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One time I was ringing up this sweet older gentleman at the sex shop. I no longer remember what he was buying, just that he was in his fifties and radiated a bumbling gentleness that I had enjoyed.

He was chatting with me as he pulled out cash to pay, “You know, I always thought it would be so much easier to meet ladies. But then you meet a girl and you start chatting and they’re never as impressed that I know Captain Kirk’s middle name as I expected them to be.”

I took his payment with a grin and said, “I dunno, Tiberius is an amazing middle name, it was their loss.”

He looked at me with utter awe, radiating a disbelieving joy that I’d parried his quip so effortlessly with Trekkie lore. “If I were thirty years younger…” he’d said, absolutely delighted.

I didn’t have the heart to tell him I was gay to boot, so I just beamed and wished him a good day. He went out the door with a spring in his step and I still smile to think about it.

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It turns out everyone was right and those dudes on the enterprise really ARE gay for each other so I’ve been drawing them nonstop (I have irreversible brain damage)

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every now and then I go back and read my homoerotic bridge troll story, and it's always like wait, this is kinda good

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I hate how people will look at popular indie artists who had one or two songs go viral on TikTok and start making fun of anybody who listens to them. "Oh you listen to Lemon Demon, Will Wood, Jack Stauber, Glass Animals, and Mother Mother? Tsk, don't you know that is stupid TikTok neurodivergent white transmasc preteen music? It's so mid and bad you should listen to real music–" you are a pit of misery

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realised I'd never posted this silly doodle anywhere so here it is, entitled: the 'T' in 'James T Kirk' stands for tits off (or transgender, your call)

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what is HAPPENING

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You know what, despite the horrors, at least there's still butches.

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A while back my pharmacist saw my deadname on my profile and accidentially called it out, he corrected and deleted my deadname from the system so only my preferred name shows up now. There was a crowd of people behind me, so as he hands over the pills he apologized, in equal tone and volume as when he called my deadname and lied saying it's been a long day and he didn't mean to call out -his own- name. I quietly told him it was fine and he didn't need to do that for my sake.

His response: "No, it's my name now."

I went to the pharmacist yesterday, his nametag is my deadname. He informed me he's immigrating and in the process he's changed his first name to my deadname to have an English sounding name. That's why he's now able to get a reprint of his nametag to be my deadname. And repeated, with the intense seriousness of someone who is going to die on this hill: "It's mine now. Not yours. I'm taking." His tone indicated that decision is final.

Bro literally deadnamed me once, and has committed to flat out stealing my deadname. It's his now. Legally. Officially. I over heard his co-workers call him by the name.

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“Why Mr Spock, you almost make me believe in miracles,” is living in my head.

"If I let go of a hammer on a planet that has a positive gravity, I need not see it fall to know that it has in fact fallen... Gentlemen, human beings have characteristics just as inanimate objects do. It is impossible for Captain Kirk to act out of panic or malice. It is not his nature." Rotating in my mind.

"You? At his side, as if you've always been there and always will." Forever thinking about it.

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ive literally been saying this

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they're eepy

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figuring out his inscrutable face

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I love a character raised to be a weapon as much as the next guy. But what really gets me is a character raised to be a shield. Who can’t fathom being needed—or even being wanted— beyond keeping others safe. Who believe they are alive only to insure someone doesn’t die. no matter the cost. Characters who self-sacrifice not because they think they deserve it, but because no one else does deserve it, and it’s their job to protect.

Characters who’ve been told that’s why your important. Your worth something because this other person/ thing is important, and you are here solely to keep them safe.

Bonus points if it’s not a legitimate job they’ve been given. Maybe at one point it was, but now that they are free from it, they haven’t given up that mentality. No one is forcing or asking them to do this, but they need to. They need to in order to be deserving.

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Doctor McCoy is actually a wonderful character.

The reason why is that he is not a paragon of virtue. He is not perfect. He is miserable in a utopia. Nonetheless, he is good.

Leonard H. McCoy is a fundamentally decent, altruistic person. He may not take bullshit, and he may speak his mind about everything, but at least he's honest. He's honest, and open, and endlessly compassionate. He has his own opinions, and he's definitely crustier than the other people he's around, but he's supremely human.

For a long time, I have tended to consider Spock my favorite character from TOS, but more and more, I think it might be Bones now. Bones is so absolutely integral to making that show as good as it is. You've gotta have Bones.

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