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WIEGE ANALYSIS - SPOILERS
Be warned that this is not a theory, its just what has been saw. by me, someone who is basically blind. without further ado lets begin
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First shot:
First thing we see for the most part is luka smiling at hyuna, that despite her absence and despite him ending the life of hyun-woo he still loves and adores her and the gun is sort of a mild inconvenience to him
This shot is incredibly interesting, i believe that this are all of Lukas "clones". the ones that heperu didn't see as perfect, so he killed them. and luka is staring in shock, shooken by the fact that he was so willing to end the lives of them even if they did nothing but be unperfect.
Then we see hyuna. She appears to be in a collapsed buildling and this is how she lost her leg. this isn't the first time we have saw this picture though as it was a teaser for the lyrics ( Post from VIVINOS - YouTube). I don't know where exactly this is but i fear we might not be able to know due to what happened later on in the video
it then cuts to mizi and hyuna at what i can only assume is the rebellions "headquarters" and mizi is crying, its clear she hasn't gotten over sua's death and if i'm going to be honest I don't think she will
It then cuts to sua and mizi wearing each others clothes from round one. and mizi puts suas dress over it almost as if saying "i prefer this one" or "this one suits you better" and sua looks sad and only smiles once this entire scene. she's aware of what she will do in round one and probably has done for a while. it then cuts to till spray painting but i haven't saw that of value enough to include (sos till fan's)
This scene is one of the saddest this mv, Its "snowing" and if you didn't know snow in anakt is children's ashes, which explains Hyuna's crying, as i believe this is after hyun woos death so hyun woo is snowing down then there is a small cut of luka resting his head on Hyuna's
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then from 1:55 to 2:05 it looks like what i believe to be a modern au as there sua has a smart phone. and in this small scene luka and hyuna appear to have wedding rings on (thank you random tumblr person for pointing that out) then there are multiple cuts of them all being happy and alive. them singing having fun, sua comforting mizi. till drawing. they are all happy
now this shot confirms when wiege takes place. right after blink gone. mizi is crying over tills body, she couldn't save him. she tried but failed. she then (i believe) imagines up a picture of sua.
Next has a variety of misc shots of luka and hyuna the most notable being a shot of the rebellion (excluding mizi, most likely before she joined)
they are all crying over a dying member of the team, except hyuna which i think is to show off her guarded side. a side she hasn't let out to most people, only one person: luka. apart from that she is incredibly guarded to everybody
Luka then runs up to hyuna who protects him from getting shot. She saved him but sacrificed herself (wonder where we have heard that hm? ivan and sua perhaps)
she then says a speech, her final words to the world and more importantly luka.
I resented you so. I had to keep moving forward in every moment... But you were always my one and only weakness. That's why I resented you so. Luka, live with love. Embrace the pain, the frailty, and the moments so unbearably shameful. Forgive yourself... Again and again, endlessly. Because everything... begins from there.
This i'm not going to even try to analyse but its so emotional. a pure emotion to luka And speaking of emotion we see luka crying.
as she says her speech rockets fall from the sky. I dont really know why so any help would be incredibly helpful
That's all. Keeping living your free life. o7 hyuna.
Also the song slap's i'm definitely adding it to a playlist
#alnst#alnst sua#alien stage#alnst mizi#alien stage sua#sua#alnst vivinos#wiege#sorta analysis#analysis#alnst analysis#hyunaluka#hyuna alnst#hyuluka#hyuna alien stage#alnst luka#alnst hyuna#Youtube
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does anyone have like a good YouTube playlist where i can watch EverymanHYBRID? i never finished the series and i honestly wanna finish it and also understand the lore of it. preferably having everything be their own separate videos and not put together in one multiple hour video. i wanna be able to go back for each of them and not accidentally skip to the previous one or the next one.
edit: i've got a playlist, gonna start the series again soon!
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GOD DAMN IT I KNEW I MISSED SOME
#ughhhhhhh idk what to do people already voted lol uhhhhh#i'll make one more will all the winners dangit#I DIDN'T KNOW THIS EP EXISTED#FORGIVE ME HE DIDN'T ADVERTIZE IT#and no one put them on playlists on youtube#ugh why#intercom#poll#avantasia#sorry T^T
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Get sillay
XÄŤn YĂĄ (left) belongs to me, Little Sailor (right) belongs to @crow-cap
Song: piranha creeper creek from super mario 3D world
#guess who took their meds and focused on the wrong thingggg#I forgot I had the super Mario 3d world ost in my playlist and tthis got stuck in my head#I used to play that level a lot because its one of the only ones with the flashlight box and I always thought it looked cute lol#the musical score for this game is actually one of my favs next to Mario galaxy. something about the jazz instruments adds something to it#a YouTuber I watch made a video breaking down Mario soundtracks and it added to my appreciation for the music!! if youâre interested check#out scruffy on YouTube. his videos are very thoughtful and interesting to watch so I can 11/10 recommend#and as someone who knows next to nothing about music he breaks it down so itâs easy to understand and follow along. heâs a cool guy#anyway!!! im still not over these 2 they are everything to me#if I canât find situations to put them in Iâm doing dumb shit like this. mwah#myart#doodles#animatic#my oc#friend oc#lmk#Lego monkie kid#lmk oc#xin ya#little sailor#sailor
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I think the frustrating thing about Spotify recommendations is sometimes it really does introduce me to lots of cool Indie Bands that I really vibe with and allow me to try some new stuff and sometimes it keeps telling me that I need to Listen to Mother Mother (I have not listened to Mother Mother ever and at this point I never will because it is a pride thing.)
Or a random unfunny tiktok joke song from 3 years ago/ a viral YouTube song from over a decade ago.
#simon says#will probably delete this later#but yeah my recommendations are all mother mother and my spotify weekly is a mix between sweet ass new bands and unfunny bad joke songs#my spotify weekly has Cherry Bomb by the Runaways which is a good recommendation and then the Creative Song from don't hug me im scared#which is a bad recommendation to be clear#i know I have a couple of odd songs from things like shows or cartoon bumpers in my playlist (i got whats new scooby doo on there)#but that doesn't mean that I need to be recommended fuckin Death By Glamour??#like there's no videogame soundtracks in my playlist why the fuck is that there#If I wanna listen to Undertale music I would just listen to the vinyls I own!!#anyways this is just a vent against spotify#my weekly seems to have a LOT more indie stuff so imma check it out real fast#i want to discover more music because I do eventually want to just swap to mp3s and an mp3 player instead of spotify#that is one thing I like about Spotify the most is that it helps me find more bands that I like#but I could probably find stuff via looking up youtube playlists as well#so it's not worth paying for anymore#I asked for an mp3 player for Christmas so hopefully I get one and I can just start using that instead#i miss my mp3 these last 7 years without it have sucked I miss my designated music device#anyways dont have to worry about going ad free if you just have the digital files on your computer and put them directly in a player#đđ
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i keep annoying myself by creating good queues instead of playlists on spotify because for some unknown fucking reason i've developed an aversion to the skip button and a memory just bodyslammed me
my mum used to tell me i could listen to music when i revised but i had to put on a playlist AND STICK TO IT because otherwise she knew i'd spend hours fucking about queuing songs
#yes this is about some very specific artists atm#death cab for cutie#hozier#it's about getting the songs in the right order for the vibe and unfortunately the vibe changes in no predictable way#honorable mention to#maisie peters#and#stornoway#especially the last one and you take me as i am#idk why i have this aversion to skipping#i just want spotify to add a fucking PLAY NEXT BUTTON#it would cut so much of this shit out#the big advantage of when i used to have youtube music#god only knows how i used to survive having an ipod shuffle#WAIT NO I REMEMBER I USED TO PUT THEM IN A SPECIFIC ORDER ON ITUNES#damn i miss that thing#patch lore#i seem to remember painting it with maybe nail polish or sharpies? idk i don't have a clear enough memory of that#those are my earliest memories of having some control over my own music though#still not full control bc my older sister was the one who had bought the first few songs#and is thus responsible for my lifelong taylor swift listening#i wish i could find that even if just to find the tracklist#i also keep fucking up my spotify listens by listening to shit on youtube when i don't wanna redo my queue#why am i like this#partly bc i still haven't sorted out all my playlists#hate to say it but i wish spotify's queue worked like tumblr's#lemme shuffle it and move shit to the start and end w one click
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I did a new video essay/countdown video where I ranked every Kamen Rider Girls concert/live event. Is this going to be a thing?
It's officially November 29th, AKA the 14th anniversary of one of my favorite musical groups. (They grow up so fast. đ) I had to do it.
#kamen rider girls#gonna go to bed now and spend all day tomorrow watching said concerts ranked in the video#or at least my curated playlists of the concerts that i made a while back and promptly forgot what i put on them#i also fully scripted this one - unlike the last one - but this one required more editing because i kept f'ing up#and when i listened back to myself reading the intro i was just like 'damn. breathe me.'#also: i miss their original logo of a girl doing a rider kick#it was much better than a lady ichigou helmet#kamen rider#video#music#countdown#youtube#Youtube
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âgerebloggtâ is an extremely funny word
#changing the language on your phone is like a fun little loan word easter egg hunt#also i was today years old when i found out that youtube videos can set different titles for different countries#(on english-language youtube the jan bĂśhmermann videos iâve been watching for vocabulary and syntax)#(have english titles if theyâre also subtitled in english)#(on german-language youtube the titles are in german but this is ok iâve already saved all the subtitled ones to a playlist)#(so i can watch them a couple times with english subtitles then with german auto-generated then without subtitles i have a System you see)#(zdf magazin royale i love you please put actual german subtitles on your videos i donât trust the auto-generated ones)
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Ok so a long while back I had a story with a trio of main characters who each represented a core aspect of the world they were trying to protect: the natural, the technological, and the magical (a human, a sentient AI, and a shapeshifter witch)
and then a few years later I made a sequel to it with a new trio and somehow by complete accident made them represent the same things as the first trio except this time combined with elements of another aspect (a human who finds out he's more magical than he expected (he's a demigod), a shapeshifter being who relies on tech for communication and accessibility (he can only turn into a few things and none of them are very expressive or mobile), and a sentient android that looks so human almost nobody can tell he's not (even his best friends))
and the whole point of the first story was those initial three protecting their world from people who wanted to separate or eliminate one of the three elements (trying to get rid of magic and technology altogether), and the reason why i wrote the second story was to write something a few decades into the future showing the impact those first characters had in bringing those elements together. and i accidentally put the perfect themes into the new main trio
#we've also introjected both of these trios!#the entire reason their themes were an accident is bc both of these stories started out as FANFICTION#but i got so obsessed with it i was like 'im making this au into its own thing' so now it's original#completely forgot about this but one of the original trio is actually also a fanfic character LMAO#i just picked him up out of his au and put him in a new world that fit him better and he is no longer an au of that guy#these are the guys from Mara aka one of the biggest worlds we have in headspace/paracosm#most of them are superheroes or similar professions#and then we have a threequel which is another au we're still working on making original but that one's more complicated and different#it's two superhero factions fighting over who gets to have control over a big city#the first one is called Nightfall- i have a giant playlist for it on spotify that i think i made on youtube as well#and it's a faction of the first superheroes ever trying to unravel a missing persons case and fight an anti-magic-and-tech mafia#and then Daybreak (also with a playlist) takes place 30 years later when superheroes are more common and no longer government controlled#and it's three teens who turn 18 and find out the building they live in is the base for a superhero agency#they live there bc their family members are superheroes (but they had no idea)#and they get recruited when they're old enough and get thrown into solving a murder case (that's a bit too close to home)#the third one is Eclipse and it's the two factions fighting over their city (no playlist yet I'm lazy) this one is more fun drama#i also have one brewing in the background of our brain that could be like. a more younger demographic spinoff#of a group of kids whose parents are heroes so they all do hero stuff too (in secret!) but like. kid hero stuff. no real peril here#we've been writing this world for like 8 years now we're Obsessed with it#it's one of the few paracosm storylines we actually plan to properly publish someday
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Homemaking, gardening, and self-sufficiency resources that won't radicalize you into a hate group
It seems like self-sufficiency and homemaking skills are blowing up right now. With the COVID-19 pandemic and the current economic crisis, a lot of folks, especially young people, are looking to develop skills that will help them be a little bit less dependent on our consumerist economy. And I think that's generally a good thing. I think more of us should know how to cook a meal from scratch, grow our own vegetables, and mend our own clothes. Those are good skills to have.
Unfortunately, these "self-sufficiency" skills are often used as a recruiting tactic by white supremacists, TERFs, and other hate groups. They become a way to reconnect to or relive the "good old days," a romanticized (false) past before modern society and civil rights. And for a lot of people, these skills are inseparably connected to their politics and may even be used as a tool to indoctrinate new people.
In the spirit of building safe communities, here's a complete list of the safe resources I've found for learning homemaking, gardening, and related skills. Safe for me means queer- and trans-friendly, inclusive of different races and cultures, does not contain Christian preaching, and does not contain white supremacist or TERF dog whistles.
Homemaking/Housekeeping/Caring for your home:
Making It by Kelly Coyne and Erik Knutzen [book] (The big crunchy household DIY book; includes every level of self-sufficiency from making your own toothpaste and laundry soap to setting up raised beds to butchering a chicken. Authors are explicitly left-leaning.)
Safe and Sound: A Renter-Friendly Guide to Home Repair by Mercury Stardust [book] (A guide to simple home repair tasks, written with rentals in mind; very compassionate and accessible language.)
How To Keep House While Drowning by KC Davis [book] (The book about cleaning and housework for people who get overwhelmed by cleaning and housework, based on the premise that messiness is not a moral failing; disability and neurodivergence friendly; genuinely changed how I approach cleaning tasks.)
Gardening
Rebel Gardening by Alessandro Vitale [book] (Really great introduction to urban gardening; explicitly discusses renter-friendly garden designs in small spaces; lots of DIY solutions using recycled materials; note that the author lives in England, so check if plants are invasive in your area before putting them in the ground.)
Country/Rural Living:
Woodsqueer by Gretchen Legler [book] (Memoir of a lesbian who lives and works on a rural farm in Maine with her wife; does a good job of showing what it's like to be queer in a rural space; CW for mentions of domestic violence, infidelity/cheating, and internalized homophobia)
"Debunking the Off-Grid Fantasy" by Maggie Mae Fish [video essay] (Deconstructs the off-grid lifestyle and the myth of self-reliance)
Sewing/Mending:
Annika Victoria [YouTube channel] (No longer active, but their videos are still a great resource for anyone learning to sew; check out the beginner project playlist to start. This is where I learned a lot of what I know about sewing.)
Make, Sew, and Mend by Bernadette Banner [book] (A very thorough written introduction to hand-sewing, written by a clothing historian; lots of fun garment history facts; explicitly inclusive of BIPOC, queer, and trans sewists.)
Sustainability/Land Stewardship
Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer [book] (Most of you have probably already read this one or had it recommended to you, but it really is that good; excellent example of how traditional animist beliefs -- in this case, indigenous American beliefs -- can exist in healthy symbiosis with science; more philosophy than how-to, but a great foundational resource.)
Wild Witchcraft by Rebecca Beyer [book] (This one is for my fellow witches; one of my favorite witchcraft books, and an excellent example of a place-based practice deeply rooted in the land.)
Avoiding the "Crunchy to Alt Right Pipeline"
Note: the "crunchy to alt-right pipeline" is a term used to describe how white supremacists and other far right groups use "crunchy" spaces (i.e., spaces dedicated to farming, homemaking, alternative medicine, simple living/slow living, etc.) to recruit and indoctrinate people into their movements. Knowing how this recruitment works can help you recognize it when you do encounter it and avoid being influenced by it.
"The Crunchy-to-Alt-Right Pipeline" by Kathleen Belew [magazine article] (Good, short introduction to this issue and its history.)
Sisters in Hate by Seyward Darby (I feel like I need to give a content warning: this book contains explicit descriptions of racism, white supremacy, and Neo Nazis, and it's a very difficult read, but it really is a great, in-depth breakdown of the role women play in the alt-right; also explicitly addresses the crunchy to alt-right pipeline.)
These are just the resources I've personally found helpful, so if anyone else has any they want to add, please, please do!
#homemaking#homemaking resources#gardening#urban gardening#self sufficiency#self sufficient living#sustainability#sustainable living#homesteading#nontrad homemaker#nontrad housewife#urban homesteading#solarpunk#cottagecore#kitchen witch#kitchen witchcraft#crunchy to alt right pipeline#book rec#book recommendations#resource#long post#mine#racism tw#racism mention#transphobia tw#transphobia mention
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i keep seeing songs on TT that remind me of Linebeck...and I don't...really know how to feel about it.
#On the one hand#It makes me happy that I'm seeing scenes and animatics in music again#Specifically that I'm seeing scenes with specific characters#Because that's something that I kinda love about my brain#Is how easily it turns music and lyrics into a visual story I can follow just by turning a song on#Back when I first started with The Moss and this whole page#That was supposed to be the gimmick#That's why I have that abandoned Sander's Sides comic featuring Virgil and Remus#(Honestly at the height of my involvement in that fandom I was able to imagine EVERY 35mm song as being between Sanders Sides characters)#I still see a lot of scenes#They've just been more focused on the world building of The Moss rather than just the main cast#Or some songs just don't fit The Moss or any other fandom I've been in before#So I almost ignore them in a way#BUT THEN THIS MOTHERFUCKER#I honestly don't listen to much music anymore#I work and listen and do chores to a YouTube playlist of streamers and let's plays#My most exposure to music nowadays is usually from TT unfortunately#And goddamn all the songs I'm exposed to just fit right in with how I view him or how other characters view him#And it almost makes me mad#Like I can't just listen to a song#I hear one lyric or the guitar or bass or cello does a funky little rift#And then I'm sent straight into that world and have to figure out what I want it to do and where I want it to fit#I think part of it is every song in The Moss has to serve a purpose for the overarching narrative or as an âI amâ song for the character#Meanwhile Linebeck....I can fit so many aus into that bad boy you don't understand#Or just throw it all into the wild-west of post-ph/pre-ph and just watch the chaos unfold.#It also doesn't help that my fyp keeps bringing up nautical themed shit#Like....ofc I'm going to be thinking about him while listening to this song- there's wave sounds in the background#But I was kinda content to...not be seeing anything in songs?#Listening to music had gone from something that I could easily just put on in the background to something I was paying All my attention to#Just so I could see the characters and the scenes
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i remember maybe what inspired me for stories is like. playstation all stars has a little origins section for each character which explains their backstory. Hey i just found out plastation all stars came out when i was 6 WELL anyway that was one of the first things that inspired me to flesh out things i guess. i love knowing why people are here and doing these things. i feel like i wrote some stuff in like a notebook somewhere about chug + lollipop (but maybe that was later?) i dont know where or if it survived. maybe it was about hat instead i also really liked smash bros + ratchet and clank + pokemon. and some other things i dont remember
#memory posts#i dont know if i actually played it when i was 6 i just know that the music from that game is still played by my brother when i sleep#(music as in the intro music where its like Woahhhh. Brace yourselves..)#before youtube put looping on phone i made playlists for the songs i wanted to listen to when i slept (ihome)#well. at FIRST i would just wake up and put it back on again but if i listened to them enough i would make a playlist#one time a 50 minute ad starting playing and i thought it would end so i didnt get up until Quite a time#the playlist naems were named 5 stars after fnauhg. and they consisted of like multiple different lyric videos of the songs#with varying qualities and dead air. I ALSO eventually got a loft so putting the music on consisted of getting down the ladder quickly#+ quietly putting the music again then getting back up the ladder quickly + quietly#there was a drawing of cyndaquil (or typshlosion?) on my wall i taped on with like a health bar under it that was kind of not full#all the way. and a drawing of sonic my brother made me but i scratched out the to and from so it had my name on it (and looked like i did i#my room wasnt ever really clean. at least not because of me. i always got the lowest grade in organization in elemntary school#(they graded what the inside of your desk looked like. mine had so much THINGS in it)#my bureau had stickers from every school i went to so i could remember them (It broke when we moved..)#the wood planks were all fucked up cuz i paced and jumped and ran to music and thinking#there were a couple of . nail indents on the floor#in the ladder of the loft i scratched in THE BIG BAD WOLF DIDNT DESERVE IT (or similar) because there was a play where he was on trial#and determined by how much screaming there was WE COULDVE MADE HIM INNOCENT but everyone else didnt like him i guess#my elemntary school had lines on the floor so i looked at them when i walked and for a time i looked at my feet whenever i walked#we got bella in 2012 and shes a cute awesome animal chihuahua.#these are things about me i guess this is the post. HI :3
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The fact that my first acknowledgement of League's existance at all was hearing Legends Never Die from those fucking gacha life music videos from 2018-19 and then now getting into League proper 5 years later is quite the pipeline honestly
#i am now confessing that yes I did have a gacha phase#playlists with like 'pov you had a gacha phase' with ALL those songs that people used in those music videos and what not#are popping in my youtube reccomends and Im like STOP YOU ARE NOT GONNA MAKE ME GO THROUGH THAT#(and then I click on them anyway and watch all the flashbacks go through my mind in the most unpleasant way possible)#also wtf 2018 was 5 years ago#should i put this in the league tag? gonna be outing myself here but#league of legends#i know cringe is dead and all but this is like the one thing im embarassed at myself for#not other people just myself i swear if youre still into that stuff good for you
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Been Watching Weird Fruit Explorer(?)... and I just...
W-Who let Bored Danny have BooTube?
Sorry, YOU-Tube. He has TWO Apps now. BooTube is bigger. Way more random, yet... somehow more niche? Meh. It's what happens when you get billions of billions of people who all have their own Obsessions to rant over, on a site.
Ember's channel is pretty lit, tho, ngl.
He stopped using YOU-Tube almost overnight. Too many ads, weird algorithmic pushiness. No thanks. It was too small and too "trying to take my money". You know?
Buuuuut? See.... TUCKER is the Tech guy.
Coding and that sort of stuff. HE does hands on work. You want a toaster? He can MAKE you a toaster! With LAZERS! Runs off The Goo! But a program? Eeeeeeeh? Hit it with hammer maybe? Monkey make fire? Hit with stick? Blergh.
Yeah, he can SORTA push through.
But he suuuucks.
And like... he had a headache, okay? His project had just, quiet literally, exploded in his face. So when he looked at his phone? All the apps were blobs. He clicked the one that LOOKED kinda right. Shoved his arm in his phone and brute forced a channel set up.
He figured he could ramble about Space!
It's not like he cared is anyone LISTENS or not! It's a "for him" thing, you know? Like a diary. But more... putting on a â~show~â?
So he rambles from the floor of his Lair's Lab, crashs and wails in the distance, green sky occasionally visible as he lazily floats by windows. Dropping... juuuust past human knowledge understanding of Space. Talking like he's STUDYING somewhere. Referencing PAPERS no human will ever be able to find.
But a few they WILL.
Some of which, are currently? Only half written.
But then? Oh YEAH... he should eat! You know... Sam keeps bringing him fruits and veggies and stuff from her internship at that Botanical Lair. Stuff never seen before of Earth. Or hasn't been seen in centuries.
Again, like, a FEW that? Randomly? Have???
He picks up something sharply purple, bright orange insides. Crisp crunch. He makes a face. And starts to ramble about it, distracted from Space. "Weirdly mushroom-y" he notes. "Kinda bubblegum sweet? But like... CHEAP bubblegum. Like it hits you all at once and is kinda chemically. But it disappears real fast? Huh. Spicy too..."
It's the first video on the Playlist. One of hundreds. Two of the green Lanterns RECONIZE that fruit ad HIGHLY toxic to humans, can't recognize what planet they're seeing. Or how this alien teen got himself on YouTube.
He seems... unaware of how incredibly famous he's become.
But his strange techno Pharoah friend has not. HE is both perfectly aware and apparently amused. Has taken to feeding him rare and hazardous flora and fauna, to see if it tastes good.
....there have been an alarming number of plants from dead planets.
And the comments the kid makes? Alarming as hell.
Sam's just pleased everybody's getting their greens. Danny's glad him n tuck get to hang and do "try weird foods and fuck around, bro time". They've made lazers! Talked about stuff! Debated why Martian Manhunter is THE superior Justice League member.
Danny understands. Wonder Woman is a BAMF. But he's biased, Tucker. He doesn't CARE if she has a sword and flowy, impressive locks! Shape-shifting telepath! From MARS!!! *imaginary mic drop*
And Tucker? Is conquering the YouTube scene with this charming, weird, relatable young alien. Who rambles about Space, debates nerd stuff, eats weird plants and describes them, and makes sci-fi technology! Theme? WHAT THEME? Phantom is a weird channel, man. You never know what you'll find!
And no one can get rid of it.
Believe them, governments have TRIED. Censorship? Not possible. Not without removing the whole SITE.
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Orange Juice Pairing - Tyler Owens x Female!Reader Summary - When it's time to interview a group of storm chasers for your new book, you get sent back to your hometown. You never would have guessed one of the people you'd be interviewing would be your ex boyfriend. And you might still be a little in love with him. Word Count - 13k my god I'm sorry Playlist Warnings - 18+ ONLY. Tyler Smut. Language
Everything looked the same, but somehow different.Â
You hadnât stepped foot in this town in ten years, and you were nervous as hell to be here now. This town held a lot of memories and people that you hadnât visited in a long time. If your agent had told you where you had been going before putting you on the plane, you probably would have asked if there was somewhere else, some other storm chaser group that wasnât based in Arkansas you could interview. She believed that she was doing a nice thing, surprising you with a trip to your hometown.Â
You didnât have the heart to tell her that it may be your hometown, but it also was home to your worst memory.Â
A sigh left your lips as you pulled up to a familiar gas station, and pushing the memories out of your mind, you put the car in park.Â
The Tornado Wranglers. That was the group of chasers you would be talking to. Your agent had insisted that they were the best of the best. Apparently they had a very large YouTube following, and their leader was, âcharismatic and oozed charmâ, according to your agent. He was also the hottest cowboy sheâd ever seen.Â
Those words brought a faint smile to your face, and you pulled out your phone to text her.Â
Landed, and am currently waiting at the gas station.Â
A few moments later, a response came through. Any sign of hot cowboys yet?Â
You let out a laugh. Not yet, but Iâll keep you informed.Â
Your fingers settled on the door handle. There was no reason to put this off anymore. You were here, and you were going to have to face what was out there, for better or worse. You opened the door and climbed out of your car.Â
It smelled the same. The gas station had been updated to be more modern, but the faint scent of gasoline and rice from the farms remained. Walking inside, you found little had changed. There was an updated register, a few more products offered, but that was about it. When your eyes caught sight of your favorite candy, a grin spread across your face, and you found yourself reaching for them, even though you hadnât had them in years.Â
You didnât recognize the cashier, which you were grateful for. A part of you had almost expected everyone you knew to pop out of nowhere as soon as your feet touched the ground. Now you realized how ridiculous that was. In fact, you might go this whole trip without setting eyes on a single person from before. Thanking the cashier, you made your way back outside right on time to see a large red truck turning in followed by a camper that was blaring a Tanner Adell song. You couldnât see the driver of the truck because of the cowboy hat and sunglasses that partially obscured his face, but the guy in the passenger seat recognized you at once. âHey! Thatâs her!â You could hear him say it since his window was open.Â
The guy pulled to a stop, and the one in the passenger seat ran around the front of the car. His hair was dark and shoulder length, but covered with a baseball cap, and the bottom half of his face supported some facial hair. He was dressed much like you expected a tornado chaser to dress, shirt and shorts in different shades of dark green with a bandana around his neck. âHey, Iâm Boone.â He said, holding out his hand for you. âI gotta say, Iâm a big fan.â He said the last part in an almost whisper, like he didnât want anyone else to hear him.Â
Which, considering you wrote romance books, he probably didnât. Not the first man to say something similar to you, you nodded with a sincere smile, shaking his hand. âItâs nice to meet you. You guys are the Tornado Wranglers Iâm assuming?âÂ
âYeah, thatâs Dexter and Dani.â He said pointing to two people that were exiting the camper behind them. âThereâs Lily.â He said, pointing to a girl getting out of another car that you hadnât even noticed. âAnd this is our fearless leader, Tyler.âÂ
At that moment, the world around you slowed down. In fact, you were pretty sure all the air was sucked out of your lungs. It couldnât be him. Out of every person in the world you could be working with, it couldnât be the one . . . But he took off his cowboy hat, and even though it had been ten years, he was unmistakable. You would know that face anywhere, after all, you saw it all the time in your dreams.Â
For a moment, you thought he might not recognize you. It had been ten years, youâd both changed in that time, but the moment his eyes landed on you, he knew exactly who you were. He said your name, pure disbelief in his tone as he took a step forward.Â
You nodded, unsure of how to respond. The two of you hadnât left on the best of terms, but there were so many years before that. So many beautiful memories that youâd never be able to forget. Half of you wanted to run and hide, the other half (okay maybe more like three fourths) wanted to run into his arms. How could you do that though when you were the one who left?Â
Tyler didnât hesitate though. You watched as a slow grin formed on his face that turned into a bright smile, a smile that never failed to make your heart skip a beat, and the next moment he was hurrying towards you. Within seconds you were wrapped up in a hug so tight your feet werenât even on the ground anymore.Â
God it felt good. You slid your arms around his neck, hugging him back just as tight, and let out a little laugh as he spun you around. Your eyes closed automatically, and you realized at that moment while you may have written about the way Tyler made you feel, it was nothing compared to the actual emotions. You remembered how his arms always felt like home, and it was no different now. They must have some sort of magic, because no matter how long it had been, they brought your mindset right back to the teenager who was crazy in love with her boyfriend.Â
After what was probably too long, Tyler put you back on the ground, slowly and a little too intimately for the strangers his team thought you were. In fact, he didnât even fully let go of you, keeping his hands on your hips. You found yourself unable to let go of him too though, your hands resting on his forearms as he stared at you in disbelief. âI canât believe youâre here.âÂ
âI canât believe youâre here.â You said, squeezing his arms. âYouâre a storm chaser?â It made perfect sense when you thought about it. Tyler had always had such a good instinct for weather. You couldnât count the amount of times during school when he told you football games were going to get canceled because it was going to storm. He was never wrong. You just never expected him to quit bull riding.Â
âYeah, got a meteorology degree from U of A and everything.â Tyler said, and your breath caught in your throat. Not just because his thumbs had started stroking your hips, but because of his words too.Â
Tyler had done it. He had done what you had always known he was beyond capable of doing. The shy smile on his face, the love, care, and pride you still, and always would have for him rushed to the surface. Overwhelmed with emotions from the past, you felt tears fill up your eyes as you looked at him. âIâm so proud of you, Ty.â You told him, and you meant every word.Â
There was no other way to describe it. He was beaming, and god you had forgotten how beautiful that smile was. It was like the sun, almost too bright to look at.Â
âI get the feeling you two know each other?âÂ
You had forgotten that little aspect of being with Tyler. How everything else would disappear the moment he looked into your eyes. You took a step back from him, letting go of his arms even though every part of your body wanted you to keep touching him. His hands lingered on you for a moment, but then he let go as well. âI guess you could say that.â Tyler said, âthis is the girl that broke my heart ten years ago.âÂ
âWait,â one of the girls, you were pretty sure it was Lily, stepped forward. âI thought that girlâs name was-â
They knew your name. Tyler had talked about you enough that they knew who you were. âThat is my name. My writing name is a pseudonym.â You admitted. Heat rushed to your skin, but there was no malice in Tylerâs voice or face. He was just looking at you with a fond smile, as if lost in the same memories you found swirling around in your mind.Â
âSo, youâre a big time writer now, huh? You always did tell the best stories.â Tyler said.Â
âMan, you should read them. In fact, now that I think about it, one of the main guys kinda reminds me of-â Boone started to say, but you cut him off.Â
There was no way you were ready for that conversation. âSo, um, where did you guys want to talk?â You spoke up, trying to change the subject as subtly as you could.Â
The look Tyler gave you said he saw right through your bullshit, but he didnât comment on it, just grinned mischievously at you. âHow about Frankieâs?âÂ
Of course he would suggest Frankieâs. It was the bar that the two of you used to go to all the time after rodeos. There were a lot of memories of playing pool, laughing with friends and dancing to whatever band was playing there. While you werenât sure you were ready for all those memories to hit again, the draw of going back there with Tyler was too much. âOkay,â you agreed. âIâll meet you guys- â
âNo need for that. You can ride with me.â Tyler said, patting the large red truck.Â
Being in an enclosed space with your ex boyfriend definitely didnât seem like a good idea. âOh, thatâs not-â
âItâs really cool. Youâll want to take a peek. He customized it all himself and everything. This baby can drive straight into a tornado.â Boone said while Tyler continued to grin at you.Â
âResearch is what youâre here for right?â Tyler asked you.Â
Yes. That was a good reminder for yourself. You were here to learn about the essentials of storm chasing for your next book, not to spend all your time thinking about how good Tyler looked after ten years. âRight,â you agreed, and then watched as Tyler walked all the way over to the passenger seat and held it open for you.Â
âWell, in that case, right this way maâam.âÂ
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To your slight surprise, Tyler kept everything professional in the truck. He showed you all the features, and you couldnât help but be mesmerized by it all. It was impressive, not only what he had thought of, but had attached himself. âIs this normal? I mean do a lot of storm chasers have vehicles theyâve rigged up?âÂ
âNothing like this.â He said with pride in his voice as he grinned over at you. âI spent years putting this thing together.âÂ
âWhen you do something, you always go big.â You teased, smirking at him. âRemember that time in high school when we just wanted to fill the principal's office with ducks, and instead you said we should fill the whole school?âÂ
Tyler scoffed. âOf course I do. I got a month of detention for that because Belinda ratted me out.âÂ
âYou did stand her up for a date.â You reminded him.Â
âYeah well,â Tyler glanced over at you again. âYou needed me.âÂ
Your cheeks heated as the memories of that night flooded your mind. It hadnât been long after your Dad had passed. You had gotten stupid drunk at a party that he hadnât wanted to go to. You had been walking home, stumbling home really, when a familiar truck pulled up beside you. It turned out that Tyler had been waiting nearby for at least an hour after feeling like something was off.Â
He held you in his arms in that truck for hours while you cried, letting out emotions youâd been holding back for months. Then he took you home and snuck into your bedroom to hold you some more. The next morning you told him you didnât want to be just friends anymore. He told you he hadnât wanted to be just friends for a long time.Â
The two of you were inseparable from that moment until the day you left. Almost as if he could sense where your mind was, a palpable tension filled the truck.Â
You werenât ready to talk about it though.Â
Thankfully you were saved from any further discussion as your phone went off with a text. It was from your agent, checking in again.Â
âBoyfriend?â Tyler asked.Â
You shot him a look, trying to bite back a smile. âThatâs not very subtle of you.âÂ
He sent you a look right back. âWasnât trying to be.âÂ
âAgent.â You answered, choosing to ignore his response. âWho I now have to awkwardly tell that the âhottest cowboy sheâs ever seenâ is actually my ex-boyfriend.âÂ
âSo you really had no idea?â Tyler asked.Â
You shook your head. âNot a clue. I didnât even know where I was going until I got to the airport and she sent my travel information.âÂ
âGotta say . . . Iâm surprised. I never thought youâd step foot in the town again.â He said, pulling into the small parking lot.Â
Glancing up at the building, you bit your bottom lip. âI wasnât sure I would either.âÂ
Frankieâs was exactly what you would picture when you hear the words, âsmall town barâ, but as soon as you walked in, you couldnât help but smile at the familiarity. It was big for a small town bar, featuring bars on both sides of the room, plenty of tables, as well as a couple of pool tables, and a stage with a small dancing space in front of it. Most of the furniture was wooden and looking a little rough, but they kept the lighting dim enough that it wasnât very noticeable. There werenât a whole lot of people, but there was no band playing, and it was a weekday night. It put you a little more at ease.Â
âThis place hasnât changed a bit.â You said, looking around.Â
Tyler shook his head in agreement. âThatâs why I love it so much. Feel like Iâm right back into my early twenties when I walk back in here.âÂ
âThat was a long time ago for you.â You teased.Â
He clutched his chest, scrunching his eyes at you and giving you a wounded look, but there was a playful edge to it. âOuch. So you do still have some bite to you.âÂ
You smirked at him. âYou bring it out in me.âÂ
Tylerâs frown turned to a grin as he placed his hand on the small of your back, sending chills down your spine. âLetâs grab a booth for everybody.âÂ
The next several hours consisted of you asking the Tornado Wranglers crew every question you wrote down as well as thought of. They not only answered honestly, but never talked down to you like you were stupid for not knowing something either. You loved the relationship that they clearly had with each other. They treated each other like family, with their own strengths and weaknesses that the other members of the team either supported or built upon. You knew immediately it was something you were going to want to include in your book. Not only that, but they were hilarious, and since they knew who you were, they seemed to be ribbing Tyler extra hard.Â
âAll right, you know damn well that was an accident.â Tyler said, pointing a finger at Dexter who was laughing hysterically along with the rest of the table.Â
âI donât know, it doesnât sound like an accident to me Tyler.â You said, raising your eyebrows at the man sitting next to you.Â
Tyler narrowed his eyes at you and bumped your knee with his under the table. âNow donât you start.âÂ
âHey, donât be rude to our guest.â Dani said.Â
âToo late for that. He hasnât even gotten her a drink yet.â Lily spoke up, shaking her head at him in disappointment.Â
âOh, you donât have to-â
Tyler shook his head. âNo, theyâre right.â He started sliding out of the booth. His hand reached up and gave your shoulder a squeeze. âIâve got you.âÂ
âI notice he didnât ask you what you wanted to drink.â Dexter said with a little grin after Tyler made his way to the bar.Â
You bit your bottom lip. You hoped he remembered. âWeâve known each other a long time.âÂ
âOkay, now that heâs gone.â Boone leaned forward, putting his hands on the table. âOne Last Rodeo. Theo. Heâs based on Tyler isnât he?âÂ
Heat rushed to your face. So Boone definitely had read your books. Looking back on it, it was pretty obvious that your first book had been based on Tyler. You were heartbroken, and trying to find a way to get it out on the page. The book was your way of coping with your breakup and how you wished it would have ended instead of the way that it did. By the time someone wanted to actually publish it, you realized how obvious the similarities were, and it was one of the reasons you wanted to write under a fake name. Since Boone had read your book, and now knew that Tyler was your ex . . . It couldnât have been hard to put together. Still, you couldnât bring yourself to admit it outloud. âA writer never tells her secrets.â You said.Â
They were all grinning at you though. âOh, look how flushed her face is.â Dani said.Â
âItâs definitely about him.â Lily said.Â
You opened your mouth to deny it, even though it seemed pointless, but before you could you were interrupted. âHere you go,â he said, sliding back into the booth and putting a glass filled with an orange drink in front of you.Â
âWhat is that?â Boone asked, âsome kind of tropical-â
âOrange juice.â You answered, smiling over at Tyler. âYou did remember.âÂ
Tyler gave you a look of disbelief, like he was insulted. âOf course I did.â When he saw the confused looks of his friends he explained, âshe doesnât drink.âÂ
âTwelve years sober.â You said. âNot something Iâm against anyone else doing, itâs just not for me.â Tyler slung his arm over the back side of the booth closest to you, and you had to fight the immediate urge to lean back into his embrace. The rest of the team was smirking at you, and you lifted the glass to your lips to take a sip. âSo Iâve just got one more question for you guys.â You said trying to change the subject.Â
âFire away.â Dani said.Â
âWhy do you guys do it?â That was what you really wanted to know. âI grew up here. I know how dangerous, how scary these things can be. Why do you guys willingly risk your life for something that seems to have no real reward?âÂ
There was silence around the table for a moment, and you made sure to avoid Tylerâs face. When you had written these questions, you had no clue he was one of the ones youâd be asking, and this question hit a little too close to the reason for your breakup. You didnât think you could look at him if he answered.Â
âWe like to help.â Lily said. âThatâs a factor. We sell these shirts, and we use the money to get people stuff like food and water.âÂ
âThen thereâs just the beauty of it. Yes, itâs dangerous and destructive, but thereâs also something incredible about it as well. Thereâs so many factors to tornados we donât understand. Seeing them come together in person is . . . Indescribable.â Dexter added, while they all nodded their heads in agreement.Â
âThereâs the adrenaline too.â Boone spoke up with a grin. âIâve never felt more alive than when weâre chasing.âÂ
Your body tensed at his words, memories of your last argument with Tyler trying to invade your mind. Once again, you felt sure he could sense what you were thinking as you felt his gaze on the side of your face.Â
âItâs hard to put into words without actually seeing it.â Tyler said. âYou should come on a chase.âÂ
That made you look at him, your eyes wide in shock that he would even suggest it. âI donât think thatâs a good idea.âÂ
âWhy not?â Tyler leaned towards you. âScared?â He asked with a smirk.Â
âYes.â You answered honestly.Â
âAh, youâd be perfectly safe with Tyler. Heâs got a knack for these things.â Boone said, and you looked over at him to find him grinning at the two of you. âYouâd barely be in any danger at all.âÂ
You didnât doubt that, but heading straight into something that could be so destructive had never been your thing. Hell, you hadnât even gotten on a horse until Tyler talked you into it. âStill, any danger is too much danger for me.âÂ
Tyler shrugged. âThe offer is there if you change your mind.â Tyler said, and you knew him well enough to see the flash of disappointment on his face.Â
Weirdly, you felt a little disappointed in yourself too.Â
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For the past hour, youâd been pacing around your motel room. Tyler had driven you back to your car, then followed you to the motel that funnily enough, him and the rest of the Wranglers were staying at as well. It was the only motel in your hometown, but knowing that Tyler was a few doors down from you made you anxious.Â
God, seeing him again had been your worst nightmare and best daydream all rolled into one. It was so easy to think that after ten years you were over someone. Then you see them again, and everything comes flooding back. All the beautiful memories and all the mistakes you wish you could take back, and there were a lot of mistakes you wished you could take back with Tyler. Youâd never loved anyone the way you loved him, and you didnât think you ever would. Seeing him again had reminded you of that.Â
Letting out a sad sigh, you sat down on your bed. Then there was Tylerâs invitation and disappointment. You hated disappointing him almost as much as you hated disappointing yourself. It had taken several years of therapy and hard work to not be so scared of ending up with the same fate as your father. You had grown though. You had learned about yourself and the things that caused those reactions. While getting close to a tornado was definitely dangerous, you knew that Tyler would take care of you. You also knew that you didnât want to miss out on any more experiences in your life because you were afraid.Â
You stood up, not allowing yourself another moment to try and talk yourself out of it, and left your room, knocking at the one three doors down.Â
Tyler answered, clad in his white t-shirt and jeans, and smiled when he realized it was you. âHey, whatâs up?âÂ
Good lord was there ever a moment when this man didnât look incredible? You swallowed, then nodded. âI changed my mind.âÂ
He leaned against the doorway, eyebrows raised in confusion. âAbout what?âÂ
You took a deep breath. âI wanna go on a chase.â
Tyler beamed.Â
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It took three days for a storm to come through that Tyler felt good about. They had done some chasing in that time, but Tyler hadnât brought you along because he said they hadnât been the âright oneâ. The wait made you anxious, but you trusted Tylerâs instincts, and every night they were back at the motel ready to tell you about their day. You thought that they might eventually get bored of all your questions, but they were not only great, but amazing storytellers as well. You could see why their YouTube channel was so popular.Â
Not that you spent a whole day watching it while they were gone or anything.Â
Finally though, the day arrived and you found yourself standing outside by Tylerâs truck waiting for the team to join you, your heart pumping a little faster than normal. âMorning!â A voice called, pulling your attention away from inspecting Tylerâs truck again, and you saw the man in question heading towards you with a paper sack in one hand and an iced coffee in the other. âHavenât talked yourself out of this yet?âÂ
You shook your head. âNope. Iâm doing this.â You smiled as Tyler handed you the coffee and bag. âDid you seriously get-?â
âYour breakfast sandwich and coffee? Yes, you need fuel for the road.â Tyler used his now free hands to open the door for you. âHop on in, and letâs get going.âÂ
âWait,â you said, glancing around. âIs everyone else meeting us there?âÂ
Tyler leaned against the door, and you watched as he looked at the sky behind you, then turned his gaze back to you. âNah, I gave them the day off. I didnât want you to have to deal with pressure from them if we get there and you decide not to do this.âÂ
You bit your lip. He was always so thoughtful. Back when he knew you, he would have had to drag you to this truck kicking and screaming, which he never would, and the fact that he wanted to save you some embarrassment in case you decided not to do this was just like him. Unable to help yourself, you reached out and gave his hand a squeeze. âThank you.â You said sincerely.Â
âWell,â you inhaled sharply as Tyler took a little step closer to you. âIâve got to admit, getting you alone for the day also played a factor.âÂ
Your eyes widened and a shy smile formed on your face even while your mind was spinning. Over the past few days there had been brief moments where you thought Tyler might have been flirting with you, but you talked yourself out of it. Now though . . . Was there actually a chance this man still wanted you? He couldnât. Not after how you had treated him. It didnât make sense. âYou might end up regretting that, you know?â You told him.Â
Tyler reached up, and your whole body froze as he brushed some hair behind your ear. âIâve never regretted a moment Iâve been with you.âÂ
His response took the breath from your lungs. âTy . . .â You didnât know what to say. Your heart was beating so fast it hurt. How could he possibly not regret that night? The night that you broke his heart?Â
âIâve missed you calling me that, you know?â He smiled at you, and then took a step back. âCome on, letâs get going.âÂ
Once again, you wanted to say something, but what? Nothing sounded right in your mind. So instead you hopped up in the truck and watched as he closed the door behind you.Â
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âCan I be honest?â You asked him several hours later.Â
âI didnât realize you ever werenât.â Tyler joked, sending you a smirk.Â
You swatted at him playfully. âI didnât expect all the waiting. What happens if nothing comes?âÂ
âOh, somethingâs gonna happen.â He insisted, looking at some clouds in the distance. âDonât you have any faith in me?âÂ
While he was kidding, you didnât stop the serious words that slipped past your lips. âYou know I have all the faith in the world in you.âÂ
Tyâs smile turned from something joking to something genuine. âEven after all these years?âÂ
You smiled at him. âIt never stopped. I always knew you were destined for great things.â You admitted, and it was the truth. In fact, youâd never been more sure of anything in your life.Â
âJust not riding on the back of a bull.â He replied, and though he winked at you, the mention of one of the reasons from your breakup filled the air with tension.Â
Then the question that you had been dying to ask since you first saw him burst from your lips. âWhy did you quit?âÂ
Tyler looked at you then, and you knew that look well. He was reading your expression, your eyes, your body language. Heâd always been able to tell what you were thinking simply by looking at you, and this time was no different. âIt wasnât because of you.â He said, reaching over to place his hand on top of yours and giving it a gentle squeeze. âI mean, you were part of the reason, but it was more about me realizing you were right, and I could do more with my life.âÂ
He knew you had been carrying that guilt of wondering if you were the reason he quit something that he had loved so much. He told you that you werenât, but you still frowned, looking out at the darkening sky miles away. âI wish Iâd said it differently.âÂ
There was silence for a moment as you two watched the storm, but it wasnât uncomfortable. It felt more reflective, and your thoughts were only confirmed when he spoke up. âDo you ever wonder where weâd be now? If youâd stayed?âÂ
If only he knew . . . âI guess that depends.â You bumped your shoulder against his. âWould you have proposed by now?â You teased, but a part of you wanted to know the answer.Â
Tyler grinned at you, an adoring look on his face. âOh definitely.âÂ
A flush heated up your face as a pleased smile fell on your lips. âThen I guess weâd be married and driving each other crazy.âÂ
âNot to mention being driven crazy by the kids.â Tyler added.Â
You let out a laugh. âAfter ten years, you still want three kids?âÂ
âThree is a good number.â He defended.Â
You rolled your eyes. âYou know I have this friend now. She just had her fourth. Going over to her house almost makes me not want any at all.âÂ
âThatâs because she has four. Three, perfect number.â Tyler said, holding up three fingers. âFour?â He added a finger. âNow thatâs just asking for trouble.âÂ
âEspecially if they were your kids.â You added, grinning over at him.Â
âAh, we could handle them.â Tyler said with a wink in your direction.Â
A vision formed in your mind of what he was describing. Three kids, all of varying ages, but in your mind it was two boys and one girl. The boys would be almost an exact copy of Tyler, blonde hair and blue-green eyes, dimples and charming smiles. Troublemakers, but also sweethearts who cared deeply and loved life to the fullest. Then the little girl. She definitely had a majority of your features but with Tylerâs smile. She would have Tyler so wrapped around her finger it would almost be embarrassing. Then thereâd be Tyler and you, watching all the craziness unfold from your back porch with a glass of sweet tea in your hands. You were happy. You were loved, and you were home.Â
At that moment, you realized you never wanted anything so badly in your life. You wanted it so badly your chest literally ached with it. Looking over at Tyler made it hurt worse. You thought being away from him would make the love you had fade, but it turned out, the opposite had occurred. In fact, seeing him watch the sky with a content smile and talking about what could have been made you realize you loved him more now. You had loved him in high school, youâd loved him in his early twenties, but this was different. You were different and so was he.Â
The question was . . . Would he take you back if you tried? You knew you didnât deserve it. You were the reason the two of you broke up. If you were in his shoes, you didnât think you could forgive yourself. Tyler had always been a better person than you though.Â
Was it worth a shot trying?Â
âHey,â Tyler pulled you out of your thoughts, lifting your hand and pointing it to something in the distance. âDo you see those clouds?âÂ
You looked out to where he was pointing your hand and frowned. Those definitely looked dark, and they were . . . âAre those spinning?âÂ
âThatâs the updraft, and itâs cycling.â He told you.Â
âAnd that means . . .â
âThat means-â Tyler stood up, put his baseball cap back on his head, and held out his hand to help you off the bed of his truck. âWeâve got a winner.âÂ
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You were going to throw up. At least it felt like you were. Not five minutes after you guys reached the storm did a tornado touchdown. Tyler said it was rated for an EF1, so it would be safe to drive into. Well, as safe as driving into a tornado could be. As fast as your heart was pounding, and as sick as you felt you might be, you leaned forward to get a better look out the window. You couldnât deny the beauty in it. âIâve never seen something so amazing and scary at the same time.â You admitted.Â
âItâs incredible isnât it?âÂ
As nervous as you were, the look on Tylerâs face made you smile. God you hadnât seen him this excited since he had been on the back of a bull. âIt is. Especially when it doesnât look like itâs going to kill me.âÂ
Tyler laughed, and he pulled to a stop. âNah, this is just an EF 1. This and the truck are going to keep you completely safe.â Tyler said, reaching to tug at the harness he had secured so tightly to your body that you felt like you couldnât take a deep breath.Â
As you watched the tornado race forward, you felt your heart rate start to kick back up and took a deep breath. âAnd you too right?â You asked, biting your bottom lip.Â
He parked the truck and faced you, a rare serious expression crossing his face. âYou know I wouldnât let anything happen to you.âÂ
At that moment, you realized you did. Tyler would never willingly put you in danger. He cared about you too much. If he said it was safe, it was. âI do.â You agreed, taking a deep breath, well, as much as you could in this harness. âLetâs do this.âÂ
The grin came back to his face full force as he started pressing buttons on his truck, anchoring it down into the ground as the tornado got closer and closer. âYouâre gonna love this.âÂ
âOh my god, oh my god, oh my god.â Even though you knew you were safe, there was nothing quite like a tornado heading straight towards you while youâre stuck in place. âTyler . . . This is crazy.âÂ
It was getting closer and closer. Only yards away, and your heart was pounding harder and harder in your chest. You didnât even think. Your hand reached for his, gripping it tightly as the tornado hit the truck.Â
Tyler gave your hand a reassuring squeeze, âlook up.â He called over the wind, and you did as he asked, leaning towards your side of the car to see out the window.Â
It was the most incredible thing youâd ever seen. You could see all the way up the funnel to the clouds above as the vortex passed over you. Youâd never seen anything like it in your life, and a laugh of disbelief left your lips as you watched it pass over you. When it was done you looked over at Tyler, shock all over your face. âWas that real? Did that actually just happen? Did I just see inside a damn tornado?!âÂ
Letting out a chuckle at your questions, Tyler nodded. âYou sure as hell did.âÂ
You let out another laugh yourself and started unbuckling all of your straps. You needed one last look to convince yourself that you had done it. Once you were free, you hopped out of the truck, running around the back to watch it keep going through the field behind you. You heard the truck door close again, but you didnât turn around, still mesmerized, until you felt Tylerâs hand on your shoulder.Â
âSo, how do you feel?â He asked.Â
His question was loaded for so many reasons. Years ago, he never would have gotten you close enough to even see a tornado, much less let it speed over you. You were so proud of yourself for doing this, but also sad. How many other life experiences had you missed because of how your fatherâs life choices had traumatized you? There was no good way to answer his question, so you just did what you wanted to. You jumped up, latching your arms around his neck, and your legs around his waist.Â
Of course he caught you easily, laughing as he spun you around and held you close. One of his hands rested on your back, while the other cradled your head against his shoulder. After a moment, he let out a content sigh. âIâm so proud of you.âÂ
You clutched tighter to him. He had no idea how much those words meant coming from him. Tyler had seen you at your absolute worst, when you had no one but him. You had clung to him then, leaning on him more than was healthy until you knew that you couldnât anymore. It made you want to cry, knowing how far you had come and that Tyler could see it. You pulled back to look at him so he could see your watery smile too. âIâm proud of myself.âÂ
The butterflies in your stomach were doing somersaults as he looked at you. His fingers tightened in your hair, and you felt his arm muscles tense against your back. There was tension in the air, no doubt about it, and you found your eyes drawn to those familiar soft lips. You wanted to kiss him. A part of you wondered if it would be the same, or even better because you both were older. You werenât sure, but either way, you wanted to find out. When you saw his eyes glance at your lips too, you knew he was thinking the same thing. Unable to help yourself, you let your fingers tangle in his hair, pulling yourself the slightest bit closer to him until your noses were brushing.Â
Then his phone rang.Â
Whatever spell the two of you had been under broke. Tyler slowly let you down to the ground, but reached for your hand, tangling your fingers with his and keeping you close. âHey, Boone, whatâs up?âÂ
You glanced down at your hands with a soft smile. Tylerâs hands were big and calloused from work and bulls, but they felt nice. You brushed your thumb on the outside of his palm, and he gave your hand a squeeze.Â
âYeah, we got one. She handled it like a pro.â Tyler told him, grinning over at you. There was a bit of silence for a moment as the phone conversation continued. âLet me ask her, and Iâll let you know? All right, sounds good. Iâll see you soon.â He hung up the phone and tugged you a little closer again. âFeel like celebrating seeing inside your first tornado?â Tyler asked.Â
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Three hours later you found yourself in new clothes, freshly showered, line dancing between Dani and Boone. You were almost crying from laughing so hard, and your face hurt from smiling so much. It blew your mind that two weeks ago you were sitting in your apartment in South Carolina feeling alone and stuck with writer's block. Now you were back in your hometown, having a blast, writing faster than you had in years, and desperate to get back together with the man who was watching you from the booth, an adorable smile on his face. Feeling a little bold after your almost kiss, you sent him a wink as Boone spun you around, causing his smile to widen.Â
âYou guys are disgustingly cute.â Dani said as the song slowed down and the three of you started to exit the floor.Â
Heat rushed to your face, and you found yourself asking the question youâd been wanting to ask for days. âWhy have you guys been so nice to me anyway? Tylerâs your best friend, and Iâm his ex. I broke his heart, but youâve been nothing but kind to me since the start.âÂ
Boone and Dani exchanged a look. âYeah, youâre right. If it had been another one of Tylerâs exes we probably would hate you.â Boone said, shrugging his shoulders.Â
âBut you were the one who got away for Tyler, and heâs never said anything but great things about you. Plus,â Dani reached out and patted your shoulder. âIt's kinda obvious the two of you are still in love with each other.âÂ
The words hit you like a truck, and then you felt stupid for not realizing it before. You looked at the man sitting at the booth again. This time he was talking to Dexter, his expression animated, and his hands moving wildly with his words. Of course you still loved him. You never stopped. You buried it, hid from it so you could try to better yourself. When you left, you knew you werenât good enough for him, you probably still werenât, but now you knew you could love him like you were supposed to. If he was open to it. Boone and Dani made it seem like he was. He had given you signs that he was at least interested . . . The only question was how could you show him that you wanted it too?Â
An idea hit, and a small smile formed on your face. âIâll catch up with you guys in a minute okay?â You said to their confused faces and headed to the DJ stand. You gave him twenty bucks, which he gladly took, and promised your song would be next. By the time youâd made it back to the booth where everyone was seated, Never Leave by Bailey Zimmerman was playing.Â
You approached Tyler, who was looking at you curiously as you held your hand out to him. âDance with me?â You said, biting your bottom lip.Â
A surprised, but happy smile formed on his face. âYes maâam.âÂ
It was not your and Tylerâs first dance. Probably wasnât even your hundredth, and dancing with him was as effortless as remembering how to ride a bike. One of his hands rested on the small of your back while the other took yours. You placed your hand on his bicep, giving his arm a squeeze. You didnât want to say anything. The lyrics of the song could do all the talking for you. Tyler led you around the floor with ease, and as the song went on, you could see the moment the words started to sink in. He leaned forward, his forehead pressing against yours, and he whispered your name so reverently it made you close your eyes.
âJust listen,â you said softly, tightening your grip on his hand, letting the song say the words you wanted to. Tylerâs arm pulled you even closer until it was almost hard to dance, your bodies pressed against each other. Your heart was pounding so hard you were sure he could feel it against his chest, but you didnât care anymore. You were laying it all out there now.Â
As the song ended, you felt Tylerâs lips against your forehead, soft and lingering. Warmth exploded throughout your body, and you pulled back to look up at him.Â
âCome back to the hotel with me?â You asked, your thumb caressing his arm, almost pleading with your voice.Â
Tylerâs hand reached up to cup your cheek, and you immediately leaned into his touch, your whole body craving it. âAre you sure?â He asked.Â
You nodded. There was nothing you were more sure about right now.
He took a step back from you, grabbing your hand and tugging you back to the booth where everybody else was sitting with knowing eyes. He told them that the two of you were leaving. You tried to ignore them, but you couldnât help but grin when you saw them giving you a thumbs up or silently cheering as Tyler had his back turned.Â
The ride was quiet, but it wasnât uncomfortable, it was more filled with tension, and the two of you kept glancing at each other and smiling. He never let go of your hand either until he parked at the motel and came around to open your door. Before you could get down though, he stopped you. âThis is what you want right? I donât want to misinterpret what I think is happening here or pressure you in any way-â
You placed your hands on his face and leaned closer, interrupting him with your first kiss in ten years.Â
For a moment, he didnât respond. It was clear you had surprised him, but then his hands gripped your hips, and he was kissing you back.Â
It was even better than you remembered. It had been good back in late high school and your early twenties, there was no doubt about it. Something about now was different though. Maybe it was because you were older, maybe it was because it had been so long, or maybe it was because you felt healed. Whatever it was, kissing Tyler now blew every kiss youâd had before out of the water.Â
It was a short kiss, chaste, just to reassure him that you did want him, but when you pulled away the two of you were still breathless. âAm I crazy or was that incredible?â You asked, your hands sliding down his face to his chest.Â
Tyler laughed, but nodded, his own hands dragging down your thighs and resting on your knees. âIt was,â he replied, but then a smirk fell on his lips, âbut we can do better.âÂ
Not one minute later, you were trying to open the door to your room, Tylerâs large hand low on your stomach as his lips left soft kisses on your neck from behind. You could barely concentrate as heat pooled where his hand rested, and you could not get the key in the door as he kissed a certain spot on your neck. âTy,â you said through an exasperated laugh. âIf you keep doing that Iâll never get us in this room.â
He took the key from your hand, but didnât stop kissing your neck. You closed your eyes in pleasure as he did, letting him take over the door situation, and in a frustratingly short amount of time, you heard the door knob turn. Your eyes snapped open, turning in Tylerâs arms to find him smirking at you again.Â
âHow the hell did you do that so easily?â You asked, weaving your arms around his neck as he carefully backed you into the room.Â
He shrugged, shutting the door behind him. âGuess you were just too distracted to focus.âÂ
You playfully glared at him, âI was not-â but you let out a gasp as he suddenly spun you around, pinning you to the door with his body.Â
He didnât say anything for a moment, just smiling at you as his hands rested on your hips, his thumbs brushing under your shirt to touch heated skin. âYou were, but itâs okay. I liked it.âÂ
Well he had certainly become more confident in the years apart. Not that he ever wasnât, but you could definitely tell a difference. However, you had gained a little bit of confidence too, and you smirked at him. âOh, I can tell.â You replied, pushing your hips forward to press against the hardness you felt.Â
Tyler bit his lip at your movements, his hands gripping your hips harder. âWe donât have to do anything. I want you to know that.âÂ
It drove you crazy, how he could go from being sexy and confident to sweet and respectful within a minute. You slid your arms up his chest and around his neck, tugging his head down to yours. âI want to.â You told him. âDo you?â
He let out a breathless chuckle, âYou have no idea how badly I want to.â Tyler said, âIâve wanted to since the moment I saw you at that gas station.â He told you, his nose brushing against yours.Â
Tyler had been wanting to get together with you for that long? Your heart started thumping wildly in your chest, and you let out a sigh as his warm hand slipped up the back of your shirt pressing you against him. âYou know, I donât look the same as I did ten years ago.â You admitted, a little bit of insecurity leaking out as you thought about the last time the two of you were together.Â
He shook his head, and his hands left a trail of heat as they slid down your back to grip your thighs. âYou look better.âÂ
Your hands slipped into his soft hair. âNow, I know thatâs not true.âÂ
You let out a nose of surprise as Tyler used his grip on your thighs to lift you into the air with his body, smirking up at you. âI think youâre forgetting . . .â His lips found a spot on your neck that he had always kissed, a spot that made chills explode over your body and made a soft moan leave your lips. âI know this body better than anyone.â He whispered in your ear.Â
Tyler was right. He had been with you more than anyone else, seen every part of you bare. So what if you didnât look the same as you did in high school. You were sure he didnât either. Based on what you felt against your body though, you didnât think that was a bad thing. You let your hands trail from his hair down his neck and to his chest, noting how his body flexed under your touch. âI think I might need a refresher on yours.â You teased, biting your lip as you played with the buttons on his shirt.Â
He raised his eyebrows, a smirk on his lips. âOh, is that what you need?âÂ
With fingers that were much steadier than what you felt, you unbuttoned a couple of the top buttons from his shirt. It wasnât much, but enough to slip your hands into and touch his heated skin. It was the first time you had touched him, really touched him, in so long, and it made you ache for so much more. You pressed your forehead against his, âRight now I need everything youâre willing to give me.â You admitted honestly.Â
âWell then,â Tylerâs hands slid down to your ass, holding you close as he started carrying you to the bed. âItâs a good thing Iâm willing to give you everything.â He said as he placed you gently on the bed.Â
His words made your heart stop for a second and a huge swell of affection for him filled your heart. You wanted to tell him that you still loved him then. That you wanted to give him everything too. The words wouldnât come though. Not yet anyway.Â
So instead, you tried to say them with a kiss. You sat up, grabbing his face in your hands, and tugged him down to meet your lips. The first time you had surprised him, and it took him a moment to respond. That was not the case this time. He kissed you back at once, moving your lips in a dance the two of you knew well. While the first kiss had been sweet, this one was full of passion and tenderness. You let out a little sigh when his lips parted and attempted to pull him closer. It had been so long since you had gotten to really touch him, and you didnât want to waste another second not doing it.Â
He complied, climbing into the bed on top of you, settling between your thighs and letting out a strangled groan as you pushed your hips up into him. He pressed his own against yours and you let out your own moan at the delicious friction.Â
The sound made him pull away however, and you frowned, since that was the opposite of what you wanted right now. You watched him as he sat up, his gaze traveling over your body with such intensity you could feel your face heating up. Tylerâs hands rested on your stomach finally, tugging up your tank top so slowly it made you want to just yank it off yourself so his hands could be all over you. Waiting turned out to be worth it though, because as soon as your shirt was off, he started kissing down your neck. Your eyes closed as his lips went lower, and you arched your chest against his mouth as he got closer to one of the spots you wanted his mouth the most.Â
âHave you been with other guys?âÂ
That made your eyes snap open. Those were not the words you expected to come out of his mouth when he was about two seconds away from putting his mouth around you. âW-What?â You said breathlessly.Â
But he didnât seem upset or anything, just genuinely curious. In fact he was grinning at you, his hands resting on your bare hips. âItâs been ten years. You have, right?âÂ
âIs now really the time for the, âhow many people have you slept with since me?â conversation?â You asked, raising your eyebrows at him.Â
Tyler leaned down, pressing his lower body against yours again as his lips hovered over yours. âI donât care about the number.â He said, shaking his head. âI just want you to know Iâm about to kiss the memory of anyone else from your body.âÂ
His words took your breath from your lungs, but you tried not to let him see how much they affected you. Your arms slipped around his neck, fingers sliding into his hair. âYouâre talking a lot of game for someone who hasnât initiated a single kiss.â You teased.Â
He chuckled,close enough that his lips brushed yours for the briefest moment. âIsnât it better if you have to wait for it?âÂ
A soft smile fell on your face then as you ran your fingers through his hair. âTy, you havenât kissed me in ten years. Havenât we waited long enough?âÂ
He leaned back so he could look at your face, smiling at the look you were giving him. âYeah. I think we have.âÂ
Finally, he leaned forward and kissed you, setting your whole body on fire with the intensity of it. Your lips parted almost immediately, and his tongue slipped into your mouth, exploring you thoroughly. His hands did the same, heat trailing after them everywhere he touched.Â
You knew then, as the two of you kissed and your body, and heart, felt close to combustion, that this was it for you. You had been with other men in your time apart, and none of them had ever come close to making you feel like this. Back when you and Tyler had first started dating, you thought he might have been the one, but now you were sure. So no matter what happened tomorrow, or even after that, you knew that Tyler Owens was going to be it for you.Â
To your shock and surprise, you didnât find that scary at all.Â
A breathless sigh left your lips as he slowly pulled away, and he smiled down at you, brushing some hair out of your face. âGod youâre beautiful.âÂ
You had always remembered what he was like in bed, how sweet he could be, but hearing it again was a different story. He had always made you feel so comfortable and sexy, you were so glad to know that none of that had changed. âI missed you.â You blurted out, heat rushing to your face at the confession.Â
But his smile just widened, leaning down to press a kiss against your jaw. âYouâve got no idea . . .â He started kissing down your neck again. âHow much Iâve missed you,â he said, and you couldnât help but squirm a little as he kissed down your stomach, your breath coming a little faster as his kisses got lower and lower. Your hands tangled into his hair, biting your bottom lip and arching up into his hand as he started unbuttoning your jeans.Â
You lifted your hips as he slid your jeans and underwear down the rest of your body, casting them aside somewhere in the room. You didnât really care where. Tyler kissed back up your body, pausing for a moment on your bra, the last article of clothing you were wearing. After giving him an encouraging nod, he unclasped it, tossing it somewhere too, leaving you completely naked.Â
He stared at you, and you felt heat following everywhere his gaze went. His gaze didnât make you uncomfortable though, it made you feel . . . Desirable. While his eyes looked you over, your eyes watched his face, biting your lip as your hands slid up and down his arms. âYou know youâre wearing too many clothes.âÂ
Tyler grinned down at you. âYou wanna help with that?âÂ
You sat up then, returning his smile. âI would love to.â You took your time, slowly unbuttoning his shirt and taking in every bit of skin that was revealed. Tyler had been fit when the two of you were dating, but now? He looked like heâd come straight out of a magazine. Once his shirt was unbuttoned, you let your hands trail down his chest as you leaned forward to press a kiss to his neck. You felt his whole body relax as your hands slid back up his hard muscles to push his shirt off him, and you trailed your lips across his shoulder and down his arm.Â
As soon as his shirt was off him, you made your way back up his arm, pressing gentle kisses every few inches until you reached his face again. He was smiling at you, and you couldnât help but press a peck against his lips, then another until he had his arms wrapped tightly around you, holding you against his warm chest. Letting out a sigh, you kept your forehead against his for a second, soaking the moment in.Â
âI never thought weâd be here again.â Tyler said, shaking his head as his hand dragged up and down your bare back.Â
âMe either.â You admitted, letting one of your hands comb through his soft blonde hair, âbut Iâm glad we are.âÂ
Tyler didnât say anything, but leaned forward to meet you in a kiss that said everything he needed to. It told you how much he missed you, the familiarity of his lips moving in rhythm with yours. It told you how badly he wanted you when his tongue slipped into your mouth to caress your own. Then his lips werenât the only thing showing how much he cared as he gently laid you down on the bed, never letting your lips disconnect.Â
It was illogical, but you hoped his lips never left you again. You were drowning, no, floating in him, submerged but safe in the warmth of him as his body laid on top of yours. Your legs automatically wrapped around his hips, and a moan left your lips as the two of you came into contact.Â
Tyler pulled away then, but he didnât go far, leaving kisses down your chin and neck. âYou keep making noises like that, and this is not going to last as long as I want it to.âÂ
You let out a breathless laugh, tugging at his hair. âThe noises are your fault, Owens. Youâre the one with no-â you let out a gasp as his lips found your breast, pleasure burning straight to your core. â-Self control.â You panted.Â
He gave your nipple a gentle bite, causing you to whimper, before he pulled away to look up at you. âSorry, what was that about self control?â Tyler asked with a smirk playing on his lips.Â
âThat you have none.â You said, arching your hips up to rub against him for a moment, making him groan against your skin. âBut I donât think I have any either when it comes to you.âÂ
His smirk turned into a smile, and his lips found your breast again, immediately shooting even more pleasure through your body.Â
Nobody really talks about what itâs like to have sex with someone you used to date years ago. Tyler knew your body so well, he knew exactly how you liked to be touched, and what spots would drive you crazy. It was so easy to fall back into it. On top of that though, the two of you had been with other people in the last few years, and you had more experience and confidence than the kids you used to be.
There was no hesitation in Tylerâs hands as they explored your body, and none in yours as one dragged down his back and the other tangled in his hair, holding him against you. You let out another moan as his hand moved from your inner thigh and a finger slid inside of you.Â
He let out another groan as he discovered how wet you were, and leaned up to press his forehead against yours as he added a second finger in. âAre you already ready for me, sweetheart?âÂ
You nodded, bumping your nose against his. âDo you have a condom? I wasnât anticipating-â
âHaving sex with your ex-boyfriend in a motel room?â Tyler grinned as he reached into the back pocket of the jeans you forget he was still wearing and pulled out his wallet, reaching in to take out a condom. âGuess itâs a good thing Iâm always prepared.â He said with a smirk.Â
You rolled your eyes playfully, but secretly youâd never been more thankful. If the two of you had to stop now to run out and buy condoms, you mightâve lost your mind. You slid your hands down his well defined chest, biting your lip at the muscles you felt there before stopping to rest on the belt of his jeans. âYouâre still wearing too many clothes though.â You reminded him.Â
âWerenât you supposed to be helping me with that?â He asked, raising an eyebrow at you.Â
Narrowing your eyes at him, you started undoing his belt. âItâs not my fault you distracted me with how hot you are.âÂ
He laughed, moving your hands out of the way to get his jeans off faster. âWhy do you think I got your clothes off so fast? Canât get distracted if theyâre already off.âÂ
âGuess Iâll just have to remember that for next time.â You teased, sliding your hands back up his chest to rest on his shoulders. It was only when his body froze that you realized what you said. The two of you stared at each other, and you had no clue what to say about your implication of a next time. You didnât even know if heâd want a next time . . .Â
Tyler didnât let the moment linger though. He shoved the rest of his clothes off and leaned down to kiss you, hard, and all consuming in a way that erased every thought from your head except how much you needed him. Your legs wrapped around his waist, and you let out a gasp as your hips came into contact.Â
You had forgotten how big he was.Â
Almost as if sensing your thoughts, he pulled away slowly from your lips, barely leaving a centimeter between them as his finger trailed up and down your slit for a moment. âYou can take it. Youâve done it before.â He whispered, and then slipped three fingers inside of you. The sudden intrusion sent your nails digging into his shoulders and heat exploding across your body. âIf you can take that, you can take me.â He assured you, pressing a soft kiss to your lips.Â
He was going to ruin you. Part of you thought he already had, since every other time youâd had sex, he was always on your mind, but now you were sure of it. Nobody was ever going to get you more turned on than Tyler Owens. You nodded, because it seemed like he was waiting for an acknowledgment, and attempted to pull him closer with your legs when his fingers slid out of you. âItâs just - itâs been a while.â You admitted.
Tyler gave you a gentle smile. âFor me too.âÂ
His words shocked you for a second, but then you realized they shouldnât have. Tyler had never been a one night stand kinda guy. As confident as he was, even before the two of you had started dating, heâd only ever dated girls he felt a genuine connection with. The fact that he still felt that with you enough to want to do this had emotions clogging up your throat. You let your hands trail down his body again, taking the condom from his hand and slipping it on him, your gaze never leaving his face as you enjoyed the sight of his reaction to you touching him. âThen letâs not wait anymore.â You said, guiding him towards you.Â
He didnât need any more encouragement. He pressed forward, and you let out a sigh as he slipped inside of you, your head falling back against the pillow. It was a tight fit, there was no doubt, but he moved slowly, showing, once again, how well he knew your body. Any time you tensed up, he paused, though you could feel by how tense his muscles were how much he was holding back. âThatâs right,â he would tell you when your breath started to come faster. âRemember how well you take me?âÂ
Oh God you did. He fit inside of you like no one else. Even years later he filled you up just enough to not be painful, but more than enough to be satisfying. Another gasp of air left your lips as he pushed more inside of you, and you could tell he was almost completely in.Â
âYouâre doing such a good job.â Tyler said, leaving another kiss against your skin. âMade just for me.â And while his voice was soft, it was also strained from effort.Â
You opened your eyes as you felt him push forward again, and dug your nails into where they had rested on his shoulders once more as he pushed completely inside of you, letting out a sigh of pleasure as he did.Â
There was nothing like this. Absolutely nothing. You moved your eyes from the ceiling to find him looking at you like youâd just hung each star in the sky for him alone. âTell me what youâre thinking.â He said breathlessly.Â
Did he really expect you to be able to think right now? You couldnât think enough to have a filter if you opened your mouth, and you knew that was partially what he wanted. So you let the words slip from your lips. âIâm thinking about how no ones ever felt as good as you do.â He rewarded your words with a little thrust of his hips that had you gasping. âIâm thinking about how youâve ruined me for anyone else.â Another thrust, this one harder, and you tightened your legs around him. âAnd Iâm thinking about how much I missed you, Ty.â You said softly, letting out a whimper as his hand slid up to your breast, cupping it and letting his thumb caress your nipple.Â
He didnât say anything for a moment. Just watching as your hips jerked against his, desperate for the pleasure only he could provide, his eyes locked on your face as if he was committing it to memory. âWould you believe me if I told you I was thinking about all those things too?âÂ
You didnât have to think about it. You nodded, moving your hands from his shoulders to tangle in his hair. âI know.âÂ
Tyler leaned down to meet your lips in a bruising kiss as he thrust inside of you, starting a slow and steady pace that continued to pick up speed with every passing minute until you couldnât keep up the kiss any longer. Your head fell back against the pillows, and your eyes closed in pleasure as his warm, calloused hand traveled down your body to where the two of you met. âEyes on me sweetheart.â He said, and pressed his thumb against your clit.Â
âFuck, Ty!â Your eyes snapped open and your chest arched into his, tugging on his hair at the overstimulating sensation. His hips stuttered for a moment as you felt yourself clench around him, but he kept up the movement of his thumb, tracing circles around it. The pleasure was almost too much. You could feel it building inside of you, desperate for release, and you clung tightly to him. âI canât- Iâm-â You couldnât even get the words out, too overwhelmed with feelings.Â
âItâs okay, you can let go.â He said, âIâve got you.â He assured you, never ceasing his pace or his finger.Â
His words triggered your release, almost as if youâd been waiting for permission and you moaned out his name as it washed over you. You clung to him like he was a liferaft, holding you in above water as you clenched around him. You heard him groan your name, saying how good you were, and within seconds you felt his body tense, falling over the edge with you.Â
As the pleasure faded from your body to satisfaction, you didnât want to let him go and groaned in discontent when he pulled back and out of you. He chuckled and leaned down to press a soft kiss to your forehead. âIâll be right back.âÂ
You sighed, opening your eyes as you watched him head into the bathroom, unable to believe that you had just had sex with such an attractive man, even if he was your ex. He was more than an attractive man though, or just your ex. He was Tyler. The boy you gave your heart to ten years ago who never gave it back. A tender smile was on your lips as he came back to you with a damp washcloth and started gently cleaning you up.Â
âYou okay?â He asked, the hand that wasnât cleaning you up resting on your thigh and rubbing the skin there.Â
âI will be once you get back in bed.â You replied, and your smile widened at the pleased expression on his face. You let out a laugh as he tossed the washcloth aside and hurriedly climbed into bed, spooning you against his back.Â
He nuzzled into your neck, leaving kisses against your skin as he made himself comfortable against you, and shivers exploded across your body as his hand rested on your stomach. âComfortable?â Tyler asked, pressing another kiss to your cheek.Â
Being in his arms again? Comfortable didnât even begin to describe it. As cliche and embarrassing as it sounded, for the first time since youâd come to your hometown, you actually felt like you were home. âPerfect,â you replied, scooting back even more into him.Â
And you meant it.Â
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You woke up cold, but oh so satisfied. Part of you wondered if last night had been a dream, but you knew that your body couldnât lie like that. You definitely had the post sex ache. You stretched your limbs out and rolled over, wanting to curl back into Tyler and maybe sleep for a few more hours, but you were met with nothing but sheets.Â
Frowning, you opened your eyes, letting your fingers drag across the fabric. It was cool, so heâd been gone for a while. It was only when your eyes drifted up to the pillow did you notice the scrap of paper.Â
Stay.Â
It was written quickly, almost as if an afterthought, and you frowned at it. Did he really think that he had to ask? You got out of bed, and found a tshirt in the floor. Slipping on your underwear and the tshirt, you sat down at the small table and grabbed your laptop. Youâd been writing like crazy lately on a new book, and youâd definitely woken up feeling inspired this morning.Â
You werenât sure how long you sat there typing. It was a great distraction from your thoughts, and when you got into the zone, it could be hours before you realized you hadnât stood up from your chair. You werenât so in the zone though that you didnât hear the doorknob start to turn.Â
Tyler entered, once again looking entirely too good in his dark brown button down, jeans and cowboy hat. He carried a familiar brown bag and cup of iced coffee in his hand and held a cautious smile as he looked at you. âBrought you some breakfast.âÂ
You held out your hands to take it from him, eagerly sipping at the iced coffee as he sat down at the seat across from you. âThank you, I needed this.â You said, leaning back against your chair. He was watching you, that cautious look still on his face making you nervous. Was he regretting last night? Was he trying to figure out the polite way to tell you it had all been a mistake?Â
âWhat are you thinking?â He asked, and the sudden question threw you off, you didnât even have the chance to think about throwing up a filter.Â
âIâm thinking that I hope youâre not regretting last night. Iâm also thinking that youâre too far away.â You admitted, frowning at the distance between the two of you.Â
His whole body seemed to relax at your words and the smile that you knew and loved fell back onto his face. He held out his hand to you, and without hesitation you took it, returning his smile as he tugged you out of your chair to sit sideways across his lap. You buried your face in his neck, letting out a contented sigh as he wrapped his arms around you, and held you close. âBetter?â Tyler asked, one of his hands tracing up and down your outer thigh.Â
You nodded, tightening your arms around him. âMuch better.â
The two of you sat in silence for a few moments. You knew the conversation that needed to be had, but you had no clue how to even begin to start it. Should you blurt out how you feel? Should you ask him how he was feeling? Tyler beat you to the punch though with a statement that stopped your mind in its tracks.Â
âI read your book.âÂ
Your body froze as your brain took a moment to process his words. Once they did, heat rushed to your face, and you pulled away to look at him. âHow did you even-â
âBoone. He gave me a copy pretty much right after you showed up.â He said, and his hand gave your thigh a squeeze. âI noticed some . . . Similarities.âÂ
You bet he did. More than enough to be embarrassing. You bit your lip, knowing the question that he wanted to ask, and decided to go ahead and give him the option to ask it anyway. âWhat do you want to know?â You finally said.Â
For a moment it wasnât the new Tyler that youâd been getting to know over the past couple of weeks that was looking at you. The confident, caring, intelligent tornado wrangler. It was young Tyler, the bull rider who wanted nothing more than to ride his fears and bring you along for it. âI guess Iâm just wondering why they got their happy ending, and we didnât.âÂ
Just because you anticipated it, doesnât mean it hurt any less. âTy . . .â You placed your hand on top of his, gripping it in yours. âI wrote that book two years after our breakup. I wasnât ready to be her then. There were . . .â You took a deep breath. âA lot of things I was still holding onto.âÂ
âBut if I had quit when you asked me to-â
You were shaking your head before he could even finish his sentence. âI never should have asked you to do that.â You let go of his hand to take his face in your hands to encourage him to keep his eyes on you. âTyler, our breakup had absolutely everything to do with me, and nothing to do with you.â This confession had been sitting on the tip of your tongue for years now, and you finally had the courage to say it. âI looked at you, riding those bulls, and all I could see was my dad. It scared me.â You admitted, caressing his cheek with your thumb. âDrunk, constantly concussed, and soon to be dead either from one or the other. I know thatâs not you now, and I shouldâve known it back then, but I was too damaged.âÂ
Tyler looked sad, his hand still caressing your skin. âI would have fought for you.âÂ
âI know.â You said, and you did. You knew that Tyler would have fought to stay by your side until the end if you hadnât pushed him away.Â
âYou were everything to me back then.â
God it hurt. Remembering the look on his face when you had walked out that door. You still had nightmares about it, but like you had struggled to learn, there was nothing you could do about it now. The two of you sat there for a moment before you finally got the courage to ask the question youâd been wanting to. âWhat about now?â You asked. âThink we can make it?â
A small, disbelieving smile formed on his face. âIs that an option?âÂ
You nodded. âAt least I hope it is. That ballâs in your court Tyler Owens. Iâm the one that broke your heart.â You said, sliding a hand down to rest over his heart. âSo . . . is that an option?â You asked, biting your lip as your heart started thumping heavily against your chest. God what if youâd just said all that and spent the best night of your life with him for Tyler to say it wasnât worth the risk? Thatâd youâd done damage beyond repair?Â
Tyler didnât give you time for your thoughts to get any more out of control. âOh, itâs definitely an option.â He said, and his bright smile had your heart fluttering. âIn fact, Iâd say itâs my preferred option.âÂ
You could barely believe it, even after last night. âYou really want to give me a second chance?â You asked in disbelief.Â
His smile turned soft, and his hand covered your own on his chest. âSweetheart, Iâd give you all the chances in the world.âÂ
And then, because you didnât know what else to say, you leaned forward and kissed him.Â
Once again, everything was the same, but somehow different. A better different.
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âOh, Iâm fasting, but Iâm incredibly bored!!â â so what Iâm hearing is that you have nothing to do except eat? Or you eat when youâre bored..? Well, that needs to be fixed, but fear not, that will come with time. Keep fasting by the way, youâre doing great! So well in fact that Iâve actually compiled a list of things that you can do to keep yourself occupied!!
1. Make a playlist
2. Find some new music
3. Listen to music!
4. Take a shower
5. wash your hair
6. cut your hair?
7. dye your hair, even?
8. paint your nails
9. put on a perfume you barely wear
10. brush your teeth
11. put on some makeup
12. make a pinterest board of makeup looks and try them out!
13. wash your clothes
14. lay outfits on your bed and take photos/write them down
15. make some âfor when iâm skinny outfitsâ and take photos/write them down
16. meditate
17. compile things that trigger you (YouTube Playlists, Pinterest boards, Screenshots of tumblr posts etc!!!)
18. Go for a walk
19. Walk to the supermarket and look at food (maybe i just like doing this)
20. walk to ur local train station and go to the mall OR!! walk to the mall (sorry if you live in buttfuck no where đ)
21. journal!! prompts vvv
22. write down everything thatâs keeping you going
23. write down all the things you want to eat when ur at ur ugw
24. write down your safe foods
25. write down your fear foods
26. write some triggers
27. write some thinspo quotes
28. reflect on yourself
29. get to know yourself
30. look at journalling prompts on pinterest
31. vent
32. brain dump
33. put lipstick on and cover a page in kisses
34. draw thinspo
35. draw an oc
36. try finding your art style if you donât draw often
37. draw a scene you remember from your childhood
38. do a jigsaw puzzle
39. find a deck of cards and order them
40. study!!!
41. practice an instrument
42. look for jobs if your unemployed
43. go out with friends
44. talk to online friends
45. text ur irl friends
46. play minecraft
47. clean your room
48. de clutter draws & desks
49. make a thinspo board on pinterest
50. Make a pinterest board with all those facebook mom weight loss motivation quotes and things (they have a special place in my heart, okay?)
51. watch media that has characters w/ EDs in them. i recommend To The Bone (ofc), Skins (Cassie), Gossip Girls (Blair), Heathers (Heather Duke), Heartstopper (Charlie Spring)!!
52. find low calorie recipes
53. practice an instrument
54. contour your bones
55. write down rewards for when you reach another gw (eg, perfumes, new scales, new clothes, safe foods)
56. listen to some ED podcasts (i rlly like SciGuys Ep #201 and DRAMA MAMA Ep #32)
57. sometimes i watch swan liyah on YT
58. Make yourself some ice cold water
59. Fill up the ice cube tray (this is personal, i usually do this when iâm bored)
60. Commentary YouTubers đ
61. ED short films on YT
62. ED documentaries on YT
63. Quora ED stuff can be triggering too!!
64. Have a bath
65. De-clutter your phone
66. Get out there and reblog a whole bunch of stuff!
67. Duolingo
68. paint
69. haha 69⌠uh, read a book!
70. Stalk my ED Pinterest Account: https://pin.it/6IDHsH7jh
(itâs very cool i promise)
71. watch ED WIEIAD videos on youtube
72. look for different diets
73. watch cooking videos and save recipes for when your skinny
74. Make a playlist of workouts to try (reminder, you donât have to work out when ur fasting<3)
75. write a letter to someone
76. practice your handwriting
77. Walk all the way to your local supermarket, get some gum and/or sugar free soda and walk back
78. hold a little fashion show for yourself
79. Listen to those songs you never got around to
80. Get into that artist youâve never had time to get into
81. watch that show youâve never started
82. Look into poetry
83. Write a poem
84. make a bookmark
85. draw one of your friends to give to them (no matter how poorly, itâs funnier when itâs bad)
86. Have a dance party, why tf not?
87. put beads on some of your shoelaces
88. Headphones up, eyes closed, laying on your bed blasting your favourite song. Just let yourself be surrounded by the music for a moment. It really helps your mood
89. Mess with spotify equalisers
90. Try some hairstyles out
91. straighten/curl your hair
92. watch a tim burton film
93. Watch a Studio Ghibili film (it helps to have an activity to do at the same time, like literally anything else on the list)
94. look at halloween costumes you can wear next halloween when your skinny
95. heal your inner child and watch a childhood show!!
96. sew something!
97. learn to sew? :)
98. make some jewellery
99. FRIENDSHIP BRACELETS!!
100. research a random topic (band backstories and mythology are my favourite!!!)
101. Look into the biology of a human digestive system (thereâs a video of digestion we had to watch in school once that you can find on YT and itâs so gross and triggering)
102. look at mouldy pictures of food
103. watch time lapse videos of food decomposing
104. count loose change
105. burn your favourite candle because if not now the when?
will add more when i think of them! stay safe and do what feels right for you, donât push yourself just stay disciplined
Take care <3
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