#and then. confusion. and then curiosity.
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metamy is insane. like.
what if i was the hero you loved gone wrong. defeated and destroyed. rebuilt as my own greatest enemy. what if i lost everything. what if i had been reprogrammed to despise all i had once fought for. what if i couldn't even remember why i had fought at all.
and what if you were made of roses. what if you represented every beautiful thing i once died trying to protect. what if you wore flowers in your hair and cared for small creatures and had eyes the color of the forests i used to call my home. what if you were everything i once loved.
those memories are just out of my reach. infuriatingly. maddeningly. but if anyone knows who i am (who i used to be) it's you. if anyone can make me feel like who i used to be (who i really am) it's you. i can't speak, i can't breathe, i can't remember anything (but you).
you are the world i have been ordered to burn. i am the weapon you have chosen to resist. i was (am) the hero that you loved.
you are my only memory. i will do anything to make you believe me.
#sonic#metamy#metal sonic#amy rose#like. the motifs man. the robot falls in love with rose.#he fought and died to protect nature. her name is AMY ROSE.#he fought and died to protect nature and HE WAS CONVERTED INTO A METAL WEAPON. used against his OWN DREAM.#you are a weapon against yourself. what do you remember? i remember her (i remember failing her)#he's cold. (un)dead. sharp. made of metal. enemy of life. LITERALLY AT WAR WITH HIMSELF (metalsonic v sonic).#she's so so warm. bright. soft. covered in flowers. the only thing that could be good and patient and loving enough to endure him.#it's about his unspoken obsession. he has no mouth he makes no sound he cannot blink or smile or cry.#so he stares in silence at a girl so beautiful and gentle he almost remembers. almost. almost. almost.#all she sees (at first) is a tool. a cold imitation of her love. staring unblinking. unthinking unfeeling.#and then. confusion. and then curiosity.#and when she figures it out. it turns to horror.#BUT THATS FOR LATER!#the best part to me is that weird phase where amy is like. what is this thing doinggg😭 (secretly affectionate) while metal stares at her👁👁#and composes love poem death threats (2 sonic) in his mind.#its about jealousy. im the true sonic. you say you love sonic and im sonic why dont you love me? love me. love me#-> you are kind to me. i had forgotten that feeling. i wont lose it again. so im gonna kill your boyfriend . if thats okay😁beepboop!#the dynamic between amy and sonic and sonics weird undead evil robot clone WHO WANTS TO BE 'THE REAL' SONIC SO BADLY is sooooo yummy.#esp if sonic in turn is like. 'is. is he actually a contender in this. AMY. YOURE BETTER THAN THIS.'#sonic's own sense of ego and entitlement (/pos i love him hes a rat) clashing in two separate forms. two separate lifetimes.#but! that rose! that same rose!!!!!!!!!!!#(clutches head in hands)
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People that use winrar's free trial that occasionally asks you about paying for it when 7zip is right there and always completely free fascinate me Is it an aesthetic thing? Do people that prefer winrar free trial edition just do it for the cute lil stack of books? because if so I understand completely
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Who are we? Where are we? Where do we come from? Where are we going?… I don’t know. I don’t have any answers to those questions. I don’t know what’s over there around the corner. But I want to find out.
-- Gene Cernan
#curiosity#exploration#answers#gene cernan#travel photography#cluj#romania#street photography#pigeon#curious#quote#street signs#directions#questions#existential thoughts#thoughts#photography#humor#lol#confusion
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Ellen McLain’s commentary from my trivia playthrough
#She's so cute <3#WPP#Portal#Ellen McLain#If you haven't played through the audio commentary I would Absolutely recommend it it is So fun#I clicked out of curiosity - kind of just expecting like a movie's audio commentary y'know? Like a video that highlighted specific scenes#No it's just the whole game again but with trivia pop-ups! I love that!!#It reminded me so much of like trivia track or the pop up fun facts from special editions of movies I would watch as a kid#But you can play through them!! You have to click on them and they spin! I love that!!!#I always love hearing the design and development process - fascinating how the playtesters reacted to this new game!#We take it for granted now but yeah I imagine it would've been very confusing at the time#And I was like ''Well it was such a small team and Ms. McLain was such a large part of it - surely she'll have a few bubbles?''#She does lol - as soon as I got to her first one (it was a slow burn! They buried the lead with her lol I'm already invested!) I had to go#I saved-quit the game out of sheer excitement and giddiness lol I had to sleep on it before I was ready to come back#It is so cool to hear her natural voice ah <3 And the kinds of direction she was given! Other bubbles also talk about her vocal direction :)#Very cool! I wonder what TTS they used for reference :0#But to hear her real laugh without the audio processing over and and she still sounds like GLaDOS! I mean of course she does but just jfdksl#That's /her/ laugh! They share a laugh! It's a very similar laugh!!#Not to mention her talking about wanting to play and just fdskalfd they clearly did such a good job with her performance and ahhh#It's too cute it's all too cute sharing a room with GLaDOS while her voice actor talks about making a cake to share with her friends stopppp#I am so enamoured <3#I also took a bunch of screenshots of GLaDOS still shit-talking while she was being destroyed lol#Actually beat the ending in one try this time :P I ran out of time the last time pfft#But now I've beaten it twice in as many days :D Although I did start it the first time several days ago - but I beat it again quickly!#Has me all the more itching to replay 2 ♪#WPVG
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morgan and elle's friendship is so severely underrated and i wish we'd gotten more of them. they go on vacation together! there are also some lines in the first episode that, at least to me, imply that they knew eachother before. morgan is introduced talking to/quizzing trainees, so that seems like the most likely way, but. i don't know. i love them and i would have been curious to see how it would have been elaborated upon had lola glaudini stayed on.
(side note: i love morgan's pose and face in the second screencap. he's so silly)
#not fic#criminal minds#criminal minds rewatch#criminal minds s01e11#elle greenaway#derek morgan#elle & morgan#i see them as friends but i could also see them having a thing#honestly the whole cast has such good chemistry with eachother#even the ships i dont like im like “yeah i get why you would ship that”#most of them#some confuse me but there aren't really any ships i have outright negative feelings towards#also: random curiosity. a part of me wonders if the beginning of this scene (the parts in the post) was scripted?#i dont know. lola's “dude!” feels very genuinely startled and i dont think “you're way too tense” is ever elaborated upon#i have no idea though lmao#she could just be a good actress!#i am once again babbling in the tags. ill shut up now#blood hungry#criminal minds 1x11
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since it's canon that carmine is curious about others' love lives ( based on her clubroom convo with arven, ) i just know she'd pester the fuck out of kieran in regards to how they feel about florian. if her little sibling's going to have a more active love life than her, then the least they can do is let her in on all the juicy details.
#it doesn't help that she already knows that florian has a crush on kieran#after everything settles down her curiosity would get the best of her and she'd try subtly probing them about it w/ little success#eventually she just bluntly asks them if they have a crush on florian and i. can't imagine it going well#( mostly bc kieran is confused about their own feelings towards florian still )#he doesn't start to figure things out until near the end of the crater crew's visit to kitakami during mochi mayhem#( which i imagine to last a little over a week or two? )#kieran would probably not tell her though bc they know she'd just end up teasing him ( she would )#hc : (pkmn) mjverse#chara : carmine hinoki#chara : kieran hinoki#tealmaskshipping#mj.txt
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Ok, Hogan's Heroes fandom, I've got a question for you: if you were introducing someone to the show for the very first time, which episode would you start with? For bonus points, also tell me WHY you choose that episode.
#Hogan's Heroes#bonus points can be exchanged for a reduced sentence in the cooler#the next time you have to take the fall for something on behalf of the mission#half of this question is borne from curiosity and the other half is because I do want to introduce a friend to the show#as soon as I can convince her to actually give it a chance#I may have asked something like this before but I can't remember so we're doing it again#personally I wouldn't start with the pilot because that's where I started#and I was VERY confused about a couple of details (namely who's who) for like half a dozen episodes after that#so I'd probably just start with Hold That Tiger but idk if there's a better choice#it's hard to see these episodes through the eyes of someone who's never seen any of them before you know#idk I feel like no matter what I do my friend's just gonna have to be a little bit confused the first couple episodes 😂#and I just have to hope that I can convince her to press on#not that it's bad at the beginning by any means but it does get better once you know the show
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hey man likers. lesbian here, what do you find so attractive about irl scar? i don't get it /genq
#i see twitter thirsting over him all the time but#at least looks wise#he's just some guy#this is genuine curiosity and confusion#goodtimeswithscar#gtws#soup talks
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There's just something so fucking great about the concept of characters like Zeke Banks and Peter Strahm having this complicated relationship to serial killers while having such a strong urge for justice and finding the truth???
Specifically, I love to think about how in the middle of their games of cat and mouse, or at those moments they inevitably share as they sharpen their knowledge on each other and get close enough to bump, when their intentions get a lot more nuanced as they insist on combing through them later again and again... that connection and obsession shoves everything else to second place. Seeing one another tunnels their vision, and their actions will follow rules made on the spot.
But then the world keeps on turning around them when they leave the crime scene with blood on their shirts and a gun that may or may not have been pointed but never used, piles of mangled bodies from 'collaborative traps' and distorted audios calling the remains of another horror story a chance for 'redemption' never stop being found; survivors slam doors in their faces when they come for statements and sob their hearts out at their closed off support meetings— suddenly, it's their place to show remorse, perform the respect and compassion that's lacking in their lovers... and how it impacts them to carry that burden they, against their own better judgement and all good reasoning, carry because they only give this much of a tangible fuck when they're put face to face with that damage.
It's just breathtaking, to wonder how ignorance is bliss and they cover themselves in it for the sake of something they want so badly. The guilt that comes when the blanket slips right off, yanked back by their lovers. Maybe even by themselves, punishment for their own broken vows. Weakness.
#parallels between saw gays go brrrrrrr#i just think that it's so good that u see this exact dynamic in fics with different intonation#a little more self hatred in one a little less commitment to justice for the other but both so similar#especially the 'you want me? well you got me' coming from mark and william#how tempting it is to give in to the interest shown or to curiosity#the need to be the Good One between them two exhausting them but they do it either bc its nature or bc its what they expect of themselves#their moral compasses cracking and pointing at confusing directions as they see the 'why' but are disgusted at the 'how'#how being exposed time and time again makes it not so urgent not so physically sickening but still so warped so twisted#uGHHHH i love it#love all of it#never being in the same terms but staying still by the threads they wrapped around themselves#peter strahm#ezekiel banks#mark hoffman#william schenk#coffinshipping#spiralshipping#hoffstrahm#sawposting#saw franchise#the horror gays are fucking killing me#serial killers and their pet detective/agent <3
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𝐼’𝓂 𝒹ℴ𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒾𝓉, 𝒶𝓇ℯ 𝓎ℴ𝓊?
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Why the font 😭😭 crying tears OML ZOYA doing what??!?
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If the future guys had to tell their past self one thing what would it be?
#cross got a lil confused but he got the spirit#dreamswap#ds dream#ds nightmare#ds blue#ds cross#ds error#ds ink#we are curiosity#isaacballz
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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner
#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr#me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel#and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need#space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time#but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single#Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was#much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh#i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups#and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that#definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him#its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh#cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did#like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess#guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here#and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno#we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff#that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting#i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it#i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu#anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu#publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago#n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus#being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the#stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)
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i haven't messed with gpose much since 7.1, would anyone be willing to tell me about what control changes there were and maybe what's bothering people?? ;v; absolutely no judgment, i am a NOTORIOUS hater of change, especially in controls; i just don't know if the one thing i noticed being different is The Thing and i'm frankly just curious hehe
#the only thing i've noticed being different is if you rotate the angle of your screen (so the character is sideways/upside down) the#wasd keys track this and ensure for example that the w always pans the screen upwards regardless of how your character is oriented#and this might BE what people don't like and i totally get why bc if you're super used to the old controls or if your brain more readily#understands “your character's up” versus “your screen's up” that would be very difficult and jarring and even unintuitive!#i personally like this change bc my brain much more readily understands what key i need to press to pan the direction i want now#and this may not be The Problem but if it is: you're SUPER VALID and i do think they should make it a toggle between control types#and if it ISN'T: please let me know what it is i am dying of curiosity and also may get confused and mad if i encounter it later LOL :')#ok thanks you!!!!#yoshi talks
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“I really gotta stop taking the What Chipmunk Are You? quizzes. They never make me feel anything but intense confusion and self loathing.”
“WHY DO I ALWAYS GET SIMON!? I KNOW FOR A FACT I’M PUTTING DOWN ANSWERS THAT HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH SIMON!”
“It’s literally just the science and nerdy stuff. Those questions must be weighted or something.”
“I’ve never taken one of these quizzes and gotten myself. It’s usually Simon, sometimes Jeanette. One time I took the Nickelodeon website quiz and got Brittany.”
“Rant over. I’m going back to my list of obligations.”
#alvin seville#alvin and the chipmunks#alvinnn and the chipmunks#alvin 2.0#alternate universe#I AM NOT SIMON#simon seville#which chipmunk are you?#quiz#stupid quiz#identity crisis#curiosity#confusion#science#jeanette miller#brittany miller#STOP GIVING ME SIMON#I love my bro#I’m NOT him
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#poll#random poll#poll time#my polls#tumblr polls#random polls#polls#tumblr poll#polls on tumblr#polls are fun#emotions#emotional#life#Confusion#Mourning#Compassion#Curiosity#Fun#Disappointed#Anger#Pride#Bitter#Desire#Dread#Numb
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My take on Jane downed a bottle of hot sauce once just to test if she could taste/drink/eat anything
This did not work and she was later found under a table with her head sitting in front of her as she was trying to clean some blood & hot sauce off of what remains of her neck (ow💀)
#watermelons talks#listen she may be very intelligent but she has her moments sometimes#mainly from her curiosity and lack of understanding of some things#for example she got stuck in an elevator once trying to figure out the buttons (she was confused as it wasnt a communication device-#or a calculator of some sort)#((she was in there for about 10 minutes))#ride the cyclone#rtc#ride the cyclone musical#jane doe ride the cyclone#jane doe rtc#jane rtc#rtc jane doe#ride the cyclone jane
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