#and now it's going to take longer to fix

[laurelwinchester]

at this point my doctor’s ‘’chill’’ demeanor is becoming a fucking problem

[sheila--e]

riz wip 👍

[telesodalite]

Sort of a ramble, sort of me just writing my thoughts out while I'm stuck with writer's block, but I keep thinking about how Fulcrum was in stasis for roughly 3 million years??

Like, that's a long time, even for Cybertronians. Not a really long time, not an entire lifespan. But still, it's a large chunk of a normal lifespan just gone. Poof.

One second you're crawling across the pockmarked terrain of an alien planet, surrounded by the sound of gunfire, and the shouting and screaming before and after each earth shuddering impact of another k-con hitting the ground. And then it's quiet. You're not there anymore. You're drifting somewhere between not alive and just asleep. Preserved somewhere in the background of a doomed body, ignored by time and space, still here, but also not.

And then there's sound. Not gunfire. Not shouting or screaming. Not the sounds that'll haunt you till your dying days, your own death sentence pounding in your head. No. Just voices, talking, standing out against a silent, dead world. Wondering. Joking. Bickering. Familiar. Just, not familiar to you. And you're awake. Pulled back from the nothingness you've been frozen in, consciousness tugged forwards with the yank of a fuel pump and the nearness of life.

These two moments are roughly 3 million years apart, but only minutes, maybe even seconds, to him. From a hectic harrowing battlefield, to an old silent graveyard in one blink.

How long did it take to really sink in? I mean, he seems to just roll with it. He doesn't seem particularly bothered. But like, what happened outside of what we see? How did he really feel?

Also, his body aged without him. While his mind preserved itself, freezing him as he was right then, his body was left to weather Clemency for all those years. No wonder it crumbled to dust when he jumped off the world sweeper. It's probably a miracle of some kind that it didn't just fall apart each time someone leaned on him.

And even after they rebuild him, give him a better, newer body. His spark, it's casing, all the irreplaceable core bits that make up their inner bodies, it aged in the time without him. Does he feel it? Does it make his body even more foreign to him?

Then he's also a technician with information that's 3 million years out of date. Lucky him that the scavengers probably weren't working with top of the line material. But still it's gotta be weird when faced with anything brand new, because a lot can change and progress in 3 million years, and now some of the knowledge he once prided himself in is obsolete.

Besides those things, his view of the galaxy, of the war, of their kind, of other kinds, is one of the few things actually pointed out when it comes to him being stuck in the past. So, how often were his old views challenged? Facts of life he held close proved to no longer true? There's 3 million years worth of new science, new beliefs, new words, new terms, new views.

And sure, some of it can be familiar, because they're an ever evolving kind, and they have patterns, core beliefs, repeating behaviors, but a lot of it's gonna be unfamiliar at the same time, because it's 3 million years worth of catch up, it's not like missing last week's trend.

In a way, it makes him a living relic of a bygone era for Decepticons. It would've been really interesting to have had that explored a little more.

[vocaloid-song-showdown]

vocaloid song showdown bracket (masterpost)

hi happy miku day <3 <3 <3 i didn't mean to take so long to get the bracket arrangement up but if it has to be late what better day to upload them than 3/9 :'D

anyway here are the lineups ^^ (formally done this time)

round one is scheduled to start this sunday on march 12th <3

(all links are in the read more since there are a lot of them)

rounds ::

all rounds to be posted

playlists ::

nominated songs bracket songs honorable mentions poll runner's favorites (to be posted after the polls to prevent bias)

main matchups :: (spaced by era)

songs with a * next to them may focus on and/or contain topics that might be upsetting to some. please proceed with caution. please feel free to reach out if you'd like more specific warnings. - alice of human sacrifice* by yugami p / fear garden* by chaa - magnet by minato p / romeo and cinderella by doriko - world is mine by ryo / world's end dancehall by wowaka - triple baka by lamaze p / the disappearance of hatsune miku by cosmo p - meltdown by iroha(sasaki) / luka luka★night fever by samfree - fire◎flower by halyosy / trick and treat by oster project - daughter of evil by mothy / dancing★samurai by kanimiso p - rolling girl by wowaka / matryoshka by hachi - madness of duke venomania* by mothy / alluring secret ~black vow~ by hitoshizuku x yama - senbonzakura by kurousa / outer science by jin - doubleganger by kulfiq / mikusabbath by utsu p - jinsei reset button by kemu / common world domination by pinnochio p - the fox's wedding* by masa works design / tokio funka by takamatt - heat haze days* by jin / patchwork staccato by toa - six trillion years and an overnight story by kemu / lost one's weeping by neru - aishite aishite aishite by kikuo / echo by crusher p - setsuna drive by taki yoshimitsu / yoake to hotatu by n buna - a fake fake psychotropic by kairiki bear / therefore you and me by tadanoco - my r* by kurage p / i'm glad youre evil too by pinnochio p - chururira chururira dadada by kurage p / mkdr by deco*27 - blessed messiah and the tower of ai by hitoshizuku x yama / 86 by dasu - law evading rock by neru / nakakapagpabagabag by dasu - sand planet by hachi / ghost rule by deco*27 - monster by kira / hated by life itself by iori kanzaki - cause i'm a liar by mcki robyns p / honey i'm home by ghost - hole dwelling by kikuo / bring it on by giga - meteor by divela / seraphim on the ring by mitchie m - the court jester by thquib / casino by azari - king by kanaria / villain by teniwoha - lower by lanndo / phony by tsumiki - higanbana milk tea by vane / scapegoat by ghost - queen by kanaria / bug by kairiki bear

honorable mentions matchups ::

electric angel by yasuo p (original), giga (giga arrange) / freely tomorrow by mitchie m po pi po by lamaze p / go google it by wintermint p black★rock shooter by ryo / bacterial contamination by kanimiso p i like you, i love you by gevanni p / first love academy • school of true love by nem

[kickassfu]

what if?

and i mean what if

i just got my ass out of the chair

got dressed

put the clothes out to dry outside

and did something?

what if?

huh?

what if

[jensonsbuttons]

gonna watch turkey 2020 to feel something

[betterthanbatman1]

Summer has been over and winter is here. Yes. I swear the weather just decided to skip autumn and jump straight to winter (I’m judging this by how cold my hands have been)

Anyway, classes have started and this academic year is going to be… fun/sar. I’m going to be more inactive than usual to focus on my classes so yeah.

Sip some hot chocolate and do some Jason Todd fanart for meeee *cries*

[lightdash]

this site is a cockroach (affectionate) and has survived much worse, i.e has "died" many times. it's not going anywhere yet, but transistion to a skeleton crew does mean we'll be getting less updates. sad to see but unsurprising given the... issues (me having to run four different addons just to make the site work). i'll be here 'til the ship sinks. 🫡

[pepprs]

my depression is getting really really bad. like it’s been bad before but this is like… consistently really bad. like a long unending stretch for several weeks (and tbh months) now. to the point where no inoculation actually sticks (and im isolating myself from most of my inoculations anyway and feel unable to stop doing it even though i know it’s self destructive). im either helplessly unbearably miserable or numbing out on video games. i just don’t feel like it’s going to get better for me and i KNOW that is factually untrue but the feeling is louder than the knowledge and it’s just utterly immobilizing. ive been sinking in quicksand for 2 years.

[skrunksthatwunk]

wip as an excuse to show her off because she's cute to me but also so i can rant in the tags about The Malfunctions I Am Experiencing During This Piece

[exopelagic]

okay facing consequences of my actions

[cannibalisticskittles]

i LOST my unopened birth control and i've been panicking ever since realizing that (last night)

i was going to call the pharmacy and ask if they had any way of filling another one so that i could be still taking my pills while searching for it, even if i have to pay for it without insurance, but they're closed today

[beepmon]

i’m panicking about my health, my car, school, my future, my relationships with ppl, about my entire life rn p much

[ssaalexblake]

like due to the new photo editor i am Definitely quitting making episode gifsets like that will make it impossible :/ 

[charmspoint]

The original thing I'm brewing rn is like: Do you wish your romance novel was written by an aromantic asexual who views love as something to strap on a vivisection table? Do you wish your romance novel included themes of identity formation and crisis, of emerging self-governing and the fear and the thrill of it, o being built wrong through none of your own fault and having to adjust that wrongness into a functioning human identity, of the first experience of ever being loved after a long existence of blind worship, of love as a transformative power, as a corruptive power? Do you wish the guy was the sub?

[yangscowlick]

Astro Bot’s love letter to prior icons inspired me to re-try Shadow of the Colossus again. I had tried playing the PS4 remake a few years ago, but quit in frustration after just a few colossi because the controls/camera were so atrocious.

Anyways, I can now say I’ve completed it. I can’t say I enjoyed it, but I will say I respect it. I can’t imagine how its sense of scale must have felt back in the day. And try as I might to put myself in the shoes of a nine year old playing on their PS2 and experiencing something that was so beyond its years, it just can’t overcome fighting the camera and mechanics the entire game to get there. I know the remake was trying to stay true to the original, but good god that was an exercise in patience and anger management and not an exercise of wonder and poetic tragedy like it could have been.