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Ya know when people told me "when you're finally safe enough that you can leave survival mode and start to let go of and process your c-ptsd/trauma things are probably going to get really, really bad before they slowly start to get better" I thought that was reasonable. I did not understand that by "things are going to get bad" they meant "you're going to find yourself in the worst mental state of your entire life, but dw, that means it's working" and tbh I simply wish someone had been more clear.

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your friends think about you, y'know? they smile and think about goofy shit you've said. they pray for you. they smell your perfume in a shop and think of you fondly. they tell anecdotes involving you to strangers and friends. they remember the way you hug or bite or high five and want to repeat it with you. they love you. i promise.

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Set course for Delta Vega.

1 x 04 - Where No Man Has Gone Before

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really funny everytime when cis people get super confused that im just a dude even tho im dressed full femme and have a beard. just a guy. they act like theres a math problem they’re not getting. and they dont even know i have a pussy. that fact might kill them for realsies

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this is so scary. how long has he been here.

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must write something about spock just *observing* jim, noticing his habits bad and good. like the way he kind of waits for everyone to finish eating first to finish his own food (as if hes waiting for someone to say "im still hungry" and then share what he has. spocks sure jim doesnt even notice hes doing it). like how he always faces death as if it was something he already knew intimately (he does, spock learns later). how he likes to sleep with a leg dangling on the side of the bed and is a *very light sleeper* (this is just something spock cataloged, doesnt mean anything. its just. a thing. a jim kirk thing), and so on and so forth. but slowly, spock realizes, hes finds himself falling in love with jim. no, not falling. but getting to the logical conclusion that, yeah, it makes sense hed be in love with jim. He Is The Man. spock shall be his Companion.

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when Spock calls him Jim ☺️

when Leonard calls him Bill 😚

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flower language has always been an intense source of disappointment for me

like, they all mean really generic things like “love” or “forever” or “i’m sorry” 

i thought you could combine flowers

like you could just send someone a bouquet and from the combination of hibiscus and posies and tulips they’d understand “the rebel leader is dead, rendezvous at the docks at 8, bring the dog, you will need lighter fluid and  a large tomato”

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i use flipaclip btw and i cant think of a caption my stomach hurts

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BIG SILLY?

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Hi. I finally finished the Spirk comic set to Johnny Cash's Hurt I have been working on for a month. If you want to, please enjoy and leave some nice words :) thank you.

CW for: blood, self-harm, spoilers for anything TOS, death

HURT

There is a part 2! Please consider reblogging and reading the whole comic :)

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I just found out it’s international nonbinary people’s day and no one has given me $10,000 just for existing yet?? Scared and confused

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Ch👏

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