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Star Trek Voyager 5x11 - Latent Image
Janeway: I've made a command decision for your own benefit and the welfare of this entire crew. I'm not willing to debate it. EMH: How would you like it if I operated on you without your consent or without your knowledge? Janeway: If the operation saved my life? I could live with it. EMH: I don't believe you. You'd feel as violated as I do right now. Janeway: Whether you believe me or not is beside the point. A year and a half ago the only solution was to rewrite your program. I have to perform that same procedure now. EMH: That isn't fair. Janeway: You're malfunctioning, and you need to be repaired.
Latent Image Gifset series Part 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7
#i love latent image#star trek voyager#seven of nine#tom paris#emh the doctor#voyager 5x11#voyageredit#trekedit#startrekedit#trekladies#i love this episode but not for the doctor#but for seven's journey in it#i love that for most of it#seven's just in the background#taking things in#and the directorial decision#for seven to be framed at the back#it’s amazing#in the sum of things#the crew didn’t do anything wrong#they were patching a programming error#the best way they can#the emh and the diagnostic repair#holograms have merged together#and there’s no one else with expertise#to fix the doctor’s programming#its like how harold finch stumbled#into making the machine sentience#the machine had to fight for its existence#again and again
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hi hi hi hi I found out about Hal Jordan TODAY and am going so autistic over him it’s insane can you please give me a rundown on what his deal is I think you’re the Tumblr Green Lantern guy
omg hi, insane compliment btw, tysm! i'm glad to give you a rundown!! also definitely check out @katmaatui for more hal info, red is SUPER knowledgable abt him. @rillette, @catboyollie, @halcarols, @starsapphire and @yellowcorps (along with so many others that i cant think to tag off the top of my head) have some great hal takes too! (edited the post just to tag more ppl)
apologies if this is a bit rushed/messy, i'm doing this while i smelt stone in minecraft LMAO
that being said... i think this will be a long one, so more below the cut :3
(cw for light mentions of pedophilia, abuse, canon typical violence)
okay, so hal jordan is the first human green lantern of the GREEN LANTERN CORPS. it's important to note that there was technically a human green lantern before him (alan scott, originally from earth two/the justice society, but integrated into main DC canon after crisis), but his power comes from a different source- which is a whole different ballpark that would take ages to explain, lol, so i'll move on from that.
hal was originally introduced in a showcase issue in 1959, but ended up getting a solo run in the mid 60s because of his showcase issues doing well. he's been a test pilot, middle brother, compassionate, rule follower (although being surprisingly liberal for the time) with an interesting relationship with star sapphire carol ferris since those first appearances. for the first 20 odd years of his appearances we had no information on his parents, but we got a lot from other family members, such as uncle titus, cousin hal jr (aka airwave), younger brother jim jordan and older brother jack jordan. through the 60s and 70s those members of his family were developed along with him; with the audience learning that jim's wife sue thought jim was green lantern, rather than hal, and hal himself training his cousin, hal jr.
the most known version of how hal got the ring in the first place is probably based off of geoff john's rewrite in the mid 00s, reiterating the original story of abin sur crashing onto earth and dying, leaving hal with his ring to be trained by sinestro and the rest of the glc, while also changing miniscule details that had been developed in emerald dawn 1 & 2 (which was released in the 90s, more on that later). the main premise of abin sur's crash has stayed the same, but the story around hal's current life, job, family and stability keep changing. for instance, the original comic with abin sur in showcase only showed hal getting the ring, the guardians choosing him. the first rewrite i can think of was emerald dawn volume 1, published in 1989 and continued in emerald dawn v2 (1991). here we get the classic hal watches his father die in a plane crash with carol ferris beside him as a pre adolescent, and some of the biggest implications of the mistreatment from his father. we also get introduced to hal, despite his stick to the rules, straight edge attitude, making some serious mistakes and putting people in danger and even death- with the implication of alcohol abuse. the audience HAS known hal used to be in the air force since sometime in the late 60s or early 70s (sorry, i don't remember the exact issue!), but emerald dawn shows us that hal's moved on from the air force and into test piloting, and that his mother keeps having to bail him out for making mistakes. emerald dawn vol 1 shows the abin sur moment, followed by fights that cost hal's friends life, and is followed up by sinestro training hal in emerald dawn vol 2, where we get to see the iconic scenes of hal finding out about sinestro and his... dictatorship.
along with that; how the guardians and rings are treated and hal and the glc's perception of them is vastly changed over time. in the early days of gl in the 60s, the guardians were really never to be seen. hal was repeatedly summoned to them and then had his memory almost fully wiped- only leaving a vague notion of his orders. the guardian's called hal to them at seemingly the worst times, ending up with him almost getting injured, getting in trouble at work, and even ending up jobless and homeless. the chaos of being a green lantern has been around the WHOLE time, but originally, the green lanterns didnt really... fight it. the guardian's were their masters (and even father figures, to hal) and not to be questioned. the rings in the 60s were also much more powerful, despite the yellow weakness (the yellow weakness is the notion that from about the 60s to the mid 90s the green lantern rings were completely unable to be used against anything yellow). time travel, phasing, teleporting, etc were all very viable and common things- as well as forceful shapeshifting, invisibility, mind control, mind reading, etc etc. these days, writers have dampened these powers down to mostly shooting light and constructs.
okay, it's parallax time. the emerald twilight arc from the mid 90s wasn't an arc that was as thoroughly planned out over a long period of time as it probably should have been. a lot of fans at the time (and even now) hated what happened there, and claimed it ruined hal's character entirely. i can understand why! but, at it's core, the parallax arc is a story about a broken man pushed to the limit, fully grieving his home and family (originally, he lost his brother jim in the destruction of coast city, along with a lot of other family members) and being goddamn fed up with how his "masters" treated him and the rest of the corps. the so called "perfect lantern" (no, he wasn't that much of a rebel, despite what johns wants you to think) snapped and essentially tried to gain as much power as he could to bring back coast city. when the guardians stripped him of his powers so he couldn't, hal became enraged and took down every lantern in his path, just to get to the guardians and that power. long story short, he kills the guardians and absorbs all the energy from the central power battery on oa, becoming parallax- essentially a god. this marks the start of zero hour, an event made by dc to restructure and reset; giving the comics a new generation of heroes. hal destroys the world and remakes it, but is ultimately taken down by kyle rayner, the new green lantern, with the help of the jla, jsa and associates. there are a few more run ins with parallax after this, before kyle convinces parallax/hal that he can make up for all of this by reigniting the sun after it went out- aka killing himself. hal does it, is stuck in limbo for awhile and then becomes the spectre to continue to make up for the horrible things he did as parallax. the spectre is the spirit of god's wrath and vengeance, a weapon used to drag sinners to their very own, self made hells, and scare the shit out of people. the spectre, from it's very first appearance, is a ghost like spirit that takes on a host, and is primarily described using christian terms and is used in a very... christian ideology. HOWEVER, the spectre 2001 confirms that hal is jewish (jewish mom, catholic dad) and that belief system, plus his personality as a whole, literally makes him change the spirit of vengeance into the spirit of redemption, for at least as long as they are bonded. the whole parallax to spectre arc is about grief, pain, cycles of abuse and terror, redemption and guilt. it is NOT about a fear bug that possess hal. (im so serious though, the spectre 2001 is one of the best comics ive ever read. amazing. changed my world view) but... geoff johns changed all of it, decanonized the spectre, and ruined the legacy of parallax and hal's growth as a person by releasing green lantern: rebirth in 2004/2005. this retcons hal's breakdown and journey through grief into him BEING POSSESSED BY AN ENTITY CONTROLLED BY SINESTRO THAT FULLY CHANGES PREVIOUS GREEN LANTERN CANON AND IMPLICATIONS. also, fucks up the importance of kyle becoming ion, but whatever. geoff johns writes hal (and even more so, carol) so very wrong, and change their stories so vastly in ways that go against the stories very meanings.
SIGH.
now... time to get started on some rougher stuff. hal jordan misconceptions. i'm saving that arc for last.
- hal jordan wasn't much of a rule breaker or rebel until the 70s/80s, where he BEGAN (very slowly, mind you) to be radicalized by oliver queen during denny o'neil's green lantern/green arrow. hal was painted as more of a conservative during this period (which, admittedly, kind of goes against previous canon... he's always been relatively central to liberal, not to any extremes like ollie though, lol) but gets more and more understanding of how power structures work and how lower classes are mistreated during this time- which ends up opening his eyes a bit to how shitty the guardians are. (this is helped by the guardians literally just. leaving. the green lanterns and kind of disbanding them so they can go fuck the zamarons, lmao). geoff johns tried to change this narrative into making hal a very... maverick-from-top-gun type of character, who punched his way out of the military (when, in reality, the original story during emerald knights in the late 90s was that hal had been framed for stealing a jet and was dishonorably discharged, which he took the punishment for because he knew someone had to) and hits on women constantly and gets ladies and allat (which, funnily enough hal was awful at getting carol to like him for a long time, since carol fell for green lantern rather than hal. not to mention the awkwardness of carol's proposals or hal's many, many failed relationships). hal has always been insecure and lowkey boyfailure, he is NOT a top gun maverick tom cruise sorta guy! fuck you jeremy adams!
- hes not that much of an idiot asshole. hal can be a real dick, he's had that going for him since the beginning, but he isn't what you read in batfam fics. he's not stupid and shouldn't be the laughingstock of the justice league. i assume this idea started from the obsession with batfam and the fact that the jla has quite the history of ignoring hal and his issues (as well as. all of their issues. theyre not so great at work life balance), but it's gone too far. hal isn't making fun of the robins and pissing bruce off bc of that. hal isnt fooling around on the job 24/7 (he takes being a gl and pilot VERY seriously, although he does enjoy some danger and high stakes) or slacking off to get girls. again. not top gun maverick.
- hal has not been a creep since the beginnings. hal was not weird with carol in the 60s. things were weird between them, yeah, but that's based off circumstance and the craziness of star sapphire and green lantern. he was NOT being horribly sleazy! i hate that i even need to say this, but i see this take too much not to
- going off of what was said above, lets discuss the arisia arc. if you want to be a real hal fan, this is unfortunately something you need to know about. in action comics, after crisis and the guardians left to go fuck the zamarons, most of the green lanterns fell apart and seperated. a small group went to earth- led by hal and consisting of hal, john stewart, katma tui, kilowog, salaakk, ch'p and arisia rrab. (also sometimes guy gardner, but that's complicated) previously to this arc, hal treated 14 year old arisia like a beloved little sister, welcoming her and leading her into the corps just like everyone else. things started to change once the timeline gets closer and closer to crisis, where arisia starts showing that she has a crush on hal (who is roughly 30s at this point). any advances made by arisia are shut down by hal at the beginning, because she's a child. now, it's unfortunately a common thing to just call hal a "pedophile" because of what happens in this arc- but it really isn't that simple. still weird and icky, but definitely not to the degree of which some fans like to act like it is- esp to attack hal fans for, which is... an odd choice regarding how many fucked up things every character (esp male characters) did back in the day. arisia ends up using her power ring to artifically age herself up, making her body AND MIND into that of a young adult (the comic makes this very clear). once this happens... hal stops rejecting her. they get together, they kiss. the only person in the group of green latnerns who actually has an issue with it is john (salaakk is meh about it, but he just doesn't like human-esque romance no matter what), and katma even directly encourages their relationship. kilowog ends up crushing on arisia as well, and guy gardner hits on her repeatedly throughout the whole period. eventually, hal and arisia break up, but this legacy (thank so much englehart, for wrtiting this. /sarc) is a big controversy among the comics crowd. "is hal jordan a predator?" personally, and i know a lot of friends/mutuals/other gl fans choose to erase the arisia arc entirely (versus how canon ended up retconning it to be 14 earth years is equal to that of an adult and she didn't really get super ages up, or whatever) and go with the familial relationship between hal and her. that's my preferred version! i know red (@katmaatui) has explored that version as well as an alternate version where the arisia arc did happen, and how it affects arisia in particular, which is really depressing but super interesting. anyway, it's complicated and weird and nuanced, but that whole occurence doesn't mean hal's a bad character or person (cause yk. retcons) and it's certainly not bad to like his character. (definitely ignore any guy gardner fans who try to bitch about this arc. cough cough. guy was ALSO into her and hit on her repeatedly. smfh) most people who bring this up to demonize fans didn't even read the arc, and don't know the nuance or the other weird shit that happens in it. (hal is not a horse, sigh)
OVERALL NOTES!
hal jordan is a super complicated character with an extensive history spanning from the 60s to his worse written appearances in modern age. it's okay to like any version of the character, but it is important to note the changes that have been made, the storylines butchered and lost, and more. he has quite the legacy, and he's particularly interesting as from a moral standpoint. hal's a real sweetie though, when it gets down to it! he's neurodivergent coded (imo at least.. his dad very much gets onto him for being disrtracted, hes kinda shit at social interaction (and then amazing at it the other half of the time) etc etc. "spacecase") and his dad is an abusive asshole, who he desperately doesnt want to be like but thinks he NEEDS to be like!
#i really dont know how to fit this last stuff in so its going in the tags#hal has quite the homoerotic tension relationship with his nemesis (but also close friend) sinestro#they repeatedly come back to each other and long to be alongside eachother#despite all the shit they hate about one another and their respective organizations#check out more of red's stuff for sinhal for sure lmao#for other hal relationships...#hal has a complicated relationship with his brothers and mother (at least when they were all alive)#hes very close friends with oliver queen (and dinah lance by proxy) and quite a lot of fans (me included) think theres some tension there.#homos!#he has a niece (helen jordan!) who is featured in the spectre and who he loves very much#hal and john are proclaimed best friends and care deeply for each other#hal and guy fight a lot but theyre in a similar boat#kyle looks up to hal quite a lot and hal is.... complicated about kylre#a lot of people ship hal and barry and i get why. its cute#not my fav though i think its overdone#hal jordan and carol ferris are so fucking important to eachother its SO important.#they need eachother in a wya thats confusing and sometimes toxic#idk what else to say feel free to ask more questions#sorry for the rant#and sorry that i mostly focused on 60s to early ish 00s thats my expertise#mordie answers#mordie speaks#hal jordan#green lantern#ch: who has time for heavenly things#uhhh#hal explanation#ok bye#hal jordan analysis#gl
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this is the beginning of something for them you cant convince me otherwise
#very excited for stizzy canon#i dont even think im joking any more#idk something something izzy finally getting the respect he deserves#someone finally acknowledges he had experience and expertise and is worth taking advice from#and one of them is gonna develop a complex about this#nyxtalks#ofmd#ofmd s2 spoilers#izzy hands#israel hands#stede bonnet#stizzy#gentlehands#op is absolutely not a gif maker and has no idea what theyre doing and cannot wait to see someone else put this together much better
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Iirc sidgeno isn't your area of expertise but I just read "like a flashback" by ibear and thought of your current Sid masculinity kink musings. Basically it's a "what if Sid's gay awakening was shitty 70s porn and now he likes shitty mustaches a bit too much"
anon i know you did not intend to be, but this ask is hilarious. reading “isn’t your area of expertise” was like getting suplexed by a professional wrestler. i’m losing it. my baby. my baby girl. my baby boy. my baby baby. however your gender babies. i got my hrpf fandom undergrad in sidgeno. i was in the trenches. i’ve written sidgeno. for the exchange, even. i’ve read almost the entire sidgeno tag top to bottom. this is like telling steve yzerman “i know you don’t know much about wayne gretzky, having been on the red wings”. i’m crying
however i love that apparently it’s not clear that i’m a fandom old. this is so funny. imagine saying this to someone who’s been on hockeyblr and specifically pensblr for almost a decade. i was reading sidgeno before tk/nolpat existed. god. wow
sorry, sorry, to get back to your actual question. yes i’ve read iBear. was very into iBear for a while. it’s a fun fic. it’s definitely been a while since i’ve read it, wasn’t on my mind when the topic came up in my asks, but it’s very fitting for the recent masc kink discussions on this blog for sure (the characterisations aren’t really my jam any more, but tbf that was in the spacetoaster era of sidgeno). my iBear favourites were actually The State of Marriage and I Like The Way I Smell On You, (aside from a very specific one which was orphaned, iykyk, i’ve just been around long enough to remember when it wasn’t. lol), which i recommend reading if you haven’t yet and you’re in the process of reading your way through their catalogue
#sorry im still stuck on sidgeno not being my area of expertise#i feel like a crypt keeper#i come from the era of rpf where you could not start out with a rarepair. you were [big ship shipper] first#and on the side silently despaired that no one else was into your rarepair#like. hockey had 5 popular ships at the time and you just aligned yourself with one of them and went from there#sidgeno#kookanswers#anon
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Art I did during my break but don't wanna post on main but you know what. I like Levi and Richard (and Arienne the redhead).
Basically, Levi and Richard go to school together, Richard decides to go by the name Richard and the only person to without question go along with "I'm a boy now" is Levi who calls him Dick. And then gets into fist fights with boys that don't call him Richard. So Richard falls pretty much in love in school then his parents divorce and he moves away.
Many years later (10+) Richard meets Levi again and it's very much nothing grand. Levi overhears Richard introducing himself to someone and is like "lmao Dick? You work here now? Sucks to be you" and Richard is immediately 'I love him so much I hate myself for how easily I give up all dignity for him' but yeah. They work in different departments so Levi does more behind the scenes stuff while Richard talks to clients and is very social.
And their coworkers in both departments love Richard because he's such a nice guy and Levi's department hates Levi a lot cause he's an asshole. (then stuff happens that would require a tw blah blah blah) So after a month of Levi not being at work he returns and Richard immediately goes over to the department to check on him and he's just. Incredibly mellow. No cussing and no cockiness and worst of all, he's being called Richard which is very much not correct from Levi. So he points it out that no one else calls him Dick and if he had a problem with it he would have said something by now so hey, maybe don't suddenly change the entire friendship on your own. (So Levi texts him later to say "sorry for being a dick, Dick" and Richard is v happy and content with that turn out)
Richard is honestly tragically created out of spite for the fact I saw a name IRL and I know that the state that I live in would in fact NOT have someone that intentionally funny and trans so I have to make my own funny trans guy to fill the void.
#a redemption arc from the sidelines#look im sorry but the guy who my mom and i voted for as one of our constables cannot be as genuinely funny as he is in my head#the guy has ruined my life with his billboard election thing and the fact my mom even REMEMBERS the billboard for his campaign?#yeah it was obnoxiously yellow and red and also he uses his nickname on the campaign#which youd think is fine or cringe normally but when you look at it and realize his firstname nickname lastname all have slang meanings#id like to point out though that not only did he have the funniest campaign billboard but no one even ran against him it was just him#i actually made a trans oc because the funniest name ive ever seen irl inspired me#theres a lot of trauma and cute interactions between levi and richard in my head but i dont think everyone cares#but i think its very funny that i told someone extensive stories from my thoughts about them#and she would go thats so cute WAIT NO HOLD ON OUCH#and then i told someone else haha so i have been telling someone stuff about my ocs and its been whiplash to her C:#and told oh its probably fine she's probably enjoying hearing it#so i said an example and it was oh thats cute followed by (lying down emote)#fwiw i dont actually know what their job is i just want them at the same company but different areas of expertise#thats literally all i got im sorry
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Over the years I've used Rebbubble passively and had a bunch of old work on there. I never really bothered to add new stuff as the returns I got from the site got smaller and smaller, so putting in the effort to make new patterns and prints just didn't appeal to me. Last night I got an email that they're updating their policy so artists are charged for each sale starting in May, so I finally pulled the plug on my account. Thanks to everyone who bought from me over the years!
#im not really looking for a new store at the moment but maybe one of these days I'll find somewhere else to sell prints#running my own shop is also not really an option because I don't have the time or expertise to handle the shipping and stuff#so if something convenient like old redbubble shows up again I might look into it
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my criteria for a hairstyle that fits with my lifestyle
fast. ideally should take no more than 5 minutes to execute, but 10 minutes is acceptable.
robust. it needs to stay in place (ideally without product, though this is waived when my hair is in the like 2-3" range), including overnight.
keeps hair out of my face. i hate getting hair in my face. that's where my eyes are!
good weight distribution. let's not be adding to my neck strain any more than necessary.
optional but not required: doesn't get in the way of wearing a baseball cap. this isn't possible for hairstyles that pile hair on top of my head or for styles that use product, so it's a nice bonus rather than a criterion.
there aren't a ton of styles that fit these criteria and i do tend to do the same exact thing for months at a time. creativity is for people who like to put in some effort. i mostly like to sleep.
#hair#my posts#like i can french braid my hair pretty fast but that's like one of two tools in my repertoire. i've done it thousands of times#my expertise is not broad is what i'm saying#i look at other people's hair and am like HOW DID YOU DO THAT????#but people who can't french braid their own hair also say that when they see my hair. it's all relative#i love braiding other people's hair but i rarely get the opportunity :(#also i'm accustomed to doing my hair right after i shower when it's clean and wet. and that's usually not the case when i'm braiding#someone else's hair#it would be fun to practice though. i love braiding my mom's hair especially. it's so thick and holds so well#and her hair color is absolutely gorgeous
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if read dm and u think laios dgaf abt humans u kinda need to read that shit again
#some of the laiosposting feels super one dimensional bc it’s not just the memes or jokey jokes anymore..#laios is a complex and conflicted character masquerading as singular. bc hes a person#like yeah his monster obsession informs his world view and expertise#I don’t think proximity to monsters is the extent of his desires/aspirations#or else kabru’s laios nightmares would’ve came true lol#also it’s like very clear that the interest in monsters stems from being othered by those around him#he thinks monsters are cool but the real tea is that it’s abt fantasizing a place in the world where he can belong#if he isn’t good at being human
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I saw heated discussion about it and I wonder about your expertise on the subject. Who do you think will be the main antagonist, Imu or BB? I always thought Imu obviously but I saw people not being 100% on that
well, one piece has a lot of overlapping stories, each with their own protagonists and antagonists. if we look at luffy and his goals, blackbeard is his perfect antagonist. tons of character traits in common, similar goals being approached in very opposing ways… he’s a great narrative foil for luffy. if the story was strictly about pirates and the search for the one piece as the way to become the pirate king, blackbeard’s the obvious endgame antagonist.
but the story of one piece is bigger than that. finding the one piece is about more than just that.
imu, as an antagonist representative of the corrupt world government and the restrictions it places on the world that makes piracy the only way you can seek the true freedom luffy is after… well, if luffy met him he’d hate him on sight, no doubt. but luffy doesn’t seek out these terrible, corrupt people, he just comes across them by chance (or “by chance,” if you believe nika has some influence there), hates them, and beats them up. no, imu’s a more natural fit as an antagonist to sabo, with his long-standing hatred of the nobility/ruling class and his association with the revolutionary army.
but, in the same way many other characters have drawn luffy into their conflicts, i can easily see sabo pulling luffy into the fight with imu.
or! an alternate story progression: luffy gets the one piece, having a big final fight with blackbeard in the process. now that luffy and his crew know the secrets of the void century et al, imu absolutely needs luffy dead. imu pulls out all the big guns, luffy retaliates, and we get a big government v. pirates and revolutionaries conflict.
basically, if the story ends with getting the one piece, i think blackbeard’s the final fight. but i don’t think the story’s going to end there, so i do agree with you that imu and his associates are going to end up being the last antagonists of the story.
#tos answers#one piece#marshall d teach#monkey d luffy#imu#my ‘expertise’??? friend i read the same manga you did#this is just an opinion! same as anyone else has#—end of series speculation#—narrative foils
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[lies face down]
I’ve been listening to At All Costs from Wish on repeat for some reason. And because the original was supposed to be a romance song, my brain is possessed and I’m like “Ooh Happy End Narilamb duet”. Because it’s about the utter devotion, and realizing the person alongside you may just be the one who understands you. Despite everything. And that you’d do anything for them to keep them safe.
But my ideal Narilamb has to work through their egos, resentment, and thirst for power before any sugary sweetness happens into immortal love—
Its gotta be a slow burn that eats them from the inside out till they're consumed by it, you feel me?
#cult of the lamb#cult of the lamb narilamb#cult of the lamb narinder#narilamb#true devotion#the one who waits#trying to write what my lamb thinks about narinder tbh#i think its a mix of resentment but acknowledgement that narinder is valuable in wisdom#and she needs that expertise to handle her godly powers#but also she doesn’t want to become like him#grumble grumble i want to get to good parts#but i need to prep everything else first#A Gift from Below#Cookie Chats
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"i'm not disabled" followed immediately by "i've got bad knees and a bad back" is certainly something to read 🤨 you know it doesn't have to be cripling for it to count, right...? it's not normal to be in pain after 15 minutes of standing. ableds can stand for, like, an hour at a time before they need to sit.
i know! i appreciate the concern, but i uh. dunno lol. genuinely i don't know. but i included the afaik ("i'm not disabled afaik" was the original phrase, though i'm not like mad at you for excluding it or anything) because i'm well aware that it's a possibility. it's hard to explain but there's a lot of little things that don't add up to much but are like. noticeable. like i would prefer to do most things sitting, if i could, as a matter of comfort. it would be easier for me. and walking isn't as bad as just standing. i've never been great at taking care of my body, and this has only gotten worse with time. it's hard for me to know what i should read as necessity and what i should read as preference, and how much weight to put on said preferences. like you said, i know it doesn't need to be "if i don't sit down i'm going to collapse" or anything, but where to draw that line between Definitely A Medical Thing That Affects Me More Than Other People and.. not that, i'm not sure. i kinda just thought i was a persistently slightly tired and low energy person, but it doesn't seem bad enough to be chronic fatigue, so...? is it related to the half-diagnosed. idk it's complicated depression (and yes in hindsight i probably should've counted that as disabling but whatever)? idk it's not a rabbit hole i've explored much at all is my point. but i know it's there and uh i guess this was sort of validating in a way anon so.. yeah? yeah👍
#also in reference to the pain after 15 mins of standing thing it's.. usually closer to discomfort than pain? but it's not Not pain either#it's often more like 'oh i should sit down. i wanna sit down. i should sit down' and it's not that frequent but it's like a status effect#and the frequent reminders are only after like 20-30 minutes#sometimes i don't even notice it and sometimes (if i'm bored lol) i'll notice it a Lot#this is not helped by my body being.. iffy at telling me what's going on. it's always too much or too little input with this guy#ahh that rascal. anyway#listen anon 1) uh sorry for going off like this idk if that's like. socially appropriate or whatever but i'm doing it anyway 2) if you've#got ideas i'm all ears. like off the top of your head not like. im not asking you to do research for an internet stranger ok#plus it feels weird saying i could be disabled when i have no idea what it would even be. i mean i think i'd believe someone else if they#said that but it's a classic rules for me and not for thee situation. still working on that#point is i got brain gunk for sure i just don't know how much of the body gunk is because of the brain gunk or smth else#like the possibly-probably autism definitely affects me physically i just don't know exactly what to do with that information#like. am i exhausted bc i'm overstimulated? is it the burn out? or is that a separate thing? or are they working together? etc#anyway yeah got caught vagueposting about my symptoms here's the deep dive no one wanted. for self indulgence purposes :v#no but i think about it a lot with posts like this bc i mean. would an able bodied person react THAT strongly to finding out shower stools#exist? probably not. but who knows for certain#....coming to the conclusion of. probably. maybe. but in what ways specifically? uh. i dunno. i just got them heavy limbs#might be a thyroid issue now that im looking into it. but again this is Not my area of expertise
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#I can't remember exactly where I heard this but I know it was#on a tiktok by someone who had an expertise of some sort like house cleaning or home renovation or sthg#but I actually thought it was an excellent piece of advice for many areas of life and it was#'Remember: if it's making your life easier it's probably making someone else's life harder'#like i think that's just a good thing to keep in mind social skills wise when youre trying to be a good friend or coworker or roomie or wtv#the ones you like being around are the ones who are conscientious about the amount of burden they're being or sharing#or at the very least showing interest in making sure your stress is at a manageable level. especially before dumping on you#idk I started thinking about this because I was defining an energy vampire to myself#I think energy vampires are the people who are always using you as a release valve or are just incredibly self-absorbed. Their problems#are (in their minds) always worse than everyone else's. Essentially it's main character syndrome. and so if it's not a give-and-take#You end up drained/wanting to avoid them. ANYWAYS trying not to be one doesn't mean you always have to feel guilty/petrified of being needy#but just trying to be aware of and to show appreciation for when someone is probably helping you out with stuff#and to offer to do things for them in return if you're capable as well#p
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Within the first 15 minutes of work (keep in mind, I logged in 15 minutes early), I've been hit by three different disputes where customers think they don't have to pay for work performed. 🤦♀️🤦♀️
#daisy rants#listen I can have some sympathy for the position of 'we asked you to fix it and you didn't fix it'#BUT#here is the key#we never promised that we would fix it or you wouldn't be charged#that's not how this works#listen we don't purposely NOT fix things#but sometimes we can't fix them#OR through conversations ~with the customers~ the customers decide to not continue with the repair#guess what bitch#we still spent time and expertise on that call#even if it was determined we couldn't or you didn't want us to resolve it#and we deserve to be compensated for that#I don't get to not pay the mechanic because he told me that it would cost X amount to fix my car and I decided to buy a new one instead#I still have to pay him for his time#the key is - the time we spent working on your request meant that we couldn't be working on someone else's#someone would who pay us#I see waaaaaaaay more of us giving away free work than I see of us charging for unnecessary work#but of course the customers don't see that side of things#(that's not sarcastic; that's actually me understanding they can't know some of this stuff because it's never visible to them)#anyway#my 'I only have a couple of meetings today so I am going to catch up on emails and loose threads' attitude lasted about 7 minutes#i now regret coming to work today and want nothing to do with it
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chat how do we feel about me deciding that if the other dnd party members want a specific item my character has, they need to succeed a persuasion check with a somewhat high dc
#salty talks#rn the dc is sitting at 22 and will be higher by some amount if the character making the check is any kind of elf#is 22 high? like the character is a lawful evil assassin rogue who got the item by mugging the og owner and is thinking of selling it#with the extra context being that its a sword that my fighter got and that the dm of this next scenario tipped me off that the sword#would be p useful for his scenario. but im not using that fighter again. so my rogue mugged her so i can carry the sword over#but i want to do more actual like. roleplay shit with them. so they have a sword they have no real intention of using#and must be persuaded to hand it off (and if no one succeeds ill just have them hand it off in a pinch or smth)#wip kinda idea. theyre a wood elf who has a distaste for other elves hence the. higher dc for elves and half elves whatever it ends up bein#i dont even know what characters everyone else is using lol. i just hope the minmax character doesnt return#the base dc is going to be either 22 or 24 but ive never set up this kinda thing so. idk if thats a bit much#tbh i might talk to the dm a bit so i can get a better understanding of the basics of the scenario#bc i might also utilize infiltration expertise and have them show up using a false identity at first#can you tell im excited abt this scenario. im just excited to use this character again really#now that i uh. know that you need to add not just dex(or w/e stat) but also prof when attacking with weapons ur proficient in
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okay so I spent the entire day researching my degree in great detail and I don't know what I'm studying but I am eager to study it (get hurt)
#'CompE has both hardware and software expertise' and 'CompE can do CS and EEE jobs'#LIES. LIES ALL OF YOU#both are true to an extent (esp the first one) but the second one depends more on your own skills#which i do not have#i have nothing#i only have 2D men delulu and impending doom#also fear of unemployment because i rly need to be employed right after graduation like. my first day at my job needs to be the day after-#-my final exam#or else im COOKED#zuri rambles
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contemplating a bard/rogue for my next playthrough
#three rogue levels gets sneak attack bonus action dash/hide/disengage and one extra bonus action per turn#and then everything else could be bard#for an amazing ranged fighter and support spellcaster#and between bard and rogue you'd get expertise in FIVE skills#also sort of tempted by bard/paladin because the bard spells seem slightly lackluster compared to the paladin selection#and lay on hands + healing radiance would really round out a character for support spellcasting#two levels in paladin would get divine smite and bards have more spell slots to make use of that#still no clue what kind of character I want to play from a story perspective but#there are lots of interesting new builds to try#scribblingface plays bg3
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