#and it's also okay to not shower at all
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sometimes, a shower is just standing and letting the comforting warmth of the water overcome you
and that's okay <3
#<3#the shower is great for just letting your thoughts kinda roam#tbh it's hard not to fall asleep when that happens#that's why i take warm showers before bed#it sucks tho cuz i dont use hair dryers or anything#and ive heard that's bad for your hair#but it's fine ☺️#and it's also okay to not shower at all#ive been there#but when you finally do#it'll be so worth it#trust me#<333
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Whumptober day 9: scar reveal/interrogation/presumed dead (full under the cut)
Find the royal au masterpost here
Abram thought he’d be just fine if the prince never so much as knew about this particular scar; luckily his fears are (as we all know) unfounded, and Andrew gets the chance to prove that he doesn’t think any less of him for it.
#this can’t be that long after he’s back#Abram’s still pretty fragile to make these assumptions about Andrew#he’s still weak and needs help#day and Andrew made sure there was a space sectioned off for the infirmary’s showers#since Abram can almost never be convinced to bathe#also pay no attention to the fact that like#medical tape wouldn’t exist yet#Abby is a miracle working alchemist okay#she’s my excuse for a lot here. 😅#fan art#my art#aftg#all for the game#neil josten#andrew minyard#royal au#whumptober#emry whumptober 2023
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you've heard of: aroacespec "is this person flirting with me" confusion, now get ready for: Does this person think I'm flirting with them (and also are they flirting "back" with me) because I accidentally bumped into them a lot?
#new jersey girl seems to really like me that makes me happy#nobody's been attracted to me before#but it'll make me sad if she asks me out#because even though I LOVE her i think i'd have to say no just because i really imagine myself#with a boyfriend far more than a girlfriend lately and i don't want to put her into a relationship that might end up feeling like#misgendering...#aro#ace#aroace#aroacespec#aromantic#arospec#greyromantic#greyro#I said this#we've been walking all over campus together and she's um. not a very considerate walker i keep#almost getting pushed off the path so that's whyh i keep bumping into her lol#but also she seems to like standing/sitting near me?#and i said 'i think my face is a little...' because i was thinking it felt like it got too much sun#and she was like 'i think your face is a little too-- wait what did u say?'#and i said i didn't even use an adjective but said burnt/red was what i should have siad#and she just said 'i think your face is a little'#like is that an oblique compliment??#okay the funniest part is yesterday she said some random girl came up to her and said she looked pretty and she wasn't sure if it was#flirting or just a compliment so she doesn't even know what flirting is either lol#also she calls me Data now bc i told her about hwo my uncle said my parents consult me like picard consults data lol#tbh maybe i gave her the wrong signals by moisturizing when she was in my room last night?#(kept sticking my hand under my clothes. my roommate brought her in right after i showered)#i asked my roommated if that was weird and she thought it was fine but she might not be the best metric
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Does anyone else think it’s fascinating how nicknames develop? Like sometimes a nickname is a logical shortening of a name, sometimes it’s a different part of their name, like a last name or a middle name, and sometimes it’s completely random, manifesting out of a series of twisting inside jokes and memories that is impossible to explain and you’re just like, “Oh yeah, that’s our friend, The Ball, don’t mind him.”
#shower thoughts#well it was a shower thought that I kept thinking about#I could not for the life of me think of a random nickname for a real human I know though#so maybe this is just a product of too much media consumption#I personally only have a family nickname that’s my name shortened that most people don’t call me#so maybe that’s why I think nicknames are so interesting#all I could think of murph as a nickname versus the ball as a nickname#this probably also manifesting from rewatching 911#and being so curious about Chimney and why he’s called that#fantasy high#dimension 20#d20#riz gukgak#brian murphy#I do have a friend that does by Morple in a chat but we never call her that and also I don’t really know the story behind it#do people have friends or are the friend with a weird friend group nickname???#inquiring minds want to know#nicknames#nickname#it’s symbolic of a deep and loving and long-lasting friendship to have a weird random nickname okay?#I secretly want one
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Nobody is required to explain their personal relationship with their identity with you. I, however, will talk nonstop if given the chance and will give you a wildly different answer every time
#my relationship with myself and my identity and the world around me is constantly changing and evolving. if you asked me to explain my#identity this morning i would've given you a different answer than i'd give you if you asked me right now#because throughout the day i considered myself differently and had the chance to think more on it#identity doesn't have to be a rigid blade you carry to keep yourself safe. identity can be something as simple as a flowy shirt you like or#a cup you're drinking your favorite beverage out of. on the other hand#identity IS rigid for some people. and that's also okay. but we're talking about genderfuck folks and all the cool shit they're doin#i lost the plot writing these notes ik air drying in my bathroom after my shower (this too is gender)#queer#lgbt#lgbtq community#lgbtqia#queer community#lesbian#he/him lesbian#neopronouns#butch lesbian#genderqueer#gender nonconforming#genderfuck#trans#transgender#uhh.#inane identity ramblings#new gender tag
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Realistically speaking though how did Boone pull Carla? He knew her pretty well, but it sounds like he’s always been pretty taciturn. What if she wasn’t in love with him but the idea of him? What if he falls in love with the Courier bc they actually want to dive into his past and motivations and hopes instead of floating over them like the beautiful dreamboat that Carla was?
It's an interesting idea but I hate it. I'm a huge fan of my second husband's first wife!
Seriously, Carla and Boone are presented as being absolutely head over heels for each other. Boone traces his issues solely back to Bitter Springs, but people who know him say he was a totally different man before he lost Carla. He's still in the early stages of his grief (it's no more than a year since he killed her, and probably a hell of a lot less considering some townsfolk haven't noticed she's gone!)
Boone implies that he felt understood by Carla. The only distance between them was that he didn't want to tell her about Bitter Springs because he didn't want her to hate him for it. Which says both that she admired him and that he thought she was fundamentally honest and good. Totally crazy about each other. Andy makes it sound almost sickening!
I've invented exes for Boone including at least 2 who just want a big strong handsome first recon sniper who can transition quickly and neatly from spending out on her on the Strip when he's on leave to dying and leaving her with a nice pension lmao. But I just don't see Carla like that at all. Frankly, she could have done better. Everyone describes her as just about the most beautiful woman they ever saw. She hated Novac, but she followed Boone there because she loved him. They were talking about baby names :(
The big contrast between Carla and the Courier that I'm interested in and that applies pretty much however you conceive of your Courier is that she's a force of nature. She got jumped in the middle of the Mojave, buried and left for dead, and it didn't stop her basically conquering it. Maybe she's someone Boone can leave alone for 5 minutes without visions of her being abducted by Legion. But even once he gets over thinking that anyone he loves will be punished for his sins, he's going to be permanently aware of just how fragile everything is, even if his lover is someone no-one would describe as fragile
#not that I think Carla was especially fragile - just that she was obviously no match for that slaving party :/#Boone is probably weird about everyone being constantly armed at all times! in the shower - no excuse#fallout new vegas#craig boone#carla boone#carla#i hc boone as a total romantic and also somewhat of a country bumpkin#when he leaves home for the first time he ends up shagging a nice girl and he's genuinely like so when we get married...#worf behaviour omfg. no. okay. but it is. and i think it's him
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"You're pretty new at this whole relationship thing, huh?"
"... Yeah."
#outer range s2#outer range s2 spoilers#outer range 02x01#maria olivares#rhett abbott#isabel arraiza#lewis pullman#rhett x maria#um... idk i love them#but why would they do this to me? it's gonna sting so much when they break up#her teasing him is my favorite thing#but also her calling him ''wonderful''? my god the squeal i let out...#the smallest little smile and the way he looked at her before he said ''good'' after she said she likes how she feels when she's with him?!#now i'm rhett going ''don't do this'' but instead of with his truck it's with the show#my biggest gripe is that she doesn't help him that much with his broken arm... except maybe to help him shower? /hj#i get why he was the one to get the snacks... it was for the impact of the scene but still#it's great to see them laughing and smiling so much! love that!#i think she smiled at least once while her poor boyfriend was getting freaked out by cats#he could not keep a straight face for that long after saying ''what does that leave me?''#i wonder what he was gonna say before she said she liked how she feels when she's with him... was he giving her an out?#he has NOTHING pleasant to say about her not even a ''thank you'' after being called wonderful smh /j#tw: food?#my girl didn't even say ''bless you'' when he starting sneezing :(#i switched the last picture because i like the way they were smiling at each other when he got onto the bed#after maria laughs in the car after the buffalo run past them i think i can hear the lowest ''so are we-'' or ''sorry''?#and i think that may be because lew thought isa broke character?? but i'm not too sure... maybe it's rhett apologizing#but idk? maybe it's just rhett saying sorry because he felt self-conscious about maybe sounding stupid... or maybe i'm just hearing things#i think the way he even said ''okay'' after she took all the snacks was similar to the way she said it before she grabbed the snacks#look i understand not getting a shower scene but they truly robbed me of seeing rhett and maria with wet hair...#just another little nitpick but i think the ''i like who i am when i'm with you'' would hit harder if we saw maria in scenes without rhett
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OOOH MORE WIPS UPON YYEEE i amm gonna crawl outa this artblock even if it KILLS ME! and speaking of killsing. whats with THIS dead guy huh??? its chip jrwi baby yeaaah its undead chip baby yeaaaahh its chip n hes fucken dead and rotting and gross and OOHHH IM SO PROUD OF HIm(for being dead)
#riptide spoils#HEY REMEMBER THAT SPOILER TAG I MENTIONED I WOULD USE#ieah i know its ppprobably commonish knowledge rn what happpend to chip n stuff but yknwo.#still a pretty big fuckan spoily#ANYWAY LOOOK AT HOW MY STYLE SIMPLIFIES AND BOILS DOWN ALL THE COMPLEXITIES INTO CONSISTANCIES#i think the flow of my art going from more detailed to less detailed is fun heheheh weeee!! having fun and drawing!!#ALSO I MISSED DRAWING CHIPP OUHHH ITS BEEN SO LONNGGand now look at him...hes gorgus....HES SO CHARMINGLY GROSS#twirling my hair kicking my legs honesttllyyyyy ive been sooo in love w chip since i started the show... hes just so cute and stabbable#like i waant to see him in unimaginable pain and agony and also i want to see him hold hands w several other characters#INCREDIBLY easy to ship w people if u just look at how much every1 WANTS this guy. like remember how niklaus treated him. like damn.#ill draw another 'i ship chip w everyone' page again.someday.if u wanna see the first one u gotta go dig it up. go fetch.#anyway isnt it wack that chip is just dead now and hes jsut gotta deal w that and hes about to go into a big important arc as a dead boy#CAN U IMAGINE the reactions when he comes home. he wears the disguise ofc but all it takes is a hug to realize that he is rotting mush now#and also bones. HES TERRIFYING. hes gross. HES EVERYTHING U WANT. is he okay.#TRUST THE PROCESS! THE HOLY WATER SHOWER HURTS BUT WELL. MAYBE THATS HOW ITS SUPPOSED TO BE. UNDEAD BASTARD. FUUUCK#IM working on other doodly pages. finishing up an edyn one thats VRY OLD.also a queen doodly page.ouuhh i gotta relisten to som eps tho...#but i dont have TIME or SPACE FOR PODCATS RN!!! HELPP!!!WAT THE FUCK IS JUDGMENT??????AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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im so jealous of ppl who want to and can read fics often. i have to jump over like 6 mental walls before i can even open a fic, and then another 4 to actually begin reading
#and if something about the fic throws me off even a little i not only immediately stop reading it#but it sets the whole process back for every other fic in my marked for later pile#predominantly i think my current problem is time constraints? i *have* to sleep for my job or it puts#unnecessary risk on not only me but everyone else i meet on the road. and also im Driving All Day so i can't read then#and then i come home and somehow it takes me 4-5 hours to do shower/dinner/unwind#and then it's like okay great i can either dedicate an hour-ish to my own shit or i can read maybe#MAYBE 1-2k words of what is probably a 5k+ fic#and it's just. frustrating#i think i read probably 40 or more fics in 2022 and since then i've read maybe 5#anyway this is a cry for help maybe but mostly it's an apology to every fic author i know whose fics i have not and#maybe will not ever read#ily ur great pls keep writing
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Update 3: drove the asshole home bc I was so sure he was fr gonna die if he drove himself lmao. Poor dude looked so miserable, like bro was either holding back while we were working or he got worse the second he was able to relax, bc there wasn't a single moment of silence the whole drive back, dude was just curled up in the passenger’s seat shivering and being so fucking symptomatic. Like he was doing that thing where you basically cough all of the air out of your lungs then doing that rattly little inhale and then repeating, like it was Not Good 😬 0/10, hated being there to experience that in person, I was horrified, I want all of that to stay in audio recordings where it can't hurt me lmao. And he wasn’t sneezing a ton, but when he did, he stifled them until I told him to quit it bc the last thing he needs is a fucking ear infection on top of whatever the hell is already wrong with him, and even when he stopped, he was so congested that they sounded kinda stifled anyway 😭 like it's all objectively hot and I would've loved it had I just read it and not experienced it first hand, but unfortunately I'm a massive germaphobe and had to sit three feet away from this guy all damn day. So I bleached the hell out of my car and scrubbed myself down in the shower three times and I still don't feel like anything is clean enough, but I'm tired so it's gonna have to do for now lmao
#this is kinda snz kink ain't it?#whatever idc i feel so gross and I'm tired lmao#i might shower again before i go to bed idk lmao#OH ALSO important to note#he was stifling with his fingers so he was getting that shit all over his hands i was like IN MY CAR????? fucking horrific#again it's objectively hot but not when it's in front of me 😭#i hope y'all are enjoyjng this at least bc I'm not lmao i was trying not to pass away the whole day#like i feel so bad bc i consider my partner a friend so obviously i care about him and wanna help#but at the same time i literally can't train my disgust reaction out of me#I'm fucking weird when it comes to who I'm more okay with being around when they might be sick#like if he wasn't my usual partner or if he was just some random coworker i wouldn't have given him a ride#like i did it scared but i still did it lmao#anyway#i told him to text me tomorrow so i know he's not dead and to call if he needs anything#so we'll see what comes of that#and i will be passing away if he gets me sick so stay tuned for that#knock on wood i haven't been sick since i was 13 and I'm almost 22 now#and last time i was sick i had strep and bronchitis at the same time so that wasn't good#but other than that it's just been allergy flare ups#so other than the vaccine reactions i genuinely don't remember what it's like to actually be sick#so let's hope i just manage to avoid it 😭
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Well that was the most disgusting hour of my life! I need seven showers and a memory wipe!
#tw gross#putting it in the tags because EW#okay so I’ve had a fly problem and it was fucking b a d#I couldn’t figure out where they were coming from#I have slowly been going fucking insane#cleaning and deep cleaning for HOURS#DID YOU KNOW THAT SWARMS OF BUGS ARE MY ONE MAJOR FEAR!!!#I can’t even stand to listen about them. I skipped those episodes of the Magnus archives!!#today was the last straw. I got home from work and just. fucking lost it.#I cleaned. I mopped. I disinfected. I scrubbed.#nothing.#then. THEN. this one damn cubbard aboved my microwave.#I don’t use it often because it is tall and I am short.#APPARENTLY. I PUT SOME LOAFS OF BREAD UP THERE AT SOME POINT.#MAGGOTS. EVERYWHERE!!!#when I tell you I threw up. I mean it. i May never eat again!!!!!!!!!!#anyway thank god for bleach and that I still had all my disinfectant wipes. also thank god it’s trash day so allll that shit is immediately#outta my house.#seven. showers. fucking yuck.#vrrm vrrm#I can’t stand filth. I simply can’t do it!!! it makes me itch!! I want to peel my skin off!!!#if you guys wanna know what I was doing instead of bfiasc. well. *gestures*
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a closeted 20 year old that comes from a conservative rural family falling in love with a openly gay 18 year old on spanish prime tv
#a bit of background:#this is operacion triunfo a spanish tv show about sing! there are 16 contestants and they have to sing every monday a song#so they live in like a school academy where they have each day classes related to music (and they also rehearsal the song the have to#perform the mondays)#okay and like they have 0 connection with the rest of the world (they have phones but with no internet) so they know nothing about#what’s happening outside#SO there’s a youtube channel where they show each day what these contestants are doing (like big brother but related to music)#so um u get really attached to them cause u see them 24h!!!#so one of this contestants is juanjo (the one with the 🧢) and comes from a rural village and his fam is a bit conservative so he never#speaks about his sexuality - all the opposite he’s a bit ashamed of what he is bc he’s now used to act like himself#and then there is martin who is 18 and openly gay and like super open about all this topic super comfortable with himself etc#so this show has been going on for 3 weeks now okay? and in the first week u could see something was going on between these two#but since juanjo is so ashamed of this he rejected every type of touch that came for martin#martin got all ☹️ and he kinda told his friends there that he was having something with juanjo and he wasn’t receptive#(WE WERE SCREAMING IN TWITTER)#well since that moment it has been a fucking rollercoaster but juanjo is now a chiller and they cuddle and flirt in from of everyone#(they even have showers together cause rip they have 0 intimacy)#okay but today has been!!!! PUNTO DE INFLEXIÓN#juanjo has fallen in love so deeply with martin that oh god he needs to be by his side all the time omgomg#and yeah this vid happened tonight while their friends were singing and all twitter cried
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I try to autism my way into self care and stuff but I can't because all my favorite characters are robots who would be disgusted with organic practices in hygiene. I would be like, "I need to brush my teeth..." And my brain would be like, "Metal Sonic from the game franchise Sonic the Hedgehog wouldn't like that." And I suffer.
#Only Glamrock Freddy from the hit game Five Nights at Freddy's Security Breach would want me to brush my teeth#Metal Sonic would consider me a “Pathetic Organic” and I don't want to be that#Funtime Foxy would steal my teeth#Sometimes it helps if I do it out of spite#Metal Sonic#Chaos Sonic#Neo Metal Sonic#Funtime Foxy#Glamrock Freddy#I tagged all my favorite characters to show what I mean#I have more of course but these guys are always the first that come to mind#It's okay though#I myself am a favorite character and I would like my teeth to be brushed#(I also sometimes call it “Maintance” so my autistic brain thinks I'm doing a robot thing and goes “I LOVE ROBOTS”)#(And let's me brush my teeth/shower)
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boy smash mouth was right. the hits start coming and they don’t stop coming
#couldn’t sleep . worried about still missing cat. starting to think he’s dead (can’t mentally handle it though)#so i got up and started cleaning . sister calls me she’s on the way to the ER because she’s in excruciating pain. still don’t know#what’s wrong. okay well let me just get my mind off of it by doing the dishes- why is there no water coming from the sink.#check all the faucets. nothing. so now we gotta call the water company and ask what happened.#also i need a shower . and a warm nap. and good food. none of this is easily available rn so ummm i guess i’ll just sit here and play sims
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ugh he woke up BRIGHT red which could just be a flareup of baby eczema but is a little worrisome when combined with his extreme crankiness. of course the doctor has no appointments today or tomorrow and the only clinic that could see us is a 70 minute drive away. nurse triage line put us on hold for 25 min and then hung up on us lol. I called back using a different number and was told that the nurse triage line no longer exists (??) which cannot be true because the coordinator connected me to it. I will call back again but am just gonna give myself a little mental break first. he also screamed his head off when I tried to put him down for his first nap sooo we are napping on mom to ensure he gets some sleep. I think I am gonna officially call it: we are back in Survival Mode this week!!!! on the positive side I made him laugh a lot by showing him he could grab his own toes. this revelation was absolutely hilarious to him and he wanted me to help him grab them many times in a row. peak baby humor lol. we will get through this.
#I am also having SO much trouble with this one student and it’s really stressing me out but#I reached out to our coaching coordinators and set up time to brainstorm with them tomorrow about it#so I am at least taking steps there to resolve that#okay. I can’t shower right now because he’s napping on me and will wake up crying if I leave#I think I’ll try to get him to sleep until his nanny gets here at 11#then I’ll shower 11-11:30#do student work 11:30-1 (comments for NF and EP)#then student meetings 1-3#walk the dogs and talk to A about CC job from 3-3:45#then collect the boy from his sitter#all of this assuming his temp is normal when he wakes up#if not we’ll reschedule everything and go to urgent care#baby tag
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#cw vent#maybe i stayed up too late but suddenly i feel like crying#like really badly#i tried very hard today#but im still so scared#of everything#im being watched. i am absolutely sure im being watched#i can feel somebodys presence over my shoulder now and they can probably read what im typing#its been like this for so long#and#as im typing this it has been the sixteenth of juky for about two hours#twenty two hours left until my birthday#i will be sixteen#that is scaring me so much#i haven't progressed since i was maybe eleven#i still can't take care of mysekf. i shouldn't ve admitting to this but i genuinely can't do basic actions#i constantly forget to keep my body in a safe state. my hair is so messy. i get tok focused on other stuff and most of the time i just#forget to shower#i am genuinely so disgusting and unhygienic. i know this and want to fix it#but also.. i just wish i was like just an internet person#if i didn't have to eat or maintain my body i think id be a much happier person#im scared#how can i possibly be turning 16. i haven't even learnt how to eat food yet#most meals i can't eat without gagging or feeling like vomiting#i don't know why im typing all this out#for a while i was okay with it being my birthday soon. because i thought i would finally get attention and love from others#but im starting to realise that probably will not be happening#:[#why am i typing this out. my head hurts#and im gonna die
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