#and its rlly fucking with their identity

[mail-me-a-snail]

can you imagine if the cyberpunk fandom fucked a little harder with the horrors of arasaka though. like yeah in game they're so completely fucked up as a corporation and you do see a lot of that but do you ever remember there are millions of corpo rats who don't?

like they have to run the rat race from their cubicles every day knowing they could be bumped off for any slight misconduct but it's so much better than placing their lives in the hands of the city itself because at least arasaka would know how to make it fast and easy

[daily-singularity]

omg if you're still taking suggestions i would love to see, like, caleb doing mechanical/engineering maintenance on hux or something like that

Hux probably wouldnt let this man from 500 years in the past go anywhere near his machinery, but maybe he will help Caleb with the redeemer. As a treat.

[phightingconfessions]

Holy shit I love that this community is so supporting of chubby characters! The horrors of fat phobia I've seen in other fandoms is crazy especially the regretevator discord server the mods there are just scary..

EXACTLY!!!! like obviously theres still gonna be those people that get some violent rage and hatred over seeing someone draw a character fat but ive noticed theyre mostly.. a minority in the phandom? not even a VOCAL minority i just barely even see them and ngl its actually really refreshing

[theprinceandthewitch]

Ppl are genuinely so weird lmao

Ah yes, I'm sure a man who calls himself Orpheus and commits crimes with the intention of improving Alice's condition has nothing but platonic feelings for his childhood bestie and is motivated JUST by guilt teehee

[I'm being sarcastic btw],

[marsbotz]

i ship inhun in a way that differwnt and more swagful than anyone else btw.

[teriiblog]

Sometimes I have an urge to make sideblogs but I never get to them. Idk on one hand I like having my things organized but at the same time... Eh..... Sometime it get confusing.

[justalilpearlie]

i was lookin thru the majormoon tag and like there's ppl hating n shit and calling it sexuality bending like bigender ppl slash trans ppl dont count in gay relationships aswell like. Uhm okay.

But anyways also found some of my old posts and a bunch of silly mutuals/friends i made recently! Yay!

[blvckleg]

had the worst ocd day yesterday bc brain kept telling me if i actually let myself have goals or wish for something good then everything i already have will fall apart or be taken away even though i logically understand that isnt possible lmfao! and then i woke up sick this morning cant have SHIT in detroit bro

[gazeboarcade]

UGH CMON ...

[faetealights]

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[xochaerriez]

catch a flight

part two out of two

idol! maki x idol!reader

he looks so good with silver hair but i’m missing black hair and browski rn

part two of missing you

nicknames like baby, lowercase intentional

sorry for the late release 🥹 this is rlly short xoxo 💋💋

gate e6. gate e6. gate e6

the same words thrum in your head, hoping you don’t fuck up and miss your flight. this trip was different, it was secretive. it was your first time since debut leaving the country without your members, only your manager accompanying you.

you hadn’t told a single soul, other than your manager of course. but you most especially didn’t tell maki. after the facetime call you had with maki that tugged at your heart strings you knew you had to see him as soon as possible. calls from that point were more rushed. messages were never sent at the same time. worst of all, you were beginning to forget what he truly looked like. out of impulse, you booked a flight without a second thought. you packed with your blood pumping with excitement. you were surging with energy. time couldn’t move slower.

after your thoughts are away your brain over the past couple days, (weeks after the call), you left in the afternoon, planning to arrive somewhere between the evening and the night in japan. you had a mask to conceal your identity while sporting a beanie to hide the obviousness of the wig you wore. unlike other times where you’d wear them to hide your hair color, you hoped to hide everything about yourself on this trip. although it would’ve been hard considering you were holding your identity in your hands.

the second you landed, you forced your manager to hide your phone in her bag to prevent yourself from texting your boyfriend too quickly. you had your suitcase in hand and went to a hotel near his dorm to sleep for the rest of your trip. you trotted to your room. nearly immediately, you ripped your wig off your head and ruffled your hair to fix it. you fixed your makeup and sprayed on a little perfume before grabbing your purse and retrieving your phone. it wasn’t the first time you’ve been to japan, but stepping out of the hotel had you admiring the city lights as if it was. no problems, no schedule, no one else, just you and the time you had with your boyfriend.

you tried to look casual in the streets of near his dorm while your phone blared its blue light screen in your face.

baby, are you free?

your lips purse, awaiting an answer from him, checking every second.

yeah, why? wanna call?

your heart jumps and you begin to shiver. your fingers type fast against the touchscreen.

you: i just kinda miss you tonight

you see the dots on your screen appear then disappear then reappear as if he was thinking. then a flood of messages come running like rapid fire.

maki: tonight?

maki: isn’t it 11 am where you are ???

maki: wym tonight??

maki: baby

…

maki: where are you?

like he could sniff you out, you hear footsteps running out of his building and onto the pavement. he recognizes your figure despite not being able to make out your face in the dark night, contrasting the fluorescent white bulbs inside his dorms.

“tell me that’s not you.” you can hear his smile through his words. your breath caught in your lungs and so did his. he was in disbelief, and so were you, even though you were absolutely present and aware of your entire journey here. but there he was. he stood there with his hair all messy and bare faced. he sported those same rick owens sneakers and camo cargo pants he always wore. and most especially, he wore the smile that would warm your heart every time you see him. he’d say he’d look messy or ugly, but to you, this messy was perfect. the kind of messy that would have you kissing his face all over, the kind of messy that would have your limbs tangled even on hot summer nights because you enjoyed each other’s presence, the kind of messy of a man that would make you take flight over to see.

“hi, baby,” you smile back. he’s huffing and puffing, running over to you to give you a devouring embrace.

“i didn’t think you were serious,” he says, sentiment lacing his voice.

“i didn’t think i was either,” you say, half joking. “i missed you.”

as of you two weren’t famous celebrities secretly dating, you kissed him. lips soft and firm. somewhere between rushed and slow. but either way, filled with yearning. he pulled back, tears brimming his eyes as he got emotional. his glossy lips formed a pout.

“can you stay with me tonight?” he begged.

“but that’s against the rules, hon,” you say, hands switching from stroking circles on his back, petting his chin, to brushing his hair out of his pretty face.

“we already broke two of em, we can break one more.”

“fine.” you give in, dragging the word as you kiss him again, knowing the rest of the night will be filled with hugs and kisses.

xoxo 💋💋

i’m thinking about doing a bonus part idk

someone help me decide

pls

[conceptofjoy]

yay the post i said id make about the blood aspect and why every vantas exudes blackness. is this a vantas only thing, or a blood bound thing? let me start by saying, you can make white or white coded characters blood bound, that's not what i'm trying to get across. it's just that blood as an aspect, when put through the lens of race specifically in america is just so fucking black.

redirecting you to the karkat specific, "why do i think he's black" thing :)

i get that the extended zodiac is kinda horoscopey, but like just a refresher on blood as a thematic element. you know how the majority of the exposition about the ancestors hinges around the signless and his civil rights movement? the fact that he tried to change alternia sets up the web of characters and reasons for them meeting in the first place.

you literally only need a rudimentary understanding of american history to know about the civil war and the civil rights movement. its not a secret that people who are oppressed form groups to protest their second class status. its also not a secret that major movement leaders get assassinated by people in power to keep that status quo, and their deaths never mark the end of their message. was hussie trying to do an mlk and malcom x parallel with the signless and summoner? LMFAO PROBABLY. that kinda just cements how inescapable race is when you're making an american centric comic.

i can end the post there lol, but here comes the question about where KANKRI fits into all of this... its tough explaining this really, if i call him one of those talented tenth believers to a black person they would just nod and be like ohh yeah... hm.

ok you know how there r some gay cis men who get away with some crazy misogyny but thinks it cancels out because they're gay? there is still something at the end of the day to be gained because they are men. it doesnt matter if they are seen as lesser than, as long as they can "pass" then they can get a spot at the leopards eating people faces party. FOR NOW. nothing that kankri says does he really mean fully. there's something to be gained by telling a woman why are you raising your voice?? when you mow them down with bullshit and they realistically get upset. he's a hardcore lib with conservative leanings.

actually speaking of, the commodification of unity. alternia's a capitalist and colonialist wheel, every instance of comradery comes in the form of quadrants, or how you serve the queen. karkat wants to be a threshecutioner and form bonds that way because he cannot think of anything different. kankri commodifies his own identity so he can be misogynistic and ablest. the signless breaks free from those preconceived boundaries, and tries to instill change to the system.

i dont rlly have a structure for all this or a note to end this on, here are some prev posts from a few days ago where i was thinking about the subject. 1 2 3

[racinu]

okay fuck it im having queer thoughts rn n now am tryna at least partially project onto the phantom thieves so heres my gender and sexuality hcs

akira - bisexual bigender. easy. any pronouns. sometimes dresses masc, sometimes super fem, also has a wig thats the same hair color n texture as her hair but much longer that he wears sometimes

ryuji - bisexual, probably still closeted though but everyone knows. he convinces himself he only likes women but someday he’ll realize. trust

ann - lesbian, in love w shiho, you know it. goddamn she’s so lesbian coded its crazy. she’s also known for a while, like probably since she was a kid, she’s never been afraid heh literal number one women enjoyer

yusuke - aroace agender. bro does not give a fuck and we love that for him. i don’t think he really thinks about his sexuality or gender, that’s kind of just how he is. like he’s acknowledged it before but like whatever. he’s interested in romance but like observing it through art, not actually experiencing it

makoto - bisexual. i just know she had a whole crisis about this and it takes her a while to fully accept this. she never really thought about romance too much and has always had other things to think about. honestly shes probably kind of aroace spec too

futaba - aroace nb. kind of like yusuke in the sense of not giving a fuck but she had a bit of a crisis about this but fully embraces it now. also still presents more fem and uses any pronouns

haru - lesbian. idk i dont have many notes here it just sort of feels right ig

akechi - gay transmasc. this feels rlly obvious. idk i dont have many notes here either thats just how he is. he transitioned as a younger teen though, after his mom died but before the whole shido thing, i think after he awoke to his persona though? i think he knew before awaking that being a girl felt wrong, but being in the metaverse n seeing his persona, he realized and decided that before going back to shido, he had to transition

sumire - does not fucking know but is definitely queer. she goes through sm confusion with her identity she is nowhere near ready to unpack her queerness as well, but someday

morgana - cat

[daily-dubois]

Favorite thing about Harry? He's my favorite fictional character

Easy answer: his stupid dumb dumb face i like drawing it hes got good shapes

Real answer: warning for talking abt depression and passive suicidality!

aughggghhggg. There’s a lot I’ll be real, from the way de explores how one’s upbringing makes the person they end up being, to the themes of self discovery, the way it explores queer identity and how being a queer cop inherently pits you against and alienates you from thw queer community, to the way it explores the way one could become a class traitor, the way it tackles addiction, what i believe to be one of the best representations of systems, the way he allows for exploration of a religion as a methaphor for love which drives me NUTS, the funny silly jokes he does, his silly personality, ecc, there is one thing that stands out to me. The way Disco Elysium portrays interpersonal relationships when you’re depressed.

This isn’t subtext, it’s text that’s Harry is depressed, from the way he interacts with fhe dead body

To the way he views himself

To the way he views his relationships with others

Like istg. One of the most impactful moments of the entire game was that fucking letter. Most ppl focus on the “you have a vast vast soul and I’ll always come back to it” but i genuenly. The first part, its fhe best representation of how it is to love someone who’s depressed. Its even my alarm!

There’s this gentleness in it all. I can’t explain it other than as someone who’s depressed dating someone who isn’t, it feels like that, that what it feels like. Especially when you throw suicidality into the mix, it makes this cocktail of what you’d except to be met with “you cannot love others until you love yourself” mentally thats rlly prevalent nowdays

And dont get me wrong, you need to know your self worth to be in healthy relationships, but as a depressed person, you ARE worth love, you ARE worth people’s affection. Harry gets to be depressed and you get to see it, he gets to be an addict, and Kim still loves him.

Its this, thing, that Harry isnt a burden to kim, it isnt just kim that changes Harry’s life, its also the opposite. Kim gets to loosen up around Harry, the trajectory of his life is just as changed as Harry’s is, they become inseparable. Harry is depressed and he also gets to crack silly jokes and like disco music.

Ofc Harry isnt loved by everyone, thats not my argument, its the interpersonal relationship aspect of it that makes me go :,). I like seeing depressed people who Aren’t improving get that level of respect in their relationships. It feels like the former means they dont deserve the latter, which isnt true: again working on yourself is important, but its undeniable that during low points there’s not much wiggle room, sure a lot of people help themselves up, and that’s incredible, but a lot of people need a hand, and that’s important too

This is also why i hateeee those jokes that are like Kim deserves better or Kim is out of his reach (or god for id “he hasnt showered since dora left him” genuinely i hate you hahahah depressed man is unsanitary get it?? Cause struggling with hygiene is a moral failing!!! Im so funny) because it ignores their dynamic in the game. Kim is a man that built his walls to withstand ANYTHING, he doesnt let himself get close, he TOO is repressed

Anyone could deconstruct those walls, but hasnt, it was Harry who did that!

Anyone couldve offered to play Wirrail during an investigation or dance in a church or used dialectics to get him to share a sandwich, but no one had until Harry, and that makes Kim open up.

Anyone could’ve shown compassion to Harry or have been patient with him and indulged him in his jokes, but it was Kim who did that (in recent memory, Dora wouldve been the first before his predicament, but he frankly doesn’t have that in his current predicament)

Point is, and idk id ive explained myself well, theres a gentlesness abt it all, abt the way Harry gets to have this nice thing, and that he isnt shown as unworthy of it, it means a lot to me.

Also on a larger scope od things we could talk abt how disco elysium criticises the idea of person first situation later approach to improving ones mental health but yk, thats a whole other topic

[peanutheaddd]

HI OOMFIE.. PENIS HEAD EVEN.. I gyatt a few questions about the muse au cause i have vrainrot

where does Petey live in this? Is t like a studio apartment or a garage?? Where the fuck he at bro!!

Does Dogman ever get revealed to the media/public that he’s half human? Like does someone lowkey ever put him on blast

how do they commmunicate!! Normal sign or does Dogman use Paper :0

does Dogman have any hobbies of his own?? How’s him and LPs relationship in this

Can we frolick in FEILDS together

ANON I WOUD LAY MY LIFE DOWN FRO U OHHHHHH MY GOD i alr love getting asked abt my aus but THIS MANY QUESTIONS IN ONE ASK......? OH IM SICK IN THE HEAD

-- i have no idea where he lives specifically like i dont have a concrete idea of it but all ik is that his art studio and his home are the same place . and the place he lives is more art studio purpose than home purpose . theres probs js a blanket in the corner for him to sleep . 😭😭😭 and like pipes running along the walls . industrial sink that he uses for cleaning his brushes and washing his clothes and dishes and making his coffee .

i think its like a dirt cheap studio apartment in kind of a bad neighborhood. smth smth redlining . like the floors are made of concrete and shit 😭😭😭😭😭😭 no ac no heating . concrete box with his art supplies and some bare necessities . he doesnt rlly take care of himself either so there arent many bare necessities either 💀💀💀💀

-- and im not sure if dms identity ever gets revealed . it makes the most sense plot wise but idk How i would fix it . the only way i can see it being fixed is dm having to flee the country 😭😭😭😭 bc the government would kill him . and if they dont kill him he would At Least get put on like an fbi watchlist if he isnt on one already 💀💀💀💀💀 . hes already an activist like that would just be the final nail in the coffin im ngl . if youve heard of the black panther party (hopefully u have) the us govt during the late 1900s would Literally just Kill members of the bpp . like . its not out of their character . and since muse au takes place during this era the government Definitely has the audacity to just kill him .

i think also dms surgery was probably government backed . since he got blown up on the war front it makes sense that the subsequent surgery was . the governemnts doing . and the govt does Not want people knowing about it . so if his identity ever gets revealed it would be too risky on the govts end to keep him alive so they would lit do anythign to try and kill him 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀

Ultimately . im not sure . id have to think on it more . tbf the ending to muse au in general isnt developed fully yet LOL i dont have the faintest idea what happens .

-- communication is initially paper and pencil but eventually petey starts learning asl . lil petey learns before him i reckon which. makes sense LOL

-- as for hobbies.... Heh... ive been thinking of having dm be a bit of a writer . my hc of dm liking poetry applies to most if not all of my aus . i had an idea in my head of dm writing a poem abt petey and he gets kinda emotional abt it . smth smth artist gets art made about them for the first time in their life .

-- he and lp have a relationship pretty similar to canon methinks they jsut get up to shenanigans and they fw each other heavy . dm really likes his art and likes to listen to his stories and he likes to give him little snacks to eat . lp likes to draw dm and dm likes to pose for him LOLLLL hes his number one fan !

-- YES!!!!!!! LETS FUCKING FORLICK DAWG!!!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[zan0tix]

I yap so much about the comic and the importance i find in its contents but i hope when i write dirk or jake or rlly any of them it doesnt come off as me dumbing them down😭

I know the core internal mechanisms at which they all operate from otherwise i wouldnt understand why they even do what they do and why they speak how they do since that is so crucial to analysis of their behaviour and Why they were written.

But i mostly write silly scenarios so the deeper messier parts dont get to show much😭 working on deeper things tho rest assured i am locking in🫡🫡🫡

I try to match the tones of how i believe the characters would act continuing off the ending of homestuck. With dirk and jake specifically i try to write them to where they still both kinda dont say everything they need to but they dont have the weight of narrative destiny on their shoulders anymore so they can admit they like spending time together and have actually confessed like normal people and got out those apologies they kept yammering on about in the last half of act 6

I try to reinvoke the ridiculous nature of the one time we really see the real dirk and jake talk (which was actually a dreambubble memory. jake is so gay.) but i try to make it feel how that did, they really do love spending time together and just being weird and cringe and bantering about stupid shit ❤️(the most we see dirk type laugh in the comic)

(Always Highly recommend reading this log if you havent in a while. Its just such good writing theyre so funny) https://www.homestuck.com/story/4844

I feel like the Best Bros part of dirkjake kinda gets lost alot of the time considering THEY NEVER SPEAK DIRECTLY (which is insane that hussie could craft this universe bending gender norm shattering yaoi with no fucking interactions wtf anyway) but there is alot you can gleam from jakes interactions with hal and this one log to tell us how they usually speak

Dirk always veers into making homoerotic comments because.. i dunno he might have feelings for jake or something whos to say. and when jake presses him dirk immediately diverts. I think from being around dave and everything daves realised thats bullshit about masculine standards and heroism that let him have a healthier relationship to masculinity, hearing abt that would loosen dirk up about Actually being affectionate to jake

But hes still somehow trying to no homo his way out of things that are incredibly homo just in a subtler way, not immediately going “Haha, what? I never said that. Anyway.” (Its both out of his fear for what his true identity means about him as a man but also because he doesnt think he deserves to get such affections cough thinks himself an evil)

And jake was always going with the flow. If his friends socially decreed something as okay to talk about then the fucking damn burst open and he couldnt keep it in anymore but they had to Very Clearly Clarify with him about it. So i think dirk going down a more positive road would lead jake there too seeing that if its okay for dirk to be less restrictive with his feelings jake can be too.

The Epilogues has a highly specific premise and was being manned by caliborn and calliope 2.0 cranked to the max in the deranged fanfic behaviour so. Of course it would not be a healthy environment for characters to grow💀 anyone who takes it as full confirmation about how theyd act or become as adults and ignores the fact of its premise Being “Homestuck but Sick and Twisted; The Fanfiction” is kind of stupid its like saying homosuck was in character. Ofc everybodys lives goes to shit because the two running the show dont know how the hell to be good puppeteers 😭

Said it on twitter but you can tell how much a dirk hates himself based on his relationship to a jake. Because tho ult dirk wouldnt ever admit it jake is dirks anchor of self worth just as dirk is jakes. When they show compassion and kindness to one another its a step closer to self acceptance because Jake is quite frankly a living embodiment of EVERYTHING that is “wrong” (queer, cringe, sincere, feminine) about Dirk to himself in his saviour complex surrounding manhood. (See Everything caliborn says about jake) jakes always waiting for dirk. If dirk were to step down and admit his own humanity itd mean hed have to accept he is capable of growing and isnt inherently evil, and jake would be ready to embrace that about himself too

Anyway all that to say. Even in my simple silly writing i at least do try to retain dirk and jakes strange emotional dodging olympics but also its just on a smaller level since theyve inching their way to fully internalising that Its Okay to be Cringe and Gay Together❤️ because the World isnt Ending anymore. Its in the little things they dont say because haha im the one who makes them say words.

Dirk and jake hate themselves because theyre not men in the right way but their love is because of them not being men in the right way so.. nerm.. Whos flying the plane?