Hi, I had a devastating idea about Ifrit that I need to put into words. Not at all projecting on him, no…..not at all….
It’s a well-known fact that Ifrit rarely ever gets into arguments. He is praised for his self control, his easy temper, the way he always seems to be able to diffuse tension, eager to make compromises, never holding grudges for long.
What they don’t know is that Ifrit doesn’t get into arguments because he’s terrified.
Because in his mind festers the deeply rooted belief that an argument with someone would lead to them cutting him off forever, purging the fire ghoul from their life immediately.
A little voice, the rational one that never can quite make herself loud enough no matter how much it tries, whispers that it’s bullshit, that Ifrit would never even think to do that himself, sever his bond with someone simply because of a little fight, so why would anyone ? But it’s different when it’s him.
Because Ifrit loves too hard, too much, accepts things that he shouldn’t - he’s been told time and times again, Zephyr and Aether especially are concerned by this particular tendency of his.
So of course, he wouldn’t let a fight put an end to a relationship - no matter it’s kind.
But that doesn’t mean others should act the same way, should endure what he willingly endures. So maybe, maybe, yes, people would delete him from their lives if Ifrit dared to express too strong an opinion, or raise his voice a little. And maybe they’d be right to do so.
And why would they ever come back ? What about Ifrit could urge them to think about it again, change their mind and open their arms to him once more ? For what reason could they ever what Ifrit back after leaving him behind ?
(One day, Zephyr catches Ifrit crying in the kitchen, hands shaking around a spilled cup of coffee. He crumbles in their arms like a poorly built sandcastle getting kicked by negligent passerbys, sobs rattling his whole frame.
« I’m afraid I love people more than they love me - that I would wither away without them, but they would barely notice if I were to disappear, and only feel a vague twinge of disappointment instead of the gaping hole they would leave in my chest if they weren’t part of my life anymore, » Ifrit confesses in Zephyr’s chest, voice and spirts broken almost beyond repair.
The air ghoul’s heart sinks as they hold their precious little flame, reassuring him the best they can, hoping to ward him off from the twisted lies of his own mind.)
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If five pebbles was ever built for zephyr the same way he was built for moon, would he ever see her as a mentor?
i imagine that he'd!!! be more open with her than he is with Moon, because their personalities match better. Zephyr isn't really the doting, overprotective kind. She didn't have the chance to learn how to be affectionate and warm even though she wishes she could be and she needs to watch her own systems like a hawk 24/7 so she ain't got the attention to spare to nag at him even if she wanted to. they'd end up bonding over their anger at the injustice of the Iterators' fate, though
Pebs would probably take someone else as Mentor™ (she wouldn't be capable of fullfilling the expectations of that role), but he'd probably still look up to her a lot. she'd be like. a not-the-title mentor in the specific field of being angry at their situation and doing Something about it
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One of my favourite greek myths is the one of Apollo and Hyacinth, a gay love story. Or more like tragedy. Hyacinth was a greek prince, and one of the most attractive mortals, withmany admirers, including a few of the gods, Apollo being among them. He and Hyacinth became lovers, Apollo even giving up his lyre and duties at the Temple of Delphi. One day, while playing a game, Apollo was teaching Hyacinth how to use the discus. He accidentally kills him after hitting him in the head, and as Hyacinth lays dying, Apollo turns him into the flower of the same name. This way, Hades could not claim his soul. It is widely thought that Apollo had wished to become a mortal so he could live on in death with his lover, but this was impossible due to his immortality. He swore to always remember Hyacinth through his songs and poems.
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