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#my Mom keeps bringing up how our family dog doesn’t have a long way to go anymore#and like#where we’re gonna bury him and so in#and it just keeps wrecking me#like she wants me to be emotionally prepared but I’m not#I’ve already lost two very near family members over the past two years#and I love that stupid silly old dog#I just keep crying at random times because I can’t stop thinking and it hurts#why does grief never get any smaller#my life gets longer and my knowledge and experiences grow but the fucking grief stays static#it just appears in new forms. every time I think I’m ready to move on it takes a new form#I love that silly stupid old dog!!!! and I can’t handle losing him I can’t#I just need everyone I love to stay and not change and to stop the match of time#is that really too much to ask#sorry about this unhinged rambling I’m currently sobbing into a pillow#death mention tw#cecil blogs her life#pet death mention tw
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the only thing keeping him alive are his cartoon physics
#smoking#tw smoking#turbo#turbo wir#turbo wreck it ralph#my art#i keep making somewhat high effort shitposts#as in it takes me days to finish#i just love making everything i do a learning experience no matter what it is#i love living and laughing and loving abd learning 🌏#Yes i am going to utilize Turbo smoking 500 cigarettes as a way to educate myself on how to crosshatch and draw him in a diff style. Ok👼👍#ignore the peculiar anatomy...im working on it 👷#wreck it ralph#SILLY TIME
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hehe ghost-turbo haunting felix au
turbo is connected to the last piece of his code in the whole arcade - a trophy he gifted to felix in mid 80s as a symbol of him genuinely caring about their relationships on par with being the best racer. felix also gave him one of his medals and both kept their gifts next to other rewards, but when roadblasters and turbotime were unplugged, the medal was gone with everything else
now, after burning in cola-lava turbo is basically dead, but scraps of his code still were intertwined with the trophy (after all, it was his first winner's cup, but felix never knew about it), giving turbo an opportunity to exist as a shadow incapable of interacting with anything and anyone besides felix, who kept the trophy even after the roadblasters incident
also I went crazy in tags, feel free to check them out
#turbo#turbotastic#fix it felix jr#80s boyfriends#hammertastic#headcanon about them exchanging their trophies isn't mine but i loved it A LOT#and “darling” is turbo making fun of how felix was calling him in 80s#this hc about ���doll” and “darling” pet names also is not mine but i adore it#turbo here is a complete freak who just stays around felix most of the time even when felix has moments with calhoun#and felix is an ass who keeps secrets from everyone bc he doesn't want his dirt to come out#he's ashamed of his previous relationship with turbo and doesn't want anyone to know any details#and calhoun to just know about it#this just gets worse and worse#they also didn't actually break up and were still technically dating when turbo went gamejumping#and he's mad af at felix because he's the reason ppl in the acrade made a boogeyman out of turbo and he couldn't come back#like imagine your bf says to you what you are better than others think of you#and then behind your (presumably dead) back tells everyone that you're just an egocentric maniac#i believe turbo has other reasons why he gamejumped (besides jealousy which took place but wasn't the most important reason)#and felix is an unreliable narrator#so yeah turbo HATES his ass#(but still would-) no im not making it suggestive#anyway i hc that turbo had put A LOT of emotions in this relationship even tho he's bad at this#he tried his best with felix but they were just making each other worse#and turbo while feeling betrayed never really moved on (yes even after 25 years he's PATHETIC)#and felix is just full of regret about everything but he won't admit his mistakes in his relationship with turbo#bc “well he turned out to be a bad person so that automatically makes me in the right about everything”#but felix had made a lot of bad decisions while dating turbo and was just classically ignorant about a ton of things#sorry about this random ass essay in tags i'm done for now#wreck it ralph#wir
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obsessed with the fact that if you choose the last purple option in lucanis' romance chat before going off to tearstone island ("they MOVED the MOON!!!" still in the running for the best delivery in the whole game btw it's so ineffably hilarious to me), it's rook who flinches away just a little bit (if still warmly <3) and tries to change the topic and lucanis who's steady even though he's clearly still so afraid. 'don't tempt fate'/'*the softest fucking voice you've ever heard in your entire life* I don't intend to'. pain and suffering
lucanis looking at rook and helplessly, with a wonder that verges on despair, saying 'what would I do without you?' is soooo. especially at that point in the relationship and with what's about to happen. and for whatever reason rook can't quite stay with the fact that they do mean that much to someone, that they are so reverently and so groundingly 'I want to know what your favourite food is so I can make it for you any time you want it' everyday loved, it's too much and they have to deflect from it or the fear of losing it. can say some very interesting things about them, too.
(there is also a Pattern in that in my estimation lucanis frequently responds better to inviting humour than to earnest shows of concern -- it seems to help him be more engaged/online to be offered that more neutral space to meet you in and uh 'build' the conversation around something funny together than to be confronted with compassion head-on because that clearly mostly deer-in-the-headlights him, as we also see with some of the early flirt options haha. contrast this especially with bellara, who repeatedly gets genuinely upset if you try to make light of some pressing and painful situation she's dealing with (girl I'm so sorry I'm so jestercore and I canot change this but I'll try :'( for you). I think the times lucanis reacts negatively to the purple options are much more about you siding with other (frequently more charismatic lol) people against him or throwing him under the bus interpersonally -- like seeming to go along with illario's charm offensives, or telling teia lucanis didn't want to come help out with caterina's funeral and he'd just sit alone and brood about it if you didn't force him (???!!! hello??? unprovoked and deeply unkind out of left field???? this option is so fucking MEAN and for what fhdaskjfa you're telling me there's no way for rook to be a bit of a dick in this game?)
when it's one on one conversation he consistently seems to find it quite comforting, though... which makes a lot of sense because in many ways it's how he interacts with illario, just shorn of the resentments and hidden daggers and things they Do Not Talk About but really should beneath the levity that makes it sharp. it's gone ugly between them, but I think the affectionate instinct beneath is real and goes back a long way before all of that festered -- it's a form of play he does with people he loves. and uh. not really caterina huh. notably.)
#don't make promises you can't keep -> promise?/I swear pipeline of course also extremely good no bad answers here fhdska#this was just what absolutely wrecked me personally with rye and lucanis. they have fun together. just by being together :')#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#rook x lucanis#rookanis#to be clear I mix up the options quite a bit according to what works in a situation but this is the Overall Trend lol#harding appreciates a purple rook too and gets what's going on under it. even calls you out a couple of times#but never without affection. it's so sweet.#also interesting bellara and merrill contrast even though they of course do share a lot of elements#merrill too seems to find purple hawke mostly comforting ('how do you always do that? make everything better with a smile?#it's like magic that doesn't get you in trouble')#and well. merrill and lucanis ARE written by the same person and also share this trait big time with varric. I might be on to something lol#...fuck I can't believe we're never getting a mary kirby bioware character again. the games industry is a fucking nightmare
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Something I like about Leo is that he’s honestly really chill? It’s easy to remember the moments where he’s being obnoxious or excitable but I feel like most of the time he’s incredibly “go with the flow” and has an overall affable demeanor.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rise leo#Genuinely speaking I feel like said demeanor is incredibly useful for when he has to charm and/or persuade people into listening to him#I have a whole post talking about Leo’s charm and how he consistently gets people to hear him out even if he’s annoyed or upset them#like they’ll still listen to what he has to say in full#his charisma stat is real and utilized quite often in this series I swear he’s not just a loser cringeboy all the time 😭#if he wants to persuade and/or charm then he honestly sooo often does#me listing the 400th reason why Leo grows up to be the worlds best ninja and a good 365 of those reasons are Leo’s various subterfuge skill#Like most episodes where he’s not the main focus (and even many where he is)#he’s a voice of reason who notices things quickly and is often the one taking point to talk down situations#something interesting I found between Leo and Mikey is that#Mikey tells people what they need to hear#Leo tells people what they want to hear#not only out of his own agenda either#when bullhop was wrecking their home leo was the one that negotiated to make the situation go smoother#even if he would have rather bullhop left#meanwhile Mikey is the one who bluntly tells things as it is#small character moment that means a lot to me#Mikey is an honest boy who is upfront about his feelings#Leo prefers to let people make their own decisions he wants them to through steering the convo in that direction#but he is easily cowed by guilt#regardless leo is a people person - he knows how to talk to them and how to manipulate/persuade#and I like that his bros know this and often push him forward to do the talking if they wanna charm someone into doing what they want#I think Leo’s hope speeches are also an example of this - he’s saying what people really want to hear (and often it’s ALSO what they NEED)#the further the series goes on the higher Leo’s inner stress rises and he just keeps that chill aura anyway#there’s a reason!!! he wanted to go to a SPA so badly!!#literally the first thing he does when he gets in is rest#no joke meditation would do him good? like- it’s a Leo thing and I genuinely think rise leo would be no different here
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WIM Arianne Caoili (1986-2020)
#made myself so sad reading about her. she died in a car wreck at 33... she was married to armenian grandmaster levon aronian.#she was runner up on australian dancing with the stars...#her husband moved on with a younger woman after only 5 months which really upset me. when i shouldn’t be surprised at that stuff#patton oswalt too i just... nvm let me be quiet & keep chess posting#chess#arianne caoili#1k
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there's no way the bathroom at peppino's pizza is actually that big but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ . hey ummm anyway.... i care them...... anyway there's a lil ramble on my take on fake pep's like psyche or whatever in tags on the og post if ur into that kinda thing :y
hey! it's a series! fake peppino world tour: [noise] [noisette] [peppino]<- u are here [gustavo] [gerome] [noisette again]
#ramble after realtags yeag. shoutout to serrangelic btw suggesting the silhouettes thing bc i would have Died otherwise#pizza tower#peppino spaghetti#fake peppino#gustavo and brick#arting#pizzaposting#so anyway i think fake peppino has like. a general awareness that he is supposed to Be Peppino and that he was Made to do that#and likewise he does generally try to...do that. the thing he does NOT realize is hes like really goddamn bad at it#not to be mean but like...c'mon. they are pretty distinctly different kinds of guys even beyond the physiology yknow.#he's neither on-brand nor fooling anyone dsjdsjjkgfsd. BUT!#since the rest of the cast generally likes him [at least as I play it] he thinks hes doing just fine#he's like 'oh they r happy with me so i must be getting a good grade in being peppino :)'#so getting told that 'yeah you actually really suck at that but that was never the reason people liked you'#and told that by og model peppino no less--yknow THE guy he's supposed to be living up to#who's already a bit intimidating for that and who ALSO totally wrecked him TWICE in the tower#making him acutely familiar with just how formidable the guy is and how much there IS to live up to....#it's a Moment for sure. not really a sad or hurt one though. just... contemplative.#thinking abt people liking him for being the guy he's already naturally been being even though that guy is Not Peppino#i don't think he's gonna be super broken up about realizing he has a bad grade in peppino given everything else hes got now#nor do i really think he cares enough to go like reinvent himself or whatever after the fact#he seems to b pretty clearly having fun with it already so i think he just keeps doing that#and in some cases he still has the pre-installed peppino traits/instincts like to cooka da pizza. and that's fine#is this projection. yes. but if youve been following me awhile you know most of my character writing is ghdhfdgf#gonna kinda expand on all this in the gerome one which is...one after next. itll be a bit but man.#anyway peppino will never admit to anyone and especially not himself that he's gotten a little attached to the guy. hee hoo#pep tends to be kinda surly but he certainly has his ways of showing he cares. all of which are on display here#''that thing is not my son'' says man currently watching thing's antics with the 'bemused dad' arms crossed pose. yeah ok buddy.#gus is totally onto him already but hes not gonna say anything.#if u read all this ur prize is not having to go decode fp's rot13. his lines are ''meant to be you...?'' and ''wrong question.''
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after 3 centuries i finally managed to properly redesign my dumbass sona, i was gonna initially just change their hair for a more androgynous look but then i. changed their lore a bit too
basically they volunteer for various jobs like delivering mail and milk, nursing and gardening (even though that's also their hobby)
no one knows their gender or their real name but they go by various plant/nature related names (like willow or sunflower)
#tenka willow#<- that's their full name i guess even tho willow isn't their real one#some people only know their last name (tenka)#my sona#my art#GUESS MY BIGGEST KIN RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!! /j#no but fr i. kinda fell out of himawari's design because she looked too girly for me#ever since i started questioning my gender and then came out as agender#also willow goes by any pronouns but primarily he/they#and they're an anxious wreck. his fingers turn cold and dead when they're nervous just like me fr#now when will i change my pfp? idk#also idk if they're gonna be a full robot but i'm keeping the wind-up key because i love it
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halfway through the newest episode of misfits and magic and hit with the reminder that Evan gave K his shirt in the last episode to wear and they're probably still wearing it
#☹️#this is fucking me up a little on an emotional level#dimension 20#misfits and magic#misfits and magic spoilers#mismag#mismag spoilers#misfits and magic season 2#i remembered when they got to the iceburg and i'm just sitting here in distress realizing that the thing keeping k warm is evan's shirt#if i accidentally exploded one of my best friends (and exes) arms off and killed them-#-and then 30 minutes later looked down and realized i was still wearing their shirt that would fucking. wreck me even more.#which is astonishing considering how much the prior situation would already dissolve at least 90% of any mental health/stability i had atm
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vi is so fucking fascinating to me, I am studying her like a bug in a jar
she was a CHILD putting on her father's gauntlets in spite of the fear gathered in her little body, in spite of just witnessing someone she's known all her life die in a HORRIFIC way (benzo), still she rises, still she says I HAVE TO DO THIS still she takes on men three times her size and fucks them up so bad that silco has to send his shimmered up fucked up monster to try to stop her and STILL she persists, indifferent to the worst happening because she’s survived the worst already. furious and unstoppable and determined to do whatever she has to survive and ensure those she loves survive, no matter the cost.
vi under all that debris, bruised, bleeding, screaming, watching her family die, staring at the monkey head in shock and crying because this can't be happening, they were so close...
sobbing in pain until her father saves her just to watch helpless as he dies protecting her. they were so SO CLOSE to surviving, so close to escaping and everything gets ripped away in a second
vi trapped in that prison cell for years and years on end with the ghosts of her family and her guilt for company, drowning in guilt, wondering if her sister's still alive, no doubt thinking about how she LET her slip right through her fingers
the last thing vander said to her was "take care of powder"
she's let the man who's her FATHER and loves more than anything down.
"whatever happens is on you" / "protect the family" / "take care of powder" .... but she can't, not anymore, she's fucked it up and let everyone down (re "I should have been there for you, for everyone") all she can do is sit in that shitty prison cell, on that freezing floor, hungry, bloody, counting the hours until she can somehow rescue powder
Vi is piercings and tats that no doubt got infected, she's a child becoming a woman too fast, she is a danger-zone high-risk disaster area and won't back down, won't give up.
Vi is soft!! self-sacrificing, protective, supportive. ("You wanna talk about today?", "We've all had bad days, but we learn, and we stick together") brave, SMART, witty. she's got a tongue sharp as her fists and a barbed, delicious sense of humour. she gives people nicknames (cupcake, pow pow, pretty boy) and fights with everything that she's got to protect what she loves!!!! she is her father's daughter!!!
she is idealistic and expects the world to see her reason, look at things through her eyes and wanna make a change ( "This is how things are, how they've always been. I was so stupid to think it could change. / "oil and water that's all there is" )
and yes! vi is not flawless. she's obsessive (re sevika. to her eyes she is the last thing standing between her and silco/getting to silco and saving jinx) and complicated, morally ambivalent because she makes mistakes, flies off the handle like a comet crashing through everything in her way, makes reckless choices because she has to. she is selfish when it comes to jinx and would do anything to keep her safe.
also
look at the way she hugs the people she cares about!!!
#���vi left powder” LISTEN vi was a baby too!! she just witnessed her entire family DIE. for the second time.#she was SHOCKED and traumatized! she left for one MINUTE and was dragged away to a shitty hole even deeper than the one shes grown up in!#“she keeps going after sevika” LOOK idk how to tell you that sevika represents the ultimate betrayal to her idealistic ass#also i love how BADASS she is yet her inability to let things GO and#furious dedication to jinx gets her in so much trouble.#that cait ends up having to save this dramatic damsel in distress from herself like! THEIR DYNAMIC#UGHHHH I LOVE HER BYE she is everything to me#vi arcane#arcane vi#arcane brainrot tag#arcane#one girl wrecking crew
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Life on the farm
#gopher art#mortal kombat#subscorp#mk subzero#mk scorpion#kuai liang#hanzo hasashi#mortal kombat legends#been holding onto this one for a bit! finished it more than a month ago lol#i was originally going to save it for subscorp week but then i was like. nah. that wouldnt be entirely fair lol#and besides. ive been wanting to share it for long enough and my resolve has kinda worn down#anyway - snowblind but AU'd! heres my concept of this (which i may use later on for something idk): king kano got his shit wrecked#like way before the events of the movie. by the revenants in fact. i want him torn to shreds. you still have random roving assholes#making trouble across the wastes. but its much less dire. kuai still retires to his farm. kenshi still falls for shang tsung's bullshit#and kuai mentors him. hanzo becomes warlord of netherrealm. BUT. he and kuai keep in contact. its long distance and they make it work#sometimes scorpion vacays to Kuai's farm. as a treat. thats what this drawing is#i cant deny that i literally just want them to be happy ok. thats literally all i want for these gay old ninjas#bonus commentary: at the time of drawing this i was still figuring out how i wanted to draw hanzo. he's so fucking hard to draw#when i draw him without his mask or beard he looks so fucking off. but if i draw him with the beard it feels weird too.#babygirl why are you so hard to draw?? dont you want me to draw you?????
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BACK AT IT AGAIN WITH MY SHENANIGANS. After more than a year, it's finally done. The King Candy/Turbo Merch Master List.
I'm obsessed with this man and also wanted to keep record of my own collection as well as I go along. Enjoy~ 👑🍬
#wreck it ralph#king candy#turbo time#this is when you know ive gone full simp#i should start charging for these this is the fourth one i've done alfkkdf#i started a Dance dance revolution one just for toys but jfc i think that will take even longer#ANYWAY I TRIED#hopefully i got everything#and if you think i missed something#keep it to yourself#/JJJ KIDDING BUT DO TELL ME#IM SO TIRED#disney#fix it felix#vanellope von schweetz#dragonball#disney cruise line#disney merchandise#trading pin#lorcana#sergeant calhoun#sugar rush#taffyta muttonfudge#i know im missing all the books but i only want to include the ones he appears in#can you tell i love him so much#merch master list
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This man is a big example that personality and attitude are very huge factors 🍬
#STILL THINKING ABOUT THOSE COWARDS THAT SAID NO TO HIM#LISTEN#ITS THE PERSONALITY#THE ECCENTRIC#THE ENERGY#THE GOOFINESS#THE SILLY#THE ❤️🔥COMMANDING❤️🔥#THIS MAN IS A 👑KING👑#HE WILL COMMAND YOU DOWN TO YOUR KNEES WITH THAT VOICE#AND I WILL MELT#the entire time#he keeps his confidence#his control#his power#NOT IN AN ARROGANT WAY#NOT IN THE WAY I DESPISE#BUT IN HIS SILLY#WAY#THAT I LOVE#AND ALSO#HE HAS ✨FUN WITH IT❤️🔥#HE JUST HAS FUN#WITH EVERYTHING HE DOES#ITS SO#❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥AAAAAAA❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥#I’m going feral rn excuse me—#king candy#wreck it ralph#‘oh he’s old and balding and short-‘ SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP IDGAF I NEED HIM
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#the locked tomb#harrowhark nonagesimus#harrow the ninth#harrow the first#gideon the ninth#nona the ninth#tlt#griddlehark#implied??#harrow the 9th#harrow x gideon#fanart#things ive made#the second harrow is not as wrecked as I’d like her to look like#and I think she didn’t get her eye color changed?? I honestly don’t remember#but it fit the theme of the drawing better I think#bc the hairstyle change and the scar were not enough visually I THINK#I keep posting ‘my last tlt piece’ for 10th time in a row jshdskdjj#idk if I say that each one is the last one but I THINK that bc I just did all I can with them#and also fics I’m reading are not doing it for me visually so I’m out of ideas tbh#send me refs requests and all that and I might do 10 more last pieces
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oh pallas and agnes power dynamic you really are SO unbelievably fucked,,,,,
#haven’t been able to write in days so i am posting instead. forgive me.#it’s just so. like. okay pallas has all of the material power here that’s not a question they’ve got much stronger magic they#know how the library works they’re directly placed in a mentorship role at the beginning re agnes she depends on them#for everything.#but also#pallas is very much Not Doing Well mentally (<- understatement of the century) and is pathologically incapable of processing their own#emotions related to this AT ALL. and in the process of trying very very hard to get to Know pallas (so pallas will Like her so pallas will#want to keep her alive) agnes kind of comes to understand a lot of pallas’s issues even better than pallas does and pallas starts to depend#on her for emotional support in a way they NEVER have with anyone else.#and pallas’s ability to show vulnerability has been soooo wrecked beyond belief that to them doing things like sharing part#of their backstory and being visibily hurt around someone is tantamount to placing a knife in someone’s hand and#then circling all of their weak points with a giant red marker while going ‘HEY STAB HERE’#so in their mind by doing this they’re giving agnes an IMMENSE amount of power over them like enough to kill them dead even though very#little else has changed about their dynamic. so pallas believes that they’re standing on much more equal ground then they really are#and agnes partly believes it too she thinks that by seeing this much of how broken down pallas is she’s finally found the balance in their#relationship she’s finally found a way to make it stable. and yeah. to some extent this is true!#pallas DOES listen to agnes more than any other person agnes IS the first person in years to understand them this much pallas’s dependence#on her for their mental wellbeing DOES give her some measure of power over them. but that power is given out on pallas’s terms is the thing#whether they’re aware of that or not. agnes wouldn’t have anything if pallas didn’t actively choose to be vulnerable with her there’d be#no way she’d learn about anything no way she’d get to play this role in their life#they believe that this thing is much more equal much more sustainable than it really is (pallas especially) and they’re#literally all each other have#grabs your face are you listening THEYRE ALL EACH OTHER HAVE IN THIS PLACE THEYRE BOTH IN SUCH HORRIFIC SITUATIONS AND THEY R EATING#EACHOTGER TO SURVIVE!!!!#head in fucking hands#wip: ghost story#pallas and agnes
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waking up and checking the scarnash tag this morning
#are you kidding me#i was planning on spoiling it for myself on purpose so i’d know if it was worth it to watch bc i don’t have passport#Based on what i’ve seen i’m not sure it is. good god#i was working on a fic that i wasn’t going to post since s5 was about to come out but damn if they wrecked everything as hard as it seems#maybe i’ll post it and just ignore the canon of s5 completely#Do i bother to watch s5??? i don’t know#i don’t care about the new guy. why introduce someone and make him flawless bc you fucked up the first guy when u already have someone great#but i don’t really think they’d write patrick out of the show not because i trust the writers bc i dont#but bc i think i trust felix scott to not leave#so they can keep sending him off to places but i think he’d come back#cherry speaks#very jumbled thoughts i apologize#scarnash
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