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“peeta is bisexual” you guys are losing the vision. peeta isn’t even straight. katniss INVENTED sexuality for him. whatever katniss identifies as, he’s like “yeah, i’ll take that one” no questions asked
#katnissexual#i’m joking btw#and i agree with yall#he says you’ve ruined all other women for me#yeah twink we know#the hunger games#katniss everdeen#thg#nightlocked-in#everlark#peeta mellark#hunger games headcanon#hunger games incorrect quotes#thg incorrect quotes#bisexual peeta#peeta what’s your sexuality?#idk#what do u mean u don’t know#i’ve never thought about it#well i mean… do you like guys? do u like girls?#he thinks for a second…. girl#just one#katniss he says#i’m convinced in modern au’s when he’s dating someone else he just pictures katniss when fucking and then feels horribly guilty for it later#peeta why don’t you look at me during sex?#huh? oh glimmer uh… i just get distracted by how uh… good it feels. yeah that haha#katniss was his first love in every thing and not only was she his first love she was his ONLY love#so he’s never even considered being attracted to girls besides her#so when he tries to date he finds girls that are objectively attractive but on a scale of 1 to katniss they are still 1’s to him#and that never stops being a problem
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IS ANYONE ELSE FEELING KIND TODAY!!! IS ANYONE ELSE FEELING GENEROUS TOWARDS OTHER PEOPLE!!! IS ANYBODY ELSE BEING KIND AND TRYING TO UNDERSTAND EVEN WHEN ITS HARD!!! IS ANYONE ELSE ASSUMING THE BEST OF OTHERS INTENTIONS AND RESPONDING IN KIND!!!! CAN ANYONE HEAR ME
#having a day ^_^#I love being kind I just wish other people loved being kind more#people on the internet are SO FUCKING MEAN TO EACH OTHER???? its a terrible phenomenon#I have never seen people in real life treat others badly with the horrifying proportion of hate I see online#please. try to be kinder try to be more patient even when its frustrating#I have changed minds and deescalated arguments SO many times by being kind.#if someone is spouting misinfo in a furious rage and they're saying hurtful things? try responding with patience and kindness#even when you don't feel they deserve it. because one of 2 things usually happens#EITHER. they immediately shift their tone because you're talking to them like an equal and not an idiot#OR they continue to be horrible and it makes them look really nasty. its not a good look!! most people won't do the second thing!!#hateful online arguments has turned my mental health into a disgusting stew in the past#since I started being kind out of sheer frustration my mental health has improved a thousandfold#listen. sometimes its okay to be mean. if someone tells you to kill yourself I dont think its appropriate to give them patience and kindnes#BUT. if you treat someone like they're stupid. even if you're right!!! they won't listen to you or consider your words!!#because admitting you're right means admitting that they're stupid like you think they are. that feels bad so people won't do it#my wisdom. today I am so tired
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lost wax casting
Behold the sweatshop
#bronze#splatoon#splatoon art#my art#videogames#videogame art#3d art#metal#metals#pins#metalsmithing#casting#made the original out of wax- then i casted it in metal- then i polished up the metal one and used it to create a vulconized rubber#mold- then cast like- 25 something of these horrible lil creatures#i died 100 deaths makeing these#anyways the bronze has aged and isent really shiney anymore except for the 2 pins i hit with the steel wheel :/#for the record i used wax on these to try and seal them so its not my fault!#these took me so fucking long- look at them. LOOK AT THEM.#SPLATOON 3#i did a print of inkling (splatdare) as neo 3 so for this project i made octoling neo 3 :]#into the stars~#those stars nearly killed me as well. please look at them. my hands nearly fell off from gettin off and fixing where the sprews were#attached#i was working on this project up till the very last second i chould be. i was in there with the lot of another class as i desratly was#soldering on all those pins that night. the soldering was really easy and actsholly medatative but god did it take so long...#and then buffing all of them- and then livering 90% of them-
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wow, okay, transphobia isn't fucking welcome on this blog! and if you have a problem with that i'll block you, bitch!
#i got a horrible ask from someone clearly going through a lot in their life because it was just cruel and disgusting.#i encourage ALL the cis queer women following me to take a second to remember that the only reason we have gay rights and pride in the usa#is because of two trans women.#trans women have always existed#and in today's society they're one of the most unprotected minorities in the world.#it's insane to me that you as a queer person can know first hand how heartbreaking it is to be discriminated against#for something you literally cannot control#only to turn around and discriminate against trans people because you think sexuality is diverse and expansive but somehow gender isnt?!!?#the cognitive dissonance in terf spaces is fucking insane.#i could write a sociological essay on how terf-ism preys on young queer women who feel powerless.#because it's so freeing to let your frustrations with the way the world treats you out through hatred of those you don't understand!#but what terfs don't understand that attitude and behavior is the same attitude and behavior that allows patriarchy and colonialism 2 thriv#sorry for the essay. it's pride month please take the time to educate yourself on transmisogyny and transmisogynoir.
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#vidz#homelander edits where hes actually terrifying in a horrific instance rather than a man child incompetent instance >>>>#homelander#the boys#the boys tv#the fucking glowing eyes is so sick#season 1 Homelander was on a different strain of coke#“i believe in the country america used to be” moment#hes so fuvkign#homelander complexity deep dive moment#i need to know every single second of his life and what he thinks#horribly derranged and sick character that haunts me in more ways than one
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Some new art of a very very old oc of mine! From like, when I was an 8th grader in middle school to freshman in high school I think, I haven’t thought about this character or the world she’s from in like… years, but my brain suddenly remembered she existed! And so I drew some art of her!
Visually, she’s absolutely mostly the result of my child self sticking Toko Fukawa from Danganronpa and Peacock from Skullgirls in a blender and lettin it fuckin rip. Personality wise she’s a bit different tho… she’s into politics! As in,,, she’s in politics ghgh, she’s like the chief of the surveillance department for the country of (mostly) witches that the story takes place in. And one of the advisors to the head ruler witch,,, she sucks! Hardcore! she’s def a villain lol
#I made 2 videos for this story and she’s in 1 of them#the idgaf video. at the 30 second mark#but. even tho I specifically remember when I first designed her she had the eyeball braids!#or at least eyeball buns#16 year old me got rid of em!!! for no good reason!#they were fun and cool and fitting for her role and character!!! what the hell 16 year old me!#original#original art#original characters#my ocs#artists on tumblr#eyes#doodles#the other video from this story I made is the something’s not right meme lol#the difference in tone is fucking tremendous#that one tho is more… a lore tidbit… like… it’s background on a phenomena of the setting…#as a middle schooler I did not give a shit about major or minor or background characters tho. or even actually telling a cohesive story?#like. I started w a few characters. and then. went on to characters they were connected too. and then characters they were connected too#and then on an on and on it was just a web of vaguely interconnected dudes in a vaguely interconnected world#no. real narrative lol. but I had fun w it! it was cool. I wish I still had my sketchbooks w the stuff I made for it#I feel like it’d be a fun thing to look back on… sadly fire took them… damn u fire ghg#* shakes first at past horrible traumatic experience *#anyway yeah! enjoy art of evil eyeball lady w no name lmao#*fist not first… spellings hard#partial nudity#in the second pic. but also u can’t rlly see anything so. I think it’s fine?#I’ll still tag just in case tho
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Hi! hello, im completely insane so i made [a very amateur editing of] saint Oliver Quick cards so you can print and keep with you(???)
theres a few combinations, do as you will with them. but if you actually print them plz tag me so i can see 💕💕💕
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i spent 3 resident evil movies and 1 YT essay doing these, so... 7/8 hours??
it was fun, anyways, enjoy ❤
#saltburn#oliver quick#cattonquick#saltburn posting#i love saltburn#saltburn 2023#OMG ALSO#i have a png of the actual real antlers#i was going to use those to make the second front option#BUT#they looked horrible#and so i used that poster with the red head with antlers in the top#you know the one?#is like all red and yellowish#and i erased all the surroundings until i only got the headand used that#without saturation so it looks grey#and it looked so good#and it took me like 4 minutes#but erasing the background of the real antlers was a fucking pain#and i have 💫absolutely no use for it now💫#so yeah#if someone wants some pngs ring me lmao
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#objectively speaking math puzzles are horrible. they are clearly the right answer here#HOWEVER i also hate the stupid board ones that are rare to find (but even fucking worse)#professor layton#shrimp4thou#polls#if u even care my favourite puzzle is a maze puzzle. second fave is logic puzzle#geometry puzzles are only so far down bc im bad at them but i heavily enjoy them
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is digimon worth getting into??
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The games are generally agreed upon to be mediocre (at least the old ones, recently theyve been getting better at it, though theyre still not Perfect at all imo), but the anime is so so good. Like genuinely has made me cry its genuinely good anime. i love all the characters and their stories so much ouuhg,.. DONT watch the english dub though atleast in the second season they butchered it so fucking badly theyre like completely different characters they turned the main character into an incel and everyones an asshole Im genuinely convinced most people who dislike this season only do so because they watched the dub
#ask#Dont tell any one i told you this but in my opinion the first season is only held up by nostalgia... its not HORRIBLE but imo its really#Repetitive and they clearly didnt really know what they were doing I dont get the hype#It has its moments though the ending ouuhhh....... made me tear uop#I LOVE THE SECOND SEASON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DIGIMON ADVENTURE 02 I LOVE YOU#AUUUHHH I LOVE YOU DAISUKE I LOVE YOU KEN I LOVE YOU MIYAKO I LOVE YOU HIKARI I LOVE YOU TAKERU I LOVE YOU IORI#DIGIMON TAMERS IS A REALLY GOOD SEASON TOO..... IT GETS FUCKING INSANE NEAR THE END#I LOVE DIGIMON FRONTIER..ANIME FOR PEOPLE WHO ARE ANIMALS#DIGIMON SAVERS IS SALVAGEABLE I CAN FIX THEM I CAN FIX IT I SWEAR#I HAVENT WATCHED PAST SAVERS BUT I DO PLAN ON DOING THAT... Genuinely in love with digimon anime I love it so muhc#Im turning reblogs off i just realized ive tagged all the seasons good lord
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sometimes my parents make me want to commit violent crimes
#mine#sorry for putting this on your dash im just angry & have no one i can really bother with this#my brother said he wasnt sure if he wanted to come with us to a castle tomorrow#but hes too young to be home alone all day#so i went to tell my parents bc i sidnt think they wanted to learn that tomorrow morning#instead of even asking why they immediately started with the passive agressive comments#and in an annoyed tone going 'i just dont get what could be so bad about a day of fun with family'#first of all he didnt even say he wasnt goint#second shut the fuck up#he cant speak anymore & is crying#i offer him a bunch of alternatives while my father insults each one and makes it sound ridiculous#while my brother types on his phone#my father starts ranting at my parent about it#as if my brother isnt right fucking there and also 11 years old#im so happy he isnt coming with us#like yeah i never see him but the times i do are always so horrible that im kinda glad about it#he avoids us like the plague & we avoid him back#my parent is fine most of the time#but never in situations like this#if other people are upset in a way that inconviences them theyre shit about it too#anything related to not doing good in school also#and like im fine#im upset sometimes sure but i know i dont deserve this & i can deal with it fine#i dont think my brother deals with it very well though#so im very worried about him#especially bc i think high school is going to be a big struggle for him#possibly more than me#and tbh i think im more of a parental figure to him than our actual parents
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hey uncle nina do u happen to have that one para where u talked abt how jersey couldn't say ily during sbst and stan was like super sad abt it? i tried looking for it on ur blog but i can't find it</3
t-the...
tHE DIVORCE PARA???>?@?@?@?3/2/
YOU WANT THE FUCKDISNFN DIVORCE PARA????!!!?!?!
noooooOOOOOOoOooOo!!!!!!!!! :'(
i......Siiiigh.
goddamnit, guys. what happened to 'we hope you heal, uncle nina!' wAS IT NOT ENOUGH THAT I DIED ONCE??? I GOTTA DIE TWICE?!
but....because i love you very much, i will link it for you.
edit: oh god, i am reading it rn and it is soooo rough, i'm am so sorry. cringe. goofy aa. oof. later today, i might reopen it and just so we can suffer i will have it start mid sbst ( which, assumes i can write the smut which, no promises ) and then have it end with ravenstan leaving ( fuuuck lmao, like that fight does not even end there, we're in H-E-L-L holy shit ) because i hate my life but...anyways....
without further ado,
Please Enjoy The WORST
( and i do mean THE /WOOOORST/ )
Part Of Your Day...Maybe Your Life.
-uncle nina, who is going to request a lobotomy at her doctors appointment to forgot the divorce happened.
#yall would do this to me#right before my doctors appt#GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD#no i am so sad i am actually so sad and this is just a fragment of it the whole thing is so fucking upsetting and sad#LIKE HE WANTED TO SAY IT HE JUST CANT HE HAS TRAUMA LIKE HE MEANS IT THO HE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#it was so horrible like the second raven realizes that hes just#been saying i love you this whole time#and jersey has just been saying me too#FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK#HORRIBLE#AND DURING SBST TOO LIKE MAN WHAT THE FUCK#MID SBST LIKE THAT IS JAIL WORTHY THEY WERE HAPPY#and when i tell u ravenstan NEVER EVER EVER GETS MAD EVER you know it was GNARLY u know it ruined his life </3#lover boy king wow its so horrible bc like no one has ever loved anyone more that jk loves rs too hes just a weapon#and doesnt know how to emote and turned that part of his brain off and cant switch it back on and its scary and#dO YOU SEE HIM STRUGGLIN LIKE JK NEVER EVER EVER BEGS ANYONE AND HE WAS ON HIS HANDS AND KNEES#SCARY ASS JK LIKE SCARY AS FUCK LIKE WHIMPERING AND SHAKIN HE WAS SO SCARED HE WAS INCONSOLABLE#and it triggerin a rs bp episode and him goin out into the snow in a tshirt and shorts and Leaving which is jks WORST FEAR#like losing him AGAIN???? AND ITS HIS FAULt#help im gonna end it all if you dont hear from me im ruined#jk cried after that btw for the first time in a very long time#and he did it alone and in rs clothes knees to his chest :(
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i hate it here
#char’s diary#it’s so funny! how she talks about the symptoms of her ptsd! as if i don’t have it because of her!#yes. my therapist told me i very likely have it so im not exaggerating#like yeah#i start spiraling and get triggered because i feel like im back in a place of danger#these things are because awful things have been done to me#sure it wasn’t my ex husband it was just my horrible fucking parents#and ykw i didn’t choose this either!!!!!#you didn’t choose to have an abusive ex husband and i didn’t choose to grow up with emotionally abusive parents#suck my fucking nuts#and ofc i feel like im going to cry just bc im angry#jesus christ#and like just getting up from a room without telling someone isn’t shitty on its own???#she tried to tell me it was#like sorry i don’t tell you every second of what im doing in my own house?#like i have a speech tomorrow-one that’s really important to me but oh haha i didn’t tell you because i DONT LIKE TELLING YOU THINGS#i wanna go home
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Sincerely hoping that Citlali is a four star or something so I can get her easily, but then again it’s hard to tell who’d be a four star and who’d be a five star from just looks alone in my opinion.
All my money is on Iansan being a four star with Kachina, which I’m not complaining about— I want Iansan the most right now.
I really like Xilonen and I think I like Mavuika. I would like her more if she fit the Genshin aesthetic more. Like other than the obvious disappointment in skin tone, I feel like Mavuika just… doesn’t look like a Genshin character. She looks closer to ZZZ’s aesthetic in my opinion, it’s a flashy leather jumpsuit. I would’ve liked something more… in line with the theme?
But yeah, I’ll probably pull for Mualani if I like her enough when we meet her, I’m betting Kachina will be the free four star. I’m hoping Citlali will be four star but if not she’ll probably be a 5 star in 5.1 or something. I hope Iansan is on Xilonen’s banner and not Chasa’s because I reaaaaaally don’t like Chasa’s design. Everything about her is a no for me. I would rather get Geo Lion Lady and the fire child over… beta Clorinde. I already have the superior Clorinde anyways. No hate to anyone who likes Chasa, I just don’t see the appeal at all…
Also Oloron is a thing. He’s cool. Thank you next.
#genshin impact#genshin#natlan#genshin natlan#3 am musing about banners because I don’t wanna sleep but I really really should#am I assuming the order we see these characters is the order they’ll be released in? yes#do I know I’ll probably be horribly wrong anyways? also yes#but if Iansan does somehow end up on Chasa’s banner then ig I’m pulling on whoever is the second banner#I really wanna know the banner order now#do we think Kokomi might get a rerun since we haven’t seen her since Sumeru? I hope so#it’s either Mualani or Kokomi for me in 5.0#and if Citlali is a 5 star I still assume she’s gonna be 5.1#Xilonen feels like 5.3 or later to me#assuming Mavuika survives I think it’s archons in 5.2 right?#Oh god so that’s one 5 star every patch how the fuck am I gonna manage that#just gotta pray that Citlali is a 4 star and Xilonen and Iansan will show up in later patches rather than sooner ones#ZZZ is not helping my primo situation
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Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩
#the klock keeps ticking#yttd#i wanna replay yttd so bad but i also like Gotta play other stuff with the time i have akskks#but yeah the brainrot this specific character has given me idk if I ever really talked about it but it was BAD#i like obsessively played the game in like 3 days and it was not a good idea lol but just like shin#i had to take like a week to recover from this guy cuz i couldnt stop thinking about him and how hes just like me fr#first off just the very inconsistent personality hes got going on that is very me he has these different personalities he wears to cope with#all the traumatic shit happening hes both so helpless its comical and so manipulative its terrifying#and idk its really interesting how like good and bad he is at being manipulative like hes very smart and can analyze weaknesses and lie so#good not even he knows the truth but hes also grasping at straws he doesnt think things through at all#like the second main game he just didnt prepare at all hes fumbling his way through everything its going so bad#he just wants to go home he wants to outdo the game makers but hes being used by them so bad he wants it to STOP#and its just the way that like. it hits so hard cuz you know hes really not a bad person not at all he doesnt want any of this hes just#being horribly manipulated and doing whatever he can to survive but its also really scary how#well hes able to lie and manipulate and claw his way through but hes also weaker than a grade schooler#and you never forget that either and as much as he cheated his way through he still failed it was all just a cheap trick in the end#and all of this hits very hard like his personality is eerily similar to mine and just the way he thinks and acts#cuz im the same like im weak and a dweeb who likes funny cats but im also emotionally detached and observant and selfish#but where it hits the hardest is his relationship with midori like oooof that one was too real just like#the first person who was ever his friend was horribly abusive and treated him like a child and didnt respect any boundaries#and he just got sick pleasure out of seeing shin be upset and he was like. a groomer#and shin was fucking relieved when he died but also kept his scarf and adopted his personality to survive#and still goes by sou after ch2 and the scene that gets me the most is when shin ai is asked about his relationship with midori#and you can just SEE how horrified shin is because his deepest shame his abuse is being shared to everyone without his consent#and hes reliving it all in that moment and literally seeing who he used to be experiencing the abuse#he just curls into himself and like covers his ears and pulls his hair thats literally what i do AAAAAA#im just so grateful for the direction they took this character kokichi ouma wishes he was shin tsukimi so bad#and yeah just like damn. its scary how similar i am to shin like damn i really am going through it huh oof#I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I WILL DEFEND HIM WITH MY LIFE HE DID ALL OF THAT STUFF YOUR HONOR BUT LISTENNNN#have you considered that hes cute and smart and weird and maybe just needs friends who arent assholes
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i do think they majorly fucked up in some really important aspects of her character but i still love dahlia hawthorne so much the version of her story that exists in my head is literally perfect
#the original “god forbid women do anything” to me. but also her backstory is genuinely really sad#the family drama. the sibling angst. their horrible parents. terry fucking fawles.#she just handled everything about it in the worst way imaginable. and then continued to do that for everything that happened as a result#she made her choices and they were bad and in that way her fate is all her own fault. but it also isn't really.#she's responsible and she does genuinely suck but if her circumstances had been different...#also i don't buy it for a second when she says she was the one who decided iris should be abandoned#that's so clearly her trying to retroactively claim agency of a situation where she didn't have any#because their dad fucking sucked. so bad.#m
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