’t need to look to know that there were tears running down his face.
Colette looked up at him then, taking in with a mixture of affection and amusement how utterly awestruck he looked. He was crying openly, tears running unashamedly down his cheeks.
“We did it,” she told Max.
“We did,” He said, his voice still choked with emotion. “She’s so beautiful.” Max sounded utterly wrecked.
Colette couldn’t help but share his feelings as she looked back down at the baby in her arms. The small infant had opened her eyes for a brief moment, revealing the most vividly blue eyes that Colette had ever seen. “She got your eyes.”
“And your hair,” Max said, reaching out a hesitant hand to touch the soft dark locks on the baby’s head.
The baby gave a little gurgle, waving her tiny hand as if to reach out for his fingers. “Hello, mooi meisje,” he said softly, his voice still sounding a little choked, as the baby tried to wrap her fingers around his own.
"She's absolutely perfect," Colette whispered, unable to tear her eyes away from the tiny, perfect bundle of joy in her arms.
"Just like her mother," Max said, his voice hoarse. He stroked his finger down the baby's soft cheek, the most gentle of touches.
***
In the end…he made it with minutes to spare.
He couldn’t describe the relief that he felt when he finally burst through the door, to find Colette in the midst of giving birth. He had been so terrified that he wouldn’t make it in time.
And now here he was, sitting beside her on the bed, their daughter in her arms, safe and sound and utterly, utterly perfect.
He couldn’t tear his eyes away from the sight of them both. Colette was beautiful, despite looking utterly exhausted. Her face was pale and slick with sweat, but she had never look more lovely.
And their daughter… Their daughter was perfect. Tiny, and new, the sweetest thing that Max had ever seen. He gently ran his finger down her soft, plump cheek, marveling at the sheer fragility of her.
And he couldn't stop crying. This was his family. His.
They had hoped so desperately for so long, and now there was their little girl. And she had been worth it. Worth all the heartbreak.
His eyes stung and his throat was constricting, but he couldn't help it. He knew he must look a mess, tears running unashamedly down his face and throat choked up, but it didn't matter. None of it mattered. They were here, and safe, and together.
He looked down at the baby’s tiny, perfect face, her closed eyes, her nose. She had Colette’s hair, and his eyes, and Max thought that if it was possible to die of love, he was dangerously close to that moment right there.
He reached out a shaking hand to touch his daughter’s tiny fist, his own hand dwarfing hers. She opened her eyes again for a brief second, and he could have sworn that she smiled at him for just an instant.
The tears ran more freely down his face now at that thought. His daughter, his little girl, his precious perfect baby, smiled at him. It might have just been a trick of his own overjoyed emotional state, but right then, Max was convinced that it had been a real smile.
"She's perfect, liefje," he whispered, his words coming out a little choked. "She's so damn perfect.”
"Dad, you want to cut the cord?" the doctor asked him.
The question seemed to take a moment to register in his hazy emotional state, but when it did, Max’s breath caught in his chest for a moment. And then just as quickly, he nodded mutely.
In a daze, he reached for the small pair of scissors that the midwife handed over to him, cutting the umbilical cord under her careful supervision.
He was in a daze, even when they took his daughter from Colette to check her over and bath her. "Stay with her," Colette told him softly. "Go on."
Max nodded, unable to find the words to answer to her. He stood up on slightly shaky legs, watching as the midwife took his daughter over to the small bassinet and started to check her over.
He couldn’t tear his eyes away from the sight of his baby, tiny and perfect and theirs. All the years of trying, all the hope and the heartbreaks, and now there was their little girl, safe and sound.
He got to watch her be bathed and then swaddled right into a soft pink swaddle that he knew he himself had bought because Colette kept insisting that it was a boy...and then he finally got to hold her in his arms and cry some more, because she was perfect.
He cradled her small, tiny form in his arms, his fingers trembling a little as he gently touched the soft downy skin of her cheek. Her weight was barely anything at all in his arms, and for a moment, terror gripped his heart. Was he holding her too hard? What if he hurt her?
"You aren't going to hurt her," Victoria said suddenly and he stared at his sister that sat down next to her. "You aren't. I promise you. Babies aren't as breakable as they look," she teased him softly. "Congrats, Maxie."
Max nodded, a little startled. He had honestly forgotten that his sister was even there, the arrival of his baby girl had taken up most of his attention.
"Thanks, Vic," he managed, his voice still choked.
He looked down at the baby in his arms again. They had wrapped her tightly in the pink swaddle that he himself had insisted on months ago. He had been so sure that the baby was a girl. And he had been right.
He wouldn't have cared either way, but...he had been right.
"She's perfect," he whispered, his eyes burning.
Victoria smiled, watching him with a softness in her eyes that Max wasn't sure he had seen before. “You’re a father,” she said simply. “How does it feel?”
“Like my heart’s going to explode with pure happiness,” Max admitted, looking back down at his daughter in his arms. “Like I can’t breathe. Like I’m dreaming. I don’t…I don’t know how to describe it.”
"Welcome to the sleep deprivation community that is parenthood," Vic joked softly. "You are going to be the best father," she told him.
It made him choke up. That absolute certainty with which his little sister said that, a hand on his shoulder. "You are going to be the best father to her," Victoria promised him fiercely.
Fresh tears welled up in his eyes as he looked up at his sister. “I’ll do my best,” he managed to say, his voice a little choked. “I’ll do absolutely anything for her, for both of them. Anything in the world.”
They didn't often talk about their childhood...about all the things that had gone down...the long drawn out screaming matches they could remember before their parents had divorced and the separation that came afterwards...
They didn’t like to talk about it. It was one of those things that they usually just skirted around, because when they brought it up, old feelings and emotions came up with it. And the fights weren’t pleasant to remember...
But in that moment, Max felt a profound sense of relief. For the first time, he was glad those fights had happened, because if they hadn’t…he and Vic wouldn’t have the relationship they had now, and he wouldn’t have learned, from all of the pain and heartbreak of those fights, what not to do. He never wanted his daughter to grow up like that. He never wanted her to feel the pain of a broken family like they had.
And he knew that he would do absolutely everything in his power to prevent that from happening. He and Colette would keep their family tightly together and protect and love their little girl with everything that they had.
No matter what.
A fresh wave of tears welled up in his eyes at the thought of that. "I don't ever want her to grow up like we did, Vic," he managed to say, the words still a little choked. "I don't ever want her to feel like we did."
"She won't," Vic assured him, her voice still soft. "Because you're going to be a great father. She'll grow up feeling loved and wanted and safe. I know that, Maxie."
His throat felt as if it was slowly closing up. "Thanks, bink," he managed to say, his voice cracking. "It means a lot. I..." His eyes stung, and he swallowed hard. "I couldn't ever thank you enough for being here. For being with us."
For coming even when he handn’t asked…for somehow knowing without being told what they needed.
His sister just smiled at him, her blue eyes, so similar to his own, sparkling. "She’s my niece," she reminded him. "You're not getting rid of me. I'm going to spoil her rotten, you know that?"
"You are going to have fierce competition, Victoria" Pascale said softly.
He looked up to where Colette's mother was tucking her own daughter back into the bed, fussing over her. Colette looked better than she had before, freshly showered, still exhausted, but no longer...no longer looking like she was going to faint any minute.
Colette was already sitting up, even though she would be in pain for a while, a testament to her usual stubbornness.
"Maxie." Colette didn't need to say more than that, as he stood and crossed the room, safely putting their daughter back on her mother's chest.
He sat on the edge of her bed, careful not to jostle her too much. "Hey," he said softly, wrapping an arm gently around her shoulders. "How are you feeling, liefje?"
"I'm okay," she said softly, resting her head weakly against him. "Sore. Tired. Happy. Went through 6 hours of labour, only to give birth to your and Charles' clone," she said drily, making her mother laugh.
Max smiled faintly, resting his head against hers. “Charles?” he said, a hint of amusement in his voice.
"She does look awfully similiar," Pascale agreed.
Max gave a small laugh, glancing back down at the baby. He supposed there was a resemblance, if one knew what to look for. “She’s not a clone,” he countered, a note of mock offense in his voice. “She’s a perfect mix of us.”
"With what I am pretty certain is Charles' nose," Colette said drily.
Max laughed faintly, reaching out to gently touch the baby’s tiny nose with his finger. It narrowed just so at the tip… “Maybe,” he conceded thoughtfully.
His daughter stirred faintly at the contact, a small noise coming from her mouth that sounded a bit like a grumble. Max smiled at the sound.
“And I’m pretty sure she’s just as stubborn as her mother,” he teased Colette.
She reached up to lightly smack his hand, but her smile was fond. “Like you aren’t just as stubborn,” she retorted.
Their daughter took that moment to complain loudly for once and Colette shifted her slightly, unbuttoning her pyjama top. At least one thing went down with absolutely no fuss whatsoever. A few minutes later, their daughter had greedily nursed, burped and was back to slumbering quietly.
"Are the three musketeers still outside?" Colette asked.
“They are,” Max confirmed, brushing a strand of hair back from Colette’s face. He had all but forgotten about Colette’s brothers.
"Get them," Colette said softly.
Max smiled. "All of them?" he teased. He knew that was exactly what she had meant."All of them," she nodded.
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I am begging for more invisible monsters 🙏🙏🙏
Sure!
Invisible Monsters Pt 8
MTMTE Megatron x Reader
• Aware of the sound of himself venting, of his systems trying to cool himself off as those soft fingers slide against him. Trace along seams and old scars. Hesitantly sliding down his chassis, but don’t go any further down. Shying away from his pelvic plating as you avoid his optics. His own servos trace the line of your throat. Little touches becoming torture. And you shift where your lying stretched out on your side not quite pressed against him, your thigh sliding against his. Again. Every intake filled with you, tempting him as badly as those soft touches.
• Why can’t you just say it? Say you want him? When he’d loomed over you, optics brighter than normal and pinned your wrists, you’d felt molten with need under him. But he’d stopped. Making you think he’s not interested in you that way. Which you get, you’re two different species. Even so, you can’t stop yourself from touching him. Slowly mapping him out with your fingers as he does the same like he’s fascinated with you.
• Hand sliding along your side, his servos flex against your hip. The way you’d looked under him, arms pinned over your head surfacing again. Meaning to intimidate you, warn you away from him. To show you that he’s not sure he’s capable of gentle and soft like you deserve. Knows he needs to stop touching you, letting you touch him. Optics shuttering when you shift closer to him, pressing your hips to his, that thigh sliding against the outside of his as if to hook over his hip. And when he opens his optics, you’re staring up at him, bottom lip between your teeth and expression so vulnerable. “You don’t really want this,” he growls, voice deepening as you press your mouth against his chassis over his spark to make him shiver. “You deserve someone kinder.” Someone gentle, who’s not as broken as he is.
• That soft reprimand only makes you smile. Because he can hurt you, easily. And he’s only ever gentle, even when you’d been sparring he’d never once hurt you. Knocked you down, sure, but never really hurt you. Eyes narrowing, you shove him and venting in amusement, he obliges you and rolls onto his back. Freezing when you lunge and straddle him, hands braced on his chassis as you lean over him so your lips can brush his chin. “I don’t want someone else.” Nerves humming at the confession, half expecting him to sit up and dump you off of him. Because for better or worse, it’s out there now. And he’s just staring up at you, surprised. Your boldness wilting under the weight of that stare.
• He’s never seen you demand anything. You rarely ask for anything at all from him except his time. But as you lean over him, lips brushing him with your words, he growls. That uncertainty is still there in your eyes, but it’s finally clicked. Not that you’re unsure about what you want, but that you expect to be rejected. Head falling back, he shutters his optics. Realizing how his attempts to protect you from himself, from his worse impulses, have come across to you. Making you think you’re unwanted. Hands sliding to your hips, he pins you in place when you try to slide off of him. Servos tightening against you until you make a little noise and shift on top of him. “Good,” he growls, giving in. If you want him even knowing the monster he is, then you can have him. All of him. Because if he’s honest with himself, the idea of someone else touching you drives him closer to what he’d been, to that unchecked violence, than anything has since he first set ped on this ship.
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𖹭 cw: mildly suggestive, fluff
══════════════𖹭 MINORS DNI 𖹭═════════════
PT 1 ⋆ PT 2 ⋆ PT 3 ⋆ PT 4 ⋆ PT 5 [SOON]
English professor Nanami knew you were having relationship issues. Your boyfriend called him from a blocked number and told him to stay away from you. He made many not so eloquent accusations and threats before Professor Nanami calmly invited the man to put him in a position where he would be forced to defend himself.
Professor Nanami sincerely wishes that he would. Every time he thinks about the disgusting way the man spoke of you, he sees red. You deserve so much better than some insecure prick who steals numbers off your phone and talks about you like you're garbage.
Professor Nanami resists bringing it up with you, he knows you well enough to realize that it would only embarrass you. Although it pains him to see your face a little more drawn and tired for the next couple of days, he knows you are strong. He noticed that you changed your phone background from a picture of you with a man to a picture of you and what appears to be a young sibling. This is heartening. He hopes you have stopped inflicting that loser upon yourself.
Since he can't talk to you about it, he brings you coffee just the way you like it when you forget. He asks you if you've eaten when you don't take your lunch break. He thinks he understands why you are avoiding the cafeteria and the parking lot at this time of day, so he brings you a sandwich and soup from his favorite cafe across the street. It's hard to hold your gaze when you look at him the way you do after he offers it to you.
Even harder than that is looking at you stretched out on your belly asleep on the couch in his office. Hands tucked under your cheek, lips parted, bare legs peeking from beneath the blanket just below the curve of your ass, hair falling over the edge. It caught him off gaurd, that's why his heart lurches and his skin crawls with sparks of heat. That's why he has to step back into the hallway and take a deep breath, try to think of something unpleasant to combat the heat blooming low in his guts. That's what he tells himself, although he's not sure there's much of a point in maintaining the self delusion anymore. You are waking up when he steps back inside.
Professor Nanami 's mind is a whirlwind of thoughts before he even confirms with you that you've been sleeping on campus. It isn't safe. You must not be parking in the parking lot, they close that. You must park down the street. The building is locked at night. Gates are locked. What if you had some sort of medical emergency? No. You can't sleep here. He knows immediately that you've misunderstood him when he sees the way your face falls.
"You can stay with me," he hears himself say the words, drowning out the voice of reason telling him it's wildly inappropriate, that it can only end badly. Perhaps there is still a point in deluding himself, because he needs to be the one to fix this. "I have a spare bedroom. Just until you figure things out. You don't have to explain anything," he is saying but you are already nodding and smiling. Then you are off the couch in a blur of motion, which is a relief because the last thing he needs right now is to get a good look at you in you little tank and shorts. You are hugging him tight around the waist, cheek pressed into his chest, thanking him.
Professor Nanami pats you on the back, fighting for his life not to slip his hands around your waist and let his fingers map out the skin beneath your top. With herculean effort,he peels himself away from the warm crush of your body, the maddening scent of you. He is quick to take a seat at his desk, coat in his lap hiding the evidence his true feelings until you leave to shower and dress, cursing his perversion. Hard from a simple hug. How will he tolerate you living in his house?
𖹭 a/n: just want to say thanks for reading. Really appreciate you guys interacting. I'll be done with this series after a few more parts, so feel free to send me requests (:
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LOVE ON THE COURT | 40 MY LOVE ALL MINE
SYNOPSIS | every college student has their struggles, but raising her younger brother has Y/N top of the list, struggling her way through college whilst balancing her academics and basketball captaincy is difficult no doubt and with Jaemin, her ex best friend and captain of the guys basketball team, and his growing one sided hatred towards her, it doesn't seem to be getting any easier
WARNINGS | swearing, jealousy
Jaemin would be lying if he said he wasn't excited. Well at least he was.
The sound of Y/n's voice, usually music to his ears was no worse than nails against a chalk board today, and he couldn't help but hope she'd stop talking. Quite frankly, he couldn't stand it.
She had been talking about Jay all day.
Even now, as she explained how she'd ended up somehow managing to burn a pot of pasta and had to call Jay to help her save it, he fought the urge to stuff his fingers inside his ears and stop listening.
Despite his usual patience, Jaemin felt himself growing more frustrated.
The tickling feeling in his stomach had quickly been replaced by a deep churning, bubbling inside of him, simmering, ready to boil over.
Small details he otherwise couldn't have cared less about, the heart next to Jay's contact name, the sweet texts he'd accidentally caught sight of, the fact that Jay and Y/n had so many pictures together that it was hard to find anything else in her camera roll. Jaemin pressed his tongue to the inside of his cheek. It irked him.
Her eyes lit up with every mention of his name, her smile seemed just a little brighter and her mood seemed to lift, like everything about Jay made her feel at ease, like he was perfect.
Jaemin wanted it to be him.
The giggles, the sparkle in her eyes, the pep in her step, God, he so badly wanted it to be for him.
For a moment, he almost forgot everything he had planned, things already not going the way he hoped. But still, he persevered. The day wasn't ruined, not yet. He could get over it. All he had to do was direct the conversation away from Jay.
Easier said than done when the man himself had magically appeared in front of him and Y/n inside the mall. Jaemin's fingers curled into a tight fist, teeth clenched together, his heart pounding in his chest as he watched Jay lean in closer to Y/n a little further ahead of him.
A knot twisted in Jaemin's stomach.
He could see the girl’s smile, her eyes sparkling so much brighter now that he was in front of her.
That oh so familiar feeling bubbled up inside of him, hot and consuming, as he fought the urge to stride over and interrupt their conversation. The warmth of the room was suffocating, and Jaemin could feel his face flush with a mix of frustration and helplessness.
His mind raced with thoughts, replaying moments where he could have said something, done something differently.
But the wave of insecurity was fleeting, and as he marched over, there was just one thing on his mind.
Jaemin was a man on a mission, and he'd be damned if he let it all go to waste over something so trivial.
He moved quickly, with an indescribable urgency, reaching out for Y/n's arm, not caring who was watching.
"Hey Y/n, let's go." he had a grip on her wrist stronger than any other, not even wasting his breath to acknowledge Jay who stood opposite her as he dragged her away.
"But Jaemin I was talking to Jay." Y/n's retort fell on deaf ears, Jaemin's only focus being on making their way outside. Though he didn't fail to miss the way she apologetically waved goodbye. He rolled his eyes.
"Jaem, I was talking to him." She continued, softer, trying to pull her wrist from his grip, was he always this strong?
If he wasn't so focused, then perhaps Jaemin would've found the slight furrowing of her brows adorable, confused at his actions.
"Jaemin are you even hearing me?" she asked, growing restless in his grip as they finally reached the car park.
He sighed, letting his grip fall loose as he raked his fingers through his hair, huffing.
"I've been hearing you all day long."
Her heart dropped, his tone so much sharper than she'd been used to recently. His stare was piercing, his jaw set in a harsh line.
Y/n felt hot under his gaze. And her heart dropped when he exhaled, shortly and with the click of his tongue.
For a moment it was quiet, and their eyes locked. Jaemin's chest was rising and falling faster than ever before, the usual soft aura that surrounded him nowhere to be seen. His presence strong.
Y/n stood opposite him, perhaps just a few feet away, with her lips slightly parted as she stared at him in shock. So many emotions filled the air between them, each of them struggling to find the words to approach the situation.
"Do you like him?" Jaemin finally snapped, sick of the silence consuming them.
"Huh?"
Jaemin scoffs.
If she wasn't before, Y/n found herself absolutely taken aback now. Jaemin had never acted like this before. It was weird, how he was being so... brash
"Do you like Jay?" he asked again, this time giving her no oppurtunity to respond,, "Because it's driving me insane. The way you speak about him like he's the only thing that matters, the way you look at him like he's the only one in the room. It feels like a punch to the gut."
Confused, Y/n parts her lips to speak, a sinking feeling in her chest at the slight crack in Jaemin's voice.
"What's wrong Jaem, what do you mean?"
She inched forward, taking his shaky hands into her own. Jaemin didn't protest, melting into her touch. But the fire in his eyes is far from extinguished.
"I mean, seeing you with him makes me go batshit crazy. When he looks at you with hearts projecting out of his eyes, I wonder if you like him the way I like you." Jaemin's cheeks burned, the words echoing in his ears, unravelling and honest. He hadn't expected it to play out this way. "I like you so much it hurts. And everything I've ever done, ever felt, it feels like it falls down the drain the second you smile at him. I'm jealous, "
He says, not lacking confidence for even a second, punctuating his words with harsh ragged breaths.
"I'm so jealous. Because I wish it was me you laughed at that way or me you called when you burn the new pasta recipes you try out. I wish it was me, I wish it was us who filled every corner of your camera roll. Forget like Y/n, I love you, and you never seem to see it."
When he's finished, Jaemin takes a moment to catch his breath but his eyes don't leave hers once— like he's studying every detail of her face, committing it to memory.
"Jaem.." she trails off, and Jaemin desperately holds onto his hope, praying that just this once, things would work out. His eyes bore into hers, searching, though hes not sure what for.
Her eyes had always held the world, always so open and honest yet right now, all Jaemin saw was the glow of his reflection staring back at him.
"I didn't know you felt that way," she pauses, as if to find the right words to say, but Y/n doesn't think she can, "Why didn't you tell me sooner?"
When Jaemin looks up, averting his gaze, she can only reach up, caressing his head with the utmost tenderness and care before guiding it back down. Her touch is feather light, almost like he's delicate, a vase ready to shatter and break with one wrong move.
Even now, as their eyes lock, faces barely even centimeters apart, Jaemin feels it, the rush of electricity that sparks through him. Like he's on fire.
His voice came out in a whisper, and suddenly that raw, gentle, caring side of Jaemin was stood in front of Y/n again, his presence warming.
"I was scared" A shaky breath fell from his lips, "I thought we would crumble, that we wouldn't be able to handle it. That we'd end up like before" he sighed, feeling so incredibly stupid as he heard his own words. "I thought we'd be over, for good."
A mix of vulnerability and fear shines in Jaemin's eyes, his heartbeat echoing.
He feels like he's on a tightrope, teetering, ready to fall and break with the slightest movement. But God, he's holding on for dear life.
"I didn't think y-" Jaemin cuts Y/n off, the tension palpable. He needs to know her answer. He needs to know now.
"That's the thing, Y/n, you don't think. I'm standing here pouring my heart out, and you're just... suprised? I need you to see me, peach. To really see me."
Her heartbeat raced, and for the first time ever, Y/n truly, genuinely and really found herself conscious of the way her cheeks flushed at the sight of the man in front of her.
His hair tousled in the wind, the tips of his ears turning pink— that was his favourite colour, hers too— his eyebrows were strong and arched. She realised everything she loved was held between those features, his compassion, his care, him.
That was it.
Despite all the people she'd loved in her weird and wonderful ways, it finally made complete sense. Why she never realised.
It was so hard to put Jaemin into words, because she loved him in a way she had never loved someone else.
Because Y/n didn't look at Jaemin and see just a boyfriend, a partner, or a lover—Y/n looked at Jaemin and saw forever.
Her forever only.
"I love you." She speaks with full surety and a big smile, tears welling in her eyes.
"Say it again." Jaemin holds his breath, needing to hear her once more before he lets himself go, to become truly vulnerable in front of the one person who meant everything to him. Forever.
"I love you, Jaem."
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NOTES | I hate writing confessions I've come to realise, but its here guys, jaemyn is official ‼️ i also don't fw writing do u wanna be my gf/bf bs so you're gonna have to imagine that i just CANNOT do it without gagging, total me problem but it is what it is , maybe I'll grow up and write it into a bonus chapter or something 🤷♀️
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The Unreachable Heart of Tim Drake
Everyone wants to be Tim Drakes favorite, but not for the reasons you might think.
It’s not about Tim’s intelligence or his quick wit, though those things are undeniably impressive. It’s not about the way he somehow manages to hold the entire Bat-family together, even as they fray at the seams. It’s not even about the quiet warmth he offers, the small moments where he lets his guard down just enough to remind everyone that he’s human, too.
No.
They want to be his favorite because Tim gives and gives and gives—until there’s nothing left of him to take.
———
Bruce wants to be Tim’s favorite because it’s easier than admitting how badly he’s failed him.
Tim is a reminder of every mistake Bruce has made as a father, every time he turned his back or let Tim fall through the cracks. He wasn’t there when Tim needed him most, when Joker turned him into something unrecognizable, when Tim clawed his way back to himself alone. Bruce thinks if he could just be Tim’s favorite, maybe it would make up for all the times he wasn’t enough.
But it doesn’t.
It won’t.
And Bruce knows it.
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Dick wants to be Tim’s favorite because he doesn’t know how to fix the distance between them.
It wasn’t always like this. Once upon a time, Dick was Tim’s hero, the person he looked up to more than anyone else. But things changed, and the closeness they shared shattered under the weight of misunderstandings and unspoken words. Dick misses the boy who idolized him, who trusted him without question.
He wants to be Tim’s favorite because he doesn’t know how to be his brother anymore.
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Jason wants to be Tim’s favorite because he sees too much of himself in him.
He knows what it’s like to be the one everyone forgets, the one who carries the family’s burdens without complaint, even as the cracks start to show. Jason doesn’t want Tim to end up like him—bitter, angry, consumed by the feeling of being unwanted.
But Jason doesn’t know how to show that. So instead, he fights for Tim’s attention, picking at him, challenging him, pushing him away even as he tries to pull him closer.
He wants to be Tim’s favorite because it would mean Tim still has room in his heart for someone like him.
———-
Steph wants to be Tim’s favorite because he’s the one she always chooses.
She loves him. God, she loves him so much it hurts sometimes. But Steph also knows Tim has walls he doesn’t let anyone past—not even her. He hides himself behind his work, behind his role as Red Robin, behind the pieces of himself he’s convinced no one else will ever understand.
She wants to be Tim’s favorite because she doesn’t know if he’s capable of letting her be anything more.
———
Cass wants to be Tim’s favorite because she sees what the others don’t.
Tim is tired. So tired he’s cracking beneath the surface, even if he’s too stubborn to show it. Cass sees the way he pushes himself, the way he gives and gives and gives until there’s nothing left. She wants to shield him from it, from the weight he insists on carrying alone.
But Tim doesn’t let her.
He doesn’t let anyone.
Cass wants to be his favorite because maybe then he’d let her take some of the weight.
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Duke wants to be Tim’s favorite because Tim makes him feel like he belongs.
Duke is still finding his place in the Bat-family, still figuring out where he fits in this patchwork of broken people trying to make something whole. But Tim? Tim treats him like he’s always been part of it, like he’s not someone on the outside trying to find his way in.
He wants to be Tim’s favorite because Tim makes him feel seen in a way no one else does. And maybe, just maybe, being his favorite would mean Duke could give that feeling back to him.
———
Damian wants to be Tim’s favorite because he doesn’t know how else to be a brother.
It’s not like he’ll ever admit it. Not out loud. But there’s a part of Damian that craves Tim’s approval, that wants to hear Tim say he’s proud of him, that he trusts him.
But Tim is cautious around Damian, careful in a way that feels like distance. And Damian hates it—hates that no matter how much he’s changed, no matter how hard he tries, there’s still something fractured between them.
He wants to be Tim’s favorite because he doesn’t know how else to prove that he cares.
———
The truth is, everyone wants to be Tim Drake’s favorite because they know they aren’t.
Tim doesn’t play favorites.
He’s too careful for that, too afraid of what it might mean, what it might cost. He keeps himself at arm’s length, even from the people who love him most.
They want to be Tim’s favorite because maybe then he’d stop being so afraid to let them in.
But Tim doesn’t know how to do that.
And maybe he never will.
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subire me.
synopsis: It’s your birthday, and your only wish is to have Webttore underneath you. Being the good lover he is, he agrees to your shenanigans just this once (not).
includes: dottore (webttore) w/ fem! reader
notes: Webttore is referred to as Beta. Established relationship, oral (Webby receiving), vaginal sex, creampie, you ride him, dom reader, subby Webby, reader uses no pronouns, MDNI. Gift for my dear bestie <3
You never considered yourself a greedy person. You were always content and grateful for what you had, rarely ever wanting to take more by using force. That however applies to everything besides Il Dottore.
To be fair, it wasn’t like the attitude was unreciprocated. In fact, the man’s way of thinking was what rubbed off on you. If he desired you wholly, why would you feel any different? You were too lovely for him not to take for his own. He was too captivating for you to let go of. If he wanted to see your beautiful side, you should see his too. If he accepted your ugly side, you would take care of his own too.
If he wanted to wring orgasm after orgasm out of you while you begged for him to slow down, it was only fair that the same should be done to him - which was the reason Beta was now currently underneath you huffing with a grumpy expression.
“Aww, come on love. You agreed to this, did you not?” You chuckled at his defiance, never wanting to be the one submitting to another.
“Only because you were adamant about pestering me the whole time,” he scowled, crossing his arms at your more than pleased expression. You rolled your eyes in amusement, beginning to unbutton your top which quickly got Beta’s attention back on you again.
“You act as if I’m sentencing you to death…” you laughed as your breasts spilled out, and Beta dug his nails deeper into his arm to resist his urges, “You trust me, right? So just let me take care of you… as you do for me,” you hummed, pulling off your bottoms and leaving you in nothing but your underwear.
“An odd request for the one whose birthday it is,” Beta continued to grumble, though his tone lowered at the sight of your bare body.
“What can I say? You always knew that I’m a little weird,” you smiled as you crawled back and hovered over him, nudging your knee between his leg to which he gritted his teeth, “But let’s focus on you, yeah?” With that, you cupped his cheek and kissed him in an attempt to get him to lighten up, and of course, it worked after a few seconds, his body slackening to your sweetness. You sighed against his lip, working on removing his vest and bowtie while he moved to your whim.
It did feel quite odd not to have his hands roaming about your body, but you think it was more tortuous for him than you judging from the growing hardness near your leg. Well, the whole situation was a bit odd in general, usually Beta would be babbling on about anything and everything - how exquisite you looked taking him, what he’s done to you, what he will do to you… all with sharp teeth on display and a maniac grin. Now, however, he was strangely quiet, teeth grazing his lip with an unreadable expression, but definitely red ears.
"See how badly you want this? I know you could easily stop me if you wanted to, love, I haven't even tied you up this time. But here you are being so good and needy for me..." you sighed as your finger traced along his neck, your other hand placed firmly on his chest.
So cute. Good thing the segments were more organic rather than mechanical. Otherwise, you’d probably have made them short-circuit by now. You eagerly moved on to finally tugging his shirt off, exposing his chest. Ah, you had told yourself you’d have patience, but how could you when the scholar was laid out for you so pliantly like a sweet treat for the taking? You just really wanted him crying for you already.
“So what? Is this what you wanted all along?” The segment sneered, an attempt to fluster you and grasp some semblance of control back. But you only smiled.
“And what if it is? Trying to goad me before I even start isn’t the best idea, Beta.”
“You could see me like this whenever you wanted,” he scoffed.
“Not underneath me,” you clarified, watching with delight as his dismay further increased as you drove home the reality of the situation. “Now, do try to relax a bit. Isn’t that what you always tell me?” You teased as you suddenly began palming his bulge, to which he held back an embarrassing moan with all his might, and you could have laughed at his stubbornness, which was what you predicted, to be honest.
“You don’t want to moan for me that bad? That makes me sad,” you said in false hurt, beginning to kiss his clothed cock, just barely a bit of pleasure that was not nearly enough.
“This is not ‘taking care of me,’” he hissed out in irritation, repeating your exact words. Your torture had his patience running thin, something this segment did not have much of in the first place. Oh, how he wanted you to wrap your lips around him already, his hands firm on your head as he ruthlessly fucked your mouth.
… But here he was, reduced to a mere toy. It was a pitiful state for him to be in, throbbing cock left neglected. Beta’s arm slowly began to ease toward you, hoping to feel you like he’d always had before you caught him with a pout.
“What did I say? No touching unless I let you,” you chided him as you returned his hand to gripping the sheets instead. “Relax… I’m not as cruel as you,” you reasoned as you finally pulled down his pants, making his bulge more prominent. Some relief, but not sweet enough yet. You sighed as you played with the band of his underwear, thinking of all the ways you could toy with him like you toyed with you…
… But for now, your own patience was lacking. It was not a problem though, considering you were sure there’d be more opportunities despite the segment’s scoffs. So with one swift tug, you let his leaking cock free from its confines, rewarded with a held-back sigh of contentment from the scholar.
Dottore’s face was always a pleasure to look at. To see how he’s changed over the years, to see the age that settled in. Beta in particular had always been dashing, although not many people saw him unmasked. Youthful unscarred skin slightly reddened in pleasure, lips quivering for a few seconds before he quickly bit down to prevent any more unbecoming noises. It made you squeeze your own legs together in desire, but you wanted to see him come undone from a bit of teasing for once.
You wrapped your hand around Beta’s cock, giving it an experimental stroke to gauge his reaction. Not much yet, unfortunately. Moving closer to him, you placed a small kiss at the base, and began planting them as you finally reached the tip of his cock. Pre-cum was already dripping out from how long you’ve denied him the warmth of your mouth. You swirled your tongue around his tip before heatedly pressing it elsewhere, making sure to put on a show for him, as he released another groan.
You admired his self-restraint, however. Alpha would have already been desperately bucking his hips. Still, Beta’s expression was simply exquisite. Eyes looking at you with dismay, as if he himself was surprised by his own actions, and fists clenched so hard, if he was a regular human he’d have drawn blood by now. It was already more than you could have hoped for, but you were excited to stretch the boundary.
Finally, you enveloped your mouth with him, taking as much as you could handle. You could feel him twitch in your mouth, hell, if not for his pride you were sure he wanted to come right there. Slowly, you moved up and down his cock, using your hand to stroke the rest of it. Normally, the segment would be snapping his hips at an inhuman pace seeking his release but to see him have to keep unusually stiff like this was amusing. You didn’t take your eyes off of your lover, his lewd expression motivating you to continue.
You knew he was close. He was never one to delay his orgasms, too impatient to wait compared to his older selves. And after the delightful performance he put on for you tonight, it felt too mean to deny him, this time at least. You increased your pace, moaning around his cock, the sensation making Beta shudder, and finally he spilled into your mouth. You paused to accommodate the sudden load sprayed into you, dutifully swallowing and slowly pulling away from his cock to catch a breath.
After a brief break, you languidly ran your tongue over him again, cleaning up the mess he made. Beta hadn’t said anything yet aside from his lessening pants.
“Thought you said you wouldn’t enjoy this,” you lazily teased, eyes softening at his blissed-out look.
“Quiet,” Beta demanded, although his voice held no real harshness. It was obvious he was just embarrassed he came that much from submitting to you. “Hurry and finish whatever it is you want to do.” His command, which was more like a plea wrapped up in false dominance, egged you on to finally pull off your soaked underwear. Now, despite being knocked down a peg, Beta still found it mesmerizing to see how wet you were despite having not been touched by him. How he wished to have your slick smeared across his face instead of it being wasted dripping down your lips, but this was what you wished for…
Beta’s previous demeanor seeped away as he watched you line yourself up with his cock, wanting his head to be clear enough to see you swallow him up. With one thrust, you lowered yourself onto him, his cock filling you to the brim. You nearly lost yourself to pleasure right there, were it not for the fact you remembered you’re supposed to be teasing him. This was the first time he let you ride him, after all. You needed to show him how good it could feel.
You lifted yourself up, relishing the slow drag of his cock, before quickly dropping back onto him. In no time you found your pace and bounced on it, gasping and pressing your hand onto his chest. Beta looked at you with an expression beyond pleasure that words could describe, watching you use him to your heart’s content. His hands itched to squeeze your soft thighs, to dig his hands into them and perhaps lift you up and down his cock himself. Thankfully, his desire was answered.
Deciding to finally relieve him of his aching hands, you grabbed them and pushed them toward your breasts, thighs, tummy - whatever he wanted to touch. Not one to waste opportunities, he quickly took advantage of your kindness and reached to rub your clit, moving to pinch and pull at your breasts at the same time, delighting in how you threw your head back in gratification. Well, he wasn’t the only one who was allowed to do that. Not wanting to be outdone, you moved as fast as you could, lewd slaps nearly contending with your breathy moans as you watched as Beta in turn screwed his face up and let out his own hushed moan as well.
With his nails dug into your thighs so hard you were sure they’d leave marks, with one final movement Beta spurted into you hard as you immediately came right after from the filling feeling. You were both left to breathe, bodies relaxing from the previous intensity. Your energy flowed away as you sighed, enjoying how cum continued to gush from your cunt. You laid down to cuddle on Beta’s chest, nuzzling gently into him. A few seconds later, his hand rested on your head, stroking and calming you down. You two stayed quiet like that for a little while, save for a few questions and if you needed water and such.
“Are you happy?” Beta grumpily piped up, as he peered down at you, admittedly admiring how pretty you looked in the afterglow. You smiled.
“Very. My gift was very useful and compliant. An amazing birthday, that’s for sure.” Another ‘hmph’ made you softly giggle, before your laughter was turned into a squeal, as the segment maneuvered your back to be pressed against the mattress now.
“Good. Now that you’ve had your fun, I can give you the gift I originally had planned,” Beta smiled at you a bit eerily, and you realized his cock began to swell in you once again. But you only looked at him with a cocky grin.
“Is that so? Well, I love receiving multiple gifts. In fact, give me as much as you desire…”
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dominant doll thats manipulative af x failed dom in denial
go on, confess allll the things you want to do to me, of how you want to turn me into your 24/7 fuckdoll
i won't judge, i mean look at me, pink hair, soft skin, perky boobs, slutty makeup, i'm practically the definition of fuckdoll
i can't blame you for struggling to get the words out, you're probably holding your phone in one hand and rubbing with the other right now, hm? the truth is seeing all of those silly typos and the way you stutter, seeing how in heat you are, how much influence my words, my body & my voice has over you... it just makes me want it more god you're already starting to think about it aren't you? its okay baby i know you're SO big and strong but you get overwhelmed sometimes, just sit in my lap and let me play with your hair a bit. tell me again how badly you want me "daddy", i really want to know exactlyyy what you'd do to me, how you'd bury yourself into me, and hopelessly hump my thigh you're so in control of me aren't you? i'm just you're toy, your doll, right? come here you can suck on my nipples while you buck your hips, you can "use me" to get off
with the way you whimper, i wonder if you even want to pin me down, its almost like being teased is more interesting than the dull "rough sex" you had planned
are you really that dominant?
what if i asked you to breathe in deep and then held your head in my tits, feeling you struggle, what then?
and i have to say... you'd make a pretty adorable failed dom. you could even lie to yourself if it made you feel better about it. i could say "you're just riding your fuckdolls cock, you're still in control, i promise daddy"
when really i'm thinking god you're so fucking pathetic, i could have been anything you wanted and you made me a sadist
you can pout and throw a tantrum anytime you like, you can tell me how big and strong you are, how "easily" you can overpower me, i only have to say a couple of words until you're putty in my hands so go on, get petty, tell me how i'm such a brat and pretend i'm the toy here
all while you get more and more addicted (or conditioned) to your dolly that bends you over and straps you whenever it wants, that keeps you beneath her, that makes you worship the doll complexion all while playing dumb
after all you're the dominant daddy what would a silly doll know about it?
if you're not a fan of the fantasy, keep scrolling <33
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[there is no one at work and i've been wanting to poke at this idea... i have no idea where the plot would actually go except in the broadest strokes, so who knows if there will be more]
Karlach cries when Jaheira presses the harp-shaped pin into her hand.
She’s been crying at everything since emerging from Avernus, it’s honestly getting embarrassing. Sunsets, sunrises, grass, a guy selling cabbages, some kids playing a game in the street.
Obviously she cries when Wyll sets off– she cries about ten times on their last night together, which very quickly becomes a very drunk last night– like, singing-on-the-roof-of-the-Elfsong drunk. Not that it’s the last last: they will see each other again, but Karlach needs to be in Baldur’s Gate for a little bit and Wyll needs anything but, and he’s given up enough for her so she’d never ask him to stay, badly as she wants him to.
She takes a couple days after that to just be. She wanders the city, she eats all the food she missed, she scares the hells out of Dammon turning up unannounced and they both cry yet again. She calls on every friend she ever had: Rolan and his siblings (Lia’s a Flaming Fist now!), Alfira and Lakrissa (not married yet, but possibly finally together? Still hard to tell), Fitz and the baby (not a baby now, he’s walking around and can almost hold a conversation), Danis and Bex (who have a baby now, too), Barcus and his pals– hells, she even stops in at the Guildhall. Cries at all of them.
She buys fruit on the Wide and visits the House of Wonders, because she’s a fucking hero of Baldur’s Gate and best mates with the Grand Duke’s son, so she can actually go to the Upper City now. Doesn’t spend much time there, though. There’s too much to do in the Lower City. She spends a day hanging out by the docks. She considers Sharess’s Caress, but loses her nerve. She haggles with street vendors in Little Calimshan. She visits her parents. Definitely cries there. She lays in the grass in Bloomridge Park for an entire day, even when it starts pouring rain. Then she catches a stonking cold, and spends a few more days in bed, luxuriating in the knowledge that she can just lie around feeling sorry for herself and a bunch of imps aren’t going to try to stab her in the neck while she’s sneezing. She has a big, snotty cry about that, too.
When she’s well enough to not turn Jaheira’s place into a plague pit, she makes her way there, the last and accidentally delayed stop on her list. She hasn’t really made it past the Blushing Mermaid in this direction. She tries not to look at the statue of Balduran in the square– pity that, of all fucking things, didn’t get destroyed– and as she’s thinking it, resisting the urge to look at that face, she stumbles into someone.
She laughs at once– looking the way she does, you’ve got to let people know right away you don’t mean any harm– and hold up her hands in apology before she’s even fully turned around. “Sorry, mate, I wasn’t–”
She stops. The woman, dressed in a plain black gown, is brushing herself off with visible irritation. “Watching where you were going? Yes, obviously.” She looks up, and her frown deepens. “Why are you staring?”
Karlach blurts it out despite herself, despite knowing what a bad idea it is. “Shadowheart?”
Her eyes flash wide in surprise, then she quickly composes herself. “Is that supposed to be a name?” She gives her skirt one final flick– she’s wearing gloves, so Karlach can’t see if the wound is still there on the back of her hand, but why wouldn’t it be?
The ache of grief and guilt is so sudden and strong, Karlach feels sick. She can’t speak, can’t say anything as Shadowheart gives her a last disdainful look, mutters something about people with more muscle than sense, and stalks away. Karlach sinks right down onto the plinth, sitting there at Balduran’s feet. This is a very different wanting to cry than all the other crying she’s been doing. This is– all the things she hasn’t been thinking about. The people she hasn’t seen, because she can’t bear to see them. This is two fucking years for guilt over what he did– what they did– to curdle into certainty that it was the wrong fucking choice.
She’s never stopped thinking about it, even in Avernus where you couldn’t ever lose focus, had to sleep with one eye open and keep your mind ten steps ahead. Even in the midst of all that, her shitty old brain found time to remind her constantly, constantly, of the look on Shadowheart’s face as the Mother Superior and those creepy, evil masked Sharrans dragged her away. The look on Jaheira’s face as she stared down Astarion, like she might spit at his feet. Wyll and Astarion shouted at each other for what felt like hours that night, until Karlach and Gale just had to drag them off to separate corners of the camp.
And there was so much left to do, so much they needed each other for. So they just never spoke of it again.
They hadn’t killed her. Was that a comfort?
And on the other hand, they had killed her, hadn’t they. They’d killed Shads, Fringe, the spiky heart with a soft centre that Karlach knew, wanted so badly to know better. There was nothing in those eyes, in a mind they’d probably had to wipe clean half a dozen times since Karlach saw her last. Since Karlach just let them take her away.
I’m not usually one for making the first move, she’d said. But then again, you haven’t exactly been quiet about wanting some companionship tonight. So… shall we give this upgrade a trial run?
And she’d grinned and said, Oh fuck yes.
And Shadowheart had laughed, just the smallest bit, and said, Let’s just not go announcing it to the whole camp.
So they never told anyone.
She’s half in a daze still as she walks to Jaheira’s place, knocks on the door. She can hear the noise of all the kids tearing around inside. One she’s never seen before, an absolutely miniscule little halfling, opens the door and stares up at her with huge eyes and huge rosy cheeks like two apples.
“Hi,” Karlach says. The kid is so small, it’s really not helping her feel more anchored in reality. “Is your mum in?”
The halfling takes in a long, deep breath that puffs up her whole little chest, then yells impossibly loudly, “JAHEIRAAAAA!”
“How many times, Cheska?” scolds Rion’s voice from somewhere inside, but then she, too, is shouting, “Mother! One of your mysterious friends come to call, apparently!”
Coming here always feels like a flash of a life she could have had, and that’s really not something she needs layered on top of her present state of mind. She almost just turns and leaves right then, but Jaheira’s there at the door before she can, and must see something in her face, because she hauls Karlach right into her study and shuts the door. Then she stops short, her hands on Karlach’s shoulders.
“Let me look at you,” she says. There’s an unignorable waver in her voice.
“Jaheira,” Karlach says warningly. “I’m a fucking faucet these days, so if you start, you’ll never get me to stop. And I just…”
“Just what?” Jaheira prompts, and seems very glad to get to move past the moment of near-miss vulnerability. “You do not look nearly as happy as I expected you to. How long have you been back?”
“Just over a tenday,” Karlach says. “I meant to come sooner, honest, but–”
Jaheira cuts her off with a laugh and a wave of her hand. “You needn’t make excuses to me, of all people! Rion would tell me I am getting my just desserts. But come, sit. Tell me what’s the matter, cub.”
A voice in Karlach’s head that sounds suspiciously like Rion’s points out that clearly, Jaheira is bored. She wouldn’t be home in the first place otherwise. But that can be true at the same time as it can be true that Jaheira cares. About Karlach, about all of them.
About Shadowheart.
Karlach takes a breath.
“I just saw Shadowheart.”
Something goes dark in Jaheira’s expression, like a shutter drawn over her eyes. Karlach should wait to see what she has to say, but– well, Karlach’s always been impatient, and talked too much, and two more years in Avernus isn’t about to change that. “How did I let that happen, Jaheira? How did I just– stand there? It was like… it was like I was in Avernus all over again, in Zariel’s court, just watching horrible things happen and telling myself I was powerless to stop them, so it was more important to keep myself alive.”
“Astarion was in no place to be a leader then, and we should have been quicker to see it.” Jaheira sinks into a chair next to Karlach’s. Karlach knows she was angry about it once– she saw it herself– but it sounds like all that anger has burned away with time and just left weariness behind.
“I guess we were so used to just letting him do the talking,” Karlach says, not that the thought consoles her. “And I was so proud of him, after everything with Cazador, freeing those other spawn. I really thought he’d just– keep making the right choices.”
“No one makes the right choice every time,” Jaheira says. “And Astarion is better at hiding his grief than most. He was far less at peace with what he chose than he wished us to know. And Shadowheart paid the price for our inattentiveness.”
Karlach shakes her head. “I should have seen. I should have done something. It wasn’t too late to fight.” “You are finally free,” Jaheira says firmly. “Do not turn around and cage yourself in regrets. We were none of us thinking clearly then, with the weight of the world on our shoulders– you, with the spectre of your own death always at your heels.”
“It’s because I’m free that I have to think about her!” Karlach retorts. “I get to be free. We condemned her forever.”
Funny, to get angry and not feel the literal rush of flames engulfing her. It’s just a normal heat– well, probably still a bit hotter than normal, but not literal sparks at the edges of her vision, and– in those last tendays– not the ominous clunking and whirring that said she’d started to push too hard. But it was never just the engine that got her heated up.
“You’ve had all this time to make your peace with it, but I’ve never stopped thinking about her! I don’t regret anything more in my whole fucking life. We did so much good, and none of it even matters to me because I just think of that one evil, evil thing we let him do. That we did. I need to–” The idea’s words before it’s an idea, she says it without entirely knowing what she’s saying ‘til it’s said. “I have to do something. She’s still alive. I have to help her.”
“I should have guessed you would say something like that.” Jaheira stands up. She goes to her desk and starts to rummage through it. “I know you know the stories, so it will sound strange to you, but you remind me very much of Khalid. You have the same heart. The same passion, though you wear it differently. Nothing can crush your kindness, after a life that would have ground all the good out of most. You cannot bear injustice, despite all the injustices done to you.” She finds what she’s looking for and straightens up. She plants both hands on the desk and fixes Karlach with a long, level, unwavering look. “You know I do not say this lightly. And you also know it is not entirely a compliment. He had– you have– the true heart of a Harper.”
Karlach’s jaw drops. She’s just staring like an idiot but she doesn’t know what to say. There’s nothing to say, how is she supposed to respond to that? Jaheira thinks that she–
“I have spent the past months,” Jaheria says, “determining how the House of Grief can be brought down. There is unsettled business between Viconia and myself, and I have allowed her to prey for too long on the city’s lost and hopeless. And I–” Her voice falters, almost imperceptibly. “I saw her, too. A few months ago. She must have been given some mission outside of the cloister. But that will be our opportunity.”
“How’s that? Burn it down when she’s away?”
“We must be spies before we can be soldiers,” Jaheira says with a crooked smile. “They are too well-versed in secrecy. We must have someone on the inside, and none of my Harpers have had any success. There is only one person.” Jaheira splays out her hand. The silver harp glints in her outstretched palm. “When Shadowheart sees a glimpse of light, she reaches for it. They cannot crush this out of her no matter how hard they try. You have shown her before. I know you can do it again.”
She cries when Jaheira presses the pin into her hand.
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I'm not sure if you've already done anything like this, and if you're not comfortable at all with the subject please ignore this request!! 😭
A loved one of mine passed away over the holidays and I was wondering if you had any headcannons for Cove abt helping mc with greif?
Ofc please don't feel pressure or force yourself!! :((
Your writing is always a pleasure to read. I wish you the best!!🫶
≻ — Cove helping you cope with grief
Tags: Discussion of loss, hurt/comfort
A/N: I'm sorry for your loss, anon. I hope I was able to write something that helped.
Cove Holden
There's nothing in the world that hurts Cove more than knowing you're in pain. He doesn't know how to handle the way your hurting makes him feel and he wishes he knew the exact right thing to say to make it all go away. But he doesn't.
When he sees you, curled up in your room with your body shaking, a breath away from falling apart – he freezes.
Loss isn’t something Cove is all too familiar with. Yes, his parents divorced and his family was separated but that was a different kind of loss entirely from the loss of a life, of a loved one. He hasn’t lost a relative like this. His maternal grandparents were still alive. He didn’t know anyone from his father’s side of the family.
He didn’t know how you felt and that tore him up inside. He wants to help so badly.
But when you look up at him, tired and teary, his own heart breaks. He doesn’t know the right thing to say because no magic words can undo your pain. But he can be there for you. And maybe that’s enough.
He opens his arms wide, a silent offer for comfort if you want physical contact. When you nod, a little sob finally breaking free from your chest he doesn’t hesitate to cross the room and into your space. He wraps himself around you, pulling you against his when he sits on your bed.
You’re safe like this. You can cling to his arm and cry as hard as you need to, if you want to scream then scream. Your emotions aren’t going to frighten him. You aren’t wrong for feeling and he’ll be with you through it, without judgment.
If you can’t express your feelings, if you’re so shocked you feel numb, that’s fine too. There’s no right way to grieve. There’s no right way to feel your emotions. He’ll hold you all the same, resting his cheek on the crown of your head and letting you know that no matter what, he’s there.
How you process your feelings isn’t anyone else’s business and Cove will gladly say that to anyone’s face if they have a problem. There isn’t a set timeline for recovery, you just need to take it day by day, moment by moment.
His arms squeeze tighter around you, wanting the warmth of his skin to ground you and remind you that you’re here, he’s here, and you’re so loved.
Someday the pain will settle. The loss you feel and the ache in your chest will be washed over, taken in, and reincorporated into your “normal” like footprints getting washed away by the tide.
It was alright that you weren't okay today. He would stay beside you until you were and every day after that.
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Azel Radwan: Romantic Ending Ch. 25 His Side Story
Chapter 25
Thank you @shatcey for providing the video for this chapter!
♡———♡
I had a bad feeling about this.
Kamal: Hey, shouldn't you tell Miss Emma the truth?
Kamal: If she knew you were alive, I think she'd be happy.
Azel: Even if that's true, absolutely don't tell her.
Kamal: Why?
Azel: ...Just because.
Kamal: That's not a reason. You're the one who wants to see her so badly.
Azel: Would you please not fabricate people's feelings?
(A dead god can't freely walk around outside.)
(...What am I going to do, tying down that woman who's continuing her journey as a book merchant?)
(In the first place, I don't want to see her, nor do I want her to be by my side.)
(When I let my guard down, I do remember her, but that's all.)
(Even for me, that woman will eventually become a dream.)
Kamal: I'm not fabricating anything. Because, Azel, you're clearly depressed.
Azel: Huh?
Kamal: You're absent-minded. You might as well admit it.
Kamal: That you've fallen in love with her.
Azel: Don't say such disgusting things, that's absolutely not true.
(Everyone's saying whatever they want.)
(There's no such thing.)
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(...There isn't, but...)
The regular meeting of the triple alliance was held in secret.
The complacency that no outsider would come led to this current tragedy.
Emma: You definitely love me, Prince Azel.
The woman, whom I thought I would never see again, said it shamelessly and boldly.
Azel: ...........................
Emma: It's no use sulking.
Azel: I'm not.
Azel: No matter what you say, I don't love you.
Azel: ...Go back. Pretend you didn't see me.
Azel: I'll strangle Kamal when I get back. I told him at least a thousand times not to tell you.
Emma: Unfortunately, I can't just obediently go back.
(Go back...)
(...Please.)
Even though I denied it with my words, my heart was strangely restless.
The longer this conversation dragged on, the more likely I was to reach out to her.
Whether aware of my inner struggle or not, the woman casually took off her bag and took out paper, a quill, and ink from it.
(What is she doing?)
I peered at her hand, and a bad feeling swelled up as I saw the letters being written.
Azel: ...An invoice?
Emma: Yes. First, the expenses for Kamal's request... and the mental anguish I suffered...
(What do you mean, "expenses for Kamal's request"? I haven't heard anything about this...)
Emma: The reward for the success of that day's plan, plus compensation for various damages...
Azel: What are these "various damages"?
Emma: ...K-Kisses, hugs, and all that stuff!
Azel: Huh?
Emma: Subtracting my debt from this and calculating...
Emma: I think it comes to about this much!
The invoice thrust in front of me listed a theoretically impossible amount to repay, filled with zeros.
Azel: You... can you even read these digits?
Emma: No, I can't.
Azel: Don't say it so proudly.
Emma: But I won't let you say you can't pay.
Emma: ...My heart is expensive.
Azel: ......
I could sense her desperation, as if she was about to cry.
Perhaps the woman was just imitating the god who once bound her with debt.
(...Something worth a fortune...)
(If you put a price on it, maybe this is indeed the theoretical value.)
Azel: ...A dead god can't appear on the public stage again.
Azel: Unlike you, I'll be living in the shadows from now on.
(What is she talking about?)
(I should just throw the invoice back at her, saying it's ridiculous...)
(...This makes it seem like I'm the one clinging to her.)
(Even though that's not my intention.)
Emma: Then all the more reason why it's worth paying me.
Azel: Specifically?
Emma: I'll run a lot of errands in place of Prince Azel, who can't move freely.
Azel: That's fine, there are other people.
Emma: I'll even make delicious food.
Azel: ...I won't have any trouble with food even without you.
Emma: More than anything...
Emma: I'll teach you what true love is.
Emma: I'll correct your distorted perception of love and make you say, "My life was happy"!
Azel: .....
Azel: ...............
Azel: ..........................
(Damn it...)
(...You understand why I'm pushing you away, don't you?)
(Love is a curse.)
(It's something that makes people unhappy.)
(I've never seen proper love.)
(...Certainly, this "true love" you're talking about is different from what I know...)
(...Maybe I'm just ignorant...)
The woman—Emma is waiting for an answer.
Her gaze was so sincere and genuine that it took my breath away.
She seems to truly believe that she can teach me about "true love," and my heart wavers with an unfamiliar curiosity.
(...I don't like you... I shouldn't...)
Against my will, my hand snatched the invoice.
Azel: ...I'm just reluctantly accepting you to repay my debt.
Azel: Don't misunderstand.
(I've done it now.)
Regret immediately washed over me, but Emma's satisfied smile blew it all away.
Azel: Oh dear... With this much debt, I'll be broke for life.
Emma: Poor you.
Emma: Ow... ow!
Azel: ––...Don't run away until I've paid it all off.
(It's fine. I'll get over it.)
(...I know it's unreasonable.)
Emma: Do you know what that's called in the world?
Emma: It's called "adorable."
Azel: .............
Azel: ...I know that much.
(I don't want to admit it...)
(Even now, I honestly wish this was all a mistake...)
Against my will, I embraced her.
Azel: I've been cursed. By you, of all people...
Azel: I hate emotions that can't be explained with logic.
Azel: But I love you. Damn it...
-
I remember a dream I once had.
Azel: As for me, I'd rather not have anything to do with love.
Azel: ––Because I'm a god who doesn't love people.
(How did it come to this?)
Emma's dream, which I occasionally wander into, had undergone a noticeable change.
The immature space that only had buds was now surrounded by a multitude of roses, and the night sky had transformed into a clear blue one.
The sweet scent of roses tickled my nose, and I couldn't help but frown.
(...Dreams are a mirror that reflects a person's heart...)
Emma: Burn this into your eyes.
Emma: Because this entire space is probably my heart, which loves Prince Azel so much that it can't help itself.
Azel: ...Please stop.
Emma: And look at this.
Emma grabbed my arm and dragged me to the oak table.
There wasn't an unfinished book there, but a rose encased in a glass dome.
The fresh rose was partially crystallized, sparkling in the sunlight.
Emma: It's the most beautiful rose in the dream world.
Azel: ...Is that so?
Emma: I wonder what it means.
Azel: Don't ask me. This is your dream.
(...There's no need to guess anymore.)
Emma: This must also be my love.
Azel: ......
Emma: Don't I love Prince Azel too much?
Azel: Don't say it yourself.
(I never thought I'd experience such torture in someone else's dream.)
In this unbearably sweet space, Emma was smiling the whole time.
I couldn't take my eyes off her face for some reason.
(No... I know the reason why.)
(Once you're cursed, it's no use, it's too late.)
(...She's so adorable.)
(...)
Azel: ...Ah.
Suddenly, I noticed my face reflected in the glass dome.
It was a horrifying face, the likes of which I had never seen before in my life.
(Who is that... Is that me?)
(...What a nightmare.)
When I looked down, Emma, who had been looking at the rose all this time, was trembling.
Emma: It's alright, I already noticed.
Azel: ...What's alright about it, damn it.
(It's no use denying it with words anymore.)
Azel: ...Sigh.
Emma: Why are you sighing?
Azel: I'm just disgusted with myself.
(I'm getting tired of desperately denying it.)
(This is a dream... I can admit it a little in a dream.)
(...You're not the only one who loves too much...)
(...What's worth a fortune to me is right here...)
Azel: When and where did I go wrong? I wasn't supposed to love you, not one bit...
I couldn't help but look up at the clear sky.
The soft light pouring down from the moonless sky was pleasant.
Azel: I strayed from the path, this is the worst.
Azel: ...The fact that I don't hate it, that's the worst part.
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Romantic Ending Epilogue
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I truly get some folks' reactions to c3e118. If you've followed CR from the beginning and/or have a very deep love for Exandria as a place above everything else, including the main characters of this campaign, of course anything that puts Exandria at risk is going to be unfathomable. Never mind that Exandria is always at risk because that is the nature of D&D environments, they're always being menaced by something because that is part of their function, otherwise D&D parties would have nothing to do. But this time some folks feel like it's the party that has put it at more risk than usual and that is not generally what most non-evil-aligned parties do. To me it feels…unlikely that this is the first time it’s happened in all of CR, but what do I know? Maybe it is? Or maybe to this extent?
Whatever, point is I completely understand that feeling and I’m sad so many of my fellow fans are upset because of it. Especially because to me this is all very exciting and I like to share that excitement with other folks. That is the fun of fandom spaces online, that shared happiness and excitement in something that you can enjoy collectively. I wish that could be the case here, but clearly it isn’t going to happen this time, at least for part of the fandom.
What I don't get are folks who seem so shocked that Bell's Hells, in particular, did this. They were talking about these exact actions as an option as recently as c3e115 during their conversations with the Mighty Nein. Did folks think they were lying? Maybe they wanted it not to be true so badly they convinced themselves it could never happen?
And, at least in a few cases in the fandom, it's apparently hard to hear what the characters are saying over the sound of your own voice telling them to shut up. To be clear, this last group is the only one I don’t have any sympathy for. You chose to follow something you hated for YEARS. Why should I care that you hate it now too?
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My Darling - Choi Seung Hyun x reader part 2
Summary: After months of not seeing your best friend, you finally reconnect, only to find out what he truly thinks about himself and the two of you, resulting in a brokenheart, and a new relationship
Warnings: none really, Seung Hyun having a slight panic attack
As you wrapped up filming for squid games, you were very quickly thrown back into the tour lifestyle, Bouncing from country to country, you couldn't shake the sadness of missing your friend though. As you got ready for your next music video shoot you took a nervous breath, you had sent an invite to Seung Hyun to come shoot on your video with you, using the excuse that you work well together acting, but he never replied. So you nervously waited, having a back-up actor if needed, but you specifically wrote this song about Seung Hyun, so it only felt right to get the chemistry behind the song right.
As you stepped on set you took one last glance around, all you could see was the empty warehouse set filled with props and crew, but Seung Hyun was nowhere to be seen, sighing sadly you checked your phone one last time, seeing nothing almost brought tears to your eyes, had he not meant what he said? Yea it had been a few months, but he did promise you..right?
As you started to film some of your solo scenes, you manager rushed over with a smile "Y/n! Y/n! Turn that frown around, baby! Your guy called, he's on his way, just stuck in traffic!" He cheered, you face immediately lit up, smiling excitedly and jumping up and down "Really!? Really!? He said he'd do it?" You gasped grabbing his arms "Yes! Yes! He did!" He smiled, he knew your situation, he had to hear about Choi Seung Hyun constantly, he tried to warn you it might not be the best for your image, but you quickly snapped at him going off about needing to get over things, your manager knew you since you were young, barely 17 whenever he signed you on, now you were nearing your thirties, your twenty eighth birthday approaching quickly, so seeing you this excited over a boy was something entirely different.
Unknown to you, Seung Hyun had ditched his taxi long ago, he was close enough to be able to make it running, traffic was picking up anyways. As he ran up onto your set he saw you standing off to the side, waiting while looking around occasionally "Seung Hyun!" You shouted seeing him, throwing your jacket down to sprint to him, as soon as you were close enough, Seung Hyun immediately lifted you into the air spinning you around in a hug, squeezing you tightly "Hey! Hey! Careful! Don't hurt her!" Your manager shouted in a panic "Don't worry about him, he just doesn't want anything messed up for my show" You giggled looking down to your friend, your heart racing feeling yourself being that close to him again. "So are you really gonna do the video with me?" You asked excited, Seung Hyun nervously smiled "Ya know..I don't know...I want to..but I don't want to ruin your image and stuff..." He mumbled, you frowned, you knew he was still ashamed of what happened and how badly everybody reacted, it hit him hard and it was always worried about how it'd effect the people around him "Seung Hyun! I don't care about that! You are my best friend! I want you to be the part so who cares!" You argued cupping his cheeks, Seung Hyun couldn't hide the blush on his cheeks feeling your hands being so intimate than you had ever been with him.
"I guess..If you're sure.." He mumbled "I'm so sure! If anybody has anything to say I'll give them a piece of my mind!" You huffed grabbing his hand marching towards set, he gave your manager a look raising his eyebrows, your manager just nodded mouthing the words 'every time'. Filming was something neither of you expected, as your manager and director worked together to get everything right, going through the lyrics it started to make you realize things a lot more clear. You loved Sueng Hyun, more than best friends. Seung Hyun felt panicky, having to be so intimate with you was getting him flustered and it was all going on camera, for you to see later and see.
After you filmed a scene of Seung Hyun following you through an empty street in town, he took a moment to stop and breath, lighting a cigarette to calm his nerves, but there you were, looking at him with that adorable puppy look. "Are you okay?.." You asked softly, going to rest your hand on his arm but he just shrugged away, he couldn't help it, your touch was making him feel hot, like it was burning him, and he was now becoming very conscious of his t-shirt and all of the hate he used to get before he closed it all out. "I-Im sorry I-I just-" You stopped him from speaking, noticing his shaky hands and the tears falling from his eyes as he slowly slid down the brick wall trying to keep his breathing calm, but the panic attack was already settling in. You immediately kneeled next to him, slowly taking the cigarette from his hand, not wanting to see him accidentally burn himself, as you tried to sit next to him he tried to lift you up to your feet "T-T-that ground i-is disgusting" He whimpered, your heart broke a little bit, he was more worried about you sitting down he didn't realize he was sitting down himself "It is..so why don't..we go over there..and sit on that bench?" You asked, taking his hand in yours, still holding his cigarette in the other, guiding him slowly to the bench as he tried to calm himself down, feeling like an idiot for getting like this around you, but like the sweetheart you were, you still took care of him, not even knowing the reason why he was freaking out.
"Seung Hyun..." You called sweetly, cupping his cheek with your free hand "Honey..take a deep breath for me, what's going on?" You asked, Seung Hyun followed your instructions, not realizing he was holding your wrist gently, caressing his thumb over it. "If I ask something...Will you be honest, Y/n?" He asked shakily, his leg bouncing as he looked around, taking the hint you took the cigarette placing it to his lips gently "I don't want you to drop it..but of course" You whispered, you weren't concerned that you were acting more like a wife or girlfriend than friend currently, you were more concerned with making sure Seung Hyun was okay. "Is this..about us?..is that why you wanted me to be here so badly?" He asked, inhaling before exhaling, lifting your head up gently as he blew the smoke to the side so he wasn't getting it in your face. "When I'm with you..things feel different..like..stronger with you..I'm happier, sadder, angrier, everything when it comes to you" You explained sheepishly, going to pull your hand away from his cheek, but he stopped you, instead moving your hand to his lap to interlace your fingers as you spoke, the same thing he did anytime you'd get teary eyed opening up to him during your guys's filming for squid games "I-I didn't understand it..until I saw you again, and I felt like I never wanted you to leave like that again" You whispered looking away from him "I-It was hard..really hard..and barely being able to speak to each other, made it harder.." You whimpered, biting your lip to keep yourself from crying.
"Are you sure we're not just..close friends?" He asked, not wanting you to jump into something you didn't want, you didn't take it as that, you took it as he only saw you as that, close friends. "Y-Yea you're..you're right" You sniffled, taking a deep breath putting on your best show face to hide the plain hurt on your face "Ready to finish up?" You asked, Seung Hyun frowned, knowing he upset you, he just silently followed behind.
Whenever you finished up filming, you rushed towards your small makeup trailer, just needing a moment, Seung Hyun was stuck off to the side, frustrated with himself "Seung Hyun, yes?" Your manager asked approaching him "U-uh yes yes that's me" He confirmed, your manager sighed "Listen, I don't mean to make things..awkward..between you two, but in the ten years I've known that girl, she's never talked about another man or woman like she has you, Mr. Choi, she's one of your biggest fighters, even before she got back from that tv show filming. Meeting you gave her the drive and motivation to work and write again, she's produced an entire album! In a month! So whatever happened earlier between you two..You better not ruin my girl, she's special, not another one like her, until you make a comeback" He explained before nodding over to the trailer "Fix it. Not my broken mess, not my problem to fix" He demanded, Seung felt offended by that, this man seemed to care about you, and yet here he was calling you a broken mess? "Y/n is far from a broken mess, she's single handedly the most independent strong hard headed woman I've ever met, not to mention the most thoughtful selfless and beautiful! Any guy would be lucky to manage her! Or even have her in their life!" He shouted, your manager just kept an eyebrow cocked at him as he shouted, never noticing you slowly making your way out of the trailer "So why don't you tell her that!? Instead of messing with her head for months!?" Your manager shouted back "Because I'm not good enough for her! And because of who I am I never will be!" He shouted back, trying to control himself and not storm off, every bit of anger washing away whenever he was met with your terrified gaze, even when filming while screaming in your face, you never looked scared of him, but in this moment, you looked truly terrified.
Tears brimmed your eyes, hearing what both men said was like a knife stabbing you to the heart, you stormed past, not wanting to see either of them in the moment, heading back to your tour bus. Your chest hurt, it felt heavy but like it was hot at the same time, as soon as you got the bunks of your bus you let yourself cry for the first time since Seung Hyun first left, never noticing the bus door shutting and closing.
"Jagi" Seung Hyun whispered sadly, kneeling next to you as he tried to get him to look at you "Honey, You are not a hot mess" He whispered, you just glared at him "How could you say that about yourself? I opened up about my worst mistake..and you still think you're not good enough?" You whimpered "Y-You're crying because of what..I said about myself?" He asked confused, tilting his head as you shoved him slightly "Yes! I care about you! And it makes me sad hearing you think that" You argued shoving him again "I love you, you asshole! And you're too blind to see you're perfect!" You added on before realizing what you were saying, Seung Hyun's face changed as you spoke, you just glared at him, trying your best to cry anymore but his words just echoed in your head forcing you to lose your battle 'because of who I am I will never be good enough'.
"Jagi, please don't cry" Seung Hyun begged, cupping your cheeks, desperately wanting to see your smile like before, he tried his best to keep his mind from spiraling "I just...I care about you a lot, and it hurts so bad hearing you talk about yourself like that, Seung Hyun, you are good enough for anything you want to be good enough at, because of who you are" You corrected his statement from earlier, now it was his turn to get teary eyed, trying to ignore and hide it he just hugged you tightly "I love you" He whispered as he rested his head against yours, if it weren't for the hairdo they had you do for the last scene you would've never felt his tears "As a friend?.." You asked pulling away to look at him, using your thumbs to wipe his eyes and cheeks gently "I don't..I don't know..but I want to" He whispered, cupping your cheeks before kissing you softly, you happily kissing him back, running your hands through his hair as he gently bit your bottom lip before pulling away "So..does this mean.." You whispered, looking up to him hopefully "Maybe so..I don't know" He smirked, quoting part of the chorus of your song, you giggled blushing hiding your face in his chest.
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Part three my lovelies?
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Heaven's Best AU just wanna make sure I do understand.Your Winner!Vox is like canon version but somehow ended up in heaven!? Was he really surprised himself and of course, staying there over 50 years with a long a healthy and a positive environment with along her, bestie Emily, a good of influence on him give him a change of heart. also, it could before died He accidentally did a good deed without realizing it he expected he was ended up in HELL!? Due of the heaven system make it a special pass in a way for him, Or it’s not that big of a surprise do the fact as WHAT IF did better choice compare his canon version!?
The simple reason I give on why Winner!Vox ended up in Heaven is that he was Rich and Never Had a Bad Day.
He was just insanely lucky. There was never a situation where he had to make any kind of decision that would lead to him ending up in Hell. Some of his money ended up going to good causes because - well, life was great for him! It was money he wasn't using and he was pretty much set for life. He simply didn't feel compelled to do anything bad to make more money (if only that could happen in real life) so he just. Ended up throwing money at good causes because people working under him would suggest things to fund and he'd just be like 'sure, whatever' and get lucky they were all legitimately good.
He went through life without him actually doing anything or really caring about who he was helping. If you asked him to list what causes he donated or funded he would have no idea.
When he ends up in Heaven, he's faced with Winners who set out to make things better for the less fortunate. Who committed acts of good out of love or because it was right. And those who weren't in any position of power to help strangers still worked hard for their families and loved ones and brought happiness into their lives.
And Vox didn't.
He knows his money helped someone, probably. So that's all he can say he did.
But now money isn't even a thing in Heaven and no one actually needs help up here so he can't 'catch up'. He feels like he has nothing, and everyone else has... something. Everything? And he can feel that other Winners know something is different about him.
In the beginning he doesn't like telling other Winners he's basically in Heaven because he was rich (he actually tried avoiding telling Husk this when he asks) and it's not until Emily hypes it up and gives all the positives that he's a little more open about it. Pretends he really did give a damn about the people he helped until he believed it himself.
He threw himself into making Heaven 'better' to make himself feel better. This could have ended up badly for others if it was on Earth or Hell, but Vox is surrounded by good people. No one wants to do him harm and most of his negative feelings are just due to him overthinking things. Emily helps him out a lot and any time an idea of his comes out as self-serving, she is able to spin it in a way that makes it help everyone and remind him that the goal is to help everyone, not just himself.
Living with other Winners and being friends with Emily for over 50 years means a lot of good traits did rub off on him! Vox is much, much friendlier than his canon counterpart because of this. It's also why there's a kind of aura of innocence around him once and a while. He's lived in Heaven for longer than he's been alive.
Just like when he was on earth, Heaven never throws him into a situation where there's a wrong choice to be made.
Of course, that changes when he visits Hell.
Read the Heaven's Best AU HERE
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This is actually so dialogue heavy be warned.
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"Im leaving Camelot."
Arthur nearly chokes on his wine and Gwen openly gapes at him.
Merlin laughs lightly at the look on their faces and Gwen's heart melts just a bit because how long has it been since they truly spent a moment together?
He stood in front of their table and Arthur took a moment to look, really look, at Merlin. His eyes were dark and his shoulders were broader compared to when he first came to Camelot. His smile was something Arthur hardly got to see anymore. And as Arthur processed the weight of Merlin's words, a sick feeling of dread slowly began building up somewhere in his heart.
"What? How- What brought this on, Merlin?" Gwen spoke, her voice quivering slightly. Arthur knew that she was likely fiddling with a ring on her finger, a nervous habit she picked up from him.
"I-" Merlin hesitated. One of his hands grasped at his forearm nervously. He looked like he might tear up. "I don't know what to do with myself now."
He locked eyes with Arthur.
"Ever since I first came to Camelot, I've lived in constant paranoia. I could never fully trust any friends I made for fear of the pyre. And- and when you started changing into this-," Merlin gestured to Arthur, "-this selfless, kind, brave king- I did everything I could to protect that. When you started courting Gwen, I did all that I could because I wanted you two be happy. It changed me, Arthur."
They knew about Merlin's magic but he had never truly told them about what Merlin had gone through throughout the years. They were stuck feeling helpless as the light slowly drained from his eyes, doing whatever they could but it never felt like enough.
He went on explaining.
"I turned into a weapon. My hands are stained with the blood of hundreds and yet it never mattered to me as long as you were both safe. But- when you stopped needing me?" Tears were flowing down his pale cheeks as he wiped them helplessly. Gwen got up immediately, rushing to wipe at them with a handkerchief. Arthur was right behind her, a hand on both gwen and Merlin's shoulders.
"I don't know what to do with myself. Gaius has a new physician's apprentice who's way better at medicine than I am, you and Arthur have George, Morgana is an excellent court sorceress, and I'm still here."
Arthur wanted to interrupt. It pained him, more than anything, to hear Merlin talk like that about himself. Like there was no worth in him other than how well he could serve others.
Gwen cried quietly. She had been so busy with learning the inner workings of court life that she missed how her best friend has been feeling.
"Merlin-"
"I need to find myself Arthur, Gwen. And- I can't do that here anymore." He looked so pained as he spoke. Gwen knew how selfish of her it would be to ask him to stay anyway but she wanted to, so badly. And she ached.
"..Okay," the king started, "if that is what you believe is best. But Merlin-"
"You will always, always have a place in Camelot. And I'm so sorry we ever made you feel like you didn't." Her voice came out strong, for she knew that Merlin needed something more, and neither the king nor queen could provide that anymore.
Arthur let his tears fall openly now, and he tightened his hold on them both, on his most precious people, the two who taught him to be better, to truly be a king. He loved them both so, so much. And his heart hurt with how badly he never wanted to let go.
And the three stayed there for a long while, weeping together. Eventually Merlin had to leave. Arthur resisted the urge to pull him back.
And Gwen couldn't see him off at the courtyard properly because she knew she would crack, beg him to stay, apologize a thousand times. And she didn't because she knew that Merlin would.
So when he left and long after they lost sight of his horse and lantern, they stayed by the window. Eventually, Gwen let out a sob and rushed into Arthur's arms. She mourned and cried and sobbed as loud as she needed and pretended like she couldn't feel a patch on her shoulder getting wet.
They fell asleep with heavy hearts and the knowledge of a ring on Arthur's desk that will never meet its intended hand, a third of a coin on a braided necklace that will never be accepted, a speech meticulously planned to ask him to stay with the two forever, to rule alongside them.
Perhaps a lot of things were left unsaid.
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AAASJEHAIDBOS S
I read pt. 1 of @mysticsublimeperson's mergwenthur au a lonng time ago and this thing has been running around in my head ever since.
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Hello! Is it ok if you do sfw alphabet with Gale from Baldur's Gate 3?
𝓢𝓕𝓦 𝓐𝓵𝓹𝓱𝓪𝓫𝓮𝓽 - 𝓖𝓪𝓵𝓮 𝓓𝓮𝓴𝓪𝓻𝓲𝓸𝓼
Anything for my favorite fans!! First time writing for this char so once again ykyk
𝐀 = 𝐀𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)
❤︎ Gale loves affection, both giving and receiving. He might not be the biggest on PDA, but he's definitely not going to say no to you, he could never say no to you.
❤︎ How he shows his affection depends on whether or not the two of you are alone. Gale is a more private person when it comes to actual displays of affection. In front of the others he might hold your hand, peck you on the cheek or lips or hug you. In private, he loves to cuddle and have little make out session if you're up for it.
𝐁 = 𝐁𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝 (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)
❤︎ Gale holds you in high regards as his friends. You are the person he tells everything to. His grief over how things went with Mystra, his fears, regrets. Get used to him talking your ears off at every chance possible.
❤︎ It wouldn't take long for Gale to develop a friendship with you. You're someone who listens to him, even if his rants and lectures get a little bit annoying. He's practically glued to you from day one.
𝐂 = 𝐂𝐮𝐝𝐝𝐥𝐞𝐬 (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)
❤︎ Gale loves cuddling. He loves being cozied up with you while he reads a book. It's one his favorite ways to unwind, and he has fallen asleep on you on more than one occasion.
❤︎ Little spoon through and through, though he doesn't like admitting that. That isn't to say he doesn't like being the big spoon either. The most important part for him is being close to you, feeling the comforting reassurance of your body.
𝐃 = 𝐃𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜 (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)
❤︎ Yes. He absolutely loves the idea of settling down with you. Getting married, living in Waterdeep, him teaching magic and enjoying a quiet life together after all you both had been through.
❤︎ Okay at cooking at cleaning. Nothing ground breaking, but he gets the job done. His own personal space is an organized mess. There are some items strewn around, but he knows where everything is. Worst part of his house is the dust in the bookshelves.
𝐄 = 𝐄𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)
❤︎ Probably with a long talk. He doesn't want to just leave you in the dust. Even if you deeply hurt him, you're still someone he completely adored, and he thinks you deserve that much.
❤︎ Needs a lot of time apart after that. He might be open to rekindle your friendship, but a relationship is likely out of the question, depending on what you did. He can't let himself be hurt in that way, not again.
𝐅 = 𝐅𝐢𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞(𝐞) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)
❤︎ He definitely wants to get married. Gale loves you, and he loves the idea of tying the knot to signify your bond, your promise to each other and most importantly your love.
❤︎ Takes a little while for him to pop the question. He wants to, really badly, but he wants to refrain from making rash decisions or putting you on the spot. This moment is significant for him, and he wants to make sure it's done at the right time.
𝐆 = 𝐆𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐥𝐞 (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)
❤︎ Very, very gentle. Gale isn't exactly the rough type. His physical gestures are more slow and romantic. Soft, yet firm embraces, kisses to the face. Even when he gets more playful he makes sure not to accidentally hurt you.
❤︎ Emotionally he tries. I mean he would never intentionally hurt you, but he can come off as a little condescending. Problem is, Gale doesn't see it as a problem.
𝐇 = 𝐇𝐮𝐠𝐬 (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)
❤︎ Yes, very much. Pretty much always up for a hug. Embracing you is comforting to him, and he actively seeks it out. Hugs are some of the more common displays of affection you get from him.
❤︎ The type of hugs mostly just depends on the mood. Usually his hugs are gentle, one hand on the back of your head and the other one around your waist. When he's gone through something, his arms are firmly around your midsection, trapping your arms as he pulls you close.
𝐈 = 𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 (How fast do they say the L-word?)
❤︎ He says it when he admits he has fallen for you. Gale struggles to get it out at first, but it feels like a weight has been lifted off his shoulders when he finally says it.
❤︎ After that it's smooth sailing for him. He enjoys saying it. When he greets you he says it, when the two of you are cuddling, and whenever he is just feeling a little bit sentimental.
𝐉 = 𝐉𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐲 (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)
❤︎ He is a decently jealous man. He's very aware of his shortcomings, seeing you interact with more attractive and capable men than him, it tends to crush his ego quite a bit. He can't help but compare himself to the others in your life.
❤︎ Sulks, a lot. He tries to keep it to himself but it ends up spilling out one way or another. Gale seeks your comfort in times of jealousy. He wants to be reassured, told that you love him.
𝐊 = 𝐊𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐬 (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)
❤︎ Gale loves kisses. Swift pecks on the lips, hums as he kisses you on the cheek and nose. And emotional and love driven kiss against your forehead or the top of your head. He's up for it all.
❤︎ He'd say he loves being kissed everywhere. But if he's honest, he likes kisses on the corner of his mouth. But if he was feeling more adventurous, his neck and his shoulder are definitely the places to target.
𝐋 = 𝐋𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬 (How are they around children?)
❤︎ Gale is pretty decent with kids. Doesn't feel super strongly about them, doesn't dislike them either. He interacts with them sometimes, does some magic to make them laugh if he's looking after them.
❤︎ Hasn't really thought about having his own before he met you. Now the thought crosses his mind sometimes. He wonders what it would be like if the two of you had a little one of your own, a product of your shared love.
𝐌 = 𝐌𝐨𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 (How are mornings spent with them?)
❤︎ Gale isn't that much of a morning person. He prefers sleeping in with you if possible. Prepare for some cheeky pick up line on how he loves waking up beside you. He has tripped over some of his stuff first thing in the morning on more than one occasion.
❤︎ Likes making breakfast together if he has the chance. Gives him an excuse to be close to you while you get the day started. After that he might go off to go teach, or he might plan something with you.
𝐍 = 𝐍𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 (How are nights spent with them?)
❤︎ Type to turn in early. He doesn't go to sleep immediately, enjoying a slow night routine. Romantic evenings with you is something he looks forward to. Having dinner together, watching the stars and catching up after a long day.
❤︎ Reads a little bit before drifting off. Sometimes he'll chat a little, you wrapped up in his arms, firmly pulled against his body. Tends to be the first one of you two to fall asleep.
𝐎 = 𝐎𝐩𝐞𝐧 (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)
❤︎ He can't be mysterious even if he tries. He runs his mouth a lot. Sure, he doesn't talk much about the deeper, personal things, but you definitely heard about him being Mystra's former chosen, and the fact he is a wizard.
❤︎ The deeper stuff comes a bit later. When he trusts you, he spills everything. His deepest insecurities, how he was cast aside, how he felt, and how he feels about you.
𝐏 = 𝐏𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 (How easily angered are they?)
❤︎ Not angered that fast, and can generally keep a cool head even if he's peeved. He does his best to be understanding, especially when it comes down to you. He holds you in high regards, and prefers to think you have good intentions.
❤︎ Prefers to cool off alone, before he says anything he regrets. He'll take some time to sort himself out, read books, maybe practice. After that he'll seek you out himself to talk things out.
𝐐 = 𝐐𝐮𝐢𝐳𝐳𝐞𝐬 (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)
❤︎ Remembers a lot about you. He can't help but admire you. Remembering things you like and implementing them within the relationship. He doesn't remember every detail, but he retains the things that count.
❤︎ Likes bringing it up. It's to impress you mostly. He really wants you to know he has been paying attention to your wants, needs and desires.
𝐑 = 𝐑𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)
❤︎ That night under the stars where he first confessed his love for you. So many feelings were going through him at that time. He had a parasite in his brain and an orb in him that was about to explode. Yet you accepted his feelings.
❤︎ Gale still thinks about it often, even later. The details are burned in his head. He remembers how he used his magic to make the sky look, the first kiss you shared, everything. It even causes him to zone out a little.
𝐒 = 𝐒𝐞𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐲 (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)
❤︎ Gale is plenty protective. He wants you safe but he's not overbearing. Obviously magic is his main form of protecting you from danger. Whether that be creepy guys by the inn, or enemies on the battlefield.
❤︎ Gale secretly likes being protected, just a little bit. Whenever you step up for him, he can't help but admire you while you do so. Though if you pick fights with powerful enemies on his behalf, he's definitely going to panic. You're shaving the years of this humans life.
𝐓 = 𝐓𝐫𝐲 (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)
❤︎ Definitely tries, kind of a show off. He loves taking you out on dates after a long week of teaching and learning magic. He loves some alone time with you to help him unwind. Gale tries to go all out anniversaries. He uses all that he learned about you to make the moment special.
❤︎ Magic ties heavily into everything. It adds a little extra something to the moment in his eyes. Same effort goes with gifts. This man gifts you books, like a lot of them. Your bedroom has been converted into a library at this rate, though sometimes he gifts items like clothing instead.
𝐔 = 𝐔𝐠𝐥𝐲(What would be some bad habits of theirs?)
❤︎ This is mostly the beginning of the relationship but his constant moping about Mystra can get grating after a while. No one wants to hear their partner go on about their failed relationship.
❤︎ Kind of a know it all. Gale thinks he knows better than you do, especially when it comes to magic. He can and will mansplain it to you, dumbing it down so 'even you can understand'. It has led to a few arguments.
𝐕 = 𝐕𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐲 (How concerned are they with their looks?)
❤︎ So so. He's not concerned with being the hottest guy in the room, but he takes good care of himself. He's well groomed and although he often smells like old books, he's never really filthy.
❤︎ Actually really likes baths. It's a nice way for him to relax. He'll light some candles, and read a few books until the water gets cold. The wizard even though about inviting you to join him a few times.
𝐖 = 𝐖𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐞 (Would they feel incomplete without you?)
❤︎ Mostly yes. First he based his whole self worth around his relationship with Mystra. That obviously ended up in catastrophic failure. You were there when he was down and dying. In his eyes you rescued him, you're part of him.
❤︎ He struggles coming to terms with it, if you're no longer with him. Finds himself talking to you even though you're not there anymore, makes your side of the bed, etc.
𝐗 = 𝐗𝐭𝐫𝐚 (A random headcanon for them.)
❤︎ All of his students know about you. He cannot not shut up about you even if he tried. His students have used it to get extra schoolwork. Just ask Gale about his spouse and he probably has a thousand stories to tell.
❤︎ This also extends to his friends. He mentions it to them when he comes across your favorite foods, drinks, thinks you like, things you dislike. His friends know you better than you know them.
𝐘 = 𝐘𝐮𝐜𝐤 (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)
❤︎ Being unfaithful is obviously one of them. He's completely devoted for you, and he expects the same of you. He loves you, but if you seek the romantic companies of others, he will not stand for that, and he'll let you know.
❤︎ Don't mock him. He has enough securities as is, he doesn't need you picking at him as well. You should be there to support him, not kick him while he's done.
𝐙 = 𝐙𝐳𝐳 (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)
❤︎ A surprisingly deep sleeper. Once he's drifted off, he can sleep through a surprising amount of things. If you get up and are gone too long however, he might wake up, missing your warmth beside him.
❤︎ The bed is often covered in books. There's a book under his pillow, under your pillow, at the foot of your bed. Sometimes you roll over and you're laying on one of his books.
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Close Yet Far (Brothership Aftermath)
Hello! I wanted to make a little story based around a sort of aftermath of Mario & Luigi Brothership. I made one for Odyssey, so I thought I should (plus I've been dying to have an excuse to write about certain headcanons I have from this game). This does have Brothership spoilers!
I hope you all enjoy!
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"Mario!"
Luigi's voice called out to his brother a few seconds after the two of them touched the ground. They were brought back to the Mushroom Kingdom, near the place they were at before their adventure started. As soon as they touched the ground, Mario leaned against Luigi, feeling quite weak. Luigi put his arm around him to help keep Mario standing.
He and Luigi were both injured quite badly in Concordia, but Mario had the worst of it.
"I'm okay, Lu..." Mario reassured. "Just...a bit tired."
'A bit tired'. Luigi knew it was more than just that. However, he knew it wasn't the time to start anything. Wanting to help relieve his brother of some pain, Luigi would pick his brother up, carrying him back home despite the pain he had himself.
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During their time in Concordia, one of the first major things that happened was their battle against Gobblick. In the battle, Gobblick used its arms covered in thorns, wrapping them around Luigi. The experience reminded him of a time long ago, a time when he was tangled in vines thanks to a cruel jester that was now sharing his mind. Once Luigi was let go, he was too shaken to keep fighting. Injured quite badly, Mario finished the fight himself, quickly rushing over to aid his brother who was now covered in cuts.
Little did Mario know he soon would experience something similar.
Once they reached Allsand Island, the two brothers were warned by a nearby individual to avoid the sharkbones that were inhabiting the island. Seeing how drastic the situation was, the two did their best to be careful, trying to avoid the sharkbones as much as they could.
Unfortunately, the only way past them was by getting through quick sand, which slowed them down.
As they were getting closer to the other side of the quick sand, a sharkbone suddenly appeared in front of them, going straight for Mario. It bit him, and Luigi immediately did everything he could to get the sharkbone to let go. When it did, Luigi quickly carried Mario to safety. With Mario slowly losing consciousness due to how severe the bite was, Luigi quickly gave him a mushroom to help. It helped a little, but the injury was still present. It wasn't something a simple mushroom could heal. As Mario slowly gained a bit of energy back, Luigi and Snoutlet insisted on going back to Shipshape, but Mario refused. He was stubborn, and he wanted to continue reconnecting the islands. Reluctantly, they agreed, and the three of them continued to the lighthouse, where they were finally able to reach Shipshape.
Once they got back, the brothers rested there for a few days, much to Mario's disapproval. Mario wanted to keep going, but his body couldn't take it at the time. Normally, bites like that would take months to heal, a toad on the island explained, but with the situation they were in, they couldn't exactly stay and rest forever.
After a few days of rest, they kept going.
But things kept getting worse.
Soon, they met face to face with Bowser. During their fight, Bowser became furious, not wanting to lose. Using all his strength, he punched Mario as hard as he could, sending him flying backwards. Mario was already injured enough as it was, and now it was even worse. Mario took a few minutes to try and recover, but after coming back to reality, he watched as his brother tried his best to fight Bowser alone. Not wanting Luigi to get hurt like he did, Mario pushed himself to get back up, joining the fight once again.
They kept going.
After quite some time, they eventually reached Zokket. By this point, Mario was running on so much adrenaline that it was blocking out most of the pain he was feeling.
That feeling of fear and adrenaline got even stronger as he saw his brother get cut by Zokket's wire cutters.
Luigi was cut severely, going on one knee. Mario tried to rush over to help his brother, but he stopped once he realized his brother was not only injured, but he was now under Zokket's control thanks to his glohm. It forced Luigi to move, making him attack Mario despite his injury. Mario resisted fighting back, not wanting to hurt Luigi even more than he already was thanks to Zokket. After knocking Luigi's hammer away, Luigi's legs gave out from under him due to the amount of pain his body was in. Mario tried to reach out to him, calling out Luigi's name.
In that moment, Luigi broke free.
Once he did, Mario immediately went into action, giving Luigi a mushroom to help with the pain for now. Still unable to really move much, Mario carried his brother for the rest of the fight.
After the fight was over, the brothers and the others quickly got back to Shipshape, with Mario still carrying Luigi. Spotting Peach on the island, Mario rushed over to her, asking her desperately if she could help heal Luigi with her magic. Peach did her best, healing it as much as she could, but with how tired and stressed she was, she couldn't heal it completely.
Thankfully however, it was now at a point where the injury was tolerable. After getting it wrapped in bandages, the brothers quickly went back into action, going off to try and stop Reclusa from whatever plan they were up to.
...
Now that they were home, they were finally able to rest.
With Luigi helping Mario inside the house, the first thing they both did was tend to each other's wounds. Fortunately, they had quite a lot of bandage wrap. Once that was taken care of, the brothers painfully and tiredly dragged themselves to their bedroom, where they got dressed into more comfortable clothes and immediately went to their beds.
As a few days passed, Luigi took the responsibility of taking care of both Mario and the house. Even though it was hard for him to walk with the cut on his side (and the cuts all over his body from Gobblick), it was even harder for Mario. Not wanting his brother to deal with any more pain, he let Mario rest. Luigi made a few meals for himself and Mario, only doing tasks around the house whenever necessary. He didn't want to push himself if he didn't have to.
However, Luigi couldn't help but feel a sort of lonely feeling during all this.
He wasn't used to doing stuff around the house on his own. Sure, he was completely able to just fine, but normally both he and Mario would be moving around. With it just being Luigi, he missed being near his brother, even though he knew his brother was just a floor above him resting peacefully. It was even weirder knowing that this never happened before, even with all the times Mario had gone out on adventures alone. While those times felt lonely too, this felt...different.
At the end of the day, once dinner was eaten and cleaned up, the brothers were now in their beds. Luigi turned off the light once he came inside the room, tucking himself in.
"Buonanotte, Weegee," said Mario.
"Buonanotte, Mario…" said Luigi.
Mario would turn onto his side, with Luigi laying on his back, staring at the ceiling. It was quiet. Luigi tried his best to sleep, closing his eyes, but he couldn't due to the feeling in his chest that hasn't gone away.
A feeling of longing.
Luigi laid there silently for about an hour or two. He was restless, unable to sleep at all no matter how much he tried to find a comfortable position (though with his injuries it was hard to find one). After a while, he gave up, going back to laying on his back and staring at the ceiling.
He didn't know why he was feeling this. Mario was right there. They were in the same room. But Luigi still couldn't help but feel a sort of distance between the two of them.
He couldn't stand it.
"Mario..?" Luigi whispered. "Are you still awake..?"
It was silent for a few seconds.
"...Yeah," Mario responded, turning in his bed to face Luigi. "Can't sleep?"
Luigi would shake his head.
"Me neither," Mario confessed. No position he laid in was comfortable.
Both brothers tried to think of something to say, leading to more silence. However, Mario could tell something was wrong with Luigi by the look on his face.
"What's wrong?" Mario asked.
Luigi tried his best to think of the right words to say.
"I don't...I don't know," He muttered, confused. "It's just...a-after we came back from Concordia...something just felt...off. I-It's like...this weird feeling in my chest that won't go away. And it makes me feel upset. Like I want to hug something."
As Luigi let his thoughts out, Mario listened quietly. Mario could relate to Luigi's pain the more and more he explained.
"But it's weird because...you're here," Luigi continued. "But I still feel it. You're only a few feet away from me, but it still feels..."
"Far?" Mario asked.
Luigi was surprised by Mario finishing his sentence. But he was right. Mario did feel far away.
"...Y-Yeah," Luigi whispered, looking down. "Do you feel that..?"
"Yeah," Mario agreed. "Ever since we got back...I don't know what it is, but...every time I watched you leave the room, I just felt a sense of dread. As if you just...left forever. Or something was going to happen to you. I knew that wasn't true, because I could still hear you downstairs, but...it still hurt. I missed you."
"I missed you too," Luigi muttered.
The brothers then went quiet again. They didn't really know what to say after that. But knowing that they both felt the same pain as each other hurt.
Mario didn't want Luigi to feel that way. And Luigi didn't want Mario to feel that way either.
Feeling slightly more upset, Luigi buried half his face under the covers of his bed.
"Hey, Lu?" Mario called out.
"Yeah..?" Luigi whimpered.
"Do you want to move over here?" Mario asked, moving over slightly in his bed so Luigi could have more room.
Luigi nodded, sitting up in his bed and moving over to Mario's. The second he did, the feeling in his chest was gone. He felt safe. He felt comfortable.
He didn't feel alone anymore.
Mario felt the same way.
"Better?" Mario asked.
Luigi teared up a little, a smile forming on his face.
"Y-Yeah..." Luigi smiled. "Better."
Luigi then gave his brother a big hug, one that he had been wanting to give him for a while. Mario gave him a tight hug in return, holding onto him and not wanting to let go.
Finally feeling their bond with each other once again, they both finally started to feel comfortable enough to sleep.
"Buonanotte, Luigi."
"Buonanotte, Mario."
-END-
#mario#luigi#NOT A SHIP#super mario bros#mario and luigi brothership#brothership spoilers#tw injury#tw violence#just wanted to make something wholesome with the bros after all they went through in brothership#jay bleu au#jay bleu post
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