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Thank you and to DWM for giving me the vid š¤ I gotta admit, even after getting that first video and watching it again, I was still on my train of denial and went looking to see if anyone had a counter for it or a platonic explanation and the reason for that is, we'll im a stubborn bish š and I really don't want to be a delulu shipper but while I was looking for a non gay explanation for the coded mole shit, I watched some other videos and managed to stumble my ass across the hand signals shit š and THEN I found my way to that timeline that @dearweirdme mentioned in your response and yeah, just bury me now and roast my ass if you want because I am SIDE eyeing Vkook harrrd right now. Side eyeing them from multiple directions at this point. Seeing all of it together in one timeline was a trip.
Maybe I'm just delulu, i don't know but secret hand signals is really just pushing the boundaries of platonicness of a situation to me and charting each others freckles and moles is like classic romantic love shit. I don't know a single friend of mine I can tell you where their damn moles are place. Hell i couldn't tell you were my siblings moles and shit are of the top of my head like that but I remember doing that shit with boyfriends for the first time.
I mean I'm still not gonna a read fanfic or fight bitches on twitter over them but I do think ya'll might be onto something and I'll be looking at them a whole new way from now.
Hi anon!
š well, weāre not making stuff up anon. Itās all things Tea and Jk themselves do. Itās just often a matter of interpretation, and I think (if you do venture further into this) youāll be finding a lot of stuff does get exaggerated and overanalyzed, but still.. there is a lot that does actually point to there being more between Jk and Tae.
#taekook#this is a late response#iāve been very busy#and socially drained š#personally the hand signals are a maybe
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:: Had a lovely week with my mom visiting āŗļøš„° it's been hectic, but I can finally chill from all the socializing and running around. I've got some things to write that I will get to tomorrow ā¤ļø
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the winner takes it all
TW suicide attempt (sleeping pills overdose), social media hate, mental health struggles, depression (lmk if i missed anything)
feat. lando norris
lyrics when oscar wins in bahrain, lando loses everything: credibility, respect... and almost his life, too
maddie i'm tired of people hating on lando for literally no reason, so i wrote about it
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The race had gone⦠good. Not great, but not necessarily bad either.
Sure, receiving a five-second penalty for overshooting his grid box at the start wasnāt exactly optimal, but Lando had still managed to get a podium, going from P6 to P3. And you really thoughtāyou hopedāthat would be enough for him.
But the moment you saw him stepping up there, you knew it wasnāt.
He did everything right, as if it was all part of a routine heād learned to perform like some kind of circus monkey: wave, clap, smile. Repeat. He took his trophy, listened to the anthem, sprayed the champagneāturning his back to Oscar and going straight for Andrea.
Rookie mistake.
The media noticed. Of course they did. Had they ever missed anything when it came to Lando, after all?
Within minutes, the clip of him āignoringā his teammate had gone viral, and suddenly, it was Hungary 2024 all over again. The usual criticism was quick to follow:
he is a good driver but actually so incredibly immature
grow up Lando, you win some and lose some
Piastri making strides šŖ Lando going backwards
It always ended up with people spitting venom at him at every given opportunityāeven for something as stupid as thisāso you didnāt give it much thought, praying that Lando would do the same.
When you scrolled down your Instagram page, however, your heart clenched at the sight of his post-race interview, already trending on every F1-related account. He was clearly disappointed with the result, the car⦠himself.
You opened the comments, expecting to find, if not sympathy, at least some basic human decency.
But you shouldāve known better.
yes lando you arenāt good enought
This guy is not a world champion šš
If you canāt handle your emotions, youāre not strong enough. Thats why he never wins a worldtitle
During his rookie days Iād have some sympathy but now he just looks like a whiney child
He will be 2nd driver soon
Tears clouded your vision as you clutched the phone so hard you thought it might break.
You wished it did.
Maybe that wouldāve finally erased the cruelty, the hate, the insults people apparently liked to throw at a 25-year-old boy who was already carrying the weight of the world on his shouldersāa world that was ready to jump at his throat the moment he slipped up.
You needed to find him before something like that could happen again. So, you ran.
The cooldown room was still buzzing with electricity when you stormed in, the kind that lingers only after champagne-soaked celebrations and loud smiles. Your eyes searched every corner of it, looking for a curly head they didnāt find, landing on Oscar instead, drenched from head to toe and radiating happiness while he chatted with Zak.
āHey,ā he smiled warmly as soon as he spotted you, his expression shifting immediately when he noticed how tense yours was. āSomething wrong?ā
āLando?ā It wasnāt an answer, but you hoped Oscar would catch on either way.
You didnāt like how he frowned in confusion instead.
āHe told me he was going back to the hotel with you,ā he explained, brows furrowed.
Your stomach dropped, color draining from your face.
Panic.
The second he saw your reaction, it clicked in his head, too. āWait, why would heā¦ā
You didnāt let him finishājust turned around and left, sprinting out of the paddock like your life depended on it.
Because, even if yours didnāt, Landoās might.
And you knew what Oscar was about to say. It was the same question that gnawed at you as you ran one red light after the other, your mind going faster than your car ever could.
Why would he lie about where he is?
The silence hit you like a slap in the face when you finally entered the hotel room.
Not welcoming. Not peaceful.
Empty.
Like something was missing.
There was no background music playing in the kitchen, no faint chattering coming from the TV you usually left on, no white noise of any sort⦠just eerie, deafening silence.
But your boyfriend didnāt do silence.
He hated it.
āLando?ā Your voice echoed off the walls. Too loud. Too scared. āBaby, itās me.ā
Still nothing.
You paced around the apartment like a ghost, looking for any sign of his presence in the shadows that crowded the place.
It was the bathroom light, bleeding through the darkness from beneath a half-open door, that ended up catching your attention. You reached for it like a moth to a flame, gaze dropping to the floor as soon as you found yourself in the doorway.
Your knees followed it.
He was there. Slumped against the wall, his head lolling sideways, fingers wrapped loosely around a bottle of sleeping pills.
When you took it from his hand to check it, there were only a few of them left.
You almost threw up.
āLando. No, no, no, shitāLando, wake up. Baby, please, wake up, donāt do this to meāā Tears streamed down your cheeks, his name falling out of your mouth like a plea as you gently cupped his jaw with your palms.
His eyelids fluttered open at the sound of your voice. Slow. Heavy. As if something so simple had suddenly become incredibly painful.
āThatās it, baby. Just keep your eyes open for me, okay? Stay awake, Iām here. Iām here.ā You kept repeating that last sentence like a mantra, running one of your hands through his curls while you rushed to dial the emergency number with the other, your fingers shaking so much you only got it right on the third try.
You didnāt give the operator on the other end a chance to speak when they finally picked up, a river of disconnected sentences flowing out of your mouthāheās barely conscious, he took some pills, I donāt know how many, please hurry up.
Then, just as you were about to hang up, his lips parted, a whisper so low you couldāve imagined it pushing past them.
āI fucked up.ā
Yes, you fucked up, you wanted to scream, but the relief of finally hearing his voice, of knowing he could still breathe, only brought more tears to your eyes.
āYouāre okay.ā Lie. āYouāre okay, and thatās all that matters. You hear me? Justāā you choked on your words. āJust stay with me, please.ā
āMātired.ā His voice was hoarse, scraping his throat like heād been screaming for hours. Maybe he had.
āI know, baby, I know,ā you sobbed, pressing your forehead against hisāraw, desperate, alive. āBut hold on a little longer. Just a little, okay? Shit, Lan, Iām sorry....ā
Iām sorry I didnāt see it coming.
The next few hours were a blur.
Red and blue lights. White gowns.
You refused to let go of Landoās hand while the paramedics loaded him into the ambulance, holding it even tighter when they put needles into his arms and ran fluids through his veins, your fingers linked to his like a lifeline.
For him or yourself, you didnāt know anymore.
They told you he was lucky. That if you hadnāt found him and acted so quickly, he couldāveā
You didnāt want to think about it.
Which was hard when the only thing you could see was how frail your boyfriend looked on that bed, his skin as pale as the blanket he was tucked under, small and helpless like a child.
You didnāt leave his side for a second, caressing his face with the same gentleness and care of a mother while you lulled him softlyāallowing yourself to pretend.
Pretend heād just gone back to sleep after a bad dream.
Pretend he wasnāt surrounded by machines that lived for him after he stopped trying to.
Pretend you didnāt almost give up, too, when you saw him limp on the bathroom floor back at the hotel.
It was 3 a.m. when he finally gave the first signs of life.
A beep on the monitor. A sharp, weak inhale as he stirred.
He blinked.
āYouāre awake,ā you choked out a laugh, relief washing over you as you took his hand between your trembling ones and planted a kiss on his knuckles.
His skin beneath your lips felt warm, familiar.
The chuckle that left his, not so much.
āYouāre surprised.ā
Bitterness. Guilt. Shame.
You froze and glanced up at him, a chill running down your spine at the insinuation hidden behind his words.
He didnāt meet your gaze.
āLando.ā
He flinched, staring at the ceiling like he couldnāt stand the idea of seeing the reflection of his mistake on your face if he turned toward you instead.
As if it was easier to ignore you rather than acknowledge your concern.
āLando, look at me. Please.ā
You heard it before you saw it: his breath hitching when you begged him. Begged him to let you in, to show you the demons heād been carrying alone for too longāso long that theyād almost taken over him.
Then, a single tear ran down his cheek.
And another.
And another.
Until he couldnāt stop them anymore, and they just kept spilling from his eyes, each one heavier than the one before.
Without a second thought, you crawled into bed beside him, letting him bury his face in the crook of your neck as you muttered sweet nothings against his temple, fighting to hold yourself together and be strong for the both of you.
āIām sorry,ā he cried, violent sobs racking his chest. Your hands drew soothing paths down his back, and you wished that could be enough to stop his shoulders from shaking like there was an earthquake wrecking him from the inside.
āFor what, baby?ā you asked, voice laced with the kind of sadness that only witnessing the person you love trying to self-destroy himself could bring.
āFor... being like this. I hate it. I fucking hate it. And I donātāā he gasped, out of breath. āāshit, I donāt know how to fix it.ā
āBecause you donāt have to. Thereās nothing to fix, Lan. I know people expect you to, but youāre not a robot. Youāre a human being, and youāre allowed to break. Okay?ā
āIt hurts,ā he sniffled, though you could feel the tension starting to leave his body under your touch.
He lay there for what felt like hours, curled into your side like a baby while you held him close to your heart, hoping heād hear how fast it beat and realized that it only ached for him.
The first rays of light filtered through the small hospital window when Landoās breathing finally slowed down, matching your own.
You almost thought he'd fallen asleepāpeaceful, at lastābut then you felt him shift against you, his brown locks tickling your throat when he pulled back slightly to look up at you.
His eyes were glassy and red-rimmed, eyelashes sticking together, wet with tears, but still undeniably, utterly him.
āI didnāt want to die,ā he whispered, realization dawning on him as soon as those words left him mouth.
You didnāt miss the flicker of fear in his gaze, either: it terrified him thinking about how close heād been to ending it allāwhen he actually didnāt want to.
āI was just... tired, I guess.ā He sighed deeply, almost to prove his point. He really did look exhausted. āAnd they were getting too loud.ā
āWho? People online? You know I always tell you not to worry about what they saāā
āThe voices in my head.ā
The way he said it, as if that was something heād learned to live with the hard way, was like a punch to the gut.
āThen you scream louder. And Iāll scream with you until the only voices you can hear are yours and mine. Because itās you who should have the power to silence them, not the other way around. Understood?ā
He nodded, weak but trustful, his wide eyes a sea of blue and green as you stared into them.
āI love you,ā you added, gently brushing your lips against his forehead. āEven when you think nobody does.ā
āPromise?ā he croaked, voice breaking as he nuzzled closer into the comforting heat of your chest.
āPromise.ā
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Do you think you could write a smau with Yuki or Daniel with a male reader who is like 6'-6'4 and they kinda have a gay panic moment and reader is just subtly flirting with them through captions and comments...
If not than that's ok, have a great day/night
ahhhhh this is such a cute idea, I went with Danny ric for this one cause the yuki to 6'4 reader height difference would be too mean š
y/nfsnweek
y/nfsnweek new shoot coming out @/alphatauri
y/nfsnweek excited to meet all the cool guys at @/vcarbf1team
vcarbf1team we're excited to meet you!! username YOU'RE MEETING DANIEL AND YUKI?? y/nfsnweek perks of the job š¤·āāļø
username HELLO??? father what do you mean you're modelling for an f1 team??
username girl they were a fashion brand first š
username omg does this mean Y/n's going to a race? He has to right?
username every time I find out abt this man's height I need to log off cause WHAT DO YOU MEAN THIS CUTIE IS FUCKING 6'4???
username tall king
username imagine him next to Yuki š
username they wouldn't even fit in the camera screen together š
vcarbf1team
vcarbf1team our drivers through the eyes of @/y/nfsnweek
y/nfsnweek need a pass for every race pls
vcarbf1team we got you king šŖ
yukitsunoda no comments, no one talk to me, deleting all social media
username omg yuki š bbg it's not your fault y/n is just freakishly tall
danielricciardo finally someone I had to look up to talk to š
yukitsunoda Daniel you're blocked first
username daniel looks at y/n like he wants to eat him, Yuki looks at y/n like he's planning to steal his height
username Danny something you'd like to share with the class???k
Daniel was trying to be normal but there were only very few people he had to look up to talk too and even fewer people who looked like that.
He had accepted he was gay a long time ago but refused to be in a relationship due to the media and his job but there was no way he could ignore the way his heart began racing when he looked into your eyes. The worst part of it was he didnāt even know if you were interested in him, or guys.
One wrong move and his career would be down the drain⦠again and he couldnāt risk that but he couldnāt stop himself from thinking about you either. This was driving him insane. You were driving him insane and you hadnāt even spoken to him over 10 minutes.
He could always count on Max right? He had never told anyone about Danielās secret even when they had been fighting and he was his best friend obviously he was going to cry about this to him.




Why had Max sent him one of Y/nās Instagram posts? Daniel was not in the mood to stalk his crush only to see him with women all over him.
y/nfsnweek
y/nfsnweek If you know what I did last summer pls let me know
Oh, okay, he liked guys, but did he want Daniel? Y/n was a model, he worked around gorgeous men 24/7 why would he want to be with Daniel?
Daniel couldn't do much more, he could pine and yearn like he had for years before or he could get on with his job and move on like he is used to.
danielricciardo
danielricciardo EnchantĆ© orange edition š
landonorris Papaya edition?
danielricciardo no comments
y/nfsnweek my favourite fruit š¤
username bro??? username your favourite what 𤨠username oh?
maxverstappen doubles as MV1 merch
danielricciardo @/Landonorris defend your colour
danielricciardo
danielricciardo austingp my home away from home
ynfsnweek suddenly I'm very interested in America
maxverstappen š¤Øš¤Ø ynfsnweek yee haw š«
username that hat š®āšØ
username max?? y/n??
username y/n being the first comment on this post is giving
username giving broke back mo-
daniel.jpg
daniel.jpg photo creds to @/lando.jpg
y/nfsnweek Lando needs a raise
lando.jpg it's all him y/nfsnweek fr mans fine asf
username Y/N????
username HELLO???
username if Daniel doesn't respond to y/n rn its going to get real embarrassing real quick
Daniels's head was reeling, what did Lando mean you were flirting with him under his posts? Weren't all those comments PR? Should he text you? but what if you didn't like him? But what if you did? Fuck.
Daniel texted you, why had he texted you? Did he not like you? Did your comments make him uncomfortable? You were not above crying till the sun rose and the tears were already ready.
But first you had to yell at the little gremlin that probably caused this, cause you may die of a broken heart and embarrassment but you weren't going alone.
Now back to Daniel, who was probably going to block and you were going to get your contract cut and-
Oh? oh? And where had that sudden burst of confidence come from?
On the other end, Daniel was losing his mind.
Oh
Oh...
HE LIKES ME?? HE LIKES ME!! He couldn't believe he was acting like a teenager right now but he was kicking his feet and giggling. You were the literal man of his dreams and you liked him back!
Daniel was going to die but at least it'd be from happiness this time and you? You were screaming into your pillow, stalking the man's Instagram, blushing thinking about the date.
#f1#formula 1#max verstappen#f1 x reader#yuki tsunoda#daniel ricciardo#danny ric#daniel riccardo x reader#daniel riccardo imagine#daniel ricciardo x male reader#f1 x male reader#f1 x you#f1 x y/n#f1 social media au#f1 fanfic#f1 art#f1 smau#f1 fake texts#lando norris x reader#lando norris
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Donāt you worry your pretty little mind
Part 19 of the Lando Norris x fakegirlfriend!reader social media au
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A/N: Guyssssss. These past 24 hours have drained me something awful š but the parts related to the fic are 1. Magui will be disappearing from the fic so I can cannibalise any content of her and Lando going forward and also she was interfering with the plot too much, especially if they end up hard launching. Iām not using content of them on the plane because Iāve already discussed it too much and it was taking me out of the fic a bit but going forward weāll be back to following the real life content. 2. The app I use to make the text chats is not working and has disappeared from the App Store. Iāve had to download another one, but I know the text and colours are not as accurate so I apologise. Please bear with while I try and find a more realistic alternative. If you anyone knows one, please suggest! Finally, I hope you enjoy this part š«¶š«¶






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With everything going on, working retail has just been getting increasingly more stressful š©ā ļø I'll survive, though. I've just been so much more mentally and socially drained š
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I've been more quiet this Solarpunk Aesthetic Week than I planned, partially because I've been TIRED (I've been more social than usual and that's always draining for me), but also because I've been busy finishing my cardigan. By principle I never admit any of my bigger, personal craft projects are 100% finished, but this one is "finished for now"


It's the classic hexagon cardigan pattern, with two lined granny square pockets. It also works excellently as a throw blanket š
This was my first hexagon cardigan, so it's tiny bit wonky and I love it so much š„°
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(not shipping content)
It's one of my biggest headcanons ever that Vash does NOOOT like his birthday dude I just can't believe it...Knives however. Biggest birthday enjoyer ever. He is the special birthday boy. š¤š¤š¤
Knives usually leaves Vash alone but Vash KNOWS Knives is going to make an effort to show up on their birthday and it stresses him out so bad. Especially if the July incident was on their birthday...that would leave horrible memories for him. š Not to mention how painful remembering his first birthday with Rem would be. Plus Knives would act so bitchy about it like wooow dont even want to see your own brother on your birthday wow. I get it I'm just the worst ever ..š„ Vash would be so over it.
I feel so strongly that Vash is the introvert while Knives is the extrovert. Knives self isolates out of fear and disgust of humans but he secretly thrives while talking to others. Especially if they have strong opinions he can argue against (definitely a debate bro). If Knives had a normal childhood he would've loved big crowds, he has absolutely no social awareness or shame . Or filter. He'd talk to anyone who'd listen. Knives drives himself absolutely insane with his own isolation. All he really wants is social connection, something he's convinced himself is impossible with humans. That's why he's so fixated on getting Vash to stay, he feels Vash is the only person he can actually talk to. Vash on the other hand, would do anything for 5 minutes alone. He is constantly pushing away Milly, Meryl, and even Wolfwood. He cannot let anyone know him beyond his silly guy persona. He especially doesn't like being celebrated (doesn't think he deserves it. ššš) He is constantly trying to skip out on the parties towns people throw for him, leaving without saying goodbye. (He does like getting drunk tho...makes talking easier) He'd never EVER share his birthday with anyone. Especially not Wolfwood or the girls. Knives however, would tell EVERYONE !!! (like how the entire Gung Ho Gun knew Knives had a brother, but Meryl had no idea Vash did. I think Knives loves talking about himself and his tragic past, painting himself as the forever victim to absolutely anyone who'd listen. To Vashes absolute horror š.) Vash is constantly drained from forcing himself to perform socially. He loves people and talking to them but he just needs like. 8 hours of alone time to properly function. That's why he gets so bitchy with everyone sometimes lol. She just needs a naaaaap omg š¤¦āāļø. But he feels guilty for being snippy and tired so he'll force himself to be social anyway. Which makes it worse. Love hiiim !!!! š Either way they're both hurting themselves when they behave like this.
Knives is definitely the yapper while Vash just listens. I feel like Vash would appreciate not having that pressure to constantly respond. Even if Knives can be overbearing, I do think they enjoy each other's company. When they aren't... trying to murder each other. Nobody knows him like Knives does, it would almost be relieving not having to pretend to be happy all the time. He can perfectly morally justify being as mean to Knives as he wants to be !! And he wouldn't admit it, but he does enjoy listening to Knives complain about nothing. He thinks it's funny. Knives is just happy to be with someone he's deemed worthy of his time. He views Vash as his equal, someone he actually trusts to confide in. They are the opposite and also the same in every way life is so beautiful I love these guys.
It would also just be such a cute subversion of audience expectation if Knives, the self proclaimed people hater, was a people person. I think that's sooo interesting and makes so much sense with the context of his desperation for the approval of humans when he was a child. I think kid Knives would've tried to argue that celebrating something everyone goes through is pointless, but would love all the attention anyway. Even be a bit resentful that it was Vashes birthday too if he didn't seem to appreciate the attention as much. As he got older hed mellow out and warm up to the idea of having a birthday and sharing it. Mostly as an excuse to talk to Vash and make everything about himself again. Lol. Plus I think he likes organizing parties. His dream is to have that sweet 16 fantasy the humans in the old world used to have. He actually wants to be normal is the thing. They both do.

#trigun#my based takes#millions knives#vash the stampede#āhappy birthday Vaaaash !! šā *gets blown up by a laser*#kind of a string of consciousness post š§#ignore my terrible grammar...lol#I need to spread....my propaganda....#i luv u Vash and Knives....I luv u gorever and evar....my pookiedookie platonic best friends forever who skip through feilds and hate eachot#I feel like Vash and Knives' friendship is something that should be very important to the story#because that's what makes letting go of him so hard. He has to accept he will never be able to save his loved one#frenemies and sisters for life#TRAGIC SIBLINGS !! SAVE ME TRAGIC SIBLINGS#ALSO I headcanon that Knives' rebirth was ALSO their birthday. only fun stuff happening for Vash on the 21st ššš#anyway I just had to poop this out. š thank you š
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I really love your characterization, I feel like you're really true to the source material whenever possible ⤠you're good at making cute moments without sugarcoating the unpleasant parts of characters!
I'm curious.. how would Peter/YB react to the reader confronting him about not actually loving them? Reader having been very accepting of him and having a sort of revelation when his Perfect Boyfriend facade slips. (I mean he'd absolutely just cut his losses and go full murder mode but I think it'd be interesting if he actually had any level of introspection.)
If the goal was to flatter me then it worked, like shit, what a beautiful compliment šā¤ļø I got you rn. There is a lot of ways to interpret this hc so Iām hoping what is written is what you were asking for.
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- Peter had a lot of red flags youād had looked past. He was perfect and went above the bar when it came to past men who had entered your life. He remembered your birthday, the anniversaries, even those cheesy days like national hug day and he spared no expense into making it special for you even when there was nothing to celebrate.
- this was honestly a big part in why you were so accommodating when he was less than savory to be around, you yourself are surprised with how much of a pushover you were in the past. Guess it shows just how low the bar is for you.
- things eventually just started connecting as you got to know him. The possessiveness being a big part, it felt like ever since getting to know him your social life sort ofā¦. changed. It suddenly felt like there was less time for the other people you cared about, even your family wasnāt spared when it came to him. Everyone was a challenge for him.
- neither of you really ever really established a relationship, you always thought you two were just really close friends I mean ⦠sure there were some moments where it felt like something more but it wasnāt something you were barely even beginning to consider after past relationships left you feeling drained. You were okay with this sort of situationship for the the time being you just hadnāt noticed how much he had really wanted.
- He was always the guy there for you to talk shit with when you were frustrated or the shoulder to cry on, he was practically your best friend ever since Lucy had passed. You still blamed yourself for everything despite no consecutive reports on the case for months now but hey atleast you had someone to help you grieve and move past the tragedy that had happened at that diner. He was always there for you, he said it himself and had done more then enough to prove it through his actions towards you.
- one day he just changed. Itās like the guy youāve been building trust with for almost half a year now just turned around and showed you a side heād been forcing himself to hide from you.
- suddenly seeing those eyes that made you feel like prey, it was weird and quite frankly you didnāt like it. You didnāt like how he was treating you like a piece of meat, like any other guy would. It felt like you were beginning to see him for who he was.
- all a guy had done was catcall you, it wasnāt anything. You ignored it and kept it pushing like you always do but he just couldnāt let it go.
- he didnāt do anything, not while you were watching anyways but you saw that change in demeanor. Heās done it before though it was always a flash of an emotion you could not name, it always intimidated you but never for long as he was back to his same old lovable self.
- he sort of just dumps everything on you, everything heād been keeping in all those nights working up the nerve at the mere thought of embracing you as more than just a friend. All those times you had cried to him but not because of him, it infuriated him that the relationship heād been making up in his head since practically forever with you was nothing more than a mere delusion heād created to cope with never actually being with you. That was going to change. Tonight.
- he knew, he just knew you wanted to be with him as much as he did with you so when you told him you were put off by his behavior and that you did not feel for him even a fraction of what he felt for you, hearing that āyou wanted some time away from himā threw him through a loop. Not a pretty one either.
- those eyes again, the ones he has flashed at the man earlier. The ones that had you feeling helpless. A wolf in sheepās clothing.
- it was like a gust of wind when he grabbed you with all his might, a meaty vein pulsing trough his forearm and the eyes of a killer gaping into your soul. A screaming fit paired with it, words along the lines of āwhy canāt you just accept that you love meā the words of a delusional freak that you know in your bones you should have never even given a single benefit of the doubt. That all this time that gut feeling in back of your mind was true all along.
- youāre in so much distress that itās all a blur. The over-exertion of your muscles trying to fight back against the agonizing grip of a grown man paired with the ringing in your head from the screams, the wet on your face from the spittle of the man screaming intensely in your face. Thereās a thud and suddenly everything is just black.
- you find yourself with a pounding headache and foggy vision bound against a soft surface, most likely a mattress. You try to move but you find your wrist cold from a handcuff keeping you fastened against the bed post. Everything from last night comes back and youāre reliving everything, a panic attack hits you before you calm down again having hope that there may be a way out of this.
- your captor, the person you thought youād see comes walking in with a slight hop in his step. Almost as if last night never even happened, he has a tray of food. You arenāt sure what it is but you know you want no part in it immediately readying your voice to try and talk your way out of this predicament.
- thereās a stool by the bed your bound to, he sits on it and puts the tray on the bedside table right by your head.
- he tells you good morning in a sickly sweet voice you wish youād never hear, almost as sickening as the deep purple bruise left on your arm after the mere grip put on you last night.
- you donāt offer a kind response back (who would letās be honest) but it doesnāt seem like he minds. That flips a switch when the next words fly out of your mouth, almost as if you didnāt even think about who you were talking to before you spoke.
- nasty words continuously come out of your mouth begging him to let you go all the while barking like a chihuahua as if you were trying to hit a nerve. Who could take anyone seriously while they were tied down though?
- he laughs it off, this is why he loves you so much. You have a quality that canāt be copied, your spirit is so pure to him. He canāt help but communicate how much he loves you with a breathy voice and an ethereal stare.
- youāre next words were your biggest mistake, the ones that sealed your fate. You just couldnāt say you loved him back.
- his reaction, itās not as bad as last night but still terrifying nevertheless. He understands itās a process in a relationship but to spout such nonsense is enough to rile him up all over again.
- heās more than offended at being told that he doesnāt really love you and only like the idea of you, youāre more than that to him. Youāre essence, the mere presence of you is enough to blow him away. He huffs it away with a smirk, you donāt mean that.
- youāre too weak to fight the cloth clogging your airways, the all to familiar blackness coming back into the corner of your eyes slowly drowning your vision in it as your brain goes numb.
- begging to leave it just wonāt work, he knows you really love him and that you want to stay here. You just need time and heās more than willing to take care of anyone else who seems to think they knows whatās best for you and him.
- just like he did with Lucy.
- overall the guy is fucking delusional, say goodbye to the possibility of him having even a single moment of clarity when it comes to you.
#peter your boyfriend#yb peter#peter#yb fandom#yb your boyfriend#yb game#your boyfriend x reader#your boyfriend visual game#your boyfriend visual novel#your boyfriend game#your boyfriend#yandere
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I feel like Iām always harassing you with my asks (sorry!!), but bouncing off of my previous request for Black lore- what are the Blacks (that we know) like āØin bedāØ? What are they into?
I spent way too long thinking of this!
We'll start with Sirius the Grandpa Black. I have a feeling he was wild in bed, like he was wild in everything. Curiously, I spoke with a friend about this just the past week, and I said 'he made his wife very happy in bed, and exasperated outside of it'. He was a leg man- he loved long, shapely legs on a woman. In his time-period, no one could see a woman's legs, all hidden by long skirts, but he had a way of guessing beforehand lol.
Arcturus- funnily enough, in the new chapter I am writing, Sirius jokes that Arcturus probably only had sex twice in his life, because he cannot see his strict grandfather as a sexual being. And while he certainly had sex more than twice, I think he was pretty standard in bed, nothing crazy, just plain old missionary style. He was a virgin when he married and never cheated on his wife, even after she died, had no desire for anyone other than her.
Pollux and Irma (in my story she's also a Black, half, on her mother's side) have the same dynamic in bed they have in real life. Irma really likes dominating him, and in bed, he actually enjoys it.
Cygnus has a pregnancy kink š That aside, poor man hadn't had much sex since his wife fell into a deep depression.
Alphard was into nerdy, quiet men with a hint of a wild side (he once had a brief crush on Tom Riddle, of course). He was a very generous partner, in bed and outside of it. His last partner, whom he'd been with on and off for like two decades, and actually lived with for the last five years of his life, almost made an appearance in Canis Major, but I had to let the scene go. Alphard left what remained of his wealth to Sirius, but he left his beautiful home to his partner, who was disowned by his family when he moved in with Alphard.
Orion, like the hypocrite he is, likes wilful, stubborn women that defy social convention. The surest way to attract his attention was to 'behave atrociously' (as he would call it) in public. He's twisted, and he enjoys pursing strong women, only to dominate them when he gets them. As soon as he 'tames' them, he loses interest in them. He's very good in bed, very open minded unlike in every other aspect of his life. No one ever left Orion's bed unsatisfied.
Orion needs intimacy- he never had a simple one night stand. Even with his briefest affairs, he still took the time to know them first, and never jumped in bed at the first opportunity, nor was he one to feel attraction for a woman just based on her looks. I think he liked 'the hunt' most of all.
That aside, if his marriage hadn't broken apart, he'd have never cheated on Walburga. Before everything went to hell, for the first ten years of their marriage, he didn't even think of other women, was 1000000% satisfied with his wife. Even after it all went down the drain, during the years, whenever Walburga gave the briefest sign she wants him back in her bed, he'd abandon whoever he was with and come *running* back home, eating up whatever scrap of affection he could get from her.
Walburga was basically into everything Orion suggested, and she had a few suggestions of her own (learned from those erotica and sometimes straight up smut novels that she loves and were mentioned very briefly in It runs) that she wanted to try out. She loves dangerous men (that's why we see her reading books with a naked, fanged vampire on the cover). I'm certain she made Orion pretend he was a vampire at least once š She also had a slight exhibitionism streak when she was younger and they lived in Egypt, which put Orion on edge (but also secretly delighted him). They weren't even having full on sex back then (Orion insisted they wait until marriage) but she found ways to rile him up and play with him and drive him mad until they finally retuned to England and got married.
Bellatrix is creative and she always chases a thrill, and her sex life is fabulous. Rabastan, poor dear, had seen and heard things in that Manor that either give him nightmares, either inappropriate dreams staring his sister in law and his brother. Sometimes, Bellatrix likes duels as foreplay, so she and Rodolphus destroy parts of the Manor and then fuck in the middle of the damage. Of course, they also have calmer sex, an entire day of lazying in bed with Rodolphus, filled with gentle love-making. But when they're feeling more wild and duels come into play, whoever wins gets to dictate the encounter.
No one knows what Narcissa likes in bed, only Lucius, and it took him like a few years to find out. So whatever happens in bedrooms in Malfoy Manor, shall remain between them.
Andromeda takes after her grandmother Irma, both in bed and out of it. Ted is her boy toy. He does whatever she asks, and they both enjoy it a lot.
Regulus, the little repressed freak, once he finally gets to have sex, he lets loose, and then he feels guilty for it, because he considers whatever he did as something beneath a man of his station. Orion should have really paid more attention to him, but he was also very young when Orion died, so they didn't get to have fun sex talk like Sirius got. He's so allergic to feelings and affection, he enjoys impersonal sex the most. Regulus only knows to accept love and give it back with his mother and his brother, no one else.
Sirius is- well, we know Sirius. Because of the way he was raised and all the shit he got from his mother about liking boys, he does have certain unhealthy behaviours. He adheres to the strict gender roles when it comes to sex, so when he's with a woman, he must always be in charge. That doesn't mean he isn't adventurous, but only as long as he has control. Even when he first gets with Voldemort, he unconsciously puts Voldemort in the 'woman's role' in his head. It takes a while for him to get comfortable, and he's lucky Voldemort is a very patient dude. Obviously, after that happens, we can see Sirius definitely has some sort of Daddy kink. Not that he'd think of it like that, nor would the word 'daddy' ever be uttered while he has sex with Voldemort, but he enjoys being taken care of by an older, powerful man. He also has a big praise kink, so there's that.
He's into different things in bed, depending if he's with a man or a woman. And while he did have plenty of mindless one night stands, I think he is most satisfied when he has a deep connection with his partner. He's desperate for affection, for a true connection, even if he was also afraid of having a bond like that. It's why he tried to distance himself from Marlene, even if he wanted her, because he was simply afraid of growing too close.
You never harass me with questions! I love the questions, especially because they make me think of my lovely Blacks and their mysterious lives. ā¤ļø
#it runs in the blood#sirius/voldemort#sirius black#orion/walburga#orion black#I think about these people way too much#their sex life is as messy as everything else about them
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Oh Geez, it's the finale. Sorry if this gets long
Season 5 Episode 22 - Swan Song
I never wanna hear this season recap song ever again. I know there will be no peace and we will never be done.
ā Of course Chuck is in this one. He needs to know what's going on, but I just know he's gonna play dumb as all hell (bc he's still only written as a prophet)
ā Dean's on board with Sam's plan?? What's his play?
Dean admitting taking care of Sam is who he is. He never sees his worth beyond what he can do for other people, especially Sam.
ā They just completely drained two demons while they hung by their feet like butchered animals. Remember when they gagged at organs?
ā Cas: *Sleeping in the backseat*
Dean: "Well, ain't he a little angel?"
Bro, he shouldn't have to sleep. Be concerned.
SAM POINTING THAT OUT lol
ā Sam making Dean promise he won't come looking for him. Of course Dean won't. Being stuck with Lucifer in Hell is worse than Hell alone.
He wants him to go back to Lisa and "have barbeques and go to football games" š
ā Sam and Bobby's goodbye š
Cas trying to follow social norms š. He is so funny. That was cute.
ā I can't believe Dean let Sam say yes.
Why isn't Lucifer jumping on that?
Oh, Lucifer knows about the rings. That's not helpful.
Damn he did it. Lucifer is using Sam as a vessel.
Sam's plan did not work. Shocker.
Dean's face š
ā Samifer is great, tho. I love his eyes, they are different from Sam's. Must be the lack of trauma and existence of self-worth
ā Cas is so funny, again. "You don't have to be mean."
*suggests the next thing they do is "buy copious amounts of alcohol"
Cas and Bobby have just given up
Dean hasn't.
ā Poor Sam, Lucifer is drinking demon blood for a power boost
ā Chuck and Becky broke up lol
But he knows where and when the big fight is going down.
ā Cas trying to protect Dean š
ā Ouuu we're at Michael and Lucifer's meeting. This is so interesting.
Neither want to "do this". Lucifer is trying to convince Michael to not fight. What an interesting dynamic.
I almost feel for Lucifer in this conversation. Michael is the bad guy, here. (Not saying Lucifer isn't, tho)
COME ON people. Just bc it isn't funny or Destiel, doesn't mean we shouldn't have gifs of it. ^^
ā I love how Dean just casually pulls up to where the two most powerful beings except God are about to fight
ā "Hey, assbutt"
"Did you just molotov my brother... with holy fire?" LMAO
It seems like Lucifer actually loves Michael
Cas's reaction is, once again, so funny. Dude's got so much personality :
Aaand he just exploded. See you in a few episodes, my love
Nvm, Lucifer just killed Bobby. They're gonna be back this episode.
ā Dean trying to reach out to Sam while Lucifer beats him šš
Woah it worked
Also, I love the flashbacks to season 1, they were so cute.
ā Oh my God he's gonna do it, he's gonna jump in
AND HE TOOK MICHAEL WITH HIM
Brilliant play
RIP Sam, see you in the next episode
ā Aaand Cas is back. And back to normal.
Loook at their faces
"Cas are you God?" Lol
God brought him back "new and improved", and he brought back Bobby.
ā "God gives you a brand new set of wings and suddenly you're his bitch again."
Dean so desperately wants Cas to stick around, but refuses to say it
"You really suck at goodbyes, you know that?" See what I mean?
ā Dean is actually gonna hold up on his promise. He went back to Lisa.
ā Chuck just poofed out.
Did they (writers) know what he was going to be, or just knew it was more than a prophet?
ā Okay, nvm, see you this episode, Sam. He really came right back.
I wish I had an emotional understanding of this show the first time I watched this episode bc GODDAMN. Words can't even explain.
Note for myself: Cas is going to heaven bc with Michael gone, it's gonna be chaos. Someone has to run the show
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ASTRO NOTES - 1
These are notes not observations because yes these are factz onlii šæ Take it with a pinch of salt
ā ļøTW- sensitive, my cry soft babies š„ŗ this is not for u honey just take my virtual hug š« and take care of urself š

Capricorn moons are a disgrace to Capricorn community it is because of them the "capricorn sun" is stereotyped as judgemental and close minded for being so rigid when in reality it is true for moons onli the cap suns are the sweetest and most open minded people ever infact they are observational and not judgemental which indicates a higher level of intelligence unlike the cap moons (we get it its in detriment and you got a ton loads of mommy issue but baby whos gonna heal them? š¤”forget being the joker now, past is over)
Same way libra suns are petty and pathetic esp with their manipulative as well as people pleasing behaviors they are disgrace to libra community its other libra placements that represents true beauty and not shallowness or over rationalisation
I have to break it up to you but aquarius venus does not move on that easily infact many times it fails to move on they are just good at hiding it wanna know why? Because it is ruled by saturn daddy that means it is disciplined, determined and focused AND NO THEY ARE NOT CHEATERSSSS!!! Also being ruled by uranus means they will keep on bringing new changes (cant say for good or bad whoops!! ) in the relationship because it is a visionary sign they are probably daydreaming about marriage š„ŗš„ŗ and yall are here throwin misiformationšš PLUS ITSSS A FIXED SIGN WHAT YOU EXPECT FROM A FIXED SIGN SOCIETY?? TO MOVE ON IN THE SNAP OF A FINGER LIKE THANOSSSS BRO??
Now speaking of fixed venuses (aquarius, taurus, scorpio and leo) all of these fixed venus people at least have one lover they can never move on from they might feel they have moved on then suddenly the memories resurface šš»āāļøšš»āāļø you thought it was over huh?š¤ŗš¤ŗ
Whats up with SCORPIO placements having a love for dogs and having a dog pet at least once in their life (esp moon) and then scorpio suns usually hating cats? šæ is it because they are willful and wont be manipulated by u? I suggest u seek some psychopath diagnosis this is some serious underdeveloped energy SIS/BRO IT IS UNHEALTHY
Aries and Scorpio mars would love the idea of tearing your clothes while making out or making love ššš„µ

Libra moons with air rising should actually consider polyamory
All libra moons are true romantics or should i say hopeless romantics
Cancer suns are pathological liars Its not Gemini yall need to stop giving them fake rep of lying
Leos suns talk a lot and they do not mix well with earth suns even if they try to earth sun will eventually find themselves pissed and drained bcuz of how much they speak and boast they are constantly speaking š (gives headaches in worst case scenario)
Virgo sun and risings really do a lot of stuff and chores despite having phone addiction and even if they are not good in academic or dislike what they are studying they will still be seen suffering with books and notebooks
Venusians suns with leo moon are pretty miserable they are pessimistic and overthinkers it feels like they dont have touch with their emotions at all because they are constantly rationalising emotions to the point they are repulsive to deep feelers and feels almost inhumane š¬like you would not like forming deep connections with them because you will realise they lack emotional capabilities to connect with they sometimes can even make you loathe them or very annoyed its like you are dealing with someone who doesnt make sense at all as if their brain is underdeveloped or something you just dont wanna deal with them
Scorpio placements are not loyal
Sagittarius placements and doms laugh a lot š
All capricorn suns and virgo risings are skinny or petite
Aquarius suns do love posting on social media a lot and they do care about ur instagram š

Air venus can easily stay loyal with online relationships infact they are all loyal idk where the stereotypes are stemming from
#astronotes#astrology observations#astrologyobservations#astrology#capricornsun#libramoon#leosuns#leo#air venus
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OK HERE IS THE PART 2!!!!!
slam dunk boys at the gym pt 2
akagi

If Akagi feels that his basketball practices werenāt strenuous enough that day, he WILL go to the gym right after. And depending on his mood, heāll drag the rest of the team with him š
The boys would hate going with him because of how serious he is about his workouts. Like if youāre going with him, thereāll be NO fooling around. If he takes the team with him, heād make each of the workouts into a competition. Like increasing the machine weight by 5 lb increments and see who can go for the longest š
On his own, Iād say heād only do a couple machines/workouts per session. But heād be VERYYY intense about them. Like heād keep building the weight up and do a shitton of sets. Each day heād be working on specific regions/muscles and heād make sure to target only those
HARUKO WOULD DEF TAG ALONG WITH HIM AND HEāD TEACH HER NEW WORKOUTS AND GIVE HER TIPS
The gym bros would think heās so cool. Theyād ask about his workout routine, what his diet is, if he takes any protein supplements. Theyd be so jealous of how tall and bulky he is omfg
sendoh

I donāt see Sendoh going to the gym often. I think heād go if he doesnāt have practice one day and the weather isnāt nice enough to go fishing or walking.
But when he does go the gym⦠ITD BE CRAZY. Unlike Rukawa, Sendoh is more approachable and he wouldnāt be very intense at the gym. So more girls would approach him!!!! He would be polite and give them his number but then over text, let them know he isnāt interested. He would NOT wanna humiliate any of the gym baddies in the moment
His workouts would depend on whatever heās in the mood for thst day, I donāt think heād have any set routine.
If he sees someone having a hard time with a specific machine or their workout form is off, heād go up to them and be like āHey, can I give you a few pointers?ā He wouldnāt want to be annoying about tryna correct them, but legit just to help them out
Heād laugh to himself at any of the gym crackheads ššš
If thereās something extra at the gym, like a swimming pool or track field, he will do those leisure activities. Heās moreso at the gym to destress and enjoy himself than body building
sawakita

Heād go to the gym super often, mainly with his teammates (especially Fukatsu and Masashi). If he has a game coming up (or jus doesnt want to go home yet OR HES BORED), theyāll all go together.
I like to think that their school funded those boys a gym membership to a really nice gym, with extra things like a basketball court, track, and maybe a pool. AND THEYD TAKE ADVANTAGE OF IT. Like this boy will have fun!!!!
Sawakita wouldnāt be super serious about weightlifting/his other workouts⦠but Masashi would try making it a competition as to who can lift the most/do the most sets. AND SAWAKITA AINT TRYNA LOSE
Heād be like Akagi in the sense of doing specific workouts for specific days. Heād def push himself but also take breaks and to not overdo things. Heād be scared about pulling a muscle or being too exhausted the next day
He would have SOOOO many admirers at the gym. Like this guy will have girls practically breaking their necks jus to look at him. But nobody would approach him because heās surrounded with his scary and intimidating looking friends (mainly Masashi)
I think heād go alone a decent amount too. Especially if he was feeling sad about something and wasnāt ready to talk to it about it to his parents/friends. Or if he was jus socially drained that day and wanted alone time
Now when he does go aloneā¦. Itās a total switch up š. This boy got girls approaching him, asking him for help on their workout, EVERYTHING. Heād be so smug about it to Masashi too, like āThe one day I go without you is the day all the ladies talk to me. What a coincidence,ā (and then get his ass beat LMFAOOO)
#slam dunk#ć¹ć©ć ćć³ćÆ#headcanon#slam dunk anime#anime and manga#blog#akira sendoh#sendou#sendoh akira#sawakita eiji#eiji sawakita#eiji#sawakita#takenori#takenori akagi#akagi takenori#headcanons#gymlife#gym#slam dunk hcs#hcs#my hcs#my man <3
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Story of Scorpio, Mars, Lilith, Chiron, and Pluto in 3H
One my biggest challenges in life is communication, according to my astrology placements. According to sidereal astrology, I have:
3H Scorpio, Mars, BM Lilith, Pluto, Chiron, and Juno
12H Leo, Sun, and Mercury
8H Aries, Jupiter Rx, and Saturn Rx
1H Virgo and Moon
Ahh, where do I start? āŗļø
[ note: i observed this before i began learning astrology a few years ago as well ]
My placements show that i:
- approach conversation in a probing, investigative way with raw intensity, aiming to be transformative
- tend to be fiercely competitive in discussions and debates, questing for authenticity and to challenge societal norms
- communicate in a way that reveals deep-seated wounds and vulnerabilities, yet is also carefully considerate of how my words affect others (trying to balance analytical mind with emotional depth)
- am not afraid to dive into taboo or deep subjects
- have a flair for dramatic storytelling (AHAHAAhaaaā¦)
- am influenced by a need to understand and communicate the deeper and often hidden aspects of life
Most of the time I prefer solitude, so I can get myself together internally. I definitely donāt mind socializing but I get drained easily, especially depending on the vulnerability level I feel comfortable with.
I was diagnosed with speech impediment when I was a child and had to take speech classes in elementary school, as a lovely note. I still deal with, whether itās speaking too fast or mixing up words in speech or writing [ which I just did, but I catch myself. I wrote āstealā instead of āstillā ].
But when it comes to confrontation, I go hard or go home. I do not care for superficial BS, rose-colored glasses, or being politically correct. Man, I seek truth, not comfort, even when I get mofo scared.
Well, not gonna lie, many times I donāt say exactly how I feel because of the tendencies for tone to be focused on more than words. I have Venus and Rahu in Cancer in the 11th house so I often feel a sucker to social conformity, but Iāve been learnin.
I truly think that no matter how considerate I try to be with my words [ as in verbally stating I comprehend reasons why someone could come to a conclusion about my behavior along with asking further questions to understand ] I just come off too mofo intimidating and itās frustrating as FOCK.
This post was triggered by a conversation I just had, which turned into an aggressive tone on the other personās end because I shared my opinion and I told that I respect their choice to disagree but I stand firmly on my perspectiveā¦which I told them they didnāt have to agree with either. And they blocked me.
And I also had an disagreement with an previous friend and I want to reconnect or at least seek closure, but it didnāt turn out well because they felt like I was deflecting even tho I just had repeatedly stated my disagreement, along with admitting my slights. I asked them to explain why and how they felt like I was deflecting, and that they wouldnāt take accountability in the situationā¦and they got very upset, so we officially ended things.
I am well aware that Iām not always right. I just persist unless I have to emotionally or intellectually relent, cuz Iām actually wrong or I donāt have the balls or understanding to confront the truth.
Kinda Unrelated to Main Topic:
Most advice tells me to be more considerate but sweetie, most of my life Iāve dogged myself for not meeting the expectations of others, even though many times I still donāt care enough to put the effort into doing so. When I say dogged, I mean depressed and anxious asf most of my life, lamenting in my bed as I complain internally [ victimizing prick š ] while the ego I mask [ all fire placements, especially Sun & Leo, in the water and private houses ] are boiling in my digestive system [ Virgo Rising and Aquarius 6H, which rules the mind and nervous system and MY ANXIOUS FOCKIN ASS ].
I see advice to challenge this intensity into physical activity, creative outlets, journaling, and learning occult practices [ like astrology š ], which is good.
The thing is, this stuff affects my professional and social life. Not badly, cuz I am very considerate and mindful, but when I get too frustrated because I feel misunderstood or treated unfairly, it doesnāt go well power struggle wise. According to career related placements, Iām suited for behind-the-scenes tasks [ Gemini 10H with ruler in 12H ] along with channeling emotions and transformational energy into creative outlets [ Iām an artist and I love to write and read ].
My 10H ruler is in detriment in the 4H and 7H, which means I can struggle with balancing career and domestic dynamics, or communicating effectively within my family. Also indicates lack of support or understanding from family regarding career. And 7H can indicate issues with professional partnerships or collaborations. Iām gradually learning how to integrate all the different factors, because I know aspects and delineations play a big role in emphasis of energies, which Iām just now getting into. Since Mercury is exalted in my 1H, my career success and public reputation are boosted when I have a healthy relationship with my self-identity.
#scorpio mars#mars in scorpio#scorpio in the 3rd house#mars in the 3rd house#stellium in the 3rd house#8th house#3rd house#12th house#mercury in the 12th house#moon in the 1st house#virgo rising#astrology#sidereal astrology
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As an introvert, I love the āintrovert gets adopted by the extrovertā trope we see happening with Seph and Angeal/Glenn.
Makes me wonder if Genesis will be shown to be a fellow introvert, and how that dynamic will go. Speaking from experience; dealing with extroverts can be exhilarating but eventually draining, whereas being with a fellow introvert can be calming and grounding.
We know Genesis is fiery, but according to Gillian and other sources, baby Gen sounded starry-eyed and sweet.
Will baby Seph and Gen go at it like alley cats? Totally possible. Will they bond quicker than Angeal and Seph did due to their shared personality traits? Also totally possible.
Honestly, it could be a mix of both š
I personally view Gen as an introvert with a few extrovert qualities. He likes presenting performances and stories to people...but he also has a limited social battery and needs his alone time lolol He's definitely more social than someone like Sephiroth. But he's also independent and likes to do things at his own pace. Skilled at mingling and flirting, but also only thrives when HE'S in control, and when he can set his own boundaries.
As for what he'd be like in FS era...I think around this time, Genesis is still very much a Sephiroth fanboy. From how he talked about Sephiroth in his diary, he seemed to cling to the idea of Sephiroth as being a source of validation. He'd want Sephiroth's praise and acknowledgement. Which would make it very hard for him right now as Sephiroth is still kind of moody and not in a good place emotionally. The likely scenario is that they'd probably fight a LOT, with Genesis getting really upset over the fact that his hero doesn't want anything to do with him.
But who knows? We know that Sephiroth mellows out at some point after FS, eventually turning into a pretty mild-mannered adult with an unspoken devotion towards his friends. So if Angeal manages to calm him down in Ep 2, I actually think Seph and Gen would stick together like glue, at least before the one-sided resentment and rivalry starts to crop up between them.
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Is Sukuna an introvert or an extrovert?
I see him more of an introvert honestly. With extrovert tendencies.
(Not like the cliche type of introvert of being a very shy book worm.)
For headcanon in both curse and non curse type AUs, he doesnāt necessarily need people in his life to have fulfillment. Even in canon, he really only seems to respect Uraume. Theyāre the only one he seems to āenjoyā having around, and he makes a point of forgiving them often if they feel theyāve done wrong.
Headcanon wise, he might have the interest to hang out with a couple friends, go to a bar, or just shoot the shit with some people, but even then I canāt see him gaining a lot of energy from interactions like this. It would bore him after a while.
He seems to enjoy a sense of solidarity. He gets visibly annoyed/exhausted mentally when having to deal with things that arenāt preferable or enjoyable. On his own, even in canon, he seems to enjoy being left alone.
Heād prefer to educate himself on something that is unknown to him, furthering his knowledge and experiences. Heād find a lot of people insanely common, dull, and extensively draining to his intelligence.
I headcanon him as more of a playboy that gets what he wants out of partners, then kicks them out when heās done, unless he settles down with someone of course. (And even with said partner, heās not interested in sharing a lot of their experiences or time with the rest of the world.)
š¤ I honestly feel like I could go on a lot more about this. Considering I headcanon him differently for Heian Era, Modern Curse AU, and Modern Non-Curse AU š
But overall, I see him enjoying being alone, valuing his independence and having plenty of time for internal processing. He might have fun when heās out slaughtering people for shits and giggles, but he doesnāt need/want social interaction or constant high energy stimulation.
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