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here i am thinking that i knew the full scope of your cleverness, yet you prove me wrong once again. fish, iām simultaneously so happy you shared this with me and furious that you didnāt until now!
bias aside, your works are so well written and amazing character studies. i look forward to being your beta reader from now on. i also look forward to using my shiny new journalism and communications degree to become your literary agent. i also look forward to being included in your acknowledgements.
i love you i love you i love you. so excited to read the rest of you works :) š©·āŗļø
you as my editor HEHE
consider this an introduction to my real-life best friend and sister: @maybellsinjune!
she has kindly offered (pushed hehehe) to be my beta reader. i couldnāt ask someone better to run through my work and give me suggestions :) she is also overqualified! she took many english classes in uni and is an avid reader! my favourite thing to ask her is āwhat are you reading now?ā and she will always say something new.
i ask everyone to please be kind to her. she has offered her time to read and give me suggestions, outputting writing much better than i could brain-child by myself.
anyway, maybellsinjune will make me a better writer and therefore there will be better fanfiction for everyone hehe.
#maybellsinjune#is my best friend#and like real life sister LMAO#we protected our peace too hard and now weāre stuck with each other#she is also now my beta reader!!#everyone please say hi and be kind to her#she is very important to me :)#she will also be the reason why i will be cross posting on ao3 too so thank her for that hehe#thank you my love :)
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I just really started to think about the Royal throuples Sibling Experiences, and it's just
Breha, an only child, grew up in a free world with a matriarchal society where she was placed as the girl/woman of the place
Bail, has three sisters, also grew up in a free world with a matriarchal society
Fox, has 200k brothers with million more well on the way, grew up in an isolated world where him and everybody else were brought up to be essentially Gym Bros with Extra Baggage ā¢ļø
I don't know what this all means. But it means something.
#no I do not accept breha having a sister bc the owk showrunners cannot read#bail has drank so much respect women juice during his life#like I really think that he started drinking it after coming out of the womb#fox. fox uh. has never even met a girl before he was given a gun and told to shoot but for realsies now#we can all just imagine how this all pans out#in my opinion? fox becomes a raging feminist real quick lmao#sw#tcw#Breha Organa#Bail Organa#Commander Fox#bail/breha/fox
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Also I can't believe we got baited soooo hard, everyone was like "omg Fyodor backstory?" only for Asagiri to turn around, give us more skk shenanigans, Sigma is actually alive and so is that guy too
#i call him that one guy affectionately tho#also one of my parents likes Dostoevsky books and i don't wanna have to explain to them that the one that got crushed under a helicopter#isn't the real life author lmao#(my sister also reads bsd)#but fr i knew bbg sigma was alive but yknow if dazai says it then it must be true š«”#bungou stray dogs#skk#bsd#soukoku#sigma bungou stray dogs#bsd fyodor
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this kitchen is going to be the death of me
#sims 4#the sims 4#ts4#the sims#gameplay#interiors#ive been trying to build them a new house for like the last 2 weeks no joke lmao#then i was like ok im copying my sister's real life houses floorplan cause i love it and its adorable#but i am struggling with the size and color scheme#so thats fun#ALSO HELLO#wtf did tumblr do to photoset coding that my last 2 posts are fucked up on my theme ughghghghgh
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For the ask game
au where brudick happens but they keep it VERY hidden to the point only cass knows but she thinks everyone does cause to her it's so obvious, so one day on their monthly family dinner that no one misses she ask's them why they have different rooms when they always go to eachother during the night. What do you think would happen? Would they deny deny deny? would they ask her what she's talking about? how does everyone else react to this revelation? do the other heroes find out? do they have opinions about it?
for the ask game!
I LOVE THIS SHIT. truly love Cass noticing things she shouldn't and assuming they're common knowledge, it's my fave flavor. this is such a fun idea-
so Cass knows from like, day one. and obviously she never says anything bc she assumes this is normal. in a way, the weird vibes between Bruce and Dick *are* normalized to the Batfam, everyone sort of. tiptoes around their weirdness (even if they don't know it's romantic) so Cass learns to do the same. she doesn't mention it bc no one mentions Bruce and Dick's bond, it's only ever acknowledged with shared looks. it takes years before she has the courage to ask and i think it's fun if she asks for an utterly mundane reason. like, Alfred makes a teasing remark about washing everyone's bedsheets and what a task that is, and Cass just drops it into conversation that Dick's bed is rarely used because he's always in Bruce's, so that must make it easier to handle.
Dick was try to play it off as a joke. just the mention would make Bruce go silent, for once finally not having a contingency plan on how to handle something. he and Dick were never supposed to happen in the first place, it was so accidental he's never considered the possibility of someone finding out bc they're so careful, though in hindsight, of course he should've known Cass would've figured it out. Dick would awkwardly laugh, try to say something to the effect of "very funny, but we're not *that* close haha" just to break the tension. Cass doesn't give in, though. she's not the best at social cues and doesn't understand the desperate look Dick is giving her, trying to get her to drop it. she pushes on and corrects Dick, insisting she doesn't judge them for it. Bruce would finally snap back into reality and give a more serious denial, quickly changing the conversation before anyone else can press.
the issue is, the minute Cass says it out loud, it becomes *so* obvious. especially to Tim, who has the biggest "oh my GOD" lightbulb moment of his life. there is no unseeing it. it takes him a while to process how he feels about it, the same with everyone else. for a week, there's an obvious tension. no one will say anything, but everyone knows and is trying to sit with it to decide how they feel. it's not a simple situation to feel one way or another about. that's when the questions start. Tim asks Dick questions, Alfred asks Bruce questions. how old was Dick, how did it happen, all the things Dick and Bruce have never wanted to have to answer. bc none of the questions have clean answers. it was a slow and gradual relationship. sure, they can say the first time they slept together, but that doesn't *really* count as the start of things. the start goes back to when Dick was still a teenager, probably underage. even if nothing happened, they both knew. and the way they dance around the questions makes that obvious.
most of the Batfamily i think, would begrudgingly accept it. it's too late to convince Bruce and Dick out of it now, and at the end of the day, Bruce and Dick will always choose each other over anyone else. fighting it just increases the chances of getting ostracized and pushed away by the two of them. feelings vary. i think Alfred would be the least happy about it because he was there when Dick was just a 10 yr old. everyone else only has memory of Dick as an adult, but Alfred watched Dick grow up, raised by Bruce, so he just can't shake that image. Tim sees it as one of those things you just have to accept about Batman, and carefully considers his role as Robin and makes sure he focuses on making sure Dick is happy/safe as well as Bruce. if nothing else, Tim will put his feelings aside to be the Emotional Support Child. Barbara would distance herself from the Batfam for a while just to sit on it, because she also saw Dick as a kid and it sits wrong with her. long talks with Dick convince her to let it go, but she does keep a *much* closer eye on Bruce to be sure this doesn't become a pattern. i think she'd enlist Cass to make sure Bruce never shows romantic/sexual attraction toward other Robins. Steph and Jason are equally apathetic toward it, being the ones who are most negative toward Bruce. they just shrug and go "yeah sounds like some shit Bruce would do". Damian's a bit of a toss-up. i think it'd really throw him for a loop and he'd be far more critical of Dick in the beginning, but once he approves of Dick, he'd *really* latch onto him.
i do think the rest of the hero community would find out. not on purpose, but the leak happens. Babs vents her feelings about it to Dinah, Helena, and Zinda. Tim mutters about it to the Titans. and Jason will tell anyone who asks because he doesn't have a rat's ass to give about Bruce's precious reputation. (if anything, he'd purposefully try to ruin Bruce with that info) the hero community... varies. i think Oliver would be the *most* pissed. Oliver is very similar to Bruce, in that he's taken in his share of strays, but he was objectively a lot better at it than Bruce. it causes a minor public scandal when Oliver drinks too much at some gala and just. publically beats the shit out of Bruce Wayne, incoherently talking about something to do with him being a creep. i could see Oliver rallying support from people like Barry and Arthur who also have young sidekicks and would agree it being fucked up. i don't think Bruce would be entirely ejected from the hero community, but he would be quietly removed as a chair member of the Justice League and have most of his power as a team leader stripped. no matter how much damage control Dick does, insisting he was an adult when anything real happened and he consented, no one can look at Bruce the same. sort of a bittersweet ending, Bruce and Dick are together and no one can take that from them, but there's still realistic reaction and blowback to it, which i personally think is a lot of fun.
#necrotic answerings#brudick#dead dove do not eat#batcest#actually fun fact: this idea is *very* similar to a lived experience in my personal life.#my older sister married her high school teacher lmao.#so like i'm *personally* familiar with the complicated nuances of the real world reacting to a relationship like this.#i have experienced all of those complicated feelings#which is why i would take a pretty realistic approach to writing this#bc it would straight up become an analog of my lived experience.#my brother in law is. a cool guy ig. but i've faced all those complicated feelings#real life is messy.#i should not be admitting this on the internet.#but i could write a *damning* brudick fic based on my sister's life and none of y'all would even know it was actually based on real life.#and it's funnier as someone who projects on tim not dick.#anyway enough of the personal soapbox#this is such a fun idea#and i'm a FIRM believer in āoliver would *beat bruce's ass* if he found out about batcest happeningā#i actually have some WIPs that deal with that#i love the arrowfam y'all they're an actual found family#this is so fun i love realistic reactions to these sorts of ships <3#it's that projection babeyyyy
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resignation letter is the most potent painkiller. i love you resignation letter i love you one month notice <3
#tmi but im regular again and literally the only change is because i've been eating enough to shit daily#i was in such a bad headspace these past few months that i could barely bring myself to eat#i'd go to sleep with my work uniform still on and wake up willing myself to get up for 30 mins and then brushing my teeth and going to work#with the same clothes i slept in#i stopped hanging out with my friends. i had nightmares abt my job.#i can only take care of myself on my days' off and i cant grok anything other than shallow entertainment like wrestling#everything else is too much for my brain to handle. i'd simply forget everything i read or play or even listen to#those three months are miserable lmao#its not just my job... its also the family issues i've been dealing with#yknow remember when i said i could have died? yeah that shit was real. fuckin love it when my mom admit my dad have the capacity to be a#family annihilator. but... since my dad have a job to keep him busy and we moved to a house where me and my sister and#my mom and dad get to have our own rooms... and my dad get to live near his old friends and family...#things have been getting better. usually we had a physical fight every two months but it hasnt happened yet and i seem to get on with him#better now. so... i guess im gonna be okay. i've been so tired and trapped#stuck between two places that are both physically and emotionally draining with no reprieve#things are changing. and i find that to be comforting despite how up in the air the future might be. i might be screwed but also? what if#i'll be fine? im at a point where im accepting any drastic changes even if its for the worse#funny how i used to like my job a lot. i guess im not to be comfortable with anything long term#posts about my life
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(genderly) chill as hell if i was only ever glimpsed / detected like this
#Shrouded In A Rectangle neither sleeves nor an open front to be besieged with? yes#just doing whatever else like doesn't matter. tee cargo shorts which is my best guess rn of my ideal outfit. + sandals Absolutely#unfortunately my hair could never do that. somehow neither am i yet like forties fifties? have i not been at this for eons?#i Can be like uh let's just nobody talk to me i'm busy pensively perceiving truths that you don't ever actually wanna hear about#just the other day it was like hey....a [way Having To Talk could be a difficulty / problem] was under my nose in this lifelong pattern#certainly noticing the Verbal Exchange Demand heaped upon burnout as like [delay delay delay struggle weariness stress]#but also who knows like spent plenty of time just probably indeed Not having to have such exchanges while burned out. not noting them#anyway like this isn't even [dysphoric Ideal Outfit until i could [whatever supposed even more ideal than that gender euphoria]]#though shoutout to that but like nah get shrouded anyway. the only [how do i look] im motivated to consider is: when it's a costume#when it's just me it's like. i guess whatever pants and a comfortable enough tee. need glasses. hair's w/e so cut quite short ig#might accessorize w/things that are fun to me like hey yeah yknow i might want a calculator watch#[yea as a kid it was like :( im actively appreciating the animals supposedly Gross or Bad] if i had hated little friends Sure yaay#if i had disorienting light effects like a pelagic creature. but you don't even need that. like hey i'm nd in real life. i got it#chat i'm in the walls too bestie lmao. if only my bigfoot pose reference Step was this good#tl;dr long rephrasing of my being like; now the gender slay....#& nodding & Noting when [worksheet exercise: what's your gender euphoria look?] is like shrug idk. but this is serving maximally to me; so#going Chat how can i up my uncanny stats. looking up ''isn't it like Uncanny knowledge e.g. so like why not....canny''#but i think the un canny is the Uncanniness Accuser's perspective. not of My ken. your literal weird one maybe#so again apt to be like jk i'm just autistic & shit; i got it....horror shit challenge impossible: Don't have sm typical mundane#[disability moment] as like Unsettling danger/malice cues. challenge impossible; again#subverted here like as [horror holding hands touching foreheads w/comedy] w/o Rescinding just casual disabled behavior/qualities#just remembered like three witches weird sisters etc macbeth. weird uncanny soothsaying gendering. word#anyway i should be shrouded (made no any connection whenever i put the blanket now over my head & shoulders in place min ago)#perhaps the real Ideal Look insight: i do not have any way i wish to be observed by people. secret passages / removed room anytime
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dyou think vale is tired of following these races every (other) week for his children and seeing his ex whatever on the podium next to his first born every damn time
iām sorry im not (personally ! live your weirdo truth. freak your bean. go for itttt) a fan of when people nuclearize the rpf family (let them be weird and gay and want to fuck each other at least a little bitā¦ please) and then when people DO they donāt even DO IT RIGHT !! like if weāre doin this then FRANKY is his first born. CLEARLY. to the point where franky had gone ON RECORD talking about how vale and co stepped into that role for him as a teen. like CMANNNNNN
#pecco also insane middle child energy to me. like he is in real life but i wouldāve pinned that anyway i think lol#to the point where he carts his OLDER SISTER around the world to be his assistant. has there been a more younger brother behavior than that#just because he puts a lot on himself doesnāt mean heās an oldest daughter lmao. heās just WEIRD IN DA HEAD#motogp#callie speaks#asks
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look at my alternate yuu concept boy
#i just think the idea of isekaing at age 22 and being shoved into high school is so funny. shes just here now#185cm makes her the same height as leona btw. nearly six foot one. absurdly tall#she did not have friends b4 twst bc she had a Lot of ppl approach her bc of her parents#was very good at keeping a polite distance and went a little insane in twst as a result#fails all her classes at nrc bc she is going home at the end of this to her Real life so who cares shes here for a Good time#girl w/no subconcious desire to stay in twst tho i do think itd be good for her in the long run#she wants to go back to her own reality bc she wants to finish her degree. she was so close#Everyone's Big Sister (self-proclaimed) and incredibly obnoxious abt it#gets on v well with kalim and lilia and then cater is there in the background like. Please Let Me Out.#shes in gargoyle research. malleus is a little brother to her and i think he actually does see her as family more than a romantic partner#WHICH IS RARE FOR ME im usually all abt malleus > yuu but here it makes sense. they are platonic. u kno how it is#book 7 is a really bad time for her bc she learns all of lilias backstory and realizes how much shit he wasnt telling her#as if she were telling him anything serious abt herself LMAO but him leaving w/o sayign + finding out his backstory from a dream is just. h#book 7 i think is whats solidifying her desire to return home. she has a place where she belongs and its not here.#anyways ironically despite how much ive written here + how much ive thought abt her shes only a secondary yuu. yjn comes first always <3#i do really like her shes a lot of fun to think abt. very Messy and impulsive unlike yjn whos thoughtful and deliberate. u kno#god this was a tag essay. ok.#how do you art#twst oc#myuu stuff
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Few questions..
What kind of pet would mr psaltarian have/prefer
What sleeping positions does the trio (imperator, psaltarian, and nihil) prefer?
What sex positions does the trio prefer?
Lot of questions in one ask sorryyy
1.) psaltarianās pet!
okay in all my thinking i have yet to ever consider this because heās just so. cleanly. like the beach house looks entirely untouched and too sanitary (which is because it costs a fucking years salary to rent for filming but whatever). BUT. after much consideration i think i have landed on
young psaltarian: this guy was fucking around too much i donāt think he cared enough to own any sort of pet that he could actually bond with. probably owns a nice tropical fish tank but theyāre sort of just things that exist in his house that he has to feed every now and then as opposed to something he actually likes.
old psaltarian: honestly getting golden retriever vibes. heās responsible enough to actually care for a dog and it fits his lifestyle, not to mention the actual location of his house. i donāt think he purposefully went out and bought himself a dog but it ended up with him somehow and heās basically that dad that spends every breathing second complaining about the family dog but is the only one putting in the work. loves taking that thing on beach walks and such but forever gets annoyed by the sand getting tracked in the house and also wet dog smell.
2.) sleeping positions!
sister: sleeps like sheās dead. no like actually. stiff as a board on her back, arms crossed over her chest. it scares everyone.
nihil: starfish because heās an asshole. loooooves to sprawl out because heās so used to having his massive fucking bed to himself (absolute nightmare for one night stands).
psaltarian: respectable side sleeper/fetal position. will occasionally be caught napping on his back with his arms crossed over his face
3.) sex positions teehee
sister: cowgirl because sheās a show off. iāve never really talked about my thoughts on sisterās thoughts on sex but yeah sheās such a show off and loves pretending to be in power (this freak loves insane eye contact). doggie is probably a big one for her but thatās just for her weird breeding kink and she thinks itās hot. old sister prefers spooning.
nihil: missionary is a big one for him (ugh nihil loves his basic straight sex heās not immune to it). not to mention heās a romantic at heart of course he loves being able to see his partnerās face and be annoying about it by talking them through it or just teasing them. also throwing doggie out there because nihil luvs it hard and fast whether itās receiving or giving. old nihil favors riding.
psaltarian: mating press yayš©· heās big on just watching his partners expressions and being in close contact to sneak some distracting kisses in. also heās probably into some crazy ass positions that require too much coordination and support (cough that nihil would enjoy if he wasnāt built like a twig). big fan of cowgirl too of course. old psaltarian does what he wants forever because heās not sick or dying for the plot.
#ugh i woke up in the middle of sleeping a few hours ago and saw this. and was so excited i had to wake up again for real to answer lmao#YAY i love talking about them#iāve finally locked in and created an immervise life 4 psaltarian and characterization of him that i liked so this is awesome#ghost#sister imperator#papa nihil#mr psaltarian#š#ramblings
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pretty girls cry and sob and bitch and whine about chrom and inigoās future past conversation all the time
#freudian slips#aaggrhghhsgrggbbfngdhd#i think after the shepherds went back to their own time chrom finds inigo and j gives him a big ol hug#i really love chrom and inigos dynamic i really do#and like obviously chrom would see some of himself in inigo. hello. they look Like That.#but beyond that his interactions with lucina and inigo are clearly different because he sees different parts of himself in both of them#and for inigo specifically its all of that crap chrom doesnt really want to come to terms with for himself#lack of a present dad in his life. feeling lesser than his sister. anxiety over leading. just fucking up!!#and i think that shows a lot in how chrom specifically handles inigo in their support chain#which i understand is generic. however. GOD!! IT FITS!!! IT FITS SO WELL!!!!#and by the time that conflict is resolved he goes to the future past and he sees the inigo there and he knows what to do this time!!#he knows what inigo needs this time!! encouragement and support that neither of them got to have before!! and its just#grartghahggghjrghhā¦ chrom and inigo!!!!!!!!!! im emo!!!!!!#<- pretty girls cry over the headcanons theyve managed to convinced themselves is real. fuckinn lmao
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oh yeah, life update- because you all need those and expect it from me- started watching 'the fall of the house of usher' and I'm just kinda wondering like, is subtlety dead?
#da#real life update is ig I have been pulled into moving out with my little sister#idk she's doing all the important stuff and I'm just nodding along#and also giving her money for deposit things but y'know#re: fall of house of usher. cat death was just evil. I hate it. uhh is it implied that roderick wrote poe's works? is his 1st wife#totally unfamiliar with poe?#and like idk if I hadn't watched succession maybe I could be less annoyed but oh my MODS why would I care about rich people show#I'm so sick of rich people shows#I just want them all to die and their money can recirculate in the economy stop reminding me how immune to consequences they are#and how much they ruin everyone's lives. like I kind of would like to escape that for one second#gentefied was good kim's convenience was good bear is good#at least I get to see them die gruesome deaths#but then what if I like their actors' performance?? then I'm sad#oh edit bc I recalled another actual life update: Dev bleached my hair uwu#it'll be metallic lavender if all goes well. he didn't want to overload my hair all in one go yet though bc I guess it's still healthy lmao
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Count the ways I've had a fucked up life:
-Shoved my twin sister when we were 3 and saw blood come out of her ears from the knock on her head. From that point on she was half-deaf. -Twin sister and I nearly drowned at age 6 by being pulled into a powerful rip-tide at an unsupervised beach. My parents thought it was cute until we couldn't swim back and they both had to swim out to get us. I remember being really tired, and them being unsure about being able to swim back to shore.
-At age 11 witnessed my mother forgetting to apply the brake to her car. She tried to get back in and tripped, it subsequently rolled over her, crushing her foot and dragging her down the road. She bled profusely. The crimson stained pavement haunted me for a long time. I blamed myself because I arrived home from a friend's house at the same exact same time and believed I distracted her.
-Accidently electrocuted myself when I was bored while watching my siblings play on the computer. Without looking, I fiddled with the back of an old lamp with my finger tips, but I didn't know that fumbling the cables would cause it to surge. The large shock sent my arm numb for about an hour. Didn't seek treatment because the power tripped and I was worried I would get yelled at.
-Deep in the bush, during a particularly dry summer, family friends stupidly made a bonfire, and I saw our campsite get quickly lit up. As the flames surrounded us and the cars, I was yelled at to go get help/manual water pumps as if it was my fault. Somehow we managed to put it all out. We had to try something because the alternative was getting trapped.
-Was on the phone to my grandma when she had a stroke, I had no idea what was going on, to the point I thought it was a prank. I was crying because it wasn't something I was even aware could happen to someone, I continued to listen and her language skills deteriorated the longer I was on the phone. She became convincedly desperate despite her incoherence and somehow I broke away from my fear and got my dad to help her.
-My mother stabbed my older sister in the arm with a kitchen knife and they both just walked off. I remember being around the corner listening to the argument escalate and saw my older sister clutching her arm. (my sister is very violent so I think it was done in self defense???)
-Dad threw that same sister into the drywall multiple times--Not to excuse it but she was a devil, and would attack / lunge at us, and disrespected my parents from a young age. Dull thudding against walls sends me on edge to this day because it was one way to identify a scuffle with her.
-Mum had a cabinet pushed onto her by my older sister. The cabinet had a glass panel that shattered on her leg and sliced it open.
-My twin sister got upset at me and swung a 10kg metal bar stool at my leg, the blunt force tore my leg open, I now have a very sensitive scar on my shin. -My mum ran at me in an anger spell and I blocked it by pushing her away from me (that's legitimately all), she slipped on the slippery cork floors we had and fell over hitting her head hard. She was unconscious for a few minutes. Her tongue was sticking out and her eyes were open. I thought I had killed her. I wanted to call an ambulance. She woke up and I begged to her that she needed to go to hospital but she brushed it off because we had to catch a flight.
-On my way back from a lunch break I saw a woman go under a Truck. Once again I blamed myself because I crossed in front of the driver at a crossing, and nodded to him. As he rolled forward to leave she sprinted across, I turned and saw that she got hit. -My older sister took advantage of my mum and got into large debts by getting her to co-sign loans behind my dad's back. My mum was paying off things like her phone bill and eventually a car loan. This caused a lot of violent contention.
-Older Sister was kicked out of multiple times but my parents never fully cut her out and now she lives scott-free in a brand new granny flat in the backyard because of their guilt.
-lived in relative poverty and mess most of my teenage life because it was too expensive to send 4 kids to school for my parents. They worked full time but didn't really provide us with any emotional security. Both parents were very messy but blamed us for it as we got older. I tried my best to keep things clean but it was often in vain (it is to this day as things have escalated to full hoarding)
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#SO UH THIS IS WHY I DRAW .NOT BECAUSE IM ANY GOOD NO SIR JUST BECAUSE IT WAS A FORM OF ESCAPISM HAHA :'3#stability is such a cute little dream to have#its not ALL bad but most people probably wouldnt cope with what i have seen#i have not had therapy for any of this lmao#i straight up have memory holes because there was so much time arguing and witnessing horrible shit#my poor mum she is very highly strung i dont blame her my sister is a spoiled 40 year old abusive brat#day dreamer life baby#got struck a lot too by my mother her weapon of choice was the wooden spoon idk hey haha it was just sort of the norm back then#the paradox was that my family would still do normal things like camping or having dinner parties and those were great#processing it all is hard lmao i have anger issues and depression spells#idk why im posting this might delete it later lol#this all sounds fake hahaha which but it's real i promise#the second my older sister became autonomous it was over#notice my dad and brother arent in this picture much#my brother is...idk okay he has demons and my dad is nice for the most part but he lives in his own world#im sad...#they dont realize i have absorbed all of this and it has formed who i am#i love my family but i dont love....the horror
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i miss doing theatre
#every day of my damn life#in theory it shouldnt even be hard to start again because we're famiky friends with the director of our theatre group...#except. im kind of scared of the director. and most of the people that do it <-because of reasons#actually that sounds bad its just because i was an incredibly socially awkward and anxious child so they scared me#mainky because they were all Friends With My Dad or Friends With My Sister#i just want to do tech but even that is scary because again. the director scares me u_u#and also last time i did anything there i was. a gIrl#and also 12#i dont even know if there are any other theatre groups besides mine near me#besides like#Professional ones#<-which doesnt mean anything mines technically a church theatee but the directors are literally ex broadway directors LMAO#sammy used to play for one of tje real house wives#i miss doing it so much though.....
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Underrated Sibling Moment is actually mitsu being like āi dont want to go back to the captain alone are you insaneā after ichi fumbles the loan collection and ichi has to ditch him for a few hours and mitsu can only kill time and Not think of The Inevitable until they can go back to sawashiro together as if thatāll save them from The Inevitable like if you get it You Get How Real That Was
#snap chats#the best part about getting a new phone. āāānewāāā#is that i can make goofy posts ten times faster now that i dont have to wait a year for the app to open#ANYWAY NO YK WHAT I MEAN#LIKE AS IF GOING TO YOUR PARENT TOGETHER WONT JUST GET BOTH YOUR ASSES BEAT#growing up it was the same shit with my sisters and i#if we were out of the house and knew mom was home weād find any and every excuse to stay out until she was asleep#or she locked herself in her room to do work all night#STOOOPPP I REMEMBER THE WORST CHRISTMAS EVE EVE OF MY LIFE#my dad wanted to get lunch with my sis and i but our mom was home and in the kitchen and yk#we canāt just leave without saying where weāre going ig#bro when i say my sis had a whole breakdown because she did not want to tell our mom#it was painful like TRULY#SAME PLAY OUT TOO NOW THAT I THINK OF IT in the beginning she acted Not Mad#and then very quickly Was Mad and it was just awful all around#made it very gard to enjoy lunch ngl but hey.#after that I Do Not Lie she and i just hung out at the mall for the next eight hours LMAO#but yeah. the accidental story time is integral to understanding this feeling i promise#ITS JUST SO REAL ESP WHEN YOU FUCKED UP AND YOU JUST KNOW YOUR PARENT GONNA FIND OUT LMAO#the most evil shit is when your parent starts getting mad and thrn your siblings clear like roaches#LIKE OH OK. I THOUGHT WE WERE RIDE OR DIEHDVEC#anyway shout out my man mitsu i dont mention you ever but know i see you and ily
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can i just say. every conversation ive had w fsmily abt me.moving has resulted kn a tldr feeling of: they think im exzctly like my mother and thst
a. i cant Handle This
b. havent thought it through
c. am Running Away drom my bullshit
like . ur wrong on sll accounts tho. i wouldnt be cknsidering it if i wasnt capable. amd all ive done is think abt this indepth. you cant run away from ur shit, YES . HOWEVER !
#i kmow my Problems will follow me regardless. but . theres smth abt mocing to a vigger city#where . i havsnt lived for the last 22yrs of my life. that is triple my hometown population. is good for me#like . ideally id move to melbourne but also. its fine i just wanna . Expand yknow????#ive exhausted my resources here . im too fast paced for this town ill b real#anyway. its awful that my family keep presenting this kinda thing ti me bc like . im not :( like that :( why do u think im like that#then i rmb thar gjese ppl dont . Knkw me very well anymore.#i say abt 500 wkrds to them (amongst 4 ppl btw) unless someones feelings spicy n we get into iy over something#over the course of a week btw. i dont Talk to my family every mych#sometimes my sister comes n rants to me n its fun i love those moments a lot#but . dawg . the rest of em Do t Knoe Me#they dont converse with me anymorw lmao . i just FUCK
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