#and my rib hurts too much

[silusvesuius]

testing out drawing maormer 🪸🐚🪸 and a nelvas 🧣📜🩷 i'll ramble about maormer a bit in the tags

[the-cookie-of-doom]

I think I'm having an adrenaline crash bc the last 3 days have been wild, and I'm finally home, at my desk, feeling like I'm about to cry??

I've been in the ICU/ER the last 3 days. Yesterday I had to do CPR for the first time, on my 90 year old patient who was gushing blood from her femoral arteries (yes. both. she had just come from surgery 20 min prior) while I destroyed what was left of her ribs. She died. She never should have gone to surgery in the first place, but her family insisted on it.

My prof sent us home two hours early that day. Instead of going home and doing my homework that I had been panicking over all week, I crashed for 2 hours instead. I could barely get through a shower before my body just gave out. I figured that got it out of my system, but maybe not?

Idk, I'm just feeling weird now.

[bl-inkstone]

as much as i love serious no-nonsense alhaitham, i like to imagine him engaging in silly little mock arguments in different languages with a haravatat or vahumana reader that he (privately) considers one of his dearest friends. he probably spins it as a learning opportunity for both of you ("conversation is a good way to properly grasp the nuances of conversation and the little linguistic gimmicks of a language, after all") but in all honesty? alhaitham enjoys just being able to indulge in what he'd normally consider "pointless" or "childish" behavior with someone he knows won't judge him for it, and will enthusiastically join in when he offers.

(and as a personal plus for him: not only does it give him an outlet for every niche tidbit of history he's accumulated over the years in order to create not only incredibly witty responses that are also factual and accurate to the time period, but also, your company is exactly what he needs after a long day at work. there's no better pick-me-up than hearing you try to hide your snort when he drops a particularly hard line. he's glad you think he's funny. your joy is a wonderful sight to see.)

he treasures the moments where he can sit beside you, trading light jabs and in-character insults at each other in your private corner of lambad's tavern. to alhaitham, it's moments like these that remind him that there's more to life than just his work, his hobbies, and himself.

good food, good drinks, and good company mark the end of most of alhaitham's days, and his heart always leaves the tavern full and content with the promise of seeing you again soon, safe and whole and happy, in the table you've always saved a seat for him at since your days in the akademiya.

(can be read as platonic or romantic! either way, alhaitham cares greatly for you and enjoys the times you can spend together, even when it's mostly spent trading insults in languages both of you have varying levels of mastery in lmao)

[bunnihearted]

🐰🌧️

[camscendants]

That was an eventful two days

[r4t-g0d]

at what point is pain from binding a bad sign

[temperate-rainforest]

I always forget how people back in the olde days used to just die so easily from the flu, until I get the flu myself dhhdhdhf because on one hand I know our medicine is just soo much better now a days but on the other hand I have the immune system of a dead man and once I get sick I'm like the ye olde victorian child on a death bed dhdhdhhd it's been 4 days and I just NOW can get on my phone to watch videos and text, and eat and drink water, and coherently string words together and do more than just lay in bed and moan in pain, and sweat and cough in sick delirium 😭

[idnull]

hey, so sorry i haven’t been online, i really really overextended myself these past two weeks physically and mentally, and now i’m paying for it by being so sick i can barely function lol

i promise i’m gonna try to be on tomorrow or monday (i have plans on sunday)

i love y’all, thank you for your patience

[alukaforyou]

TATT♡♡

[usedtobemygirl]

just travelling back home from seeing taylor, what a beautiful concert !! im absolutely exhausted but it was so brilliant im so glad I got to experience it !!! i love this woman so much …

[neosatsuma]

hey can a girl get a hobby. that she can actually do? 👉👈 no? oh okay. *gazes longingly into oncoming traffic*

[shrews-things]

Another top surgery update!!! Yesterday I was 10 days post-op and things are starting to look better and I can do more and more things alone ❣️

Went out with my partner a bit and oh boy I've missed it so much, it was so nice

[lesenbyan]

you know, I might be Stepping In It, but I really hate people's tendency to "you're lucky" when finding out someone's naturally skinny really piss me off.

I'm not saying there's not privilege to being skinny, there absolutely is in this fatphobic world. But as someone who has spent literally over half my life wishing I could gain any fucking weight ever it makes me so fucking mad. I've tried working out, I've had physically demanding jobs, I've tried, back when i could afford it, eating as much as I could handle. I have literal dysphoria about being skinny.

and then when I Go Off at a coworker for being the second person in a week to tell me I'm lucky- while wearing braces digging into my joints bc I am physically too small to wear them right but they don't get smaller- I'm told "oh but you have to realize we never considered the other side" sure! but I'm still allowed to get pissed! you would be too!

[dexaroth]

first its 'lets go to a nutritionist, losing weight would help you move around better!' which apparently did help but I personally can't notice and now it's 'you're looking a little bit too thin -_- lets go back to eating smiley fries and chicken nuggets like we did when I was like 7. if you truly care. 😑

[wastedonthesebutterflies]

Fuck her

[dragonji]

being a student is always going so well until it Isn't .