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Having a mental breakdown at work while smiling and teaching 😄
#star speaks#no because we had like two spirals last night#and then anxiety all night and then I made it worse :D#then I didn’t properly eat this morning and now I’m spiralling about five different things at once#and this is what I mean when I say PTSD is a physical disability because :D as soon as I get home and I don’t have to be at work#I’m going to be physically incapable of doing anything :D#I want to kms because it’s not even an environment problem it’s just my brain doing things#and being at work around a triggering co worker just started a new spiral#and I am taking five in the bathroom ^_^#and now I’m scared to go out#but I have to#*grits teeth and mentally punches a wall*
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✨ Dragon Supremacy ✨
these guys r all i draw and literally plague my brain 24/7 plz send help-
anyway tho, these cuties belong to @paintedkinzy-88 (go check them out they’re cool and yes this is a threat 💥🔫)
if some of them look more detailed than others is cause they r and most of these were doodles i did in class lol
not Reaper tho, i put some time and effort into him haha cause he requires many MANY references to look good
i’ve also been trying to play around with wings and different poses so some look a little wonky but i think they work for the most part
also i realize i made everyone but Life noooo but she’s so pretty how could i do this to herrrrr 😩
don’t worry i’ll fix that soon enough lol
enjoy this fr ig but i’ll be back 😈
ALSO #ERRORSWEEP ALL THE WAY BABYYY HE’S GETTING FIRST THIS YEAR RAAAAAAAA
tho i’d be suuuuuper funny and iconic either way if he gets second for the third time in a row lmaooo
#reaper sans#ink sans#error sans#dream sans#nightmare sans#dragon balance au#utmv#i really did Life a disservice here 🥲#also Dream has just been turned into a certified fluffy guy like 🥺#ugh he would be the best cuddle buddy#mmmm reaper did turn out rlly yummy tho fr fr#now hopefully i can doodle him more causally now that i’ve reminded myself of his design and anatomy lol#i’m drawing Error and Ink more tho cause i’m staring to understand wings better lol and they used to scare me 💀#haha improvement go brrrrr#sleepies art
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sketchbook sillies
#took these in the dark . can u tell . i know u can (they look like shiart im sory)#i can draw javi with my eyes closed + studying him is easy and fun so i tend to draw him a lot. plus he comforts me. i’m sorry kieran i miss#u so bad and i want to draw u lots but i don’t have the strength to look at ur in-game model as much as javier’s …….. :(#i promise i’ll study him soon so i can get the hang of him again#still slowly trying to get back in the swing of things since getting out of the hospital … life is so odd for me right now :/ anyway …#i promise i’m going to get to the things in my inbox as fast as possible im just … a slow person ….. and im so tired ….. please be patient#with me ….. thank u very much to everyone who said anything to me tho i look at them and smile every day even tho i dont have the energy to#do anything with them outright yet :]#anyway … my pookies … trying to make drawing fun again and practicing so slow …. i’m scared of burnout bad#i miss them so bad#javieran save me … save me ………….#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#kieran duffy#javier escuella#javieran#image#art#hero draws sometimes#putting the art in shart with these i’m ngl but im just trying to have fun again :(
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I’ve been highly confused as to why Michael “deeply openly thirsting on Twitter about David Tennant for half a decade” Sheen is half-in half-out the closet but apparently Wales is absurdly homophobic lmao what the fuck how is a country the size of New Jersey that much of a hater bruh we out number the shit out of you
#i thought googling ‘how to say gay’ in welsh would be funny but it just made me sad#i knew the uk in general had a problem with trans people but WOW it’s fucked up in wales like. there are 8 of you what are you doing#i feel bad now lmao#wales#my weird welsh hyperfixation has taken me places let me tell you#cymru#homophobia#gay#lgbt#lgbtqia#good omens#bbc staged#michael sheen#i thought he was just ‘oh i’m quiet about my personal life’ but that’s not even true like my man’s probably actually scared#what a fuckass country lmao awesome#uk politics#united kingdom#david tennant#what is it with this tiny ass island taking over the world and being shitty lmao and this is coming from an american#bisexual#<- bisexual gang gang feel bad you fuckin haters lol#yes the whole world is homophobic i know etc but it’s like outrageously bad out there apparently#stay mad that i think nationalism is dumb ‘how dare you ever have an opinion you american’#you’re white you are not going to like where the power + privilege argument inevitably goes
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Every time I think Sasuke’s clear and obvious homosexual obsession with Naruto might be maybe a little one sided, Naruto will do something absolutely insane like walk into his childhood room after two years, grab his dusty picture of Sasuke, gently brush it off, fingers lingering for a moment over Sasuke’s face, and lovingly whisper “Sasuke…I’m home…”
#n-naruto….on god what the hell is wrong with you#SITTING ON HIS BED HOLDING SASUKES PHOTO AND WHISPERING HIS NAME???#H O W does ANYONE watch this fucking show and now IMMEDIATELY clock these two#I’m at the point where I’m starting to think it’s .. just what the author intended#like….who wrote this. and why#I could easily look it up but my fav explanation is ‘person into shonen who had or had a crush on his childhood best friend’#‘and is still working some things out in regards to it’#anyways#I have a theory that this is why classic anime ‘bro’ types don’t like sasuke#they are unable to reckon with the sheer magnetic force of their extremely obvious love for each other#I think it scares them#DOESNT SCARE ME BITCH#NARITO GO GET HIM BACK FROM ORROCHIMARU SO YOU GUYS CAN KISS ITS IMPORTANT#naruto#sasunaru
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Kurt put a pointed finger to Blaine’s chin and raised it slightly, exposing the full length of his neck. “You look delicious,” Kurt said, his eyes widening hungrily, irises colouring red and pupils turning into slits. He wasn’t hiding his desire for Blaine in the slightest.
Blaine swallowed and felt heat rising in his cheeks. He tilted his head back further for the vampire, not quite able to determine how much of his actions were completely voluntary.
“Blushing, are you? Cute. I haven’t blushed in over 400 years,” Kurt flirted darkly. “Looks good on you. Very appetising, so nice and full.”
Kurt was talking about his blood, Blaine knew. The blood he was gonna draw from him any minute now. With his teeth. Straight from his neck. Blaine’s breath hitched. “You can… you can drink from me now, if you wan’t.”
“Oh sweetheart, not yet.” Kurt winked. He floated around Blaine and settled behind him, his lips grazing the skin below his ear. “I like to prepare my food before eat. Get it nice and hot, you know?” He trailed his fingers lightly over Blaine’s body as he floated around him again. “Maybe it would taste even better stuffed. What do you think?”
“I...” Blaine felt his blood rush in his ears. He nodded. “Stuffing sounds good.”
“Excellent.”
#my art#glee#klaine#klaine fanart#‘Tis the season!#And I’m not taling about Christmas…#It’s vampire!Kurt season babyyy!#I got a little too obsessed with my own art and wrote this little drabble to go with it..#I’m thinking of extending it to a complete little smutty one shot if I have the time#if enough people are interested ;)#but for now please enjoy this art and the drabble!#Kurt’s pose was tricky.. especially because I didn’t have a reference#but I’m really proud of how it turned out!#Kurt hummel#blaine anderson#vampire!Kurt#also… Blaine might look a little scared.. but I PROMISE he is into it ;)#also ir was veryyyyy hard for me to draw Kurt without his usual blushy cheeks
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Hey, Hunter!
Aside from the chronic back pain, what other long lasting symptoms did you have from the Rot, if any?
((Okay! So my attempt to answer this somehow developed into a rant about Hunter’s characterization so… here you go lol.))
So I have to answer this on Hunter’s behalf, because part of his character is that he doesn’t like to admit any sort of weakness. Apart from chronic pain, I essentially just gave him the symptoms of low iron. He gets light headed and dizzy, and he is often tired or low energy.
Hunter has this mindset that being weak, or showing weakness makes you useless. (I wonder what could have possibly made him develop that way of thinking. Surely nothing to do with the way he was raised and treated growing up.) Keep in mind, Hunter’s very logical logic only applies to him. He wouldn’t judge Survivor for not being strong, Hunter just has unhealthy expectations of himself that definitely aren’t realistic anymore with his post-rot symptoms, and were never actually that realistic to begin with.
He has a habit of ignoring his own symptoms, and pretending to be perfectly fine when he isn’t. He’d never admit it if his chronic pain is making it difficult for him to function properly.
(His physical health is one thing, but don’t even get me started on how Hunter views his mental health lmao.)
Uhhh anyways bonus light headed/dizzy Hunter:
#Rw siblings au#Rw Hunter#Me when I PROJECT#I have low iron#I also feel genuine fear/panic when I hear the word ‘whining’ lmfao#Noooooo I’m not weak at all#Let me go for this run even though I’m light headed because I don’t want anyone to think I’m trying to get out of running#And then why don’t I faint on the road like a dumbass#But hey at least nobody accused me of making my condition up for attention or something#Like I’m scared they would have if I’d tried to sit out of the run#Haters (my parents) be like:#“Stop whining! Suck it up! You’re being dramatic!” ��😡😡#And then I faint and suddenly my mom’s all:#“Why don’t you ever take care of yourself???” 🥺🥺🥺 “if you were light headed you should have told somebody!!!” 🥺🥺🥺#Like UGHHHH shut up it’s your fault I’m like this#I’m gonna shut up now I just realized I’ve been venting in the tags lmfao#Anyways I love projecting on the sillies#Gotta be one of my favourite hobbies
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trying not to have a panic attack over the food that’s been stuck in my throat for about 2 and a half hours now while afraid that if I throw up I’ll choke but swallowing is intensifying the pain and making me want to throw up and it isn’t moving down. Liquids aren’t helping cause they trigger a gag reflex which is making me choke and my nose is getting runny so I’m trying not to freak out but I’m alone and could choke.
Sorry for the vent I’m just scared, texting family now so I’m not alone, I have no idea what to do. I might go get changed tho.
#Vent#i’m actually really scared#Going to get help now#seeing if moving helps#Changing to be comfy and not wearing a binder in case we have to go to the doctor#I think I just have to wait it out tho#Will keep this as a check in so y’all know I haven’t chokers and died on a piece of chicken lol
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#not sure how long I can go on feeling like this#like its fine im fine im not going to do anything permanent or harmful#but my tolerance for discomfort I am finding out is absolutely in the fuckingn ground#which makes a lot of sense considering the amount of coping mechanisms I’m using To numb on a regular basis#but holy fucking shit I can’t keep feeling like this#i need to start feeling like myself again#i don’t feel like myself#i feel no creativity#no spark#no interest#everything is difficult#even everyday tasks like putting on makeup feel like climbing a mountain#and I feel so ashamed for the struggles#and Caige keeps telling me to be gentle with myself#but I feel like I can’t be because if I’m gentle with myself than I’m scared I’ll never get out of this pit#i feel like I just need to power through it#was googling#‘how to get over burnout without taking a break’#and it’s like. ‘how to fill up your car with gas without putting any gas in the tank’#but I’m so fucking stubborn I feel incapable and unwilling to give myself time or space#which is dumb because it’s not like I’m making any progress with the way things are going now#im just exhausted#sleeping so much#don’t know how to get back to myself#rabbit rambles#no need to say anything I just needed to get this off my chest
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Bunny in danger!
The Chain leave Bunny somewhere safe to clear a monster camp on their trail. Despite Wild’s assurances, Bunny isn’t so safe after all.
@thatonecrazysidekick @tiredgaytheatrekid pssst more Bunny! (I’m sorry)
TW for blood and injury.
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Black sand exploded around him, and with half his group of monsters disintegrated, Hyrule had a second to breathe before the final four pounced all at once. A spear cut a fierce gash into his right arm, blood dribbling from the wound and staining his dark sleeve. Another nicked him on the calf. A third, he grabbed by the shaft and twisted out of the monster’s hands, relishing in the way its eyes widened in alarm before he shoved the weapon back into its owner’s stomach, the monster crumbling into black sand.
A high squeal, that fiery protectiveness within his chest swelling, forcing him to look up in time to see Bunny slam into a tree with a sharp shriek. Hyrule’s heart jumped into his throat as the little pink rabbit crashed to the ground in a heap. He didn’t move.
The fourth lizalfos took advantage of the distraction and sent its spear through the back of his thigh. Pain turned his vision white and Hyrule stumbled, the spear sticking out from the front of his leg, blood trailing down his thigh in dark rivulets. Then, he caught sight of that tiny bundle of pink fur, of a lizalfos stalking over to it, a fierce bite wound in its arm, and a wave of blistering fury and golden desire to protect flooded his mind. The air around him crackled.
“Don’t touch him!” A sharp snap of his fingers, and then dozens of bolts of lightning slammed into the ground all around him, turning the world white. The ground shook and lizalfos shrieked in terror, the sounds cut off swiftly.
And then the lightning was gone, leaving behind seven stunned heroes, their hair frizzy and wild and their eyes wide. Hyrule paid them no mind, nor did he feel the normal drain such a significant spell would cause or the spear still embedded in his thigh; he frantically hobbled over to Bunny, kneeling alongside him and gritting his teeth as the spear in his thigh shifted, his vision swimming alarmingly.
“Bunny!” His hands were already glowing a tender pink, healing magic at the ready, and he pressed them against Bunny, closing his eyes as his magic sought out the wounds his little friend had accumulated. His magic pulsed in response, a warning he ignored as he trickled more into Bunny’s still form.
“Traveller, your leg!” Wild had joined him at some point. Hyrule hadn’t noticed, when the edges of his vision were blurry, his ears roaring with blood. Now, his veins began to boil. “You need to—”
He turned to Wild, teeth bared. “You said he would be safe!”
Wild’s eyes widened and he flinched back as if Hyrule had struck him. “I…”
“Look at him! He almost died because of you! This is your fault!”
“I—I’m—” Wild’s eyes glistened now, and Hyrule found the flames were only stoked by the sight.
Before he could snap anything more, Twilight pushed himself between them. “Enough!” he hissed, pushing Wild away. “Take a walk, Cub.”
“B—but, I—”
“I know,” Twilight said, gentler than Hyrule thought Wild deserved. “We’ll talk later. I’ll take over.”
Wild nodded shakily, scurried away before Hyrule could say any more.
#Hyrule doesn’t mean anything he said btw#he’s angry and upset and scared and in a LOT of pain#he won’t let Bunny out of his sights easily after this#when he crashes Bunny sneaks away though#(to sit with Sky while he plays his harp. Bunny is sad after this)#Hyrule and Wild will be having a talk about this dw#these two are besties in every universe no matter what it takes to get there#I love them so much#it’s so hot here right now so I’m posting more Bunny early to distract myself from the miserable heat#I want to keep writing but it’s too hot :(#first Wild POV and I can’t even keep writing… curse you Australia and your fierce summer#please manifest us some rain if you see this the fire threats are real…#lu#loz#lu pink bunny au#linked universe#lu fic#linked universe fanfic#faye writes#lu Bunny#lu hyrule#lu wild#lu twilight#tw blood#tw injury#I’m going to try take a nap now wish me luck#oh also Hyrule is fine#he gets two potions in him after the spear is painfully removed and Twi carries him (Hyrule still carries Bunny)
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me when vaguely psychedelic kids media from the late 60s/early 70s that feature musical elements…
#this is obviously about the monkees but i’m also thinking about#the bugaloos#and#sesame street#like early sesame street of course#and what about Harry Nilsson’s the point??!!#i love the point :)#and then you can’t forget#the brady bunch#and i’m gonna slap in some hanna barbers#BARBERA#scooby doo#and because miiiiccckkkkyyy#butch cassidy and the sundance kids#!!!!#i thought as a kid i’d grow out of kids media and get into ‘adult’ stuff but i watched all the horror and dark stuff i could handle when i#was 15/16 and now all i want to watch is kids stuff#kids stuff that is super trippy mind you#but i’m like scared of adults media or thoughts of the monkees getting hurt in any way like i want happy snuggles and psychedelic colors#yes it’s two in the morning and i remembered the bugaloos exists#should i get into the partridge family at any point? like really watch it and not just see something about david cassidy and laugh??#i probably won’t but alas#i’ve gotta go to sleep now goodnight!!
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Me, two years ago: I hope this heals on its own so I don’t have to go to the doctor about this
Me now: FUCK I should’ve gone to the doctors about this
#for context#I think I fractured my foot two years ago :/#but I was so worried that they’d put me in a boot#and my job revolved around driving and didn’t offer disability pay#and I was worried I’d be out of work for 6-8 weeks#so I just didn’t go#and now my foot hurts all the time#what if I need surgery to fix it I’m so scared :(#Maeve talks#ok to rb btw I feel like this is relatable to usamericans haha
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Just saw the results and I don’t think I can live or do anything in the future knowing them
For once in my life I am not looking forward to the next year
#literally having a breakdown now#I shouldn’t have looked#I can’t eat or celebrate holidays knowing he’ll dictate if I or anybody else deserves to live next year#I don’t feel safe getting a job#I could go to therapy for this#but what if I accidentally get a trump-supporting therapist#I’m so so so so scared#my dad might actually consider moving out of the country#cw: Trump#politics#vent
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100 pulls
100
ONE HUNDRED PULLS.
ONE HUNDRED PULLS. (100)
DORM VIL.
NO PLAYFUL LAND ACE. ONLY DORM VIL.
#i’m dropping out of collage i’m doing it now#bye#i give up#143 pulls no ace#twst#twisted wonderland#playful land#playful land ace#ace trappola#vil shoenheit#gacha thoughts#kms#UEAAAASHH YEOUCH!!!!!!!!#i’ll do it i’ll do the fucking 200 pulls they’re going to be so fucking scared of me.
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I always forget how scary it is at night time at my childhood home (it’s a school now) that’s set far back in the forest & away from any roads
like I grew up here but I can’t go there alone at night because it feels like the killer could be hiding anywhere. I don’t think I was scared when I lived there? I mean I knew it was haunted but I was never scared of the ghosts & that’s not what I’m scared of now. it’s more that it’s isolated & being there alone at night feels like a scene from a slasher & I know it doesn’t get locked so I always imagine the killers is waiting around every corner or crouching in the weeds or woods outside. maybe it’s scary because no one lives there now….
#rose.txt#I had to make my sister come down & meet me cause I was too scared to go in alone#& the whole time I was leaning against my car outside waiting for her I saw a shadow in the weeds our front & thought#god this is how I die#then when we went inside I was like. oh my god were subverting the tropes & expectations#now she’s here & we’re inside THIS is when the killer comes#well we did encounter Ethan (one of the ghosts) briefly#he was creaking around in the dark downstairs hallway & freaked us out a bit#but again. I’m not scared of him.#I’m not even scared of his bitch mom I’ll call her a bitch to her Face IDC#(yes there’s extensive ghost lore to this place)
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Okay, but like. The symbolism of Nick being the one who gives shelter to Kieran & MC. The man whom Eisa loved in secret but was too frightened to love in the public, now giving refuge to the child whom Eisa only bore by leaving him & the mortal whom that child openly adores. The fact that Nick has somehow stepped up for both of Eisa’s children, even when they’re fighting each other. The fact that Eisa leaving Nick is both what allowed Kieran to have MC & what orchestrated the current threat between them, and throughout it all Nick has stood steadfast, not on the side of the mortals, or the side of the Fae, but on the side of love. And the fact that he doesn’t even know he is doing it. The fact that Nick looks at Kieran and sees Eisa metaphorically, and he doesn’t even know that he is also seeing her literally. The fact that Kieran is there in Nick’s tavern and they represent everything that Nick fought for long ago, threatened by the person that Nick has been fighting for ever since. The fact that the last of Kieran’s bloodline is trying to kill everything they love, but also the last of Nick’s bloodline is trying to kill everything he could have loved, once, and Nick has stood in the way of that without even knowing what’s going on. The fact that Nick seems almost fated to be a guardian in this story. The fact that Eisa gave him an amulet to keep him alive to protect Jack, and she didn’t even realise she was also keeping him alive to protect Kieran. The fact that Nick has lived the kind of lifespan that Jack & MC both dream of, but Nick has lived it through losing his love, and MC wants it in order to remain with their love, and Jack wants it in order to fight for people like Nick without knowing that Eisa is the reason he’s lived so long in the first place. And the fact that Nick was never meant to live so long, his mind is falling apart, he is fated to protect these people but that also means that he is fated to his doom, and the fact that I don’t know what that means for MC and Jack and Kieran and I just. I just. I just.
I just have feels okay.
#seriously – this book is increasingly blowing my mind#it’s always been good but these past few weeks have been astronomical#i have this really strong feeling (/hope) now that Nick is going to play some kind of role in Jack easing up on Kieran and MC#and i also kind of feel as if Nick is going to die during the book#it just feels like the natural outcome of the book’s messaging about immortality and also a good parallel for Kieran losing Sir Montgomery#but when we consider what the implications of that are for *MC’s* dream to live a lifetime with Kieran???#i’m just as excited & just as scared to find out as anybody else 😳#playchoices#choices: stories you play#the cursed heart#tch book 2#nick tch#jack tch#prince kieran#kieran x mc#fandom essay#original post
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