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kurogane-redfox · 1 year ago

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He'd never judged her for the lifestyle she'd led until they met and made their agreement. Just as she'd never judged him for his similar lifestyle up until that point. Sex was sex and if you and the person you were fucking got off there wasn't anything bad about it, RIGHT? He'd grown comfortable with Ari over the course of their agreement. Maybe a bit TOO comfortable for his time in Phantom Lord was concerned but that was fine.

Their agreement had been just casual sex. Hooking up when he needed release, or she did. If she saw him and needed sex he was usually happy to give her what she wanted. Their nights spent tangled in one another were his only really FOND memories of his time in Phantom, truthfully.

"Me too, but if I hadn't gone through what I did as a Phantom I don't think I'd be the man standin' in front of ya now, Ari,"

Fairy Tail WAS rowdy but that was fine, he didn't spend much time in the guildhall to be bothered by the chaos. Sure, sometimes he was hit by a flying Natsu to the face upon entering the guild but he never took any part in the brawls they were pointless and boring to him. He was honestly glad Fairy Tail had opted to give him a chance. Even if at first he'd been incredibly uncomfortable.

He obviously didn't know she knew one of Juvia's ex-boyfriends but he still needed to punch that smug bastard in his face for breaking the water woman's heart. She'd be upset with him for it, sure, but she'd forgive him eventually. He still owed that fucker pain for what he did and all.

He probably wouldn't have been able to live with himself if he'd dated Ari and someone had found out about it and told Jose, because he knew Jose would have tortured him and probably tried to KILL her. He couldn't have that. Nobody needed to die for him.

"Eh, I don't hold it 'gainst ya. Didn't back then either. I had a fuckin' reputation and the damn thing STILL follows me to this day sometimes. People are scared of me despite all the good I've done for the kingdom."

He had the backing of not only Fairy Tail but also Sabertooth's Guild Master. They KNEW he was a good person even if he was much more Dragon than he was human now. That was fine, though Ari might find some of the changes he might undergo while with her a bit strange (or hot knowing her). Truthfully he didn't think she'd care too much he was still HIM despite the scales that might show up on his skin.

"Gihi, yeah yer not wrong there. I'm glad we made that agreement back then though. Ya helped me a lot more than ya might realize."

He'd just grin at her in regards to her reaction to him having taken so many hard jobs in succession. He was good at what he did and not every job was a combat mission. Some of them were seek and recover, some were translation jobs, but most of them WERE combat oriented. He was good at fighting after all.

"Eh, not every job I take is combat oriented though most of 'em are. I checked in when I messaged my Master to let him know I'm takin' some time off."

That would explain why the Dragon was near her place at the moment they bumped into one another again. He'd been on his way back home to Magnolia. He'd stopped to grab something to eat but spotted her and walked over to her to talk instead of grabbing food. That was fine, he could eat later.

"My tongue piercin'? Uh... 'bout five years ago now. Did it myself the thing is enchanted too."

As they kiss again he hears her mewl and responds with his own groan. She tasted just as good as he remembered her tasting, if not even BETTER. He had plenty of time to spend with her now that he was going on the vacation he'd been begged to take. So he could spend all the time he had with HER.

He'd carry her the entire way to her house, the scent of her arousal most certainly making him walk just a bit FUNNY. That was fine, they'd be handling that soon enough.

"Good, we're gonna be spendin' my entire vacation together. I don't care how much sex we have but I wanna be WITH ya in every way I can be while I'm here with ya. This time we ain't losin' touch."

He'd set her down at her front door so she could unlock it and they could go inside. He'd obviously wait for her to go inside before following her in. Once inside he'd take his boots off. He'd turn to face her, grinning rather widely as he did so. She wasn't wrong it WASN'T exactly the same as it was the last time he was there but that was fine.

"Ya think ya left my ass 'lone when I was sleepin'? Ari ya made up ALL of the good dreams I had while we were apart."

His dreams, when they were positive were filled with her. Just HER. Smiling, being happy, the two of them together. He'd thought it was strange but didn't think BADLY about it. He'd take a few steps toward her and wrap an arm around her before pressing his lips to hers once more.

"Yer not wrong 'bout yer place lookin' a bit different. I can fix yer roof later."

Whether or not people judged her was none of her concern. Her past wasn't something she was ASHAMED of, it made her who she was. People couldn't shame her if she didn't carry any SHAME. That, and the fact that she only cared about what ONE person thought about her, and that person was standing right beside her. Sure, whenever she was lied to it hurt, but as far as her having had a lot of sex? She didn't feel like she had anything she needed to be sorry for, or to feel ashamed over.

At first, their agreement HAD been only sex, and initially Ari had been fine with that. He got off, she got off, they both won. HOWEVER, Ari had QUICKLY learned that she had fallen, and she had fallen DEEP. Not that she would have ever told him that in the past, she KNEW what kind of torture that Jose had inflicted on him, and she didn't ever want to be the reason that Jose had inflicted MORE pain upon him.

A frown graces her features, and she doesn't want to think about him being TORTURED. "I hate that you had to go through that. But I'm glad you found a guild that isn't like that." Sure, Fairy Tail had a reputation for being rowdy, but it was NOTHING like what Phantom Lord's reputation was like. Fairy Tail was known for being a LOVING guild, and she had actually considered joining back when she was looking for a guild to call her home.

In fact, if it hadn't been for one Bora of Prominence, she wouldn't have even had the in she had at Titan Nose.

She KNEW about the torture he faced at the hands of Jose, but she still HATED thinking about him in such a situation. She only wanted to think about him being HAPPY, happy with HER, happy with his friends. Happy in a guild that lets him express his emotions and be who he wanted to be.

She also knew that if they HAD begun dating, that there would have been some sort of target on her back. She wasn't fond of the idea of being put through similar torture that Gajeel had been put through.

"I know that NOW, but back then I only knew your reputation, I didn't know that you didn't make a habit out of hurting innocents. I mean yeah, now I know that, but back then..." She pauses, "I'm sorry.. it's just that back then it wasn't exactly EASY for me to ignore rumors, and I should have." She thought back to when rumors about herself actually bothered her.

She looks at him once again as he nudges her, her smile returning. "If sleeping around was a crime, we'd BOTH be in prison." She giggles, the sound echoing throughout the open air.

She pouts, "You need to slow down on taking such DANGEROUS jobs. I mean, I know you can handle them of course, but taking a buncha jobs and not having a break in between will make ANYONE exhausted." Not that she was one to talk, since Gajeel had left she generally either took jobs to keep her own self busy, or she would spend time in her guildhall with her friends.

She lets her hand be taken by him, and she catches that GLINT in his tongue. OH -- oh she knew EXACTLY what that was. She gulps back, and her face goes completely red. "When... when did you get THAT?" Last time they had been together she distinctly remembers a LACK of tongue ring, and it has her mind WANDERING back to those dirty thoughts.

He pulls her closer, and their lips meet once again. Her breathing is heavier, and she lets her tongue move against his as he opens his mouth. Oh, now she could FEEL the cold barbell against her tongue, and she practically MEWLS into the kiss, her moan being muffled against his mouth.

Once they part for air, it's obvious just how BREATHLESS she is. Her cheeks darkened from both embarrassment and the arousal she was already feeling, made worse by the feel of that tongue ring.

She shakes her head, "I-I don't have any jobs lined up anytime soon." Her lip is bitten, and she takes his hand and speedily walks towards her house. She was EAGER, that much was obvious. "I don't know how much longer I can wait. I've already missed you too much since you were gone and you don't even leave me alone in my SLEEP." She avoids eye contact, and she's EMBARRASSED to admit such things.

She's caught off guard by his picking up and CARRYING her, and a small yip leaves her lips. Her arms wrap around the back of his neck, and she lets him lead the way, obviously.

"I WANT you to mark me-- To be able to show everyone that I'm off the market."

#xfctes #Verse. Fairy Tail #Ship. I'm right here I found my way home now Gajeel x Ari [xfctes]#tw suggestive shit #hi yes hello I L O V E them? snasdasd

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blackwaxidol · 5 years ago

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u know u love ur son when there’s an entire 12 day discrepancy concerning his birthday

#I HAD IT ON A CHARAHUB AND NOW ITS GONE AND I DONT THINK ABT THESE TWO VERY OFTEN BECAUSE I'VE HAD THEM FOR FOUR YEARS #THEY LIVE IN MY HEAD RENT FREE BUT I DO NOT DO WELFARE CHECKS #viktor.txt #i only narrowed down the dates because i knew the zodiacs and also what numbers i like to pick #i like 3s and 7s and 14s #funnily enough... bojan and rufino have birthmonths corresponding like vinushka and silvano #thats coincidental but its funny #i just have a few months i wont pick because of the zodiacs #anything thats Aries Taurus Cancer or Leo is Not Happening.#not for superstition its just that i have one representative for each of these that annoy me or i dont like #the cancer one is just Me and i dont like having things resemble me #i drink a lot of 'i do not want to be perceived' juice #oc: vinushka #oc: silvano

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emerald-chaos · 3 years ago

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Welcome to the Sweethearts Diner

We pride ourselves on offering a unique dining experience full of personal choice and surprise twists! No two menu items will ever be the same, as we allow the patron to completely customize their own orders. So grab a date, sit on down, and enjoy the Sweethearts experience.

Friends! I am so freaking excited about hosting my first writing challenge. I want to give a HUGE shout out to @animehearteyes @wastingmylifeonbritishtv @spicynudlesoup and other friends who helped give me ideas and helped bring this particular idea to life. I couldn't have done this without their help and support.

Secondly, I wouldn't even be having this writing challenge right now if it weren't for you. Thank you for being a follower of mine, supporting me, and putting up with my bs all the time. I am so grateful for every single one of you it's not funny. I hope you enjoy this challenge and participate if you'd like!

This is my first writing challenge so if there's anything I can do to make it better or any tips that someone may have for me - please share!!!

I probably have way too many prompts, but i couldn't help myself hehehe.

Rules:

Just a few things to discuss as far as expectations go.

Please choose a prompt from below and a character to go with it and let me know via my ask box which you choose! Only one person per prompt. (if you want a different character, send me an ask! let's chat about it.)

Tropes, AUs, etc. are all optional and are not limited to what I have listed below. I give you all full creative liberties to add whatever you feel like speaks to you the most.

Works written for this challenge must be able to be read as standalone fics.

Any reader insert is welcomed for this challenge (LGBTQ+, BIPOC, interracial, polyamorous relationships and more are welcomed and encouraged!). If you would like to use an OC, again, send me an ask and let's chat about it!

500 word minimum but no maximum! Please add a "read more" line after 100-200 words.

If you are writing smut you MUST be 18 years of age or older. Please have your age in your bio so I can verify this.

Deadline for fics to be completed by: December 1st (this is not a hard deadline and if you feel like you need more time, i'm happy to extend things for you.)

Hard no's for the fics: toilet stuff, bestiality, sexual situations including minors.

Dark fics are welcomed but most be tagged appropriately.

Just because a prompt is listed under a fluffy, smutty, or angsty category does not mean it is excluded to only that category. Things can be intertwined, added, and whatever at the writer's discretion!

Please include warnings where necessary.

Please tag me so I can follow the stories and read them! Use the tags included at the bottom of this post.

Who are you bringing along as your date?

Any Sebastian Stan character, including but not limited to: Bucky Barnes, Mickey Henry, Frank (endings, beginnings), Chris (destroyer), etc.

Any Chris Evans character, including but not limited to: Steve Rogers, Andy Barber, Ransom Drysdale, Ari Levinson, Collin Shea, etc.

Any Marvel character, including but not limited to: Sam Wilson, Wanda Maximoff, Natasha Romanoff, Peter Parker, Tony Stark, etc.

Choose your main course:

Sweet

“What would you wanna marry me for anyhow?” “So I can kiss you anytime I want.” Sweet Home Alabama @dreamlessinparis

“When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible." When Harry Met Sally

“I've come here with no expectations, only to profess, now that I am at liberty to do so, that my heart is, and always will be, yours." Sense and Sensibility @dolcezzasfantasy

"You're late." "You're stunning." "You're forgiven." Pretty Woman @bucksdolll

"I like you very much. Just as you are." Bridget Jones's Diary

"You have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on." Pride and Prejudice @wastingmylifeonbritishtv

"What do you want? You want the moon? Just say the word and I'll throw a lasso around it and pull it down. Hey, that's a pretty good idea. I'll give you the moon.” It’s a Wonderful Life @velvetcardiganbucky

"It was a million tiny little things that, when you added them all up, they meant we were supposed to be together, and I knew it. I knew it the first time I touched her. It was like coming home, only to no home I'd ever known. I was just taking her hand to help her out of a car and I knew it. It was like magic." Sleepless in Seattle @thefallenbibliophilequote

“You’re the first boy I ever kissed, and I want you to be the last.” Sweet Home Alabama @vanillanaps

“The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love, and be loved in return.” Moulin Rouge @lokithealligator

"You don't marry someone you can live with, you marry the person you cannot live without." PS I Love You @doll1917

“Have you ever fallen in love with someone you haven’t even talked to?” While You Were Sleeping @hey-its-grey

“I love you.” “Thanks.” Breakfast At Tiffany’s

“I just need to know that it’s possible that two people can stay happy together forever.” Juno @abovethesmokestacks

“As you wish.” The Princess Bride

“Yes, i’m drunk. And you’re beautiful. And tomorrow morning, i’ll be sober but you’ll still be beautiful.” The Dreamers @shieldedreams

Spicy

“Nice boys don’t kiss like that.” “Oh yes they fucking do.” Bridget Jones’s Diary @bucksmotel

“You should be kissed and often, and by someone who knows how.” Gone with the Wind @lavendercitizen

“Be still my beating vagina.” Mamma Mia 2 @starbuckie

“Are you trying to seduce me?” “Why? Are you seducible?” A Walk To Remember @slutfornat

“I gotta get outta here pronto. I got a stage five clinger. A stage five, virgin clinger.” Wedding Crashers @sableseb

“You’re really wearing that dress like you’re doing it a favor.” Crazy, Stupid Love @sunshinebuckybarnes

“I’ll have what she’s having.” When Harry Met Sally

“You know what? It’s time to go home.” “Really? That’s forward of you. But okay, I’ll do it.” Crazy, Stupid Love @soldatsass

“You must forgive my lips...they find pleasure in the most unusual places.” A Good Year @buckycuddlebuddy

“What do you say we blow this joint and then each other?” Love & Other Drugs @aphrogeneias

“You should be kissed every day, every hour, every minute.” The Lucky One @luxeavenger

“Lift your skirt. Lift it higher. Higher. Higher. Lift it higher.” The Piano @sobluesobeautiful

“How would you like to have a sexual encounter so intense it could conceivably change your political views?” The Sure Thing @specialk-18

“I believe in long, slow, deep, soft, wet kisses that last three days.” Bull Durham @the-iceni-bitch

“I don’t bite, you know...unless it’s called for.” Charade @yelenabeloveme

Bitter

"I'd rather fight with you than make love with anyone else." The Wedding Date

I love you. I've loved you for nine years. I've just been too arrogant and scared to realize it, and, well, now, I'm just scared." My Best Friend's Wedding

"I wanna marry you because you're the first person I wanna look at when I wake up in the morning, and the only one I wanna kiss goodnight. Because the first time that I saw these hands, I couldn't imagine not being able to hold them." Definitely, Maybe @turbolisedcomet

"I wanted it to be you. I wanted it to be you so badly." You've Got Mail @bucky-soldat

I love you. I knew it the minute I met you. I'm sorry it took so long for me to catch up." Silver Linings Playbook @clints-lucky-arrow

“In my opinion, the best thing you can do is find someone who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you.” Juno

"I fell in love the way you fall asleep; slowly, and then all at once." The Fault in Our Stars @divine-mistake

"Don't forget: I'm also just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her." Notting Hill @coffeebucko // @bbonkyy (writing blog)

"So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard, and we're gonna have to work at this every day. But I wanna do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever. You and me. Every day." The Notebook @bibbidibobbidibucky

“We'll always have Paris." Casablanca

"I'd rather die tomorrow than live a hundred years without knowing you." Pocahontas @carrotfantasimp

“You said you couldn't be with someone who didn't believe in you. Well, I believed in you. I just didn't believe in me." Pretty in Pink @redbullchick

“I knew I’d never be able to remember what she wore that day. But I also knew I’d never forget the way she looked.” Father of The Bride

“I can’t see anything I don’t like about you.” Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

“You were the only thing in my life that was real.” Blue is the Warmest Color @ambrosiase

“What am I allergic to?” “Pine nuts. And the full spectrum of human emotion.” The Proposal @wintersfrost

“Trust me when I say if a guy is treating you like he doesn’t give a shit, he genuinely doesn’t give a shit.” He’s Just Not That Into You

“Some people are meant to fall in love with each other, but are not meant to be together.” 500 Days of Summer @christowhore

“I think you are the most selfish person on the planet.” “That’s just silly. Have you met everyone on the planet?” 2 Weeks Notice

“Three days ago I loathed you. I used to dream about you getting hit by a car. Or poisoned.” The Proposal

“Secondly, don’t let anyone ever make you feel like you don’t deserve what you want.” 10 Things I Hate About You @notwithoutyou-buckybarnes

“I feel like I’ve just found out my favorite love song was written about a sandwich.” 27 Dresses

“Why should I live up to other people’s expectations instead of my own?” 10 Things I Hate About You

“Neat freak. Healthy. Non-smoker. Single. I hate my horrible life.” The Holiday

“I miss you. If there’s anything you ever need, I won’t be far away.” Forrest Gump @rivkele

“I will not be the person you settle for because you cannot have her. I won’t do it. Not when I’ve spent my whole life loving you.” Little Women

Choose a side (trope optional; including but not limited to):

Enemies to lovers

Friends to lovers

One Bed

Love triangle

Fake relationship

Crossover

Body swap

Arranged marriage

Accidental marriage

Amnesia

Pining/longing/yearning

Exes back to lovers

Looking to sweeten the deal? Try one of our desserts! (AU optional; including but not limited to):

College

Coffee shop

Time travel/decades (does this go here or somewhere else?)

Soulmates

Mafia/Mob

Biker

Pirate

Modern

Single Dad

Sugar Daddy

Dad's Best Friend/Best Friend's Dad

Viking

Librarian

Florist

CEO

Bartender

Bodyguard

Chef

Horror

Sweethearts Diner Jukebox Time Machine Challenge

To make your menu item combinations more challenging, pop a quarter in our magic jukebox! Some say the jukebox helps the generation of the music come alive (stories may be written in the style of a different era for an added challenge! Who wouldn't love a renaissance bucky? 👀)

Decade eras (40’s, 70’s, 80’s, etc.)

Renaissance era

Medieval era

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spicyliumang · 2 years ago

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Thank you for tagging!! @trixibebe 🥺💙💙 Tagging @pubbiegf @floofz @dykecatboy (feel free to do it only if you want! ;w;) I hate: Takeda Kanryusai - Now, usually, I have this spot specifically reserved for Griffith, but I have made the unfortunate discovery of another character just as heinous, and I detest if not close but equally as much. So just for today we're gonna talk about this mf from LAD: Ishin

If there's a #1 Takeda hater I am one of them. I REALLY wish I could go into detail without spoilers, but I will keep it short and say this man is the absolute worst and a total monster. Disrespectfully I would give this man a toaster bath bomb. It's rare I even hate any character unless there is a very good reason behind and surely he deserves the spot. He can choke. I find funny: Goro Majima- To segway from the negativity, Majima is literally the funniest character in the RGG series. When playing Y0 you can see how tragic his backstory is and even throughout the series, but even then, he always manages to make me crack a smile somehow. I was living while playing Kiwami in fact I would seek him out on purpose 🤣 Not to mention the bomb scene was super funny 😭! In Ishin, Okita is just as funny, I love doing karaoke with him! Overall he's such a silly guy and I'm always delighted when he shows up! I'm dating but they dont know it: Tianyou Zhao ❤❤- My absolute everything 💖💖 I could go on and on about the chokehold this man has me in 😩. I remember my first thought discovering Y7 was turned-based and was like "Ehh, I don't know if I'm gonna like it, turn-based games aren't my forte" And then this man was presented in front of me and I was like "What a silly guy! His outfit is so... unique.. wait... hang on he's kinda.. 😳" And my second thought was "Huh, I hope this doesn't awaken anything in me" (It did. In literally 24 hours)

There are def characters I've found attractive with no doubt like I'd see them and would say "Wow, they're really good-looking!" But Zhao is very much 'Fall to my knees in the middle of Walmart' attractive and has consumed my brain the second I knew of his existence😩💙. So much so that I played Y7 first out of all the RGG games 😭

And don't get me started on Ishin, the developers really said "You know, he's already pretty attractive, let's use the Unreal Engine graphics to make him drop-dead gorgeous!"

It was beyond impossible to focus on the plot whenever he showed up 😩 I oogled over him the entire time! Each time he showed up I screeched lsdkslsl AND HIS EYES 😩💙💙 like *chef's kiss*

And it's not just his looks either, his demeanor is so alluring 😩. He's someone whose so nonchalant and practically aloof and then able to switch gears into one of the most deadly people you'd encounter😭😩 like the switch up really hits differently dskfdkjf and he's so charming too, even his voice draws you in😭 it's so smooth yet so low and when he drags his words out its just aRRGJDF like??? PLS... It's so hard to be normal about him skskldls

And he's such a tease too, his pranks and sarcastic attitude would easily drive anyone insane, but his charm just makes it so hard to be mad at him even if he lightly would bully you, his snarky attitude and his eyebrows really are the icing on the cake (He's literally an Aries Venus' wet dream)

There's so much to love about him. And while sometimes I do wish he was real, part of me is grateful he isn't because I'd be shamelessly wrapped around his finger and would fold IMMEDIATELY 😩💙

Deserved better: Casca- I love Casca with all my heart, in fact she was the reason I started Berserk in the first place! I was beyond thrilled to see a dark-skinned character and a strong female lead. Though one thing is for sure, she deserved better 😔. Now, I won't make it a trauma contest between her and Guts since in reality, they def have experienced similar traumas growing up, Casca def got the raw end of the stick. Casca, someone who was blindly devoted to Griffith, someone she idolized and would do anything for, ended up being discarded and used as a pawn in the cruelest way to show an assertion of power. This is one of the biggest criticisms I have about Berserk as a whole. More specifically, the scene in the Eclipse was NOT necessary and was far too grueling, definitely something that went too far. (Even Mirua wrote that he did feel that way while illustrating it) It hurts so much to see a strong female character written so well be reduced to a regressive state. (While yes, it def shows how intense trauma can affect a person) It breaks my heart to see her lose her memories. Even when her mind was recovered she still suffers the bad end of the stick. Again, this isn't a trauma contest between her and Guts because I love Guts with all my heart, but Casca, someone as strong and beautiful as she did not deserve to suffer 😔 I really hope as the manga continues, she has the chance to come back to her best self. Maybe she won't be the exact same but will become the strong female character she was at the start.

I kin: Guts- Speaking of Guts, now I get to go on about another male character I adore to pieces 💙 I discovered Berserk when I was in a pretty low place in my life, and by far, while he has had quite the trial and tribulations, Guts is a character I without a doubt feels close with 💙 After going through my own fair share of trauma, it is inspiring to see someone like Guts, cursed at birth who as yet to catch a break as he has lost many he loved back to back, he still goes on. He struggles in spite of everything, from his childhood trauma to the betrayals he faced as he's gotten older. He has learned to lean on others and ask for help rather than suffer on his own. It's not always easy as life can be cruel, but Guts is a reminder that even after the toughest situations, you have to go on.

Now we're at a critical point in the manga, and I look forward to seeing how things play out from here!

Radiates comfort: Puck- Puck!! Guts’ loving fairy companion tags along on Gut's relentless adventures. Berserk is a tragic story on its own. There are rarely any lighthearted moments throughout which can make it a lot to take in, but Puck always helps bring things to light every now and again! I love how silly he is and how even if Guts was rather cold towards him at the very beginning, he remained lighthearted and still stuck around bringing funny moments throughout their journey! I especially love Chestnut Puck, He's so adorable! 🥺😭💙

dhfbsdhfsdhj this took me way too long, and I was tagged by @ailonwy and I love her so I did it :'D

I'll Tag: @trixibebe @tricksters-kiss @romancedeldiablo @oathwings @jenorca

I Hate: Listen, He just ain't that cute for me lmao I'm not a fan of his RE games where he is the protagonist, and I just think making someone be sarcastic and a simp isn't a personality. I would know- that's who I am. Lmao

I Find Funny: You can't dislike Majima- he's so funny and charming. I can't help it.

IDBTDKI: He's, like, my identity lmao. He can mori me in dbd, he can spare me, he's literally my baby. Forever that man's slut lmao If you haven't seen my steam page dedicated to him then you are missing out.

Deserved Better: HE NEEDS HELP. I LOVE HIM. No spoilers, but, please, someone give this guy some help.

I Kin: Okay, I don't kin anyone. I don't actually do / comprehend the whole kin thing but this was as close as I get seeing as I loved this guy because he had my older personality lmao nerdy and tired.

Radiates Comfort: He'd be such an awful boyfriend but he'd try LMAO and I respect that. Plus he's cute and seems like he'd protect the fuck out of you. And the parkour is hhhh

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lostonehero · 3 years ago

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So here it it

Some lore

Warning depiction of violence against a minor

Silver frowns watching Ethan, his skin was red from what he could only assume was from scrubbing so hard in the shower. "Ethan, are you ok? I know it's been crazy lately, we can cancel the trip to the lab."

Ethan jumps and shakes his head, that's the one thing he didn't want to cancel, he loved spending time with Silver and canceling a date was not something he wanted. "No no please don't, I love our dates. The new wings are weird and I need to ask your mom for advice, and it's awkward." He stutters. "I know it's not personal stuff I just, she scares me."

Silver laughs a little. "I'm sorry but that's kind of funny. My mom would never harm you, do you want me to come with you?" He teases, but in a kind way.

Ethan playfully pushes him. "N-no I can handle myself, besides I wanna do this first before your mom has the talk with us."

"What talk?" He asks, did she tell Ethan what he was planning on doing?"

"You know the one about your uncle and hiding our new parts." Ethan shrugs not really knowing why they both had to be present.

"Oh yeah that talk, dunno what uncle Maxie did but it's warranting a talk so that's not good." He smiles and hugs Ethan from behind hiding in his new wings. "Well whatever happens you're my new personal heater."

Ethan giggles, Silver always knew how to make him feel better even if he didn't understand why he was upset. "What are you cold blooded now?"

"Partially my mom warned me about it." He hums. "Go talk to here and grab me when you're done, when my mom wants to lecture it's for a good reason." He lets go. "Besides, the sooner we get this done the sooner I can show you how to use a binder." He winks.

Ethan smiles knowing what that means, and he is looking forward to it. "Yeah yeah I just got to talk to your mom." He shakes his head, already feeling so much better.

……..

Ariana was brushing her Honchkrow's feathers when Ethan approached her. "What's up kid, you look nervous." She pats her pokemon. "We'll finish later sweetie."

Her Honchkrow chirped. "Thank you, lady Ariana, I'm good." She hops off looking to roost outside.

"I was dead." Ethan just blurts out and he quickly continues. "I was dead and you cleaned up everything and put me in new clothes and makeup. How?"

Ari smiles getting up. "Kid you weren't the first body I've ever cleaned and posed, and you probably won't be the last." She brushes off her knees. "The way I found you wasn't exactly pretty."

Ethan pales considerably. "You staged bodies?" He steps back. "I uh I-"

"Ethan, I'm not going to hurt you. Arecus almighty relax yourself ok. We aren't in that business anymore." She sighs and rubs her temples. "Take a deep breath and let it out, come on, follow my breathing."

Ethan matches her pace on the edge of a full blown panic attack and he starts to relax enough to speak. "T-Team Rocket wasn't like what was reported was it?"

Ariana chuckles. "No it was not, alright come on let's get you some ice." She looks back at the pile of fallen feathers from Ethan shaking. "Come on kid, you're creating a mess, do you want ice cream or just ice."

"Just ice please ma'am." Ethan follows nervously, and immediately feels worse than how he started the conversation. "Have you done it often?"

"Ethan sweetie I'm not going to have this conversation with you." Ariana sighs. "Just knowing I cleaned up your corpse has terrified you enough."

Ethan sighs and accepts the ice to hold in his hands. "You're right, I'm sorry." In a quiet voice. "Thank you for protecting Silver."

"I would protect him no matter what, he is my son after all." She smiles and sighs. "When you finally relax enough go get Silver I might as well give you both the lecture on poachers now."

……..

Ari looked between her son, and future son in law and sat up straight. "I'm warning you both this story isn't going to be a happy story, or kid friendly. Poachers aren't a joke, and I need you two to take this seriously."

Silver nods and frowns. "We'll be careful, and I can handle a brutal story." He looks at Ethan. "We can handle it."

Ethan nods. "Yeah we can."

"Alright alright, this was back when I was 17 my father had already been dead a little over 2 years, Maxie was 15, and Roark was 13." She frowns. "Maxie wasn't like he was now, he was in all sense of the words a punk until he was 26, Silver you were too young to remember."

"Is that why uncle Roark keeps asking Maxie to sing?" Silver interrupts.

"Yes and he was, well is quite the good singer, but that isn't the point." Ari sighs. "So Maxie didn't like to follow rules, and the biggest rule we had was to hide your pokemon half from humans because that will lead to poachers. Well Maxie, to prove a point, stopped wearing his binder and decided to go into town. It didn't even take the full day when he was followed."

Ethan frowns. "He was followed, but how couldn't he sense them?"

"Our senses aren't magic Ethan, we do miss things." She bites her lip. "I was supposed to look after him that day, because of the stunt he was pulling, but I didn't." She looks remorseful when she says that. "They attacked from behind, sedating Maxie and dragging him to a cave." She swallows looking away. "I don't know all the details of what they did to him, but he came home three days later beaten, and broken. He had his wings, tail, and antennae pulled out of his body, and these monsters didn't even have the mercy to cut them off." She taps her fingers against the table. "We weren't able to even touch him for a year… I can only assume the worst happened when they thought he was dead." She has a sad look in her eyes. "He isn't the same, even after thirty years he still gets nightmares."

Silver's face was pale and he was holding onto Ethan's hand for dear life. "They did that?"

Ari frowns. "That is the extent of the damage I know of, thankfully they decided to leave him for dead rather than take him as a pet. Mom went on quite the rampage after Maxie came home. No human was welcome in the desert for as long as Maxie took to heal. It was a very terrible time, you will regrow your body parts if they are damaged or removed but it is painful, and mentally you won't be all there depending on the damage. I lost Maxie for nearly a year." She sighs and leans back. "That's when I started to bind my wings like this, because if I could strengthen them I would be strong enough that it wouldn't happen to me. I'm older now, and I have experience but it still terrifies me."

Ethan shudders, and looks at Silver. "Are we going to be safe? I don't want to be hunted, I don't, I don't know how to defend myself like this."

Silver frowns and looks at Ari. "Mom please tell us how to protect ourselves."

Ari smiles. "For one you're in the public eye so if they are stupid enough to even try to grab you there will be immediate attetion on them. Two I will teach you both how to use moves and defend yourself, maim if you need to, and even effectively kill. Finally, cover your pokemon parts in public spaces unless they are specifically created for half pokemon, but those are usually only open at night." She sighs sitting up. "You two aren't in danger if you stay safe ok."

Ethan is shaking. "We're going to be hunted, fuck I'm shiny Silver, there going to kill us." He starts to have a panic attack.

Silver gets up and pulls Ethan into a tight hug where he just clings and cries. "Ethan we have options we will be fine, I promise. I'll protect you always." He is shaking as well, properly scared.

Ari gets up and sighs. She knew this was going to scare them, but it had to be said. She hated being the bad guy to her kids. She hoped they didn't hold it against her.

#half zoroark au #pokemon #half flygon au #magma leader maxie #ariana #team rocket ariana #rival silver #pokemon silver #ethan #trainer ethan #pokemon ethan

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astroohoe · 3 years ago

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Heyyyy guys...im sam and ive been obsessed with asweirdlogy since 12😭😭 and this is my first post of astro observations....since i got into asweirdlogy, ive been studying and observing people with different signs and so im about to summarise what i can remember here ....if it resonates with you, please comment down below.....but if it doesn't; its okay....this is meant for ENTERTAINMENT purposes only.

Note; all these are based on MINE observations ...thank you

Nb:Check my new post i made on Aries, Aries placements...will be making soon on all of the other signs one by one and each placement.....thanks

Astro observations

•cancer women are thee most women who gets cheated on easily LMAO😂. Why? Because they are water signs and are easy to manipulate.....even though they have psychic tendencies to find out they're man is cheating, but they always end up being a victim of cheating...😶

•piesces men are fuckboys. Yes! You read that right! I've noticed that most water signs men are FUCKBOYS!!🤨 So be careful!!!! Scorpio MEN are only loyal in friendships or to themselves..but in relationships...UMMMM...TRY AGAIN..

•Cancer men are sweet talkers....child..be careful...They know the ways and means to woo a woman!!! Especially men with Lilith in cancer....sis! They all are WOMANIZERS TO THE CORE!!!😭😭😭😭😭Maybe it's cause most of them had to be the FATHER in the family, since this can indicate men who come from broken homes or who were raised by single parents...it affects them mentally and emotionally and they start bringing the traits of their father or their past to women!

•cancer women have sense of humor...😂 OMG they're soooo funny...infact when i see a cancer female i immediately know she is one....because of their sense of humor😭😭😭 . they're the funniest amongst all of the signs....they know what comedy is like.....

•All of the people with the aspect moon opposition pluto either have a mental disorder....i have moon opposition pluto and i have anxiety...i was going through some weird shit YO!🤦‍♀️😑

•Moon opposition pluto makes one familiar with only one parent..maybe they grew up with single parents, or they're parents were separated...or maybe they're parents are still married but are acting like they wished they never met .....chiiiile.

•Having moon opposition pluto is hard yo!🤦‍♀️It makes one depressed easily. With all those with moon opposition Pluto , don't give up...i know its hard😐😐...

•Excuse Me! But Gemini women are soooooo pretty😭😭..........what ??? They're sooo funny and charming too. I've never seen an ugly ....um with the exception of Donald Trump) Gemini...they're glow up just hit DIFFERENT!🤚

•Gemini men are charming and can be fuck boys too🙄 because they're bipolar mentally and their twin twin feelings can fluctuate!

•some people say its hard to date gemini men because their love triangle can go UP and DOWN! And its NOT gonna work ....and i understand honestly....their just RED FLAGS in the signs...

•Libras are two FACED!!!😐😐 WELL That's NOT TRUE....I've never seen a fake libra before...they're loyal in friendships and they stand up for whats right! Maybe that's why people call them two faced because they're all about JUSTICE!!!!! even in relationships, they stand by their friends and still scold the shit out of them in private knowing what they did isnt a good thing. Maybe that's why people think they're two faced because they want to understand both sides of the story so that they can judge well. See, Libras symbol is the symbol of what's in the Judiciary! The symbol of law and balance! That's why you see most libras practicing law, not necessarily practicing law, but doing what's right in their community....they also give whole heartedly...they just want peace and harmony and balance.....awww aren't they good friends to have?😭😭... Yh so don't talk SHIT about libra! Um so sorry this post was the longest for libras.....just stating what i observed plus see how im standing up for libras?😂 if you're a libra and youre watching this honey, i need to get a discount!🤨🤣

•Don't be fooled, when libras get mad, that peace and harmony thing just vanishes....be careful, they can be plotting some prepared shit against you and can make sure that all their plans is balanced

•Piesces are the best givers in the signs....if you ask them for something and they find it hard to give you, they feel shattered, broken and more sad than you.

•People don't know that the 12th house is NOT only for dreams and imaginations....but its also for victim consciousness (it victimizes them and makes them gain guilty conscience...that's why after cancer, piesces are easily to manipulate)

•i hate when people say pieces are dumb😑😑No they're NOT! My uncle is a Pisces but when you lie to him he catches your lie within a yotosecond...OMG its soooo scary...its like you can't lie to the FISH!!😐😐😳😳

•The 12th house deals with addictions, so pieces men and women love SEX😁😁😁. they're NASTY,Don't let that innocent face fool you

•The 12th house also deals with criminalisms, coke heads🙄🙄, psychiatry hospitals, art like:music and MAKEUP!

•Saturn in piesces might have a father who did drugs, who do drugs or might have someone in their family who is in prison for scamming, or run and hit or doing drugs😐😐

•Saturn in piesces should beware of the friends they hang around with because it can make them associate themselves with criminals and toxic relationships

•12th house moon are the ones who are easily to manipulate🤣🤣🤣🤣.....sometimes their mood fluctuate and they can feel soooo guilty at times when they can't make someone happy.. If you're a 12th house\piesces moon, please don't settle for less😐😐....bring yourself FIRST! in situations because you're soooo fragile people can use you and break you...just my advice

•Pieses risings look like inoocent lost children who need their mama😐😐...they look cute and dreamy since Neptune blurs out and diminishes their appearance with glamour

•Piesces risings can be comfortable naked during photoshoots.

•Aquarius moons and suns really know how to make money😂😂 and sometimes it can be illegal but they don't care😐😐 since the 11th house is the house of MONEY

•Aquarius suns can be Greedy NOT SELFISH.They're NOT like TAURUS🙄 since they're the HUMANITARIAN of the signs, they give a lot but they just want to over achieve because they're obsessed with money its crazy..

•Guuuuurl whaaaat???😂 Aquariuses are more and rebellious than Scorpios, idc what anyone says🤚

•Capricorn suns compared to virgos, are completely different to what astrology pits them out to be...🙄 I've seen August Virgos are more fun but still serious than Capricorn Suns. Capricorn suns are the life of the parttyyyy

•Capricorn suns love to go out, chill, have fun and take good care of themselves....they actually are the opposite of what astrology puts them out to be...those people are NOT SERIOUS🙄🤚

•SEPTEMBER virgos are more SERIOUS than August virgos and MORE AND MORE SERIOUS than Capricorns....why? Capricorns get their energies from their next house Neighbor, Sagittarius and Aquarius....that's why they are bad bitches! Please don't be fooled.

•Cappys are soooo easily to get along with and they love to party, share drinks and be around with their guuurls

•But don't get it twisted, Capricorns are the social climbers of the zodiac and their all about their business🤫💰💰 but that's another story for a different post.

•Moon conjunct saturn please let me give you a hug🥺🥺, i mean i know its tough but it'll be okay for you one day .....no need to suppress your emotions, or get depressed...everything will be fine...Saturn is the planet of limits because it has 8 rings i know its SLOW AF but one day as it keeps moving things will get better ok😓its just a matter of time...its just teaching you in the hard way..i know sometimes you want to give up but don't give up okay...the only thing you can do rn is to learn from your mistakes and everything its teaching you.

Lilith in leo is sooooo scared of getting pregnant😐😐

•Moon conjunct saturn can create miscarriage or infertility , since the moon is a feminine sign and its responsible for period cycles, pregnancy and femininity, conjunct saturn brings restrictions and it can be sometimes difficult to produce kids

•This placement is mostly seen in porn stars or female models, they are so focused on their work they don't really have time for kids.

•Hey moon square sun, please don't give up....everything will be fine ok

•Dont give up too, moon square mars....i know the tension is hard

Okay y'all😭😭...that is it! For me eee.. Gotta goooo! 💃💃💃💃.....gotta HOP ON A

PLANE!✈ Since i only CATCH FLIGHTS! And NEVER FEELEEEEEEEEEENGS!!!!!.

Ok y'all please comment down and tell me what you think...should i continue with another one? Leave your suggestions here thanks...love yaaaa!!!❤

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disaster-j · 3 years ago

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book recommendations?? 👉👈

Yessssss I have so many! You didn't specify any genre/interests but since you're here asking me I'm gonna have to assume you're all about that queer rep like myself so here's some books that I am either currently reading, looking forward to reading in the future, or have read at some point in the last year or two and loved!

Currently Reading

1. One Last Stop by Casey McQuiston

I've just started reading this and let me tell you it is AMAZING. Some highlights are- majorly queer and/or poc cast of characters, wlw main characters, time travel shenanigans, a magical diner, a very loveable dog and a "twink with multitudes."

Haven't even gotten halfway through yet but I already know it's gonna be one of my all-time favourites.

2. Dial A for Aunties by Jesse Q Sutanto

This one I'm only one chapter in but it has me excited already.

The plot revolves around Meddy, an indonesian-chinese woman, who accidentally murders her blind date and has to recruit the help of her Aunties to cover it up, all while they are planning an over the top billionaire wedding. This book is quirky rom com and murder mystery all in one with a surprise queer romance (so I've bee told)!

In my TBR

1. Ace of Spades by Faridah Àbíkeé-Íyímídé

Now I don't know much about how the plot unfolds for this one because it is a mystery and I didn't want spoilers but I have seen this described as "gossip girl meets get out" and if that doesn't reel you in idk what will.

One thing that I do know is that this book has a lot of hype around it and it's all very much deserved. Also that both the mcs, Devon and Chiamaka, are qpoc.

2. Hani and Ishu's Guide to Fake Dating by Adiba Jaigirdar

What's that? A desi wlw romcom featuring a bi mc, fake dating turned actual relationship shenanigans and a certified Happily Ever After? Sign me the fuck up. Legit so excited to read this one y'all don't even understand.

3. The Princess Deception by Nell Stark

Y'all ever watched She's The Man and thought this would've been a thousand times better if this was a wlw romance instead? So did I and apparently so did Nell Stark who has made all my dreams come true with just one gender-bent Duke :)))))

A quick note, the book is an adaptation of Twelfth Night itself and not the actual movie so it's a Royal Romance and not a high school based one. It is still set in modern times but Sebastian and Viola are Royals and Missy Duke is a reporter. The football element also remained as it is set in the backdrop of a World Cup that Viola, impersonating Crown Prince Sebastian, is hosting.

Have Read and Loved

1. Red White and Royal Blue by Casey McQuiston

One of my favourite novels ever. This book was everything I wanna see in a romcom honestly. It was funny, heart-warming, the romance was both passionate but realistic and I never once felt like it didn't make sense for these two characters to be together and love each other so much, which is a problem I have with romances a lot.

Pretty sure most people know about this book by now but here's the highlights anyway- majorly queer and/or poc cast of characters, bi mc, gay love interest, first son of the usa falls for the prince of wales, enemies to friends to lovers, secret relationships, amazing coming out scenes.

2. Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Alire Sáenz

This book broke my heart then built it back up stronger than ever.

I sat down to read a little bit and before I knew it it had been six hours and the book was over. It pulled me in so hard it was almost like a spell. I laughed and cried and felt so many emotions throughout this book and it left me reeling. Gods I could sit here and talk about how much this book affected me for hours. It was a whole experience.

Ari and Dante is a coming of age story about these two boys discovering their identities through exploring their sexualities as well as their relationships with each other, their families and the world at large. It's a story about both queer experiences as well as life as a mexican-american in the 80s.

The book ends on a happy note and has a sequel set to release soon and while not a lot of details have been released so far the author has confirmed that the main characters do not die at the end due to certain rumours going around about the same. There's also a movie currently in development for the first book.

This one got a bit long, clearly I have a lot to say about this book, I think everyone should read this at some point but also it is pretty heavy so please check the trigger warnings before you start.

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So yeah those are some books that I have loved/want to read that I'd recommend everyone with similar taste as myself check out. Hope this helps!

#anon ask #answered ask #book recommendations #queer books #red white and royal blue #aristotle and dante discover the secrets of the universe #ace of spades #one last stop #hani and ishu's guide to fake dating #the princess deception #dial a for aunties #if any of yall want more specific recs hit me up on or off anon #or in dms i dont mind either way

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creek-cryptid-deluxe · 2 years ago

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GUYS. GALS. WELL DRESSED AMPHIBIANS.

I have been accepted into the household by the minis on an official level.

This is serious and seriously unexpected. So L's kids are Vin (a boy 2 weeks from 13 yrs old), Ari (a girl who is 9 yrs old), & Zel (a girl who is 5 yrs old). The oldest 2 are from Ex1 & Zel is from Ex2 who was once my friend. [Obviously all names have been altered for everyone's privacy.] I've know the oldest 2 for as long as I've known L & have know Zel since birth.

Anyway, the events of today that signaled my acceptance:

NUMBER ONE: All day today, all 3 kids have come to me for any help or conflict resolution they needed, despite L being here [he was just in the garage trying to fix the water pump on his car. Normally they have zero issue going out to bother him with nonsense.]

NUMBER TWO: Ari approached me and asked if on the Friday they arrive for their stay, we could sit together & pick out meals to cook that week and if she could help because she wants to learn to cook and bake like I do. [Obviously I said yes & tomorrow we are making my dad's enchiladas.]

NUMBER THREE: Zel is very particular about a lot of things, but especially who helps her get dressed & helps her when she has issues in the potty. [She still has issues wiping poops and sometimes accidentally takes her undies entirely off and has issues getting them back on.] This evening I was summoned not only to help change into pjs, but also to assist with a potty issue and was specifically requested by both girls as the bedtime supervisor.

NUMBER FOUR: Vin came to get a drink when I was cleaning up the kitchen & casually said, "So... a girl text me asking if I wanted to date & now i dunno what to do." I said, "Well, do you know this girl?" Vin: "Oh yeah." Me: "Do you like her? Like is she fun to hang out with? Is she nice, funny, cute...?" Vin: "... yeah." Me: "Well, give it a shot. Just remember to be kind to her. Treat her the way you'd want a boy to treat your sisters in the future." Vin: "Oh yeah, definitely. Thanks, [Dr. M]!" & scampered off to keep helping L with the car. I spoke to L later & apparently Vin hadn't mentioned it to him at all.

This was all deeply unexpected. I've won them over despite being the person in their lives that is the biggest hardass about manners, boundaries, & cleaning up after themselves. Speaking of which, they've all gotten so so good about manners and cleaning up. They need reminding sometimes [because ADHD] but they immediately get it done after without grumbles.

They do still have some boundary issues. They are struggling with the concept that L's bedroom & bathroom are a private space just like their bedeooms. His bath should only be used if showering or their's is occupied & it cannot wait. [For whatever reason they all use his by default... even though I deep cleaned theirs for them.] Like they just walk in and start going through shit, which I pointed out is incredibly invasive & with my stuff around, potentially dangerous. Additionally, they will just take things from there, as though it's their's. I've had my candy stash unashamedly pilfered, despite it being hidden & used as treats for them. So I've put my foot down in a BIG way & there has been some pushback from the kids, but it's absolutely necessary or there's gonna be a real problem at some point beyond candy theft. I think Vin gets it since I explained it as 'your room is your private space; this room is your dad's private space'. I saw the lightbulb happen. Hopefully that will get better with time & consistency like the cleaning up after themselves did.

#life with L

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cinnamon-bebe · 4 years ago

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Chemtrails (Pedro Pascal x Fem!Reader)

Chemtrails (Pedro Pascal X Fem!Reader)

Summary: "If you died today, would you be happy with the life you've lived?" What happens when you've sacrificed your love for fame and fortune? Despite the glitz and glamour, the Reader is all Pedro can think about. The stars have never been on your side but can you rewrite the plans they have for you?

Warning: Angst, Fluff, Occasional Cursing

Inspired by the song Chemtrails Over the Country Club by Lana Del Rey

"I'm on the run with you, my sweet love

There's nothing wrong contemplating God

Under the chemtrails over the country club"

"Baby what's your sign?"

"You're in the wind, I'm in the water

Nobody's son, nobody's daughter

Watching the chemtrails over the country club"

Pedro's POV

The chatter of a hundred people and yet I still only hear your voice. Memories of your words, from years past.

You asked me what my sign was, I told you I was an Aries. You laughed and told me we shouldn't be friends, the stars say so. The stars say we're incompatible, we'd be at each other's throats. I'm a fire sign and you didn't need any more drama. I kissed you for the first time and told you I'd prove you wrong, you simply smiled and looked off to the chemtrails that flew over us.

Memories from years past.

I didn't have much to offer you but I told you that you could take my word. At that time, it was worth more than anything I could have given you.

"You want me to defy the stars?" You raised an eyebrow, a smile teasing your face.

"The stars can go fuck themselves." I told you and kissed you again.

We were so young. We were nobodies. Running through the concrete jungle, with your hand in mine. Sun dress and kisses at midnight convenience stores, splitting a hot dog on a summer day because we needed money for the show at 7.

We used to contemplate the meaning of life over a bottle on our little balcony. I asked you if you were happy and you smiled but did not reply.

"If you died today, would you be happy with the life you've lived?" You asked me instead.

"No." I told you. "There's so much more I want to do. I want to be somebody."

I didn't know it then but that was the moment I started to lose you.

Memories from years past.

I find myself sitting at a restaurant now, with more money to line my pockets, pats on the back from strangers. People know my name and it comes out in whispers, as they stare over their expensive plate, getting cold just to catch a glimpse of me.

A beautiful woman sits across from me. As if a movie star isn't a big enough draw, a woman like her only invites more gazes. She looks like she'd just stepped off a screen herself. She gives me all her attention, so much so that she does not register the envious stares from the others around her.

Her lips are moving, perhaps a funny anecdote came to mind or is she telling me about her sister's wedding again that she mentioned before? I cannot tell you, for my mind is elsewhere, with someone else.

"So would you like to come?" She smiles brightly at me, her perfect teeth sitting between her lips, painted in a dusty pink.

"Huh?" I snap out of my daze, embarrassed that I was clearly not paying attention.

"Jule's wedding, did you...want to be my date for the day?" She blushes, hopeful.

"Oh. I...uh. I don't know Kate. I have a pretty packed schedule coming up, I don't know if I'll have time." I try to make up an excuse.

"It's too early isn't?" She bites her lip sheepishly. "I'm sorry, I know we've only been dating for a few weeks, I shouldn't have sprung this up on you so fast."

"No no, please don't be silly. I love weddings!" I try to laugh it off. "It's just that, with the new movie coming up, I need to start preparing before we go into production."

"I understand." She nods with a smile, "Comes with the territory when you're dating a big movie star I guess." She looks at me, I'm not sure if she's anticipating a response but I reciprocate with a grin and wave at the waiter for another drink.

Soon enough, she excuses herself from the table to go to the ladies room and I'm left sitting alone at our spot. I grow tiresome of the incessant chattering from the tables around me and I massage the temples of head, wishing I was at home in the comfort of my bed with just the company of my television.

I see glances from a small table to the side of me, a group of young women clearly too shy to ask for a photograph, egging each other on to make the first move over to me. Their hopes quickly dashed as I feel a firm hand on my shoulder, turning me around.

"Pedro?" A familiar voice calls my name.

"Anthony! Fancy seeing you here!" My eyes widen as I pull an old friend down for a hug.

"It's my anniversary with Charlize, we're just celebrating! God I haven't seen you for so long!" He shakes his head, slowly looking me up and down, examining my so-called transformation. I've aged so much since we last we saw each.

"How long have you been here?" I ask.

"A couple of hours, I actually saw you before but I..uh...I didn't want to interrupt your date."

Date? I swallow the word whole.

"You lucky man. She's very pretty." He comments.

"Yeah, she is."

"You could seem a bit more interested though but those are Charlize's words, not mine." He raises his hands up, letting his wife take the blame.

"I must seem like an ass, don't I?" Poor Kate, how spoilt am I to show a woman like her so little interest. "I haven't dated for so long, it's just hard getting back into the scene that's all."

Anthony let's out an inaudible "oh" and I know he's thinking the same thing, I can practically hear the name sitting on his tongue, desperately wanting to come out.

"How is Y/N?" I break the ice, allowing the elephant in the room an escape before he suffocates along with me.

"She's good, very good actually. She's a documentary film maker now. Her work is amazing, you'd love it." Anthony couldn't help his excitement when speaking about you and I feel an intense pang of sadness and jealousy seeing his eyes light up. To see you, celebrate you. I wonder if you've aged like me or do you still look the same as how I remember. Do you still crinkle your nose every time you hear a bad joke? Do your eyes still get red and glassy when you look at the sky because you're wondering if anyone's looking down on you? I wish I knew.

"Listen, I have to go." Anthony looks back at his wife who gives me a polite wave from a distance.

"It was really good seeing you Anthony, I'm sorry we haven't spoken all these years. It's just with work..." I recycle that old excuse again.

"Don't worry about it...you made it! I know you worked really hard to get where you are now. I know you had to make a lot of sacrifices..." The last sentence, spoken so softly, it was almost drowned out. "I'm genuinely happy for you."

I nod, giving my friend one last hug before I ready for him to turn and leave, instead he hesitates and looks at me.

"Hey Pedro?"

"Yeah?"

"She still lives in the neighbourhood." He looks down at the scarf in his hand before patting me on my arm. "Just so you know."

With that, he waves me goodbye. Walking back to his wife, who he wraps his arm around. The way she naturally rests into him and slips her hand into his coat pocket as they exit the restaurant, I wonder if I'd ever have that level of intimacy with Kate.

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I sent her home in a taxi. "I have an early morning and need to prep for some meetings", my excuse for her this time. Kate's disappointed expression, as I gave her a kiss on the cheek is the last thing on my mind.

Scuffing the cap of my leather shoes, I kick at the pavement. The world moves past me as I hide myself in the bubble of my thoughts. I have no sense of direction, my legs taking me to no intended destination, only letting the neon lights around guide me to where it desires.

Anthony's words were still ringing in my ears.

Would you want to see me?

My mind reminds me of the last time we were together.

"I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this, if I don't leave the city now, I may never get my chanc-"

"Get your chance to do what? Be a star?" You were sat deep in the corner of the sofa, far from me. Your voice calm and monotonous as you watched me pace up and down our tiny apartment. I couldn't decipher your expression, it was as if you knew what I was going to say.

"I want to make something out of my life! I want to prove to everyone and myself that I can make it Y/N. I don't want to waste my life away." I moved towards you, our presence separated by the little vintage coffee table I hated but still bought home because you loved it so much.

"Well then go, I don't want to hold you back from chasing your dreams."

"Y/N-"

"No. It's okay Pedro. I understand...I really do. I don't want to stop you from pursuing what you love." You got up from your spot, you seemed so small to me as you closed the gap between us. Your hand felt so light against my face, like you were disappearing before me. "Don't live in regret because of me."

"Y/N come wi-" I tried to hold you, hold you before you evaporated.

"No. My place is here." You took your hand away, moved back, the space between us grew more and more distant. "I don't have big dreams like you do. I like normality. I like living my life however I want it, do whatever I want, whenever I want. You asked me if I was happy...and I am."

"Would you still be happy without me?"

I stared at you. My gut sank because I already knew this was the end. You didn't have to tell me.

"I don't know..." You managed to smile, even through the gentle tears that formed in your eyes. "But I know you would be without me."

"That's not true." I tried to reach for you but you pulled away.

"We're very different people Pedro...I told you, we're incompatible. It's time we listened to the stars."

My thoughts are suddenly interrupted as I feel a hand rest softly on the small of my back.

"Hello sir, would you like to buy a rose?" An elderly woman smiles up at me. A child stands obediently nearby, holding a bouquet of individually wrapped stems, clearly past his bedtime but still helping Grandma late at night. The child looks tired, sad. Judging by the number of roses still in his hands, they must have had an unlucky day.

"How much for one?" I return her kind smile, taking out my wallet.

"$2. Thank you, thank you so much sir." The old woman sighs in relief calling the child over to bring the flowers for me to pick. Each stem had a handwritten tag with various cheesy sentiments adorned.

....A kiss in exchange for a rose...

...You're more beautiful than any flower but here's one to show you my love anyway...

....Would you be my Valentine?...

....Please forgive me, I was an idiot.

I chuckle at the last one before picking a rose at random.

I take out $100 and watch the old lady's eyes panic as she reaches in her purse to find change. Taking her hand firmly in mine, I assure her it wasn't necessary.

"I'll take one rose for the $100. You keep the rest of the flowers and have a good night okay?"

The woman looks at the child with her mouth agape and then back at me, clearly taken aback by the gesture.

"Sir, are you sure?"

"Yes, take the kid home and get some rest. This one rose itself is worth every dollar." I pat her hand which trembles in mine.

"Thank you! Thank you! Bless you and the woman who receives your rose!"

Taking the child's hand they quickly walk away, whispering to each other and disappearing into the night.

I stare at the flower in my hand and bring it closer to my face, studying the message on the tag.

...Let's defy the stars and write our own destiny.

I stand in the dark of night, illuminated only by the cafe lights ready to turn off for the day. My hand grips the stem as if it weighed a hundred tons yet afraid it would float away like a feather. The frantic honking of the traffic seems to taunt me, the laughter from the bars nearby seem to be mocking this idiot of a man standing in the middle of the streets, holding a flower he paid $100 for.

"Just do it!" I hear a young boy shout at his friend attempting a skateboard trick up the block.

Just do it. I repeat to myself. Just fucking do it.

"Taxi!"

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I remember these steps, we used to sit here with the neighbours' kids. Charlie, I think that was his name? I remember little Charlie proposing to you with a plastic ring and threatening to get his kindergarten buddies on me, simply for existing. I can't help but laugh at that memory.

Everyone was in love with you, the young, the old. They couldn't help but fall for your charms, your kindness, the way you'd smile at them even if you've never spoken a word to each other. Everyone was under your spell, including me.

You told me you loved me on these steps.

I had gotten back from a bad audition and couldn't bear to go home to you. I sat here for hours until you saw me from the balcony and came down. You didn't ask me anything. You just sat with me as we watched the kids run up and down the block, racing each other, teasing each other. I looked at you and you gave me a kiss on the nose.

"I love you."

You said it so quietly at first that I pretended I didn't I understand.

You rolled your eyes and pulled my face into yours, telling me you loved me over and over again as you smothered me with your kisses.

That was one of the happiest moments of my life.

Walking past our faded figures, I enter the building and see that nothing has changed.

The walls were the same duck egg green. The bulletin board covered in layers of flyers and advertisement, some new, with plenty dated months back. I wouldn't be surprised if the audition ads I tried out for from years ago were still there.

The smell of various cuisines mingle together to form its own unique indecipherable aroma.

A comforting aroma.

I look to the elevator, still out of order. Obviously.

We only lived on the third floor, the stairs will be fine.

I prepare myself for the incline when a voice calls out to me.

"Where are you going?"

I turn around and see our old building superintendent, decked out in his uniform. Stanley.

"Stan! It's me Pedro! Wow, you're still here!" I walk to him.

"Who?" He looks me up and down, completely confused as to who the hell I am.

"Pedro from 3B upstairs? I used to live with Y/N...maybe you don't remember me because of the moustache." I rub the bottom of my nose sheepishly.

"No...I don't remember you."

Old Stanley, perhaps age is catching up to him.

"I'm just going to see Y/N." I try to resume my journey but he stops me once more.

"No entry into the building if you're not a resident!" He points to the sign on the wall.

"Since when was that a rule?" I throw my hand in the air.

"Since today. We have too many unsavoury men try to come into the building, how do I know if you really know Miss Y/L/N? I'm not letting any potential predators or burglars into the building."

"But Stan she-"

Pointing to the sign on the wall again, he raises an angry brow. Not wishing a full body beat down by ol' Stan, I take myself back out the building like a bad dog.

I sit on the steps, sighing in defeat. I try to convince myself that coming here is a mistake.

"Defy the stars...pfft! You've been in way too many movies Pedro." I mumble to myself, as I dig my thumb nail into the stem of the rose.

Perhaps we're only given the choice to rewrite our destiny but it doesn't mean destiny would just sit idly by and let you do whatever you want. It's probably for the best. What would I say anyway?

Running my hand through my hair, I get up to leave. The adrenaline from earlier had drained so quickly out of me, that its left me a fatigued mess. Move on Pedro, it's time to go home.

"Hey movie star." A voice calls from above. "You looking for me?"

Your hair falls past your face as you lean over the balcony and in that moment I feel my heart break into a million pieces.

There you are.

Standing before me, even more beautiful than when you left, if that is even possible.

You're wearing a simple white vest and grey shorts, one leg rubbing softly against the other. Your skin bears the warm orange glow reflected from the lights inside your apartment.

You look so raw, so delicate.

Every pulse in my body aches seeing you again.

"Wow." I breathe. "You look..."

You hide your laugh and I can see you blushing from behind your hand.

"Thanks. You look great too. I'm like the...um..." You rub under your nose with your finger.

"Thank you, I grew it out for a role but now people tell me I look like their grandma without it." I shrug, much to your amusement.

"What are you doing here?" You speak, more softly, more seriously.

How do I even respond to this question? I was out on a date with another woman but I bumped into our old friend who told me I should find you? Or should I go with I met an old woman and her kid, who I'm pretty sure were cupid's little minions, sent down to earth to give me a rose and to fuck with me?

"I was just in the neighbourhood. I wanted to see if you wanted to um...go out for a coffee?" I lie.

You look at me incredulously, clearly seeing through my bullshit.

"Everything is shut by now." You simply respond.

"Oh...well maybe we can just talk then?"

You tap the metal rails, where you lay your arms. Are you contemplating whether to come down or throw a bucket of water over me? I guess I'll have to wait and see.

Without saying a word, you disappear out of sight. The lights in your apartment switches off.

What does this mean? Are you off to bed?

Before I could ruminate any more, the doors open from behind me and you slip through.

God, you look even better up close.

My hands instinctively reach out to touch you but I withdraw quickly before you could see. You had wrapped yourself in a fleecy blanket, the threads a deep purple.

Without saying a word, you sit down on the step and I can only follow suit, my mind can no longer make decisions for itself it seems.

You smell the same, that same soft floral scent I used to love. The one I used to breathe in when I'd hold you close to me in bed because I didn't want you to leave for work.

Our knees are so close, they almost touch.

"So what did you want to talk about?"

For a minute I don't know how to respond, I just don't want to stop looking at you.

"I was...I was wondering if you were thinking about me?"

You laugh, I laugh too. Of course you weren't.

"I think about you all the time." You tell me so casually, it catches me off guard.

"You do?" I whisper in disbelief.

"It's hard not to when you're on every other billboard in the city."

Oh.

"I think about you all the time too Y/N."

You smile and look up at the sky. The night is aligned with many stars tonight and they all call for your attention but mine. I feel greedy staring at you but I'm simply making up for all the nights that I was alone without you, all those kisses I've shared with women that weren't you.

"What do you think the stars are telling us tonight?" I ask.

You grin and without looking back at me, you say "I think the stars are laughing at us."

"Do you think the stars have changed their mind about us?"

You finally turn to me, your eyes drop. "I don't think that's how it works Pedro."

"If this is the life the stars have planned for me, a life without you, then I don't want it Y/N."

"Pedro-"

"I thought if I made a name for myself, if people knew who I was, then I'd be sure of who I am...but who I'm meant to be, who I want to be...is to be with you." Your eyes meet mine, coloured with emotions you are scared to express. "I look for you everywhere I go Y/N, in every women I meet but you are always a world away."

"We don't even know each other anymore Pedro."

"You are the only one who has always known who I am, even before me Y/N. I'm still as strange and as wild as I have always been. I'm still as messy and as clumsy as I was before. I still love cheap corner store liquor and dancing terribly in public. I still look at chemtrails whenever they past me...because they remind me of you."

"Chemtrails are bad for you, they say they're chemicals." You tell me, your voice low and expressionless.

"If I die with you as my last thought, it won't be so bad."

I finally find the courage to reach for you and you don't recoil from me, you let me gently run my finger against the hair that falls down past your face. You close your eyes and I selfishly take you, pulling you towards me.

I rest my forehead against yours and I savour this moment where I can be close to you and not let it be a memory.

"What if I've changed?" You whisper.

"Well then I'll spend the rest of my life getting to know you again."

"If I told you to run away with me tonight, would you?" You open your eyes to see me, your expression as serious as ever.

"You're my home Y/N. I'll go wherever you go. Even if it's to another galaxy, we'll drive a little red Corvette into space together and leave this all behind."

You smile and tug on the bottom of your lip. "You think the stars would still allow us to go to space?"

"Fuck the stars." I say as I take your lips.

Oh, how I've missed the sweetness of your taste; in this moment you are spoiling me rotten. You wrap your arms around me and allow the blanket to drop from your shoulders. The only stars that mattered now are those in our eyes. They're telling me the future and it's you. It's always been you.

The sirens of the city and the plane overhead may be loud but I hear nothing over the sound of your heart beat.

You pull away and we both laugh.

In this moment, we are perfect. I am no longer the famous celebrity that belonged to everyone. I am not a son and you are no one's daughter.

We only belong to each other.

I see you shiver and look towards the door.

"Let's go inside." You get up and take my hand, guiding me back to our home. The one I've longed for ever since I left.

The building is quiet, everyone asleep by this hour but old Stan at his desk. I try to shuffle past as inconspicuously as I could, my hand entwine with yours.

"Welcome back Mr Pascal." Stanley greets us as clear as day, his head not even looking up from above his phone.

"Wha- so you do remember me!"

Sly old dog.

Stanley doesn't respond and concentrates on his screen instead.

You shake your head and pull me up the steps but not before I set down my lucky rose on the desk.

"Good night Stan."

I call out before I chase my love up the stairs, both of us ready to write our next chapter together. I don't know what it will entail but I know if you're in it, it will be the greatest adventure I'll ever take.

"Kids these days." Stan sighs, closing the article on his phone and clicking on a familiar app. Putting his feet up, he relaxes with a smile on his face as the Mandalorian theme song begins to play.

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