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synopsis : genshin boys and their red flags. pairing : childe, scaramouche, xiao, diluc x reader (no gendered pronouns used for reader) warnings : yandere tendencies, unhealthy relationships, mention of controlling and manipulative behavior, each red flag is a warning by itself. author's note : “i don't have favorites” then there's scara part.

overwhelming affection and attachment issues – childe.
childe was not ready for love. maybe he was never meant to love. at least, not in the way that softens his edges and tugs at his heart. and yet, the moment he met you, his world shifted. you were his before you even knew it.
he courts you with unwavering determination. flowers, grand gestures, breathtaking views, mora—he gives and gives, always one step ahead, always ensuring you are left breathless. but then you falter. you worry. you question if a harbinger can truly love, if he can truly stay.
oh, my love, he laughs, voice honeyed with something far too sweet.
his arms are around you before you can pull away, his lips ghosting over your skin in soft, adoring presses. do not doubt, do not fear. if you need reassurance, he will give it. in gifts, in words, in the quiet promise that you are his and he is yours. he will take you to snezhnaya, introduce you as his betrothed, whisper vows of eternity until the words are carved into your very soul.
he loves you. he loves you. he loves you.
and yet, as his devotion smothers, as the weight of his affection grows unbearable, you cannot help but wonder—when he swore to love you forever, did he mean it as a promise, or a threat?
anger issues/violence – scaramouche.
where were you even supposed to start with him? the balladeer, the sixth of the fatui harbingers, the puppet who had carved his own place into history with bloodied hands and a twisted grin. you sighed, arms folded as you leaned against the balcony of the grand estate he had forced into your possession. a mockery of a home, nestled in the land of inazuma—the place of his so-called birth. no, not birth. creation.
he had mansions scattered across teyvat, all under your name. because you were to be wherever he wanted, whenever he wanted. a doll didn’t get to choose where it was placed.
you flinched when the cloth brushed against your shoulder, the sting of the lightning-shaped scar sending a nauseating wave of sensation through you. still healing. still burning. you didn’t have to look to know what it resembled—something eerily close to an electro vision, elegant in design, delicate even. the thought made your stomach churn. he had called it a claim, a permanent engraving on your body, mind, and soul. you belonged to him. he wanted the world to see it.
scaramouche was flawless, sickeningly so. apologies fell from his lips like honey, each word perfectly crafted, a voice dipped in false sweetness. he touched you like you were something precious, fragile, irreplaceable. and yet, it was his hands that had carved this mark into you. love. if he was even capable of such a thing.
you cursed the day you fell for him. but it didn’t matter anymore. not when he had already made you his. not when he had already decided you were never leaving. to him, this was love. a lover’s touch. a lover’s proof. a lover’s possession. what was a little pain, a little blood, compared to the unwavering devotion he had for you? he had never abandoned you. he had never let you go. and that—wasn’t that enough?
of course, he lashed out sometimes. hurt you, left bruises that bloomed like violets under his grip, spat words that cut deeper than any blade. but no one was perfect. he certainly wasn’t, but neither were you. and if you ever dared to point that out, dared to tell him he was flawed, he would laugh—sharp and condescending, gaze slicing through you like a weapon. you? telling him he was in the wrong? how amusing.
had you forgotten every little mistake you made? every time you disobeyed, every moment you disappointed him? he would remind you of them all, recounting each one with that knowing smirk, every slip-up, every failure. yet despite it all, he still kept you by his side. he still loved you, still held you close, even when you were ungrateful. he had never truly hurt you—not on purpose. he had only made sure everyone knew what was his.
you had given yourself to him first. whispered those sweet words before he ever did. you started this. and he was going to make sure you never forgot it. his lips brushed against your scar, his breath warm, reverent. a devotion so twisted it bordered on worship.
overprotectiveness – xiao.
xiao does not understand human fragility. he has spent centuries watching them crumble beneath the weight of time, has witnessed their fleeting existence burn away like paper in the wind. when you stepped into his world, he warned you to leave. you did not. when he told you it was dangerous, that he was dangerous, you only smiled. and so, against all reason, he let you stay. you are the first thing he has ever wished to keep.
he touches you as if you are made of glass, eyes scanning your skin for the smallest of wounds. he does not know how to soothe, only how to watch. and so he does—silently, relentlessly, unblinking in his observation. you tell him he worries too much, that you are fine, that you are not as fragile as he believes. but then you fall ill, and his voice sharpens into something cold. you should have worn warmer clothes. you should have listened to him.
and when harm comes from another, when someone dares to insult you, to lay a hand on you, his restraint shatters. the yaksha is feared for a reason. you whisper his name through clenched teeth, hands grasping at his own in desperate plea. he does not hear you. he cannot. and as the air grows thick with something suffocating, something violent, you wonder—how do you stop a storm that exists only to protect you?
possessiveness – diluc.
diluc has always been protective. of his home, of his people—of you. his love is fierce, a fire that burns not to destroy, but to shield. to him, you are something precious, something fragile, something that must be kept safe at any cost. and he tries, oh how he tries, to remain composed. but love and fear are two sides of the same coin, and as his devotion deepens, so too does his paranoia.
are you safe? are you warm? are you happy?
he is willing to break himself apart for you, to strip himself down to nothing if it means you will never know pain. and yet, the more he loves, the tighter he holds. he sees danger where there is none—a lingering gaze, a friendly gift, a name spoken too fondly. do not speak to them, he tells you, they do not have good intentions. do not take that, it could be poisoned. do not stray too far, let me watch over you.
you need not think, you need not worry. whatever it is you desire, whatever it is you require—let him provide, let him be your everything. he loves you, after all. and love, surely, is meant to protect.
#childe x reader#scaramouche x reader#xiao x reader#diluc x reader#yandere childe x reader#yandere scaramouche x reader#yandere xiao x reader#yandere diluc x reader#childe x you#scaramouche x you#xiao x you#diluc x you#genshin impact x reader#yandere genshin impact x reader#yandere#yandere x reader#genshin impact#genshin#genshin x reader#yandere x you#yandere genshin#yandere genshin impact#yandere genshin x reader#˗ˏˋ꒰ writing ꒱
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Toxicbf!kaiser who always puts soccer above you. He doesn’t think twice cancelling dates for training or matches if it would mean becoming the best.“You should’ve known what you were getting into”
Toxicbf!kaiser who avoids serious discussions. He hates emotional confrontations, can’t handle them and will dodge it or dismiss it completely. “We’re doing fine, why ruin the atmosphere?”
Toxicbf!Kaiser whose ego is his biggest flaw. He will constantly prioritise himself and make you an afterthought not an equal completely disregarding your feelings . May even seem like he’s looking down on you. “You should feel lucky you’re with me”
Toxicbf!kaiser who doesn’t apologise. Even when he knows he’s in the wrong(which is rare lol) he’d prefer to straight up ignore it or buy expensive gifts in hopes you’ll forget. He hates the feeling of being vulnerable.
Toxicbf!Kaiser when you start to pull away from him will act like it doesn’t bother him(it does). He thinks you’re just trying to get a reaction from him, he’d call it “cute” He fully thinks you’ll come back(until you dont)
Toxicbf!Kaiser who feels something disgusting stir in him when he sees you talking to someone with a smile you no longer show him. He suddenly has a strong urge to be near you to show you’re his glaring at the person.” Are they bothering you,hm?”
Toxicbf!kaiser who starts to panic when he realises you’re genuinely getting tired of him. He’ll try to act like it doesn’t bother him but starts to notice how you don’t wait up for him at night, you dont try to start small chats, you no longer look at him,you no longer send him cute messages on how he’s doing. He’s starting to sound desperate.”Talk to me” “where are you?”
Toxicbf!kaiser who uses anger as a defence. He’ll try to blame you for his issues since it’s hard for him to take the fault. Truth is beneath all the anger is fear-fear of losing the one person that makes him feel something. “So that’s it? You’re just gonna give up on me?”
Toxicbf!kaiser who finally breaks and apologies. Seeing you slip away for good causes him to drop the act. No more looking down,no more games. He looks desperate and his usual cocky voice is replaced by something quieter “I’ve never done this…I- I don’t know how to be…I don’t want to loose you..” hed swallow his pride and admit he’s wrong if it means not losing you “I know I messed up and should’ve treated you better..I’m sorry”
Toxicbf!Kaiser who’d give you space but still be available. Texting you so he can remember you’re still here “have you eaten?” “What did you do today?”
If you choose to leave him for good …he’d take it hard and he wouldn’t be the same. Hed spend most of his time on soccer to try forget everything and his emptiness. It does pay off as he improves even more and becoming the best of the best but when he scores the winning goal and everyone cheers for him he instinctively looks for you in the crowd-to see your not there-he realises how bad he lost
But if you choose to give him a chance…you can see he’s nervous he will mess up again by the way he fidgets more around you. You two would have a talk and Kaiser would open up about his fears and insecurities he’s had and hed promise to work on himself and you promise to help communicate more so you guys can grow from this for the future.
#ifearidforgivehim#kaiser x reader#bllk kaiser#blue lock kaiser#michael kaiser#kaiser x you#kaiser x y/n#kaiser angst#blue lock angst#angst#bllk smau#blue lock#blue lock x reader#writing#x reader#bllk#x y/n#blue lock imagines#blue lock scenarios#bllk x you#bllk x reader#bastard munchen#toxic love#isagi yoichi#kaiser smut
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Prompt #3- It’s on Fright
Summoning has never been off the table. In fact Danny welcomes it.
At least after the first 50 he did.
Now it’s just getting repetitive. Destroy the world, end this specific race, person, sexuality. He’s really heard it all and it honestly sucks. He’s a protective spirit damn it!
Look at all the high and mighty people and cultists that would call on him for their mortal issues? It's even more annoying to listen to the whiney people who think they're entitled to his power or his time.
So he did what he should've done this whole time. If ghosts are strong enough emotional echoes, why shouldn't it be the same way? He establishes a connection between his summoning circle. If the caster's intent when casting the spell is for anything other than protecting life, its free game. Que the registration of numerous ghost to send an echo of themself to fuck with the people who thought they could fuck with the king. Of course, there are rules. You're only there for a short window. No killing is permitted unless a caster is hostile and a threat to ghosts. Ensure the safety and good health of human sacrifices. Blah,blah, blah. But most importantly, make them regret ever casting the spell in the first place. Upon numerous heroes failing to stop the summoning in time, there's a vast amount of random shit that happens further proves to not fuck with the realms. Batman can only hear the nostalgic music before witnessing the lead cultist that nabbed Jason get hit by an ice cream truck driven by a muscular man and little girl in uniforms. Tim and could agree that their soft serve was the best they ever had. Hal comes onto the cultists being forced into a tea party and learning their table manners from a blue dragon in a gorgeous dress and tiara. Flash comes up to Shazam and a lanky grey figure with glasses discussing Justice League fanfiction while the cultists have to cosplay the members and live out their found family dreams. Spectra is having the time of her life honestly. Talking things out with depressed kids to work through those feelings or being allowed to pay a certain clown a visit time and time again for her good work along with, spooking frats and sororities.
Superman has been quick to react to cultists after a little demon of a girl promised to return if he wasn't treating his clone better to not repeat the beatdown that was personally recorded and handed to Lex to make if he agreed to make merch from it. Most summon sites are Jumpscare Central or a straight up scrap. It's also a wonderful chance for Spectra to give the bats what they fear most. THERAPY!!! Under Jasmine's supervision, of course. JLD has heard the outcries of the JL and still keeps their good standing with the king to themselves. Especially that said king is over every Friday with treats and gifts from throughout the ages. He's fallen for the blonde warlock that has always been able to reliably call on him because he only does it when ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY! Danny found it odd that the only person who could call him now was a sad Brit in a trenchcoat but a conversation or two had them see that they were often than not on the same wavelength. Sick of their duty, in need of a drink, and helping the world to the best of their ability. John is just so human and reminds him of how he is too. That soon applies to Zatanna too, who's distraught from leading. Besides, what happens in the House of Mysteries stays in the House of Mysteries.
#dpxdc#dc x dp crossover#ghost king danny#danny phantom#hellblazer#justice league#justice leauge dark#Aged up danny#Zatanna#john constantine#aged up characters#Ghost chaos#Don't fuck with their king#Summon turned on you#JLD ain't no snitch#John and Z may be in a throuple by the time the JL brings this up#polyamory#Danny is living his Bi-disaster dreams#John is a little confused#How tf did he bag two baddies#Zatanna is the most aware person in the room#Of course her husband flirted with the ghost king#Shes not mad about it#I don't know what their ship names are#help#oh god oh fuck
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Okay . More Pizzadebt hcs because they rotate in my head frequently
Mafioso is very ominously forward with his flirting. Will tip a lot of money if Elliot’s the one taking the order, sends his bunnies to give Elliot gifts during breaks, tells Elliot he’ll “deal with” anyone who bothers the place if asked, etc. Elliot would often be a bit flustered and try to return the money/do something in returnin the beginning but now he rolls his eyes and sighs affectionately because wow this guy could not be normal in his flirting to save his life
Despite Mafioso being an intimidating figure he’ll actually get very flustered if flirted with by Elliot. The first time Elliot discovered this he had to keep himself from making the most evil grin on his face. Sometimes Elliot will throw out a cheesy pick-up line when he delivers Mafioso’s pizza and grins as he watches the man pretend he’s not tripping over himself from Elliot’s words since he normally never flirts
Between the two Elliot is actually more scary when mad. Mafioso’s always intimidating and will gladly take out anyone who’s an issue to him, but Elliot is always kind which means when he gets mad he’s releasing at least a few months’ worth of pent-up rage upon the person unfortunate enough to piss him off (based on my own personal experience maining support classes where I feel 100% more rage and bloodthirst playing them compared to other characters). One time Elliot was having a bad week, was delivering pizza, and saw a person flirting with Mafioso, so he kicked them in the stomach while going full speed on his delivery bike all with a cheery if threatening grin. Mafioso was a bit stunned but also rather impressed by the sight.
Elliot figured out that Mafioso was in the Mafia after like visit two because he’s not entirely subtle about it. One visit from a man who talks like the mafia and when asked for a name says “Mafioso” is a funny cosplay. Second visit when he has small blood splatters on his fluffy coat and the other members also look roughed up? Suspicious but could also just be a fancy gang and not organized crime. The second they mention Eunoia by name(in a hushed whisper he was definitely not supposed to hear), he looks her up online after work, and finds out that the model in the city is closely associated with the mafia? Elliot is very concerned, but seeing as Mafioso hasn’t pressured him into doing any crime nor has anything bad happened to the Pizzeria yet, Elliot shoves that problem into future Elliot’s hands. He’s fine with the unintentional mafia connections so if something bad happens because of it then welp that’s on him
The two aren’t vocal about their relationship but don’t keep it a secret either. Most people who find out keep quiet solely for the fact Mafioso is just naturally scary. Within Forsaken they’re a bit more secretive about it especially considering the current general animosity between the killers and survivors. Whenever the two are together in rounds Mafioso will usually just kill Elliot first rather painlessly because he knows he couldn’t bring himself to do it if Elliot was the last one standing. They both agree that the situation isn’t great but rather than blame each other they blame the Spectre because it’s already causing a majority of the issues here
Building on the last point Chance once caught them kissing in between a round and the next round he was with Elliot he kept looking at him with a nervous expression. Chance made a comment about how he was even friendly with the killer and Elliot made a comment about how if they told anyone they’d be banned from eating Elliot’s cooking for a week. Chance likes getting healed and would rather not starve so they shut up and they haven’t spoken about it since
Okay that’s all . For now . I definitely have more Pizzadebt hcs that shall see the light of day but for now I shall retreat until I think of more hcs to talk about here (which will likely be either Elliot John Doe or 7n7 focused since they’re my favorites rn)
[Fun fact! I type my hcs in discord before I send them here and this went over the nitro character limit of 4000. I’m so normal about these two]
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Aw. They're adorable! I can definitely see why people like it.
Also the discord character limit is so real.
#forsaken headcanons#forsaken#forsaken roblox#roblox forsaken#🪶 anon#elliot forsaken#mafioso dream game#mafioso forsaken#charlotte forsaken
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What the hell is going on in the Federal Government?!
I want to share a small selection of a talk I gave the other day about State power, authority, and legitimacy in the context of what is happening at the Federal level. This is coming from a sociological perspective as a means of analysis and is not the end all be all - but I think it can help people understand why things are in chaos and why the Democrats won't do anything different. Now, do remember that understanding doesn't mean excusing.
Also, I think having the right words and theory behind what you talk about is important if you are trying to discuss these things with others.
Government Legitimacy
A legitimate government is one that is recognized as being in control of a nation - this comes from other nations but, most importantly, comes from citizens and civil society of the State claiming legitimacy.
Even with the founding fathers of sociology, we see that Max Weber claims that legitimacy is derived from authority.
Legitimacy: the publicly invoked reasons for obeying or complying with the commands issuing from an authority
Government Authority
What is authority? Weber reasons that if legitimacy rests on the publicly invoked reasons for obeying authority, then we must figure out what types of authority exist. He posits three types of authority.
Traditional authority: authority that comes from tradition - this is the rule of kings and religious leaders (like the Pope).
Charismatic authority: authority that comes from a person's "gift of grace." Basically, they are really good at something that society deems as valuable - examples being Martin Luther King Jr (really good at persuading people), Taylor Swift (produces really popular music), Elon Musk (extremely wealthy and convinced people he's a genius).
Rational-legal authority: authority that comes from the rule of law - this is the rule of presidents and prime ministers; they rule because the laws that are enforced in society say they rule (the constitution)
It is this rational-legal authority that is the most important today - this is the authority of bureaucracy and our modern governments (for the most part).
But what actually gives States authority?
State Power
State authority comes from its ability to have power over the people in its territory.
Power: the ability to get what you want despite the objections and actions of others
There are lots of theorists who discuss the "types of State power," but for simplicity's sake, we can say there are two types of State power: Direct Power and Discrete Power
Direct power is the use of force or the threat of force to compel citizens - the military and the police
Discrete power* is when the infrastructure of society (laws and institutions) directs citizens to obey the State without their conscious recognition - discrete power we might also call infrastructural power
This infrastructure is our bureaucracy, it is the Constitution, it is Congress, it is the judicial branch, it is the president, it is all of the federal agencies.
Direct power and Discrete power back each other up - if you break the law, you get arrested; the law outlines what the police can do to citizens (theoretically).
State power is enacted by the State upon the citizens and civil society, and their recognition of that power gives the government legitimacy.
To put these ideas in order:
So what the hell is going on?!
What Musk and Trump are doing is fracturing the laws and institutions - a key part of State power. This is happening in a few different (and constantly changing) ways.
Musk has no legitimate government authority...or does he??? Trump gave Musk and DOGE authority through an executive order -which is a legitimate power of the president. However, the White House has said Musk doesn't have any authority themselves - yet he obviously does. And DOGE has tenuous authority at best. There are lots and lots of people, both inside the government and without, who do not view Musk or DOGE as having any legitimate authority.
By destroying and gutting agencies, DOGE is breaking institutions that use discrete power to enforce the law. Federal agencies are under the purview of the executive branch of the government - laws are enforced through the executive branch (Congress makes the laws, and the Judicial branch interprets the laws). It is these institutions (DOE, FDA, EPA, etc.) that impact the everyday lives of citizens.
Trump and Musk are actively fighting against the other parts of the discrete power system (Congress and the Judicial branches). These branches of our government cannot enforce power upon the executive branch - they operate on the legitimacy and authority of the State itself as part of the State. Because Congress and the Judges cannot enforce the law, if the executive branch goes rogue and ignores their orders, there is little they can do - legally.
Why aren't the Dems doing anything?!? Well, the Dems are part of the infrastructure, they are a State institution and only operate within State institutions. And importantly, the Dems still respect the legitimacy of the State infrastructure. Even with Trump and Musk doing things outside of their legal boundaries, the Dems still "trust the system" because their power comes from the system.
Why are people in these agencies "complying"? Well, some aren't, and they are getting fired. Workers were also threatened with direct power (being arrested) if they interfered with DOGE. But still, these agencies are a part of the infrastructure, and because DOGE's legitimacy, while questionable, still has the legitimate authority of the president backing it up - the infrastructure and those within are going to respond accordingly.
There are other ways we can use these ideas, but I think those are the five most prominent ones.
What happens next?
Well, the way I view it, a few things could happen.
First, DOGE and Musk could gain legitimate authority within the government, and everyone accepts that while they may not like it they are allowed to have this power.
Second, DOGE and Musk undermined the legitimate authority too much and are stopped to prevent the legitimate authority of the government from failing.
Third, DOGE and Musk continue, and the citizens/civil society stop seeing the government as having legitimate authority over them.
The third one is the one that leads to revolution...or a police state. Because what happens when the law and institutions stop being seen as legitimate, how does the State enforce its power? It then only has direct power to back it up.
*discrete power also includes the ways the government influences culture, and we are socialized to legitimatize the State - including but not limited to propaganda, what we are taught, and media bias. I just didn't want to distract from the primary way I was applying the idea.
#us politics#politics#donald trump#DOGE#democratic party#elon musk#fuck doge#fuck elon#fuck trump#sociology#professor life
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Matchup, for.. @imjustabeanie! ❤️
Well, this one was actually quiet easy for me, just really deciding the order. I hope you like this! Jjk edition~

Possible candidates-

1st Runner Up… Ryomen Sukuna!
Okay, hear me out—i think you have a thing for red flags, and Sukuna is THE red flag.
I mean, hes cunning, powerful, and has that dangerous confidence that you can’t help but admire. You’re ambitious and competitive, and Sukuna LOVES that about you. Youre someone who wont bow or fawn over him, youre someone who WILL voice their opinion. And thats what intrigues him.
He’s also totally the type to challenge you in every way possible, and you’d keep him entertained instead of boring him like most people.
Cute Headcanon(s):
He’d act annoyed by your teasing, but deep down, he loves it. (Ofc he’d never admit that tho)
Expect him to be extremely possessive, i mean hes the king of curses after all, what’s his stays his.
He’d never admit it, but sukuna would totally be impressed by your intelligence and ability to scheme.
You would absolutely have the most aesthetically pleasing, villainous power couple dynamic, that quite literally everyone would fear
The most protective and jealous mf out there. Because tell me why he’d cut down anyone you flirt with???

2nd Runner Up… Toji Fushiguro!
Ok hear me out, i feel like you guys could actually be good together! I mean, i think you both share some similarities that would complement eachother, like how you both don’t waste time on fake pleasantries. And i mean cmon, shared love for money, intelligence, and independence. Tojis the type who respects someone who can stand their ground, and you? You had this man hooked the second you put him in his place 😭
Cute headcanon(s):
He absolutely calls you "brat" when you guys have a back and forth
Would absolutely teach you how to fight
If you're feeling down, he won't ask about it outright, but he'll find some excuse to distract you (dragging you out somewhere, buying you something, etc.).
Would not admit it, but loves when you wear his shirts-will make some offhand comment about how you look better in them just to fluster you.
You two would absolutely be that one couple that somehow always gets into trouble but never gets caught.
I think toji would be incredibly patient with your moods, matching your energy when needed or giving you space when necessary.

3rd Runner Up… Satoru Gojo!
You and Gojo together? Oh dear god, absolute chaos 😭 you both definitely have strong personalities (in the best way possible) and the banter would be unmatched.
You tease him, and he teases back tenfold. And the way you call people out actually impress him to no end 😭, and he loves someone who can keep up with his wit. You both understand what it means to wear a mask in different ways, so there’s an unspoken bond between you.
Cute Headcanon(s):
You both have an entire language of sarcastic remarks and inside jokes no man can decipher.
He loves how you subtly insult people when they piss you off, he thinks it’s absolutely hilarious and sometimes he even joins in.
You stealing his clothes? He’s all for it.
Gojo is secretly so possessive, but he hides it behind stupid jokes
He dies for the fact that you spoil him with little gifts and sends you ridiculous gifts in return (think: a giant plushie the size of a couch)

Final Matchup… Suguru Geto!
I feel like get would be such a good match for you, he’s intelligent, charismatic, kind of manipulative if im being honest, qualities that would absolutely complement you!
He appreciates your wit, your ability to challenge him, and the fact that you don’t waste time with fake niceties. You both have a understanding of human nature, and while you may come off as cold to others, Geto knows better.
Cute Headcanon(s):
Geto absolutely adores your teasing nature and throws it right back at you.
and the why you 2 dress? Its like you both are matching un intentionally 😭
He’d be patient with your trust issues, never pushing you but always making sure you know he’s there.
He secretly loves that you spoil him with gifts and is always returning the favor in subtle but meaningful wa
You two would definitely have some deep, philosophical conversations late at night, completely unbothered by the world around you.
He would give the meanest death glares to ANYONE you flirt with, even if its just playful
You two would also have such an aesthetically pleasing place together, like id be giving, dark, leather, low lights type of place.
Geto would also protect you no matter what, to losing friends over you, to defying the higher ups orders
#geto suguru#jjk geto#geto x reader#sukuna#sukuna x reader#gojo satoru#gojo x reader#toji fushiguro#toji x reader#matchups#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen
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reblogging this every time i have new headcanons
(this one is 100% just Eclipse and his kids because i adore them; also Andy is the Andrew currently merged with Jake in stitchwraith)
-Andy has rainbow braces
-Charlie is obsessed with nascar and has a huge collection of hot wheels
-Andy is prone to nightmares due to his past (just like Andrew was before he started to cope), so he usually goes to sleep in his room, and ends up in Eclipse’s arms by morning
-Andrew gossips about the kids (and sometimes adults) he sees throughout his day to Eclipse
-Jake has gotten into mechanics, especially coding, and his room is covered in circuits and small robots he made himself
-Andrew is really interested in the drums, but hasn’t said anything about it
-Andy has gotten into welding, so him and Jake pair up a lot to make things. Jake codes, Andy welds the part together.
-Andrew, Charlie, and Jack is the ultimate trio: every time they hang out together, someone goes missing, a table has been lit on fire, god is dead, and the furniture is floating
-All of Eclipse’s kids are trouble makers, it’s just usually Charlie or Andrew causing it, while the other 2 just follow along in the shenanigans for entertainment purposes
-Charlie is not just the oldest, but the tallest too (in her body that eclipse makes; aka, the “human” body), and rubs it in the stitchlets faces every chance she gets
-Andrew doesn’t like to admit it, but he’s very protective of his dad because he can relate to him—he hears you talking shit before it even leaves your mouth
-Eclipse is the same way with all of his kids
-The kids leave notes and drawings on Eclipse’s desk every once and a while, ranging from a simple “Hi :)” to literal essays on the bluey episode they watched together
-They’ve also recently been finding note pads and tape placed suspiciously close to his desk…
-Eclipse isn’t much of a talker, but he hangs onto every word his kids say to him, no matter how unimportant they think it is, he subconsciously stores it in his head like it’s the most precious information his systems ever held
-Eclipse keeps every card and sticky note his kids (and his friends) give him in a box hidden away from everyone and everything
-Andy has came around and started opening up to people; even asking Ballora if she can teach him ballet (after he forced her to agree to keep it a secret, of course)
-Jake makes small gifts for the animatronics and leaves them in their rooms for when he notices their upset
-Eclipse has a special ability that allows him to know which Andrew is talking to him; they could be in an entirely different room than Eclipse and he’ll still know immediately who called for him
-Eclipse makes his kids small snacks after they have a nightmare
-Andy, despite his dad giving him and his siblings the best battery in all of existence, is chronically tired; usually being found clinging to his dad so he can nap without being disturbed and always being the last one to wake up
-Jake is chronically hungry; the other three joke about Eclipse accidentally putting a garbage disposal in him instead of a stomach
-Occasionally, the kids will randomly decide to latch onto Eclipse and take a group nap
(Eclipse swears up and down that he only allows it because it gives him the chance to avoid meeting up with people. no one buys it)
-When Eclipse is skipping out on movie night one to many times, someone sends his kids to do the group-nap time trick so he doesn’t move (in fact, that’s how group-nap time started)
-Charlie pouted for an entire day because she was convinced Eclipse’s broken rays were hurting him
-Eclipse finally caved once she refused to eat dinner because of the issue, and allowed her to wrap the broken rays in bandages
Tsbs headcanon dump because i can
-Nebula wasn’t born an astral, instead created into one by the main group, similar to lunar
-Jack has a habit of disappearing randomly to sit by the lake near the house post-infection (scares the living hell out of solar)
-He also likes swimming and tree-climbing
-Earth uses flappy-hands when excited (this one isn’t really a headcannon since you can see her doing it when Kat uses Vr, but-)
-Dazzle really likes flavored(?) bread (Ex: chocolate, pumpkin(though she doesn’t tell Jack about that) and Banana)
-Nebula has the ability to translate text into any language just by running their finger over it
-⬆️Adding onto this, Nebula writes in their native language (the one they spoke before becoming an astral)
-Before astral-hood, Nebula wanted to become an astronomer, that is why their so curious about Earth
-Dazzle+Jack share a tumblr account (neither sun nor solar knows they have a tumblr account)
-(Mgafs)Andrew and Jack would be those cousins that beg their parents to hang out every weekend
-Moon has gotten into sculpting (Based off of their interests in making figurines)
-Eclipse was forced into baking by Ballora and is happy to admit: he hates it (he’s lying and everyone knows it but they’ll let him think they don’t)
-Eclipse needs glasses but he refuses to get any, causing him to squint all the time
-Earth’s favorite dessert is strawberry shortcake (this later became Nebula’s favorite as well)
-Lunar’s favorite food is a pizookie with chocolate ice cream, nutella, and whipped cream
-Ruin actually really enjoys talking and playing with Charlie but feels he’d be deceiving her by telling her about his past after allowing her to get attached
-Jack is possessed by Johnathan (this is personally a theory because i noticed Jack started to gain sentience once old moon came back)
-Astrals don’t actually speak English, they speak in their own language and translate it with their powers (similar to how their names aren’t actually the star signs, and how they chose their forms off of the symbols for said signs)
-Jack actually gets sad-jealous, everyone likes everyone else more than him and he really, really doesn’t blame them
-Eclipse’s rays are broken; some are loose and cannot retract at all, others are cracked, and two or three have their points snapped off. this is from him getting angry and being surrounded by important items and not being able to break anything without regretting it later
-Old Lunar used to draw pictures of him, Eclipse, and Bloodmoon together
-Nebula+Solar take turns info dumping about random topics (neither of them usually know what the other is talking about half the time, but they still listen anyway). Because of this, they’ll both randomly drop information about the topics they learned from each other to other people and no one knows what they’re talking about.
-Earth taught Dazzle, Pollux, and Nebula how to make flower crowns
-Earth has a book filled with pressed flowers and quotes from her friends+info about the flowers on the pages
-Nebula brings down flowers from other planets to gift to Earth (they also make flower crowns/bracelets/necklaces out of said flowers for themself, and has taken up half of Earth's flower book)
-Sunshine is having a Sun moment and hiding an animal, but instead of him hiding a cat, he’s hiding a chinchilla (i have no idea where he got one, he just did) and named them Kimchi
-Moonlight has tried to create a Jack of his own, but Eclipse keeps catching them before he can even finish half of him(inspired by when Moonlight and Moon made a reaction video together)
-(Post-infection) Solar checks Jack’s tracker every 30 minutes, and that is NOT an exaggeration
#the sillies ever guys#tsbs#eaps#eclipse and puppet show#eaps andrew#eaps eclipse#eaps andy#eaps jake#eaps charlie#eaps stitchlets
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sorry for being such a bummer on here lmao, the holidays are just so geniuenly awful for me.
#imagine youre stuck in a house with two people who should have divorced 20+ years ago#who cannot have an adult conversation when things go wrong#and every little minor problem because a world ending crisis#and then add in having to host people at the host and the regular stress of holidays#every#single#year#and thats alongside a change in my routine#and not even getting into the issues with gift giving#and the emotional whiplash. and being Given Things. which you have to perform a certain level of gratefulness for#as if objects do anything to make up for everything else#and socializing and. well yall know#ill be okay. this time of year is not as much as a risk as it used to be#im just tired#the prophet speaks
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zhongli and neuvillette fighting over their reader 🤭🤭
scary dog privilege wherever you go, draconic courting gestures that would scare any regular person, they send each other deadly glares the moment you turn away,
stealing your clothes to just get a whiff of your scent, marking their territory all over your house - making it a battlefield basically, neuvillette (in my hc) is cooler and zhongli is warm so the cuddles are always so comfy ☺️😍,
they give you anything you want - you don't even have to lift a finger, they make you travel between the nations a lot though 😒 sooo clingyyy, extra gentle in their dragon forms as to not squish you, don't even get me started on the size difference 😍😍
just a little thought 🤭☺️
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Neuvi being colder is so real and canon. I see him as being colder + a lot more lithe, kinda lanky with smaller but sharper canines versus Zhongli who's warmer and a bit shorter then Neuvi + bulkier with bigger but not as sharp canines.
They've also got very different habits – Zhongli is very prideful not just of himself but his nation. He'll personally give your a tour and purposely drag it out as long as he can. Complimenting Liyue is basically complimenting him, checkmate Neuvi. Especially if he convinces you to try on some local Liyue fashion. Harmless and just a nice gift to anyone else but Neuvi sees it for what it is (since your wearing something from Liyue, technically wearing something of his. He loves his technicalities when it comes to staking a claim over you). Adds salt to the wound by touching you in totally innocent ways like to adjust you towards something he wants to show you or accidently brushing against you when he takes the bags of spoils he's practically drowning you in but really he's just making sure his scent sticks. He's just a sweet, nice gentleman with absolutely no ulterior motives trust.
Neuvillette does love Fontaine, but his habits are more about himself then the nation. He'll take you around if you ask or if the idea strikes him, but you'll probably stay around the making city area or the opera house specifically. He enjoys more personal time with just you and him then anything else. He values the immaterial to the material. Zhongli spoils you with gifts, but Neuvi tries to offer quality time irregardless of physical gifts (though he still gives them just not to the extent of Zhongli). He'll take you to see different operas if that's to your fancy, or leverage a bit of his authority to maybe see a few films since those seem to be hitting off in Fontaine recently. Bet that creaky old archon doesn't have those huh. He feels awkward if you want to watch a trial, but he'll reluctantly agree because. well. it's you. just don't wave or anything he's trying to work and he just Really wants to see you smile at him like that again and it makes him lose his train of thought. gets custom clothes designed by Chiori to replace your clothes from Liyue because they smell of Zhongli and it makes him sulky + he likes to match.
G-d forbid these two are in the same room as you because it's a war of attrition at that point. Constant accidental brush of the hand against your shoulder or elbow but it's just them trying to get rid of the others scent. they are side eyeing each other behind your back while being all smiles whenever your looking. If it's hot and you lean into Neuvi more he's practically GLOWING. not even smug he's just absolutely smitten and happy to be of service. immediately takes off his gloves and presses his hands to your face asking if your okay and if you want to go back with him. if it's cold out and you seek out Zhongli more hes smug as hell beneath the calm veneer. Offers you his coat and stay as physically close to you as he can under the pretense of being worried you'll catch a cold if he doesn't warm you up.
don't even get me started on your house either because you probably have tons of gifts from both of them accumulated everywhere. if Neuvi sees you use a tea set from Zhongli suddenly he had a fantastic gift idea he thought you'd like. he even got some tea included with it so why don't you let him make you some? Zhongli sees you using a goblet Neuvi gave you (totally a coincidence it's similar to his) and suddenly you have 27 square cups in your cabinets that you have no idea where they came from. if the goblet is mysteriously missing oh well. who knows :]
#sagau#genshin sagau#self aware genshin#asks#genshin impact sagau#self aware genshin impact#genshin cult au#genshin impact cult au#is this actually cult au?? csnt tell tagging it anyway#its like 1 am brain not working#🐈⬛ anon#shaking them both like shaker charms#zl feels more possessive too. neuvi is possessive but i dont think snyone could get near zl level of possessiveness#its like having two cats constantly trying to get your attention.#neuvi is more mellow imo so hes not as intense in the rivalry but sometimes he feels PETTY#only if it actually benefits you though because you still come first even if he cant stand zl snd hes not dragging you into it#zl has no issue tossing out gifts neuvi gives you unless your REALLY attached to it but neuvi probably wouldnt yknow..#sometimes neuvi is just clueless he did not gaf abt zl at first he was just smitten with you. he did not want 2 get involved in this rivalry#but hes still a little possessive snd having you come back smelling like zl dressed in clothes from liyue with other gifts from zl..#it rained for like a week straight he was in shambles. acted like a kicked puppy until zl scent was gone 😭#also theres a joke somewhere here abt zl snd his square cups..hm.#just clingy possessive dragons trying to subtly be the only one you pay attention to 🫡#this has been my loser girlfail neuvi propaganda post enjoy
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So i remember an ask mentioning your mortal enemy, Felis Atra and their cats, and i thought it'd be fun to draw what Felis Atra's version of your italian dogs would be.
I think they would be called Butter Knife and Flamengo! Butter Knife is not his real name, it's an nickname given by his peers because of how harmless he is. I choose Flamengo because that's the name of Vasco's rival football team here in Brazil, so i thought that was the perfect name :)
Cat Machete was slightly inspired by the Oriental Shorthair cat because of their long noses and thin head shape.


Cat Vasco was inspired by the Scottish Fold cat, because FLOPPY EARS. I gave Flamengo longer ears and orange fur to make him more like his look-alike.


The last doodle is a reference to this ask (https://canisalbus.tumblr.com/post/728923918314946560/me-i-am-machete-ear-fan-number-1-those-ears) and contains the tumblr ask stand-in dog, whose cat version was inspired by the American Curl cat! They have round ears that are slightly floppy outwards.


Final notes: I know cardinal clothes don't come in vibrant blue, but i was ADAMANT on switching Machete's and Vasco's clothing color patterns. I would draw the rest of Butter Knife's and Flamengo's clothes, but i suck at designing cool outfits.
Speaking of outfits, for Machete's iconic void outfit, i figured it would be fun to make it more baggy for Butter Knife, in contrast to Machete's, that looks very tight-fitted. I think it's cute, it kinda looks like a sweater. Also i can't imagine a Machete doppelganger without high heels boots, so those HAD to stay.
Oh, and just to be clear, i'm not like, claiming ownership of these guys or anything. I just thought it would be a fun exercise. Hope you like them!! I love your art and your characters.
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#imagine if Vaschete but CATS and REVERSED -> Butter knife ;_; and Flamengo <3#this ask is from last year and I'm sorry I've allowed it sit in my inbox for so long ´m`#but I've been thinking about it intermittedly#the context was that someone said that somewhere out there existed my mortal enemy (felis atra = black/dark cat)#and they had frenzied cat ocs instead of melancholic dogs#first of all they both look so darling I'm getting radiation poisoning just from looking at them aaaaaa#and the fact you put so much thought and effort into this concept is making me go absolutely rabid#extremely strange seeing Machete with big pupils and Vasco with tiny pinpoints#Butter knife purring like a fluffy jackhammer is instant serotonin I love him#and yes if you turned Machete to a cat he'd probably be something resembling an oriental shorthair#especially one of those really exaggerated ones with giant bat ears and roman nose#and I keep visualizing Vasco as a scottish fold as well but it's kind of giving me sad bad feels personally#I can't look past their painful and debilitating health issues#the same mutation that causes the floppy ears also destroys the cartilage in their joints#it's such a shame because they're a terribly cute and charming breed#and in this case they really do have those similar rounded friendly shapes that Vasco does#if I ever draw them as cats myself I'll probably have to think of some other breed for him even though it would be such a perfect fit#also I think it's funny how you can swap everything else but Machete's heels have to stay :'> don't separate the crinkle and his boots#thank you so much! this was such a cool ask to receive I love how you designed their cat forms#gift art#dingergum#Machete#Vasco#own characters#Vaschete scenarios
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I've often thought we actually make a bit too much about Whedon's "retcon" anyway. I mean, if we take it on its face that it's a retcon.
There a few aspects within the comic, I think, that put some question to the whole thing:
First, the information about Scott's lack of control being psychological only comes from Emma, when she's in the middle of psychically assaulting him - an experience traumatic enough to leave him catatonic and unresponsive for a time.
Also, it's not actually clear if EMMA is even the one saying it. We do learn over the course of the story that Emma's been influenced or controlled by Cassandra Nova for some time, and that most of the events of the comic were meant to get the X-Men out of the way to further her plans. Since her intent was to incapacitate Scott, it makes sense to me that she'd lie and present his inability to control his powers as a psychological issue that she could then spin as a personal failing than a physical issue.
As an after effect, Scott initially appears to be depowered. During the last story of Whedon's run though, he does actually use his abilities, showing a temporary level of control over them. However, by the end of the comic, his beams are explicitly shown as coming back and there's a melancholy scene where Emma gives him his visor back. If it was intended to be truly psychological, we might have seen some discussion between them about further treatment, but instead, Scott refers to it as a "gift of clarity" with the express idea that the lack of control is the permanent state of things.
So I've always personally read it as Scott's lack of control coming from the brain damage, but that a powerful telepath COULD temporarily force a bypass that would allow Scott some temporary control, but it would be a pretty traumatizing, potentially damaging thing to do. Hence why neither Xavier or Jean ever tried. (And Emma never tried again, since she's no longer being influenced by a far worse supervillain.)
The current interpretation in the comics definitely seems to be that Scott's disability is physical in nature. The most recent reference that I'm aware of was in the X-Men Annual during the Krakoa era where he and Angelica talk about whether or not he's ever considered fixing his powers in resurrection, something that wouldn't make sense if the disability was strictly traumatic rather than physical.
….do we think the visor is just a placebo that xavier used to keep better control over scott?
like i get its a world of superpowers but x really had red quartz lenses that just happen to be the exact thing scott needs to not destroy everything? that feels fake. it feels like a lie. and it would track with his behaviour in the first couple runs (and maybe beyond i'm not entirely sure.) he suppressed jean’s memories and powers, i dont know if he did anything to warren or beast, i saw something a while ago that theorized that he used his power to suppress bobby’s sexuality to make him more palatable. x would have been able to see how much potential scott would have shake the world. change it quicker and better than he or erik did (we see him do this in a couple runs, he breaks off from x and becomes his own figure. a balance between the two extremes) so wouldn’t it make sense for x to be afraid of scott’s power as a leader of the xmen and find some way to control him? (beyond the blatant emotional manipulation)
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Why is Erik taking a shower and is fully prepared to fight naked in that panel 😭
my man turning into a baby is a typical tuesday activity but the second he wanna little naked shower fight NOW its suspicious 🤨
#snap chats#cant a man be a lil hostile and naked in his home ... 'his' home ... w/e ...#this is the part where i reward tag readers CONTEXT TIME#i mean. it's not crazy context but anyway#erik went for a swim and As You Do went to shower off once he was done. cant have chlorine in the hair.... gon damage his beautiful locks..#he was shavin in the shower when he hears someone come in so Naturally he assumes the worst as this is Xavier's School For Gifted Youngster#never a moment of peace not even to shower and shave ..#'whyd he go for a swim' I Dont Know he really just decides on that. maybe it was a complex way to give him a weapon#maybe they just wanted to draw him naked and in a speedo I Dont Know 2x sounds like something id do frankly#the context is pretty much isolated from the story- like it's more of a scene starter and reintroduces tom and sharon into the plot#CONTEXT: tom and sharon are Effectively erik's coworkers at the school who caught one of emma's students- empath- acting a fool on site#empath- as it may be assumed- has the ability to mess with people's emotions and so. how we say.#'had tom and sharon distract each other' for a few hours while he fucked around the mansion and more specifically#fucked with erik's emotions to make him depressed enough to give up the new mutants to emma#Hence the mansion was virtually empty bar danielle and warlock which probably didnt help make erik Less paranoid of sudden noises#hence .... razorblade combat time ... but yeah once he realizes its just tom and sharon he's like Oh Fuck The Hell Happened#and then he gets super pissed once he realizes empath kinda tricked him into giving up his kids 🥰#god i love this issue i really do .. cant wait til next month where i can read what happens next ..#'snap you have the internet' OK AND I LIKE MY PHYSICAL MEDIA. plus i like this arc so far i want a physical of it ...#but yeah thats why eriks naked and prepared to cut someone with a razor. you can learn more in The New Mutants number 39 :]
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A few weeks ago, I failed to install a wifi card into my pc because my brother who built it in 2016 put a cooler on my 2012 graphics card that, yes, somehow makes me able to run things that modern gaming setups struggle with, but also blocks off every last bit of motherboard.
I said I'd drive over my pc over the summer and we could tinker around with it once he figured out what minor change would make it possible. He was excited. He hasn't had an excuse to tinker in months, and pcs are his favorite to tinker with.
Guys, I just arrived at the family vacation and he somehow went from "looking at second choice and used computer parts for a minor pc upgrade" to "so I built you a new pc, it just needs hard drives".
There is one part that is not refurbished or second hand, and none of it is younger than 2022. He found a gorgeous white case for cheap because it was absolutely filthy and scrubbed it until you can literally see your face in it, even the parts that aren't glass. His casual questions about what games I'm running and which ones are giving me trouble turned out to be him future proofing. There's a red bow on top.
I might cry.
#holy fuck#I'm grateful#but#THAT IS AN ENTIRE PC#BUILT AROUND THE FACT THAT MY WIFI DONGLE SUCKS BALLS#and that I want to seduce the surly elf of the moment in a few months' time#I'm scared of breaking it#apparently I “make thoughtful gifts”#sir I do not buy you gifts unless I'm 90% sure you'll like them because you keep saying you've got no space in the house#my last gift was ten minutes earlier and it was a clearance squishmallow for their new car#“no I mean for the kids” THE KIDS TELL ME WHAT THEY WANT AND I PROCURE SAID WANT WITHIN THE LIMITS OF REALITY AND MY BUDGET#the thought is literally “oh nephew has a birthday in two months gotta get him on the phone soon”#or in this case#“these HEATHENS don't even have a driving plush”#and he just builds a pc because of a space management issue#“we will just slap a slightly better card in” my left nut#this is what happens if you let your sons grow up to be computer engineers#you know why it doesn't have a hard drive?#i bought one together with the wifi card and he wants to give me a chance to have some joy in building it too#what did I do to deserve this?
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me when i meet with my colleges first out trans teacher who is like a celebrity with me after one of my teachers puts me in contact with her again (i had interviewed said trans teacher 4 years prior and hadnt met with her since) and she tells me tjat my teacher had so many positive things to say about me, about how i was one of her brightest most well spoken students and that she (within like 5 minutes of having been talking) immediately sees exactly what my professor had been talking about and so many super implied positives about me that i would never had known about and i dod everything in my power to avoid prying for more details but even what i heard was soso nicies

#iwillspeakincessantly#god it felt so nice to meet with her again#talking woth someone whos been so influential at my school and the whole state as far as transgender and queer policy making and has#so many connections amd experience and is also trans and historically a teacher bfor she retired#genuinely makes me feel so much better about my life and where im going#and less worried about if ill ever be able to live a peaceful life as a trans twacher when she personally knows#multiple other transmen tbats shes taught who are now teaching IN MY STATE#safely and happily#ough#we said wed meet more in the future and she encouraged me to join the cities pride group that she had founded and is the head of#and maybe tjis time ill actjally go#she even gifted me a book that she had had that she thinks would give me solace and comfort in my life#tbat was also written by a trans man sinxe she thinks im easily intelligent enough to get the humor and referwnces in#god she said i was well spoken and articulated even tho i feel so stupid and inarticulate sometimes#since i ramble a lot and lose my thoughts and i feel like my speaking vocabulary is so lowbrow and cheap often#no matter how many times other peope say i always sound so intelligent when i speak#ARGH#been super steessed about a lot of things in my life and if ill make it out alive but just this short hour and a half convo over a food#has made me feel so mich better and happier and hopeful#argh argh ougj i love finding out that people talk immense amount of positive things about me#god#i was rlaking about how often i struggle woth socializing amd making friends and she aas like really? ive been having a wondefful time#walkimg with you youre so intelligent and well spoken and its like thank you my issues ckme from group settings#and unclear un familiar subjects and ettiqutes of my fellow youths#but it made me feel so good about myself#im gonna implode :333333 positive
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what's the word for a best friend but like the kind that drains all your energy if you have to interact with them
#just got off the phone w my bsf of 5+ years and its like#you get me like no one else but idek who u are anymore and this relationship doesnt really serve me anymore#but thats not a reason to throw out 5+ years of just getting each other and that special connection we have#idk#phone call totally drained me and now im laying here upset like she said smth to me otp to hurt my feelings#she said smth to me the other day that triggered my ed#she thinks shes the only one with issues like im glad you can joke about your eating disorder but like bear in mind that i ALSO have one!#which you know about because it was something we bonded over when we met#and you dont know how my eating disorder is going because you dont listen when i talk. so i have stopped talking.#but it isnt going great! and when you brag about how skinny you are because of this or that#and complain about how you genuinely hate people who “lack the self control to be anorexic”#that harms me mentally#and you dont care because you arent joking#i recently got my christmas gift from her#which took a while to get me because she ordered it on christmas eve. and then kept forgetting to give it to me once it arrived#but she literally used the gift that she bought me and told me when she gave it to me like huh !!!#and i wasnt even upset about this when she told me because if she had asked i would have let her#but i told my mom and sister and they were soooo mad. and then i was like wait maybe thats weird#like i can understand that what she did was socially unacceptable but i didnt mind because it was her yk like thats my bsf. but now im upse#AND THE OTHER DAY i told her i dont read much fanfiction and she was like#well thats because you arent autistic so u dont know what its-#-like to be consumed by an interest/hyperfixation and have to consume every form of media associated with it#like YES I DO !!! all of my friends autistic or not think im autistic except for her#its this weird dynamic in her head where im the token neurotypical to her token autistic like idk if she just likes being the only autistic#but i feel like im so clearly autistic because idk how to mask. not that im trying to make this a “whos more autistic” contest but like#i think she likes being the manic pixie autistic chick and its so weird but im not diagnosed so im not gonna go to bat on that one w her#whenever i tell my roommate about things my bsf does my roommate is always like “im scared of her” or “real friends dont act like that”#and its always a reality check because i dont think twice when she treats me like that#but the people in my life are starting to hate her lowkey....#my mom was deadass like wow i dont think shes a good friend
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sometimes I believe that My tendency to avoid telling My family when I'm having health issues is just the result of avoidant cognitive distortions, but then I actually do it, get told that it's "normal" and/or a lifestyle issue, and realize the real cognitive distortion was expecting help at all -_-
#personal#I'm struggling to breathe and My heart rate is high. inhaler doesn't help. go tell My mom about it and she says#1. try again. 2. drink water. 3. eat a mint. 4. I'm getting fat#and then last time I told her about this same issue she said#1. I have anxiety from too much silence (I'm auditorily hypersensitive? noise gives Me anxiety not the other way around)#2. I'm so sedentary that it's only natural that standing up would give Me tachycardia (I obviously stand up multiple times a day everyday)#3. I don't need a therapist (which I've been asking for) I need a physician#and it's just a ton of excuses to deny what I'm saying. because how is it just in My head but I need a physician?? make up your mind#am I crazy or sick. it's literally just whatever makes Me look like I need the least intervention in that moment#medical neglect is a bitch man. it's not even that she doesn't want Me to be healthy. she absolutely does#but she just never wants to believe that it's THAT bad. I can't have anxiety because it's just cabin fever#I can't be delusional because I'm just spiritually gifted. I can't have an arrhythmia because I'm just fat. so on and so forth#she constantly doubts that I'm doing anything for My health on My own (I literally asked for a fitness boxing game this christmas#and yet she doesn't believe that I exercise in My own time until I outright tell her)#and never believes that I'm suffering beyond something that can easily be solved. it's so patronizing#she acts like I've never heard of breathing exercises for anxiety or exercise for hypertension. everyone knows that!!#you acknowledge that I know so much EXCEPT when Me being knowledgeable on a subject would mean that I'd be able to recognize when My health#is failing. once she said she thought I had hypochondria as a child and I increasingly believe that influences how she sees My health today#she said she never told a doctor because she didn't want Me to be dismissed in adulthood and yet she does that same thing to Me#and honestly I do get anxious about My health! I developed contamination OCD when I was fucking eight!#but that doesn't mean that I'm just being compulsive whenever I suggest a need for medical/psychiatric attention!
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