#THAT I LOVE

[minkkinii]

Balls :3

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as a person with two cats with very opposite personalities, Lando and Oscar both give off cat energy

Oscar: Black cat Lando: Orange cat

[rowanyx]

There is something so deep about Laerryn's choice in the finale, and Brennan's phrasing of the decision to be made.

To clarify, this scene (copied and pasted from the CR wiki transcripts):

BRENNAN: On a 16, you must make a tough decision. Do you want to further limit the release of energy and make the release of energy safer for the physical environs of Avalir and Cathmoíra, or do you want to ensure that Rau'shan and Ka'Mort will be permanently banished from Exandria?

TRAVIS: Impossible.

AABRIA: Laerryn's little joke to herself was always that the Heart of Avalir was the thing she inherited, but it was too small. She made it bigger, she improved it. She improved the Etheric Net and built this and that she was the Heart of Avalir, and she gave everything to this city. But I know what people are fighting to protect and I remember what Quay said about going down with the ship. So we will ensure it. This will work. Avalir be damned.

or this timestamp of the episode (in case the link doesn't work for the timestamp, the first comment's list has it labelled Laerryn's Tough Decision):

As we were first introduced to her, Laerryn Coramar-Seelie is the Architect Arcane. As Aabria herself even put, her whole life, all her work, is about taking the city and making it better. Building more. Expansion is the name of the game. So when Brennan specifies that the limiting of energy output will save the physical environs rather than the people, that holds weight.

Just, in a mechanics aspect, there is the fact she is an Abjurer. The whole point of her magic is exactly this choice. To stop things from being destroyed. Her wards that take the damage so that she or others will not. She is not built to bring destruction, leave the fight to others. She will be there to soften the blows that come her allies' ways. She is the one one deciding this, and it feels right, because she's spent her studies dedicated to figuring out how she will prevent the destruction that comes her way.

But that isn't all.

Because any other hero, any other party member, every other soul faced with this question could so easily think that it is a useless decision. A city can be rebuilt, but only if the Betrayer Gods are stopped before they kill all the people that can do so.

But Laerryn, who has dedicated her years to this, the position of Architect Arcane, knows this city and her structures far more intimately. She has been there, step by step, as she forged them. Designed them. Watched over their construction. It is by her hand it was built.

Asking her, specifically, is asking her to choose between everything she's done, or let it all burn. Asking her to make this decision is asking her to decide her legacy. Will she live on as the maker of the land that survived such devastation, but not the people, or will she go down as the one who helped stop the Calamity?

Her choice boiled down to this: Limiting the energy, their work, the libraries and churches, the colleges, grand towers and hallowed halls, stone and mortar, it all can go on unshattered. Or, stopping the Betrayers, the people may continue on.

Was her work more important than the lives she was surrounded by?

Aabria mentions Laerryn was given the Heart of Avalir, jokes how she improved it. But the Heart of Avalir, while magical, is only an engine. It was made, and can be again. So in this moment, I think Laerryn maybe realizes that the true heart of a city comes from the people. Always thinking, thoughts speed by her, whether or not she ever had time to really process the revelations before her demise.

Evandrin is already gone due her hubris. Who else would she lose? Would it have felt like home, without Loqautious there by her side? Would it truly feel like her city, without Patia keeping up with her? What would she cause, without Nydas to hold her back? What is Avalir, without her Brass Ring?

Her assistant, probably still waiting for her, in their offices, and the choice of which will see tomorrow?

How many will feel the heat of Rau'shan's flames as they die? How many will fall to Ka'Mort's earth?

None, she decides. Her friends and neighbors, the kinsmen of her home, will not feel these pains.

I think it is also a moment that beautifully showcases her accepting her death. She will not be here to heal her city. She's going down with the ship. Maybe her blueprints will be found and used, and Avalir will be as it once was. Maybe they won't, and they'll construct it all anew. But she won't see it, so it is their turn to take what was given and build on.

Of course, Rau'shan and Ka'Mort were not the only assets of the Calamity, and damage and destruction was still wrought across Exandria. But there are enough hands to clear the ruins and make their own stories. And that is because of the greatest Architect of them all.

She gave them a chance indeed.

[aveiral]

Tumblr is a good name

Everyone on here be tumbling

[adrift-in-thyme]

IT’S SNOWING

[th3e-m4ng0]

one eyed fellows

[totallyradioactive15]

Random Captain Swan Scenes [1/?]

inspired by @naiariddle gifs (which made me want to make some simple scene gifs rather than sets that take ages lol)

[pbstarot]

A little talk (no, I am not quitting)

I know I never talk about my life on here, because I'm not a super open person on the internet for very specific reasons (which include this platform, being 12 years old, and a snippet of what cancel culture would be like, with more slut shaming) but lately it has been really tough. I have been crying for the past 1 hour probably, nonstop, simply because I see my life going nowhere. I know that you guys like the blog, but it truly doesn't fulfill me anymore. I'm not quitting, but I don't know how long I'll be able to churn out long-form content or content here in general. I'm gonna try to keep gong with the Patreon and the PACs, but honestly it's becoming somethng that it's more of a stress factor than the other things I do for fun and (mostly) free. Again, I am more than grateful for everything I managed to get because of this blog and I'll never forget it, even if I quit, but I am truly at my wits end. Maybe I just need another break, a LONG one, but then I have to contend with the fact that this is my only source of income (but Pilar, why don't you get a job? Like an easy job? I tried. Nothing. and I have literally 0 prospects, other than tarot, and I can't even look at my cards on most days anymore) and if I stop, I'll literally not get to my goal (yes, a computer. A new computer after 12 years, that's gonna enable me to do everything I wanna do content wise. I was literally typing a portion of a PAC, my tumblr froze for ten minutes, and erased my entire work simply because my computer can't handle opening Opera GX or even Google Chrome that well anymore. I am performing miracles) and I won't have money anymore (which is what happened the first time I quit, although I came back cause I missed it. I know I'll miss it in time if I quit again, too).

I just wanted to say this because honestly everything seems like it's crumbling down around me (I know I'm probably on my PMS, but it's like I told my family, my PMS just highlights things that I have been repressing for months). I really have no idea what I'm gonna do. I hate being a mercenary, especially when it comes to spiritual work, because I believe spiritual work should be mostly selfless (although we live in a society) and it seems morally reprehensible to do it solely for money (which is why I still try to do the PACs I'd like to read myself, why I stop for longer periods of time, why I go AFK, etc, because I wanna keep my content as honest and earnest as possible and only put it out there when I believe that it's the best work I can possibly do, minus the eventual misspellings here and there (I do no proof read my PACs)) so I don't wanna advertise too much, but yeah… I make like less than 50 bucks a month with this blog (and I need 5000 for a new PC that attends all of my needs, at least), on most times, and truly, I don't put as much content out here anymore, but I have been very tired too. I know it all sounds like excuses, and I'm sorry. I probably just have a bad case of depression, tbh, and can't manage it as well as I could before anymore. I just wanna do things I truly love and believe in and be repaid for them, but yeah, life doesn't always work like that (and although I like tarot, it's like I said, I can't even look at my cards on most days anymore).

If you bought a private reading from me, don't worry. None of this affects the results of your reading. I know people like to say it does, but I've been doing this for 7 years and I know that when I'm reading for someone else, it's fine. My mental state doesn't affect anything, because the answer has nothing to do with me. I'm gonna do my best to live up to the product you have in mind, being as honest as possible. If you're expecting a new FS PAC, it'll be up in five days, today on my Patreon. The friendship PAC is gonna go up probably on the 8th of September? Then it's every man for himself, honestly. I don't have the energy or creativity to come up with new PACs in the meantime and most of the ideas I had were gonna be Patreon exclusive (although no one subscribed yet and idk how sustainable is to waste time on Patreon exclusive PACs no one will read). Anyway, if you read this so far, thank you. I am not quitting. I can't. I don't know what I'm gonna do yet, but I'm not quitting. I hope you understand if I just… Idk. Disappear wouldn't be the right word, but yeah. Sorry again.

[rawliverandgoronspice]

hoo hoo hee hee I have finished a v1 of my animatic..........

now I face a ton of problems, like:

no sound design I should probably put some sound design (it's a lot of work but also !!! would be cool!!!!)

voice acting would be nice??? but all of the people who could record for me that I know are french ;;

okay but it would be good to have a payoff to all the setup right? even if it means putting a LOT more time in it than I already have.......

oh no It Was Fun

[simpingforcys]

I’ll take one of each

[raykunaraccoon]

Creechur

Creechur

[dyinggoosenoises]

hehehehehheee gender euphoria :DDDD

[elizjjwold]

by Elizabeth Johnson-Wold

[ennaih]

Every Film I Watch In 2023:

76. Attachment (2022)

[avis-fictional-world]

Thinking of my old wild kratts tumblr account that I deleted 🥲