#and my sketches 💔 are very rough

[sameboot]

Various robots/spaceships/spaceship iterations inside drone bodies/sentient viruses

[foggydew5]

Okay, I'll post it on my page in rough sketches for now, simply under the name SERVAMP HOSPITAL AU

① Count Saint-Germain is the head doctor of the hospital 😇 He is harshly ignored by the pediatrician Kuro, who does not attend general staff meetings with him Saint-Germain is very sad because of this 🥹💔

[saphstories]

Farewell, My Friend💔😭

(PSA: Possible spoiler warnings for The Murder of Me by the Zielo Cave. Only a couple panels, but still...)

So, on Monday night, I was at work, and I checked my phone, mostly out of habit. (I don't recommend doing this, btw, it's a good way to get you written up or worse.) And I saw that I had a YouTube notification on my lock screen. So I open my phone and pull down my drop bar to have a look. And literally saw the absolute worst news.

TMOM is over from The Zielo Cave

Now for those of you that don't know: The Murder of Me, AKA TMOM, is a Sonic the Hedgehog fan comic that first debuted I think 15 or so years ago, give or take, and as much as I would love to claim that I've been a fan since the beginning, I only discovered TMOM about a year or so ago. (I have the worst luck when it comes to finding things; I'm always late to the party 🥺)

When I discovered TMOM I was in a terrible rut. I hadn't posted anything in YEARS, and the writing I had done I kept locked away in notebooks, never to see the light of day. I had no inspiration, no motivation to tell stories. It was a horrible place to be. (-10000/10 recommendation.) Then I was scrolling through Pinterest one day, and I saw a panel of this random comic.

You could probably imagine my reaction. It's so random. Then more cropped up:

My thoughts went HAYWIRE. "Why is Sonic fighting his mother? Why's he dressed like that? WHY IS HE DROWNING?? WHY ARE KNUX AND TAILS LETTING HIM DROWN??? WHAT IS EVEN HAPPENING???" So I went hunting, and came across The Murder of Me by Gigi-D on DeviantArt.

I was HOOKED. The plot was so well thought out, the characterization was incredibly done, and as you can see, the art itself was BEAUTIFUL. I couldn't get enough. I flat out ignored life and read through 14 issues in one sitting. It took me all day but it was so worth it. AND THEN: I discovered the dubs on YouTube, and found that Gigi-D had decided to put together a creative team to produce the issues of The Murder of Me as episodic dubs, and I fell head over heels. The cast and editing was absolutely phenomenal, and The Murder of Me had my heart, hook, line, and sinker. What was even better was that they turned Issue 15 into an animatic episode.

Episode 15 Part 1: Purpose released on October 30th, 2022, and since then I have been anxiously awaiting the next episode by rewatching the series and all the prequels and bonus episodes I could get my mouse on. I even forced my best friend one night to binge the entire series with me, and she's not nearly as much of a Sonic fan as I am!

TMOM was more than a great watch or story for me. It was inspiration. I had an itch in my fingers that grew from writing a TMOM fanfiction that would stay hidden away into it's own complex project who's rough draft is now in production. (And could very well be released this summer if all goes well.) It was life breathed into my creativity. It was hope. For the first time in a very long time, I wanted to write. To tell a story like Gigi-D and the Zielo Cave.

And then that notification came. It was like a punch in the stomach. I was terrified and without watching it, I reacted and sent it to my best friend, wailing that once again, a story that I loved was being abandoned. That the writers were giving up. I was indignant. Screw that, I was angry and hurt.

Then I watched the video. I listened to Gigi's story, and immediately felt shamed by my own reaction. The Zielo Cave had been saying that Part Two was taking a while because of personal situations, and when Gigi revealed what had happened, that her inspiration was gone and couldn't bring herself to even sketch these characters that she loved so dearly...my heart shattered for her. While I might not really know or understand the pain of her personal situation, I do know what it is to completely lose the passion for your story. For the characters you still love, but can't bring yourself to engage with.

And while my heart of hearts aches, I know Gigi is doing the right thing. No one wants a story that it's writer is dragging their heels to share, can't bring themselves to write. God knows I've tried that, and trust me, it only hurts everyone. The writer, the fans, and the story itself. By ending TMOM here, she's protecting TMOM and its fans, and even though my heart breaks for TMOM's fate and (mostly) for her, I couldn't be more proud of her. The courage and strength it takes to walk away from such a huge part of your life in search of something more, something better?

Not only that, but honor the work and effort her team has given for Part Two and post it anyway, even though it's unfinished? To offer a written conclusion for the series for the fans that want to know what happens? I've never heard of any creator doing that, ever. All that I have seen would NEVER post any unfinished content, or unveil the unwritten plot and ending. And while I'm devastated for what that means, that TMOM is well and truly concluded and Gigi will probably NEVER return, as a fan of this series, I'm so grateful that what happens to these characters won't remain a mystery.

And to repeat what I said in the comment section of the announcement video: I pray a future that is bright and beautiful for you, and you discover what an amazing person you on this journey of healing. You're going to be magnificent because you are already an incredible person, Gigi. I can't express how important TMOM has been for me, how inspiring the story has been when I was down and unable to pursue my own creativity in my writing, and I just want to thank you for the years of dedication, passion, and love you and your team have given us through The Murder of Me. I bless all the paths you walk from this day forward, and all my love and support for you goes with you on your journeys for all the rest of your days.

The Murder of Me is over. I will always be a TMOM fan, and I will always love Gigi-D and the Zielo Cave for giving me inspiration, passion, and hope for my writing again. It's because of TMOM that The Three Sovereigns even made it to development and is now currently being written with the hope of release this summer, and The Three Sovereigns will always be a tribute to The Murder of Me and the hope this story has given me.

Thank you so much, Gigi-D, the Zielo Cave, and The Murder of Me, and fare thee well, my friend.

[ros3ybabe]

Daily Check-in: April 20, 2024 🎀

No update for Friday as all I did was go to class then go to work, come home, and sleep. But Saturday was a very good day and I feel as tho I did a good amount of things! And I feel good about the thing I did! <3

🩷 What I Accomplished:

woke up early before work (didn't hit my alarm three times and wake up tired, like I've been doing)

worked a ~7hour shift

agreed to cover a coworkers morning shift on Sunday 4/21

created a budget/ work plan for next semester to see how much I can make vs what most of my spending will look like

made an appointment to get a tattoo at the beginning of May (it's a tattoo to honor my dad and my late mother, who will have been gone 10 years this year. I wanted to honor my dad with the tattoo as well because he has been an amazing parent for the last 10 years, and I love and appreciate him so much)

booked an intro class at club pilates for mid-may (finally going to see if I enjoy it, and if so, will continue taking classes next semester!)

did a morning yoga workout

reflected on why I've been having a hard time sticking to my goals/daily tasks lately

washed my laundry (didn't put away tho)

💞 Good Things That Happened:

my friend gave me a ride to work

my favorite supervisor gave me a ride home from work

ate some spicy cheesey ramen

had a really good day at work

was able to request a day off work for beginning of May

got told my tattoo won't cost as much as I had thought

talked more with my roommates

💔 What Could've Gone Better:

drank too much coffee, and too late at night

had a near panic attack because of the coffee and cried myself to sleep

didn't zoom with my boyfriend because of how bad the coffee made me feel

lost trust with a different supervisor that I had thought was cool with me ( made me realize you can't trust most men to keep their word nowadays. not all men. just the men where I live at least.)

didn't study anything or do anything I felt was productive

💗 Stuff For Sunday:

work a shift

clean bathroom

wash pillowcases and towels

dust bedroom

practice some past chemistry homework problems

pick up medication from pharmacy after work

draw up rough sketch of tattoo idea

morning yoga?? we shall see

DONT drink too much caffiene

til next time lovelies 🩷

p.s Check Out My Depop shop!

💕 Song of The Day: Pied Piper - BTS

this song has been making me feel the same way that House of Cards has, which is saying a lot. I love this song so much right now.

[systelon]

it's pretty hard to think of too much since it's mainly throwing n fitting stuff together, so i'll list some stuff i Did do for mines here !

draw some inspiration first if you can't think of anything, whether it's from looking thru how people layout their own pages or what sorta themes they have going on for it. or even take inspiration / theme it around a certain aesthetic u enjoy & even from how nice the GUI for a game or website looks like

sketch out a very rough layout or idea of what you want it to look like, even just any one section. i only came up w/ the characters section at first but slowly started building off from there mines ended up being very empty, but once i got the basic stuff laid out in the editor, it was just a matter of filling in empty spaces w/ whatever

you can also even use some of the sketches or w/e you decide to use as placeholder images just to have a little preview of how it'll sorta look like

you can pretty much input any design or asset from uploading them as images. you can overlay images on top of images. you can probably do anything n decorate it however you want as long as you have the ability to draw or do basic editing. the site is ur canvas ( the windows boxes i made for my page are also images. if you do someth similar, you may have to do different varying sizes of said box designs as they won't look as great trying to stretch them. almost everything on my page is made up of images, save for the text themselves & the ask / art boxes )

this is assuming you already know how the strawpage editor kinda works, but if that's not the case then it'd be great to figure that part out or even find out as you go !! it's pretty straightforward n has some pretty fun things it lets you do the only thing is that the editor itself can be a bit wonky to work with & aligning things perfectly together is rly tough even w/ it letting you move things by pixel ( it can show up a bit differently on mobile ).. a lotta the time you just have to work w/ what you've got 💔

[uncannylaw]

I listened to the music you told me about as well, and I like it!! It’s different from what I usually listen to, that’s for sure, but it’s still good. Do you have any more to recommend me? I need some new music in my library 💔.

Here’s a rough sketch of one of the characters by the way. (Yes, I used old lined paper. I need a sketchbook 🫡🙏🏽) If you can’t tell, I just might be very excited to do this.

I wish I could’ve gone to the state fair this time 😭. I’m glad you had fun!!

The way I just seen this😭. I can definitely give you some more recommendations! Let It Burn - Jasmine Sullivan, Bare Wit Me - Teyana Taylor, Heaven Can Wait - Michael Jackson. I hope you like these songs!

It looks cool so far, I said I was gonna draw last night and didn’t😭. Using lined paper is crazy but I understand the grind😂. I also need a new sketch book, my old one is raggedy asf. I'm honestly excited for you, I can't wait to see what you post.

There’s always next year for the fair!

[ifievertoldyou]

the long awaited wip graveyard post

i thought the title was fitting for halloween :p

this post is an assorted collection of all my old thaw wips that i deemed not good enough to post, but didn't want to just rot away in my folder, so now they're here.

enjoy !

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the Eye post

fun fact: i used the same seven colored pencils for both the thes eye and the tommy one, i just made the grayer shades more emphasized for the latter. thought that was a neat little detail.

q's eye here makes his skin look a lil more purple

i impulsively gave quackity an eyebrow when i didn't sketch it before, and the way it turned out bothered me >:((

not a wip because i absolutely would never give this abomination its own post, but this is basically what my scratch paper sheet looks like when i want to test out how different colors look with each other, and also get a really, Really rough idea of what the final product will look like. this is the process i go through Every time i draw something serious. 😭

peep all 7 colors of the chaosduo's eyes under the thes eye practice

LMAO AND THE THES FACE 8 SECOND SKETCH LOOKS LIKE HE'S ON DRUGS IT'S SO SILLY

can you see me struggling to figure out how to wrap the rune around q's pupil? and also how to make the rune not just Completely disappear bc of how dark his eye is? yeah. traditional art is a pain is the ass sometimes, but i'm still wayy better at it.

also shoutout to @alexanderwesker for giving me an idea of what the rune on q's eye looks like, because i like being as accurate as i can when i draw stuff, so that was very much appreciated!

the part 2 to the hero's journey comic

i went fucking Ham during the hero's journey assignment, so much so that i literally planned like 19 more panels than what you saw in the original post (27 panels planned in total). but then i realized that i had like Four Whole Days to do that assignment, and would definitely not be able to do that many, especially not without burning out.

so i instead settled for the very first 8 panels that i planned (though even then, i had to abridge a lot of it, and also cut slime entirely from it, bc otherwise those 8 would have been 14 whole panels, and i think i would actually die-), since that was just enough to show two different steps of the hero's journey (crossing the threshold and meeting the mentor btw. i could probably do a whole analysis on how wesker's stories fit into the hero's journey if i wanted to, but i'm lazy rn and this post is already pretty long), and that was the big grading requirement. (i got 100% on that assignment btw 💪and my english teacher still has no clue that he graded minecraft fanfiction fanart LMAO) but this one is what i would have included if i had more time on the project, and could include more of the story, but as it stands, i made this one in my own leisure, because comics are fun to do.

anyways, with that little rant aside, i tried my best to make q look younger than quackity, and really accentuate the difference between them. idk how i feel about how q turned out though.

i'm really proud of the paneling, and i'm also kinda proud of the first frame with quackity's face in particular bc i thought it looked cool, like an actual comic book or something. but i couldn't figure out the card physics or perspective and that's what ultimately made me choose to abandon it 💔 maybe i'll try attempting this page again when i'm feeling more daring (as well as the other panels that i still haven't even drawn yet), but this wip has been collecting dust for a couple of months now so i figured i'd share it here anyway.

Palido

i drew palido a bit ago, but bro got somehow managed to get crinkled in my bag, even while literally being Inside of my sketchbook 🤨

it's not Too awfully noticeable though, especially bc the fold isn't On the drawing itself, so i might be able to salvage him and post a finished version someday... but i kinda halted progress on him for the time being bc of it, so here he is. </3

"Am I Still Even Me?"

i 1000% want to redraw this someday, just because i think the idea behind it is so fucking neat.

honestly, this one wasn't too bad at all, especially since i did all of it (besides the bones bc i think my health professions teacher would be disappointed if i got them wrong, and also the rune bc i care way too much about accuracy) without any reference, which is a pretty impressive feat for me and my aphantasia. but yeahh i think it could definitely be better, and really, this drawing was ultimately something that i just drew in class to keep myself busy for a bit bc i had way too much freetime that day. it wasn't intended to be post-worthy or anything.

but i think that the idea behind it is definitely post-worthy. maybe i'll even add a thes and/or youngerbur addition once i get more information about them and just how they've changed yk.

i had no clue how to draw the bones in that position, i probably could've done more research but. yeah no i don't have an excuse, i just couldn't be bothered that day lmao.

i was also gonna bloody q's hands a bit if i ever got to the coloring stage. like a little nod to when he lost himself to Madness. is the blood actually there? who knows, we're seeing it from his eyes, so for all we know, the rune isn't even lit up either, and he's just remembering it being so. remembering the moment he acted so unlike how he used to be.

the bones are definitely there for charlie though, poor guy...

also can y'all tell that i drew the rune in like. 5 seconds. bc yeah.

i had way more wips to share but i have literally no clue where they went, and also the tumblr picture limit is getitng close so ig that's all for now </3

like for a part 2 (whenever i accumulate enough wips to warrant a post, that is)

[jiminrings]

oh i hate u i hate u so much THAT WAS SO GOOD okay let’s go down the line First the call during the kissing scene it was so amazing i loved it so much I WASNT EXPECTING HIM TO CRY i was so sad 😞😞 oc during that scene was so lovely and really throughout this whole installment she was so incredible and jungkook is so right she Is so lovable i Am in love with her she is one of my fav ocs ☹️☹️☹️☹️ when u talked abt how her and jungkook kind of switched as people yeah Rlly opened my eyes and made me love them even more 💔 they r so cute 😭 THE PRESENTATIONNNN the presentation the zoom link the <3 jungkook i love him so bad i can’t believe that anon wanted to brick him WHY WOUKD U WANT THAT … SAVE THAT FOR HBJM ……. Or even liyiak taehyung nobody talks abt how much of an asshole he was (But im still in love with him…) Anyway THE FILM 😭😭😭😭😭 u r so smart UR SO SMART 😭😭 OMG AND THE BABY THE EPILOGUE YOONGI JUNGKOOK BEST FRIENDS 4 LIFERS MY JAW DROPPEDDDDDD ALL IVE EVER WANTED I also loved loved loved oc + jks dynamic this entire series (even the sad parts bc it did show true (Not Bad!!) colors and how they like to feel and handle things that we wouldn’t expect after we read the intro 😵‍💫) because they were just so cute even the parts where they would call or oc came over for the ring i never would’ve expected it even tho i should’ve seen it coming idk y u would just write the break with them completely separate the whole time and crying i didnt think that through 😭 the ongoing miso joke so cute i don’t understand how to train a cat that well all i’ve done is high five and Barely a spin . But anyway this was such an incredible series and i can’t believe it’s over already it went so quick 😞😞 i hope u have fun and relax on ur break i think u said u will be going on one a while back if u r Enjoy it!!!! it is so well deserved 🌟🌟 and thank u so so so much for writing what u write and sharing ur work with us ❤️‍🔥🌟❤️‍🔥 u r so insanely talented THANK UUU - 🌟🌟🌟

MY STAR EMOJI VETERAN I LOVE YEWWWWW .... that call was v difficult to write but oc oh god U Are Right she’s definitely one of my favorite ocs ever <3 they rlly did switch!!! AND THE ZOOM LINKKKK LIKE as a full-time househusband jungkook does Not do emails at all so his permanent signature is <3 jungkook because the only person he sends emails to is his wife 😭😭 AND THE FILM APPRECIATION THANK YEWWW.... that part was one of the very first details i’ve written when i was just drafting out a rough sketch for 478!!! ur so smart the most brickable character ever is lyiaik!taehyung like i am certain he is capable of dragging oc to hell 😟😟 i will honestly admit that this fic’s dynamic is my most favorite ever esp the ending+epilogue and the whole thing!!!! u are still a talented cat owner because my cat is a lil bitch and every attempt i’ve made in teaching her tricks yields Nothing at all </3 thank u so so much!! the next two weeks will be busy for me along with the whole months of june and july so i can’t tell how long and consistent my break will be BUTTT rest assured that i’ll come back <3 THANK YEWWWW

[awkwardpenguinproductions]

My brain recently got eaten by The Murderbot Diaries, have some wonderfully drawn (non-gender) guys

Various robots/spaceships/spaceship iterations inside drone bodies/sentient viruses