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Hey I was wondering if you could do how candy apple cookie\ black sapphire cookie would be around shadow milk cookie significant other
sorry if this is to much to ask for I just really like your work:(
Hi! It's okay dww I love yall anyways >:3
How Shadow Milk cookie's apprentices be around with his s/o
S/o is also pronounced as they/them! You can change the gender of the s/o (you) any gender you want!
Candy Apple cookie and Black Sapphire cookie around his s/o?
First of, Candy Apple cookie vowed to herself to be the one with Shadow Milk cookie.
Shadow Milk cookie couldn't even trust her around his s/o and has to depend on Black Sapphire Cookie to watch over his s/o incase she does something to them.
But of course, she tried everyways possible to try and get rid of them.
She tried to trick her master but she was seen as a fool and a nobody by him.
S/o always knows that Candy Apple cookie hates them for being with Shadow Milk cookie.
Candy Apple cookie would cry and whine to her master but he would just scoot away.
Candy Apple cookie wanted to destroy S/o so bad that she lured them out of his spire and dimension.
When he found out, he of course got mad and ordered Black Sapphire Cookie to retrieve S/o.
He turned Candy Apple cookie into a tarot card as punishment for luring his love out.
Candy Apple cookie HATED being in a tarot card. Being all flat and can't even move.
Yet she didn't stop the chronicles of trying to get rid of s/o.
She tried so many ways.
Yet Black Sapphire Cookie made her think twice by telling her how their master would think towards them if she lures his love away.
Black Sapphire Cookie always watch over s/o.
Making sure Candy Apple cookie wouldn't do anything to them.
Black Sapphire Cookie knew what the consequences would be if they did something to his s/o.
Yet Candy Apple cookie just don't listen.
She doesn't care.
All she cares is her master being hers.
Even though Shadow Milk cookie made it clear that he doesn't even want her.
He only sees her as a apprentice. Nothing more.
Which made her fuming even more.
"SHADOW MILK COOKIE IS MINEEEEE!!!!" she would yell everytime she gets jealous of s/o.
"Oh quit it!! Give us a break!" Black Sapphire silenced her.
Even though Black Sapphire Cookie watch over them, he would sometimes agree that they also needed a spotlight of their master's attention but doesn't intend to do things Candy Apple cookie did.
After their Master gets sealed away, they were stuck in disguises. Apple Faerie cookie (Candy Apple cookie) leads s/o away from the spire.
When Black Sapphire found out, he was livid.
Shadow Milk cookie is gonna KILL them for sure.
When Candy Apple cookie realized the consequences of her actions, she joined Black Sapphire Cookie to find s/o and bring them back.
When they retrieved them, they sighed a breath of relief.
Alas, they're not gonna die.
And since then, Candy Apple cookie decided to keep her own jealousy and thoughts to herself.
Not exactly to herself, she tell Black Sapphire Cookie.
Anyways guys! Sorry if it was short! I've been busy lately!
Anyways I hope it is for your liking and I hope you enjoyed reading this! To people who support my work, I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!
#beast cookies#beast cookies x reader#shadow milk x reader#shadow milk crk#shadow milk cookie#candy apple cookie#candy apple crk#black sapphire cookie#black sapphire crk#x reader#cookie run fandom#cookie run kingdom
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pro tip for recovering addicts
TW: Addiction, Alcohol dependency
as someone currently working through a moderate addiction to alcohol, there is something that actually really has helped me recently: replacement and going nuclear.
i would like to say that this method is not fool proof, and it will not work for people who have not completely accepted their addiction or have severe addiction. also, i am only dealing with alcohol dependency, so this may not work for others. even if you are struggling with alcohol, this might not work for you, but here's something that has helped me.
going nuclear, so don't even bother with trying to convince yourself it's going to be just one sip or one night. if you didn't trust yourself earlier that day, you probably shouldn't trust yourself now. so i've been doing the Most™ and simply applying brute force against myself. here's what i've been doing.
bought myself a timer lock. i put my alcohol in a cabinet and then use the lock on the cabinet. that way i have to wait to get to it. i can have a drink and then put it back and reset the lock. this prevents me from going back for more before the effects actually kick in. usually i make it a few hours. this method is great if you have a problems with delayed gratification because you can watch the numbers go down. also, you can set it to a longer periods of time to prevent day drinking. it's pretty easy, so you can set it up during those periods of clarity and yet it still holds up once the urges start up again.
i now leave my driver's license in the lock box of my car whenever i go to the store. this helps as i typically go to the store telling myself i won't buy alcohol. then when i'm actually passing by that aisle i find myself picking up some bottles and convincing myself it will be fine. it's not fine. just like above, take advantage of those moments of clarity and lock up your ID.
i've been deliberately diluting my alcohol by making premade mixed drinks. a go too of mine is measuring out three parts fruit juice and one part vodka (so it should be... like... 8% ABV, but don't quote me on that). i typically just mix it into an already emptied bottle of fruit juice. that way, instead of just doing shots of straight vodka, i am forced to actually drink a whole cocktail. there's only so much my stomach can hold, so it forces me to slow down.
i started taking medication to help curb addiction urges. currently, i am on a daily dose of naltrexone (as a pill) to help curb the urge to drink. it's not a cure all, but it does provide a sort of speed bump. not just with alcohol. i've sometimes found myself questioning impulse purchases and the like much more often. there are other medications that can help, so it might help to talk to your doctor.
here's another thing that isn't really 'nuclear', but has helped: i got a snow cone machine... just a tiny one i found on clearance. whenever i got the urge to drink, i'd make a snow cone. i didn't think it would work as well as it has, but i think the dopamine hit from that does help to curb things.
not everyone can quit cold turkey, but everyone should do their best to outsmart their addiction when they can. you'll fuck up, but that doesn't mean that you are a fuck up. it's gonna be okay. maybe not today, or tomorrow, or the next day, but it will be one day.
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nerd babyboy g!p jho receiving head for the first time && her literally tearing up bc she never felt pleasure like it before (all she does is work and study, doesnt even remember the last time she jacked herself off🙁)hajdbfngmgm but thru the haze and her tears shed still have the energy to ask permission to blow her load on r's face😶🌫️
AHHH been meaning to do some jho asks for a while so i'm happy i'm finally getting to them!! 💘✨ sorry to the 5 blooms that have been waiting for some bini stuff from me, ik i’m so slow on this 😔💔
[cw: g!p jhoanna, blowjob, handjob.]
there's nothing like a good ol' playtime to give your tired baby an energy recharge :33 why, neither of you have even fucked yet! and you've only given her handjobs (really good ones) bcs you didn't want to overwhelm her 🥺 but one day, you'll see her working a bit too hard on some project and what a coincidence that you just so happened to be horny as fuck and needed relief! she wouldn’t even give you any mind when you hug her from behind her chair and give her shoulder little kisses bcs she’s so focused 😭😭 but that will simply not do!
“mm, papansin.” you’d hear her tease you under her breath and you know what that means!? the cracks are showing! it’d only be a matter of time until she starts losing more and more attention on her work and how do you decide to distract her? 🤭 palming her bulge while leaving kisses down neck.. and she pretends that she doesn't notice it but nothing ever fools you! and it's not like you can't feel how she's slightly grinding against your hand, jho's just a big baby who can't admit to what she wants but it's all fine and dandy bcs you can give it straight to her no problem!
you'd even go ahead and slide your hand inside her shorts, and now you complete have her attention... jhoanna having to put down her pen, nervously adjusting those stupidly thick black-framed glasses that she was wearing while trying so desperately not to let it all feed your ego but it already was! how else will you have the confidence to pull down her underwear and put her hard cock out for display?? 🤭🤭
"tama na? ayaw mo na?" yk damn well asking her that while stroking her length would drive her insane and it very much did! jho is definitely a whiner and you'll hear her right against your ear bcs baby gets embarrassed when you look right her while you're pleasuring her, SHES SO CUTE 🥺 she'd want to cum immediately since you've got her so worked up but you have other plans! and since she's so distracted by how good your hand feels that she totally doesn't expect your mouth to feel even better!
at this point she's making it sound like she's fucking you bcs jho can be super loud too 😋 pating yung mga ungol ay OA rin kase 😭 but that's just bcs you're using your tongue so good :(( slowly licking up from the base of her cock all the way up to her slit, your nails clutching her thighs and keeping them wide open for you.. she's trying to cover your eyes so you can't tease her about her expressions afterwards but jho just ends up guiding you herself, just like you always wanted! 🥰
"i-i'm gonna cum... 'di ko na k-kaya..." firm believer that when jho feels too good, she starts tearing up and pouting :(( shaking her head cutely, her glasses all the way down to the tip of her nose, breathing erratically... too cute!!
"manners, baby." you'd managed to say, and you taught your babyboy so well so she'd ask to cum politely! with "please" and everything :(( and you're always fine swallowing every drop but there's a certain wave of satisfaction that washes over jhoanna when you let her cum all over your face so you let her do it! 😋 she thinks you look sooo pretty like that, even wiping your cheek with her fingers and making you suck her cum from them... she's so bashful but when courage takes over her, jho definitely becomes something else 😳😳
#bini smut#bini x reader#bini x fem reader#bini x female reader#bini imagines#bini scenarios#jhoanna robles smut#jhoanna robles x reader#jhoanna robles x fem reader#jhoanna robles x female reader#jhoanna robles imagine#jhoanna robles scenarios#jhoanna smut#jhoanna x reader#jhoanna x fem reader#jhoanna x female reader#jhoanna imagines#jhoanna scenarios#girl group smut#girl group x reader#girl group imagines#girl group scenarios#girl group x female reader#girl group x fem reader#ppop smut#g!p idol#g!p jhoanna
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Adding my thoughts here. For me, it’s important to note that Harry practically told us through clues that the album could make more sense if you listen to it in reverse order. It honestly blew my mind.
While it might seem like an epilogue, I think LOML works as a prologue to me. Like @lurkinginacoolway said above, it’s Harry showing that there were parts of the relationship (or their lives as a whole) that definitely weren’t the healthiest or the prettiest thing to see or experience, but they had to endure all of it. It was like a flashback of him, thinking that it could’ve been the end at that point (within the context of LOML), hence the tone (closure; saying goodbye).
In the end though, they found themselves back to each other, ready to start all over again. In the next track, Boyfriends, we hear a rewinding effect with the line “fool, you’re back at it again” played backwards. It’s him putting himself back in that position of falling back into something he thought had ended (LOML). With all the pain they tried to work through after everything else that had happened at that point—trying to navigate those emotions and continue loving despite the hardships—it’s perfectly normal to have doubts about whether you’re doing the right thing by going back to that position.
Continuing through the next tracks, you’ll notice the progression: from him reaching out (“don’t you know that I am right here”), to trying to enjoy the moment, to ‘goofing around’ and learning to accept that they really are probably endgame no matter what. There’s discovering new parts of himself or their relationship, resolving issues they never got to discuss before, finding solace with each other, enjoying the newfound peace they’ve embraced, and fully accepting that this is it—he never wants to let go and loves him with all of his entirety.
So yep, Harry’s House is an overall happy, love-letter-like album for me. LOML as a track sums up the rocky stages of their relationship (in the band, with each other, and within themselves), but it was just a mere prologue to the beginning of the real story—the one where they’ve matured, healed from the bruises of their past, and decided to continue loving each other anyway.
Or maybe that’s just me.
(Also, HH’s album cover being him looking at the ceiling of upside down house + the trailer being reversed are such big clues to me, idk. And I cannot stress enough how important it is to me to hear the reversed album start from “baby, you were the love of my life” and end with “you know I love you, baby”)
yesterday i read a tweet that says "loml is a closure goodbye to their past" and now your anon pointing out to the 28 seconds long outro—
loml being the final track with an outro just hurt me a bit but im gonna pretend its about the queen elizabeth for my own sanity idc! 🤝🤝🎉🎉
I don't see how people see it as a breakup song. But I also just don't care anymore.
#harry’s house#harry’s house album analysis#i’m too passionate with this album lol#the way it blew my mind when I realized#they’re still together#and harry wants us to know that#lyric analysis
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chapter 3 - playing dress up
in which ... soc and greaser worlds collide and rosie's not welcome in either.


dallas winston x curtis sister ! oc
wc: 809
warnings: none
you really got me: masterlist
i spot randy and his crowd from the diner huddled near the pool tables, looking as out of place as their madras. before i can look away, he catches my eye and raises his hand in recognition. dally's watching me like a hawk as i give a small wave back, my posture automatically straightening.
"well hello to our favorite waitress." randy drawls walking over to me as his eyes flicker over my dress. though his next words are a bit more pointed. "didn't know you hung around this part of town."
"i could say the same to you," i respond back, keeping my tone light. the vodka cranberries are working their magic, making the edges of the room softer and my smile come easier than it normally would. before randy can get another word out, i can already feel dally's presence behind me, and his arm wraps around my shoulder lazily.
"oh dally, this is my friend from work-" i start, but he cuts me off, not taking his eyes off the soc.
"yeah, i know who you are."
i suddenly feel like the biggest idiot in the world, letting my alcohol-induced confidence blind me to the obvious tension. randy's looking between me and dally, obviously putting pieces together.
"c'mon rosie, let's get you another drink," dally mutters, his fingers digging into my shoulder as he steers me away. the look he gives randy could freeze hell over.
"wha.. what was that about?" i ask once we're far enough away, stumbling over my words a bit.
dally just shakes his head. "nothing you need to worry about. just stick with me, alright?"
but as the night wears on and the drinks keep coming, dally gets pulled into a poker game, and i find myself drifting through the crowd. the music's gotten louder, the room hazier, and i've lost track of how many times buck's refilled my glass.
i’m shoulder to shoulder with the other buck’s patrons, swaying a bit while gulping down from my now fourth vodka cranberry. dally’s snaking his way through the crowd, and i can already tell he’s three sheets to the wind from how his eyes narrow in at me, a bit hazy but as intense as they always are.
dally looks mildly disgusted at the middle-aged regular whose hands are sliding down towards my hips, and he moves himself between us, shoving him off roughly.
“yeah, she ain’t interested man. or legal.”
the man grumbles off like he’s had this exchange often enough, but dally’s eyes are fixed on me now.
“i don’t need you to rescue me like i’m some damsel, you know. i can handle myself.” my tone is even, like i’m trying to puff up my chest.
“sure look like a damsel. and don’t act like it’s an accident, you coming here like that. you've been doin' this all night.” dally gestures loosely to my outfit, giving me another rough once-over.
“what’s that ‘sposed to mean?” my eyes narrow.
“c’mon. ain’t it obvious? you waltz in here looking like you belong at a country club, talkin to these guys all proper. you like playin’ fuckin’ dress up, rosie?”
i feel a pit in my stomach, trying to keep my tone firm. “it’s my mother’s dress.”
“your mother wasn’t no damn debutante, so don’t go actin’ like it.”
his words take all the air out of the room. i can’t help the tears pricking at my eyes, but i’m not about to make a fool of myself, so my gaze flickers up to the ceiling to keep them from streaming down my face.
“don’t you dare talk about my mother like that.”.
he knows he’s gone too far, i can see the flash of regret in his eyes, how his gaze falters before it hardens once again. because dally doesn’t back down, even when he knows he’s sinking himself deeper and deeper. he gets more brash, like my offense is egging him on.
“like what? it’s the truth. you think the little outfits and the makeup and batting your eyes at the socs at work makes you one of them? can’t fool me, rosie.” he’s sizing me up with his eyes, like he can see right through me.
“i’m not trying to fool anyone, dallas. this is who i am.” i snap back, more in an effort to convince myself than anyone else.
dally scoffs coldly. “right. i know you think you’re better than this place. think you're better than me, yeah? you’re just as fucked up as the rest of us.”
there's nothing i can say back. regardless, he doesn't let me. he gives me one last piercing look before he disappears back into the crowd.
a.n. don't know how realistic it is for socs to be at buck's but let's just suspend our disbelief for a moment here. i thought it would be interesting to explore this because the outsiders never really touches on womens' places here beyond cherry and the greaser girls. i was curious what it would look like for a girl with a 'greaser' socioeconomic background who tries to separate herself from that lifestyle, and how female social roles at the time would help her 'code switch' more easily.. idk if anyone is intrigued by that. but that's kinda the underlying plotline beyond rosie/dally that i want to continue.
also thought it would be necessary to mention this is PRE CANON… obv dont think rosie would be hanging around randy during/after the events of the story.
taglist:
@mrsdillonx @hailpacino @magefelixir @jujuheartz13 @coastershells @r0seb100d @awsomeemochick @mattdillonlvr69
#socgfwriting#dallas winston x reader#dallas winston x oc#dallas winston x y/n#dallas winston#matt dillon#the outsiders#dallas winston hcs#dallas winston headcanons#sodapop curtis#ponyboy curtis#darry curtis
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[ IMAGINE ] : Imagine you're a stunt coach (archery) and you have private lessons with Richard Armiage. You know each other from the set of "Robin Hood" and now you're working together on "The Hobbit".
[ A/N ] : The photos do not belong to me. English is not my native language. Don't hesitate to use this idea in your story.
[ ( ´ ꒳ ` ) ♡ ] : The first time I met Richard, it wasn’t exactly a meet-cute. Picture this: Sherwood Forest, the set of Robin Hood, and me, covered in mud, trying to coax a particularly stubborn arrow out of a bale of hay. The rain was coming down sideways, and I was starting to question my life choices. Suddenly, a voice, smooth as velvet but with a hint of amusement, piped up, “Having a bit of a crisis, aren't we?” I turned around, mud-caked and glowering, to see Richard Armitage, looking impossibly handsome even in the pouring rain, standing there with a half-amused, half-sympathetic look. He was holding a perfectly dry umbrella, which, I admit, made me feel even more miserable. “Just peachy,” I grumbled, wrenching the arrow free with a satisfying thwack. “And you are?” He chuckled, a sound that somehow managed to cut through the storm. “Richard. And I believe I'm about to make a fool of myself trying to learn archery.” “Well, you’ve come to the right place,” I said, gesturing at myself with a muddy hand. “You're lookin' at your head coach, your arrow-slingin' sensei, the queen of the quiver, and... yeah, I'm a girl! Surprise! I know, I know, you were probably expecting a gruff, beard-stroking, totally serious dude who only speaks in grunts and talks about bows like they're his long-lost children... Well, I'm here to shatter that stereotype like a poorly-placed arrow on a target! I'm Bathsheba... " He grinned, and I swear, the clouds parted for a moment to give him a spotlight. “Then I shall be in your capable, possibly muddy, hands.” That was the beginning. Over the next few months, we spent hours together on the archery range. I taught him the basics, the stance, the draw, the release. He, in turn, taught me about the intricacies of playing a charming villain and how to make a convincing brooding expression (something I apparently needed help with). We'd argue about the best way to hold a bow, debate the merits of different arrowheads, and share stories about our lives. He’d tease me about my aversion to technology, and I'd tease him about his fondness for perfectly ironed shirts. We developed a sort of easy camaraderie, a comfortable rhythm of banter and respect.
So, fast forward a few years, and The Hobbit comes along. When they were casting for Thorin Oakenshield, I knew instantly Richard would be perfect, from his amazing height and stoic appearance. And when I got the call to be the archery consultant again, the first thing I did was request that Richard and I work together again. Luckily, they agreed! Now, here we were, back on the range, preparing for the epic journey ahead. The only difference was that, this time, the stakes felt a little higher. Maybe it was the pressure of the iconic character (which was beloved by fans everywhere and Rich would need to hit it out of the park, while also embodying some of the best archery skills. I'd spent weeks pouring over the script, agonizing over Thorin's archery scenes. If they weren’t done right, they could break the immersion. The responsibility weighed on me. I hoped that he knew how important this was...) the sprawling landscapes, or the sheer amount of time we were spending together. Whatever it was, Richard seemed… different. He was more focused, more intense, but also…flustered. The first few lessons were a disaster of awkwardness. He’d struggle with the draw, and the arrow would wobble in the most comedic fashion. I, of course, would start laughing. Then the actor would blush beet-red. I would have to stop the lesson, and we'd end up talking about some random thing to recover. "Alright, Richard, keep your back straight, your stance firm, and your eye on the target," I'd say, trying to sound like a seasoned pro. He'd nod seriously, his jaw set, and then his gaze would drift. Not to the target, mind you, but to me. His eyes would linger, and a faint flush would creep up his neck. He would then, with the most distracting drawl say: "You… you are distracting me." "Am I?" I'd ask, feigning innocence, though my heart would do a little flutter dance. "What am I doing?" "Your... your presence is... unsettling," he'd stammer, and his ears would turn bright red. I started trying a new tactic. "I'm just here to make sure you don't accidentally shoot yourself, or anyone else on set," I said. "This is a job, Richard, nothing more." "Bathsheba, I need a break," he said during one sparring session, his voice laced with frustration. He rested his bow against the hay bale, the tension in his shoulders slowly releasing. "Maybe a little bit of distance would do us both some good." "Good idea," I agreed, my voice sounding a little too eager, even to my own ears. I walked to the water cooler, trying to put some space between us, not just physically, but emotionally. But I knew, it wouldn't work. As he approached me to take a sip of water, he kept his gaze locked on mine. We were both silent for a long moment, the only sound the gentle breeze rustling through the trees. I could feel the thrum of my own heart, echoing the rhythm of the bowstring being pulled back. "You know," he began softly, his voice barely above a whisper, "this archery thing… it's becoming a metaphor, isn’t it?" My gaze snapped up to meet his. "A metaphor for what, Richard?" I asked, my voice a little more breathy than I would have liked. He took a step closer, his nearness stealing the air from my lungs. "For us, Bat. The way we circle around each other, drawing closer, then pulling back. The precision we try to achieve, the aim, and the way we seem to consistently miss our mark." I didn't deny it. The truth was, the archery range had become a battleground of sorts, a place where we tested the limits of our self-control, where our unspoken desires were played out in every stance, every glance, every near miss. The bow and arrow, the ultimate tools for directing focus and power, had become the very thing that made Richard's focus falter. "And what does it mean?" I whispered, my voice a mere breath. He reached out, his fingers tracing the curve of my jaw, sending shivers down my spine. "I'm not sure yet," he admitted, his voice raw and filled with uncertainty. "But I know... I don't want to keep missing."
#richard armitage#richard armitage x you#richard armitage imagines#richard armitage imagine#richard armitage x reader#thorin#thorin oakenshield#thorin x oc#thorin x reader#thorin x y/n#richard armitage x y/n#hobbit imagine#hobbit imagines#hobbit#the hobbit
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Orange Flash, honestly this design out of the bunch is my favourite and overall gave me the idea of how to continue the rest. Using the names to inspire what I think the outfits could look like to differ from the original and how I can use it to give them a more interesting personality that isn't just the bully archetype.
Personally, I want to identify them as genderfluid since I've seen both male and female actors playing this role and thought it would be a fun way to explain it in universe.
In the previous post that explains everyone in my au you'll see that Flash here works in science. They make fireworks that they store and connect to their skates, so when they need that attention or want the attention on them they'll skate about and let the fireworks do the talking for them.
As they are the smallest of the group, they aren't taken as seriously by the others so they try to make it up by being the loudest, like a small dog. Though, they are the nicest of the group, actually enjoying the company of the Electrics, Coaches and Freights. Heck, they even worry over their safety but don't usually say anything about it in worry of their group (Green Arrow) teasing them more.
If they aren't racing or doing science, you can find them stretching a lot. Honestly it's smart, they're a racer and they need to look after their body so they don't hurt themselves. Flash will even pose and hold that pose longer than they should, just because they don't know when to stop.
When not racing, they hang about the back of the group being awkward when it comes to bullying the other groups. It's not that they can't do it, they try to do it, it's just if who they are trying to bully tells them no they will hesitate.
They can also get distracted easily and zone out a lot, mainly because they're in deep thought about something. Thankfully though, Flash can be pulled out of it, just be wary that they might try to hit you in surprise.
Also, they might be the nicest but do not be fooled... This is a chaos gremlin. If they see a fight, they will be the one hyping up the fights to keep going.
#my art#sketches#art#starlight express#stex fanart#stex 2024#stex revival#stex london 2024#stex appreciation month#stex orange flash#orange flash
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#today at work I found out#a seventh grader at my school is pregnant#seventh#grade#her teacher has been bending over backwards trying somehow to help her for months#and if her family finds out she's going to vanish and we'll never see her again#idek#social services is so bound up in red tape they don't help us#seventh fucking grade#the system just keeps failing on us#and more fool us for trying to make it work#tw teen pregnancy#tw domestic violence#idk I always said I didn't want to end up at a school for rich kids#and I stand by that#but how do you survive working in these places and not turning into rage personified
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I made a few new wax seal stamps out of clay (like the ones I did for my worldbuilding stuff forever ago), this time just of random symbols that I thought might look good done in the style of painting over the raised part of the wax or etc. :0c Some of them aren't carved deep enough to really show up that well, but overall they worked okay for being clay lol
#wax seal#crafts#wax stamp#stationery#Window one is kind of stinky.. I was imagining like a swirly night sky sort of looking thing so it would be a surreal contrast of a night#sky with a window in the middle that shows a daytime sky - but the silver and purple wax kind of mixed too much together#with the black and it just looks very plain black and not all that starry or anything hjbhj.. Of course the eye is probably my favorite#since all I ever do is draw eyes and still like eye imagery for some reason. The four leaf clover is very lumpy and skrunkty but also it wa#the smallest in size out of all of them so was easier to do multiple stamps of just to try it out.#The heart with eyes wax is actually more swirly in person. I wanted it to be a mix of light pink and red and white. and the wax#did kind of all blend together but in person you can definitely see MORE of the intentional swirlyness. in this it just looks plain pink.#I was going to do one eye in the heart but it looked weird. but now two seems too plain. i could have done 3?? in a pattern.. hmm#alas. I wish I could make actual metal ones. With the clay i have to paint them in a thin layer of olive oil before stamping because#otherwise the wax just kind of gets stuck in the grooves of the clay and then you can't pull it up. Very wacky ''unprofessional'' looking#set up where I'm hot gluing circles of sculpey clay to short stumps of a wooden dowel that I sawed apart with a serrated bread knife#and then using an old paintbrush to put olive oil on them whilst holding a spoon over a yankee candle flame hjbjh#ANYWAY.. I think if I were middle class/rich/etc. this would be one of the main things in my crafting room is like.. SO many colors#of wax. and all different custom made stamps designed by me. which could be much more elaborate in actual metal.. muahaha.... >:)c#RHGghhh... I actually don't want to talk much about it since (this is probably just my Obsessed With My Own World Artist Delusions) I#think I have a really cool idea for a game that could genuinely be successful if i ever get to make it and I don't want to give#everything away and spoil the whole plot/concept in hopes that one day I can actually do it - BUT - a game that I'd like to make after the#visual novel I'm making now has partially to do with the main character working as a sort of writer/scribe/artist assistant in an elven#city (set in my world/with my worldbuilding species and versions of elves and etc) and I was thinking of maybe incorporating#somehow being able to collect little writing type items like these like.. you can get different wax seal patterns or pens or etc. when I do#stuff like this in Real Life it always makes me think of that like.. ouh... this is good research.. what it shall be like to be a littol#elf collecting wax seals and such.. indeed... GRR i need to be finished with my current game NOWWW... i MUST work on other#thingss... aughh... ANYWAY.. yay. accomplishment to do One Single Thing other than Sit In The Summer Heat And Rot#though also hilarious as this was the first cool-ish day that was below 80F in a while hgvh#waking up like 'wow.. i actually feel okay today?? like I could do things?? how mysterious.. I wonder why..?? :0'' Its The Weather You Fool#Tis Always The Weather
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Still alive, writing and editing a lot and even drawing (mostly dragon sketches at work). Seasons has some new chapters now... I saw something earlier about writing being something you can hone by doing lots of reading and writing. I wonder when that will apply to me. I've read a lot of books this year. I have almost hit my goal of 90 books, and while a couple are nonfiction and half are comics, the rest are novels. I expect that to increase again, now that I'm going back to the library. (I stopped with the bed bug scare.) Then I'm setting aside time each week to write. I work on stories at work, even if it's mostly just planning. (My laptop is falling apart so I just gave up taking it to work.) Yet here I am, still the same idiot who doesn't have anything appealing enough for most people to read. I can't get 99% of my followers interested. Sales of Geckos have dropped to next-to-nothing. Nothing else I put out there matters either. The fault lies with me. I'm not good enough. After having this stupid blog for 12 years, I want to delete it. I want to delete my twitter account. I want to delete every single account and shut up for good. There is nothing I can offer. My writing is a good hobby for me. I can get pats on the head for doing a little thing for myself. Aww, look at the cute little dumbass adult doing wittle storwies!!! Isn't that silly!!! They're not good, but he's having fun during the process. Too bad he hasn't figured out that not even 39 more years of practice can save what he's handing out.
#people lied about “once you have confidence nothing can take it away”#nah that shit can get killed when you're a fucking pitiful fool like me!#until the day when I actually make something that's important to anyone this is just me being a child-brained idiot scribbling words down#I used to think I was semi-decent... I did before Rascal but figured Rascal was inferior to my usual work#Then I felt bad about my writing bc of discouragement and locked my work up#felt a surge of confidence a couple of weeks before I started Seasons tho#then had some confidence after that until 2023 (lots of bad shit happened that year)#it evaporated quickly but I tried to maintain some#and now it's just like... me trying to pretend and “fake it till you make it” has never worked for me#but let's be real: the more I showed I liked myself the more bothersome that was for some people I was close to#and it's better to tear me down than lift me up#so I guess the problem is that I just don't belong in the writing world with anyone else#I'll never be good enough and I'm frankly too mentally fucking delayed to have figured it out (like everything else)#hahahahaha people keep telling me I'm autistic and my brother is autistic and my parents refused a diagnosis for me when the Dr mentioned i#and here I am probably too autistic to have ever figured out a damn thing except that I'm pretty good at reading and liking stuff!#but not skilled at anything else#just a reader and worthless as anything else#oh and I guess crocheting but I want none of you to have that part of me ever again
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dysgraphic artiƨts risɘ UP!!!!!
#raise your pencils!!!! and erasers. to fix the backwards letters 😔#sorry still thinking about my weirdness with my art professors. yknow a lot of em have been really pushing us as#students to make our personal identities a major part of like our 'brand' as artists#which. well from an art history major perspective thats a very contentious and nuanced topic. i love a lot of artists who live this way#and i think its great seeing my peers who focus on identity thrive. but also as an fine arts major (double major fool LOL)#i keep getting pushed by teachers into like. specific '____ artist' identities???#specificaly woman artist. which is a little bizarre because im a bit fat and a bit gnc so im generally like. ungendered? in day-to-day life#(which doesnt actually matter to me directly that much honestly LOL people tend to view me as like. buddy? buddy or pal.)#(not man. not woman. not anything human. sometimes i remind people of a beloved dog. which. hkdsahjk thats its own can of worms)#(a can of worms that also doesnt matter much to me directly because im a wannabe furry who chose to be the dog when playing house as a kid)#(LOL so um. well. theres that) but yeah i dunno i dont really consider myself a woman artist. its been. shockingly (and sometimes luckily?)#irrelevant to most of my life and experiences and art (although dont get me wrong misogyny is very real and very present) so i dont#have a whole lot to say about it from an art perspective. you could also call me all kinds of things. a queer artist. a mixed race artist#again technically correct. some aspects more visible in my work than others. but also very technical. i focus on race a lot in in my#art historical work but i dunno how much my drawings have to say. except that i keep making too many mixed ocs LOL#i dunno i just think my professors gotta focus that energy away from tokenizing me and over to supporting like actual#capital W Woman artists capital Q Queer artists capital A Artists of Colour who are doing far more interesting things than I#far more thought out and engaged in these topics directly. i just kind of stumble into my art blindly and confused <3#sorry that was a long tangent WHAT IM SAYING Is despite all that: i do consider myself a capital D Dysgraphic artist#i think its an unmovable constant of my art and the way i draw and the way my hands move. the untrained eye doesnt seem to be as aware#of it directly. but those who are familiar can probably see it. the dysgraphia LOL if not just from whenever i write a letter or number#half of them are busted and frantically fixed HDKJSDJDS but its in all my art. if u can see it <3 ive been trying to embrace it#dygraphic artists raise your pencils indeed!! and throw away the eraser!!! make the legibility of your words everyone elses problem!!!#what does that say? what is that sketch? none of my business! none of your business!! its the business of my hand and the pencil alone#motor skill and spatial issues take the wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel
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I am sorry you've been harrassed by terfs, but the way you are currently trying to weed them out seems a bit misguided. As in, the vast majority of terfs are in fact ok with big hairy CIS men. The so-called men they are actively hating are trans women/transfem people. So by acting like you proclaiming your love to big hairy dudes is the best terf-repellant you seem to be missing the point at best.
i'd love to actually respond to your concerns or whatever the hell it was that you were trying to convey with this ask, but it has almost no basis in reality so i literally cant.
thats the one statement on how effective i think the banners are that has left my queue so far. which is: i hope it works but also have literally 2 other backup plans already in case it does not. i dont know why youre calling that "acting like [me] proclaiming [my] love to big hairy dudes is the best terf-repellant", because thats wildly off target from what i have actually said at any point. everything else youve said is also pretty much either dead wrong or ignorant, so im getting the feeling that you not reading has been a problem for a while.
(ive also not mentioned terfs this entire time--ive been talking about radfems and using the word radfems. they're not the same thing although there's large overlap. so like. thats strike two for zero reading comprehension, buddy. cause you are literally not talking about the group im talking about and youre also inventing whole new sentences that i didnt say.)
#obviously reading ability does not equal intelligence. more about the wild overconfidence of someone who didnt bother to check if they#even read a statement correctly#i misread things all the time which is why i also dont barge into strangers inboxes to insult THEIR intelligence#because i know theres always a chance im completely wrong and i dont want to be an asshole#anon you could give that a try#like what am i even supposed to say to this ? i dont think its the best terf repellant and have never said that ?#but if you know so much about them go ahead and tell us your suggestions for how to get rid of them#im skeptical that they will make any sense at all but im always open to new ideas#(feels nice to be condescended to doesnt it ? i assume thats why you were condescending to me so im returning the favor <3)#anyway other than this fool thank you all for the supportive asks im glad youre enjoying the banners ! so am i :D#way too soon to tell if theyre working (no radfems yet but i usually get a wave of them every couple months so i wont jump to conclusions)#but just as blog decor theyre already great#there are many many asks though and i dont enjoy when this blog is less fiber craft than other stuff#so im reading each one and appreciating them but please dont be upset that im not responding to them or posting them#i have the first 2 i got in my queue and then i got like 20 more so
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Also the fact that he's crouching with his hands on his knees is so cute to me for some reason?? He does this in another episode too - the one where Chakotay finds a symbol on an unknown planet...it's just so adorable to me. He could just lean down but no. Also of course his fingers are spread again - GOTTA utilize the whole hand whenever you do ANYTHING (if you're Tuvok)
#anyway. he's so pretty I'm gonna bite my arm off spongebob style.#Tuvok in the Maquis: I'm gonna spy on these criminals but also?? I'm gonna try out a new eyeshadow look.#Tuvok calling Neelix 'sir'....one and only time v_v treasure it Neelix#Do these replicators make clothing? (yes.) Will they make me a uniform like yours~?? (No. They most CERTAINLY will NOT. <3)#<- also Neelix is naked and Tuvok brought him a towel in a way that was very theatric but also very 'lets dry you off'#like...not just handing it to him#I love Neelix's scrappier early seasons vibe <3<3#I also like whenever he was like 'GOD these Starfleet people are a bunch of BABIES...eat the damn leola root. It's good for you~!'#I FROGOT KES WAS HELD CAPTIVE BY THE KAZON???? KES ARE YOU OK???#Kes: I'm told I'm too curious...it's my worst quality~ <- and then the writers never let her out of sickbay#In my ideal world Kes & Neelix are like brother and sister (harkens back to Neelix's lost family and gives a slightly more sympathetic#reason for his overprotectiveness which would now not be romantic jealousy but still something he had to let go of for them to truly be#friends) and also Kes tried every work station aboard Voyager...every episode she's somewhere new but her MAIN job is still in sickbay#Kes is in a pseudo cult and she said nu uh I believe in a different pseudo cult and I love that for her#Kes: I don't want to be dependent on the caretaker!! (reasonable) Our people have magical mind's abilities that allow us- (ok Kes)#just bc she was right doesn't mean it's not a WILD thing to think HEhehehe#SNRKEHEHEHE HARRY STOP TOM CAN'T TAKE THIS#Tom: How can I let down the only friend I've got~? / Harry: Friend? What makes you think I'm your friend~? / Tom: -sobbing into his pillow-#Neelix saying 'Well...the fool needs company!' ok <3 I'm twirling my hair a little....got a bit of rizz...#literally an hour ago he was willing to leave them all for dead and now look at him#OUG hTom Paris the racism....ough the racism...not even the fantasy alien kind.......oaaau ugh oh it hurts the real world racism.....#TOM NO STOP TALKING!!! TO M NO THE RACISM - TOM PARIS !! TOOOOM!!!!! <- walter white screaming meme#(remembers its Harry's FIRST mission) a different kind of pain....#Janeway and Tuvok holding hands: We're so fucking doomed. This is a terrible position and we have to do what's morally right but#by doing this we're going to be trapped here - maybe for the rest of our lives and not just us but the entire crew. But we have to#do this horrible thing BECAUSE we're good people.#<- not enough attention is paid (including by me bc I forgor) to the fact that Tuvok was with Janeway when she made that decision#and backed her up...just a sad little moment to themselves#OOF Tom...three for three on the racism....TOM#Neelix's sales pitch...yeeAAAH~!!
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Heartbreaking! My suspicions abt Wagstaff having some fucked up timeline shit going on were correct and now I have to scramble to come up with an excuse to not have to completely overhaul my entire swap au (it won't be hard my excuse is that it's an au so I can do what I want)
#rat rambles#starve posting#tbf the only two it super matters for is wx and wilson since theyre the maxwell and charlie of this au#but theyre also yknow. extremely important. so even trying to adapt for this would be a fools erand at this point#on the bright side this gives me a lot more to work with in terms of webber's whole deal#basically it gives me more leeway to actually make an explanation even tho its going to be a different one#I might still use the camera tho poor lil farmer boy got stuck in the camera 😔#well not that exactly but it could be a useful catalyst to explain how he ended up trapped between realities#and it being a camera makes it a Lot easier to justify how he got close enough to it for stuff to go that wrong#one thing that could be fun is if I let wagstaff keep some semblance of an actual role in this au instead of being a corpse the whole time#basically use him to make some bullshit justification for the camera still existing in some form even if its a different one#actually.... I wonder if the camera is similar to the codex in some ways#maybe it's possible for any object that directly records the existence of Them and the fuel to act as a gateway?#it would probably have more specific requirements and be pretty rare but that could be a fun idea#I could definitely work with a concept like that to give wagstaff more to do and flesh out webber's backstory a bit#so basically the newest animation both gives a lot for me to work with and also killed my grandma so its a messy situation
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I just think that the main barrier to being good at a lot of different things isn't about that you couldn't be good at it, it's about time, and it's about affording equipment and materials
It's gonna be a lot harder to find the time for even one hobby if you're working full time, and make no mistake, there's a real problem of getting what you need to actually work on stuff
#that's why if I ever did make videos about carving; I think I'd try to stick to just my knife and my gouge; cause that's 90% of what I use#one carving knife and a medium sized flat gouge will do a lot for you; I like my skew and such; but those two are what I need#I even have a feeling you could get by with an exacto (not nearly as good; but the point would be budget)#not sure what you'd use for the gouge#but if I did do videos I might look into it; would be kind of nice to be able to say 'it's not what I'd do; but he's a broke technique'#like... part of why I would only want to put out free stuff and no like... paid courses (which are fine)#is cause I'm used to being broke; that's who I want to help out; the poor fools like me#cause even people I like with woodworking on youtube who are about doing it on a budget... they still say to drop a fair bit of mint on it#and that's more for furniture making; but... love to do that some day too#and you know how I talk about stuff you know making it easier to do other stuff; there's a lot I think I could tackle with my knife#like... I'd like to once again kind of challenge myself if I did get into that#like what can I make with a dirt cheap saw; an exacto; and whatever I find for a gouge#how cheap can I make this to do?#And can I make it something they can do even if they don't have space?#like can I make it so they could do it over carpet if need be so long as they vacuum?#how unideal can I make things and still have it work? cause I think a lot of us are in very unideal circumstances#and to an extent who I most want to teach are the people who are like I was; in many ways still am#no really money making skills; trouble working for whatever reason; just kind of screwed#and I want to be able to say 'I can't promise you this'll work; but I've made it simple enough maybe you can try it'#'and I'm not saying you'll make money; but at least it's something; and at least it might be fun'#like... I can't recommend woodburing; that kit cost at least $100; think more like $200#that's not cash people have just lying around#I get that even asking to spend like... $5 on a saw; $5 on a blade; $5 on a gouge; and $5 on wood... even if I got it that cheap#I get that sometimes $20 is a big ask#I want to be able to say 'I'm not telling you it'll be your masterpiece; or you might not want to upgrade some of this stuff'#'but here's how you can go to some damn mega corp hardware store and come out with enough stuff to do this with little cash'#hard enough to get started on stuff; I want to lower the barrier to entry to as close to zero as I can#course... that means me getting more of my shit together; mean me building furniture and stuff#can carve at this point of course; though haven't in some time cause gotta get that commission out#not saying I make amazing stuff either; or that I know if I can teach at all
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