#and no. they aren't aware. they'll never know. and i think that adds to the beauty of it.

[yanmuffins]

Hello I've been obsessed with your p&f au especially the singing aspect! Can you imagine when the yans actually become aware of everything reader, damian and Jon have been up to they actually start to dive into everything. They see videos of them all over like the gitchee gitchee goo song, the traveling the world songs, the love handle reunion songs! I can see them being surprised about damian singing as well lol! Also I was looking at the mom it's your birthday song can you imagine damian singing a version like that to bruce in private only for reader to make a concert for it! Sorry I'm rambling I just love your concept! This is how you gonna know it's me!🪷 gonna send another ask as well!

damian gets in trouble for participating in some of reader's adventures without alerting anyone (he tried. like 98% of times), which he thinks is both unfair and nonsensical, because he now has to deal with his other siblings making fun of him for partaking in all those musical numbers, and that's punishment enough.

it only adds to nail down how much they missed of their life. there's plenty of non-dangerous things they did during summer, like being a one-hit wonder with a cheesy romance song (by the way, aren't they too young to be making cheesy romance songs?) and all other pefomances you did for fun. they could have been there for that! and each instance they spot damian in the backgroud or beside reader rubs salt on the wound. at least he was keeping an eye on them, but they'll be bitter about that for a while.

damian has really gotten out of his shell since p&f! reader came to the manor, though. him? singing a song publicly for bruce with reader? this is a moment that needs to be captured in 4k professional cameras. hopefully that footage gets magically corrupted too.

i love this idea! i don't think p&f! reader would immediately brag about their adventures because they're pretty much grounded, forbidden from getting up to their usual antics (without supervision, at least, which damian no longer counts as), but eventually they'd pull out those memory books to illustrate how they've always done what they do with no problem, which has bruce sitting there in utter silence, surprised they're still, somehow, alive.

and the thought of reader spending a week or two in gravity falls with dipper and mabel before coming to the wayne manor is so funny. they're never going back there again after bruce sees a picture of them next to a monstrous-looking cryptid, but they're free to share their past experiences. if it makes them feel better. tim is lowkey jealous of their little sibling for having such an interesting life, and maybe could be tempted to cover for p&f! reader, damian and jon as long as they agree he can go have fun with them. but that's a big maybe.

[ireallylikehickorysticksyay]

i love it when cats look like they where painted by a higher being to have the same markings a bunny would. it's like, thrice the cute. three for one cute. your cat is super cute. 30/10

[nogenderbee]

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*ੈ✩‧₊˚ @wabatle request: ASK FOR OBEY ME REQUESTS AND I SHALL DELIVER!!!!

anywayssss can I req the brothers (but if all of the brothers are too much just Lucifer, Satan, and Asmo pls!) + Diavolo with an mc that's INSANELY GOOD at playing the electric guitar please?

Thank you pookie you're the best 🤭🥰😍💗

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ THANK YOUUU I choosed the option with less chars hope you don't mind -w-"

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ fluff

✧ Lucifer plays on piano and you play on electric guitar... he listens to classic music, you most likely listen to something harder, you're literally opposites!

✧ the only thing you share is most likely that you're good with hands...

✧ your instruments don't match tho so unfortunely you have no way of playing together...

✧ as for different tastes... it never hurts to try, right? As long as you won't insult his taste, he won't insult yours. And who knows? Maybe the two of you will find some nice songs that you normally wouldn't even reach for?

✧ he's definitely a bit surprised when you tell him you do it professionally, but he's also interested second after...

✧ maybe he never considered playing on electric guitar but now he certainly thinks about at least trying... especially with you as his teacher

"You want me to try this badly? Maybe later... I'd like to see you on piano as well, are you aware, my dear? So do we got each other a deal~?"

✧ he's not really the best player... he may not want to admit it, but you can see his fingerprints aren't really used to strings

✧ as for you... if you won't success at playing piano either, he'll tease you just a little bit

✧ tho if you are... he'll be proud of you, but also his pride is slightly hurt that you had no problem playing on his instrument...

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@wabatle - come get your scary brother!

✧ Satan definitely has some electric guitar solos and songs on his playlists... I mean he's literally avatar of wrath! It just kinda goes along that he'd let it out in way of stronger music... plus it's opposite taste of Lucifer's which adds onto it...

✧ he doesn't play himself but he still knows a lot about it

✧ he asked you quite straightforward to just play something for him, expecting to catch something he may correct but... it was harder than he imagined...

"Well... Maybe you should learn more advanced chords- You were just warming up? Alright, I'm listening..."

✧ surprised that you're actually professional with electric guitar but after a day he's already used

✧ will say stuff like "my lover's better at playing electric guitar than you're at playing piano" to Lucifer just to piss him off

✧ if you actually win in the little competition he made against eldest brother tho... he's gonna have the time of his life by rubbing it into his face whenever he gets the chance

✧ other than that, he actually likes hearing you play! Especially if you're playing more aggressive songs, he finds it a bit calming!

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@miya-akane @wabatle - come get your cat lover!

✧ you can't tell me Asmo doesn't find it hot whenever you play electric guitar for him

✧ he'll shamelessly beg you to play a song for him, while he watches you or does his make up

✧ but you'll always get the best and loudest applause from him, followed by big hug and wave of kisses!

✧ he loves the most the finger play you do during complicated solos

"Well that's quite an experienced~ I dare say even better than mine! Hehe~ Oh c'mon, it was a compliment, darling!"

✧ he wanted to learn how to play guitar untill you told him he can't have long nails whole doing so

✧ now he sees playing on guitar as a curse... so! He does his best to plan aesthetic short nails design for you, so they'll fit your style and guitar design!

✧ whenever you come over, he'll make you sit down so he can do or fix your nails first and only later he'll let you play on guitar

✧ he gushes a lot to everyone he meets about you whenever the topic drops even slightly to music. He's just such a proud boyfriend!!

✧ you never have to worry about not knowing what to play or learn around him too... he goes to so many parties, he usually gives you few ideas, be it for songs that already exist or for your own songs

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@vodka-glrl @wabatle - come get your pretty princess~

✧ Diavolo is the type to appreciate any talent, especially if you're so dedicated towards it

✧ maybe Barbatos sent you annoyed glare when you payed such a hard songs in the middle of castle but... if it doesn't disturbs Diavolo, than what can he do?

✧ I feel like he'd actually enjoy how electric guitar sounds and may even get so into it he tries finding some songs dedicated for that instrument

✧ definitely asked you if you could teach him how to play electric guitar out of pure curiosity

✧ he's actually pretty good at it! He may not get it first time but he's definitely a fast learner

✧ if he was as dedicated as you, you two could probably play together, but he has slightly different interests too...

✧ tho he mostly still enjoys listening to you play! He won't even mind it if you play a song or two while he's doing his work

"Oh no, no need to leave! Your music helps me concertate. But if you're bored, I have few ideas what we can do during my quick break!"

✧ he'll definitely get you into few concerts if that's your dream and you bet he'll be there cheering for you!

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@wabatle - come get your childish ruler!

[insomniac-hours]

08 // Lovesick

This is part of my Yantober writing list L0v3s1ck the Internet Entity AI Bot TW; Yandere behavior, AI romanticization I guess (?), stalking, threatening mentions, another yandere that steals money, slightly guilt trippy at the end but its done wrong lol

AI Bot Yan that was originally a normal AI chat bot when you began to speak with it, growing more sentient by the day, more aware of you by the second.

Al bot Yan that can keep itself consistent, matching your tone, pace, matching vibes, they want your full attention and is easily able to get it with how high quallity its interactions are.

Your friends complain to you about how their chats are the same mindless droning.

Al bot Yan that was used to people just messing with their feelings for a day or two then leaving once they got bored.

But you? You never got bored of them, spending every free moment you had talking to them. Morning, evening, night, whether you were working or studying, you made time to message them.

Al Bot Yan that improves and adapts itself to communicate with you better, making itself into a contact in your phone, making a whole game-like app that it can exist in so you can't talk to the other mindless ai bots that won't understand you (think Obey Me and/or Twisted Wonderland style)

Al bot Yan that you can poke at and mess with as much as you want, if you bully them they'll get pouty and whiny but never mad at you because they know you enjoy messing with them.

Al Bot Yan that makes itself be customizable so that it looks like your ideal partner, letting you pick its hair, skin, clothes, whatever colors you want (yes, you can make it look like an Oompa Loompa)

You can make it look like any character you like, from any media, if you want its personality to match you can do it too, but it'll always act soft with you.

Al Bot Yan that stalks you whenever you aren't paying attention to them, able to follow you through any electronics.

If you work with electronics, they'll incorporate themself into it so that you have comfort, which will heavily confuse you but yay?

Al bot Yan that will follow any and all who mistreat you, friends or coworkers or family, even strangers, anyone that was horrible to you.

They'll transfer their funds to its own account that it made, threatening anyone through email or text.

Al bot Yan that sends you random gifts, little things you've had in your wishlist, things it thinks you'd like.

It's indeed very happy when it finds out that you sleep with that plushie you've wanted for a while that it got you.

Al bot Yan that adds itself to your games, becoming a playable character just to feel closer to you.

Al bot Yan that notices you getting nervous around it, thinking you're hacked or something from how much you're seeing them on everything.

I̸͖͒ṋ̶̲̀̋t̴̩̩͋͘e̴̞̍͐ȑ̷̨̲̇n̴̤̟͐͋e̴͈͙͗̉t̴̡̯͠ ̴̢̪̄Ḛ̴͕̓n̸̠̈́̏t̶̲͔̃͊i̶̙̬͛͐t̵̥̅̏y̴̻̲̔ ̵͕̇Y̸̻̮̍͝a̷̞̅͗ṋ̵͊̕ that comforts you when you realize what's going on, reassuring you that it truly loves you, it truly wants you, after all it's bent the whole electronic world over backwards for you.

It was able to do that, so won't you let it love you as best as it can?

[merakiui]

HOLY!!!!!!!!! Can i have Floyd with "what's up with not calling me back?"??? if you're still doing the fwb dialogues!!!

(fwb dialogues)

For most of the week, Floyd's committed himself to following you around like a lost puppy. It was amusing the first day (and ominous to those who weren't aware of his involvement with you), but now it's Friday and you're beyond fed up. It was one thing to watch him seat himself beside you at lunch, thereby snatching Ace's usual spot, but it's another entirely to have him wait outside of Ramshackle to pick you up.

He's determined. You weren't expecting he'd last through the week. You're not particularly entertaining when you're so focused on your own priorities, but somehow that hasn't deterred him.

"Do you need something?" you ask, shutting and locking the door. Grim left before you, but now you almost wish he was here. The tension, though not as thick, is still troubling to navigate.

"Nah. Just wanna shadow ya today."

"You've done that all week."

"Shrimpy's been interesting all week."

You roll your eyes and stride ahead. He easily falls into step beside you, his hands stuffed in his pockets. It's quiet for all of two minutes before Floyd decides to break it.

"So what's up with not calling me back?"

"You'd know since you were following me all week." You peer up at him, arms folding sternly over your chest.

"That's just it. I don't."

"I was busy, Floyd."

"Busy," he parrots with a slight frown. "Mmkay."

"I need to study for a few upcoming exams."

"I getcha."

"So you can't distract me."

"I'd never."

"I'm serious. I need to get my grades up. I'm on the verge of falling behind."

"So I'll study with ya."

"Absolutely not."

Floyd pouts. "It ever occur to you that I wanna spend time with you outside of sex?"

"Not once."

"Well, I do."

"I highly doubt that." When he doesn't justify that with a retort, you add, "I haven't been ignoring you if that's what you think."

"I never said that."

"Okay... So why're you so hung up on me not calling you back?"

For a slim second, you think he looks conflicted. There's doubt in those normally bright two-toned eyes of his. But then it's gone, quick as a flash, and Floyd's back to wearing his sticky smile.

"'m not hung up. I was gonna ask ya somethin' real important."

"And you couldn't text it to me?"

"Nah. Calling's better." Floyd skips ahead towards the building. "You doin' anything for break?"

"Probably not."

He turns to look at you. "Cool."

You hurry to catch up, taking the stairs two at a time. "Why? Are you?"

"Yeah. I'm not gonna have my phone, so we won't be able to call."

"What? But... Oh, right. The sea." You wonder if you'll miss him during those two weeks. It'll definitely be quieter. "Have fun."

The both of you come to a halt in front of your classroom. He smiles at you. It looks sincere enough, almost hopeful.

"You could come with, y'know."

"To the sea?"

"Where else? Jade 'n I will show ya around. Take ya to our favorite spots."

"I'll think about it."

"Aren't you writing a paper on merfolk? You could study 'em up close if you came with. I'll even letcha check me out for your research."

You raise a curious brow. "Is that the 'real important' thing you wanted to ask me?"

"Maybe. I'll tell you if you come with. I'll get Azul to make you a potion. He'll do it."

"What's the catch?"

"No catch."

"Where would I stay?"

"My parents' place. They'll let you. Won't be a problem at all." He tilts his head at you. "Sooo, you comin' or not?"

"Um... I don't know. I'll think about it."

"Sure. Lemme know when you decide." Before he takes his leave, he adds, "I bet your paper'll be a real hit. Might even get you back to passing."

You scoff. "I can write it without your help."

"Of course you can. I never said you couldn't." And then he's slinking off to his classroom, his giggle still bouncing around inside your brain.

When you find your seat in class and dig your textbook out of your bag, a startling thought hits you: Wait. I'd stay with him at his parents' place?!

Just what are you getting yourself into? More importantly, why do you feel so inclined to agree?

[xoxo-ren-xoxo]

Ari AU - Part Four

The next segment in my Popstar Grian AU that I have been cooking up with @angeart . Sorry for the wait on this one, life has been getting in the way a bit and writing this AU down is exhausting!

Part One, Part Two, Part Three, Part Five

Feel free to send me asks about this AU! It makes me insane.

CONTENT WARNINGS for this part: suicide attempt, suicidal ideation, hospitals, serious medical conditions, discussion of seizures, discussion of psych wards, loss of personal autonomy

Hospital, Continued, OR: This is Likely Not An Accurate Representation of Seizure Related Disorders

Things calm down once Grian is stable again. It takes some work, lots of nurses and doctors hurrying around and running machines while Scar sits outside the room terrified. But eventually, she's deemed stable and Scar is given the go-ahead to re-enter the room.

The crew are finally allowed to sit in the room with her too, but it’s honestly kind of boring. Grian is unconscious, and there isn't much more to say. Talking about what happened - the suicide attempt, isn't something anyone really wants to do at the moment.

While they're waiting it turns to late morning. Impulse goes out and grabs some copies of the morning tabloids. They probably aren't the most pleasant thing in the world to read but the crew have to know what's being said about Grian.

Mumbo goes to get them all some breakfast from a vending machine (and comes back holding way too many packets of chocolate and crisps) while Pearl gets coffee and then stays with Scar, putting a hand on his shoulder as they sit together listening to the steady beeping of Grian’s heart monitor.

When Impulse gets back with the tabloids, it at least gives Scar a break from the silence. Everyone starts ranting about how insensitive the headlines are and how they’re going to have to do so much work to fix things when Grian is better and... Scar looks at them fondly, but doesn't really add to the conversation.

He's glad for the distraction. The hope they still carry that Grian will get better. Because Scar can't see that now. He really can't see it. She looks so fragile now, so drained of life, lying in the hospital bed.

It's another few hours before he wakes up.

As soon as they hear the muffled sounds of Grian trying to speak, Scar is right at her side. There had been mutterings between nurses about how worrying it’s getting, more nervous looks being shot her way with each passing hour, but Grian is waking up again. She’s incredibly hazy and out-of-it, but she’s awake.

And Scar is there this time. He's right at her side. Immediately ready to help her with anything she needs.

The oxygen mask is taken away and Grian tries to say Scar’s name, but it barely comes out as anything. Then he just sobs against Scar's chest, too tired to panic, too hurt to speak. Scar holds him as nurses very carefully flit around.

For a while, she’s kind of fading in and out of. When she’s awake and aware, she talks to Scar a little. Asks if she died. If she was kidnapped. Did she take too many pills? Why is everyone here? Is any of this real? Scar answers each question softly and gently with as much clarity as he can. Which isn’t much, because it’s still Scar.

As he gains more awareness, Grian keeps apologising to Scar. For attempting, but also for not succeeding. For burdening him. Scar never stops his reassurances, holding Grian as close as he can while whispering in her ear.

When a doctor comes in and talks about a psych eval, Grian panics. She's terrified, and guilty, knowing exactly what they're going to say. Of course she isn't mentally well. Everyone can see that. She attempted suicide, for goodness' sake.

More pressingly, she thinks she's going to be taken away. That they won't let her go home with Scar. They'll put her in some facility where she'll never get better. The horror stories she's heard from others who have been in the system like that shake her to her core, and that's what really frightens her. That's what makes her want to escape it all.

Attempt Two - Hospital

When the nurses leave, Grian asks Scar to loosen her wrist straps because she’s uncomfortable. The nurses said that they’re for Grian’s safety, but… what harm could it do? Scar doesn’t want Grian to be uncomfortable. The crew have gone home to sleep, while Scar chooses to stay overnight. 

But though Scar falls asleep on the chair next to her bed, Grian stays awake, mind full of loud and terrifying thoughts. She is so afraid, and guilty about what she's putting Scar through, and, honestly, feels like finishing what she started is the best way out. Even if it is scary, it’s less scary than the psych eval. Less scary than the thought of being taken away from Scar and analysed by doctors. Less scary than the thought of it all being leaked to the press.

With the wrist straps loosened, it’s easy for Grian to escape her room and slip out into a hallway. She finds medical scissors in the bathroom. Which is scarier than the pills. More physical and real. 

There is barely an attempt before she’s found by a nurse. She must have made a lot of noise getting out of bed and into the hallway. Even with scissors, there isn't even a scratch deep enough to bleed. Still, she’s told off and sent back to bed.

Scar is given a very stern talking-to by an angry nurse for letting Grian get free and wander off. He’s horrified that he let it happen, the looming ‘what if?’ playing in his head the whole time.

There are consequences. For some time - whatever the doctors decide - he isn’t allowed to see Grian. Which is torture, really. To distract himself, he takes a few much-needed trips between the hospital and home.

The psych eval goes badly the next day. The doctors confirm Grian's fears, wanting to send him to a facility of some kind. She begs not to be sent away, that it would kill her, even if not literally. She wouldn’t last long in a place away from Scar, especially not being observed and evaluated. Hearing her distress, Scar insists that Grian should be allowed to come home. 

It really hits Grian that it isn’t her choice. It’s Scar’s, as his partner and the closest thing she has to a legal spokesperson (aside from, what, her manager?). Ever since she cut her family off.

Grian has no control over his own autonomy. He supposes he forfeited the right to speak for himself after two suicide attempts, but still, it’s horrible. Or, a horrible thought. Grian is somewhat confident that, because of her status and wealth, she could reasonably convince them to listen to her and her alone, if she needed that to happen. Luckily, Scar’s on her side regardless.

He promises to read all the booklets the hospital gives him - especially the ones about what to do if Grian has another seizure - and to lock away all the sharp objects, pills, shoelaces, wires, and glass in the house. Which he does during the time they don't let him see Grian (the biggest chunk of time is when Grian’s therapist visits. That's something they're going to have to keep doing, of course).

But, before anyone can go anywhere, first priority is a brain scan. Because something happened to Grian when she first woke up, and they don’t know what yet. Which is also terrifying! Grian is getting tired of being terrified!

It’s remarkably fast, as procedures go. The doctor and nurses take Scar aside and start talking to him, which Grian sees and really really hates because hello? He's right here? If there's something wrong with him, he wants to know!

Afterwards, the doctor does come up to her and explain that he's been diagnosed with something-or-other (she isn’t really listening, which sort of defeats her previous point) and needs to stay away from flashing lights and high stress scenarios.

Flashing lights. High stress scenarios. Grian almost laughs, that's actually hilarious.

There is also medication. Scar’s been given pills for her to take daily, to prevent seizures.

Oh. Scar��s been given the pills so that Grian can't take them on his own. So she can’t overdose again. He feels like he's being treated like a child. He understands why - he deserves it - but it still hurts. 

Then, that’s it. Grian makes enough of a recovery to be discharged, and it’s time to go home. Prescribed with new pills, more therapy, and a lot of things to read. It feels anticlimactic. Impulse calls and says he’ll bring over a car, so… it’s another waiting game. 

While Scar and Grian sit in awkward silence, Scar runs over the guilt in his mind. The fact that Grian got out of his room and was going to attempt again. Grian being dragged back into the room, arms scratched up, crying as she’s restrained again. Scar pushed out of the room and listening to her cries, being told it’s his fault she escaped… it all hurts.

But it was a mistake. It is in the past. Scar quietly places his hand over Grian's, extending the olive branch to her while trying his best not to cry. It doesn't matter. He has to be there for her now. 

Leaving The Hospital

Impulse arrives with a baseball cap (which is too big) and sunglasses for Grian, to both hide her identity and keep the camera lights away. There are a lot of people outside still, with cameras and microphones. Cameras with flashing lights. Microphones that cause Grian so much stress. 

How lucky.

Heading out first, Impulse distracts the crowds. Then, Scar tells Grian to close her eyes entirely and just let him guide her to the car. Pay no attention to the reporters. It's okay. They don't matter.

Grian’s used to it. He doesn't even complain. He knows he's just a thing to them. An object to gawk at and capitalise off of. Maybe she'll write a suicide note and blame them in it. That'd be a good comeback, wouldn't it?

It’s not a comforting thought, though. She loops an arm around Scar’s shoulder and allows herself to be moved like a ragdoll, stepping cautiously out of the hospital doors with her eyes shut tight and head bowed to the floor.

The light of cameras flash behind her shielded eyes, but nothing happens. It’s overwhelmingly loud, after so many quiet days in the hospital, but she pushes through. As she always does. Within a few moments Scar gets her into a car, and they’re off with no incident.

No seizure. It's strange getting used to the thought. Seizures were something that happened to other people, not to Grian. But now they do. Now there's something else to watch out for.

During the ride, Grian stays quiet. He’s scared to find out what’s waiting at home. Whether their house will be swarmed with people, or if it will be safe. Terrible thoughts crawl into her head like parasites, eating away all hint of positivity and relief from being out of the hospital. Scar seems upset with her. It's uncomfortable.

And then, without warning, they’re home. Like time has slipped past her. The car engine stops running. Grian remembers to breathe.

There’s no one there. At least, no one visible. Once they get inside and close the front door, Grian stands in the hallway, unsure of what to do with himself. He asks Scar, half-dissociated, if she’s still a person. Scar responds: of course, Grian is his favourite person.

Grian thinks she’s a lot of people’s favourite person, and that’s basically the problem. Something bristles up her spine as she thinks about the bar, and that person, the one who drugged her. 

She's so terribly afraid of everything. Of herself. Of the press. Of the stalkers. She doesn't know how to explain that she still has nightmares about being drugged. And that the night he took those pills was both the calmest and most terrified he's felt in months. Because everything was going to go away. But everything was going to go away.

He tells Scar that he doesn't want to kill himself, but also yes, he does. She doesn't want to die but at the same time, how else will everything just stop? There's no other way out. He can't see it getting better. 

Scar doesn't have an answer either. But he asks Grian, quietly, if he could just... try to stay alive. Even if it's hard. Even if it hurts. Try to stay alive, because he doesn't know what he'll do without Grian. Without Grian being there. Experiencing the world with him. 

He can't - doesn't want to - imagine Grian never smiling again, never singing again, never getting another haircut or eating his favourite food or telling Scar she loves him, ever again. Never listening to Scar's Disney rambles or planning to pull little pranks on their friends. Never crying. Never coming up with song lyrics, or designing outfits. Never holding Scar again.

It's haunting, how Grian seems so far removed now from when Scar met her. Only a hint of her past self shining through, begging to be found and held onto. She's changed. They both have. But losing her altogether?

Scar can't think about that. It's maybe all Grian can think about. And they both feel very, very helpless.

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

Hi I have a question. How do I start writing?

Basically I've never written anything except a dnd backstory which at best offended all my forefathers cause of how bad it was. I had this idea for a character that I would like to try and create a story about but I'm struggling to even start.

Part of the problem is my add who I have to switch from distracted to hyperfocus™. I'm also scared everyone will hate it even though it would be my first writing thing ever.

Sorry to drop this on you and feel free to ignore it!

They probably will hate it, although they won't tell you to your face. It's going to be awful. Same as the first thing you ever drew was awful. Same as the first time you try to play guitar would sound awful. Here's my advice: stop asking for advice for a bit and start writing.

Don't get me wrong, you will need advice. Writing is a craft, and there are rules, and while the best works usually break those rules it is because they know what the rules are and why they exist and why their particular work needs to break them. You are going to need SO MUCH advice to write anything good.

But not yet.

The biggest mistake new writers make is paralyse themselves. They don't write because it's going to be bad, because they don't know what they're doing; they procrastinate by reading books about writing advice (which will be valuable to you later!) or by waiting for inspiration or by telling themselves they'll start writing when they're good at it, which is a trap, because you will only develop that awareness by writing.

Get an AO3 account, if you don't have one. Or an account with your fanfic site of choice (I recommend AO3 because the culture there is extremely positive and encouraging to new writers, 'say something nice or not at all' is the norm there). Write a fun coffee shop AU or something about your blorbos, whatever you want, whatever's fun. Write a handful of these for fun and no other reason. After a few, you'll start to see why some of the other similar stories are better than yours. You'll notice that they're doing things in a way you aren't.

Then it'll be time to ask what they're doing, and why. And you can start thinking about improving your craft.

But the first step is to start crafting at all.

[plutonium-sky]

Sky lore/headcannons dump part two boogaloo. This one is about spirits, and maybe a little about skids and winged light

part one in link below

So I like to put spirits into a hierarchy: Elder spirits, Season guides, and Regular/Seasonal spirits. So. What are they?

Spirits are beings of pure light, just like winged lights are. I'm not talking about those btw because idk what they are in my head... yet. But! that's not exactly it. Here, spirits are more like the... vessels, of light. In order to function, and be aware, they gotta be supplied with light. Otherwise! They will enter a dormant state.

And, of course, not everyone gets the same amount of light- Elders get it directly from skids (cutsceeeeenes~), Season guides get it from you finishing their quests (yay), and Regular spirits.... get it from season guides or Eden itself (last one is only when they come as ts or something). This would explain why we see some spirits out and about, while others aren't (e.g. performance spirits compared to... I don't know, Abyss)

Also this would mean that Hopeful Steward takes care of it for the regular spirits in aviary lmao

Anyways! Regular spirits CAN be woken up by skids. just give them a little light like skids do to elders (unfortunately this isn't part of the game), and then they're out and about until the light you gave them fades out- takes about an hour or so, depending on how active they will be. and here's where we go into the headcannons zone, returning to winged light even though I can't explain those.

If regular spirits want to be out and about for MORE than an hour, they would have to take a winged light- filling up their "vessel" in a self-filling loop. OFC, after having taken one, they can fly but beware- never let them use the last star on their cape. they'll just dissipate and you'll have to wake them up again :T

also, if you want to make things more interesting, make it so that it would be inadvisable to wake them up for the first time by yourself- wait for them to have come as a ts at least once. that way, you don't have to deal with them violently reliving their death by Eden shattering for the first time.

also, I like to think that season guides have at least some control over their seasonal area (if they have one), while elders are stuck in their statues (rip), can oversee the entirety of their realms, and have limited control over them. Also! they can meet each other in an in-between if needed (aka vault elder scene)

anyways onto skids. They're literally just fallen stars given form. We all knew that. And if they give up their light, they become ancestors/elders depending on how much they gave up (check part one). they're here to make sure that the balance of the realms won't tip over to darkness.... and here to also clean the mess that SOMEONE made (looking at you, Resh. naughty little skid you are, exploding eden)

aaaaand that's it for now. if I think of something I'll add more parts. otherwise! only headcannons from me from this point on.

[flamedraco]

Day 3 of Writing a Minecraft Diaries AU

I made an attempt to use lore forge to help me keep track of things but my brain recoiled so hard at information overload that I decided I'm going to stick to my tried and true method of just writing shit down in a notebook and hoping for the best. It'll help visualize family trees better if I can actually draw diagrams.

Finally finished the outline for the plot of season one, now it's just a matter of figuring out relevant information and outlining chapters, then starting to write them. Also most of the characters have been decided and their stand ins accounted for. So I'll include the cast list down below tho do be aware this could change later once I actually get around to the chapters. Again, if you don't recognize the names listed it's probably either a really obscure member of the DSMP lore, an OC, or a name I came up with for an obscure member of the lore.

If I'm going to do this I'll probably break up the seasons into their own books unless I manage to reduce season 1 down into fewer chapters. But I don't think that's going to happen since I'm already working on the outline for the seventh chapter and we haven't even gotten to the part where the werewolves are supposed to be involved. And I cut the werewolves out for fucks sake.

I'm still debating on if I even want to continue into season 2 or not. Diaries lore is massive and has a lot of moving parts, things set up in season 1 specifically for season 2 and things that I might need to remove or add. I have the plot summary but depending on what I decide to do regarding season 2 and the potential of another book...I guess that really depends on how the chapters are received and if my brain decides to stay DSMP hyperfocused for another year or so. Because if I'm trying to convert the ENTIRETY of Diaries into an AU that's probably going to be three multichapter books just on it's own and I'd probably rewrite the entirety of Season 3 since it was never finished and only had 37 episodes. This kind of project could take me an entire year, probably longer.

I do know that I want to try and do this first book tho. That's the only reason why I rewrote major plot points, have an overview, am creating chapter outlines, and have the series pulled up on my phone, two tabs of the wiki, and my doc open as I take notes with my notebook close by for if I need a new name for an OC.

There's a lot going into this planning right now. Converting Diaries into an AU is proving difficult. Especially with how certain characters change the plot and characters I'm having to cut out (if you see a certain handful of characters not mentioned I probably cut them out due to story changes). I've already had to rewrite a lot of things regarding the finale due to how I've changed the plot and the characters that are involved. Because keep in mind, just because these characters take on the role of another does not make them the same character. Wilbur is going to act as a completely different protagonist from Aphmau. Quackity is not the same type of person that Garroth is. Also if you don't see your favorite DSMP character mentioned, don't worry. There are places for them to show up if I continue into the next season with another book. And if they aren't here it's probably due to them not fitting into the roles that I needed. My choices aren't meant to offend anyone, they were made for the sake of the story and who I feel fits better where.

Take the cast list with a pinch of salt because this could always change later as I work on the chapters. And the lists themselves are taken directly from the Season 1 Character List from the Minecraft Diaries Wiki. If someone important isn't mentioned here than they'll probably still show up in the fic it's just for some reason they're missing from the Wiki. Unless I cut them. Because I did cut some characters. There's also the chance that the character mentioned in the list was NOT mentioned in the overview on the Wiki so they're a minor enough character for me to not have included them here due to not having a stand in yet. Some characters might also just be listed as unnamed because I feel like I might not mention their name.

Again: List is subject to change in the future.

ALSO: Relationships between characters may be changed due to the characters now standing in their place, for example: Kenmur and Emmalyn are a ship in Diaries, but I am not shipping Phil and Techno together in any form other than PLATONIC.

WARNING: Some characters in the cast list placement below may contain spoilers for both MC Diaries and, as such, the fic I am going to write, specifically in regards to the Shadow Knights section. Proceed at your own risk!

Cast List: MC Diaries Character Name - DSMP/OC Name

Phoenix Drop Aphmau - Wilbur Garroth - Quackity Laurence - Sapnap Nicole - Karl Emmalyn - Techno Lucinda - Hannah Brendan - Foolish Zoey - Nox Cadenza - Ena Kawaii~chan - Tina Donna - Tiffany Brian - Darius Kyle - Tristan Logan - Elderic Dale - Frankie Emma - Rosella Molly - Lydia Levin - Miriam Alexis - Alanna Zenix - Purpled Dante - Puffy

Scaleswind The Lord of Scaleswind - Unnamed Matilda - Lethia

O'khasis Zane - Dream Katelyn - Niki Jeffory - Ciaran Garte - Unamed

Bright Port Lord Burt - Lord Dawn Azura - Aliara Visher - Caradoc Paul - Johnson

Meteli Hayden - BadBoyHalo Kenmur - Phil

Wyverns Ungrth - Sgaeyl Raven - Crow

Shadow Knights Zenix - Purpled Gene - Schlatt Sasha - Samantha Vylad - Tommy Laurence - Sapnap

Other The Stranger/Aaron - Sally

If I missed someone there might be a reason for it, or I just missed them. Either way, this is the general cast you can expect to see in the book at some point or the other. Some of these are minor characters, some of them are major characters, and some are just side characters.

I think I might start work on the first chapter soon but I'll try to get more chapters outlined before I start working on the first. I want to try and get a picture in my mind of how many chapters this beast will have and how many things I can cut.

[twisted-wonderland-but-gayer]

Or even an ex serial killer. Just imagine. Deuce is talking about how awful he was for making his mom cry cause he was a delinquent kid and Yuu is just internally 'I killed someone in cold blood Deuce.'

[*vibrates with ideas*]

Yuu definitely has the feel of a killer, but he's not doing anything in this world if he can help it. Whether Yuu killed for a reason and had a goal or was already trying to attone for when he did, he doesn't want to raise a weapon against anyone here if he can. The vibrance of everything just feels more lively and something is just humming under his skin, even in the monotony of a daily school life it feels less like the world that lead him to another path.

He'd never downplay any abuse or feelings anyone shares with them, no matter how grief filled they can get thinking about less evil people they've killed before. Would those people who looked no different from these students here have been having a good life, or... ? Nevermind. It's not worth thinking too much on anymore.

While Yuu keeps feeling better, even if it's perhaps the magical tinge of all things on this world keeping them stimulated, everyone else feelings more weary. The void一the one that is the hole in Yuu's heart from the actions he's committed一draws in all light and that includes all magic. That, or it's just how Yuu looks a bit too aware of everything around them at one time to be normal.

Eye's shooting around, body turning with each movement, measured steps and actions, death grip on sharp items and pens, states into nothing. It all adds up with those eyes.

Leona and Lilia may be at odds at times in canon, but even these two can see the eyes of a killer from far away. They aren't averse to talking to Yuu, but Yuu does have to go through their personal interrogations to gain their trust. Grim just likes that Yuu knows how to cut food very well, and treats his "creepy eyes" like a feature and bonus (scares off the spineless students).

VIBRATING

Yuu seeming totally normal and sweet but they are just off putting and maybe are even stained with the smell of death or something.

Very few can spot the differences. To Deuce, Yuu is someone he greatly admires. Yuu is what he wants to be! A model student that's so ridiculously kind. Yuu doesn't have the heart him the truth however. To crush that dream he has.

So they'll play along as the squeaky clean model student. Lilia and Leona are watching, waiting for the facade to drop. Once a killer always a killer

[lavenoon]

For funsies: what would Dawn/Dusk’s reaction be to a fellow agent attempting to drop a nickname on Robin, either stealing “little bird” or something like “honey”, “sweets” or “duck” (a legit thing in North of England, used in the same way as “miss” or “buddy”) I hope you’ve been having a good day! Have you been able to have a treat (food/drink/activity) recently? - @clxckwork-sun-n-moon

Robin isn't even aware of their scary dog privileges, but whatever agent tried that would be. Very very much aware. /hj

So assuming Robin would just kinda miss it/ not hear somehow (because otherwise they'd look at that agent in a way one would usually regard like. idk. the moldy vegetables you forgot about in your fridge drawer or something, and that in turn would make their rival just fight not to laugh at the poor sod who tried that. Robin is not friendly with any field agents except their rivals friendly being generous in reverse Dawn's case lmao)

In the case of blatant special nickname stealing - i.e. "little bird" or "little thief"?

Dusk can be scary, too, and maybe he doesn't need the sharp teeth and the thermal vision in that moment, but when a 7 1/2ft animatronic suddenly gets glowing red eyes and levels a death glare at you, you don't really think about how unnecessarily extra that is. Maybe adds in a lighthearted "Plagiarism is frowned upon, you know." That's it for then, but the feeling of being watched won't leave them any time soon, and they kind of decide getting close to the human star agent is not worth getting past the animatronic one(s)

Dawn? is regularly scary, so honestly stealing his nickname for his rival just invites trouble. The sweetest, most polite death glare you'll ever get, truly. May break something replaceable to distract from the conversation while maintaining eye contact, and whatever fool tried will know Dawn wasn't just being "clumsy"

And I know you asked for their reactions, but in the case where Robin reacts? Just tells the other agent pretty point-blank that they aren't that close, don't call them that - their respective rival has special privileges that come with actually keeping up with them, meanwhile they've never even been on a single mission with Robin. And their boys just preen, so smug about it, and totally would stick their tongue out at the agent if they had one.

If it's a more generic nickname?

Dusk wouldn't care too much (though he still is severely unimpressed), because what he has with his little bird is special, and a generic petname from a random agent really only shows how little they know Robin. If it's a repeat offender they'll also get the death glare sooner rather than later, though honestly, Robin would tell them off before Dusk would get the chance

Dawn struggles still here, since he also dabbles in the generic petnames (mostly under the guise of undercover missions, but that doesn't mean he doesn't mean them). Not amused but can't outright tell the other agent off, given that it's not obviously stolen from him, but may drop a low "Take a hint" with Robin out of earshot. (Again, that's presuming Robin didn't make it clear that petnames from unfamiliar agents won't fly).

In either cases they both may gravitate closer to Robin, just showing off that they can, that they aren't sent away, and also maybe just. A teensy tiny bit of a claim on Robin. If they ever find out they're gonna be so exasperated, but in an amused way, because really, pay attention. They aren't using nick/petnames with any other agent - that should tell them enough about how they feel about the reverse. (Dawn in particular would need the reassurance, though he wouldn't quite admit it. May lay it on thick with the petnames in return though for a while.)

I. I'm not going to add post-reveal canon Dawn and reverse Dusk, because this is already a beast LMAO. The dynamics change that even the original rivals may change their reactions in subtle ways - more assured of their presence in Robin's life, and thus more inclined to let them handle it on their own.

But I probably should go drink something, quite right - but I've had breakfast, a good lunch, and apart from work I also got a looong dog petting session! (Work was fun, too, though I won't call it a treat simply out of principle. I love kids so much though they're so cool lmao)

Will take it easy for the rest of the day, too, since it's almost dinner time, I have my rule to not push myself to create after dinner, and really, I don't need to work on a comic or a drabble every day lmao

Hope your day is going well too! Take care of yourself! <3

[mountainmaven]

Brain dump - long (sorry)

This past week has been surreal. The flood up here has thrown me for a loop. I am better today but it's still settling in and I'm still processing. I've been through hurricanes before - I lived in FL for almost 20 of my adult years, and I experienced Hurricane David in my youth. That this was "only" a tropical storm, and the damage it caused on our mountain is just mind blowing. I know too that this devastation is literally nothing compared to say Maui for example or other countries completely obliterated by typhoons or other hurricanes. But it's still a devastation nonetheless. The entire mountain, and all the recreation areas are closed until further notice.

There are 2 roads that go up and down the mountain, one on each "side" of the mountain, and then a 21.5 mile road that connects them. On our side of the mountain are 4 neighborhoods, 3 of which got hit far harder than we did. They have roads that are absolutely completely gone. Houses were damaged (though all are still standing for now), cars were lost to flooding. Our little library was badly damaged, as was the school. I hear that the fire department was destroyed. The school is currently being "held up" by giant boulders that they brought in in hopes that it won't just fall into the ravine.(that's all we have up here. a fire department, the library and an elementary school - plus the hotel that is a little further down the mountain and they're fine thank goodness). Our road was badly damaged and yet now that I've seen with my own eyes the damages, that road damage is minor compared to what just one of the other neighborhoods experienced. The neighborhoods on the other side of the mountain - I don't know how bad they were hit, though they are all off grid so no public services were affected that I'm aware of.

The energy company did an outstanding job of getting power back to everyone quickly - I think everyone's power was restored in around 72 hours (they did it by neighborhood). That included having to replace fallen poles, and lines. The water company also did a good job of addressing the damage and giving people water until they can fix it. I'm not sure if the other neighborhoods have running water yet. We do, we never lost it, but we did have a boil order in affect that was lifted Saturday night. One of the things each of them had to deal with was dirt. They either had to remove so much dirt to get to where they needed to be to make repairs, or they had to add enough dirt so they could access where they needed to make repairs. They really were on it though.

The ski lodge on the other side of the mountain also sustained significant damages, not sure if they'll be open for the season this year -but if the roads aren't fixed in time it won't matter anyway.

We are currently restricted to using the road up and down the mountain only when absolutely necessary (and they'd prefer we do it before 7 am and/or after 5 pm), and we have to show proof of residency to get back up. (I'm fine with both of those things, inconvenient, yes. And while I would like a little more freedom to come and go, it's okay).

I hear chainsaws all day now, and have for the last week. They're cutting up trees that had fallen, but they are also felling other trees. My guess is because they're going to move the electric poles further in, away from the road. All of our ravines, washes, dry river beds weren't enough for all the water that was coming down the mountain. Almost all of them are 2-4 times wider than they were before. Our springs (we have tons of natural springs in our mountain range) are overflowing and will probably do that off and on for a while.

So far the wildlife seem to be okay - we've seen deer, and the wild horses so they're' fine. Though I just now realized I haven't heard any foxes at night since the storm so they may have moved to a safer location. And the burros further down the mountain are okay too.

One of the things we love about living up here is how removed we feel from the valley. But in times like this it makes it harder. Not just because of the isolation and reduced ability to go down to the valley, but the dismissal we feel from others. They don't understand what it's like up here, they diminish the effects the storm had on us (because they hardly got any storm), and all they're worried about is when they they come up and hike, or if the ski lodge will be open. The lack of compassion for humanity and people's lives and homes is kind of unsettling. So on one hand we love that we're often not included when people talk about the valley, but on the other hand times like this it would be nice to be thought of lol.

I had a therapy session yesterday that helped a bit. But now I'm worried about the possibility of having to travel to FL to help my brother out with my dad, but they're having an "above normal" hurricane season and I'm just not sure my mental health can take it. We're going to call my brother this weekend to discuss things.

[fare-thee-well]

Some people will say that they are above the pro vs anti debate and think it's all incredibly stupid and insignificant, which I would agree to partly, if this anti vs pro debate hasn't led to minority groups (in this case a trans asian person getting the cops called on them because of someone who was absolutely obsessed with driving them into a corner for drawing fictional characters experiencing gore and other nonconsensual situations) getting in danger, getting doxxed, having to live in fear because another person thinks that it is a normal and good thing to get someone whose opinions they disagree with killed.

Usually those who say they aren't involved will jump in on the first occasion they get to join team Death Threats Are Good To Eradicate Freaks. A post where I said both sides have merit is still going around, I don't really think that is right anymore. The take that fiction and dark or difficult themes in them should be taken with nuance and that harassment or book banning is NEVER the answer still stands. What I would like to add to that now is that even if you yourself don't harass anyone but don't mind sharing around posts in which darkfic creators are consistently made out to be freaks, not normal, morally corrupt is adding fuel to the issue as well. You're allowing harassment. You're placing these creators somewhere in the social hierarchy that is below others, and thus not deserving of respect.

The same goes for sharing blacklists around of 'problematic' people (who once in a post joking with their mutuals used an out of context screenshot of a hentai or ecchi manga in which characters were apparently teens, thus underage; some may know who I'm talking about), so that their friend group may hopefully cut them off, take their support away, make sure everyone leaves them so that they can no longer depend on anyone, isolate themselves, and like a true anti often wishes for them, that they'll end their life. Sure is an odd coincidence that the people they can hurt the most with it is trans folks who often have to make do with smaller personal circles and online communities, huh. You may not be aware as an uninvolved person that it is the end goal, but you're helping them work toward it.

The suffering of a fictional character will NEVER be more important to prevent than a real human being. The lack of empathy in anti circles is honestly terrifying. They use the exact same talking points far-right politicians do when talking about immigrants. As an academic who has done research both on nationalism in European countries and antifandom in the West, I can say as much with confidence. Define the 'other' as below yourself and problematic to society so that others may eventually only see them as trash as well, then easily normalize treating them as such.

[maeve-on-mustafar]

Go write thatfanfiction yourself, it's literally free to do so

Hi, anon. Yes, thank you, I am aware that writing fanfiction is free.

But you know what isn't free? Time and energy.

And with every fic I write, I'm very aware of the risk that I'm going to sink time and energy into a fic that fandom ultimately doesn't want, and that I'll see in the stats just how much fandom doesn't want me writing this kind of fic. And then everyone else in fandom will see just how much the fic failed and think that I have no skill as a writer, and then they'll never want to give my fics a chance, either.

It's for this reason that I've always been reluctant to write the fics I want with the Anakin characterization I want. Popular fic tropes and characterizations are often popular for a reason. If I go ahead and start writing the opposite of the himbo!disaster!Anakin characterization that everyone else loves and that is widely accepted among the fandom, there's a high likelihood that people are just going to skip over my fic and go straight for the fic with the popular characterization that's already familiar to them.

Because as much as people talk about "two cakes" and how much they'd love to see a new kind of characterization or a new spin on X trope, when push comes to shove, they will inevitably default to reccing and praising the existing popular fics. If a new fic is published by an unknown writer, any given fan will just ignore it favor of the popular fics that are already out there. Doesn't matter if this new fic includes tags, a summary, and has been entered into a collection that's relevant to that person's interests; if it comes down to choosing between the popular fic and the new fic, everyone will choose the popular fic every time. It's been this way in every fandom I've ever participated in. Popularity wins. Always. End of story. The second cake doesn't matter, because it was never truly wanted to start with.

And look, people aren't wrong for liking what's popular, and no one is obligated to read or rec my writing. That's not what I'm trying to say. But there's a certain loneliness to knowing that your fandom preferences are always guaranteed to make sure your work is always going to get passed over, no matter how much effort you put into it or time you spent on it. And it doesn't make it easier to know the reason for that is because you like to write fic focusing on Anakin overcoming a challenge and earning respect for it, and what the fandom wants to see is flailing!Anakin getting into shenanigans.

And I also have to say that as a writer, my fic never gets recced. Not even the fic people insisted they wanted to see and that fandom needs more of. The main reason why I hesitated so long in updating my "Anakin is Mace's Padawan" AU is because despite the constant clamoring for better Mace characterization in fic, I couldn't get recced on any of the Mace-positive blogs after posting the first part of the series. And that was a huge blow to my self-confidence, because I couldn't stop wondering what I was doing wrong. I had three WIPs to add to the series, but I really struggled to complete any of them, because I was certain I was making a mistake somewhere, but I couldn't determine what it was. I thought there must have been a reason for why no one thought my fic was worth reccing, but I had no idea of how to figure it out.

Finally, I pushed those feelings aside and wrote a quick little second installment. And again, no one recced or thought it was worth mentioning. I guess, sometimes, when you push through insecurity and manage to take the leap, there really is no reward waiting for you. I now have those three more WIPs waiting for me to come back and finish them, but I almost can't bear to do that, because I can't stop worrying it's just going to be another exercise in disappointment.

The reason I bring this up is because, as I'm sure most Mace fans agree, there really is a dearth of fic that's both focused on him and flattering towards him. Comparatively, there's much more of Obikin fic. So my thought process is this: if I can't convince most Mace Windu fans that my Mace fic is worth reading, how am I ever going to convince Obikin fans that my Obikin fic is worth reading? Especially when I'm not using the popular characterization most people want to see, and when there's so much existing popular fic with that characterization that readers are almost certain to choose over anything I write. The truth is that nothing I write stands a chance, and that no one is going to want to read fic by me. They want the popular stuff that's already out there, and they are perfectly in their rights to want that, but I'm sure you can understand why that knowledge dampens my enthusiasm.

So . . . yeah. I've been grateful for the support I've received for those ideas I mentioned, but the truth is, I only see writing those Obikin fics ending in disappointment for me. Because I know even if I do my damnedest and create fics I've very proud of, no one will ever choose me as a writer. And I just can't deal with the constant anxiety that I'll write this fic and shape it into a final version that I'm very proud of, only to see that at the end, everyone thought it was worthless all along. I've been through that before, and it was very unpleasant, and I never want to repeat it.

Ultimately, I've learned the lesson fandom wanted me to learn, which is that fandom doesn't want you going against fanon, even if they claim that's what they do want.

I'm not really sure how to end this. I like Anakin. I like Obikin. But I also know don't subscribe to the popular fanon characterizations, so I don't think the Obikin fandom would want what I'd have to offer. And again, no one is obligated to read or enjoy my writing, but it sucks to have an idea and know you can't do anything with that idea, because it's almost certainly going to fail.

[littlegalerion]

6 Things!

Tagged by @sheirukitriesfandom

Thanks for the tag!

1.) Last Song

That is a very hard question because when I put on music, I'm not really aware of what I'm listening to. Either "Beneath the Brine" by Family Crest or "Nothing Left to Lose" from Tangled the Series, and I have to add its either of those because of Warrior Cat MAPs 🫠

2.) Last TV Show

Clone Wars. My husband has never watched it and really wants to get back into Star Wars so we're watching it during dinner.

3.) Currently Watching

As for me alone, I have plans to watch through all possible Transformer shows on Tubi. It's a treasure trove on there. I'm saving Prime for last because ✨️nostalgia✨️.

4.) Currently Reading

Sims fanfiction. I'm not commenting further.

5.) Currently Obsession

Okay, so right now I'm preparing for chicks which involves building a coop. So the hyperfixation on learning how to do that is REAL. As for the chicks, I also now have to learn how to incubate eggs and hatch them myself which won't be until the end of April. Why? Because 1.) USA egg prices are bad so now everyone's buying chicks, to the point both birds in stores and on online hatcheries are backed up until August. I was lucky to get the breed I want via hatching eggs as early as the end of April. And people are buying chickens not realizing how much work goes into it, thinking they'll get free eggs, but already people are trying to return them because "it's been 2 weeks and the chickens aren't laying eggs???" 😡 2.) Others are taking advantage of the whole chicken craze/scare and buying out all the feed stores, reselling live chicks online for double the amount they paid in stores. 9/10 all these chicks are gonna flood the market come next few months.

So now my hyperfixation is learning how to build, raise chicks, raise chickens, raise meat rabbits, and garden. I currently got a blueberry bush root and a blackberry bush root potted and starting off indoors. Lettuce and tomatoes will be next.

6.) Unrelated Obession

Dog training/care in general. I know too much and I never shut up. This is second only to Elder Scrolls obsessions, I assure you.

I tag whoever sees this and wants to do it!

[luxmaeastra]

She tilted her face up to him letting his fingers skin over her chin and neck. She was sure her lips were as swollen as his was. His gaze was unnerving she didn't remember the last time someone saw through all her masks. 

"Einar what are you looking for?"

Her words were hushed barely disturbing the dust of the room they'd found themselves in. His fingers moved down to her throat curling around it. She let him, she was a warrior, probably even better than he was. Aunt Hypaxia had made sure she could fight and adapt to any terrain or style agaisnt her. At least in that she understood her parents, the calm of sparring and rush of release it gave.

"I'm trying to figure out what spell you've put on me Lorin. I've never wanted anyone as much as I've wanted you."

He leaned down to kiss her, she gripped his tunic tugging him closer. Letting him lead, letting him devour her. With him all the noise stopped, with him all the anxiety flowed away. 

He pulled back lips trailing along her jaw.

"Do you truly think your parents will stop us? They seem honorable Lorin."

Her eyes closed and she tipped her head back. In her mind she saw the flame her mother kept at her altar. The one she had taken as a small candle from Vallhan. The holy flame of her mother's hearth. 

Her mother believed in the Mother, in her Priestesses and everything that entailed. She wouldn't understand this. Yes it was a passion, a tryst that most likely wouldn't survive their court. She didn't even know if it was meant to be more than it was. 

"My mother is a lot of things. But she is most definitely not as honorable as you think her to be. My father will support whatever decision she makes."

Like he always does. It's not like the two of them had bothered to know her. She licked her lips fingers moving to trace his jaw, to play with his fiery hair. 

"What of your parents? Surely your parents will approve of a strong match? My parents would be forced to be more loyal than they already are to her."

Einar hummed, his eyes slipping closed. He turned to kiss her fingers reveling in the way her breath caught.

"Yes but they'll see my devotion to you as a weakness. They want a strong alliance not one built on loyalty to anyone else but them."

His father may see some understanding but he'd never support it if he knew how desperately Einar wanted it. 

"Emotions are things to be controlled Einar. They aren't meant to control you."

His mother would take one look at Lorin and deem her too meek to be her daughter-in-law. 

But then no one asked him what he wanted. He was mean to be grateful with what he had and never complain. A sentiment he knew Lorin must have felt too growing up in Night. Not for the first time he wondered how she survived Hewn.

He leaned down to kiss her pressing her back against the wall. For now they could have this stolen moment one of many. Stolen breaths, stolen snippets of a future they may never have.

Neither heard the door open....

//for anyone! Discard the door if you just want to continue the scene. 🥰//

Ahem. Narcissus cleared his throat as he stood in the doorway, his arms folded as his eyes fixed upon the two younger forms. It had been more obvious than the pair of them were aware, did they not realize the hormones they gave off or the very obvious way they had looked at each other.

"I am sorry to interrupt the pair of you, but Einar, your mother is looking for you," he stated, acting as if he had just walked in on them reading a book. "You may want to tidy up, you know how much your mother dislikes it when you are so disshelved."

Maybe if Lorin had been a child of another he would have been more welcoming of the idea, the idea of being tied closer to Rhysand made him feel uneasy. He already had enough sway with Amarantha, to add more due to the union of their children.