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King of the Washuu.
#He is NOT coping with the horror of his own short lifespan and creation.#I really like how one of his eyes is covered by hair because I can draw attention to two emotions.#pathetic grotesqueness#and then the horrified desperation.#why be sad when I can draw furuta as miserable.#I felt so clever when I was making the red details on the dolls.#furuta nimura#nimura furuta#souta#kichimura washuu#I'm not tagging his siblings as technically they're not there... but those are rize arima and ihei just to be clear#MARKETABLE PLUSHIES.#my art#tokyo ghoul#tg:re#tokyo ghoul fanart
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buddy dawn cannot raise himself from the grave.
buddy dawn is not a chosen one.
buddy dawn is a child.
buddy dawn was manipulated by organized religion through no fault of his own, most likely since he was born.
buddy dawn had his throat slit by people he probably considered good friends.
buddy dawn is kristen applebees in a different—worse—life.
buddy dawn is dead, and there’s a good fucking chance helio won’t answer his questions.
#this episode was gut wrenching at that moment#like that’s genuinely a horrifying fate and i’m desperately hoping someone can raise him cause that’s not fair#he is a young indoctrinated teenager and he deserves the chance to change#fantasy high spoilers#dimension 20#fantasy high#fantasy high junior year#d20#fh#fhjy
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I told you I never stop thinking about merpearl
#I want there to be more yuri kiss art. There isnt enough. I guess I have to be the change I want. whaagh#I think Pearl is too awkward and clueless and horrified (because DL) to actually just kiss Gem like this (at least for awhile) but#mermaid pearl is built different. Still clueless though#I am so exhausted and I have much more important things to draw but Im sorry I had yuri in my system and I needed to get it out desperately#gempearl#shiny duo#hermitshipping#tubby art
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Annual reminder that despite all memes and adaptations to the contrary, Jonathan ‘If I die I hope Mina gets my diary as a goodbye :’c’ Harker acknowledged that something ominous was up as of DAY 2 in his little Transylvania travelogue. The only reason he wasn’t turning his ass around was, you know. Needing to Do This Incredibly Vital Assignment for His Brand New Job. If you put this boy in [PICK ANY HORROR MOVIE], he would be out of there two seconds after the opening credits
Halloween night in Haddonfield? My guy isn’t sticking around to meet Michael Myers and his killer kitchenware
Camp Crystal Lake is very lovely, he’s sure, the nice nubile college kids should send him and Mina a postcard while they’re hanging out at home
What’s that? There’s a haunted house with spirits chucking furniture around and you want to record it all for posterity? Neat, cool, awesome, write to him about it while he’s off in a restaurant somewhere talking up a chef and posting nice foodie reviews
This guy knows when horror story bullshit is happening even while being unaware of the fact that he is one of the main characters of Dracula.
He can smell what genre he’s in and does Not like it and would be out of there if he could, do not paint him as a one brain cell oblivious baby man
#part of the horror for this opening bit of the book is how clearly Jonathan is picking up the red flags#followed by how desperately he tries to hold onto rationality as a way to calm and reassure himself#because once the Horrors are fully acknowledged that means he must struggle with knowing#he’s truly in danger—and not just in the ways he would be if the threat was ‘normal’#if Dracula was just a murderer he’d be a human threat#but no#he’s fucking DRACULA#and Jonathan gets to learn just how existentially horrifying being his target is#…all of which comes AFTER acknowledging the preliminary Horror#jonathan harker#dracula#dracula daily#re: dracula
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thinking about riz and his love for the bad girls, and how if anyone fucks with them, then sooner or later they’re gonna answer to riz gukgak
#also includes penny to an extent#thinking about Riz immediately moving to save fig and keep her safe in his briefcase#no thought to potential consequences outside Protect Fig#threatening biz for adaine and penny#(with EXTREME violence)#desperately trying to counter Kalina in the forest to protect Kristen. horrified when she sacrifices herself to protect him instead#and the first time he really truly gets aggressive toward the rat grinders is when kipperlilly threatens Kristen. full on hissing mad#was largely neutral toward oisin until he was a dick to Adaine and then welp time to kill his grandma#and it’s so great because they’re just as viciously protective of him#Riz and his girls ❤️#truly I love all the bad kid relationships but Riz is my special guy who’s so full of love that is often demonstrated as extreme violence ❤️#and I just love every interaction he has with Adaine Fig or Kristen they’re all so cute#my musings#fantasy high#dimension 20#dropout#fhjy#riz gukgak
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sorry the quality isn't the best, but i wanted to torture myself with zoomed in shots of Crosshair's expressions while Omega is trying to convince him of her recapture/Tantiss plan. 🥺(S3 E11)
#crosshair#the bad batch#he looks horrified and terrified and like he's literally in pain#and i think he's trying desperately to poke holes in her plan even though he probably already knows it's their best shot#in hindsight it makes SO much sense#this poor man fears Tantiss like nothing else and now Omega wants to go back there. which also means he'll have to go back there and...god#no wonder he's freaking the fuck out#on her behalf and his own#star wars#R&Rgif#OUCH FEELS
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the thing about being the highest-ranked and most-decorated officer in any GAR/Guard capacity, fox thinks, is that unsurprisingly nobody could give less of a shit or listen to anything he says. it’s not like he earned those medals and recognitions and perfect test scores or anything, now is it, kote?
or, after the zillo beast disaster, the coruscant guard medbay just so happens to be much closer than the GAR one, and surprise surprise, senators don’t want meatdroids to be treated in their facilities after they’ve just protected them with their lives. fox tries to reason against this. fox is unsuccessful, because no one listens to fox.
which is how he finds himself crammed into a corner along with cody, ponds, bly, rex and their jedi, looking out across a medbay which is quite frankly a goddamn disaster rivalling the fight with the zillo beast in proportions. skywalker tries to step out towards one of the medics, and has to be pulled back by the collar of his shirt by amidala, squawking loudly when he’s nearly rammed over by mauler, crucifix and a shrilly screaming crash cart.
it’s not like fox said this would be a bad idea or anything.
“um, vod”, cody begins, unsure, “what’s - is that guy sewing wooley up with thread?!”
meathook, who is in fact sewing wooley up with thread, and looks about as happy about it as his patient, and who fox honestly thought was going to cry when he announced the influx of patients about to descend on them, snaps something about triage over his shoulder at hound, whose arm is decidedly bent in a way it shouldn’t be, jerking his head to gesture at the rickety cot next to cody’s ARC. fox is pretty sure they salvaged the thing from a dumpster. he slaps a bandage on the stitches that fox fears might be from the same dumpster.
“putting those advanced reconnaissance training skills to use, kote”, says fox, who invariably turns into the worst possible version of himself whenever cody opens his mouth within a klick of his vicinity.
skywalker harrumphs, evidently at the end of his impressive patience. “well, why?! hey, trooper! these men need bacta!”
“do they, now? i’m sorry, i hadn’t noticed”, a low voice hisses angrily behind them, and fox is the only one who doesn’t jump on account of he’s too dead inside to be scared of his CMO anymore. a grave error, he’s sure. “i guess i’ll just go pull some out of my ass along with a tank and painkillers, then! hadn’t thought of that yet!”
warcrime, whose eye is twitching and who is holding a bloody saw in visible consideration of using it, pins skywalker with a look that has had shinies all over the guard peeing themselves. “we don’t have any fucking bacta, you absolute numbskull.”
“but that can’t be right”, cody pipes up again, next to a very troubled looking generals kenobi and windu. fox sympathises very much with the patented migraine-glare on windu’s face. “why do you not have any bacta?”
“because i like to smear meiloorun juice all over my patient’s stab wounds, commander”, warcrime says. “it’s a homeopathic medicine thing. because the chancellor refuses to give us any, genius.”
“what?!” skywalker says, bristling. “that can’t be true! he wouldn’t -“ he’s cut off by his comm pinging loudly over the moaning and crying in the medbay, and warcrime leaning close enough to be heard with a whisper.
“well, he would, and if you don’t believe me, there’s a holorecording of him telling marshal commander fox why biological weapons on the homefront have lower priority and therefore half rations of everything. now get out of my medbay or find out why they named me warcrime, sir.”
amidala, the collective braincell holder for both her husband and the senate combined (on occasion), tugs him out of the way of warcrime’s bonesaw and ire. fox, who very much enjoys not being the primary target of a medic for once, unfortunately also has to be the adult in the room. “sirs, a transfer to the GAR barracks medbay might be a preferable- AH, MOTHERFU-“
“get him, stabby!”, rabid whoops from where he’s resetting thire’s nose, who echoes a much more nasal and muffled, “go, ftabby!”
“get kriffing FUCKED, stabby, you absolute-“, fox seethes, trying to swipe for the medic’s head and nearly planting one on cody instead by accident, who unfortunately manages to evade the swing fox is admittedly projecting very obviously on account of the sedation hypo jammed into his flank.
“medbay rules, sir”, stabby calls, dancing away towards mauler and his crash cart, while someone bumps something solid and flat against the backs of fox’s thighs that he can’t help but tumble back on, already seeing two codys and blys dancing around his vision. “commander fox protocol dictates he is to be helped to sleep as often as possible, sir.”
“a desperate but well-founded measure, i’m sure”, kenobi of all people agrees, and fox waves an unsteady hand in what might be the general’s direction to the sound of cody’s scandalized gasp. “as you were, officer… stabby.”
“traitors”, fox slurs, just as his com-unit begins to ping with an urgent notification. before he can try and answer it, warcrime has ripped it off his arm and flung it somewhere out of his sight. eh, it probably wasn’t anything THAT important, fox thinks. and if he wakes up two days later to a near-hysteric meathook kissing the glass casing of the guard’s brand new bacta tank over and over again, he decides to just roll over and go back to sleep.
#commander fox#corrie guard deserves better#oc corrie guard medics my beloved#the com was in fact an emergency alert that the zillo beast wasn’t as dead as they thought it was and bit palpatine’s head off#‘oh no’ says fox ‘how horrible’#‘-anyways-‘#jedi order absolutely horrified at the state of things immediately begin to occupy guard headquarters#mace gives himself force exhaustion trying to heal troopers#he is not in fact a healer#kix who is horrified to hear all about this immediately puts in a temporary transfer notice along with a small army of medics#they come bearing all kinds of contraband once they find out about the lack of adequate food as well#it turns out murder and insults do in fact solve all of fox’s problems#stabby has to admit to a very concerned kix that he’s not actually medically sedating fox every other day#‘i only did that once out of desperation and ever since i’ve made a point of sticking him with an empty needle every now and then’ he sayd#‘poor thing’s so exhausted he keels over immediately’#fox gets his monthly eight hours and stabby gets to earn his dues: win win#kix is reluctantly impressed
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Chip not having a gaping hole in his chest post-death is the hill i will die on, actually. I am on my hands and knees. Please I am begging yall. He does Not have a hole in his chest where his heart was thats Not how he died guys I'm begging yall (<- guy at the end of their rope /dramatic)
#GUYS PLEASE THE THUMBNAIL WAS A VISUAL METAPHOR#THE 'HOLE IN HIS CHEST' IS FROM THE DIVINE SHOWER THAT SLOUGHED HIS FLESH OFF HIS BONES#A WHOLE SIDE OF HIS RIBS UP HIS CHEST WAS EXPOSED BECAUSE OF THE SHOWER#BUT HE DOES NOT HAVE A GAPING HOLE IN HIS CHEST FROM HIS DEATH#HIS HEART WAS NOT RIPPED OUT THROUGH HIS CHEST AND IF YOU DONT BELIEVE ME RELISTEN TO IT#BECAUSE LET ME TELL YOU IN MY OPINION HIS HEART BEING TORN OUT THROUGH HIS MOUTH IS MORE HORRIFYING#AND ALSO COOLER TO ME#BUT ALSO ITS CANON AND THATS MORE IMPORTANT TO ME#PLEASE IM ON MY HANDS AND KNEES GUYS PLEASE THE THUMBNAIL FOR 109 WAS NOT BEING LITERAL#IT WAS A METAPHOR FOR THE HUNT FOR THE HOLE IN THE SEA KILLING HIM#PLEASEEEEEEE#cough. anyway. sorry i am just. gripping canon so tightly desperate for canon-compliant undead chip art and struggling to find it#im normal again carry on#unless you want to talk to me about this then my dms and asks are open i love talking about undead chip#jrwi riptide#jrwi chip#just roll with it#just roll with it riptide#jrwiblr#dragons chatting
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P1 clara route oh my god
#okay so she’s been my favorite for a hot minute#but actually playing her route is a totally different experience#like. fuck. this is a character literally made for me#it is shocking to see media that depicts so accurately what being stuck in a cult mentality is like#her whole dynamic with Katerina is INSANE to me#as someone with some personal experience in a situation like that. good lord#all interactions with block hit me like a GUT PUNCH#ik fanon casts him as her dad sometimes but he made my skin crawl#the fervent and desperate way he exalts her was just horrifying#and Clara accepting this from people because its the only way she will ever be loved#her entire story is about destruction being a child#and all children want is to be loved#and yet. the only person who loves her without condition is the twin she invented with a lie#it is so heartbreaking i need to lay DOWN#pathologic#pathologic 2#digital art#clara pathologic#clara saburova#pathologic classic hd
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Saw a comment of someone saying “it’s not Stolas’s fault. He didn’t mean to cheat.” And I fell down a hole again.
#helluva boss critical#anti Stolas#what to call the state of wishing this was a kid saying this but desperately wishing it was not a kid bc HB is not appropriate for them#ambivalent yet horrified?
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Have some more Spoopy Season content!
#alt girl#cryptid#just cryptid things#just girly things#im just a girl#just girly posts#just girly thoughts#am i pretty?#am i cute yet#alternative#goddess#goth aesthetic#blonde goth#goth#goth girl#big tiddy goth girl#am i hot#am i sexy?#tell me im horrifying#tell me im hot#tell me im sexy#tell me im pretty#tell me im cute#need validation#i crave validation#i need validation#attention wh0r3#needy princess#attention slvt#desperate for attention
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It feels cringe in retrospect, but Aaron screaming at Ein from the top of the cliff will never not make me wanna yell and cheer like I'm watching my favorite sports team. Like YEAH! GET HIS ASS!! GET YOUR GIRL!!
That goes double for all of forever potion!Aphmau's lines, Jess absolutely DEVOURED with those, especially her scream when Aaron collapsed. That shit is HAUNTING, no matter how many times I hear it.
#'haha block characters bob up and down' BUT WHAT IF I CRIED AND SOBBED AND ACHED#dont even get me STARTED on zane's flashback during aphmau's year#aph's desperation and panic is horrifying especially when its through the eyes of a close friend#RAGHGHHG EMERALD SECRET SOLOS I LITERALLY DONT CARE#if u made it this far srry for disappearing ive had work and a new sibling and hyperfixations so its been 🫠 alot#aphmau#aphblr#aphverse#mystreet#aaron lycan#mystreet aaron#aphmau ein#mystreet ein#aphmau shalashaska#mystreet aphmau#aarmau#emerald secret
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Nikolai acquires a box of sweet treats one day, fancy pastries that were undoubtedly overpriced for things that's are done in three bites.
That day, he hand feeds John much to his own delight. Swatting away the English man's hands whenever he tries to reach for and insist, "I can feed my bloody self, Nik." Because Nikolai enjoys it, more than anything in the world, he enjoys taking care of John and using his thumb to swipe away the cream at the corner of his mouth.
John wants to hate it, desperately wants to hate it because he can not stand the feeling that someone else has to take care of him and that he can't do it himself. But it's different with Nik, he wants Nik to tell him what to do. Wants Nikolai to take care of him, wants to suck the cream from the tip of his thumb and maybe unbuckle his trousers while he's at it. And he doesn't know what to do with that at all.
#captain john price#cod nikolai#nikprice#john fighting his way through the positively horrifying realisation that he so desperately wants to submit to nik#vs nik who sees the cogs turning in his brain and thinks “about fuckinh time” but he'll let john go at his own pace#he always does#but hes going to make sure his english moron is fed one way or another
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It’s just…so painful to watch Armand readily submit in order to obtain the love he so desperately craves. And while it’s most assuredly a manipulative tactic, it’s still one borne out of fear and desperation. He cannot lose this person he’s come to love and so will become whatever they want, do whatever they want just so they’ll stay with him. But it won’t be enough. No matter how much he acquiesces or seeks to control (himself, others, the environment), he won’t be able to make Louis stay with him in the perfect life, perfect self he built in the hopes of finally being loved. It will all crumble with Armand left alone in the rubble of what he created, the author of his own abandonment.
#this unfortunately hits way too close to home for me#let’s not even get into Claudia’s anger at never being enough#iwtv spoilers#interview with the vampire#armand#this is just me speaking from personal experience…but there is definite manipulation at play here from Armand#and I don’t necessarily mean that pejoratively- when you’re desperate for people to like/love you you’ll become whatever they want#or whatever you think they’d want and you give it to them so they’ll want to keep you around#I’ve done it so often with the people in my life- and make no mistake it’s also a survival tactic#you give someone what they want they won’t hurt you#and when that’s how you survive for years and years it becomes the default method of interacting with others#even with normal people who genuinely mean you no harm you revert to that people pleasing mode#as a means of control both external and internal#this is what i see armand doing- his way of surviving that he’s never truly broken out of#armand ceding coven control to Louis and curating the Dubai penthouse for Louis are part of the same pattern of behavior#and even tho it’s ultimately harmful and will only end badly for armand and Louis’ relationship#idk if armand knows how to not exist that way with someone he loves/desires#all of this also ties into louis and daniel#because of course Armand will lose it over Louis finding connection and interest with someone else aside from him#someone HUMAN no less#and I can see Armand taking out his anger on Daniel as a way of expressing his own frustration at still not being enough for Louis#breaking daniel’s mind in a desperate attempt to understand why this human could reach Louis in ways he couldn’t#not saying any of this to excuse Armand and his behavior obviously (I’m very upset and worried over the trial looming on the horizon)#but I do understand this impulse and how you’ll throw ANYONE under the bus in order to preserve your place with loved ones#it’s all horrifying but unfortunately I empathize#like even if Louis is right to walk out on him when he learns/remembers the truth of what happened to Claudia#I’ll probably still find myself saddened by Armand’s fate because I’ve absolutely been there myself#it’s a tragedy of his own making- his fear and desperation birthing manipulative and controlling behaviors#that ultimately result in your own abandonment#god this fucking show
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fun mcu buckytony tunabucket fact of the day they both play piano. thank you mcu for this fun canon buckytony fact
#tony has a piano. a keyboard is one of fatws bucky's only possessions in his Depression Apartment. :)#both musical!!!! both nerds!!!!! how fun!!!!! anyway i desperately need to hear their opinions on each others music preferences (derogatory#i just know tony gives bucky an mp3 player with noise cancelling headphones like#''uhhhh idk. it has steves music and mine pre-loaded but like ask jarvis for anything? do whatever''#and bucky listens to all of it and instead gets really into like. avant-garde jazz and also cardi b? and tony is fucking horrified#I LOVE TWO GUYS#kayvswords
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Hey did the Rachel in your ‘verse hear the Ellimist’s story still?
Y'know, I still haven't decided whether "yes" or "no" is the funnier answer, so maybe I should put it to the masses:
#animorphs#animorphs spoilers#poll#rachel berenson#the ellimist#desperately trying to come up with a way to make ''rachel lives = rachel mind-reads crayak instead'' funny#but every time i try to imagine it i just get horrified
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