#and it's actually worse

[ivan-fyodorovich-k]

I haven't been drawing very much lately and have been thinking about it in part because I always assumed that that would be a part of my identity and a significant part of what I did as a human being--I am not sure I ever very seriously expected to make a living at it, but I thought I would do it at least on the side

Anyway one of the things you'll hear people say and I think that I think this, at least, sort of, is that you are supposed to make art for yourself first and foremost.

People say this I think to mean a couple of things, with which I do agree: that you should not be overly worried about the attention, that you should not be concerned with wealth or fame, and that you should not be cynically chasing down fads. That all makes sense to me.

But there's something in that framing--for yourself--that has a kind implication or edge to it that I think nudges the posture through into something curved inward in a bad way. Like you should really just do it to make yourself happy and to no greater purpose, in true indifference to every outside consideration.

I find that very empty. It's not only empty, I find it kind of saps my creative capacity. Not that you should never make art just for yourself but I feel like my best artwork has been produced when I felt like it had some purpose outside of me, or when I had someone in mind that I knew (or really hoped) would like it, or when someone had inspired me somehow

[mythtakens]

“these characters should be mentally healthy before they get together 😌” ummm no I actually think we should smash their mental illnesses together like clumps of play-doh and see what colors it makes

[lapdogchase]

[bacchuschucklefuck]

couldnt draw my thang for mid-autumn so treated myself to a calne redesign instead

[captainjonnitkessler]

You know I used to think "tumblr's absolute refusal to actually engage with the Trolley Problem in favor of insisting that there must be a third, morally pure option that doesn't require them to make a hard decision and anyone who asks them to make a binary choice is just a short-sighted idiot is really fucking annoying, but I guess it's not actually doing any harm".

Anyway that was before we asked tumblr at large to decide between "guy aiding a genocide but making progress elsewhere" and "guy who would actively and enthusiastically participate in a genocide and would also make everything else much, much worse for everyone elsewhere" and the response was that there must be a third, morally pure option that doesn't require them to make a hard decision and that anyone who asks them to make a binary choice is a short-sighted idiot.

[appaeve]

homesick

[vodid]

do you love the color of the songs

[trekkerac]

this is just what anxiety is like context

[daniclaytcn]

#evan buckley but it's just him progressively getting more unhinged over eddie

[chloesimaginationthings]

Michael can survive (almost) anything in FNAF

[lilyflxwers]

i. The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath, Sylvia Plath / ii. As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks 1964-1980, Susan Sontag / iii. Suddenly, It's December, Margaux Paul / iv. Waiting for This Story to End Before I Begin Another, Jan Heller Levi / v. The Picture of Dorian Gray, Oscar Wilde / vi. The Letters of Gustave Flaubert: 1830-1857, Gustave Flaubert / vii. unknown / viii. @inanotherunivrse / ix. @violentcherries / x. Heaven, Mieko Kawakami (thank u @aworsening for attaching the sources)

[shadebloopnik]

Radioapple twitter goin thru a thing rn

LIKE AMIR????

AMIR???? CHAT???? AMIR WHAT IS THIS BEHAVIOR?????

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

i think everyone who's ever had migraines should be financially compensated forever btw

[tobiasdrake]

My understanding of evil, age 0-10: MY NAME IS SMOG SMOKESLY AND I RUN THE POLLUTION FACTORY, IT PRODUCES POLLUTION!!! MUWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

My understanding of evil, in my teens: You can't really boil things down to good and evil. People are complicated. Everyone is the hero of their own story, and someone who seems evil to you is actually doing their best from their own perspective. If you could walk a mile in their shoes, you'd understand. There is no such thing as evil.

My understanding of evil, in my twenties: Look, it's basically just tribalism. We are all necessarily thrust into competition with one another. There are always going to be winners and losers. Whining about evil is just being upset that you lost the game.

My understanding of evil, in my thirties: MY NAME IS SMOG SMOKESLY AND I RUN THE POLLUTION FACTORY, IT PRODUCES POLLUTION!!! MUWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

[theoldkyokodied]

The Allegiance of the Ascended Vampire and the New God of Magic

[slavhew]

lonely