#and it sucks bc there’s not rly anything you can do?
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maybe it’s just me but i think anyone who continually misgenders someone they’re close with Several years after they’ve come out to them should be stoned to death
#like there’s just not really an excuse at that point imo#like Ok cool you did literally nothing with that information this entire time. That’s awesome 👍#i’m not talking abt slipping up once. i get that esp older family members w memory problems can make mistakes#i’m talking like Continually Repeatedly Daily#and it sucks bc there’s not rly anything you can do?#like in my case she corrects herself after like 5 seconds. which is at least something#so there’s not really any conversation to be had. she Knows#she just doesn’t think before she speaks and she clearly hasn’t taken the time to internalize#who i am as a person vs who she’s known me as and who she wants me to be#so it’s just like Cool guess i’ll just keep getting misgendered all the time 👍 by literally the only person who does anymore lmao#like bruh i literally have a beard lmao idk what’s not clicking
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i think honestly what irritates me about yoshidas work SO much is that people will tell you that banana fish is THE gay manga (ignoring the many things that came before it and were more groundbreaking, ie MW literally having on screen (or like. on panel but still.) gay sex in it and that came out like a decade before BF did) when there really isn't barely any gay rep outside of the pedophiles and the one time ash drops the f slur. like im sorry but somehow yasha, a work she wrote in 1996, has more gay rep in it but also has the same issues.
i truly do not get how people can enjoy banana fish with the rampant racism every 2 pages or the rampant sexual assault plotlines (on women and ash bc he is just... written like how yoshida writes women lmao) that are handled IMPOSSIBLY bad and sincerely i hoped yasha would be better because it had been like a decade or so between works. and then it proceeds to continue with the heres our blonde genius protagonist who everyone is weird as fuck to and will sexually harrass and everyone finds it a VERY funny joke to point out how feminine he is when theres barely any women in the work (if you exclude the ones that are being raped/killed/creepy to minors. which to be fair yasha has toned down the sa a LOT) and that its funny that hes kind of gay except not really!! and its just absurd to me how it just persists in all of her stuff because she is not an author that handles gay stuff well. like the scene in banana fish where ash is completely ok getting gang raped and did it solely to get into the hospital when its been SHOWN that he has a lot of trauma with that. and then right after his friend makes a joke at ash's expense about that. like sincerely and genuinely is this what we are hyping up as the old retro gay manga. go read some tezuka and stop reading shit that the most the main characters do is share a kiss in a nonromantic sense and is obsessed w making every gay person be evil!!
#twist rambles#sorry mw u will always be famous to me (horrible fucking manga to experience for like 50% of the time but also it rocksss and theres#about anything tw worthy in there but i wish more ppl did read it)#sorry im like. i like to read her stuff bc her art is interesting to me but oh my god it makes me so angryyyy#rape mention#ask to tag#like... you do not understand my one sided rivalry w her it is SO intense like... bf was one of the worst reading experiences ive ever had#my tzk gay recs are: black jack (protag literally has a transmasc ex bf) and mw (for aforementioned reasons but its like. genuinely bonkers#and honestly there r a lot of minor characters that r lgbt in his works and like. can we please read smth that doesnt suck 100% of the time#like idk god bf is so baffling to me bc theres NOTHING there other than like. the new horrors every chapter. and yasha seems to be reusing#some plot points so it double sucks. haunted by the one analysis showing how the two had similar themes and point 1 was literally child#exploitation like... man. god it sucks. like not that mw is perfect bc its not and its a media i have a lot of thoughts on but man. id take#that over bf anyday bc like... sincerely how is anyone looking past the horrors there!! the story is a jumbled mess and it rly doesnt have#much to sayyyy but whatever lol!! id love if the characters were in a better media id love if ash didnt end the story feeling positively#towards the man who groomed him but whateverrrr lol#this is super disorganized as a post but like. genuinely it is so infuriating bc some of the plot concepts in yasha have potential and then#she keeps doing this like!!
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nooo im all caught up on my manhwa and now i have to actually do something else
hell world
#*scoffs* as if i don't have a bunch of other comics and some video games lined up#BUT!!!! 😩 u know when u get sucked into something for weeks or a month then u finish and face The Void#yeah lol. it's still going too ૮ – ﻌ–ა I'll try 2 keep up#i been rereading Tower of God for a while tho 😹 it's sooo good.#it's rly funny it just has the one season animated because this is one of those cases where you TRULY have not seen anything yet#i assumed there was just enough material for like one or two more seasons but oh no. lmaooo#it's like ~12% of the story and there's hella seamless time skips bc doing things actually takes a realistic amount of time lol#so there's still A Lot to explore. i already liked it but i found it a lot more enjoyable the second time around 0:#“takes a realistic amount of time” ← it is seamless bc u do not have to necessarily see or follow them thru this time#u can just b at the result sometimes. the pacing is always p good tho. it never rly feels like it drags on longer than it needs to#except maybe the last like 50-100 chapters bc the artist needed to take it easier‚ which makes for some good long visuals#but they do kinda feel like padding for the story that drag a bit before getting to the point#but this is after being absolutely spoiled for like 560 chapters which are long as fuck themselves. the scrollbar is like 1-1.5mm 😩#on top of it moving fast and staying interesting like berserk does. kinda stumbling frm one thing to the next but#yeag :3 yayy it was very nice and i will be referring back to it a lot as a means to keep up w the story and to practice my drawing
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sry i also started thinking abt how great my life would be if i was trapped in a timeloop again. i meant again as in i thought abt it again not as in I was trapped in a timeloop and id love 4 it 2 happen again. never been in one unfortunately.
#id be so awesome in the timeloop dude. you guys dont get ittt id slay in the timeloop#id memorize every single thing that happens nad itd be awesome id write a book abt everything that happens even. and id be able to sleep so#much and therd be no consequences for anything (aside from. what. me being stuck in the timeloop longer? DONT MIND IF I DO!!!)#and like if itsba 24 hour timeloop. dude i can do anything in those 24 hours. i could go across the world PROBABLY#like i could just empty allll of my savings and book a same day no stops flight . and then id just like be somewhere else. ajd i wouldnt#even have to worry abt getting back bc timeloop my guy!!!#sighh .. yk. every day alreadh feels all the same due to depression so mayyybe everyday feeling the same due to timeloop wouldnt actually b#awesome but i think it would be avtually bc the reason every day feeling the same feels Bad is bc i know they shouldnt.ik theyre different#im justgoing through the motions every day and i hate it. if every day actually was the same ? dudeee i wouldnt be sad abt every day#feeling rhe same bc it straighr up would be. i wouldnt feel like im missing out on something... And idbe able to DO different things bc i#wouldnt have to worry like Omg what will happen tmrw if i do something reckless today.. omg i cant spend this money bc rent is due next#week. omg i cant go do thus activity bc i have 2 work today.. Brother nobody has to work in a timeloop!!!#and all id have to do is like. kill somebody every so often so the time god or whateber doesnt think ive learned my lesson. and itd suck to#kill someone yk id feel badd. ig rly i could just rob a bank and not have 2 kill someone#well yk. some ppl. i would murder. mainly bc i think itd be kiiinda funny. but i shant go into thay more#Dude i could literally learn every language and read every single bookkkkkk god i wanna be in a timeloop so bad id thrive in the timeloop
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Another highlight from dnd last night
Tfw ur at 14 hp and get hit for 5 damage. And u try to update ur hp to 9, but accidentally just make ur hp 194. Whoops! Let me just take that back down- WHOOPS! I "lost" 185 hp, so the blood mechanic thinks I took a MASSIVE amount of damage. Whoops! I have bled all over the map.
#speculation nation#blood/#fang#d&d#everyone was just like 'oh GOD what the fuck did you DO'#we had to clear the blood from the map bc we just couldnt fucking see Shit#it's hilarious but also interesting bc u can rly see fang's weird blood. we have it set so it's darker than normal blood#anyways yea this is from where i picked up our unconscious buddy and was trying to run off the map#bc we were in an infinite spawn situation with these bog zombies. but Whoops i got grabbed lol#i actually didnt completely suck ass last session. unlike the session before.#i still didnt manage to hit anything but i managed to grab this dude and go Running.#i was shifted so i had advantage on strength checks (homebrew shifting feature bc i Never used the claw attacks lmao)#managed to quickened spell heal myself which thank god i did bc i took 10 damage next turn#so i wouldve gone down had i not healed myself#i Love being a multiclass bard ❤#bard sorcerer so i can actually fucking use bonus actions sometimes. via quickened spells or bardic inspiration#wizards dont have Shit for bonus actions usually. i like being able to do more shit.#anyways yea. i was still a total punching bag. took like half the hits in this fight i swear#but i managed to keep myself up And grab our buddy so he wasnt left behind. and that's what matters ❤
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so to do my testing i need a state id but to get my state id i need a social security card bc i lost mine so im waiting up to 15-20 days for social security to send me a verification number in the mail so that i can apply for a new social security card and then ill have to wait for that to get to me and then i can go get my ky id and hopefully not get in trouble for taking so long to get my id changed and THEN i can schedule my ged classes. and by then ill probably have finished my math and science ged readys which is good and ummm i think thats all. itll prolly be a permit rather than a state id so i can work on learning to drive since we have a nice Not horrible car . and then ill know how to drive which will be helpful to me even if it takes me a while to actually own a car... but itd be helpful to Be able to drive yk. even if i am quite late... and once i get all of that done then thats like finally finished and then i can get a job again and start saving up money for when i am ready to move out...
#and once i am Making money again ill feel better going to the dr for all of my stuff bc my mom says itd be covered by insurance but im#rly rly paranoid abt there being copays or something yk . so id like to Have money jic since i currently have. 3 dollars at all#but yes. and im rly lucky im able to live with my family bc like. they wont Make me pay rent they might ask for help which ill gladly do bc#1. yk and 2. i have been living here free of charge for almost a year 3. even all that aside i want the kids to be able to keep living here#and also be able to eat so idm helping with groceries and the mortgage or whathave you... and itll all be cheaper than paying rent at my#own place anyways so i can build up a good net AND ill have money to start donating again bc i hate not being able to donate it makes me#feel so useless. that was the best part of living in wa was that i Had money to be spending and donating was one of the like. bc i have a#lot of hangups abt money so pretty much spending any money made me feel sick and i had to punish myself for it BUT donating bypassed that.#not that the benefit of donating is that i can spend money without feeling bad but it is something i Want to do because i want to be able t#help however i can . obviously. i am rambling now but basically yes im excited to have a job again#idt ill have money to get people gifts this year for xmas Which sucks but hoooooooopefully i will have a job by february.......... dependin#wewill see how it all works out. im hoping february bc thats the start of the 1st wave of bdays. well . technically january is but thats My#bday so it doesnt count.... bc tag feb father mar weeman may. and then lamp sep and mother oct and i couldnt get either of them gifts and#Yeah i feel evil#BUT!!!! next year i will be able to afford everything all of it ill have money and a job and i can get ppl gifts i love buying ppl gifts#even tho im bad at it i fear. bc i dont have much experience last year was the first year i got to buy xmas gifts for everybody... and bday#for some even :] but ya. ive loved buying gifts since 8th grade which was the first time i was able to buy gifts for my friends bc my dad#gave me his credit card for the dc trip. bc we were on kiiiiind of difficult terms in 2018 LOLLL. so he was doing pretty much anything to#get me to talk to him again the perks of having to go to court against your parent. and also girl that restraining order was meaningless bu#whatever i cant think abt it or ill get kinda mad so were moving on Oh im cramping that sucks okayyyyy. anyways. YES so thats your connor u#date i think these tags are gonna get cutoff in a major way. wait nvm i only had like 22... ok well ending it here goodbye my diary
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#like idk i never realized just how bad she hurt me. i didnt even rly realize she hurt me at all#bc there are so so so many ways she sldve reacted so much worse. but like i never thought someone cld just straight up ignore it.#like i get the way i told her was dumb and confusing. ok. i can understand that. whatever#but idk. she said she wished my sister had told her years earlier so that she cldve helped her back then#but then suddenly it's different when it's me. suddenly it's 'but youve always been my little girl' and 'oh i dont know that sounds dangerou#s' and 'are you sure?' and 'how long have you felt like this'#well it's been almost 5 fucking years now and it hasnt changed. i havent changed. fuck#i trusted her. i trusted her to be there for me and to support me and to accept me and she threw it back in my face and never even blinked#i can never ever trust her again and she doesnt care. she doesnt even know bc shes so wrapped up in all the fucking lies she tells herself#fuck. she did everything wrong. fuck. i can never fully trust anyone with this part of me again bc of her#and it's awful bc it's such an important part of me. it brings me so much joy and i think on it often and i love myself for it#but it's just simmering in my chest and every time i think of letting it hit air again i freeze bc i thought it was safe once and it WASNT.#i wanted to get my name changed before high school. i wanted to start the medical process. i wanted all the thing i thought shed do for me.#my wants and my understanding of my identity has changed now but it still hurts.#it hurts so bad to see other ppl my age get all of that and to have the support of their family and to not be afraid to put a name to it all#im happy for them. but it's so awful hearing her point those ppl out w no self awareness like oh thats so good for them isnt that sweet#I AM RIGHT HERE! YOU COULD BE DOING ALL OF THAT! I NEEDED YOU TO BE THAT FOR ME!#and every time she does acknowledge it she gets it completely wrong or it's just to bemoan how little she understands#'oh everyones changing their name now its so confusing' 'im really trying i dont know what else you want from me' NO YOURE NOT! YOURE NOT!#YOUVE NEVER BEEN WILLING TO TRY. NOT FOR ME.#you never fucking loved me you loved the idea of what you thought i would be and you cant fucking let it go even when the truth is staring#you dead in the face. fuck. you complain about how i 'hate you' or 'think youre stupid' well maybw treat me with an ounce of respect and act#like you understand the things youve EXPLICITLY BEEN TOLD. even a little.#but honestly it's too late. if she were to suddenly have a change of heart now i wouldnt give a damn.#the damage is done you dont get to have this part of me and act like youre such a good and supportive mother.#i cant even say i hate her. i love her but shes hurt me more than anyone else ever has and i can never trust her to actually love me or even#fucking see me or support anything about me that actually matters to me#i dont know. i dont know. thinking about it again.#ive thought abt telling my dad. not bc it wld do any good but bc ik he values honesty and maybe hed throw me a 'damn that sucks'#my sister said this is something i have to fight on but she doesnt get it. i have no ground to stand on as far as shes concerned
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man. getting a little sick of being everyones 15th option for everything. when is it my turn to be someone's first choice :^[
#or even second tbh I'll take it#i had a couple old friends from college msg me recently to tell me what theyve been up to#which is sweet and i care abt them n wanna hear it! but they dont ask after me or show any interest in how I'm doing#and it makes me feel like I'm just their journal or smth. a brick wall they happen to be standing near#don't get me wrong I love to be useful. but when ppl only ever interact w u bc they need smth from u. well.#rly not doing anything good for this complex im developing where my self worth is directly tied to my usefulness to other ppl lmfao#i dont want to be ppls fucking dog!! or not any more than i already am but whatever thats all im good for i guess!!#and i desperately want someone to be my fave person rn bc all my energy is going nowhere + im at my best when im at my most devoted#so ppl treating me like this rn is just making me incredibly vulnerable to being taken advantage of.#like yeah i am eager to please and ill follow anyone around and do whatever for a crumb of attention but maybe#if you're actually my friend u shouldnt be encouraging that behaviour. even if it makes u feel good like cmon thats not so cool man#or if you ARE going to encourage it then maybe u should acknowledge the power dynamic ur creating + try not to abuse it. idk 🤷♂️#urgh idk maybe im just saying words rn im very tired#I just feel like all the friendships etc I have atm are slipping into that dangerously unbalanced zone + becoming v one way#and I don't know what I'm doing wrong I'm trying the best I can and I guess its just not enough for anyone and that really really sucks#I'm doing better mentally rn but I dont currently have a support system + there are a lot of destabilising forces in my life#so im just. worried abt the direction things could take if I lose this foothold I've dragged myself onto yknow.#and I wouldnt have to be so worried abt that all of the time if I just had someone literally anyone I could rely on or even trust#but oh well. it is what it is. doing all I can to take care of myself so hopefully it won't come to that anyway.#sorry for rambling on so much if u read this far I'm giving u a kiss on the cheek don't worry abt me honey I've got this#anywayy goodnight#.vent#.diaries
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Haaah. Is it really too much to ask to have just one day (1) where I'm not achy and in pain?
#valid#diary#personal#chonic pain#haaah. its my hands today and my legs.#its bc i was working yesterday so im very sore. haaaah.#i honestly just wish i could have even a teny tiny bit of time where im not in pain#usually its not quite this bad but its probably been 3-4 days since i last felt mostly okay#ive just been in varying levels of moderate pain#probably between a 3-5 depending?#either way i just took an advil cold n sinus. bc i also have shit sinuses. which means ive also had a lot of headaches lately.#...they last so long bc i take Ibuprofen and forget to take advil cold n sinus instead bc that has ibprofen in it.#im really tired yknow? its not super painful or anything. but its super hard to do things i wanna lately.#my hands n body just arent moving as id like.#its really frustrating tbh. idk. i know i dont have it as bad as others bc i dont get dislocations rly.#but i just have chronic pain constantly. which makes it hard to function. especially bc im already so tired always.#in some ways id be nice if it was worse bc then id be or something.#it sucks being told all you can do for this crap is massage and physio and painkillers.#i dont think ive really ever been able to just enjoy shit. ive always gotten hurt so easily. theres always something fucked up#haaah. im really tired of dealing with my body. i wish it wasnt so ill.
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also its very funny bc choosing a misdeeds mission will have mistos going up to you and being like 😒 do you REALLY wanna do this one. like the one im doing rn is about this sibling who was like hey. i dont want my sister to date. kill the guy shes dating. and mistos was like this is mushy relationship stuff and i dont wanna get involved :///// and when i get there, shalvas starts the battle with smth along the lines of i really dont want to do this but here we go. literally what is his deal
#twist rambles#♟#normally hes like ok ^-^ lets go into battle. its very funny to me bc its not JSUT my guilt over doing anything bad in games but they#will just be fucking miserable when u do evil missions. its very funny to me bc like. shalvas DOES have an established character. 10000% bu#if vol/foss was popular i knowwww people would give him the giorno treatment of no personality and he sucks to a majority of people.#but anyways it IS silly to me that mistos has to give his 2 cents on every mission you go on. even if its not an evil one. i think he prob#is mad at shalvas for taking this evil mission but shalvas is also on mad at me island due to me making him do this one so. really its only#fair. or something. its silly to me i like the little touches that they add. bc idk like normally ur protag in a game is pretty moldable to#ur choices. ie like. tw2s you have to pick the guys that suck so bad or the elves we are insanely racist to for a lot of the game#and like. when u look canonically. peepaw does notttt like to pick sides w the war. and esp since he doesnt have his memory back fully by#the time he makes that choice theres no way that he can use his prev knowledge from the LAST war to inform his choice. and that game treate#it as like yeah siding w the govt who are notoriously rly bad or the elves who are well. they sure fit them into the trope of i wrote a bad#guy and he has valid points but to make sure ppl hate him i have to have him do extreme evil. so u dont WANT to choose the elves side.#unless u suffered thru the really fucking bad racism in the books irt that. which i did. so for me its very funny to like. see vol/foss#handle the thing of ok u have choices and one of them is something it doesnt seem like the protag would do. in a more natural way ig.
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NSFW Alphabet (Logan Howlett)
𐙚 cw: everything nsfw that you can imagine. i made logan SO fucking horny lol 𐙚 a/n: all of these are just my ~opinions~ so feel free to disagree w me lol also maybe a lil self indulgent so probs not v accurate to wolvie but its alr :,) 18+ blog!! you are responsible for your own media consumption. if any of the above makes you uncomfortable, do not proceed.
A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)
— he helps clean you up, considering he goes like 4 fucking rounds and by the end of it, you can barely walk. helps you to the bathroom n all hehe
B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)
— hmm.. feel like his favorite body part on himself is his arms. and on you it’s your ass. he’s def an ass man.
C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)
— so sorry but he cums a LOT. like a fuckton of cum, no pun intended.
D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
— he works out, not just bc of his job etc, but bc he likes to be able to throw you around like a ragdoll ohmygoshhh.
E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)
—mhmm yes maam. he knows exactly what he’s doing, very experienced.
F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)
— rly likes standing up, holding you under your legs. ALSO doggy and he pulls your hair, so your back is arched. ALSO ALSO,, missionary bc he likes to see your face
G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)
— def serious. never goofy. maaaybe if yall are drunk he’d be less serious but other than that.. nah.
H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
— he’s hairy for sureee. very hairy. keeps it tidy for you tho.
I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)
— hahaha.. not romantic. he’s dominant and rough and mean. talks dirty, slaps, chokes
J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)
— tbh, feel like he doesn’t masturbate. like he’d 100% rather fuck you, and if he can’t, he’d rather just wait til he can.
K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)
— dirty talk, spanking, lil bit of bdsm, likes to handcuff you sometimes, i could go on..
L = Location (favorite places to do the do)
— bed or shower. he likes the shower for easy cleanup heheh. but tbh will fuck you anywhere if he’s horny enough
M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
— lingerie. and when you sit on his lap!! also when you touch him a lot in public, doesn’t even have to be dirty, just like holding his arm, rubbing his back,,,, oof
N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)
— cuckholding. he’s way too possessive and jealous. not that you’d want another man to fuck you bc he does such a good job.
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
— definitely likes eating pussy. feel like he can cum JUST from eating you out. you love sucking his dick too though. 69 often.
P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
— starts out nice & slow, so you can get used to his cock, but once you’re good, he is a fucking jackhammer; rough and fast.
Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
— i feel like he fucks whenever and wherever he can, no matter the time limit. he is horny. like all the time. so yeah he likes quickies.
R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)
— likes to experiment. normally it’s you bringing up a new idea and he’s always down to try it, but if he’s not a fan, he will tell you
S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)
— oof.. multiple rounds. that man has STAMINA. like 3-4 rounds, or more depending on his day. typically ends with you begging for him to cum bc you can’t take anymore.
T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
— he doesn’t care for toys, just prefers you and him alone together. but wouldn’t be opposed to trying it if you really wanted to try something
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
— he loves to tease you; loves to watch you squirm just from his words
V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
— he definitely does dirty talk and isn’t against moaning/grunting but he’s not loud.
W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)
— just imagining you in the middle of fucking and you ask him to slap you, and he’s a lil hesitant at first bc he doesn’t want to hurt you but you both end up liking it ughhh
X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)
— he’s big girl… very girthy, and like 8 inches long.
Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
— HIIIGH. extremely high. can go multiple rounds, but it’s good bc you can too
Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
— he falls asleep like right after, soon as he and you are cleaned up, he’s knocked out
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pleaseee thigh riding with sana. shes extremely mean after a little teasing. lots of degrading. :D
the edge's temptation
synopsis: what the ask said
warnings: edging, spanking, pussy spanking, swearing, mentions of exhibitionism, kind of petplay? but not rly idk reader wears a collar and leash and sana calls her pup like once, grinding, thigh-riding, strap-ons, degradation
w/c: 2k
a/n: this has been sitting in drafts since... june 22 LMAOO id write like one sentence a week i cant write smut id rather kiss a man but here it is at last!! idk if the anon who req this is still here after all the drama but i think there are others who'll like this anyway bcs yall all horknee so enjoy!
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your girlfriend was impossible. she had already edged you twice tonight, and an orgasm was nowhere in sight.
"s-sana p-le-ase!"
she tuts, "what do you want?"
"wanna c-cum! p-please i've been- fuck- good!"
"good? bending over and sucking off half the audience is good?"
"i- i didn't- i didn't!"
"you basically did. you think just anyone can touch you? is that what we're doing now? fucking whore. you'd do anything for attention wouldn't you?"
"n-no! o-only yours- shit- sana please- i'm not- i'm good-"
"good girls don't lie. what you are is a liar and a slut. maybe i should just give you what you want. i can bring you back out there, fuck you in front of the entire award show. then they'll know they can't touch you right?"
you pulse at the thought, you know she'd never actually do it, she was way too possessive to let anyone else see you bare and ruined for her, but the slim possibility, the very real irritation she was exuding had you picturing exactly the situation she described. and fuck she was right, she knew you too well. you'd love to be claimed in front of everyone, for the whole world to see just how good sana could make you feel.
she chuckles darkly, ripping her fingers out of you, "clenching around me at that? and you say you're good. fucking pathetic. suck."
it's not a command. she shoves her fingers into your open, panting mouth roughly, chin tilting up at the sight of you. your lips immediately close around her fingers and you suck your slick off her digits obediently, eyes lidded, dizzy from the taste of yourself and the way she was treating you.
sana's eyes roam over the expanse of skin while you suck on her fingers, her hands tracing over the lines of your body. you're perched across her lap, her hand palming your ass, pretty lilac collar around your neck attached to a dark purple leash she's rolling around loosely in her other hand.
“look at you, dripping onto me. was this all me?” the hand that’s at your ass dips down, her fingers coming to slide between your soaked lips, “or was it the guys that fawned over you tonight? attention whore.” she sends a slap to your pussy, the contact making you whine, squirming away but also desperately needing more.
“i don’t even see how that one guy you let touch your waist was so funny. you were laughing so prettily, head tilted back, almost like you were tempting him to just claim the empty space on your neck.” she tugs the leash, your body lurching forward, pussy meeting her knee, throat constricting, trying to prolong the pressure on your cunt before she slaps your ass, pulling your hips back so you’re weight is on your hands and knees again.
“you’re mine. everything is mine. your voice, this pretty ass, these tits, your pussy, it’s all mine to feel, mine to enjoy, mine to see.” she punctuates each phrase with the tug of a nipple or a slap against reddened skin. “no one else can make you feel this good anyway isn’t that right slut? and yet you still look for that attention. it’s like you want me to get mad. is that it? do you want my attention? do you want me to treat you like this? you want me to get all possessive and mean? turns you on huh? well i hate to break it to you sweetie but only good girls get to cum.”
you whine, daring to turn your head to look at her with a pleading look, begging for something, anything.
she scoffs, "is that your begging face? i saw you use the exact same one with those guys tonight."
your face morphs into shock, trying to backtrack, "n-no i didn't! i didn't i swear- you- you must have seen wrong-"
"you saying there's something wrong with my eyes?"
"no! no no not you, p-please please i'm sorry i- i'll be good please-"
she tuts again, moving you around so you're sitting on her lap, dripping cunt finally getting some friction against the skin of her thigh. you moan at the feeling, frantically humping down against her while she has you there.
"look at you- pathetic."
you whine, wrapping your hands around her neck and burying your face into her shoulder, whimpering and gasping with each thrust against her thigh, too embarrassed to look at her but too desperate to keep yourself still. you almost cry out when she tenses her thigh, the muscle rubbing along your clit in just the way you needed.
"s-sana i want to- can i- please- i wanna-"
"what? what does my little pup want?"
"cum! c-can i cum!?"
sana's quiet for a little, you're almost afraid you've done something wrong or she's no longer into it, but you're physical needs outweighed your saner mind, your one-track mind only concerned with feeling as good as she was making you feel.
so you continue rutting against her, chasing your high desperately while she bites her lip, watching your tits sway with each thrust, her own position compromised as she feels herself grow sticky and wet from the sight and sounds.
you push against her, more and more, whining and moaning right into her ear, knowing she loves to hear you, testing her patience, fluttering internally at the way her grip on your hips tighten with each second, nails digging into your skin just enough to give that perfect sting you adored.
“s-sana? c-can i?” you ask again, holding back the looming crash of your orgasm through tensed muscles.
her eyes snap up to yours and then she grips your hips even harder, forcing you to stop.
you cry, body automatically fighting against her, trying to reject her, but it knew who owned it. you succumbed within seconds, gasping into her shoulder, mourning the loss of what could've been.
"at least you're polite now." her voice is gruff, nails still digging into your skin.
you can’t respond, too exhausted and despaired to do anything but cry.
you don’t even notice her shuffling you around, your hips canting up into nothing whenever she even lingers near your cunt.
that is until you feel the cool silicone strap dragging through your folds, lubing itself up in your essence, catching at your clit, then dragging back down.
you clench around nothing, throwing your head back with an arm over your eyes.
sana tuts, pulling it away, “look at me when i fuck you pup. i’m gonna make sure you remember who owns you.” she thrusts inside, doesn’t give you a chance to think before pulling back out, “gonna make sure you remember who you come home to.” another thrust. “going to fuck you out so good you’ll never be able to take anyone else but me.”
and then she takes off.
she’s gripping your hands together on your lower stomach. that way, your arms push your chest in for her pleasured viewing as she fucks into you with rigor. it also stops you from leaving lines of red down her back while she groans at the sight of the light purple strap attached to herself, grinding against her own clit with each thrust, pulling out wetter than it was each time it goes inside you.
“f-fuck- sana- oh god- i’m- you’re so good fuck-“
“yeah? can anyone else make you feel this way? anyone else- you’d cum for?”
“n-no! only y-you sana fuck- please can i- please-!”
“hold on a little longer baby- let me- fuck god you look so fucking good-"
you whine, thighs shaking as she keeps plowing into you, her eyes locked on the way she pushes inside you every half second. you don't think you can hold on for much longer, she had to understand right? she had edged you three times now, and you were already soo worked up even before she got her hands on you. that wasn't really your fault, she just looked so good in her pretty dress tonight and you couldn't stop imagining her between your legs, eating you out under the dining table while the rest of the world applauded people that would never hold a light to your girlfriend.
"sana i'm gonna- i can't hold it any longer-"
"i told you to fucking wait- fuck- you want me to stop again? huh? leave you hanging all splayed out and desperate to cum?"
you shake your head desperately, holding onto her wrists, eyes clenching shut trying to ward off the looming orgasm.
"i'm almost there baby we'll cum together- c'mon- fuck- you look so good- only i get to see you like this- fuck-"
you nod, her words swimming around in your head, doing whatever you can to appease her, hips returning her thrusts in a frenzy, not even trying to match her pace, just fucked out dumb and reacting with pure physicality.
she leans down, finally, panting next to your ear, thrusts reaching deeper than ever, "alright baby. cum for me."
you cum on command, clenching tightly around her and scream as you come undone, head thrown back, body fluttering and shaking as she continues rutting into you albeit slower and softer. you dimly register her muttering small curses against your throat as you come down, hips stuttering to a slow stop, still buried deep inside you.
you wrap your arms around her tightly now that she's freed you, hugging your sweaty bodies close and reveling in the feeling of her weight on top of you.
you lay like that for a few minutes, breathing in her scent and catching your breath together.
eventually, she has to pull out and you groan lightly as she gently coaxes herself off of you, brushing your sweaty hair off your forehead and pecking you sweetly.
you make grabby hands at her when she’s standing and taking the harness off.
sana giggles, “just a minute baby. you know i wanna cuddle too but i have to clean this.”
you whine incomprehensibly, mumbling a small hurry as she walks towards your bathroom and starts rinsing the strap off.
she comes back far too late for your liking so you try and make up for it by curling around her immediately, climbing almost on top of her and sighing when she runs a hand through your hair in comfort.
“good?”
“you don’t even have to ask.” you mumble against her bare chest, eyes drooping.
she giggles again, you feel the movement in her throat, “wasn’t too much right?”
you shake your head, “you were perfect. like always. thank you. i love you.”
you feel the smile on her lips when she kisses your forehead, “don’t pull that shit in public again or i swear-“
“you’ll fuck it out of me?” you glance up at her with a lazy smile and lidded eyes.
she rolls her eyes, tightening her grip around you, “spoilt.”
“because you love me.”
“i do. even when you’re being a brat.”
“you love when i’m a brat. you love taking power anyway since everyone thinks you can’t top.”
“who thinks that?!”
you shrug, cuddling closer as she gawks at you, trying to get you to look at her. “jeongie says it’s because you have no muscle.” you poke at her bicep lovingly, laughing when she blanches and tries flexing immediately, “nayeonnie says you’re too much of a baby.”
“am not!”
“and momo just doesn’t see it.”
“wha-“
“and she’s known you for the longest soo-“
“okay first of all my muscle is growing back! second, nayeon just says that because she treats me like that and she’s never known otherwise! and momo- momo’s just saying shit because she wants to mess with me!”
you laugh, clasping your hands together and kissing the swell of her breast, “i know i know… i’m not complaining anyway.” you stretch and curl back around her like a cat, “i get all the benefits.”
sana puffs her chest and you adore her pride. “that’s right.”
you giggle, kissing her again and continue talking about nothing and everything, a non-negotiable for the both of you after any session, no matter how quick or small.
#sana#minatozaki sana#twice sana#sana x reader#twice x reader#twice sana x reader#minatozaki sana x reader#twice smut#sana smut#sana imagines#twice imagines#dovveri
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hiding in the stairwell for 30 minutes so that i stop freaking out challenge
#25 so far. my next room is scheduled for 12:30 so im gona go 2 it in 5 mins#itisnt rly working in still rly mad. but yk.#it just like especially sucks bc its him and the girl he . well im not gonna get into the shit with her bc if i talk abt that hell say im#lying lmao. but whatever. its him and her bc shes our roommates fucking sending memes back and forth abt it in the server like can you just#go to the gc you 3 have without me and do it there. fucking christ#i muted rhe channel for a bti so i dont have to see it but its like. he knows how upset i get when im treated like an idiot#and ik that doesnt mean anything bc he also knew how upset being called greedy or selfish made me. And rhat didnt stop him from calling me#selfish bc i didnt pay him back* while i was unemployed.#*the only reason i had to borrow money in the first place was bc he pressured me into moving up here and gave me like. a month to prepare.#but whatever. i also would think hed know how upsetting it is to be told 'i think of you more as a child than a partner' qould make me. or#directly calling me a burden. BUT WHATEVER
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Hi Liv, my dear mutual, who is hopefully warm right now, it's 29°F where I'm at, could I possibly have platonic 141 cuddles with reader to warm me up?
Take your time and stay warm :3
me too!!! i’m so cold here it’s actually 19 degrees right now. it’s so cold in my house at night and i wish i had a big man to cuddle so i wouldn’t suffer!!! i’d put my ice cold hands between his thighs and cuddle into his chest like ahhhh i wish my bf was built like one of the cod men.. <3
ALSO!! i’m making this one dif bc the last one was rly hard 2 write <3
pairing: taskforce 141 x gn!reader
tags: fluff, cold reader, cuddle puddle, sorry if i suck at writing gaz he’s the only one i don’t simp for </3 UNDER 13 DNI
Today was cold. Normally, you’d be okay, but the base’s heater was broken and you had no extra blankets to cuddle up with. You shivered beneath your thin blanket, curled up and cold.
John Price
You’re shivering in your room when he knocks on your door, opening it and seeing you all cold.
“Are ya cold?” You nod. “C’mere love.” He coos, crawling into your bed beside you, lifting the covers and climbing under. He wraps his large arms around your waist, calming your shivering almost instantly as his warmth seeps into you. You sigh as he pulls you to his chest, pressing a gentle kiss to your forehead and wrapping the blankets tighter around you.
“Thank you,” You whisper, and he chuckles, the vibrations running through your body and causing you to smile as well.
“Oh it’s no problem, I’m a little chilly too,” He chuckles, resting his chin in your hair and closing his eyes.
Simon “Ghost” Riley
He knocks on your door, expecting to find you doing some work or dancing like you do, surprised when he sees your shivering beneath the covers. He’d known it was cold in the base, but he’d just gotten used to it. The cold never really bothered him. He’d always run rather hot, as he was a large man, so he didn’t need heaters and excess blankets. Who knew such a thing could become such a gift, able to warm you up!
He crawled into your bed, wrapping his arms around your waist, turning you to face him and pulling you to his chest as he rubbed your lower back gently. He pretended not to notice as you nuzzled into him, curling up in his arms like a cat, your shivering ceased and you now happy and warm. He responded to your whispered thanks with a grunt, although he was quite happy on the inside.
John “Soap” Mactavish
He’d been annoyed by the cold, always preferring to be warm and cozy. He’d assumed the same about you when he saw you shivering in a hoodie around base before retreating to your room, not leaving for anything. So, why wouldn’t he go help out his little bird?
He opened your door, and as expected, you were shaking like a leaf beneath your thin blankets.
“Ye mus’ be freezin’ wi’ those thin blankets, aren’ ye?” He chuckles, tossing off his shoes and climbing into your bed, pulling you close to his chest. “Feelin better, aye?” He asks, and you respond with a nod.
“Yeah, thanks.”
“Anytime, lovie.” He coos, closing his eyes as you nuzzle into his arms and fall asleep.
Kyle “Gaz” Garrick
He knew, after seeing you grab a blanket and run off to your room, that you were freezing. They all knew it was cold, you were just more susceptible, he supposed. So, naturally, he went to your room to find you hiding beneath your blankets, teeth chattering.
“Oh love, all cold aren’t we?” He coos, climbing into your bed and rubbing your arm. “Don’t worry.”
He climbs beneath the covers, turning you to face him and pulling you into his chest and stroking your hair gently as you fall asleep.
“There we go, much better,” He chuckles, and you nod.
“Thank you.”
“No problem, love.”
AHHH I WAS SO SCARED TO WRITE GAZ!!! IDKHOW BC I DON’T LOOK INTO HIS CHARACTER ALL THAT MUCH WASAHHH SOMEONE HELP ME IMPROVE MY GAZ WRITINGF anyways that’s a fun one!! asks cleared finally and i can stop feeling bad abt it!!
#call of duty#cod mw2#cod#cod x reader#cod smut#captain price#captain john price#call of duty x reader#john price#john price x reader#tf141#tf 141 x reader#tf 141#task force 141#call of duty modern warfare#cod mw#simon riley fanfic#simon ghost riley#simon riley x reader#simon riley x you#simon ghost x reader#soap cod#soap mw2#john soap mactavish#soap mactavish#john mactavish#price#kyle gaz garrick#kyle garrick#cod gaz
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i do need 2 work on rewiring my brain so that my immediate very first thought whenever i dont do a small task (like brushing ny teeth taking a shower picking up my room etc) isnt 'We Should Kill Connor ." this would be pretty good for me to do. putting this on the list
#its difficult. i used to be rly good abt not doing kms type jokes bc i did when i was younger and then i stopped bc of um . stuff#nd i think it rly was good for me nd then ykw started making them a LOT and now i do them constantly and ik itis bad for me like. as a guy#whos been suicidal since i was 7. yk. ik itisnt good for me but its hard#idk. i need 2 try 2 stop making them again. like idt ppl who make them r evil I personally dont tend to use them very seriously#it rly is judt a like. Ugh something annoying happened i should kms. but like. witht he we should kill connor joke its Less and less a joke#and more just feeding into ummmmm. the bad parts of my thing that i have to be vague abt so ppl dont worry.#Im not planning anything its not that. its just a belief i have that is ummm concerning to many but very comforting to me and keeps me sane#but i dont like 2 talk abt it . bc ppl tend to get worried its rly not anything that bad its judt likeee. I know that thing is true and#there isnt anything i can do to stop it from happening so i made peace with it ages ago and its comforting that i dont have 2 like. worry#abt whatll happen bc ik whatll happen#sry im being vague ive like. i think ive mentioned it a couple times and ppl get very concerned (my old psych literally told me verbatim#That sounds so terrifying.) and likeee. there have been times its scared me a lot like i can remember a few times i woke up having a panic#attack bc i didnt want to do it but i know thats whatll happen and its fine. but it wont be any time soon#it keeps me from doing anything honestly bc like. why rush FJFNFJNFNik itll happen eventually no matter what i do so even when it gets bad#enough i think abt it im like. yk. it helps. i kind of lost a bit of vagueness. please dont worry abt it fr like. it keeps me sane it keeps#me calm. but anyways i say all this to sayyyy that like. idk it might be a while b4 i commit to trying to stop making jokes like that just#bc like. i have a lot of other stuff abt me i need 2 fix first but i think it would probably be good for me if i stopped. sigh. which suck#bc like its been said time and time again that like. Im going to kms is just like. it encapsulates feelings very well there r like no other#exclamations that fit. aside from the like. Krill my shellfish type things but thats the reason i slipped back into just saying kms in rhe#first place so. UGH. and theres so many fucking stupid tjmblr ones. like no im not going to sub Kys for Go step on a lego >_< bc like... im#not 1. 5 or 2. 27. the 2 ages i think ppl would say shit like that.#sry my vendetta against 27 year olds is neverending idk i just dont like whatever happens to tumblr users of dhat age. ive mentioned it#several times inwont go into it and im probably near out of tags anyway#ive got 7 more spend em wisely one supposes. idk. its just difficult. ik its judt words and shit and im sure i cn come up with good#alternatives. theres judt like not any rhat r like the same vibe without also reinforcing My stuff in an unhealthy way. idk. idkk#like not that making kms jokes is gonna make me do it anytime soon but like yk . ik i cant blame my self loathing spike on this alone#bc ive like. Beeeeeeeen going through some stuff thats contributing way more#but i do think before i started making these jokes again my self loathing and like. rhe amt of time i thought abt it was less . idk#sui ment#<- jic i tried not to be like. too much. but you know
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Hii, novy! Hope you're having a lovely day 💖. Just saw in one of your observations the fact that some master numbers are actually soulless, so now as a life path 22 I am slightly concerned lol. If not a problem, could you please expand on it?
Thank you so much in advance ☺️
indications someone is soulless
☾⊹₊ ⋆ having an almost perfect life no matter what shitty things they do to people. no negative karma can come back to someone who has no soul
☾⊹₊ ⋆ having no loyalty or honor toward anyone
☾⊹₊ ⋆ no yearning to learn more about what’s beyond earth and their life here
☾⊹₊ ⋆ constantly drains the energy of others
☾⊹₊ ⋆ close minded and makes fun of people interested in the occult and astrology, tarot, numerology, etc
☾⊹₊ ⋆ easily persuaded by the media and believes every single thing they say
☾⊹₊ ⋆ basing life on their appearance alone and not caring about anything else
☾⊹₊ ⋆ wearing red more than other colors and all the time (not always but can be a sign they’re stuck in that root chakra energy)
☾⊹₊ ⋆ having empty eyes
☾⊹₊ ⋆ bullies or used to bully people really bad
☾⊹₊ ⋆ angry about everything and has a lack of care for others feelings
☾⊹₊ ⋆ very hypocritical or narcissistic
☾⊹₊ ⋆ cares too much about materialistic things (unless they’re a life path 4, 8, 24, or 28 because that’s their mission in this life)
some context: i believe the world is a matrix (if u have ever seen the matrix movie it will make more sense), so this is all my personal opinion. yes i do believe there is ppl walking around soulless almost like “bots” (like a non player character in a game). there’s just some ppl who u meet that u rly feel like just suck the life out of u and seem like they’re missing an aura. i think those ppl have no soul. u can quite literally see it in their eyes. i do not think all master numbers have no soul (as someone who has master number energy), but there definitely is quite a few who don’t. no one has to agree with this theory of course. most ppl that r soulless actually will be completely close minded to things like this or involving the matrix, so i expect ppl that r to make fun of this post which is fine just don’t spam my comments with “jesus gave everyone a soul”. u have the right to believe that of course but i don’t. i believe the universe is more complex than just heaven and hell and earth. i do believe there’s a higher power but that whoever it is isn’t in complete control of our world. i think a darker energy is bc our world is too low vibrational for the higher power, but i do believe that we have access to this higher power within ourselves and can become more high vibrational if we so choose to
read this note: having only one of these doesn’t guarantee someone’s soulless. they’d have to have multiple. also know that ANYONE in ur life can be soulless. even ur family or friends
to starinbloom: if ur open to the idea that ppl r soulless ur most likely not soulless
#spirituality blog#matrix#spirituality#spiritual realm#spiritual awakening#master numbers#soulless#non player character
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