#and now i'm NERVOUS AS HELL
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i'm being very fucking brave about starting classes to get an asl interpreting degree you guys. please clap
#den posts#answered an email abt a class placement interview since i have previous experience#and now i'm NERVOUS AS HELL#god. jesus christ. SOS. i want this so bad but i'm scared
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Chapter art now that I can actually make things again :]
#i finished this first chapter pretty quickly. but i went back and changed things around so many times#idk why I'm so fucking nervous now? it's my dumbass little fic what the hell#danganronpa another#dra#dra -2+2#kizuna tomori#kanata inori#hyena scribbles
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runs to request u to draw the beaker twins
Ah yes, the spawns of hell. I'm sorry I made these during my break at work yesterday. I was going to post it but I passed out right after I came home from work. Also here's a bonus doodle of the Clokis and the sims 4 Nervous, which I labeled him as a clone of the original Nervous in my past posts
#my bullshit#my art#fanart#requests#the sims 2#ts2#the sims 4#ts4#strangetown#atom beaker#ceres beaker#nervous subject#Sims 4 Nervous#Greenvous#I'm calling each clone by nickname now#Just to make it easier#These gremlins make this clone's life a living hell#Loki's little spawns of hell#The clokis#I also give each clone a different mohawk#Cause I personally think each clone would ne different than the original#the sims 3#ts3
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not me curling my laptop charger wire the way you curl band equipment cords HAHAHA god i miss it
#i really said “okay big performance in the city square let's make this work” and i did but absolute fuckery of the manager just made me...#and she also used to complain about being an opening act-- like come on that's a nationally-renowned band and we're not there yet 😭#we used to fight a lot though so ack i really should have taken that as a red flag#but i was 14 and stupid 🤷♂️#being solo way better uM i shouldn't say this yet but i got a commission today audhauagah i don't even have a portfolio#fuck guys i'm so so so nervous from big changes in life because uM god i just came from actual hell with various things working to make me#kms#but uH we're uH not too keen on that anymore atm and uH it's probably going to all fuck up after i share that i have good news in life#but yk what#let's keep challenging god#i know he hates me#but we will not be defeated we will strangle him by the tie#AHHHH help me i want to get into music again pls pls pls pls pls#anyway back to my old band manager#she was known for being a shitwad in the scene anyw but i was young and stupid as i sais#and i defended her and rationalized her behavior because “we're friends right”#i'm starting to get why my mom is wary of people i get to know#i'm tbh a fucking idiot i would never admit that elsewhere (nah i do) uM my brain is bouncing off the walls#i took a bargain with 7pm coffee and look where it got me#i was also getting up there in my 5 days of uni absences agsgshags#DOES ANYONE ACTUALLY READ THESE I KINDA HOPE NOW NO ONE DOES#IM KINDA UHHH MY CHILD THERAPIST SAID UNCONVENTIONAL#I THINK SHE MEANT FUCKING CRAZY#sorry#oh yeah i walked tf out the band after that big performance set up just for us because i couldn't keep working with that kind of environment#other bands started flocking to recruit or proxy after i was let go by my famously fucked-up ex-manager LOL#but um i have issues so i'm not among them and i think they get the message tbh#appears and disappears#that is actually my brand
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if any of you all could send me some good vibes and well wishes for my huge exam tomorrow that would be much appreciated <3
#i've been studying for this exam for a long time now#and at this point i'm just ready to get it over with so i don't just keep building it up in my head#but it's a super important component of my psychiatry residency applications so i'm still nervous as hell for it
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So me, Tara, and her two roommates decided to run a lil DnD campaign/series of oneshots (for us to get acquainted with all the mechanics since it's pretty much everyone's first run) and we had our session zero a few days ago. Tara was our DM and she did a phenomenal job!!!! Here's a few highlights:
Our 7-feet firbolg wizard (Amdrus) somehow became a squirrel deity.
Our dwarf barbarian (Karmin) built a most excellent barricade... for peeps his height and under 👌😂 He carried us during the first half of the session though! He was the only one rolling double digits lmao.
We snared the poor bandit that wandered away from camp to piss and hung him upside down with his dick out. Between that and a high intimidation check by my tabaxi warlock (Dante), he turned into a sobbing, pissing-and-shitting mess.
me: "Could I attack the approaching monster? Do I see it?" DM, with the biggest shit-eating grin you've ever seen: "Do you look up? 😇😇😇" me: "OH FUCK YOU". Cue manticore reveal.
me, terrified: SO ANYWAY I STARTED BLASTING (19 and nat 20 on my eldritch blasts, but rolled a 1 and a 2 on the damage dice 🙃🙃)
Amdrus was hellbent on reasoning with the manticore. The others weren't having it: Dante fireballed its ass (it was sooooo satisfying) and Karmin cleaved it in half.
DM kept rolling like shit to the point where one of the bandits shot himself with a crossbow and pisser kept failing his saving throws to free himself.
As a side note, turns out DM is really good at squirrel impressions, monster voices and sobbing NPCs lol. Tara's roommates have a toddler and she thought Tara was upset for realsies XDD
The only enemy we left alive was Mr. Pisser, whom we interrogated, fed, cleaned up and dressed in the garb of his fallen comrades (who turned out to be his brothers, whoops). We felt too sorry for him to turn him in, so Dante sent him to his ex's tavern so he could turn a new leaf...... while "kindly" threatening the shit out of him one last time 🤣🤣🤣
Somehow the only damage my character sustained was one (1) squirrel bite.
We harvested some meat from the manticore to cook next time ala Dungeon Meshi. Will we poison ourselves? Guess we'll find out! :D
#dnd campaign: the barbarian the cryptid and the kitty cat#-> not sure this'll be the tag but it works for now#but yeah i was sooo nervous going in but had an absolute blast (ha!)#sorry this post is messy as hell i'm just rambling here
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Me this morning: happy, chill, sleepy, in my warm bed, all is right with the world
Me now, after talking to people about legal stuff that, if I fuck up even the tiniest bit in any way that's perceived as malicious, I'll suffer big huge consequences for: no longer chill and vibrating with anxiety, time to die
#not skeleton stuff#rambles#hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#god i hate this#i need someone who's more qualified to do this for me instead#i don't understand shit#I've never done this before#so as you can imagine it would be EXTREMELY easy to fuck it up#and to top it off; i fucking hate phone calls#they make me nervous as all hell#is it ok if i disappeared into the shadow realm now#anything to escape this hell that I'm currently experiencing
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#trying to not get too nervous because of tomorrow#if you had told me 9 years ago (hell even 3 years ago) that i'd be trying to be a journalist exactly here#i would've laughed it off and asked you if you confused me with sb else or had something in your drink lol#tbh idk what the fuck i am doing most of the time and especially now#but i just remembered#how i nervously apologised for having shaky hands when i met claus the first time#and how he replied something along the lines of: oh no it's ok i just had shaky hands earlier during the show#man what are you even nervous about? you never mess up anything onstage#so that's comforting somehow#it's going to be ok they won't eat me alive and i'm allowed to have shaky hands
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i need to kiss someone right now. i need to hold their face as i lean in for the kiss. i need to feel their lips against mine and have our tongues slide across each other. i need to feel the slight hesitation before they finally give in and kiss me back with everything they've got. i need to feel the saliva stringing between our mouths. i need to feel their hands pulling me closer, desperate to feel all of me
#i just woke up from a dream where one of my friends wanted to kiss me but was too shy about it#but i could tell they wanted it so i gently rubbed their face and leaned in most of the way#and let them close the distance. they were still nervous until i slipped my tongue into their mouth#in which case all worry left their head and they kissed me back proper#and it was everything I've ever wanted in a kiss. but now im awake completely unkissed#I'm tired of getting teased by my dreams like that..#i get stuck with all this vivid passionate imagery and no fucking outlet#i feel so pathetic yearning this hard but all my peers have had their first kisses#friends that i wanted to kiss going and kissing eachother in front of me just for the hell of it#the girlfriend i dated for longest refused to kiss me. i got like. maybe 2 cheek kisses? never once on the lips#even when i asked she would say no. i dont resent her for it but Man did it hurt#the closest I've ever gotten was one of my friends shotgunning me hits from his bong#every time my heart flutters and i want to kiss him for real#ive just been searching for someone to kiss me for a very long time#and ive just never found them...
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my fucking god. 5 days until i'm in the same room as phil
#im actually so glad i didnt get meet and greet because i would be freaking the hell out right now and not in a fun way#i'm already nervous about being at the preshow like god. what if they look in my direction#WHAT IF THEY ANSWER MY QUESTION.#im not strong enough for this
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FELLOW DOISE ENJOYER HIHIHIHIHU!!!!! giggles and shakes hands and shakes YOUR hand (unless you dint like touch then I just stand there vibrating aggressively) HI!! HELLO!!! Im so nor al about doise are you normal about doise???
VIOLENTLY VIBRATES absolutely NOT normal about this man I'm feeding him rocks as we speak
Also hi you're my first ask let's goooo
#now i need a tag for asks uuuuh#toasty response#there#also I'm so sorry I'm nervous hrbahdjfh#my hands are sweaty as hell so i opted to vibrate at you#my communication skills are lacking i apologize
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been blurry & dissociated practically all day, feeling doesn't abate after 2nd round of auditions, get home. new guy shows up. what the fuck
#bluplural#🤘#anyway hi!!!! i don't know what the hell is happening right now#well i mean i do in a literal sense because our memory sharing is decent enough to get by even when i'm a brand new dude#but less literally i'm having a severe what the fuck moment#why are we stress splitting????? what the fuck!!!!!!!!!#anyway this is uhhh Bad i think#i don't like being in front can we have the other guys back#like ford he seems nice he seems a LOT LESS NERVOUS than i am!!!!#ugh this sucks randomly the host will just fucking dip and someone else gets to play ''pretend to be him'' and i'm stuck up here for-#-GOD KNOWS HOW LONG!!#trying to determine whether or not i'm a fictive of a character at the moment so names are hard#if i'm actingbased that barely makes any sense since round 2 of auditions ended TODAY and we haven't even tried to play my hypothetical-#-source yet!#so what the fuck!!!#am i an anxiety holder??? that seems right kind of#i'm very Tense. like my existence seems to be eternally stuck in panic attack mode#OH THANK GOD I THINK THAT;S FORD#THANK FUCKING GOD
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we weren't supposed to get another roommate this semester but surprise!
#mine#so now it's me. roomie. roomie b. and a new roomie c to replace the last one#got a surprise visit from the staff scrambling to place her#she should be here tomorrow#I'm not nervous like the two previous times#I'm actually kinda excited#even tho it'll be hell to split the freezer space
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celebrating signing the paperwork for the full-time position I'm starting in a couple weeks (!) by immediately buying a couple of the niche gmless rpgs I've had bookmarked for months
#I'm going to be a surgery tech! v excited to learn anesthesia more comprehensively and see a wider variety of cases again#I'm nervous but I know they'll be training me for a while before sending me into handling anything on my own#also now I get to schedule Time To Drop with some folks from my board game group. hell yeah.#in which Ruth makes text posts
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I'm trying to find ways to slowly ease my way into taking walks (debilitating social anxiety) so I was going to download pokemon go again but my phone is too old :(
#im actually very upset abt this lol#all of the other tricks ive found rely on having a dog to walk#and like i would love to get my own dog but i absolutely cannot afford one lmao#so i guess i just. still can't go on walks#nobody seems to understand just how impossible it is for me to walk down the street when im not trying to get somewhere#like just going for a walk for fun/to look at nature feels like im being killed#people are LOOKING at me and when someone even so much as glances at me while im walking i instantly feel like I'm doing something wrong#or like they're going to misunderstand my sort of odd behaviors#i can't walk slow because they'll think im a stalker. i can't walk fast because ill get out of breath and they'll think im disgusting#i can't keep a normal pace because im too nervous and i just spend the whole time tense and hate myself even more when i get home#like. what the hell am i supposed to do lol#getting a dog is the only way i think i could stop myself from spiraling like that bc of COURSE im walking slow and leisurely.#im walking my dog. my dog wants to smell and has to poop or whatever#im no longer a freaky fat stalker im just some guy walking my dog#this became more of a vent than i was expecting lmao but if anyone has any actual tangible tips for how to go on walks i would appreciate it#when i had to walk 2 miles to class i used to take a small part of an edible right before i got on the bus lmao and that worked WONDERS#but i don't want to have to do that just to walk around my own neighborhood when i eventually move out#i just want to be normal lmao i want to go out and find bugs and look at leaves#i guess i could walk in the woods but what if i get lost#i want to be able to look at stuff. i want to be able to stop and look at a plant while some person passes by me#without feeling like im going to blow up or like they're going to hit me or like IM going to hit THEM#im used to anxiety but i always feel so erratic in public places. when everyone wore masks i was a little better#i still mask most of the time but it doesn't help anymore bc now im like one of the only people that does it#so now instead of blending in AND having my face covered i just stand out more#my face is still covered so it still helps but its like barely a net positive lmao#i want to be able to look around without worrying that someone is looking at me from their window and thinks im a stalker#truly how the hell am i supposed to do that without a dog lol
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MADE AN APPOINTMENT FOR A VERTICAL LABRET!!!!!!!!!!
#Unbelievably excited and also probably more nervous than for any other piercing so far????#Like ive had my eyebrow pierced (rip king u will forever be missed) and my septum#But bc I've had to put this one off for so long I'm now way more nervous#Also i feel like if ur lip piercing looks crooked ur fucked#My septum is crooked as hell and idc it looks fine#An eyebrow piercing is offset anyways#But a vertical labret....... That shits gotta be perfect#A fraction of a millimeter crooked and it's fucked#ANYWAY this is me speaking into existence that I'm not gonna rot in a dark hole this summer#I am not gonna sit in my room paralysed for three months just bc school is on a break#Autism kicks my ass every time school routine falls away#BUT NOT THIS TIME I am aware and doing my best!!!!
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