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fruitsyrups · 2 years ago

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I feel bad when I say I'm gonna do something and then I don't bc like!!! I have schoolwork to do!! 😭 so I've been spending all of my free time lying in bed playing games on my phone thinking about how I should be doing schoolwork. I have not been doing schoolwork. I should though.

#im like Yeah sure ill do that thing when i dont have schoolwork #except #i always have schoolwork #because i am not only a student but a procrastinator 👍#i would already be so very finished with everything if i just spent less time Thinking about how i should be doing stuff #and more time actually doing stuff #anyway its fine. im chilling & im passing. all is good #some guy just said 'and thats how you stop the patriarchy' im so curious what the context is for that #and then he just started singing

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wasyago · 3 months ago

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tango doodles

first you make up a guy and then you struggle to draw him correctly

#i need to stop drawing all the faces in 3/4 this is just silly.#gahh #anyways yes! im still on my quest to make tango look at least a little older #because every time i hear his voice the image in my head doesn't fit the sound at all.#dude has a raspy voice that doesn't exactly fit a little guy. if i could id draw him with more realistic proportions but i cant.#because um. reasons.#i can't just give up on my creachur cmon now...#ive noticed recently i tweaked a lot of my designs to be less cartoony. not sure if i like that actually. hm.#man i keep saying stuff like 'oh i gotta make weirder designs' but then i do the exact opposite??? huh?#i should stop trying to be normal. it's really hurting my image #GOD anyways. tags under the post yes.#tangotek #my art #sketch

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hinamie · 6 months ago

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unconditionally

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #itafushi #fushiita #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #megumi #yuuji #im shaky and numb the way this took years off my life #genuinely cannot believe i thought it was smart to make it a comic i could have stuck at a painting and it would have been fine #but nooooooo in my hubris i thought Surely im an expert at this longform stuff now Surely i can do it :)#and then it killed me it killed me dead this is like over twice as long as the train comic and 4 times as detailed #backgrounds . angles. i yearn fr death.#AND I HAD 2 WRITE THEM ACTUALLY TALKING GGSDH i am actually so insecure abt the way the dialogue flows gomen....#i wanted to add more to it to fix how clipped and rushed i think it reads #but that would mean drawing more expressions would mean drawing more panels would mean more gd hyDRANGEAS #so ultimately i decided 2 have the conversation take the hit because let me tell u.#if i have to draw. one more blue petal i will snap i will lose it #i knew tht would happen n wanted to alleviate some of the pain so i found a few brushes that helped speed up the process #but the thing w a lot of premade flower brushes is they also come preshaded n look uniform in a way that stands out badly against my style #so i had 2 render over them anyway........#yuuji's domain rly putting me through the wringer first the train station now death by a bajillion petals smh #all that to say tho . my labour of love . i am going to take a nap #hina.comic

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inkskinned · 2 years ago

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the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post.#writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers.#at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going.#when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like.#it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases -#at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory.#it was what i had seen.#and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol'#so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID.#he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

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noodles-and-tea · 4 months ago

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For the twins in time AU, I genuinely wonder what kind of people the young twins grow up into because of Stan’s/Ford’s influence. Especially if it takes years for the portal to get fixed.

(Sorry if it seems like I already sent this question, I don’t know if it got sent the first time I asked)

I haven’t fully fleshed out how Ford grows up in the past but I do have thoughts on Stan presently

#he’s still his goofy brash self as well #but I do think he gets an outlet for all that through monster hunting and trips and stuff #he does get comfortable here though…#I’m thinking we have something play out that’s similar to the science fair #where they get close to being able to send him home and he breaks something or maybe even purposely sabotages it…#and I think he sneaks out a lot too #maybe he uses the secret identities in that way like when he’s in town he’ll pretend to be Pinley pinington #and that’s how he develops his scammy/improv skills #FORD ON THE OTHER HAND #I think he might actually be MORE emotionally stunted because Stan tries so hard to protect him #that it goes the other way #they kind of become reliant on each other in a really unhealthy way or maybe Stan sort of steers ford away from his smart stuff #to prevent the future from happening #not maliciously but yk #like I said I haven’t fleshed his story out as fully yet so I will get back to you #but there are some interesting possibilities #my art #ask #gravity falls #twins in time au #Stan pines #Stanley pines

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arttsuka · 4 months ago

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I made @wolfythewitch 's fox Bill design out of polymer clay

It's pretty thin (so thin I'm afraid it'll snap in half anytime I lift it)

Front and back side:

#I love crafting stuff but it's more time consuming than drawing (and less satisfying to me) so I don't do it as often #this would make a pretty cool pin. too bad it's so fragile #this is useless btw. I'm afraid it's break even if I store it somewhere #but at least I had fun making it #like an idiot I decided it would be better if I used only yellow and painted the details after baking it #fast forward-> me trying to paint it with a permanent black marker and a white gel pen that's definitely not for that job #this design will forever be imprinted in my brain as the best fanmade bill design actually #gravity falls #gravity fowls #bill cipher #arts n crafts #polymer clay #don't look at my ugly fingers #this is obviously not actual folded like an origami. I just cut the pieces I needed (the body is one piece folded in half tho)#btw I used the oven just to bake this. rip the environment

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vaguely-concerned · 3 months ago

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the more I play the more I think lucanis basically knows it's illario who betrayed him right from the beginning (he's had a year in the ossuary to think. not that many people knew where he was going. when you ask him 'did Illario know you'd be on that ship' his only answer is the hardest flattest 'yes' you ever heard). so it's not so much about figuring out who the traitor is (because that's ludicrous. we all know. immediately. they didn't really bother to hide it lmao) as about methodically closing off every single avenue of denial lucanis has clung to that whole time with as much or little gentleness as you might prefer until he has no choice but to admit it. because the moment he has to admit it, he'll have to do something -- feel something -- about it. and that's such a catastrophic event in lucanis' inner landscape (he has had TWO people in this whole entire world up until now and will do anything to hold on to them with a heartbreaking child-like desperation, even at and especially through the detriment of his own self) that he'd rather just. not. what if we quite simply. didn't. what if we just stayed here in the emptiness where we can both pretend you didn't hurt me in a way I should never forgive. I have so much practice in that with caterina already it's always worked out great for everyone so far. (press x to fucking doubt but that's trauma logic for you lol)

after everything illario did, so much of the storm of lucanis' emotions around it is 'what the FUCK did you get yourself tangled up in this time and how do I get you out of this mess safely'. what's worse: the fact that your brother murdered you, or that he put himself in horrible danger doing so and thus exposed you to the risk of losing him forever. lucanis' heart certainly has an opinion here and it's fucking unhinged (affectionate)

the themes of dissociation in lucanis' character in general makes me feel nuts. allllll these contradictory messy things he needs to cut off from each other because they can't coexist or be easily reconciled inside him. but all remain stubbornly true separately anyway and will have their due one day. love and resentment. tenderness and fear and rage. terror and longing. love and freedom don't coexist. the burned out golden child anthem is playing in the background. he was always caterina's favourite and he has to keep striving to deserve that dubious honour with every breath he takes and then, presumably, mercifully, some day he will die and be excused and can rest. and until now he's suppressed all the -- natural, healthy, protective! -- negative feelings that threaten the few attachment relationships he actually has, at the cost of ever actually having his needs for connection and safety met and leaving his core self imprisoned and compromised. and spite goes 'what. no. that's dumb fuck that' (*spite voice* I do not understand that and even if I did I would not respect it) and does not allow him to fall back into that, which I think is what saves his life, ultimately. it took being possessed by a demon for lucanis to even contemplate telling anyone he loves 'no' in any way, but hey. whatever gets you there right lol

lucanis is dealing with the freeze response allll the way down baby. and he was even before the ossuary, that just turbo powered it and brought it to a breaking point way before it could happen naturally. but something was going to break eventually no matter what, and I'm just glad that in the end, through the power of friendship and also pure spite, it doesn't have to be him

#I am worried about him all the time. but also: his found family of godslaying maniacs and also the power of love. there are reasons to hope #when there was only one set of footprints in the sand that was the veilguard party holding lucanis in their arms #and going 'excuse you he said no FUCKING pickles!!!' while he's like '🥺should you guys really be -- ' 'YES'#dragon age #dragon age: the veilguard #dragon age: the veilguard spoilers #dragon age spoilers #lucanis dellamorte #dragon age meta #there's some messiness to his arc but what mary kirby managed to capture here about how this works. is everything to me #he is so exactly for me. I'm sorry for all the people he turned out not to be for. but not for him being for me #the gift of looking at him and hearing 'you're more than what you're going through' and be forced to annoyedly go 'okay #MAYBE that could be also be true for me. maybe.' he's going through it. and also so much more and the funniest person in the world #he's so worth it to still have in the world!!!!#I'm so glad we don't get to 'fix' his relationship with his family and especially caterina actually #that is stuff that would need to happen on a time scale waaay outside of the one in this game #and there's Something very real in having to go 'this is not for me to decide for you. who you love and what you do about it is yours'

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xxplastic-cubexx · 1 month ago

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graph

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#xmen #xmen comics #magneto #is this the part where i have to tag everyone because everyone actually is like. semi significant in these. sure JVAELKVJEALK #cyclops #jean gray #beast #iceman #angel #warren worthington iii #hank mccoy #bobby drake #toad #mortimer toynbee #snap sketches #welcome back to Finally Drawing Months-Old Ideas VJELVKJAEKL #I Repeat love how you can tell what comics ive been reading based on what i draw like No Shit but still... lol ...#this comic is so niche but so is most of my stuff jVELAKJA I MADE THIS FOR MEEEE #it has my kids it has toad it has magneto being Unnecessary. this is for ME. also charlie lookin darlin but thats normal anyway #also hi remember how i was complaining about colors from my tablet some days ago.#i didnt realize the 'protective eye' setting was on. which yk makes the screen tinted yellow #LIKE I SAID OUT LOUD TO MY BROTHER 'lol my screen's yellowish' AND IT DIDNT CLICK #i only realized it was on when i went to turn it on at night one night and i was like. Oh 🧍‍♂️#anyways. sillies. all the kids....#see i thought i was gonna post this WAY earlier but as i was finishing the first version i. well i changed the last panel like three times #but even then i was like 'ok but i wanna draw the boys bein silly..' and indecisive as i was with which version i wanted #i . drew both. and have just made this a goofy two parter or whatever #ANYWAYS !!!! its great bein able to do personal stuff again ... i still have work this to do but its significantly less #so i feel more at ease to do small stuff like this #i do hope to tackle a bigger idea this month tho. while i was drawin this out all i could think of was That idea

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starscream-is-my-wife · 25 days ago

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Ik it's a bit early but I can't believe it's been almost one year since this post

Btw yeah its real

#with the tiktok ban coming up i am a little worried that they will come here and be uhh #ya know... them #there were a bunch of people on tiktok saying 'oh my god i can ship megastar now?'#guys... you always can #idk that just made me so sad #that you arent allowed to ship toxic stuff unless its 'canon' like billford #come on hasboro you should do this again #people got mad last time imagine how many more would go wild #i would give my SOUL #transformers #official content #starscream #megatron #transformers g1 #megastar #megascream #megatron x starscream #i was gonna post this for the actual anniversary but man those tiktok comments made me feeling #maccadams #sometimes i wonder how many megop and megastar people work at hasboro #ik theyre there but like... how many #i post on the transformers tag while having it blocked on tiktok im a hypocrite

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bloodybellycomb · 2 years ago

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I genuinely mean it when I say that life becomes at least 30% more manageable whenever you allow yourself to become obsessed with something that is a little bit silly

#me watching several asoiaf lore videos as i struggle to find a job #nice #a song of ice and fire #also star wars #and #wwdits #what we do in the shadows #maybe also adventure time #wait is that it for me??#oh god i just realized that I actually do need more silly stuff in my life #i need more fantasy lore videos in my life rn!!#birdy chirps

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getoutofmytardis · 2 months ago

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drew these many moons ago in a frenzy. figured i’d fix them up at some point. did not get round to that lol. maybe one day! in the mean time behold my beloved ghosts<3

#i don’t know why pats dead and the rest arent(?) (maybe mary is? i. actually cannot remember what i was going for)#but yeah they’re like. not finished at all ik i had plans for more background bits and stuff #also wanted to make all the colours go together a bit more nicely and the wallpaper be the actual wallpaper colour #i strive for coherence! and yet and have no understanding of colour theory #why all my Actual art is line work and nothing else lol #i did also want to redraw pat and julian but i was going round in circles w it so they’re staying like that for now #anyways why i do i feel the need to slag off stuff i make!! i do not know #genuinely had a great time drawing these many months ago #maybe i have a hyperfixation fueled an all nighter again and finish them who knows #but also if i do i would kinda like to do some yonderland characters lol #bbc ghosts #bbc ghosts fanart #six idiots #my fanart

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daftpatience · 2 months ago

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i lov planning outfits the same way i love drawing diagrams for rearranging furniture. its plotting and scheming

#I GOT THOSE BROWN CORDUROY SLACKS FOR THREE DOLLARS AT A LOCAL THRIFT STORE IT WAS AWESOME #i love smaller more local thrift places. they are so kind and the prices are so good #im puzzling because my lucy and yak pants are stuck in the post during the strike and i realized i only own 1 pants (grunge jeans)#and i get all excited about what im gonna wear to family christmas stuff cus its one of the few times i get to dress up like. FOR people #i love looking classy and gay in front of my grandmother in law who hates me. its so good. its so epic #AND i love looking classy and gay for the family that will actually compliment me. my mom loves me dressing up #cus i grew up soooo resistant to like dresses and what she wanted me to wear until i figured out im a guyyy #now that im doing my own thing shes very encouraging abt my own sense of style yaayaya i love my moommm #my art tag

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andrewknightley · 2 months ago

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saw someone saying something like "do you really think veilguard story would be better if you could do evil choices?" and actually yeah. i think if they let us act more like the dreadwolf on the "you are a paralellism to the dreadwolf" game, it would be more significant when the story tells you "you are a bit like him/you are nothing like him" because , thats how you chosed to play it.