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radioactive-cloud · 7 months

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jesus my life is so awfully boring

#i want to have a hobby and read books and write and watch movies and series and go for walks and have fun and be fun #but i don't want any of those things #i just rot and scroll tiktok and occasionally watch letsplays on youtube because my brain finally allowed me to do at least that #i miss the times when i was interested in things #and actively participated in them and had ideas and created stuff (even if it wasn't great)#and now it's hard even to be a consumer #i'm wasting so much time just existing and being there and not doing stuff #and i know i'll regret it so much when i get older and have nothing to look back on #but changing is too hard i guess so i just complain over and over and over instead of doing something about it #oh well #whining for the sake of whining #personal

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canisalbus · 8 months

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I say this in the best way, but your characters feel like they're from an obscure but really good piece of media, and you feel like the artist who always draws the two main characters as ghay lovers

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#that's actually a really flattering thing to hear!#and I get what you mean #every now and then someone mistakes my art as fanart of some piece of media #that they don't recognize but like the art anyway #I wish I had the product to give to you #a graphic novel or a webtoon or a written narrative #I fear there's a hole the shape of the main story in my work #and even though I allude to it and talk about it in the safety of the tags #it's kind of frustrating that you have to piece it together from the scattered bits of lore #instead of reading ~the thing~ digesting it and knowing you have consumed the story in it's intended form #this got a little off track #I think it's so motivating and rewarding that you're interested in my characters to begin with #even in the absence of a proper finalized work of fiction that ties all the art together #answered #anonymous #imagine a reality where they aren't lovers in the canon work but I just ship them really hard #even better if they aren't even the protagonists but some inconsequential side characters #that get two minutes of screen time every other episode and barely ever in the same scene

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that-butch-archivist · 2 months

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1 out of 4 accelerated summer courses finished today. Next to go is Chem.

#i have not told my friends who are being supportive of me going to college #but i am very behind on chem #pretty much on top of english and psych #mind you the chem isn't hard it's just very time consuming and i work 50 hrs a week overnight #not even by choice on some level there's just literally nobody to work overnights #and It Is Such A Problem my single other coworker keeping nightshift alive at this 24/7 job and i are ... we have rioting to do #but anyways this is largely because i was having troubles with my adhd meds #and then hit the self destructive dread #which is such an odd problem to have when every other part of you is banging on the walls ready to go and kick ass #but so it goes #but i will catch up because i must and i want to and because i must #and because i didn't realize most of the people in my bio class were also going for the nursing program #i love the people on my bio class i'm super excited now #archivist talk #the archivist regrets starting nursing school #the archivist will get through it they just have to whine about it a little first #i was telling the archival assistants (my cats) but frankly one is too busy getting the zoomies and the other is trying to figure out #the best place to lay on me #and i shall not disturb her #my fair lady of orange #okay i work at 7P goodnight

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biblically-accurate-dca · 6 months

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these are all kind of Bad but this was the best of the bunch so i am posting it :p

i've been trying to draw vanessa more... she is so important to me... sun is here too i guess

#my art #probably wont tag this until later i dont want this in the tags #im mainly posting this because i absolutely need to talk abt something its been bothering me for awhile #im gonna censor this stuff (i REALLY dont want this in the tags) so just bear with me #why doesnt the 🌞&🌜 fandom talk abt v/nessa more. why do we not do that #their entire character is meant to parallel her #there's like a million tiny parallels for them in the games. they were both teased in the hw1 dlc and are both associated with that #🐰 & 🌜's animations (and even their designs) have several similarities to each other #there's a lot of cutscenes and parts of sb where one shows up after the other does.. 🐰 going to the daycare after greggy leaves #🌜 dragging feddy away to parts and service and v/nessa immediately showing up there #the entire 6am ending sequence ???#literally like the only reason v/nessa isnt more popular is bc like 90% of her character is hidden in unused content #and because 🌞&🌜 are the skinny handsome mysterious and tragic tumblr sexymen #and when they become so isolated from their source all of their parallels to her are used to instead repackage her character into a more #appealing design for everyone to fawn over and consume #.. im being dramatic but AuUGGHTHHF IT BOTHERS ME SO MUCH PLEAAAE3 pleaseee please i love her.#its so hard being in the 'i want to kiss this robot' fandom when you dont actually want to kiss the robot #i just think theyre an interesting character 😭 and also my adhd brain obsesses over them endlessly so im just stuck here HFJSJGJD #anyway these tags got way too long dont read these. im going to bed now

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sillyabtmusic · 7 months

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(240209) dOpamine - KB

#flashing #onlyoneof #kb #shin kyubin #lyonet #kpopstages #kflops #malegroupsnet #* my gifs #nkd.gif #ooo.gif #ooo.kb #okay these are okay quality wise BUT they're also a milestone for me because i figured out gif panning #but i use photopea not photoshop so i had no tutorial just math and stubbornness :P and i'm super excited abt it!!#it's not that hard you just have to calculate how many pixels it takes to reach your start motion to end motion then figure out what #interval to move your frames by. and you have to do it pixel by pixel naturally #but it's really not that hard!! a little time consuming. but now that i know how i'm sure it'll be a little faster in the future #anyways it's bottom left in this set that i panned and honestly i can barely tell so i consider this a WIN #the only reason you can really tell (imo) is because his features blurred a little during the motion and obvs that's kept even if you pan #anyways this footage was 4k but it also sucked a little idk. no i've never touched a ts file in my life i have no access to them and failed #my own searches. but noentheless i'm done rambling. if you read all this hello o/

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phoenixcatch7 · 8 months

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We could make Sqq a transformer in his past life. Like optimus prime sorta transformer. Cybertronian.

He'd be the only surviving seeker (winged guy) on the autobots side (I don't know all the canons but I don't think they have, like, any). Pretty young when the war started - unfathomably ancient for humans, the kiddie of the group to them.

And he arrives on earth. Discovers the Internet. Immediately gets hooked on critiquing stupid Web novels in every language, which being a sentient machine he can do at great speed without forgetting anything. Decides to read the final chapter during a battle because he's so close to the end and airplane had better pull SOMETHING good. Is so infuriated (distracted) by the ending he messes up and immediately gets killed by some low level decepticon. After FIVE MILLION years of war he gets offed by some loser over a stupid human story that wasn't even very good. He dies SO furious.

And then he gets reborn a human.

He is, as the kids say, big mad.

How by Primus do they do anything??

#I can't decide if back on earth it's post reveal or not because the revelation that a cybernetic alien soldier was the one being catty in #the comment section of his harem story would break sqh. It'd be so funny if he didn't believe him tho #Sqq trying so hard to blend in when he knows basically nothing about even modern human norms outside of stories and memes #No one can decide if Sqq just has hallucinations or has been possessed by an eldritch monster #Sqq: *under his breath because his thoughts are so hard to hold on to now* I MISS being able to fly myself #Sqq: *drops important items like xiuya because he keeps forgetting he doesn't have hammer space anymore* *heavy sigh*#Sqq: *does a weird twist of his limbs because he can no longer turn into a vehicle* *mortified*#Mqf: shixiong... Is everything alright?#Sqq; who's been trying to air drop his medical information to his hard drive because he's too squeamish to say it out loud: yeah - Yes.#Sqq with great feeling: humans... Are so SOGGY. You're all so SQUISHY and full of all sorts of nasty FUILDS. I have to consume SO much #And all I get is SMELLY #No wonder your species started global warming #Sqh: bro can you not??#He adores lbhs cooking tho.#svsss #shen qingqiu #transformers #scum villain's self saving system #the scum villain's self saving system #scum villain #He's an idiot but he's an incomprehensibly ancient battle hardened 7m tall metal warrior squished into mortal form idiot #He is not picking up the signs lbh is putting down #At least once he figures out human limitations he can be a good strategist again

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carpisuns · 1 year

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gaining a new interest/joining a new fandom is always kind of intimidating it feels like there’s so much you’ve missed out on by not enjoying this thing before so you’re like GRAHHHH got to catch up so I can have peak enjoyment like all the Enjoying This Thing experts around here! which is so silly bc if you enjoy a thing you’re already there but. yknow

#like when I got into hockey I was like studying all the rules and terms and players and team history and stuff #so I could be able to talk with other fans and understand everything #and like when I got into ml and owl house it was like ooh gotta binge watch all the eps #gotta see what the fandom vibes are and read the good kush fics and find a group of friends to brainrot with #and now w zelda it’s like #woof #there are so many games spanning decades!!! and I only have a switch so I can’t even play most of them lol #and the lore is fascinating but sometimes convoluted and confusing lol #bro the timeline. help #it’s just a lot of info and stuff to consume djdjdk #and im brainrotting so hard so part of me wants to find a loz discord server or soemthing l #but I feel like i would not be able to be on equal footing discussion wise bc I have only played a few of the games #it’s cool tho i have one irl friend who’s very excited abt me getting into her fav series haha #and I’m enjoying seeing people’s art and stuff #and making my little doodles #ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ <- me having a good little time being bad at gaming and obsessed with a tragic blond boy yet AGAIN #mine

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bonetrousledbones · 1 year

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my biggest irl secret is that at some point i started telling people i like drawing skeletons because i was too embarrassed to say i draw undertale fanart and that snowballed into getting more skeleton themed things which i liked but didnt really go out of my way for and now its not a lie anymore and whenever i need to buy something i will try my very best to find a skeleton version of it and now i’ve fallen to my self fulfilling prophecy of becoming the skeleton guy

#trousled rambles #its so funny to me now. i didnt wanna be cringe but now im just weird in a different way #there is an actual plastic skeleton (his name is roderick) hanging from my bed in my dorm rn. my roommate gave him mini sunglasses #that bed also has skull shaped string lights under it #half of my tshirts have skeletons on them #i have one ribcage hoodie and have been trying for several years now to get another one for my birthday #i have one singular necklace that is not skeletom themed. my favorite necklace is a cat skull #the only reason i dont wear my shoes with skeleton feet on them is because they hurt my feet #listen. people will tell you not to let lies snowball but they never tell you it can actually be so fucking funny #its not even a lie anymore this is just genuinely who i have become #this lie has consumed me and im better for it #EDIT I FORGOT ABOUT MY SKELETONS SHOWER CURTAIN AND SKULL SHAPED SOAP DISPENSER AT MY HOUSE #AND HARVEY!!!!! MY OTHER PLASTIC SKELETON IM SO SORRY HARVEY YOU WERE TOO HUMAN SIZED TO BRING WITH ME #final edit. i also forgot my jack skellington mug that i'm using as a pencil holder #look when you accidentally give yourself a niche of easy gifts for people to give it is your civic duty to lean into it as hard as possible

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pardonmydelays · 19 days

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i also think it's kinda cool how tyler makes me want to learn stuff

#y'all think i just sit here and reblog pictures of him but no #i started playing uke again after such a long break only because of HIM #i used to be so scared of barre chords that i never even tried to learn them i was just avoiding all the songs with barre chords #then i learned tear in my heart and i stopped being so scared #i figured out all the chords to saturday just from this one video which i thought would be damn hard but it wasn't #he makes it all look so easy #i don't know #he inspires me pretty much every day #i always think to myself: if he can do it i can do it too #i love him so much i can't even explain it #it may sound stupid to you but yes this man is the reason i want to get better at things even if it's gonna take years #one step at a time #i also want to try to learn new stuff #like i painted my jacket and i was never an artist but i had so much fun i am going to make more stuff in the future #i also wanna try to write again (i used to write a lot when i was a teenager) idk idk #tyler joseph the man that you are #i don't think i've ever felt this way about any artist really #i was mostly just consuming the content but now i actually wanna do stuff and idk #if that makes sense #but yeah #but sincerely can you hear me?*

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huntunderironskies · 2 months

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lies face down on the floor and doesn't get back up again for a few hours

#i'm fucking free.#for non gw2 moots #this is one of the best qol unlocks in the game short of legendary items #it is also EXTREMELY expensive and time consuming #even if you're doing the baby mode iteration of it that i got to do #i had the hard mode version open for over a year and could never force myself to finish it #however all unlocks are account wide so i never have to do this again #and i have a dragon friend #...........now i have to start another grind to get the siege turtle lmao #thank you to the guildies for helping w the grind <3 #razolutions

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bunnihearted · 2 months

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#i feel the way i feel and i dont owe it to anyone to hide my sadness </3333 #also i just have bpd and even somewhere many ppl have that u cant even say anything but im just having a breakdown now 🤷🏻‍♀️#anyway what i wanted to say is that i AM sensitive and emotional and stupid #and it does hurt so much when the person i want and love doesnt feel that way for me #and i feel bad saying stuff like this bc ppl dont really understand but #i dont feel..: a whole lot... for anyone but him thats just how it is #so he IS a loss he IS so hard to lose and thats just how i feel #and it hurts sm bc hes the only one i wanna talk to but i cant #i know this is smth most ppl deal with in life and like it's just part of being a human #i just everyday keep thinking of things that remind me of him or i read a book i wanna tell him abt and then the pain comes back #bc the thing is i kinda only want to talk to him abt it all bc i just dont /feel/ a lot talking to others #that doesnt mean i dont appreciate it or care i just dont know how to explain #maybe it's my avpd? but i just dont feel happy or nice or good or comfortable or excited or interested in the same way :((((#i dont know i barely know what im talking or thinking about #and i keep saying the same things over and over again im just so sad and it feels like i always will be #bc i have bpd and then the pain feels all consuming and like it will never end and its just so hard to deal with #and even if it might be true when ppl say stuff like u deserve love or you're gonna find someone else etc #im not ready to receive it bc i only want this specific person and i get that many ppl deal with unrequited love and its part of life #but i AM scared bc im 25 and i've never ever met anyone i feel even a fraction for what i feel for him #what if im someone who doesnt get many chances w ppl? what if im cursed to be alone and never find anyone i have a mutual connection to????#so therefore i just wanted thought believed and hoped it would be him #and yes i acknowledge that a lot of it was just me wanting that and not realizing reality but its still how i felt #and as a bpd girlie my emotions are all consuming 🥴#so bottom line is i kinda just wanna die bc i wanna talk to him every second bc im crazy and mentally ill and since i cant do that im in sm #pain hahahah :D #and i will complain abt it bc it hurts so much idk what to do!!!!! ☺️

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tineymang · 1 month

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i cant believe i havent posted these yet..... ive been collecting some plushies over a while to represent the guys in my eos team (and lumi) and i thought it would be a fun way to officially christen them by sewing them some lil accessories to match the ones i draw them with!

a few wip pictures below the cut!