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Having a mental breakdown at work while smiling and teaching 😄
#star speaks#no because we had like two spirals last night#and then anxiety all night and then I made it worse :D#then I didn’t properly eat this morning and now I’m spiralling about five different things at once#and this is what I mean when I say PTSD is a physical disability because :D as soon as I get home and I don’t have to be at work#I’m going to be physically incapable of doing anything :D#I want to kms because it’s not even an environment problem it’s just my brain doing things#and being at work around a triggering co worker just started a new spiral#and I am taking five in the bathroom ^_^#and now I’m scared to go out#but I have to#*grits teeth and mentally punches a wall*
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✨ Dragon Supremacy ✨
these guys r all i draw and literally plague my brain 24/7 plz send help-
anyway tho, these cuties belong to @paintedkinzy-88 (go check them out they’re cool and yes this is a threat 💥🔫)
if some of them look more detailed than others is cause they r and most of these were doodles i did in class lol
not Reaper tho, i put some time and effort into him haha cause he requires many MANY references to look good
i’ve also been trying to play around with wings and different poses so some look a little wonky but i think they work for the most part
also i realize i made everyone but Life noooo but she’s so pretty how could i do this to herrrrr 😩
don’t worry i’ll fix that soon enough lol
enjoy this fr ig but i’ll be back 😈
ALSO #ERRORSWEEP ALL THE WAY BABYYY HE’S GETTING FIRST THIS YEAR RAAAAAAAA
tho i’d be suuuuuper funny and iconic either way if he gets second for the third time in a row lmaooo
#reaper sans#ink sans#error sans#dream sans#nightmare sans#dragon balance au#utmv#i really did Life a disservice here 🥲#also Dream has just been turned into a certified fluffy guy like 🥺#ugh he would be the best cuddle buddy#mmmm reaper did turn out rlly yummy tho fr fr#now hopefully i can doodle him more causally now that i’ve reminded myself of his design and anatomy lol#i’m drawing Error and Ink more tho cause i’m staring to understand wings better lol and they used to scare me 💀#haha improvement go brrrrr#sleepies art
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I’ve been highly confused as to why Michael “deeply openly thirsting on Twitter about David Tennant for half a decade” Sheen is half-in half-out the closet but apparently Wales is absurdly homophobic lmao what the fuck how is a country the size of New Jersey that much of a hater bruh we out number the shit out of you
#i thought googling ‘how to say gay’ in welsh would be funny but it just made me sad#i knew the uk in general had a problem with trans people but WOW it’s fucked up in wales like. there are 8 of you what are you doing#i feel bad now lmao#wales#my weird welsh hyperfixation has taken me places let me tell you#cymru#homophobia#gay#lgbt#lgbtqia#good omens#bbc staged#michael sheen#i thought he was just ‘oh i’m quiet about my personal life’ but that’s not even true like my man’s probably actually scared#what a fuckass country lmao awesome#uk politics#united kingdom#david tennant#what is it with this tiny ass island taking over the world and being shitty lmao and this is coming from an american#bisexual#<- bisexual gang gang feel bad you fuckin haters lol#yes the whole world is homophobic i know etc but it’s like outrageously bad out there apparently#stay mad that i think nationalism is dumb ‘how dare you ever have an opinion you american’#you’re white you are not going to like where the power + privilege argument inevitably goes
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Every time I think Sasuke’s clear and obvious homosexual obsession with Naruto might be maybe a little one sided, Naruto will do something absolutely insane like walk into his childhood room after two years, grab his dusty picture of Sasuke, gently brush it off, fingers lingering for a moment over Sasuke’s face, and lovingly whisper “Sasuke…I’m home…”
#n-naruto….on god what the hell is wrong with you#SITTING ON HIS BED HOLDING SASUKES PHOTO AND WHISPERING HIS NAME???#H O W does ANYONE watch this fucking show and now IMMEDIATELY clock these two#I’m at the point where I’m starting to think it’s .. just what the author intended#like….who wrote this. and why#I could easily look it up but my fav explanation is ‘person into shonen who had or had a crush on his childhood best friend’#‘and is still working some things out in regards to it’#anyways#I have a theory that this is why classic anime ‘bro’ types don’t like sasuke#they are unable to reckon with the sheer magnetic force of their extremely obvious love for each other#I think it scares them#DOESNT SCARE ME BITCH#NARITO GO GET HIM BACK FROM ORROCHIMARU SO YOU GUYS CAN KISS ITS IMPORTANT#naruto#sasunaru
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Kurt put a pointed finger to Blaine’s chin and raised it slightly, exposing the full length of his neck. “You look delicious,” Kurt said, his eyes widening hungrily, irises colouring red and pupils turning into slits. He wasn’t hiding his desire for Blaine in the slightest.
Blaine swallowed and felt heat rising in his cheeks. He tilted his head back further for the vampire, not quite able to determine how much of his actions were completely voluntary.
“Blushing, are you? Cute. I haven’t blushed in over 400 years,” Kurt flirted darkly. “Looks good on you. Very appetising, so nice and full.”
Kurt was talking about his blood, Blaine knew. The blood he was gonna draw from him any minute now. With his teeth. Straight from his neck. Blaine’s breath hitched. “You can… you can drink from me now, if you wan’t.”
“Oh sweetheart, not yet.” Kurt winked. He floated around Blaine and settled behind him, his lips grazing the skin below his ear. “I like to prepare my food before eat. Get it nice and hot, you know?” He trailed his fingers lightly over Blaine’s body as he floated around him again. “Maybe it would taste even better stuffed. What do you think?”
“I...” Blaine felt his blood rush in his ears. He nodded. “Stuffing sounds good.”
“Excellent.”
#my art#glee#klaine#klaine fanart#‘Tis the season!#And I’m not taling about Christmas…#It’s vampire!Kurt season babyyy!#I got a little too obsessed with my own art and wrote this little drabble to go with it..#I’m thinking of extending it to a complete little smutty one shot if I have the time#if enough people are interested ;)#but for now please enjoy this art and the drabble!#Kurt’s pose was tricky.. especially because I didn’t have a reference#but I’m really proud of how it turned out!#Kurt hummel#blaine anderson#vampire!Kurt#also… Blaine might look a little scared.. but I PROMISE he is into it ;)#also ir was veryyyyy hard for me to draw Kurt without his usual blushy cheeks
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Hey, Hunter!
Aside from the chronic back pain, what other long lasting symptoms did you have from the Rot, if any?
((Okay! So my attempt to answer this somehow developed into a rant about Hunter’s characterization so… here you go lol.))
So I have to answer this on Hunter’s behalf, because part of his character is that he doesn’t like to admit any sort of weakness. Apart from chronic pain, I essentially just gave him the symptoms of low iron. He gets light headed and dizzy, and he is often tired or low energy.
Hunter has this mindset that being weak, or showing weakness makes you useless. (I wonder what could have possibly made him develop that way of thinking. Surely nothing to do with the way he was raised and treated growing up.) Keep in mind, Hunter’s very logical logic only applies to him. He wouldn’t judge Survivor for not being strong, Hunter just has unhealthy expectations of himself that definitely aren’t realistic anymore with his post-rot symptoms, and were never actually that realistic to begin with.
He has a habit of ignoring his own symptoms, and pretending to be perfectly fine when he isn’t. He’d never admit it if his chronic pain is making it difficult for him to function properly.
(His physical health is one thing, but don’t even get me started on how Hunter views his mental health lmao.)
Uhhh anyways bonus light headed/dizzy Hunter:
#Rw siblings au#Rw Hunter#Me when I PROJECT#I have low iron#I also feel genuine fear/panic when I hear the word ‘whining’ lmfao#Noooooo I’m not weak at all#Let me go for this run even though I’m light headed because I don’t want anyone to think I’m trying to get out of running#And then why don’t I faint on the road like a dumbass#But hey at least nobody accused me of making my condition up for attention or something#Like I’m scared they would have if I’d tried to sit out of the run#Haters (my parents) be like:#“Stop whining! Suck it up! You’re being dramatic!” 😡😡😡#And then I faint and suddenly my mom’s all:#“Why don’t you ever take care of yourself???” 🥺🥺🥺 “if you were light headed you should have told somebody!!!” 🥺🥺🥺#Like UGHHHH shut up it’s your fault I’m like this#I’m gonna shut up now I just realized I’ve been venting in the tags lmfao#Anyways I love projecting on the sillies#Gotta be one of my favourite hobbies
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trying not to have a panic attack over the food that’s been stuck in my throat for about 2 and a half hours now while afraid that if I throw up I’ll choke but swallowing is intensifying the pain and making me want to throw up and it isn’t moving down. Liquids aren’t helping cause they trigger a gag reflex which is making me choke and my nose is getting runny so I’m trying not to freak out but I’m alone and could choke.
Sorry for the vent I’m just scared, texting family now so I’m not alone, I have no idea what to do. I might go get changed tho.
#Vent#i’m actually really scared#Going to get help now#seeing if moving helps#Changing to be comfy and not wearing a binder in case we have to go to the doctor#I think I just have to wait it out tho#Will keep this as a check in so y’all know I haven’t chokers and died on a piece of chicken lol
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hi.
#i know most of you didn’t even realize i was gone#but man…#my mental health was like in a state of 📉📉📉 in the past 30 days like we love being mentally ill and fucking insane <3#it was mostly bc i panicked and started obsessing over possible water damage in my flat kind of out of nowhere#like it started when my landlord came to check my bathroom bc my downstairs neighbours had water stains on their ceiling back in july#which had been caused by their shower curtain apparently but i was already spiraling when my landlord told me so i was sure it was my fault#i was assuming it was bc of me bc i had sometimes been spilling some of my bathwater and i was like WHAT IF IT HAS GONE THROUGH THE FLOOR?#and it didn't help that it has been hot af and very humid in my apartment LIKE WELL OVER 25 DEGREES AND 60% HUMIDITY#anyways i couldn’t shake this not matter what i tried and my fucking insane brain made me think i was going to get arrested for like#flooding the whole building or for causing some sort of mold infestation#i had SO MANY panic attacks; i wasn't able to sleep; i wasn't able to eat; i was on edge and panicky basically 24/7 so fun fun fun :D#and i kept waking up in the middle of the night and HAD to go check my walls or the space below my kitchen#it was compulsory like i couldn't not get up and go check and tbh i would've thrown out all of my furniture if i could've to check for mold#(and shhhh i know how fucking insane this sounds but having a mentally ill brain that's anxious all the time does suck ass sometimes 🥲)#(the worst thing about it tho was that i was SO AWARE of how insane about this i was being and yet i couldn't stop losing my mind over it)#(also i was so ready to move tf outta here bc i couldn't handle being triggered 24/7 which is why my mom let me stay with her last week )#i was so out of it that i couldn't even let myself do the things i usually enjoy... like at all#like watching my shows or spending any ungodly amount of time on tumblr... or replying to messages i got from people who i love#ig this goes to show HOW bad this actually was for me mentally bc usually tumblr and my shows are like my safe place#anyways we finally had a leak detection dude come over today and we had him check the water levels in my walls#and he said everything is fine and he specifically told me i should stop worrying about any water damage BC THERE IS NO WATER DAMAGE#he also said that the weather has just been insanely humid this year so it's not surprising that the humidity levels are higher than usual#i’m still a bit scared about some possible mold but ig this is good enough for now#i am aware how ridiculous this must sound for anyone who's reading this now but couldn't let it go not even with meds so let me live pls :(#TLDR I WAS GOING THROUGH IT BUT I AM BACK I THINK AND I AM MOST LIKELY GOING TO START BOTHERING YOU WITH MY GIFS AGAIN <3#AND I JUST REALIZED I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN ANY OF THE HEART KILLERS STUFF YET ASIDE FROM ONE OR TWO PICS LIKE :(#OH AND I NEED TO START WATCHING SUMMER NIGHT ;_;#sabrina talks#@AIRENYAH GIRL I AM SO SORRY I WILL PROBABLY REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGES LATER TODAY OR TOMORROW MORNING ;_;<3
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Me, two years ago: I hope this heals on its own so I don’t have to go to the doctor about this
Me now: FUCK I should’ve gone to the doctors about this
#for context#I think I fractured my foot two years ago :/#but I was so worried that they’d put me in a boot#and my job revolved around driving and didn’t offer disability pay#and I was worried I’d be out of work for 6-8 weeks#so I just didn’t go#and now my foot hurts all the time#what if I need surgery to fix it I’m so scared :(#Maeve talks#ok to rb btw I feel like this is relatable to usamericans haha
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Just saw the results and I don’t think I can live or do anything in the future knowing them
For once in my life I am not looking forward to the next year
#literally having a breakdown now#I shouldn’t have looked#I can’t eat or celebrate holidays knowing he’ll dictate if I or anybody else deserves to live next year#I don’t feel safe getting a job#I could go to therapy for this#but what if I accidentally get a trump-supporting therapist#I’m so so so so scared#my dad might actually consider moving out of the country#cw: Trump#politics#vent
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100 pulls
100
ONE HUNDRED PULLS.
ONE HUNDRED PULLS. (100)
DORM VIL.
NO PLAYFUL LAND ACE. ONLY DORM VIL.
#i’m dropping out of collage i’m doing it now#bye#i give up#143 pulls no ace#twst#twisted wonderland#playful land#playful land ace#ace trappola#vil shoenheit#gacha thoughts#kms#UEAAAASHH YEOUCH!!!!!!!!#i’ll do it i’ll do the fucking 200 pulls they’re going to be so fucking scared of me.
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welp… guess I’m not coming out for the next four years either :)
#personal#us elections#may I just say as a queer woman and poc but most importantly someone who missed the age cutoff to be able to vote#I genuinely don’t think I’ve ever felt more helpless than in this moment#like I’m at the age right now where I’m planning for things like moving out of my family home#That means in the next four years it’s very feasible for me to get r*ped and need my reproductive rights#It’s very feasible for me to find another woman who I want to spend my life with for which I need my right to equal marriage#And it’s very feasible for me to want to walk down the street without getting fucking shot for which I need my right to fucking live??#And just sitting through the past 9 or so hours watching my country put a man in office#Who would look at me and probably not even consider me a full human?#Or think I deserve all those rights?#A man who I don’t think is going to protect those rights?#I’m the kind of person who will never stop having faith in this country no matter what state of shittholery it’s in#Because if you look at our history we’ve had way bigger assholes than this guy and come out surviving#But I’m scared yall#I’m genuinely really scared
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more and more I’ve been wanting to go by they/them but I don’t want to give cis people the wrong idea that I’m not actually a man because I know they would not fucking behave
#It was such a fight to get people to call me he/him that I’m scared to switch again#but like eugh. I’ve really not been liking it lately#like I don’t consider he/him misgendering but it’s just like a strategic allowance. Like it’s fine but not my preferred way to be addressed#I feel like I went super hardcore into being a binary trans person and now that I’m a few years deep into transition#I’m finding a lot of things about being a man not compelling or interesting at all#it was a refuge from cishood but now that I’m secured away from it I don’t find masculinity all that interesting#I don’t experience the trans euphoria I hear people talk about it’s more like the absence of despair#which is not the same thing#+ also going by they/them professionally would just be outting myself publicly on a daily basis#and the last time that happened well. It was very bad lol
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We’re getting closer and closer to the first anniversary of my moms death and I’ve realized I haven’t let myself feel it. Like truly feel it. I’ve been pushing and pushing and forcing it down and today it really fucking hit me. I don’t have my mom anymore. We’re never going to make up and have a real relationship. She’s never going to get sober or clean. I’m never going to hug her again. She’s just gone. I don’t have my mom. And I can’t fix that. How do I fix it now that she’s gone.
#grief#delete later#I think about the fact that I didn’t hug her the last time I saw her all the time#I was still so angry#and she made such a big deal out of me not hugging her#that I just fucking refused#and now I’m never going to get to do that again#and then the next time I saw her was two days before her death and I d#couldn’t even think of what to say even though everyone kept telling me she could hear me#and then my grandmother tried to push me into talking and I snapped#and said I had nothing to say to the woman who abandoned me my whole life#and I don’t remember if I ever told her I loved her#and I’m so scared that the last thing she heard me say was something so hateful#she wasn’t a good person but she was still my mom#and I didn’t even hug her when she was dying
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Slight volume warning
He was just excited to finally be invited to something :(
#twisted wonderland#twst malleus#malleus draconia#twst azul#azul ashengrotto#twst rollo#rollo flamm#glorious masquerade#twst shitpost#flump!#I know for sure malleus ain’t standing for this#singing a full musical number at your enemy’s ball after they just tried to kill you core#happy very belated glorious masq#let’s pretend this is for book 7 coming out in en instead#heck yeah guys! book 7! wowza! it’s so awesome! (I just started book 4 idk what’s going on in book 7 and now I’m too scared to ask)
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I’ll give you my heart if only you’ll eat.
I am not well about the imagery in the newest chapter. I guarantee I’ll be back with more art in a day or so. @cemeteryguy :))
#The Bizarre Diet of Marine Captain Koby#koby one piece#op koby#captain koby#one piece fic recs#op fanart#op coby#coby one piece#coby#straw hat crew#one piece strawhats#one piece#Printed out the chapter just to gnaw on it like a feral animal I’m so sane I swear don’t worry.#The characterization in this fic is top tier I can’t express even. Franky and Usopp and Zoro and FUUUUCCCKING SANJI!!#Don’t even get me started on Luffy and how much he just doesn’t give a shit about whatever the hell is happening as long as Koby eats.#it’s his love language. Giving and sharing food.#and Zoro!!#Did. Not. Give. One. Shit. ‘You don’t have to say anything if you don’t want to.’ HE CARES! SO MUCH! KOBY HE CARES ABOUT YOU ’:(#Zoro knew koby when he was yae high and was scared of Helmeppo of all people. He don’t give a shit. So you’re weird now. Get in line.#god I’m going to have a heart attack#tw gore#tw blood#tw death#TBDOMCK#straw hat luffy#monkey d. luffy#monkey d luffy#luffy#one piece luffy#mugiwara no luffy
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