#and it's not even done yet!

[b-blushes]

inside my pond there is an old enamel sink that's been used as a planter for various things over the years at my house. i find it endlessly fascinating to watch things over periods of time - i completed a year-long video project in february where i recorded clips of my garden each month, trying to catch the same plants at all the stages of a year-long cycle, and i'm several months into a second year-long project where i take a photo from the same window of the cherry trees that grow outside. Part of the reason that I've wanted to make a pond for ages is that I wanted to both just observe it and also mess with it to see what happens. (The other parts are that my garden space was too big for me to maintain so filling it with pond was a great way to get rid of grass-encroached soil, and also how desperately I want to watch frogspawn develop into tadpoles and then froglets.) I 'finished' planting this pond in 18th April, and since then the main three things I've taken note of are how quickly the water became clear, how quickly things colonised it (fly/mosquito larvae within days, various sizes of water beetles within weeks - today I saw the largest beetle yet at probably 1cm!), and the unexpected presence of this algae/sediment that's settled around the top of the sink. Then I was surprised that has begun to disappear! I wonder if it was to do with the water levels - I noticed that it had begun to clear after a spate of very hot days and about a week without rain! The above photos were taking on 18th April, 20th April, 29th April, 7th May, 11th May, 12th May, and today 15th May. I can't wait to see what changes next (: And I have a lot more planned for the surrounding area!

[timeforsomethrillingheroicsblog]

remember when this blog was created as a sideblog for my writing? pepperidge farm remembers.

anyways, it’s been two hundred years but my story finally got updated.

tldr; let me introduce you to tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow - a s1 jack/sawyer fic told from sawyer’s pov covering episodes 1.03, 1.08, 1.11, 1.16, and 1.19 with some changes to canon along the way. (1700+ words, 4/6 chapters completed)

check it out if you want! or don't! i’ll be back to my regularly scheduled lost shitposting after this message.

[giantkillerjack]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

[plain-text version of this post can be found under the cut]

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

Plain-text version:

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

P.S. Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

[improvapocalyps]

You have 90 minutes to complete. (original poem: r.a.)

In participation of the MCYT Recursive Exchange 2024 hosted by @mcytrecursive!

Inspired by know that all my love will be your breath (i will save you when your lights go out)

[text under cut]

1. Have you ever been in love? (Please circle your answer.) a. It's me and him b. Our hearts beat in sync c. Our lives intertwined

2. Do you understand what you’ve done? (Please circle your answer.) a. I couldn't do anything b. I lost my balance c. I doomed us both

3. It's been god knows how long since you felt phantom hands on your neck and there is no one in sight. If you were soul-bound to him and both of you died at the same time then why are you still waiting in the void? Please answer clearly, in full sentences. (Not a correct answer：I just wanted to see him one more time).

4. Define two (2)： Fate | The feeling of his forehead against yours Curse | The moment you realise he isn't linked to you anymore

5. True or False： i. It was your fault. ii. You wish you had met him under different circumstances. iii. You can’t regret a single moment that you had him. iv. You would do it all over again if you could. v. It ended long before either of you said anything.

thumbnails:

sketch cover thing for imgur link:

[chrisrin]

here's the WIP of the first minute-ish of the dave animation <3

[shwinlsol]

I apparently have an affinity for drawing grizzled old men and their psychopathic exes

[beebundt]

thinking a little too much abt durge/orin sibling relationship rn. 🩸ft. my durge (briar, they/them)

[bacchuschucklefuck]

class swap design masterpost for convenience (from top to bottom: bard!riz, cleric!gorgug, sorcerer!kristen, barbarian!fig, artificer!adaine, and rogue!fabian)

[choccy-milky]

herbology class 🌹🌿 (from chap 2 of my fic!)

[slythereen]

wondering if any of the “ferrari were so disrespectful to carlos” crowd have anything to say about how williams not only treated logan like shit and actually sabotaged his performance and ability to succeed but also did this to him lol

[faceeeeee]

The show isn't even out yet and I've made a fully rendered piece of this paranoid man- I love him he's my favorite of the bunch

he only has two lines in the promotional videos and they consist of him screaming (also there's a quick interpretation of what he actually looked like before the whole "trapped inside the digital circus" thing happens- it came out kinda wonky)

Kinger belongs to @gooseworx

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Loss.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

[rameiixo]

animation exercise with ayase !

[benevolenterrancy]

("Always. Continuously. With increasing apprehension, and decreasing hope. I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday. I will love you as a corpse loves the beak of the vulture. I will love you no matter what happens to you, and no matter how I discover what happens to you, and no matter what happens to me as I discover this." -- paraphrased from The Beatrice Letters, Lemony Snicket)

[somewhereincairparavel]

'i hate jason grace because he thought he was worthy enough to compete with percy' I'm sorry have y'all SEEN jason. this man defeated a TITAN without weapons and his bare hands to the point the titan wanted to rise from the UNDERWORLD with the help of a GODDESS to seek vengeance over him. I think we can cut him slack for having some well deserved self respect bc I'd brag too wtf

[styxbugg]

Im stuck in waterloo world purgatory