#and so frustrated with how BAD the merch is these days honestly

[seekingthestars]

plybe i am in your walls i am haunting you i am breaking your pipes and throwing things out the window

[amazinglyashy]

hi hi~ i have a silly request if you're interested (⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠) can i request the lads men's (pre-relationship) reaction to the reader introducing them to their boyfriend? but plot twist... its a fictional virtual boyfriend! just like the game love and deepspace LOL who would get jealous? who would have beef with a fictional man?? /JK

PS: im not sure how to say this properly but u like, write them so attractively 😵 if that makes sense, like the little quirks u give them and the dialogue, whoo weeeee 100/10!

This made me laugh because I still remember introducing my bf to my Obey Me boyfriends and kept trying to figure out which one was the most like him so he could buy me merch of them and push his personal agenda. Sadly none of them are like him, but now that I play LDS, Rafayel sure is! Thank you for the request! I had fun with this one! (And oh my gosh, that's such a compliment!! Thank you so so much, it means a lot!!)

Pre-relationship LaDS men react to your fictional game partner

Rafayel -

Who would have beef with a fictional man?

Rafayel would have beef with a fictional man.

He did not wait centuries for you, searching high and low for his lost love in every dark alley and bad idea that came across him- to lose to a bunch of pixels on a tech screen.

Truthfully, he knows it's all in good fun, and he's not completely jealous. He's actually pretty glad you found a nice outlet that helps you with relieving stress from you day to day. He knows you need it.

He's just... going to be now competing secretly with a fictional figure.

He thinks its secret.

You know what he's doing.

Why else would he be asking you what the latest event is in your game with your fictional partner, and then miraculously a week later you're receiving the very same things or experiences in reality on your day off?

He's not slick at all, and honestly, you find it pretty endearing.

But also, something you won't ever consider- is maybe he's doing those things for you, not only to make you happy, but to show you just how much attention he pays to the things you tell him about.

That's okay.

You don't need to know that part.

Zayne -

Zayne is not at all threatened by whoever this 'Jumim Hen' guy is.

Yes he is mispronouncing it on purpose. No he will not correct himself until he's gotten enough humor out of it and frustrated you enough about it.

Once that happens, he'll start pronouncing it correctly and if confronted about his change in pronunciation, he will pretend you need a wellness check and request you make an appointment with his secretary.

Smooth way to spend more time with you while subtlety calling you crazy.

He mostly does just think it's cute, though.

He will buy you food from places that might be having game events that get you special merchandise or in-game prizes, even if you don't realize there's a surprise event happening because it wasn't advertised in your game.

No, he's not weird and expects you to stop playing once the two of you start dating. He realizes it's something you enjoy a lot, and he actually finds a lot of pleasure in listening to you ramble about situations that are happening in your game.

He finds most things you do endearing.

Sylus -

You're giggling over it, that's all the matters to him.

He is rubbing the bridge of his nose though, because you had been building up to this moment for over a week and he was convinced you were going to show him an actual psychopath or something and he was going to have to figure out a way to make the man disappear without you realizing it was Sylus's doing.

He probably won't make any vague comments about how your fictional boyfriend is strangely similar to himself and that maybe you have a type.

Probably.

(He will make one per day.)

(At least.)

Once you're dating him, he has some access to your device and the game, simply so that he can reload your currency whenever you go to sleep. He doesn't want you to run out, and he knows you love playing. What else is his money good for if not for making you smile?

Doesn't understand it, but he does make mental notes of your current progress in the storyline and which characters you like. But sometimes he'll pretend to forget an important detail.

He loves hearing you babble about anything, after all.

Xavier -

He was a bit confused at first, but figured out what was going on rather quickly.

He thinks it's adorable, like when he first found out how much you love claw machines and the plushies inside of them. He doesn't see it as much different- the love interests are your plushies in the game, and your fictional partner is your favorite "plushie".

Easy.

Xavier has lowkey cosplayed your game boyfriend at least once, acting innocent about it and as if it was completely unintentional.

If you're dating by then, he lets you 'borrow' the clothes, so now you have an article from your game, but it also smells like he does. He's only allowed them back once they lose their scent.

He only accepts gratitude and payment for the favor of wearing them again in the form of snuggling with him on the couch, his arms wrapped up around you as he nuzzles into your neck.

He needs your "help" for a little bit.

It's the least you can do.

[4ln-stay8]

Saving the day

> summary: Lando gets fussy when his hair doesn’t look the way he wants to

> author note: apparently my last fanfic wasn’t as bad as I thought so I tried to make another one

> warnings: fluff, Lando being a sassy diva

Everyone knows that Lando Norris is very serious about his style. He likes to always be on point and honestly he never disappoints. You out of all the people who love and support him know better.

It was Friday morning, usually Lando would be getting ready to go to the track and get ready for practice, but today was different. Today was one of Lando’s days off that weren’t really off. It was a race free weekend, but being the only time he was available he scheduled a photo shoot for his company’s new merch collection.

The morning sun bathed the studio in a soft, golden light as you sat on a fold-out chair, observing the hustle and bustle of the photo shoot for the new Quadrant merchandise. Lando, your boyfriend, alongside Max Fewtrell, his very best friend, were getting ready for the shoot, but something seemed to be bothering Lando.

Lando squirmed in his chair, a look of frustration on his face as a hairstylist carefully styled his hair. "This just doesn't feel right," he muttered to Max, who was sitting nearby.

Max chuckled. "You're a bit picky today, mate. It looks fine to me."

The hairstylist tried again and again to please her employer but Lando just wasn't convinced. He caught your eyes staring at him in the mirror and motioned for you to come over. "Y/N, can you come here for a second?"

You walked over to him, a curious expression on your face. You weren’t very sure of the reason why he called you. Did he wanted your opinion? Did he just wanted a kiss? You had no clue.

Lando was a pretty clingy boyfriend but was he to blame? He was mostly away from you, even when you accompanied him to the track. He didn’t always had the time or he just couldn’t afford to kiss you or cuddle you the way he wanted to. That’s why whenever he got the chance, mostly behind the closed doors of your apartment or in the few private moments he actually had, he swore to show you how much he actually loved you.

When you got next to his chair, you put your hand on his shoulder and said softly “What's up, Lando?"

Lando ran a hand through his hair and frowned. "Something's off with this hairstyle, and it's driving me crazy. You're the only one who gets it right. Can you fix it for me?"

You laughed softly. "Of course, I can. You're lucky I'm here." You took the hairstylist's place and started working on Lando's hair.

It was very safe to say that Lando loved the way you styled his hair. You weren’t a professional or anything but he just liked the way you did it. Was it the feeling of your fingers brushing through his hair? Was it the way you actually did his hair? You didn’t really know but neither did he. You always did his hair the way you liked how it looked and he just loved it.

Max raised an eyebrow. "You know how to do hair, Y/N?"

You shrugged. "Not really but I've had plenty of practice with Lando. He's quite particular."

And it was true. Lando was quite particular. From the clothes he was wearing, to the shoes he wore, to the way his hair looked all the way to the accessories he picked. Everything was calculated. He didn’t stressed that much about it, it just came naturally. His brain did all the work before he could even think about it.

As you worked your magic on Lando's hair, he sighed in relief. "Ah, that's so much better. Thanks, babe."

You really didn’t changed much from the way the hairstylist did it. You just moved some strands of hair into their place and fluffed the curls up a little.

You smiled, brushing a strand of hair into place. "You're welcome my love. Now, go out there and rock that photo shoot." you said giving him a small kiss for good luck

Lando grinned and stood up, striking a pose. "I always look my best when you're in charge of my hair."

You giggled blushing of his smooth flirty comments. He always did this. He always made sure to make you feel like he just couldn’t live without you, like he was hopeless without you, like you were the most important thing in his life. Because at this point all of them were true.

It might be a little over the top but he just couldn’t get his brain to imagine a future that doesn’t have you in it. He was so madly in love with you, he just adored you. And you adored him just as much.

Max chuckled. "It's true. Y/N's got the magic touch."

Max always tried to get along with you. It wasn’t really hard as your vibes were matching. He always tried to make you feel welcomed and like you belong there, because in his opinion you were. Lando had many girlfriends over the years they knew each other. He loved many of them and many loved him back, but he never seen his best friend like this. He never saw Lando love this hard, you had him wrapped around your finger. He would do anything you asked him to do in a heartbeat. He also never saw someone to love his best friend as hard as you do either. You and Lando were just made for each other and everyone could see that.

As Lando and Max headed to the set, you watched with pride. You knew how important this photoshoot was for them and were happy to help in any way you could.

Throughout the day, you continued to work your hairstyling magic on Lando adjusting his hair often, earning praise from the rest of the crew for your skills. You couldn't help but enjoy the banter and camaraderie between Lando, Max, and the Quadrant team. It was clear that they were not only teammates but also close friends. And now you were a part of that too.

During a break, Lando leaned in to kiss you. "Thanks for saving the day, love." said Lando looking at you with heart eyes.

You grinned. "Anytime, baby. I'm your personal hairstylist, after all." you said giggling and kissed his lips one more time.

Max chimed in, "And the best one at that!" he said laughing. “You know how hard it is to work with him when things don’t go his way” said Max again, teasing his best friend

“Its not my fault that other people just don’t see my vision” said Lando dramatically making everyone laugh.

With your help, the photo shoot went off without a hitch, and the Quadrant merch looked fantastic. As the day came to an end, Lando and Max couldn't have been happier with the results, and you were incredibly proud to have been a part of their successful day.

[midnight1nk]

So, this week's episode...

[spoilers below cut]

A KAREN EPISODE?! LET'S GOOOOOOOOO

(the following is my live reaction:)

oh, hey Luke, promoting the merch I see. [*gives thumbs-up to the SMG4/Glitch Team*] Good for you :)

Karen, hi! Hmm, not much going on, huh?

Dude, I feel bad for her. Like, can we get her an actual job and more than just minimum wage?

I'm gonna guess and say she took it only because she'll be in low profile from being a former assassin.

can she work in Three's Coffee & Bombs? please please please please please please

It makes total sense for her to take the night shift, her kids would be sleeping

Augh, and it's 6 am when she gets home. Girl, please get some rest! I know it's not gonna be a lot but it's something

also nice nod to the Alarmo clock, gotta be consistent

and i oop

damn, even Shroomy quit

... [*slow tap on the head*]

oh god, I legit thought Karen was gonna give an iPad to Katie, glad I was wrong (NOT THE IPAD KIDS)

[*wheeze*] sorry but I was rewatching the Sonic 3 trailers (bc they're fire) and just seeing Cory speed-dancing on the wall changed everything for me, I can't unsee it now

...FNAF?

Oh I wasn't the only one, ok

As a sibling, I can confirm that siblings share the same braincell

back by unpopular demand [*opens the door*] Me! /ref

never expected the SMG4 Theory episode to come back but here we are :)

[*breakdances epicly*] Mario's brain never stopped dancing since the Mario React episode from last week

"If you joiiiiin, you'll be able to behave your kids. You just gotta vow your life to our religion." Mario, that's a cult

YEAH KAREN, EXACTLY

wait... NONONO GO BACK!!! Do you guys remember the "We Must Kill Mario" episode?

a spaghetti cult...

is Marty still running it or Mario just missed it so much and thought it was a good idea to copy what they did? hmmmm

[*points at the screen*] there it is, I was waiting for it haha

Love that Mario is scared of reading but has no problem reciting anything related to spaghetti (honestly mood) but also it's way funnier if he was like "oh, I just made that shit up on the spot, I can't actually read"

...there isn't any poison, is there?

awwww, you're willing to do anything for your kids

loving family, my one weakness [*dies*]

NOOOOO NOT THE PHOTO

man, Karen, I know you have to discipline your kids and you're frustrated but that wasn't the right thing to say

AND YOU HAD TO SHOW ME THAT, STOP I'M FRAGILE

that's good, she's calmed down and willing to apologize

have you seen the spaghetti? well, now you have :D

HOLY SHIT did they make Minecraft models just for this? Hell yeah!!

A brawl is surely brewing, you're up!

oooh hold up, this animation though, that's fire

you activated a trap card!

ofc Karen's skills come in handy here, it all pays off boys

it's good that Karen acknowledges all of this and sees how awesome her kids are (no, I'm not crying, what are you talking about?)

i'm so normal ← SOBBING

how dare they show me sweet loving family moments? THEY CAN'T KEEP GETTING AWAY WITH THIS

just Karen spending time with her kids at the end is so sweet

... and Mario's still here too, ofc

THE SPAGHETTI GODS HAVE RISEN

everyone has to bow before the all-mighty (yes, even you c'mon)

Congrats to rPrP_99 for your art being featured at the end credits 🎉

.・-: ✧ :--: ✧ :-・.

This was a fantastic episode, bravo! I absolutely loved how in-depth Karen's character was. Being a parent is hard with the ever-lasting question of "how do you give them happiness but also be their guide?"

In a way, Mario did teach her how to parent in his own way, which is very on-brand for him let's be honest here. I find this episode curious because of how different Karen was, compared to Mr Puzzles' dad. (That's right, I'm bringing him into this.)

Mr Puzzles' dad is a complete hypocrite, telling his son not to follow his dream and yet critiquing him for not having creative vision. He neglected his son who ended up watching TV all day and eventually cutting off his own head. (No, we're not going to pass by that.) And this was merely the tip of the iceberg, who knows what else his dad did to his son. Now, I'm not excusing what Mr Puzzles did because (1) we don't have the whole story, and (2) how much accountability Mr Puzzles truly had. Don't get me wrong, I love Mr Puzzles because of his character but I am neutral about him potentially having a redemption arc.

Change is a big step and it takes a lot of bravery to take it. It's one thing for someone to offer help, but it's another to seek it yourself. If Mr Puzzles wants to change, then sure, let him redeem himself. If he doesn't, well then it's the choice he made. That's the reality of it all that some people don't want to change and we have to accept the fact that we can't do anything to change their minds. I truly believe his dad was one of them, he would be a narcissist.

In comparison, Karen is very complex, having to take multiple jobs to support her family. But no matter what, she loves her kids and tries every way to bond with them. Support them. Even if she doesn't fully understand it, she tries and that means a lot more than one could think. Of course, when it comes to kids, you have to earn their trust, and sharing interests is one of the ways to do it. Bonding is meant to be natural and it's what Karen learned. To observe. She admits that she was in the wrong and apologized to them. She said it herself, she was proud of her kids, how they could be so creative and resourceful. And that should be no surprise, they're her kids after all.

So yeah, all of this to say, "and the best mom of the year award goes to..."

ANYWAY, I loved this episode overall and so glad that Karen got to be in the spotlight again. We even got to see some of her assassin skills come into play! Also, that animation in the Minecraft world, that was awesome. Whoever animated it, props to you 👏👏👏 The only critique I have was that the kids in the chaotic parts were a little too much for me, but maybe that's just me idk.

That's all from me! Now, if you excuse me, I'm gonna go back to writing angst :)

[sunniedesi]

Future Diary Radio

One piece of Future Diary merch that's always kinda frustrated me are the "Future Diary Radio" CDs. Each of the three CDs came as a gift for pre-ordering the Blu-Ray limited editions of volumes 7, 8 and 9, respectively. The CDs are said to contain a radio segment of the characters featured on the covers talking about the state of the series (as of the respective volume each CD came in) their thoughts, feelings and futures, from their own POV. And that's about as much as we know from the Future Diary Radio...

Unlike the other CDs related to Future Diary, such as the Oyasumi and PSP wallpaper CDs, we don't have access to the contents of the Future Diary Radio online. No matter how much I look for it, nothing really comes up, just the images of the cover art for each CD, which honestly aren't very high quality either (not to mention they somehow managed to mess up the spelling of "diary" on the first cover lmao).

The part that truly frustrates me the most is that I'm unable to buy the CDs at the time, and the thought of them becoming lost media isn't that far-fetched given how long they've been out. I've been meaning to translate them for a while if I ever came across the audio (kinda like I did with the Oyasumi CDs), so if anyone reading this owns a copy of the CDs and is willing to share it online, I would really appreaciate it!

I know that the radio segments may not add much to the story, but my curiosity is winning me over. After all, I'd love to see what sort of conversations Yuno and Yukki have together about the show, and heck, Minene and Yomotsu? Don't even get me started on MurMur and Kousaka fighting. So yeah, I hope that one day we can see the contents of the radio come out. I would hate it if we're left with nothing but the bad quality pictures, like other merch from the past... not to mention the other random merch that we only know of because of promotional booklets, but I better end my rant here before I lose my mind over an MN mp3 player ;-;

[duckprintspress]

A Big Gay Market Event Report!

Yesterday, Duck Prints Press owner Claire, author Catherine, and Claire’s mom attended A Big Gay Market in Washington Park in Albany! The weather was honestly dismal, and the event organizers ultimately ended the market after only one of the scheduled 4 hours. We stuck it out as long as we could and stayed for about half the planned time, and I’m glad we did! The few shoppers who came by were lovely, and we had a really good day. Honestly, despite the cold and wet, we have no complaints, and we’re already looking forward to the next time A Big Gay Market will be held, in April of 2024. (Though hopefully they’ll find an indoor venue next time!)

A few shout-outs to people we met!

Fashion A-Fare Boutique: they had some awesome, fun merch – I especially loved the Barbie movie inspired earrings and the d6 earrings (I want to get a pair for my wife!).

Art.with.a.Waddle: super cute art and penguins. How can one possibly go wrong??? Bonus, the owner Zoë was dressed up as Tony Tony Chopper (vendors were encouraged to wear Halloween costumes).

Adirondack Crystalry and The Artful Woods: these two cool folks were sharing a cozy-looking booth! I especially noticed the Crystalry’s cool wands and the wood-cut earring rainbows with dangling crystals at The Artful Woods.

Fawnduu: she had me at “lesbian cowboys.”

Bonus, I ran into Calivarn from Eclectic Arts again! At Fandom Fest, they were across the path and just to the right of my booth…and yesterday…they were across the path and just to the right of my booth! It’s nice to go to local events and start meeting the same people multiple times. <3 I’d hoped to run into the lovely folks from Pastel Prince, too, but the weather was so bad that I didn’t get to explore the whole market before it closed, so I only got to pass by maybe a quarter of the vendors.

My only purchase for the day was these two cuties:

I picked out the bee for my son, and the trans-flag caterpillar for my daughter. Unfortunately, I foolishly didn’t catch the name of the creators! I’m so frustrated with myself, it means I can’t shout about how lovely they were (and one of them was dressed as a mushroom and it was a.dor.a.ble). So, if you are or know the creators of these precious stuffies that my kids love, please tell me so I can sing their praises by name!!! (They might have been Honey Strands Crochet? I’m looking through the vendor list and trying to figure it out.)

A huge THANK YOU to everyone who came out, and whether you came or not, we hope to see you at A Big Gay Market next time!

[beautifulpersonpeach]

BPP, I'm not one to cry over the hate the boys get because I truly believe they are resilient as hell and I try to curate my space as much as possible so that I'm not subjected to it. Im so bummed though about Hobi's JITB hope edition dedication and how he was concerned that his and armys relationship wouldn't be able to get past him not releasing a physical. Im disappointed that solo narratives were able to infiltrate army spaces and convince the boys to change their mind about something. Im really sending all the love and good energy to Hobi and all the members today and I sincerely hope this wont occur again in the future. Thanks for letting me use this space to vent a little

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Ask 2:

i'm honestly a bit confused about this hobi thanks to letter bpp. i went back to your post where you talked about jitb and you were right that this was his decision, but were people wrong to ask for a physical album?

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Ask 3:

People on Twitter keep whining about how ppl complaining about jitb album format made Hobi feel bad and I of course feel bad he was disappointed with the feedback but it's such a mind numbingly stupid thing to be mad about he's a professional musician. It's part of his job fans dont have to like everything all the time sometimes people aren't gonna like a song or even an album or the photoshoots or artist merch or styling or if you choose to release your album as a piece of colorful cardboard with no cd and everyone just has to cope with it. Hobi is a first day million seller and we got live versions of some songs now people need to take the w and be happy and everyone who wanted a physical physical better be over the fucking moon

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Hi Anon(s),

Anon in ask 2, since you're the only person actually asking me a question (lol), I'll work with your ask.

"were people wrong to ask for a physical album?"

Let's look at it this way. If Hobi released a song you didn't like, would it be wrong for you to say you didn't like the song, and mention instead the genre of music you'd like him to do instead?

The answer to that, is no. Obviously. As I've been saying, I think it's perfectly fine for you to not like something BTS /Hobi does, the music they make, choices you disagree with, etc, and it's not like there's a gag order in the fandom so of course you can say so and leave that feedback for the artist because they monitor fan chatter. You'd be right to do this, and it works both ways for positive and negative feedback.

Now, would you still be right if you:

Defaulted to asserting that Hoseok had no agency and that the choice of the song (or no physical albums) was forced on him by the company

Trended hashtags with your demands on him, asserting that he was a pawn the company was using and sabotaging to prop up maknae-line members

Threatened to boycott and actually boycotted his album

Review-bombed Weverse album app, Weverse shop app, and Weverse app

Reported and took down ARMY playlists for JITB that included other members' songs

Threatened to send trucks stating your demands for a physical album (or to continue the example from above, a song genre you prefer)

Became abusive to other members in the group, asserting that they are complicit in Hobi's 'mistreatment'

Took your frustration out on other members, disparaging them and their solo debuts

Threatened the other members, Bang PD, and PDogg with physical harm

Continued this barrage for months on end

Etc...

Would you be right to do this?

The answer to this, too, is no. Obviously.

Hobi akgaes who didn't get a physical album did all of the above for their 'feedback' because of what fundamentally motivates them.

The thing about akgaes is that at the crux of it, they don't actually think highly of the person they stan. Especially in the case of BTS solo stans. If you listen to akgaes talk about their 'fave' members... pick any member: Hobi, Jimin, Taehyung, etc, they all think said member is "too kind", "too humble", "too helpless" etc, to assert themselves to receive things they actually want for their careers within reason. Akgaes in general don't actually think the artists have any real say over their career direction.

They ultimately consider that artist a puppet who is supposed to bend or acquiesce to meet any demand made of them, and so when they see outcomes they don't like, the thought that it could be a choice the artist agreed to (talk less of it possibly being the artist's idea) is completely foreign to them. The only thought in an akgae's mind when they see outcomes they don't like is how to switch out who is controlling the puppet, how to force an outcome on and for the artist, an outcome that the akgae thinks is best for the artist's career in their own imagination.

They're delusional enough to believe that with their limited information of the artist's plans, resources, and limitations, that whatever they envision as goals for that artist aligns precisely with what that artist desires. They never really frame these demands as things they'd personally like or want, but as something that the artist secretly wants or outrightly deserves which the company maliciously withholds for *insert your favourite conspiracy theory here* reasons, that necessitates the akgae intervening.

So, where (some) ARMYs could look at the JITB rollout situation and think Hobi was likely involved in that outcome, even if we didn't like the outcome; where (some) ARMYs could see how even if Jimin didn't get all the MVs due to limitations unknown to us, that Jimin still has agency to effect any changes he wants in his career; where ARMYs could see how all these imperfect outcomes are still possible even while the members retain their agency.... akgaes instead default to catastrophizing any outcome they disagree with, and actively work to remove/change who controls manages the puppet artist to give them the outcomes they think is best for the artist.

As with everything else in fandom, the devil is in the details and it's unhelpful to talk in very general terms about fandom dynamics sometimes because we all know different factions could say similar things but have very different motivations. And that a lot of 'fans' are actually a bit insane. I mean, I know many of my followers are newer fans but you all should have seen by now that something like 90% of what happens in fandom is fans of various kinds criticizing things of all sorts, and that what counts as 'criticism' here covers a very wide spectrum, from abuse and slander to frankly insane irl/physical attempts and threats to change/control the artist.

Of course, ARMYs in true fandom fashion try to correct for this impulse by overcompensating, either due to

Their own guilt in joining in with mantis and akgaes at the time, or

Performative bullshit to make up for being hypocritical or to virtue signal over other ARMYs, or

As a natural consequence of how information is communicated in social systems, or

Some other reasons I can't think of at the moment.

Now the refrain from some ARMYs is that voicing any dissatisfaction with anything whatsoever is wrong. But at this point, after everything I've written above, I hope it's clear that I think fans can, should, and do express when they like and dislike certain choices, if they like. The difference between a fan and any other faction though, is that fans actually respect the artist, and recognize that even with the music industry as shady as it is, even if outcomes aren't always perfect or there are outcomes fans disagree with for the artist, that the artist is the person who ultimately knows what's best for them and has the tools to effect any needed changes. Especially in the case of BTS. BTS knows what's best for BTS and they have the ability to choose and work within their teams and the industry to effect any real changes or outcomes they want for the management of their careers. BTS does. Not Sally from Ohio, nor Jiwon from Jeonju.

In my opinion, at least.

[justamessedupdisneyprincess]

Bad memories part 1

This is a self indulgent short fanfic about my si x canon. WARNING! This will be dealing with trauma, bits of bullying (with d*ath threats), toxic fandoms and emotionally abusive friendships will be mentioned here and there. Truth is…well you probably already know but I have had it real rough. 2019 was like the worst year of my life honestly and to this day I still do have a lot of trauma behind it. I know in my heart that Barley would definitely be the kind of BF who would be kind and understanding about this sort of stuff. He would be there to support his lover if they went through any hardships. I was feeling it again so I wrote this to help make me feel better. It actually works pretty well for me personally I find. Again, TW about trauma, bullying, d*ath threats, manipulation and emotional abuse will be mentioned briefly.

Just ignore it. Just ignore it.

That is what Izzy kept telling herself over and over again as she tried to push herself to keep drawing. Just ignore it. Just ignore it. It echoed through her brain and then all of a sudden she felt a tear run down her cheek. ��Damn it. Why am I like this?!’ She thought to herself. She closed clip studio down in frustration.

It had been almost a year now since she finally deactivated her old social media accounts. She couldn’t handle the crap she kept getting from haters and false friends online. One of her main reasons of deactivation was because she wanted to run away from a certain fandom that caused her nothing but horrible pain. There may be a few good memories sure but many of them have turned bitter after some falling outs with so called friends. Izzy is easy to manipulate and it seems like no matter how many times it happens she falls victim to it every time. Even if those memories did not turn bitter though she definitely had more bad memories by far, so much so it was not even a competition in the slightest. Ironically though if it wasn’t for the fandom she probably never would have met Barley for she wouldn’t be there that night. That painful and terrifying night.

She was still interested in one of her old interests and still drew for it from time to time, she had never been bullied once within that other fandom, perhaps she did encounter a troll or two but blocking them and moving on was simple, aside from that there was literally no drama. But her main old fandom was literally like hell. Death threats daily, manipulation, rumour spreading, name calling, black mail. It was all an endless madness and it was there where Izzy met some of her abusers as well. She used to love that show dearly and even made a self insert that was hated on constantly. She had a self ship that got constant hate before she met Barley. She now hates that show and the mere mention of it makes her sick. She had tried to rewatch it but it simply hurts too much. The fandom ruined it all for her. The fact that her friends who had the same interests turned out to be fake was her breaking point. She knew she did not matter and was only their friend for their own benefits. An object. A tool. Nothing more, nothing less.

She didn’t even care that she had over one thousand followers. She wanted to run as far away from that fandom as possible. She wasted her money on so much merch and it is now all packed away in boxes as she tries to forget.

Although she did miss sharing her ideas, even if she got endless harassment in her main fandom her ideas got much more praise and support regarding her other interests. She wanted to share that at least. Even if she barely interacts with social media she wanted to at least post every now and then. So she tried to slowly get back into life online. She started a new deviantart account and she had been slightly discouraged to not get much attention there at all, maybe people had trouble finding her? Who knows. Tumblr was a different story though but she did fear that website for it is where most of the torture took place. She was on high alert, waiting for things to go wrong. Yet oddly enough nothing happened. Not yet at least.

However there was something that did upset her. A trigger. Nothing happened, no hate or harassment at all. It just appeared on her dash without warning…content from her old abusive fandom. The mere mention of it was a trigger and the type of content she saw was extra triggering for it was something she had been bullied over horribly. There have been major shipping wars and people used to bash her for self shipping with a character they wanted to ship with some other canon character. As a result she has grown to hate that ship and even the mention of it makes her sick since its fanbase harassed her. She did not want to see anything to do with that show ever again! So she looked up the tag and proceeded to block every single blog that had to do with that fandom. She had to do it or else she won’t feel safe. Even if they do not seek her out and target her the sight of it still hurts her at this point. Her love for that show became something beyond hatred. A fear, a type of painful sensation. It was like a stab to the heart as god awful memories came flooding back to her.

Just ignore it. Just ignore it. She kept thinking. She tried so hard to get herself back into drawing but she couldn’t. She needed to cry or else her eyeballs will explode. She shut down her laptop and turned off her bedroom lights so it was dim. She usually takes plenty of depression naps, it helps at least a little bit. But right now she felt like she needed more than that. She needed help and desperately. Her boyfriend practically forced her into making an oath where she comes to him when upset like this. So she rang Barley up and he answered instantly. “Hey babe! What’s up?” He says cheerfully through the phone. “Did you feel like going on another adventure? It’s a bit late now but I’d be down for it.”

“B-Barley.” Izzy managed to choke out. He instantly knew something was wrong.

“Iz? What’s wrong? You don’t sound too good.” Barley says worriedly.

Izzy sniffles as she took in some deep breaths. This isn’t the first time she cried to him about things related to her trauma and it probably won’t be the last either. “I-it’s just- my trauma is acting up…”

“N-n-no! No one hurt me!” She blurted out forcefully. “I just- I just really do need you right now…I-I feel so thankful-“

Barley smiled weakly as he started up the van. “Of course, little imp. Y’know I will always be there to rescue you no matter what.”

Izzy sniffles a bit more, it was hard to talk given how much she was crying. “D-drive safely though. Don’t speed. I-I want you to be safe.”

“Oh babe, you know safety isn’t my thing.” Barley joked. “But if that is what my lady wishes then so be it. I’ll stay on the phone with you until I get there, ok? You’re on speaker now.”

“O-ok.” Izzy croaked out as she clenched her phone. She suddenly felt a bit stupid now for bugging him like this. Then again she did know that Barley would argue against her for belittling her own feelings like that.

“Alright, we are on our way, milady. Now did you wanna talk about it? Like did something prompt this or did it just suddenly hit you like a surprise sneak attack from a masterful rouge?” Barley says.

Izzy struggled to wipe the tears from her eyes, it felt like more and more kept coming. “I…I was browsing the internet and I saw…I didn’t even look it up! I-it just came to me.” She sniffled for a moment and took in a deep breath, her nose was completely blocked up now due to all the crying. It made it much more challenging to breathe and talk at the same time. “It was…stuff to do with that old fandom…t-the one where all those people d-did all those god awful things to me.” Another violent wave of sobbing occurred as her brain forcefully replayed the memories once more.

Barley was saddened to hear her cry like this but he had a great skill when it came to these things. He had some experience with emotions when taking care of Ian as his older brother and fatherly figure. He has learned to be patient and open minded with things regarding anxiety and mental health. He remained calm as he spoke, his voice gentle and caring. “I see. So it was a trigger.”

Izzy sniffled and nodded her head but was quick to realise how he wouldn’t be able to see her nodding. “Y-yes!”

“Oh sweetheart.” He says sadly. “Worry not though, I am almost there and I will do everything in my power to make you feel better. I will keep you safe always.”

A few more tears leaked out but this time they were tears of gratitude. “T-T-Thank you…a-are you sure you d-don’t mind?”

“I don’t mind at all! You’re my princess and I’m your knight who is there to recuse you. It’s my duty, y’know?” Barley says with another gentle smile to try and reassure her, even if she couldn’t see it now she could definitely hear it. That gentle expression that tells her everything is going to be alright.

Izzy was struggling to stop herself from crying so much. “Y-you’re literally the kindest person I’ve ever met.”

Barley frowned a little as he heard her cries but he was touched by her words. “Oh I’m the kind one? I dunno about that because you are definitely the kindest person I’ve ever known or met.”

Izzy was a bit surprised to hear him say that, even though he does mention her kindness often in his poems for her she is still shocked each time. “Are you really sure about that? Because sometimes I feel like I must be a monster and don’t realise it. Why else would so many people want me dead then?” She thought back to the way many people had treated her.

Barley was hurt when he heard of the way she doubted herself. “Don’t say that! Don’t ever say that…please.” He then took in a deep breath, but it didn’t seem to help much. Instead he could feel some anger rising up inside him. “The only monsters here are the ones who had hurt you like that. What kind of heartless witch would go out of their way to torment others online?!” He gripped his steering wheel angrily.

Izzy was taken aback to hear the rage in his voice at first. “A lot of people actually.” She said sadly after a pause.

Barley clenched his steering wheel some more. He knew there were horrible people out there but he never imagined any being as toxic and controlling as the people Izzy had to deal with. With the stories she shares it is no wonder why she is so traumatised. Abusive friends, hundreds of bullies, internet wars. He heard of some toxicity online before but nothing on that level. “Oh those aren’t people. Those are in fact, the monsters. I won’t ever let a single one of them touch you ever again, you have my word.” He sounded so serious as he said that.

Izzy sniffles, she was touched to hear how he was willing to protect her but deep down she knew no one can truely save her from the world online. “I…I don’t know, Barley. I mean that is very sweet! But it’s just…there’s so many of them out there. Even if I have nothing to do with that evil fandom…I still know they are out there laughing at the memory of me, looking back at me and feeling disgusted…I feel so scared…what if they find me and recognise me? What will they do to me then?!” Her fears grew stronger and stronger as she continued to dwell on it all.

Through the crying and rapid breathing though, Barley’s strong voice was able to cut through it all. “I don’t care how many of them there are.” Izzy went silent for a moment, confused as she continued to listen. “I will fight for you always and forever! I don’t care how many foes I will have to face or what dangers I may get into if it means you are safe! You could be the most wanted criminal in the entire universe and I wouldn’t give a damn. I love you, my princess and I always will.”

A few more soft sobs could be heard from Izzy’s end of the line. The mixture of pain from her past and gratitude to the present was an odd combination to feel. “God I love you…I love you so much….” She says suddenly.

Barley smiles sweetly. “I love you too, Isabel. I love you so so so much. I don’t want you to ever forget that.”

Izzy finally began to smile a little, there was no word that could possibly describe how blessed she had felt to have met Barley. To her he was like a light in the darkness, he came into her life after so much pain and despair. He saved her. “T-thank you…” she says softly.

The tender scene was cut short though as loud jostling could be heard. “W-what was that?!” Izzy cried out in a panic.

“Don’t worry, my love. Gweni and I are just traveling through the forest that shrouds your haven…I gotta admit though. I dunno how far this poor old girl can go through here. These roots aren’t too good for her tires.” Barley stated casually.

Izzy chuckled a little bit, this was music to Barley’s ears and an eager grin appeared on his face for a moment. “Yeeeeah, I don’t think it’s a good idea. You might have to walk the rest of the way like you usually do, sorry. Ummm…if it’s easier for you…did you want me to come to you?” Izzy asked politely, she was always so worried if she was a handful for anyone.

“Don’t be ridiculous. After crying like that I think you deserve plenty of rest. Besides I’m not that far now.” Barley says as he hoped out of Guinevere. “Thanks for the ride my mighty steed. Just rest here till I get back.”

Izzy couldn’t deny that she did already feel exhausted from all the crying. She sat in silence as she continued to listen to Barley.“Luckily I know this secret path like the back of my hand!” Barley said next, his voice broke the lonely silence instantly. Izzy lightly nodded, still very quiet. The silence made the elf worry. “You there?” He asked sweetly.

“Y-yeah! Yeah…I’m right here. Sorry I-I just…I am feeling pretty tired I will be honest.” She says.

Barley caressed his phone, he wanted to hold onto his girlfriend right now. “Then get plenty of rest my princess. Don’t worry, I’m almost there. And once I have arrived to rescue you from your despair we are free to do whatever you please.” He says heroically.

Izzy giggles a bit, she felt safer already when listening to his voice. “Just some cuddles while we watch some videos would be nice.”

[logically-asexual]

I personally just think it's so odd how he refuses to make a proper sanders sides episodea (and i understand to a certain extent that organization issues and time and personal life can cause delay but unless he's had neverending avalanche of personal tragedies and mishaps for 3 whole years straight there's nothing really that can justify THIS much of a wait) yet keeps riding off the sanders sides wave and has for years like every other video is related to the sides. like if he just wanted to pursue other projects for a while that would literally be fine he could curate an entirely new audience for something completely different if that's what he wanted. but he seems intent on keeping his sanders sides audience hostage with promises of episodes that never come and with crumbs of content in the form of sponsored tie ins and him messing around with the characters in entirely different contexts. and if he just wanted to mess around with his ocs thatd be fine i guess but people are giving him money and it just doesn't feel like its enough for him to make something that is of the same quality as the fan content his average fan makes every day for free.

i feel like if he genuinely wanted to make proper sanders sides episodes he wouldve done so by now. he clearly has the writers and time and crew and resources for the sponsored tie in videos and all the other videos he's making. but to me i get the impression that he just wants to mess around in character from time to time but do completely different projects in actuality, yet he doesn't want his primarily sanders sides audience to leave although thats obviously just an assumption. but if that's the case it's shitty to not be upfront about that and leading his fans on without giving them what they're paying for just because he doesn't want them to leave. you can't have it both ways either commit and make proper sanders sides episodes or be upfront and say you want to do something else and don't waste anyones time. I've already left the fandom some year ago and i only check in from time to time and i keep being baffled by the state of sanders sides.

i am honestly very confused and i so wish i could just know what thomas is thinking

like many fans are sure that he’s working super hard and being super productive and has a perfect plan but in the meantime he’s giving himself health problems because of how hard and continuously he’s working on the show and we should not complain about anything and wait for him to finish his perfect plan.

many other fans think he just doesn’t like doing main sanders sides episodes anymore and he’s stalling because he doesn’t want to end the show because there are still things he wants to do.

other people also think he doesn’t care about the show anymore but he has actively selfish intentions by not ending it because he wants to have the most time possible to sell merch between videos.

i personally get the impression that he does still love making the show and is working hard on it but his plan is bad and his ideas are way too ambitious to complete in a reasonable amount of time by people who aren’t a big team of professionals without proper management.

but the problem is that we have all these different views because thomas just won’t speak to us. like how can you explain such wildly different conclusions being all commonly found within the fans other than bc we’re getting terribly mixed signals from him?

(of course thomas could say things and if a bunch of people interprets it with the worst faith possible that’s not his fault. (and i’ve seen it happen and it’s very frustrating). but like. i think in this case these trends have to say something about the way he’s communicating.)

[vanriblogs]

Feelin bad about being burnt out on Baldur's Gate.

A friend got it and was enjoying it. Later they bought it as a gift for my boyfriend, Skirmish. I'd heard enough to be intrigued because I do love Lore and Smoochin NPCs. I asked Skirmish if he'd be willing to stream some of the game for me, and rather than just continuing his own save, he started a new file to let me make my own character.

I regretted this a LOT because I wanted to continue the story, but it was unreasonable to expect my boyfriend to play as much as I wanted to.

But then that same friend gifted ME a copy with their next paycheck.

It took 2 days to download and I had made the unfortunate mistake of having Discord open when I could finally start the game because it snitched on me and Skirmish called while I was starting character creation.

We started a multiplayer game and I was quickly learning that I don't really like the multiplayer aspect.

So when I finally got to make my own character on my own save file that I could play whenever I wanted, I had gone through the opening 3-5 hours twice within a single week, making this instance number 3.

And at some point I felt really stuck and didn't feel I could continue any of my active quests, so I restarted. That new game was TOO efficient and I restarted again because I felt I had missed out on a lot of character interactions and that's what I thrive on.

All the while I was getting increasingly frustrated because my friends wanted to know how my progress was coming along and kept eluding to things in the game and it felt like the only way to get them to stop talking about it was to beat it, but every restart pushed that further away. (I prefer playing games blind and didn't expect to ever own Baldur's Gate, so I didn't mind discussions beforehand)

But I finally had a save where it felt I could progress and was finally getting to stuff I Hadn't Seen Yet after like... 3 weeks of owning it myself.

So visiting Skirmish and having brought my laptop, I realized I didn't actually wanna do the multiplayer because it was still the beginning of the game that I had gone through SO MANY TIMES in such a short timeframe.

And the character he used in our game, he had two copies of...

And deleted the one where he had been playing with me on accident...

Meaning that we had to start ALL OVER again with different characters...

And the character I chose to play just didn't feel fun to be in the Baldur's Gate setting.

He did let me play on my own for a little bit. And I felt bad cuz I know he wants to play a game with me. He and I just have different priorities and play styles, so finding one we can do together has been a challenge. Honestly, Minecraft has been the most successful

(He and I have talked it out since then, we're chill)

So yeah... I haven't even gotten through Act 1 and have burnt myself out within a month trying to complete it in a way that I'm happy with while also trying to progress quickly enough to satisfy other people.

And I'm just feeling oddly guilty about it all while I'm trying to design some merch.

[mybrainlol]

I just did a shortish workout, listening to Pantera. Lifted the kettle bell, did some leg stretches. Decided to exercise and let out my anger frustration, rather than let it get to me and brood. It's absurd that Johnny would just block me, and make a post about how he thought I was calling out Sam on social media. Does the fool not realize that he was doing the same thing? Obviously not. That's how oblivious he is. I cried some tears earlier, because I was worried that Johnny would essentially slander my name, and maybe prevent the rest of the guys from ever wanting to talk to me. Then I realized, any actual adult would not give a fuck. Like Phil Anselmo said, "A punk like that is just piss in the wind". Nothing. Fucking nothing.

Honestly, thinking about it all now, it's pretty cringe for Johnny to come to the defense of Sam, when he doesn't even know the whole story. To even imply that I am ungrateful, and demanding is stupid. What's wrong with telling my side of the story? What's wrong with voicing how I feel? The moment that I point out someone is fallible, that makes me the bad guy? No. He's wrong. And stupid. So fucking stupid. How much of a fan boy can you be? I guess his wife really was right in that the guys are only nice to him because he tags them all the time online, and buys all their stuff. What a moron. There's people online that are so quick to call anything parasocial. Everything is a parasocial relationship now-a-days since people on reddit learned what that term was. But what John has in his mind, really is a parasocial relationship with the band. It's absurd! They're regular people, like you and me!

It's so stupid to me. Like, do I have to point out every single thing I do, to prove that I give a fuck about them? Do I have to make a social media post every damn day licking their ass and making sure their gooch is clean? mmm, salty. lol

How many people meet a band once and then claim that they're friends? How many times does a person like John or Gen have to go to one of these shows, buy all these peoples' stuff, in order to gain their "friendship"? Shit, that's parasocial in itself, despite being real life! You don't have to be on the internet to have a parasocial thing, it can be physical too. Face to face in real life. I remember at the last show, seeing Gen ask all the members for their autograph on the poster she bought. I thought to myself, "If these people are your friends, why would you have them sign your stuff?" That was one of the reasons I didn't buy anything, lol. Granted, at the end of the first show, I didn't bring my purse with me in time to the merch table before it was all packed up lol. Still, why would I ask my friend for their autograph, if I wasn't going to sell it on ebay or something like that? It's stupid to me.

I'm over it now. I'm glad that I blogged and exercised. I took a couple anxiety meds to calm down too. I had this anxiousness that could have escalated into a panic attack. I don't want something as lame as this to get to me mentally, you know? John is old, fat, and stupid. I'll outlive him, naturally. So there's nothing to even care about. I'm going to keep doing my own thing, and he can shit and fart about all the dumb shit that he can. It makes no difference to me.

I just hope, my only serious thing, that it doesn't prevent any possibility of giving my number to LB. Before all this, I had the idea to message a friend, to give it to him. Now, I don't know. If I do, I'm going to have to wait some more. Give it some more time. Unless, hopefully, there is going to be another show soon where I can just go do that there. That probably sounds parasocial of me! I swear it's not...my god there was a girl talking to Coleman and I saw that she gave him her number. I wanted to do the same thing for LB! But shy shell me just couldn't do that. Maybe for now, it's for the best.

I've been hoping that maybe, just maybe, he'll reach out to me, and maybe ask for my number. If I end up doing so, I figure that I'll just use the book I gave as an excuse. Like, "Hey, yeah, here's my number. Let me know what you think of the book!" Though my reptile brain tells me he probably wouldn't do that. No guy I've ever given my number to ever does that. Ah!

I hate giving in to internet drama. Yet, at the same time, I don't want to any perceptions, as blatantly erroneous as they may be, to cloud my chances of...anything. So I'm going to leave my post up for a while, then maybe post some things about my channel later. I'm going to cut out the personal stuff. I don't want to put that out anymore. God forbid this happens again, and someone decides to say that all the bad things that happened to me last year were my own fault; or that I deserved it. That's the thing that gave me the most anxiety earlier. I was afraid that John was going to say that in the comments of his post... that perhaps all the things I was sad about were partially my own doing. So far...no. At least, on the website where I can look at the post without logging in...no, he doesn't seem to say that. Though, should I really care? These people don't really know me. If he did, then he wouldn't have gotten offended by what I said.

All I said in my private story was that I have no idea why Sam hadn't talked to me. Not my problem anymore though. I saw some things he did that made me question his character though. But it wasn't my problem. And that's it. I'm keeping it vague because I don't want one of them to find this blog. Though, I doubt they will.

Anyway, if they somehow see this, why would it matter what I think? A real adult would be able to see my thoughts, then move on with their life. What's the point in getting frustrated over what I said? What's the most absurd part to me, is how he didn't even bother to talk to me about it? What's the point of that? You see my post then immediately block me...and then make a call out post of your own talking about how calling out people is wrong. Where is the logic in that?

[calvin-andhobbes]

In case you're genuinely wondering, here's how I read your comments:

You oversimplified her statement, from what I would characterize as, "hype up your own art, and consider small projects you can make out of your ideas- even if you never actually make your idea into a self-sufficient piece of media(such as a book, film, or game). no one else NEEDS to understand it- if making a thousand little works brings you joy, you can be a fandom of 1."

That's "just called 'making original media'"? I mean, it is that, but only that? And do most people perceive it that way (such as the shy friend she was trying to encourage with that post)? The kicker, I think, is the second addition you made- feigning that fake posters and merch for one's ocs is of equivalent status to a classic American novel, which is where you re-contextualized the original post entirely- as though being aware that sometimes, art is merely self-indulgence, is equivalent to trivializing some of the most revered works of art. You also made her post out to be some fandom-brained idiocy- as though being aware of the cultural stigma against certain kinds of art is the same as reinforcing it.

I saw this post on my dash 3 times- first from op, then 2 times with your comments in the next 2 days, and your additions appear to be the primary reason the post started spreading as much as it did from there. In other words, because you made her post into the cringe of the day, it resonated with tons of people who read it and thought, "wow, someone's gone a little too long without touching grass if they think people being embarrassed about ' just making original media' is normal!" When in fact that was either very poor verbiage on your part, or an intentionally bad-faith reading. The tone of your comments was condescending, even if you didn't mean it to be, and the authority it lent overrode the point she was making in the minds of many people who shared it afterwards.

I was frustrated when I saw it shared with your comments the first time, because it really spoiled the message of encouragement op was attempting to make. If anyone were to click through to her blog, they would see that she has no qualms about showering her ocs with affection, and she has several forms of art dedicated to them. She IS working on an original comic, but until then, she has no hesitancy about making posts about them which usually you get from within fandoms, but not the original creator themselves. I don't expect people to verify every "clown" on the internet to be what they are publicly perceived to be, but honestly, I would expect at least that much effort from someone who was going to actively paint that person's face- especially if they were later to express surprise or confusion about people thinking they were rude.

As an example: yesterday, I too saw that comment about you being "known" for being annoying on other people's posts. I thought, eh, that tracks- lots of people don't care/know better than to act like this online. But I took a look at your blog anyways- the first 5 or so pages, I think- and I was like- "hm, this blog is pretty cool actually." I did see some comments from you, here and there, which seemed to be only tangential to the points other people were trying to communicate, but I took that as you being passionate about certain topics, such as being concerned about a way in which the OPs might be inadvertently making someone neurodivergent the butt of a joke due to communication difficulties. (That's part of the reason I am responding, btw- in case of similar issues occurring regarding the post in question here.) I also saw the anon ask someone sent to op after she turned off reblogs. They expressed that op's interpretation of your comments were out of line with your intentions. I hadn't seen anything about that when I was looking at your blog yesterday, so I went back to see what you had said that I had missed. If you had gone to her blog for a little bit before commenting on her post, instead of assuming that the way you characterized her mentality was accurate, might you have refrained from the condescending tone, at least?

You can clarify your ideas on your own blog, but that's not going to be what people share- a post is only interesting enough to blow up when you're belittling someone. That alone should prove that even if you didn't mean your addition to seem derisive(which is a little hard to believe after the "you people" remark), that's not the way nearly everyone else took it- whether they were in agreement with you, or annoyed. I don't know op btw, so I can't speak for her- but if you're still wondering why she and some of her followers took it poorly, go to her blog and find the context for yourself. Or shoot her an ask, off anon, so she can reply to you privately.

Why did. People get so upset about my post about OCs. I thought it was pretty clear I was mostly agreeing with OP and urging them to take their enthusiasm farther?? Welp lol

And apparently I'm known for being annoying? Guess I can't disagree with that

[gentrychild]

+5 HCs: okay last uhh, AU where Inko reignites her childhood want to become a Pro Hero but thinks she’s too old for it now, but then Izuku starts wholeheartedly supporting her ;A;

Listen, I don't know how and I don't know why but I know that this started with Endeavor being his usual charming self and Inko, who was probably minding her business and doing grocery shopping until she walked on him, got so annoyed that she decided to get a license out of spite. Endeavor: "I'm the number 2 hero." Inko: "Well, apparently, they let anyone be a top hero these days." Endeavor: "Oh yeah? If it's so easy, why don't you become one?" Inko: "So you don't come crying to me when I inevitably steal your spot."

She comes back home and cries out of frustration. She doesn't know what took her over. (Spite and righteous anger.) And yes, there was a time when she wanted to be a hero but her quirk is nothing to write home and she had to be realistic so she didn't even try to pass the entrance exam. Izuku is surprised to know that his mom wanted to be a hero once and tells her that there are nowadays many ways for an adult to get a hero license! Honestly, she just has to take a couple of class and pass the exam! So Inko studies, often borrowing her son's school books, and she trains with the insane schedule that is still hanging on their fridge. She also trains her quirk, which becomes stronger.

When Inko is about to give up because it's too hard and insane, Izuku is right next to her and he is "Mom, don't forget that so many people are believing in you!!!" and she is "You mean you and I?" and Izuku is "Well, sure you and I, but also I told that one classmate that the woman who made Endeavor literally fume is my mom and now he and his siblings are you biggest fans." And she can't disappoint her son and those three kids she's never seen so she hangs on, she passes her exam and she gets her license! She becomes a hero! Shouto, barging into Endeavor's office as soon as he gets Midoriya's text: "HEY, GUESS WHAT?!" Endeavor: "Oh, I am not going to like it..." Natsuo and Fuyumi, appearing out of nowhere while throwing confetti: "SHE GOT HER LICENSE!!!"

Inko isn't the kind of hero who fights villains. She is more Tatsu from The Way of the Househusband. You can't make a budget? She got you. You have taxes problem? She got you. Your restaurant is about to fail? She got you. You need to impress someone with your cooking skill/tea ceremony/absolutely whatever? She got you. She has spent fifteen years as housewife. She got all the skills you can imagine. Though it doesn't she can't kick ass and takes names. It just that she will use her sturdy support item known as the iron pan instead of her quirk. Izuku couldn't be prouder. Also, there is this tiny detail about villains avoiding the hell out of her. There are many memes about Inko being such a mom that even villains don't dare to do bad things in front of her. I'm sure that's the reason.

Now, you remember how the ranking isn't so much about cases closed than it is about popularity? You remember that? Because Endeavor was rudely reminded of that as he saw Pro Hero Inko ascending through the ranking at Mach speed because she is just so beloved. The fact that she apparently got a feud with the number 2 hero and that her kid is the bone breaking kid from the Sport Festival doesn't hurt. So now, Endeavor sleeps with his eyes open, terrified at the idea of becoming the number 3 hero because of this tiny woman who decided to become a pro hero just to spite him.

5 + 1: Every Todoroki children constantly wearing Inko merch just to annoy Endeavor. Unfortunately for Dabi, it backfired on him when he raided the Summer Camp in an Inko T-shirt and Pro Hero Inko's number 1 fan yelled "MY MOM WOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOU!!!" as he kicked Dabi in the face.

[baldgasly]

NSFW Alphabet || Daniel Ricciardo

gif by @yukitsunoda

collab with @danielsricciardhole

Unfortunately I've never slept with Daniel Ricciardo so if you believe this is inaccurate, my bad.

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

He’s not overly doting but will definitely get you a washcloth to help clean up, and when he gets up to go get water he always brings you back a glass too.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Yours - Daniel loves your thighs, he can’t think of a better way to spend his time than with your thighs wrapped around his head or his waist.

His - He likes his mouth the best, the way his smile can bring you to your knees and his tongue can send you over the edge is not lost on him at all.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Looooves to cum on your back or your ass.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

A fantasy of Daniel’s that he’s never shared with you is that he wishes other people could see you two having sex. He knows getting caught would jeopardise his career and status, and he’d hate to make you feel embarrassed too, but the thought of the world knowing how good he makes you feel is something he thinks about from time to time.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

He’s quite experienced but definitely doesn’t let that dictate what he does for you, he doesn’t want to assume that you’ll like/dislike anything he’s tried with anyone else so he gets to know you and your body right from the start and god are you glad he does.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

He loves doggy style, and the transition to you kneeling with him behind you, with his hand wrapped around your throat or in your hair as he pulls your back up into his chest nearly makes him lose his damn mind.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Have you seen that smile?? There’s definitely a lot of giggling as you try to sort the logistics of switching positions or when trying something new, as well as shared laughter if you bump heads.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

A little trimming is done to keep the edges tidy but he’s not going all out.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

In your relationship he definitely values sex more for fun and for pleasure but makes sure he demonstrates his romantic side in other parts of your relationship. Unless it’s an anniversary or something happens that puts things into perspective for him like a race loss, a crash, or you having to fly back home soon, sex is more fun when you’re both focused on getting each other off.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

He doesn’t do it that often because of his busy schedule, jet lag or getting back to the hotel room and being too tired after a long gym/training day. But he’ll definitely do it in his morning shower if it’s been a while and he’s missing you.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

PRAISE KINK - he 100% loves hearing how good he’s making you feel and how good he’s doing, especially if work’s been kicking his ass lately the sound of your voice soothing his frustrations is all he needs.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Everywhere, the bed, the shower (especially the big rain shower in his apartment) and a hot tub or pool if it’s in a private enough location like a honeymoon villa.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

You in athletic gear, you wearing his clothes/merch or McLaren gear so everyone knows where your loyalty lies, when he’s been doing well at work and his confidence is high, you getting dressed up and other guys seeing how great you look, knowing that only he gets to take you home.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

He’s not into inflicting pain on you, it wouldn’t ever surpass anything more than a playful ass slap or gentle bites.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Honestly, he prefers receiving because he’s a man lmao. But he absolutely always goes down on you as part of foreplay, or after sex if he finishes and you don’t. He loves to be in between your thighs whether he’s pinned your hips down on the bed or draped a leg over his shoulder while you stand and lean against a wall.

He also loves seeing you on your knees for him, his hands tangled in your hair, hips bucking to get impossibly closer to you, it’s his favourite way to celebrate the end of race week.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

He takes it nice and slow in the mornings or if he owes you make up sex, he’s fast if he gets a podium or you’ve been teasing him in public and every other time he keeps a nice steady rhythm that has you unravelling in minutes.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Definitely prefers normal sex but he’s constantly on the go and he loves how quickies can be a way of showing you that he will still make time for you and your relationship even with his busy schedule. He almost always finishes in your mouth for quickies too.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

He’s not confident to do anything too risky because of his status and his job, but the thrill of having sex on a boat drives him wild because it feels enough like public or outdoor sex that his fantasy of being caught is close to being satisfied.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

He can go twice in one night but needs a decent enough gap in between to recharge. Start to finish he can last for 10-15 mins unless there’s edging involved, then he’ll having you begging for close to an hour.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

He’s open to basic toys that enhance feelings for both of you but nothing too wild.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Loves to dish it out, but cannot take it. He sees nothing wrong with resting his hand too high on your thigh when you’re at a restaurant in a group, or whispering all the things he wants to do in your ear when it appears to everyone else that he’s just giving you a hug. As soon as you return the favour and send any dirty texts or pictures to him across the room in public he turns into a whiny bitch the second you’re alone.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Surprisingly, sex is one of the times he doesn’t get too loud, apart from telling you how good you make him feel you’re mainly treated to shallow breathing and restrained grunts.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

He definitely has a whole hidden folder on his phone filled with dirty photos and videos of the two of you. Every photo you send him gets saved and tucked away for when he's missing you and he pretends his own hand wrapped around him is yours instead.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

He’s slightly above average sized, nothing you can’t handle but he definitely knows how to use it. Also, I know that boy is veiny - have you seen those hands?

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Any time he’s in the same city as you he wants you in his bed. He’ll have you in the morning, before dinner, after dinner, he makes every second count because he knows his job means he’ll have to leave again soon.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Depends on how much of the work he did, lol. He’ll lay with you and chat for a while until his replies get shorter and his breathing gets deeper, then he’ll drape an arm over you and fall asleep pressed against you.

[nyxs-sins]

Would the Brothers Bail you out of Jail?

Well well MC, looks like you found yourself behind bars. I won’t ask what you did, but you should be glad that the brothers had just decided to come visit the human world! That is, if they’re willing to bail you out…

Lucifer:

No!

Whatever you did, you need to pay the price.

Maybe the lesson will stick if you have to wait for your trail behind bars.

Though he is a little worried about your safety.

Sighs when he hears that Mammon is with you.

Now you’re definitely going to have to wait it out.

Mammon:

No!

He would not bail you out of jail because he is sitting right next to you.

He doesn’t have the money to bail you out (at least none that he’d be willing to spend) so he tries to break you out instead.

And failed.

Yes he is a super strong demon.

Yes he could easily break the bars and fly you both out.

No he’s not going to do it.

Why?

Because he’s already afraid of what Lucifer will do to him when he gets home as it is.

Spoiler Alert: You’re both hanged from the ceiling.

Leviathan:

Possibly!

Is honestly depends on if he just bought a new game/merch and if he can find the confidence to leave his room.

It’s really an 20/80 chance.

20% he bails you out, 80% he dubs the safety of his room and Ruri-Chan more comforting and easier to deal with than the human world legal system.

So yeah, don’t expect any help from him.

Satan:

It depends!

Maybe, it depends on what you did and whether or not he has the money.

The worse the crime you’re accused of is, the more likely he’s going to bail you out.

Why? No idea.

That’s just the way he is.

Remember: He is an angy boi who takes out his frustrations by harassing Lucifer with his pranks.

Would also help you hide a body if you ever decided to commit murder.

Jus remember, he knows how to hide a body.

So just don’t betray him and you’re all set.

Asmodeus:

Yes!

He’s worried about your poor skin getting dry and dirty!

And the other inmates getting too close to you.

And don’t you know prison food is horrible for your health?!

After he bailed you out he would immediately stick you in his bath and clean you up.

Of course he’ll interrogate you himself about what you did while giving you a spa, so relaxing might not be the easiest.

Won’t push it too much though, he can’t have your lovely skin breaking out now~!

Beelzebub:

Yes!

Well, it depends on what you did, but most likely yes!

If it’s really bad then no, he won’t.

But otherwise you get to go home almost immediately after hanging up!

He’ll stop and pick you guys some food on the way home.

You aren’t allowed more than an arms length away from him, he can’t afford to lose another person.

Quiet.

Either you tell him what you did or he will wonder if it’s his fault.

No it doesn’t matter if it makes sense it’s just where his brain goes.

So you best be planning on telling him or he’ll have a “kicked puppy” expression for the rest of the day.

Belphegor:

No!

Knows how to hide a body No. 2

Can also weasel his way out of any legal situation with little to no magic.

Does that mean he’s going to bail you out of prison?

OF COURSE NOT!

He’s too busy either laughing at you or sleeping.

Though he will miss using you as a pillow…

Guess his cow pillow will just have to suffice until you’re back. 🤷

[robbyswayzekeenes]

fuck up our friendship━ eli moskowitz imagine

eli moskowitz x fem!reader

set after the party in 2x09, pretty wholesome with admitting feelings but also angst bc the reader is tryna be friends with both eli and demetri and it is NOT going well

Once the police busted the party, Y/N knew she had to find Eli. The girl was a Miyagi-Do student, and she knew full well that Sam and Robby would not appreciate her going to find her oldest friend and Cobra Kai’s number one asshole, but the pair were having their own issues, so it was unlikely they would find out. Y/N and Eli had been friends since the girl moved to the Valley at the start of freshman year. She wasn’t exactly a loser as someone like Yasmine or Kyler would word it, and many people never understood why she signed away her high school popularity to be friends with the two biggest dorks in school-- Demetri and Eli-- but she wouldn’t have wanted anybody else. Demetri and Eli had been best friends since kindergarten, and the h/c slotted into the group perfectly. They may have had it pretty bad at school, but they had each other.

Then, two years later, at the start of their junior year, karate came back to the Valley. Whilst Y/N and Demetri had always been seemingly content with living their lives as losers, apparently Eli didn’t feel the same. It wasn’t the mohawk or the new name they particularly had a problem with, or his newfound popularity that bothered them. It was the way he went about getting it. Hawk was becoming the very person he had always hated. Both of his best friends knew this wasn’t the person he really was, but when Demetri had addressed this, Eli declared an all out war against him. So now Y/N was left as the middle-man, trying to care for both of her best friends and bring them back together without choosing a side. And neither of them made it easy.

Tonight, at Moon’s party, Y/N had been so hopeful. The two sat talking about Doctor Who whilst the girl stood beside Robby and Sam, sipping her drink and pretending she wasn’t listening in to what Demetri and Eli were talking about. She allowed herself to get distracted for one moment to talk with Robby about skateboarding and suddenly, Eli was pouring his drink all over Demetri’s head. With a shameful sigh, Y/N walked over to the two, handing paper towels to the dark haired boy and raising her eyebrows at Eli. The red haired boy gave her a sheepish, apologetic smile before wandering off to join the other Cobras.

In all fairness, Hawk had it coming when Demetri stood up on that stage with the mic in his hand, but the brown eyed boy didn’t need to take it that far. Watching from where she stood with the other Miyagi-Dos, her e/c eyes flitted between Eli and Demetri. It pained the girl to watch her two best friends fight, but it hurt more knowing she was watching her best friend and the boy she was in love with attempt to tear each other’s heads off. Y/N had developed the biggest crush on Eli in their sophomore year, and everybody knew it except the boy in question. Demetri knew it, too, which was why initially he was so hesitant to launch an attack against his best friend, no matter how much he deserved it. But that night, he hadn’t held back.

Once the cops pulled up outside, everything descended into chaos. Her eyes met with Demetri’s, which were filled with remorse, and he nodded at her. “Go find him. Make sure he’s okay.” Y/N offered the boy a small smile in return. She knew Demetri still cared for Eli, and Eli still cared for Demetri. It was just Hawk who appeared not to. Rushing out the house so as not to get caught by the police, the h/c found Eli walking out the back of the house alone. The rest of the Cobras weren’t around, which reassured Y/N, but only slightly. “Eli!” She called, causing his head to swing around, his blue eyes catching hers. “What do you want? Come to humiliate me even more?” “Eli,’ The girl breathed in response, sounding exasperated as she caught up to him. “You know I wouldn’t do that.” “I didn’t think Demetri would, either,” He responded, allowing Y/N to see how hurt he really was. “And I didn’t think you would attack him when we were at the mall the other day. Or pour beer on his head.” Eli let out a sigh-- he was Eli now he was around Y/N. She was the only person he trusted enough to let his newfound guard down around.

“I’ve told you this before, Y/N,” The red haired boy said with a sigh. “Demetri chose his side. He went against us. Against Cobra Kai.” “I don’t need to hear it again, Eli,” The h/c haired girl huffed. “I’m just here to make sure you’re okay. Cobra Kai or not, you’re my best friend. I care about you, and so does Demetri.” “Whatever,” The boy exhaled, but he still allowed Y/N to walk the rest of the way home with him, and even come in when he opened the door and headed inside. “Mom isn’t home,” Eli spoke, closing the door and flicking off his shoes, “She’s on night shift tonight.” “Good job I’m here then,” Y/N nodded, knowing how much the blue eyed boy hated being alone. Eli didn’t say anything in response, just smiled smally.

Any alcohol consumed at the party that evening had begun to wear off, as Eli and Y/N sat on the couch in the front room. The silence was awkward for the first few moments; it always was now that there was a clear divide pushing the two apart, but both of them more than anything wanted to stay close. As much as Y/N’s crush on Eli was clear as day (to everyone other than him), the boy’s reciprocated feelings were much better hidden, especially with his new Hawk facade. However, Cobra Kai had thrown in the spanner in the works, and any chance the boy may have had with his best friend was seemingly gone. Yet, every few nights the girl would still come over and spend time with Eli, alternating the time she used to spend with both her best friends.

Eventually, the awkwardness faded, and the two would begin to speak about anything and everything they hadn’t caught up on, considering they had spent most of the summer apart at their separate dojos. An hour or so past, taking the time up to midnight, before Eli invited Y/N to stay the night like she had many times before. The h/c hastily agreed, and followed Eli upstairs to his bedroom, yawning quietly due to exhaustion. Once they made it up, her e/c eyes widened. “What the fuck happened in here?” The once blue walls, littered with posters, were now red and bare. A punching bag stood where a fake TARDIS used to be, and there wasn’t a funko pop in sight, which was not at all like Eli Moskowitz. The bedsheets were just plain black, rather than Star Wars themed, but when the h/c craned her neck, there were still small, glow-in-the-dark stars littered across the ceiling. “I redecorated,” Was all Eli said, flopping down on his bed.

Y/N flopped down beside him. “I think I preferred the Doctor Who merch,” The girl admitted honestly, causing Eli to look at her with wide eyes. “Did you know the new Doctor was female?” “Of course,” The h/c smiled, “Me and Demetri still watch every Friday night.” At the mention of this, Eli’s face fell, causing Y/N to frown. “You know he didn’t really want to hurt you tonight,” The girl sighed, attempting to lock eyes with Eli who was staring down at his fidgeting fingers. “It was a shitty thing to do, but you’ve both done shitty things to each other.” She continued her speech, becoming more and more passionate as she spilled her frustration out to Eli: “Do you know how hard it is for me to watch my two best friends fight with each other? Over something as petty as a fucking karate dojo! I know that I can’t stop you two fighting and the best I can do is try and maintain the middle ground, because the last thing I want to do is choose between my best friend and the others at Miyagi-Do, and the boy I’ve had feelings for since forever.”

Y/N’s voice began to fade out as she calmed down, but Eli was still staring at her, seemingly in shock. Noticing how panicked the boy looked, the girl’s face softened. “I’m sorry for yelling, Eli, I-” “You said you had feelings for me.” His voice was deadpan, showing no emotions as his blue eyes bore into Y/N. The girl’s mouth opened and closed in shock. “I- Maybe I said that. Accidentally. Maybe-” “You have feelings for me?” Eli spoke again, and for a second, he sounded like Eli, like the person he was before all this karate shit took over. With a sigh, the girl nodded. “Congratulations. You’re officially the last person to know.” “Why didn’t you tell me?” The boy asked, his eyes wide. “I don’t know,” The girl shrugged. “Guess I didn’t wanna fuck up our friendship, but I guess karate’s doing that for us.” Y/N’s e/c eyes chose to rest on the bed sheets beneath her instead of on Eli as he responded. “Well, what if I want to fuck up our friendship?” At this comment, however, the girl’s eyes shot up, just in time for Eli to place his hand on her chin and placed his lips against hers.

She was shocked at first, but Y/N soon kissed back, placing her hands on the boy’s face to pull him closer. The girl felt him smile into the kiss as he rolled himself closer, wrapping a hand round her waist to draw her in. “I’ll fuck up our friendship a hundred times over if it means I can do that again,” Y/N smiled, resting her forehead against his. Eli kissed her once again, softly, before saying: “For the record, I like you, too. I’m surprised Demetri didn’t tell you.” “That rat!” Y/N exclaimed, though she wasn’t really annoyed. “I’m going to kill him!” “Right now?” Eli asked, quirking his eyebrow with a cocky smirk. “Hm, maybe not,” The girl grinned, biting her lip and pulling the boy closer. “I think I’ll just stay here and kiss you.”