#and this isnt even scratching the surface

[emilinqa]

star trek tos is deeply entrenched in its identity as a 60s tv show for better or for worse (both) but i think retroactively the city on the edge of forever ends up showcasing this more now since its set in a time we can now as 21st century viewers connect with being closer to the time it was produced, rather than the nebulous 23rd. it's interesting because for me i think the single episode informs the way i connect an imagined future to the actual real 1960s the show was written in, particularly in the language and the way relationships between characters are depicted in the way they speak to one another. in that single episode it suddenly feels that the coded language everyone uses, the subtext, the hints and euphemisms is a necessity of the world rather than a feature of the show. and suddenly (for me, at least) that totally shapes the rest of the way i view the rest of the original series. though the way they speak to one another doesn't really tangibly change all that much, when they're placed in the setting of the 1930s the way that kirk and spock speak to each other and about one another entirely shifts.

edith asks kirk in regards to his relationship with spock "I still have a few questions I'd like to ask about you two. Oh, and don't give me that 'questions about little old us' look, you know as well as I do how out of place you two look here." which. well. hello. and later when she asks "Why does Spock call you captain? Were you in the war together?" and kirk says "we... served together" its like yes the obfuscation of their identities and who they are to one another is a necessity of the plot and time travel reasons but i also can't pretend that particular response doesn't color kirks line 2 episodes later in amok time "you've been called the best first officer in the fleet, that's an... enormous asset to me" in a different light. the necessity of secrets and closed doors and frantically having to conceal themselves and their tiny little apartment with a pair of twin beds and ediths "you, by his side as if you've always been there and always will" and "'Captain'? See, even when he doesn't say it, he does" well i can't act like it doesn't change the way i see their enforced professional distance in other episodes, even when they're back safe in their own century. its why The conversation cut from the original harlon ellison script hits seriously i think. it's like a deeply personal confession of desire for a life that could never be: "On my world the nights are very long. The sound of the silver bird against the sky is very sweet. My people know there is always time enough for everything. You would be comfortable there" and a wistful acceptance ("All the time in the world...") in another time in another life in another place it could be but just not this one. spock's endless resignation. well it just changes everything for me. star trek is about the 1960s!!!!!!

[fazgoo-connoiseur-1987]

Been thinking a lot recently about how William Afton definitely falls into a lot of queerphobic tropes. And how he's pretty dehumanised within the story because he does awful things. And how both of those things together feel extra icky.

I feel like Scott just gave him a bunch of things to make him feel 'creepy' and a lot of those were just him being queer or mentally ill and he's the only character who really presents that way and oh my god. He exclusivly murders CHILDREN, guys. That's TEXTBOOK gaypanic shit, guys.

[kaeyachi]

The fact that Clothar has repeatedly mentioned how taboo it is that he had an illegitimate child with a non-Khaenri'ahn.

How his family had plans for him that misaligned with how he wanted to live his life with the one he truly loved.

In addition, he is still clearly and vehemently against the archons and worshipping them.

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And then we remember Kaeya.

Kaeya, who has implied that he is not a full-blooded Khaenri'ahn.

Kaeya, who may possibly be a child the main Alberich line would have hated or ostracized had the cataclysm not have happened.

Kaeya who is now dubbed by their father as their "Last Hope".

Kaeya, who was left in the city of freedom. The same man who frequently drinks with the very archon his countrymen would have wanted to see dead.

Do you see how it seems like the tables have turned? How the world turned upside-down with just 1 cataclysmic event?

Kaeya is always contradictory to the common definition of the words he is described as on the surface. He is a cryo user who loves the summer season. He is a knight who schemes and plots in the dark. He is a Khaenri'ahn who wants the freedom of Mondstadt.

[puppyeared]

Do you think you’ll ever do art commissions?

^^

im not really sure. art commissions would let me work at my own pace and make money on the side, but im worried of things thatll get in the way

firstly im more used to drawing for myself. ive drawn other ppls characters and fanart, but those are on my own whims and pace and i dont have to negotiate things with anyone. drawing for someone else can be helpful since i work best with instructions, but im not very keen on doing things im not interested in and i might be hard to work with

i also avoid using online payments when i can, so im apprehensive around making online transactions. etransfer policies arent very kind to artists and theres also the risk of disclosing my personal information

given the industry im going into, im aware that im gonna have to figure out how to tackle these sooner or later, and maybe then ill be confident enough to manage commissions. but right now its fuzzy

[wuntrum]

any instagram artist recommendations? 🧐

SOOO many omg...forgetting a ton but heres a few off the top of my head: sweatermuppets3.0, cursedluver, quasimaddi, woodrow_white, _heretic_ceramics, ingrownmayo, icuffmyjeans, inciardi, sketches.of.shay, tired.virgo.art, bananabirch, nicolasuribeb, raijin.999, wiltart, ciraleth, sophiemcpike, lewisrossignol, leticiaplate, leofox__, mourningdoves, mooooonbug (mightve forgotten an o), flesh.png, magsmunroe, jamiegreenillustration, spacecrumble, bdotpng, salman.toor, ellysmallwood, _morgansuter, ezrazone, riseandwander, adonyne, tacodemuerte, jordanenthusiast, spooksier, rememburgerme, diortheartist, craig.gleason, cranitys, laurarbenson, susan.nethercote... and i could keep going, but i'm gonna stop there for now LDSKJF

[teethpaste]

It’s so weird how the body will try and protect you like. I am incapable of feeling grief right now. I know it will hit me like a fucking Mac truck in about a month

When I was here in Ireland in July thinking my grandma had days to live, because the doctors told us so, and urged everyone stateside to drop what they were doing and come to Ireland for goodbyes, I was torn up. I was the first one here because I was already in Dublin on business and luckily my job just let me work from Ireland for about 2 months. So that happened. But then she got palliative chemo, and somehow here she is, 5 months later, against the odds in stage 4 lung cancer. I can tell she is so tired. I feel like she was holding on for this holiday and that as soon as I leave Ireland come December 29, it’s going to happen quickly. Which I hate to even write into existence, but sometimes, you just feel it.

And I hope it doesn’t. But I also don’t want her to be in pain. Chemo ravages the body. Her last treatment was over a month ago but the cancer has spread through her whole body and it is wearing her down. She went from still bartending at 77 and going out with her friends weekly + walking the 2 mile trek into town everyday, to finding out she a tumor overtaking her right lung (completely collapsed at this point) from years of smoking. I was sitting with her at the table the other night before I went to the pub, painting her nails, and she asked “can we talk about something morbid”

Things hardly feel morbid these days. So I tell her yes, of course. I feel like I have this desensitized view around death now. Or I’m numb to it. Like my body remembers watching my dad die and is like HEY ITS FINE, don’t be sad in the moment. Because you can’t be. You have things to do. Then you can cave in on yourself.

Anyways, when I told her sure we can, she then got embarasssd and I had to beg a little for her to tell me . She then says “right. Because I know you’ll have the energy to handle”. She just tells me how she wants to be presented for her wake. No makeup, but make sure her eyebrows are done. Hair with a bandana. Jean shirt. Nails painted. Cowboy boots on that she never got to wear in Vegas this year. She starts telling me about where jewelry is and what she wants in a service. I listen and file it away.

I still think I’m stuck on “because you’ll have the energy to handle”. I think about when my dad died, my mom and sister were inconsolable. About how it happened so quickly and we as humans make it very complicated. Do you know how hard it is to transfer a body across state lines? The hospital doesn’t tell you what to do. I had to google so many funeral homes that morning. I think about those people too. The sanitized nature of conversations. The first place I called didnt say any niceties. They immediately went to prices so I hung up. Second place was more of the same and the third place asked me how I was doing and if I wanted to share anything about him. So I went with them. My dad didn’t leave a will so I had to pull the trigger on weather to cremate or bury. I went with the former and was sick for months thinking I made the wrong choice but one day a few months ago my mom found a random letter he wrote, tossed behind his living room chair, where he noted cremation was a better option bc of the $ and finally that guilt left me.

Did you know that when you list you’re an organ donor on your license, they have to call the family? And when they call, there is light elevator music playing in the background, and mere hours after your person dies, a woman with a nasally voice will calmly ask, “May we take his skin and eyes?” I felt like I was in a cronenberg movie. I remember being so shocked at the matter of factness of the question. Being disturbed but thankful neither my mom or sister were doing this part. I remember saying “why would you want that, do you know how he died? How are those parts even usable” and she paused . And “hmm’d” and as she began to speak I said “no we won’t be donating”.

Anyways. I’m trying to be present while I’m here in Ireland for the holidays. I want to cry but I can’t. This is the last time Christmas will feel like Christmas. I’ve never much liked the holiday. But after my dad died I’ve hated thanksgiving and Christmas even more. Being with my grandma here in Ireland makes it feel like that “magic” is still there a little. But I know it will be completely gone by this time next year and I hate that.

I also worry bout my mom and how she’s taking it. She lost her dad in 2023, her husband in 2024 and now her mom’s dying. That’s how it goes I guess. I stayed in tonight but she went out to the pubs with her friends and came home absolutely trashed. She made it up the stairs before I heard her start violently vomiting. It’s always strange when you switch places with your folks. I took off her clothes and got her changed into Pjs. Brought her water and crackers. She laid with her head in my lap as I stared at the wall. Being around this kind of stuff always makes me wonder if I’ll regret not having kids. Like the fact that when I’m her age, and my grandmas age, I’ll effectively be alone. Like yes there are friends etc but I won’t have children or grand children. Just makes me feel weird.

Anyways now it’s 6 in the morning and I’m going on a run in the 22 degree morning air. Bye bye.

[suntails]

Hiya!

I saw your SilRuggie post and I feel you on the "Silver and his many boyfriends" part.

Idk what it is about Silver but he's so... Shippable?

Like I ship SilVil, KalimSil and JadeSil which are kinda popular. But it's also stuff like RidSil and LeoSil (oh so much brainrot currently about LeoSil,) Which aren't as popular.

He's probably my most shipped character like... EVER.

(I may have gotten some ship names wrong)

IT’S THE CHEMISTRY IT’S THE WAY HE HAS CHEMISTRY WITH SO SOSOSO MUCH OF THE CAST!!! he’s so deeply just…good, and he cares so earnestly, and he has examples of interactions with almost fuckgng everyone at this point. like i can understand why someone would ship just abt any silver ship, i GET it, bc theres so much potential. i think i have like…3? that im neutral on? maybe?

also hearing u associate silvil with the kinda popular ones, im fuckign weak at the knees. that is incorrect but im pretending ur right bc it makes me oh so happy

[vaperarmand]

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[the-skooma-den]

Corinne has fun

[slaygentford]

me when I need lestat image

[penpinetree]

Stars of the city ramble posting: Davey Works

woe, ramble upon you

Davey Works is a workshop office made by Davey that specializes in modular steam powered equipment that work off of "charges" their weapons generate steam in a mysterious manner that Davey doesnt disclose that is stored in up to 4 chambers, steam is spent though a trigger mechanism to enhance that weapon's capabilities, the wielder of the weapon can choose however much of the steam to release for exponential reward.

The Davey Works workshop office consists of Davey (He/him), Eli(she/they), Samuel(she/her), Beatrix(she/her) and Bird(they/them), they're a incredibly tight nit office and consider each other to be family.

The office was established during the events of lobotomy corporation, the story takes place during library of ruina (urban legend - star of the city) and resides in district district 22 where theres currently a power struggle between the thumb and a rising syndicate(s)

[feralghxuls]

@sinewtwine

WELL. since you asked so nicely.

(and ofc i gotta tag my co-conspirator @citruspuppy bc without them these vicious little freaks wouldnt exist as they are uwu)

long story short, maybe alpha needed some behavioral correction, and maybe swiss was looking for a brat project, and maybe alpha likes it a little too much how swiss breaks him down to his very essence and then has the nerve to make him talk about his ~feelings~ afterwards. and maybe swiss ends up falling in love with the little freak. and maybe alpha realizes that somehow swiss is the only one who knows him at all beyond surface level and maybe he hates that enough to lash out at swiss, only for swiss to take control of the situation like he always does and put alpha right on his ass (and really thats what he was looking for after all, he just still doesnt know how to ask for what he wants)

and yeah maybe they both know who's gonna end up on top but they fight it out anyway, cause sometimes alpha is just too wound up and swiss cant turn down a good fight, esp when he knows how brutal it'll be if alpha tackled him in the middle of the hallway and went right for the throat for it. and it kind of really pisses alpha off how swiss lets him get away with that and makes it look like alpha wins that fight until theyre alone later, because how dare swiss know alpha and his life well enough to know that how much shit he'd cause if he disciplined him in front of his pack, waiting instead until no one else is watching to unleash the fury that alpha pulled that shit. and it really pisses alpha off (read: he loves it so much it rolls back around into anger bc he doesnt know what else to do with an emotion so strong) how he knows that the more vicious and nasty swiss is with him, the sweeter he'll be in the aftercare and the tighter he'll hold alpha while he purrs all over him and drags his most deeply buried feelings up out into the open, makes them both look at it raw and bleeding in front of them

and i mean, come on. absolutely no one (read: rain, because he's the only one swiss told) believed swiss when he swore up and down he wasnt gonna fall for alpha, he was just a project, he hasnt had much opportunity since dew has shaped up so well but the first time he had alpha bleeding and ragged before him and he saw the pleading in his eyes, he knew he had something so very precious wrapped up in explosive spikes and he'd dug his way right to the middle of it, had his thumb on the trigger and he'd never press it. he'd come close, sure, he'd taunt alpha and wave it around in front of him, but he'd never really do it. but man...something about the impossible level of trust alpha places in his hands, and how he sees that he truly does want to be better, he just has no idea where to start, has never had any kind of guidance to untangle the everything thats gone wrong his whole life, how alpha had started out seeking destruction but had never bothered to think about the rebuilding...yeah. it gets to swiss. right in the soft spots of his heart

and maybe this is going somewhere. probably not, though. probably if no one intervenes they'll destroy each other. but maybe not, maybe this has a happy ending somewhere down the line

[moonpaw]

the final island is called Laugh Tale, so many characters have unique laughs, Nami laughed freely for the first time in years in the company of others after faking it for so long, Genzo wore a pinwheel on his head because it was the only way baby Nami would laugh around him, Usopp saw a girl falling into depression after losing her parents and devoted a year to making up stories just to get her to laugh, Chopper and Robin were both finally given positive attention by someone and copied their laughs for a short while (Chopper's case an adoptive father, Robin's case her first friend outside of archeologists) Robin lost everything when her home burned down and she tried to desperately laugh the pain away but with the same laugh as Saul before he was frozen alive, Luffy kicks Crocodile's ass but not before demanding him to give Vivi back the country because if it was truly her country she would be laughing a lot more, there's a major war going on and everyone around luffy couldn't help but laugh and rally behind him just because he was being himself despite the environment, there was someone called Joyboy 800 years ago and he brought laughter where he went, the main character is so goofy and silly and laughter that even when he's trying to fight seriously he ends up doing goofy shit that makes you or the people around him burst into laughter, one of his main powerups later on derives on how much he laughs and you can't help but laugh at the silliness of it all

it's a comedy, but it has it's dark and serious and heavy moments but every time it reminds you to laugh and be free!! laughter is so important! a tale of laughs!

it's such an important and major theme through the series but it can be missed so easily, it's in your face but it's not

how many people luffy and the straw hats have saved by bringing their smiles back to their faces, to let them laugh to their hearts content

do you see, do you see

sometimes i remember that one piece's main theme is laughter and i kinda choke up about it

[mourning-star-daily-comet]

you true crime types are soooo annoying. you never let go of ANYTHING. Alex was right about you xoxo 💋💅🤭

im going to shoot you point blank in the back of the head execution style

[lycocarpum]

Phrases I've said in the past 24 hours:

"I havent been this overwhelmed since I got trapped in the Denver airport"

"I want to induce a heart attack"

(loudest and worst voice crack on planet earth that I cannot recover from mid-presentation)

"hey you want a rose??? My stalker left a bunch in the lobby downstairs"

"I don't really care (about the stalker) bc I just need to get this code running before Monday or I'm killing myself"

(while eating a cupcake) "if you're willing to let an undergrad help I'm more than willing to assist with identifying any human remains!! :D"

[astaraelthesnek]

Time zones

Part 1 Part 3 Part 4

Firstly: North America. Why? Canada isn’t too bad, the lines are just a bit off, apart from stupid Island of Newfoundland that decided to be -3½ hours when it is clearly all in -4. But generally, not too bad. Again, most of America isn’t that bad, with the lines going a bit wonky, until you look at Alaska. Alaska is almost all in -10 or -11, but no, they just had to be in -9. Hawaii is also wrong, but they get the benefit of the doubt for spanning three time zones and just picking one, apart from the fact that some of the islands are in -12, so they could have picked -11 to use the centre one. The Aleutian Islands are worse, which span +12 to -11, but are in the time zone of -10. America, stop trying to be special, just follow the lines. Then we move down to Mexico (I know it's more in Central America, but geographically it makes more sense to include it here), which again, for the most part is OK. The lines are a bit off, but its fine, except for that tiny little eastern bit that claims to be -5 when it is clearly -6. The rest of Central America is great, with an honourable mention to Panama and Costa Rica for the perfect split down the time zone, and a questioning look at the Dominican Republic who are claiming to be in -4 instead of -5.