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I haven't been drawing very much lately and have been thinking about it in part because I always assumed that that would be a part of my identity and a significant part of what I did as a human being--I am not sure I ever very seriously expected to make a living at it, but I thought I would do it at least on the side
Anyway one of the things you'll hear people say and I think that I think this, at least, sort of, is that you are supposed to make art for yourself first and foremost.
People say this I think to mean a couple of things, with which I do agree: that you should not be overly worried about the attention, that you should not be concerned with wealth or fame, and that you should not be cynically chasing down fads. That all makes sense to me.
But there's something in that framing--for yourself--that has a kind implication or edge to it that I think nudges the posture through into something curved inward in a bad way. Like you should really just do it to make yourself happy and to no greater purpose, in true indifference to every outside consideration.
I find that very empty. It's not only empty, I find it kind of saps my creative capacity. Not that you should never make art just for yourself but I feel like my best artwork has been produced when I felt like it had some purpose outside of me, or when I had someone in mind that I knew (or really hoped) would like it, or when someone had inspired me somehow
#when I'm drawing purely for myself and no one else it's just a lot of women in rubber wetsuits and stuff#which I like obviously#but#it's a bit repetitive#also I feel like#there are some musical acts where you can tell they hit a point where they get to do whatever they want#and they just get very self-indulgent#and it's actually worse#the Wall by Pink Floyd is NOT as good as Animals#but the Wall was Roger Waters's masturbatory passion project and Animals was more the whole band#the Beatles also once they broke free of the label#sure they did Sgt Pepper#but they also did the White Album and Abbey Road#still good but there's an awful lot of fluff there
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“these characters should be mentally healthy before they get together 😌” ummm no I actually think we should smash their mental illnesses together like clumps of play-doh and see what colors it makes
#they should live under each other’s skin in a way that’s weird to everyone else. actually.#also on a more serious note since this is getting notes mental illness does not preclude people from deserving love#or the ability to give and receive it#it also does not make you inherently toxic#sometimes people are just toxic anyways of course#and a lot of people enjoy a toxic ship and are relating that to this and that’s cool!#but like#if you believe that’s the only option you’re wrong buddy#people can be worse together but they can also be better#acting like a character or a person has to ‘fix’ their trauma or what have you to be worthy is. a fucking weird mindset.#but anyways!
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#text#ocd tag#ITS SO MUCH WORSE WHEN I HAVW AN ACTUAL REASON TO CHECK SOMETHING#LIKE I AM GENUINELY REALLY BAD WITH MAPS#HOWEVER I HAVE ASKED THE FOURTH TIME IN LIKE TWO HOURS I THINK WE’RE GOOD NOW#ocd#peer reviewed banger
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Bruce dropped out of medical school and as much as he tries to hide it, his kids all find out. Ofcourse they never let him live it down after that
Emo 21-year-old Bruce: You're not my father, Alfred!
Alfred: Quite right. I have a medical degree, and you don't.
Bruce:
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Dick: Hey I'm dropping out of Gotham University
Bruce: What? You're quitting college halfway?! Unacceptable, you cannot just give up on your engineering degree-
Dick: I did not just hear the failed doctor say that
Bruce:
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Bruce, fuming: You left my side tonight to go and gallivant around with harley quinn? A villain?
Steph: So what if she's a villain, Bruce? Atleast the villain has a doctorate.
Bruce:
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Bruce, bandaging Duke's wound because Alfred was busy: There, all done
Duke: Woah, didn't expect that from a college dropout
Bruce:
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Bruce: Stop ignoring my orders in the field! You need to listen, I have more experience-
Jason, as red hood, with his PhD in English: Which one of us actually has a Dr in front of their name?
Bruce:
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Tim: So I'm dropping out of high school
Bruce: You too?! First Dick and now you?!
Tim: No, first it was you, then Dick, and now me
Bruce:
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Bruce: Damian, your recent report card indicates you're falling behind in Biology
Damian: Tt. Must run in the family, then.
Bruce:
#cass just stares at him disapprovingly till he caves#worse if Damian grows up and gets an actual medical degree#the thought of alfred being a usual asian parent level of disappointed in his failed degree is so funny to me#bruce wayne#dick grayson#jason todd#batfam#tim drake#damian wayne#batman#duke thomas#stephanie brown#batfam headcanons#batfamily#alfred pennyworth#nightwing#red hood#red robin#dc robin#signal dc#robin#batfamily headcanons#batfam shenanigans#incorrect batfam#incorrect batfamily quotes#dc#dc comics#batman shitpost#batman comics
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Ghost Jay and Bruce - Ghost Jay witnessing how fucked up Bruce got after his death. And accepting how people move on (or as they seem to).
Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 of Ghost Jason series
#jason todd#bruce wayne#dick grayson#tim drake#dc robin#robin#batman#dc comics#dc#batfam#batfamily#my art#Bruce going to a baseball game alone#to think about the happier times#but actually feels worse#next is timmy!#ghost!jason
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couldnt draw my thang for mid-autumn so treated myself to a calne redesign instead
#calne ca#hatsune miku#VOCALOID#cw: body horror#<- And I Fucking Mean That We Are Not Fucking Around Today#well we are. as in I drew this as a fuckaround treat for myself#but the body horror tag is the most warranted its ever been on this blog#ask to tag#I am as ever on my journey to make calne ca Worse. her OG version is too cool. even the crab ver is too cool#I need her to be worse to look at. I am also getting myself into to mood to test my hand at boarding a pmv for my friend's cover#I think my thought for this was ''I should try and give her a more insectoid bodyplan''#which in this mostly means gently three-part body and six limbs (my favourite amount of limbs to draw rn)#actually almost gave her eight but didnt like how that silhouette came out so I mermaided her uh. abdomen I guess#though maybe next time I do this I should push that idea more. the head and torso are still very distinct for one unified part#I feel like one of my old attempts was onto something with like. a more horizontal body plan... well! live and learn etc#happy late mid autumn I guess. I should play with touys about it... I miss model kits. mayhaps...
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You know I used to think "tumblr's absolute refusal to actually engage with the Trolley Problem in favor of insisting that there must be a third, morally pure option that doesn't require them to make a hard decision and anyone who asks them to make a binary choice is just a short-sighted idiot is really fucking annoying, but I guess it's not actually doing any harm".
Anyway that was before we asked tumblr at large to decide between "guy aiding a genocide but making progress elsewhere" and "guy who would actively and enthusiastically participate in a genocide and would also make everything else much, much worse for everyone elsewhere" and the response was that there must be a third, morally pure option that doesn't require them to make a hard decision and that anyone who asks them to make a binary choice is a short-sighted idiot.
#there is not a third option. it is either trump OR biden#and one of those will be much MUCH worse for palestine#i'm really really sorry that these are the options. i wish they weren't.#but WHAT third option are you trying to take here? what on earth is your proposed outcome#that will actually make things better for palestine?#because letting trump win the election is NOT going to help them#i'm sorry but you need to set aside your feelings and take the option that will lead to less harm to palestine in the long run#you talk such a big game about how people need to be willing to make sacrifices to help palestine#but you yourself aren't even willing to hold your nose and vote to stop things from getting worse?#or did you think 'sacrifice' only meant not getting mcdonalds for a few months?#us politics
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i. The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath, Sylvia Plath / ii. As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks 1964-1980, Susan Sontag / iii. Suddenly, It's December, Margaux Paul / iv. Waiting for This Story to End Before I Begin Another, Jan Heller Levi / v. The Picture of Dorian Gray, Oscar Wilde / vi. The Letters of Gustave Flaubert: 1830-1857, Gustave Flaubert / vii. unknown / viii. @inanotherunivrse / ix. @violentcherries / x. Heaven, Mieko Kawakami (thank u @aworsening for attaching the sources)
#grief#the solace of missing you#losing you was horrible#losing myself was worse#i am chained up inside myself#web writing#web weaving#word weaving#spilled words#words words words#words#spilled thoughts#spilled poetry#actually bpd#bpd#dealing with grief#grief poetry
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homesick
#big ordon village enjoyer#uh uh maybe hot take I actually really love the slow opening in tp#getting to run around ordon village and meet everyone made it 10 billion times worse when The Horrors struck#twilight princess link#link#midna#twilight princess#legend of zelda#loz#Snowpeak Ruins#comic
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do you love the color of the songs
#this was a horrific idea i hope it plagues you with its Length (it could be worse)#this was actually a synesthesia practice but i toned it wayyy down to maintain the sky's color. u can see it if u squint#i can reblog w the og if we really want this to be egregiously long <3#maccadam#soundwave#laserbeak#ravage#frenzy#rumble#buzzsaw#transformers#vart
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this is just what anxiety is like context
#Gravity falls#Gravity falls au#Frankenghost au#my stuff#fiddleford mcgucket#6 locks is nothing to fiddleford#i imagine having anxiety but not remembering where it comes from would be worse actually.#you can't rationalise it down if you dont remember what its even from#but you can rationalise it up!
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#evan buckley but it's just him progressively getting more unhinged over eddie
#911edit#911#911 abc#*#evanbuckleyedit#eddiediazedit#buddiedit#buddie#tbh if you ask me the 'first girl you slept with' line is actually worse than the sprained ankle#like what an absolutely bonkers thing to say
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Michael can survive (almost) anything in FNAF
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#fnaf movie#michael afton#helpy#fnaf sister location#fnaf pizzaria simulator#Michael has a very set number of skills#he’s actually almost indestructible#UNLESS it gets hot#This is so funny to me#LIKE I’ll be honest I wouldn’t last in the heat as well especially in small stuff rooms#but specifically funny to Michael#cause he’s gone through so much worse in comparison#dude lost all his organs and bones and he got back up quicker than he does to heat#DUDE lives in Utah and can’t handle a summers day 💀#this is why all his shirts didn’t have sleeves as a kid#dude was dying out there#this is how you can tell he’s British#he longs for a rainy day
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Radioapple twitter goin thru a thing rn
LIKE AMIR????
AMIR???? CHAT???? AMIR WHAT IS THIS BEHAVIOR?????
#he is feeding the fire in the worse possible way and I absolutely LOVE AND HATE IT#AMIR STOP FEEDING MY DELUSIONS BUT ALSO KEEP GOING#THE WAY I CHOKED LMFAOOOO#bloopnik rambles#amir talai#twitter#radioapple#radioapple twitter#appleradio#amir talai being actual chaotic God alastor except alastor would never say this shit😭#hazbin hotel#alastor the radio demon#alastor#hazbin hotel lucifer#alastor x lucifer#hazbin lucifer#lucifer morningstar#duckiedeer#hazbin hotel alastor#hazbin alastor#vivziepop
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i think everyone who's ever had migraines should be financially compensated forever btw
#camera talks#disability stuff#this is for my chronic migraine girlies (gn) <3#i think we should all get 1 million million dollars everyday actually#this is the worst fucking night of my life (everytime i have migraines) (specifically rn tho)#chronic pain#chronic migraine#migraines#chronically ill#disabled#disclaimer because idk I’ve got a lot of notes on this#I have diagnosed chronic migraines. I used to have them 5-6 times a week#now with medication on a good week I’ll only be affected 2-3 days#on bad weeks it’s much worse#anyways don’t doubt my condition I know what I’m talking about thx
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lonely
#homestuck#hom3stuck#home24uck#home2t4ck#dirk strider#lil cal#admin draws#fanart#do you ever think about cal is the only company he had for. a while#it was an empty cal. but i dont know if that makes it worse actually#and then fate just said nope you gotta drop him into the depthy. srry not sorry. fu.#im posting shit so out of order my god. this has been up on twt for like a few days now.#drawing solkats rn so i might post that next regardless of whar else i drew lel
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