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fictional-worlds-are-exquisite · 2 months

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i'm pretty sure i've cut all content consumption out of my routine now

i don't mean that in the sense of i no longer consume content, i mean i've managed to remove it from routine behaviour

yes i will scroll instagram but it's not the first thing i do on waking until i get through all the posts since yesterday. it's just something i choose to do when i feel like it

yes i will watch youtube but i no longer go through all videos since yesterday from all the channels i'm subscribed to and watch them all or add it to watch later if i can't squeeze it into the day. this was my most recent success so i'm avoiding my subscriptions tab so i don't fall into the hole and am instead looking up individual channel videos to watch for no more than an hour. when i'm convinced my brain will behave i believe i will be able to scroll subscriptions casually and only when i want to.

this used to cause me such trouble because i genuinely saw these things as part of my routine so i'd be over here like man my routine of consuming content is all messed up because i went out for the day with someone i will need to double it tomorrow to fix it so i'm back on track. or i'd be like kinda wanted to do this today but a youtuber i follow uploaded a 2 hour video so I won't be able to fit it in :/

anyway that was trash. now i think i just have routines around food (3 meals a day) and work/study. Everything else is clean and free. I can do whatever I feel like when i have free time. i feel a little lost now but at least i'm no longer spending hours on content consumption when it's not actually making me happy

#i genuinely don't think i could've just made the decision to cut each thing out until i got to this point #each thing i've managed to cut out of my routine has been done as the result of a routine disruption #like i go away for two weeks and have no internet access #or my most recent one was bc i had a concussion and stayed away from tech for a week #i'm like well i alreayd dropped xyz for two weeks so i just won't pick it up again when i get back to internet access #and eventually enough time will pass that i cannot repair what i missed without putting in SIGNIFICANT effort #so i can approach it again and limit my interactions until i'm sure my brain will behave #every single time i've caught myself going ugh i don't really want to do this but i need to catch up #red fucking flag bro. it's content consumption. it's not that important. it should be fun and enjoyable #it has no place in my routine behaviour. it's welcome to be something i LIKE to do regularly #but cannot be something i find myself needing to do to meet my routine. that sucks #but hey. progress. curious to see where i can go from here #can start from scratch. what will i do with this.#the last week i have only spent time on my laptop to check my emails and do my uni work basically #then i shut it down for the day #that also feels good to me. i don't need to spend all day on it. i can do other things

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averlym · 1 year

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HI I DIDNT KNOW YOU WERE INTO ADAMANDI HOLY SHIT. Can’t believe so few people know about this masterpiece of a musical

:OOOOO hai i agree it is criminally (haha yknow bc there are crimes..) underrated!! and really brilliant!!! discovered it literally midway through the week and akdfjgsjhdsjhjgdf

have a doodle of the saints :3

#this is kinda because on someone's insta i saw one of the saints doing a peace sign dksajh have smth silly #adamandi #ask me stuff???#realising i have to put my tags at the beginning before rambles or tumblr won't catch it #i am into adamandi. now. this is terrible timing because exam season but hMM the academic grindset really resonates now huh #the moment i caught myself in the ao3 tag i was like ''oh.''#i have so many thoughts. so many many thoughts. im so insane about this musical actually. also the fandom so far seems so nice #also yeah! the number of people who know about it is quite small huh.. it makes me kinda feel like im infiltrating the group... ?#late to the party as ever. but it's. so so good. such a musical ever the brainrot is real #also the way the creators themselves are active on tumblr :OO rly cool. ngl the tags they left under my posts had me #giggling screaming kicking my feet etcetera... and bc apparently i thrive off positive reinforcement that sparked the whole cut fruit art..#i am itching to know about the track thing with portia. also portrix real the lesbians keep winning!! also also i may have spent half a day #internet stalking ><. secret pinterest boards where :O #anyway thank you for the ask anon idk how to answer concisely but yes. adamandi. oh my god.#miscellany: can we appreciate ambrose's high notes.. also i was on wiki reading about ''apollonian vs dionysian'' it's insane #on yet another note. im entering my lin era rn i think. what a time. where can i run so true + vincent's surname my beloved. forest imagery #side note? tiny little detail i'd love to do smth about in the future: in word to the wise there's smth about “appraising your rings” and i #the one who pulls the strings beatrix mentions “bought my classmates rings” like. kjdfhsgjkhd???? thinks.#.. but new fav musical unlocked is all #between this and watt i am maybe into my murder musical era. confession that i don't do horror much because i have an overactive imaginatio #but like those two hit the spot. and i think organic imagery.. blood visuals.. is very cool// and the moment you start looking at literal #life and death situations then the dramaticness especially comes in and that's fun!! // also i read smth today about tragedy making you #appreciate irl stuff more. like ''wow thats messed up im sure glad that isnt me i love life''. and lowkey?? yeah

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shimmerluna · 5 months

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i do think there's probably something suspicious about the way everyone loves Ca$h and Quinni and their depth while essentially reducing Darren to their shared supporting character and/or the sassy black woman(/person in this case) stereotype, but I feel somewhat hypocritical bringing it up

#shimmer's thoughts #heartbreak high #darren rivers #cash piggott #ca$h piggott #quinni gallagher jones #tbf i'm mainly a meta writer and i feel like they mentioned darren's issues so clearly in s1 that there's not much for me to say #but most people aren't meta writers. and/or people who know the show better might be able to find things to talk about #it could also be more of a problem with the show itself bc from what i can remember they don't get much else to do #like. it feels like the white characters they support just have more depth and more going on than them #and ik people have talked about the show being weird about missy and malakai #although if we're going to talk about how missy and malakai are mistreated by the show #why is no attention given to the fact that darren's like 90% a stereotype #and 9% is them being desperate enough to change integral parts of themself for a white boy #and 1% is them explaining the stereotype with parent issues where the white dad is focused on and the black mom just disappears #that's still suspicious #also i feel like everyone jumps to hate on them every time they get the chance #without looking at why they do things. but then again the show doesn't really explain their reasoning ever does it #either way i feel like i either see people stereotyping them or shitting on them and no one in between acting regular about things #like i just went into the tags to make sure i'm not losing it and there's like 3 posts cutting them slack for the s1 ca$h storyline #and that's it. everything else focuses on ca$h or quinni or hates on them or stereotypes them. i just think that's a bit odd #idk. i can't put my finger on it but something's not right. i don't trust it #i mean i kinda did put my finger on it. i kinda slapped it repeatedly with my finger. but i still don't see a coherent enough thread here #to be personally satisfied. if i can't write a summary of my thoughts my thoughts aren't clear enough

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kelvingemstone · 8 months

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a starstruck odyssey is for lovers

#more than acofaf even. the love story of the wurst is what dreams are made of #emilymurph sitting next to each other...skip straightest man ever prince of alien slugs learning to be free bc of the crew...gnosis...#best on average npcs. lucienne plug bambi leroux the butch at the space station fuckin space heiress trust fund baby bajar crunch moon jone #and this is not to say ANYTHING of how good the characters are.#they could keep making d20 seasons forever and starstruck will always be a cut above the rest because of how fucking good the setting is #like with crown of candy even tho i loved it sm i feel like some politics were discarded in favor of the others; all out war was eh to me #the build up to a war tho? now that's interesting that's where the juice is basically i wanted asoiaf book one vibes with this cast but #that's a matter of personal preference! i don't feel like acoc did the most that could've been done with a “politics” campaign #dimension 20 #dropout.tv #a starstruck odyssey #because of their deep investment in the world and the genre it never feels like starstruck couldn't do anything. it feels limitless!#season two...god if they never do one that'd be such wasted capability #ik fantasy high is so beloved and it is a beautiful lasagna of time and playing style but if i could get multiple seasons w starstruck...#the thing that makes asoiaf asoiaf is that we have a similar level of insight into the minds of baddies like the lannisters as we do into #the minds of the clean jesus allegory starks. and in acoc the “worst” character we got from the heroes was lapin n even he was aligned #to the rocks' cause. saccharina WAS a rocks -- that was her whole deal -- and even then she wasn't a morally reproachable character bc #she was right! i wanted acoc to be down and dirty and when they said ravening would be i was excited but even that turned out to be them #destroying a secret cult which was going to kill the world. no really down low shenanigans!

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cosmicsnufkin · 2 months

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#ignore me #i'm just stressed out #the thing is. i made a decision a long time ago not to reblog posts with guilt-trips no matter how well intentioned #both for my own sake and bc i didn't want to be the one putting it on somebody's dash #especially after reading about how especially difficult guilt-trippy posts can be for e.g. ppl with ocd or smth similar #and that's all well and good in most cases when it's not directly tied to ppl's lives #but when it comes to this it does definitely feel like i don't have a leg to stand on since it so very much is people's lives at stake #and i don't feel like i have the moral highground to decide something like that #especially when - while they might affect people in a similar way to guilt-trips - they're not intentionally that #another one of my problems with sharing them on tumblr is that i don't have enough active followers for anything to reach a big audience #and i barely get notes anyway and these certainly don't get enough to get around #probably bc ppl are 1) overwhelmed and have already given money if they can #and 2) wary since they don't know which ones to trust #especially when the scam ones look so much like the real ones and idek how ppl know someone is qualified to verify a fundraiser #all 3 asks i've gotten have been vetted by the same account and it feels off #but the thought of not sharing when they've reached my inbox feels cruel #and it all just feels so lackluster when there are tens upon thousands of fundraisers needing to raise hundreds upon thousands of euros #and it just seems to lead to most of them getting a third of the way there #it's so much more organized with smth like project olive branch particularly on tt where a bigger creator focuses on one family at a time #bc it increases the chance of individual fundraisers meeting their goals #while this just feels like spreading sadness guilt and a lackluster feeling of hopelessness with barely any result #esp when most of the notes are 'reblogging bc i cant donate'#(also genuine question: where does the many go if a fundraiser doesn’t meet its goal? to gofundme the site??)#bc like. even if i put all of the money i own towards one fundraiser i wouldn't meet the goal #rn i donate monthly to doctors without borders in the hopes that the money actually goes to use #and i've donated to a few fundraisers but there are so. so. many. and i don't understand how you're supposed to CHOOSE #it's absolutely fucked up to have to sit there and think about which family you're going to give your money to #it's not like one family 'deserves' it more than another #they all fucking deserve the money! they all deserve to get out of there they all deserve to live their fucking lives FREE #idek what i'm doing here anymore i hope no one actually read this i just needed to get it out and my diary wasn't cutting it

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tvrningout · 10 months

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tbh i understand that character deaths have to happen occasionally, but sometimes a creator will go and kill a character prior to using them to their full potential?? and it won't even hit hard bc it's not a purposeful decision. it's not " it's so tragic that gary died before his time and this arc/story examines that tragedy and how it could have been avoided. " it's " it's so tragic gary died. woulda been more tragic if i put in more work. " like i'm not gonna be sad that you killed gary if you don't do the groundwork before/after. i'm gonna be mad bc you killed a character, and it was a wasted death bc nothing interesting or meaningful happened as a result, or it didn't even need to happen.

i dunno?? maybe people will disagree with me, but i feel like so many series and movies will fall into killing characters for shock value -- or maybe there's a reason, but they poorly execute it by rushing the story or failing to ever tell the story beyond " oh these two mean a lot to each other " without much detail. and that's so frustrating when you get attached to those characters and i'm sorry to rant all of a sudden asdfg i'm just feeling salty as heck over this rn (｡•́︿•̀｡)

#yes i'm thinking about jjk bc it's the culprit of all my woes rn but there's been so very many instances in other series/movies #like i don't need a series to allow everyone to live happily ever after bc that's just not possible all the time and that's okay!!#but dang if you're gonna cut someone's potential short at least do them justice??#like (SPOILER FOR DEMON SLAYER RUN AWAY!!) i'm not mad over kyojuro dying or any of the hashira who die bc those deaths #made sense narratively and the work was put in for you to know these characters and feel for them and understand where their #story was going #i know there was definitely more that could be done story-wise BUT none of those deaths left me angry just :' )) bawling my eyes out :' ))#i dunno if i'm making sense but i hope i am bc i'm gonna shut up now asdfgh i'm rambling way too much when there's no reason #to be talking about this -- nobody asked :' ) i'm just feeling some kinda way :' )#get ready to ramble | ooc #tw rant

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my5hiningstars · 3 months

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#i know i won't shut up abt 5sos but the real question is will i ever go to a better gig than darren criss in [redacted] 2023 #like i didn't even know half his songs before i went and i still had the best time i've ever had at a gig #literally the energy in that room was insane #and like... better than any gig i've ever been to in melbourne like #smth about being in a smaller place that artists don't often come to Especially not internation acts #everyone was so like... polite?#like they were doing concert so well they weren't being assholes and yelling when it wasn't their turn :')#which is so annoying i hate when a crowd is so roudy that it feels like a classroom and the teacher is waiting for everyone to shut up #like we can still have a good time if u respect the fact that some of us are spending hundreds even just Getting here #idk maybe i'm a music snob i just think there's something so magical in a quiet room full of people #like when something really beautiful has happened you can sit in it for a second #the pressure to cheer like... the idea that a moment of silence will somehow offend the artist who created the moment #i tried to find another concert on the tour where the crowd was as in the moment as we were for the line #'i believe there is music in the silence' and then he like #puts the guitar down and heads to the piano to do the rest #but it was so gorgeously quiet it was breathtaking i cried #it might have helped that he played the first half entirely accoustically no mic no amps #bc the venue was small enough and also designed to amplify naturally #but we all had to be so quiet to make sure everyone heard it so it just #the music hung in the air so magically y'all art is so good i'm still crying nothing will ever beat that concert i'm still chasing that hig #luke was nearly that magical but tbh..... the audience kinda ruined it for me at times :/#also he was nervous and kept cutting off the moment by saying 'thank you' like we get it ur a humble king but like #you have to let a song like place in me Breathe when it's done #you have to give the crowd a chance to go holy fucking shit what the fuck and THEN start screaming and Then thank them #but i'm truly such a snob it's the worst #honestly thinking abt how those lads are always improving tho he'll get there #by the time he's darren criss' age he'll be killing it even more they all will

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miamicommune · 4 months

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thinking abt how nemesis kind of sets up what should be the most thematically interesting ambition in FL and how quickly that fades as it goes

#had a good amount of time to think abt it now and the knife price cut just hit so ive got some thoughts #nemesis puts a good amount of time into asking the player how far they're willing to go for revenge but the message dilutes as it goes #you start off and it costs you hard-earned lessons to /not/ kill someone really early on. to /not/ kill it costs you extra #and then as you go ur just given more and more cost gates and it never quite hits that same note again #not until right at the end where you can spare m_ ______ and m_ ___#but there is the feeling that you're doing it no matter the cost #and i think that's why the knifegate change has me hurting. like as much as it was a pain it also felt amazing to get through it #i think what should've been added rly was an option to get the lethean tea leaves from the esuriant smith or lilac #bc the main thing that's missing from the whole 'revenge tragedy' plot is the ability for the player to have turned away at any point #only to keep pushing on because they just can't bring themselves to forget #in the end it just feels like that early 'kill for the keys' or 'just knock them out but its harder' should've been a recurring motif #like the bodies always pile up in revenge stories. how much are u willing to do to ensure they don't??#it'd have been nice to have more options #ways around dealing with that devil other ways instead of taking red honey ways of not (probably) worsening the condition of a seeker #idk #im also at least a little bit mad abt the fact that for all that cost there's almost never fun post-nemesis things #always seeing hearts desire options (HATE u mr cards) and BaL options and what do nemesis players get. hellicon house stuff.

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tkbrokkoli · 8 months

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just had the worst hair cut experience :(

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apocalypticdemon · 11 months

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being friends with someone who constantly throws pity parties for themselves is fucking exhausting.

#this isn't about anyone that follows me here or that i follow here.#but i have a friend in a group where just..... every time someone says something good about us as a group #they feel the need to put themselves down on main and interrupt the conversation.#it's fucking tiring.#the comment was 'i can't believe we're all academics' and i responded 'it's wild but great'#and then they just go 'i feel really dumb but i guess i'm an academic sometimes' and then the convo gets derailed #like the two of us were literally celebrating that we're all nerdy academics together but now it's managing their emotions on how stupid-#-they feel.#i am so tired. this happens all the time.#i get it. i get it. when i had horrid self-esteem (as if i don't have that now) i felt the need to do this #but like. it's not productive and it's killed the vibe. and i wish they would knock it off but it's unfortunately a pattern of behavior #that happens all the time. and i wish i knew what to do about it bc it's getting on my nerves.#like i said. nobody here is doing this. this is a different person. if you think it's about you No It Isn't #(and if you think you know who i'm talking about no you don't)#idk i just wind up in the position of talking them down all the time and trying to steer them in a more positive direction #and i'm running out of energy for it and it's wearing on me.#they're fun to talk to sometimes but i think over the last few years i've turned into their therapist friend.#'how do i ask someone out' 'do i drop my crush bc i haven't confessed and they aren't acting the way i'd hoped'#'why do i feel like shit all the time' idk man stop fucking asking me #i'm not cut out for this. One Single Class stressed me out so badly i wound up in therapy again. like. i'm Unqualified.#and i'm dissatisfied that i'm stuck in this role and idk how to get out of it

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selfinflictedgunshotwound · 1 year

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i think i've finally come to understand why i'm so bad at communicating with friends 👍 at one point or another i've thought i was in love with every single person i've ever been friends with (for the most part, at least) because i don't expect other people to like me. OBVIOUSLY this is not true but platonic feelings are not dissimilar to romantic ones (baseline they're the same: you want to love and be loved by someone) but i always end up realizing that i'm not in love with them, just that they matter to me very much and i wouldn't know what do to w/o their presence in my life. BUT this brings me to facet number 2 of my awful communication skills: i hate it when things Get Real. i find myself retreating any time it seems like Something Could Change in my day-to-day life due to them being around and "forcing" the change. i run away from talking to one of my only irl friends on almost a daily basis bc i dread the idea of having to do anything she might want me to do. i think, at the end of the day, my problem might just be that i don't want to change... ANYWAYS

#i actually think the funniest example of this comes from the irl guy friend i think i actually DO have romantic feelings for #i never used to have feelings for him but i always kind of nursed the idea of such a thing (as i said i think i could be in love with most #friends before i realize i'm not - but with him specifically i never had a moment where i realized i... wasn't?) also my previously #aforementioned irl friend kind of insinuated he might have feelings for me or we might end up with one another and now every time i think #abt him i think about THAT so.#anyways a few years ago he came by my house and picked me up and we got ice cream and talked for hours bc we have a lot in common #and he actually manages to keep in contact with me despite how hard it is (how hard i make it) to talk to me on a consistent basis lol #like we don't talk a LOT but he's also the one who convinced me to contact my former other irl best friend that i hadn't talked to in 6 yrs #anyways back to what i was talking abt from a few years ago... it was 4 yrs ago at this point but after the ice cream - i got a job #and we talked a lot - he took me and my irl bff out but she had a HUGE fight with her bf and he tracked her down and it was. a disaster #but after that they made up (lucikly she broke up with him not too long after lmao) but me and him were put in the middle of it #and anyways we went to the mall with the annoying couple LMAO but we broke off and it was just... really nice to be with him?#and then we went to walmart and rented a movie and went back to my irl's apartment and i tried to dye his hair in her bathroom LMAO #and it just felt really natural to be close to him and whatnot. we really get along and i really don't dislike him and i'm not NOT into him #but yeah anyways a few days later he messaged me and asked if he could pick me up from work but i told him no because at that point i was.#afraid. because i had a dream that i had kissed hik and he turned into rick sanchez and drowned LMFAOOO IT SOUNDS RETARDED BUT.#like i think the point of the dream was that if i showed him that i had some kind of feelings for him he would change or die or disappear?#i always assume the worst. but yeah the dream literally put me off so bad that i cut contact with him for almost 2 years #because i was afraid of him and i was afraid of my life changing #idk. maybe i should give it a try now. i'm still scared but you never know.#i at least wanna say 'thanks' for him convincing me to message my friend from 6 years ago so 🤷‍♀️ who knows

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bsaka7 · 2 years

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alsoooo texted my friend about fris this summer im nervy about the more competitive weekday league but she said they're both good so ITS GOING TO HAPPEN I WILL BE PLAYING FRISBEE THIS SUMMER I GUARANTEE IT!!!!!!!!

#I'm tempted by the more competitive league bc i like to learn strategy and stuff #But I feel im not very good #Like yes I played 4yrs of college but I rlly only seriously played in. 3????? Tourneys due to 1) covid 2) scheduling #Also like if I'm training for a marathon as well... (which I will be)....#Anyway #We'll see #BUT I'M SO EXCITED she made me feel a lot better #Idk I also definitely don't want to be playing like #Rec where it's not equal playing time u know #Which I would worry about #I hate feeling like the worst player on the field #Like I would say it's rare that I have been ever in the past #But I hate the feeling...#Like when ppl won't pass to u..#Admittedly. I didn't mind playing mixed when our teams did it in college #But tbh the only thing I've got going for me is that I'm extremely willing to run #I'm not that good at sharp cuts. And my throwing is Weak. And I'm bad at defending men #Idk #I don't think i can play club bc like... Work #But I'd love to do league at the least

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#unprecedented emotions in this body o mine. like. this may b surprising given the amount of bitching i do on this website #but let me assure u irl i am exceptionally patient. but right now. there is a limit and that is where we now stand #and again this is prob my fault but ive come to the conclusion that fuck these custom chambers. fuck the amount of work that went into them #fuck all of this. im not fucking using them. i will sit here with this one fucking bryophite chamber if it takes me all goddam day bc at #least i fucking trust the values. that means ill have to split up measurements by 2 days but fuck u im right abt this #the solution is: u cant fucking do 98 samples at once. that it. im sorry. fuck u #and i would probably have come to this conclusion earlier if i had thr time to test but doing it all rught now with no fucking room for #grace makes it very fucking clear. so idk. im not fucking using the chambers. and im not looking forward to explaining this to my boss #bc shes so excited abt this project that i have been dreading since its conception. i started with the 3 chambers and it was somehow #even more awful than i would have imagined. fuck that. 2 or 3 fucking weeks of this #and im not even getting paid for all the extra work i do bc i don't get overtime. im not even technically allowed to work weekends or over #40hrs a week. im just doinf this bc im already so miserable why thr fuck not.#hhhhh im being such a brat abt this for real. ugh but i dont wanna meet with my boss #bc this feels like the time where i have to explain that like. listen. u know that thing im really good at and have spent fucking hour and #hours and hours and hours of time doing? well its catastrophically destructive to my brain and thats whats landed us here #where im so fucking fed up that i wanna quit. clean cut and never work with this stuff ever again #and if i have to use the 3 chambers i might die. i might just evaporate away into a million pieces bc i dont wanna deal with this #but i dont wanna explain that bc then shell feel bad and this isnt her fault. i have an issue thats out of my control and im letting it #devour me whole so like 🤷‍♂️ its my fault bleh #whatever. itll be fine. ive got a coherent argument as to why this is too much. and i kno im fucking right so there it is #i feel like that helps me make decisions: heres what has to happen. heres whats preventing that from happening #and there it is. it either u can fix it or u cant. thats it. u deal with the things in ur control #lol at least im not alone to stew in my anger. im working with 2 other ppl today. so i mean i say that im fucking furious bc im visual fine #lol bc im a patient and level headed person irl im just really whiney online bc i have no outlet. so itll b fine. decision made now we just #deal with it. ugh but how tf am i gonna distract myself from how miserable this is all day? thats the real question #brain gets Interrupted ever 5 min bleh agony #unrelated

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the-adas · 4 days

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i dislike it when people mistake my cognitive symptoms for unintelligence

#the adas speak #by people i literally just mean my fuckass parents who gave me schizophrenia and cognitive symptoms #i Know Things. i just can't use any of that knowledge. bc i'm disabled. your fault btw. fuck you #even 5 minute conversations are just so obnoxious and shitty and draining. hate it #anyways. my afro hit 2 inches while it was in the braids!!! i just took em down and that's sooo exciting #i didn't think it would. it was a little shorter than 2 inches. i didn't know it grew that fast #it's almost like protective styles actually protect your hair and help it grow. who knew #it's not long enough for me to want to cut it yet. but eventually it'll get to a length where i have to style it every day #beyond just picking it which is pretty quick #and that's the time where i cut it. bc i don't feel like doing that all the time #doing my hair every day with the braids was fun bc i didn't have to do it forever. i could cut that shit out when i wanted #so yeah. i <3 my hair ^_^ that's what this post is about ^_^

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hattersarts · 1 year

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>>> Risk ineffable husbands, 7 pages

here's a little comic, it's not completely show!gomens compliant but its headcanons i enjoy

comic notes under cut :)

I enjoy Az already realising he likes Crowley by the time Adam appears but hasn't yet worked out what to do with that information bc acts-of-service Crowley Can't Talk, Wont Talk.

Crowley on the other hand has been VERY GOOD at ignoring why he spends so much of his time around Az so only on the crux of YOU'RE GOING TO LOOSE HIM did anything manage to force its way through to his brain. (i did not enjoy crowley being told he was in love with az in s2, i think he could have worked it out himself)

i rly enjoy hcs where they started sleeping together and with humans for fun (i mean the ox ribs scene sets some v good precedent for this) az sleeps with humans bc he indulges! he likes pleasure! crowely on the other hand is very bad at catching feelings and doesnt like it when they die so has mostly only slept with az (did i mention he's VERY good at ignoring his feelings) but they probably haven't slept together for a few hundred years when adam pops up.

my compliant show!hcs are still that az knows he loves crowley (i mean the scene with jim where he leaps out of the chair to attempt to protect crowley saying no he defo doesnt know ANYONE who he feels that way with, don't look closely at anyone he is with) and is just sort of sitting on it still, waiting for any hint from crowley, planning a ball definitely only for humans and no other reason. Crowley is obviously very protective of Az but he still hasn't clicked why he's worried about him but he doesn't have the excuse of heaven or hell anymore so it wouldn't have taken much for him to work it out (hello one of his first lines in s2 is "you ever think, what's the point?" the point is love you idiot)

(book!gomens is just they're already married and have been fucking for centuries but the book just doesnt mention that.)

#good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #this is slightly more old man yaoi than yuri (iykyk)#posting this here first so when i re-read it in lik 3 hrs before i post to twitter i can fix all the mistakes i see #comic

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no-one-hears-me · 7 months

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hello everyone I had a decent day and now I'm going to end it by being evil to some people

#feeling risky and adventurous #I do this thing where. if i feel like i should cut contact with someone i wait 2 weeks first #no impulsive decisions #but the thing is. when the time comes i don't wanna block them bc I'm too sad and sentimental #i love them too dearly even though they hurt me and don't value me #so anyways. 2 people whom i love are supposed to get blocked soon and i don't actually wanna do it #but if i did do it i would just do it. not say anything first just peacefully disappear #but instead I'm gonna text both of them like wtf is up with u. are we done forever or what #Sera

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