#and is real bossy and knows all the gossip

[abigailspinach]

[saiintofawe]

after reading the sun and the star my semi-dormant pjo obsession has risen and is infesting my brain side by side with bsd. so.

bsd percy jackson au: a series of self indulgent hcs

skk is the percabeth of the situation. iconic duo. unstoppable. EVERYBODY has heard about them. literal legends among the demigods baby

dazai is a child of athena, chuuya a child of ares

dazai's team beat chuuya's during capture the flag once and chuuya went aight bet. and kicked dazai's ass during the next capture the flag. his team still lost but at least he got an excuse to fight that annoying know-it-all bandaged and beautiful son of athena

the rest is history

the akutagawa sibilings are children of hades. goth mfs

now imagine them having the same storyline as the di angelo sibilings... now in this au you can see why akutagawa talks like he belongs to another age

gin would consider joining the hunters of artemis, but in the end they end up refusing to not leave their brother alone. plus, being immortal would mean seeing him and all of their loved ones die, and gin has had enough of her loved ones dying

if skk is percabeth, shinskk is solangelo

does atsushi fit the standards for a child of apollo? idk but i can't think of another godly parent for him so be it!

unlike will solace, healing is not atsushi's strongest task but he still spends a lot of time helping in the infirmary

and that's where he meets ryūnosuke

unlike solangelo the initial hostility is NOT one sided. ryū behaves like a bitch? atsushi gets bitchy right back.

cue to atsushi looking extremely pissed while bandaging ryū's arm and them muttering insults at each other

ryūnosuke swears he hates that fucking failed doctor and atsushi would almost believe him if it wasn't for the amount of times ryūnosuke has tried sacrificing himself to save him during their quests

also in this au rashomon is a hellhound like mrs. o'learly. she's a sweet doggo that devours space and souls

or she's one of ryū's cocoa puffs? (does this count as a tsats spoiler taken out of context?)

you know that one scene in tsats where nico kisses the back of will's neck and says "i'm proud of you"? now picture that as atsushi to ryūnosuke. yeah.

also atsushi has plague powers bc i say so

yosano is the real will here: overworked healers who feel extremely guilty for every patient that died under their watch to the point of considering themselves murderers

she runs that infirmary like it's the navy

she's also a hell of a fighter, both with bows and arrows and with her own fists

bff with ranpo, who's the oracle!

they gossip abt apollo (boyfail) and complain abt their respective fundamental but hella hard roles at chb

also besties w/ chuuya

also hear me out on kousano in this au... yosano falls helplessly in love with hunter of artemis!kouyou. kouyou tries to convince herself that she's not falling for that bossy and selfless and brave doctor because she has an oath to keep and she couldn't let love knock at her door again. so everytime the hunters come to chb kouyou keeps yosano company and it's all longing looks and painful yearning. yosano wishes she could convince the redhead to break the oath and stay.

but she won't. i <3 kousano angst

moving onto happier lesbians. gin loves wandering by themselves in the forest or by the lake. people know them as the demigod who just fucks off to take a stroll in the woods and disappear there for an indefinite amount of time

and that's how she meets an awkward, stubborn but lovely dryad: you guessed it, it's higuchi!

gin was having a bad day and kicked a tree because they were just so angry— anger turned to guilt when the tree fucking yelped

gin immediately apologized and higuchi asked them what was bothering them. gin never loved to talk, so they were very surprised by themselves when they started rambling about their problems to a dryad they just accidentally hurt

from that day gin began spending even more time in the forest

sometimes they bring higuchi to camp

it isn't unusual for dryads to wander around camp, but higuchi usually kept on her own before meeting gin

higuchi helps gin to open up about their emotions and lower their walls, gin helps higuchi to make friends and to value and love herself

chuuya's fatal flaw is loyalty, dazai's is pride, ryūnosuke's is holding grudges, atushi's is holding too tight onto the past, gin's is also loyalty, yosano's is guilt

tachihara is a child of hermes. parallels between two regretful traitors el oh el

except that luke fucking sucks while tachihara has my heart

OKAY NOW OPEN YOUR EARS. STORMBRINGER ENJOYERS RISE. RIMLAINE AS SILENA AND CLARISSE..... CAN YOU SEE WHAT IS SEE........

lucy is deffff a child of aphrodite but she's so lovely she doesn't even need to use charmspeak to get what she wants. whatever you say beloved princess

idk why but i can picture her throwing an hairbrush at an ancient titant like rachel... her and rachel are acc pretty similiar imo but i will not elaborate

poe is an athena kid! the biggest loser in cabin 6!

lucy and yosano tease him on his crush on ranpo

ranpo is there like damn. is this guy gonna confess or do i have to tell him we are going to date via prophecy

poe is a surprisingly good archer, the apollo kids are almost jealous

nikolai is an hecate kid. a little trickster. a silly magician. he will steal your nose but like in the literal sense and he might not give it back

his best friend is sigma from the aphrodite cabin. sigma cannot fucking stand him

nikolai is actually the reason why sigma has split colored hair. it used to be fully white but one day nikolai went heyyy girlie look at this new hair trick my sibiling taught me :] and sigma ended up actually loving the look? so they kept it

the dryads love sigma and he spends a lot of time with them. they braid flowers in each other's hair and chill

nikolai on the other hand somehow befriended the arpies

fyodor is a child of nemesis. edgelord

jouno is a child of hermes, the eldest in the cabin

half of the camp wants him, the other half wants him gone

teruko is a child of hebe, the goddess of youth!!!!

she's ones of the oldest campers along with jouno, but she prefers to keep her child form for unknown reasons

also i can see her joining the hunters tbh

that's it for now folks i hope someone appreciates my brainrot xoxo

[theninthdoor]

Hii~~ I hope you're getting better💕 I've been waiting for the inbox to open😊. Your blog is one of my favorite. Take your time, we are only here. For the #tqq, may I request? What are the deal breakers of NCT127 when it comes relationship?

💗 thank you, sweet!

Taeil || queen of wands, tower rx: Attention seeking. Wanting to show off the relationship to everybody. Passive agressive behavior. Stubborness. Acting like they're above everyone else, and that others should change their ways, never them.

Johnny || queen of swords, eight of pentacles: Acting like a know-it-all. Trying to control him or tell him how to do things all the time. Being nitpicky. Being too rational or a strictly mind over heart type of individual. Never being satisfied with anything or never showing any real appreciation for his efforts.

Taeyong || page of swords rx, seven of swords rx: Saying one thing and doing another. Not following through with their promises. Not being able to keep a secret. Gossip; spreading malicious rumours or spreading somebody else's secrets. Constantly asking to check his phone, texts, social media, etc. Doubting him; calling him a liar.

Yuta || seven of swords rx, five of cups: Always shifting the blame. Playing the victim. Bringing up things from their past (bad experiences/trauma/etc) to excuse their wrongdoings. Being overly sensitive and overthinking + overreacting to everything he does and says. Guilt-tripping.

Doyoung || seven of wands rx, king of cups rx: People who constantly run away from confrontation or difficult conversations. Acting weak/helpless so others feel bad for them and don't hold them accountable for their actions. Being emotionally manipulative. Not giving him the chance to voice his opinions and wants/needs. Selfishness. Only looking after themselves.

Jaehyun || two of swords, temperance: Indecisiveness. Being too neutral; never having a strong opinion on anything. Forcing him to walk to eggshells so to not "disturb the peace" of the relationship. People-pleasers. Trying so hard to become his "ideal type" that they end up never showing any real personality and, really, any natural human flaws (which I actually think he likes seeing in a person - "perfect"/"flawless" doesn't seem to be his type, tbh).

Jungwoo || chariot, five of swords: Being too domineering; bossy. People who try to control him and completely lead the relatioship. Aggressiveness. Loudness. Being overly reactive and going straight into arguing and fighting when something minimal bothers them. Mean and violent people, in general. Always picking fights.

WinWin || seven of swords, knight of pentacles rx: Backhanded compliments. Lies. Hiding things from him. Keeping too many secrets. Being irresponsible and lazy; unreliable. Making him do all of the hard work in the relationship. Always asking him about his connections, earnings or career. Asking him to introduce them to this or that famous friend. Basically, doing the bare minimum, but asking for the world in return.

Mark & Haechan: X

[fandom-trash-xl]

Ok, you're finally getting it: the headcanon set from my notebook that I've been hesitating on pushing out for way too long

Super-Gen Kiddos Headcanons: Bluey

First of all, let's just say that for the sake of headcanon space that they have Bluey in the DB Universe.

Pan is more into the rough-and-tumble sporty/outdoorsy sorts of episodes like Obstacle Course, The Adventure, Dirt, etc. She also has a connection towards Stickbird because she really needs experience with collecting then throwing away all the upset and angry (I headcanon her as an early-blooming Super Saiyan in this canon).

She also gives Bulla this knowing look during The Creek and wonders why she can't have her Bluey character development moment like that.

Bulla is into some of the more relaxed fluff episodes like Butterflies and Shops. She hates being called the "Judo" of the group because she tends to be the bossy one.

Sleepytime succeeds in breaking Kuriza. His initial fixation is because of the planet theme, given his closer connection to and hyperfixation on space. But then, the "Even if you can't see me, because I love you" line hits straight in the unaddressed abandonment issues and they have to ask if he needs to go home during the sleepover.

Pan and Bulla bond over Stumpfest- the "ripping up stumps" tomboy and the nail salon girl.

Bulla and Kuriza have a shared enjoyment of Queens, technically both being royal kids- "A queen is not afraid of a bit of hard work~"

Pan and Kuriza both have this connection to Army that they can't place- Pan thinks maybe it's because it's more of the sporty type episodes and Kuriza suspects it might be because of similarities to the Frieza Force (the correct answer is the neurodiversity themes).

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And to show how long I've been sitting on this headcanon, I had to make an addition when The Sign came out:

After that big episode, Berryblue contacts Frieza with a "heads-up" that he may need to have a talk with his son when he returns to base because now Kuriza has some very strong conflicted feelings about real estate.

"Given your line of work, I think you'd best discuss with him."

"What even happened?"

"It seems they tried to sell the blue cartoon dog's house."

"No..." Frieza responds in that fascinated way like this is the latest piece of gossip and pours himself some wine for the details. He hasn't even watched the blue dog show but he's gathered enough.

[mickyaltierisgf]

Hellooo idk if you'd do this but could u maybe do hcs of Kelly and Roman just as in how their relationship is and maybe about how Roman would act at an adult convention with Kelly (and maybe Danielle)

(Maybe some nsfw hcs? 👀👀) totally up to u thoo ❤️!

Roman x Kelly hcs

contains nsfw // mdni

set "it’s complicated" as their relationship status cause this shit don’t make no cents, luv.

Kelly flirts with basically anyone, but it’s mostly women, and it's usually intended to either recruit them or get something else out of them. He also sleeps around a lot and has never really been in a monogamous relationship before. Roman gets around too, though he’s not a big flirter himself and is generally not overly interested in casual hookups.

Nevertheless, this whole relationship starts off as a recurring casual hookup. Anytime they meet up, though not often, they end up sleeping together. Kelly is relentless, and Roman’s not as aloof as he likes to pretend he is.

When these random encounters become more frequent, it’s time to start considering it a relationship. And It’s messy af.

Roman can be very bossy and possessive, and Kelly isn’t the type to put up with that. He does what he wants, and the only thing Kelly’s even a bit possessive about is his business/the people who work for him.

He severely underestimates how serious Roman can be when he’s committed to something. When he messes up and gets too handsy with someone else, Roman basically treats him like some rando he’s never met before. The effort of getting back into his good graces makes him reconsider just how careless he is with hitting on anything that moves, at least as long as Roman is in view.

When he really fucks up, figuring Roman’s not there and won’t find out, the effort is almost more than he’s willing to bother with. No one’s ever been worth this much time and consideration, but in this case, the juice is worth the squeeze.

Since they start dating and are inevitably seen together in public, Roman convinces him to tame his hair and upgrade his wardrobe. He cleans up very well in a tux for all the high-profile events Roman goes to.

Wild paparazzi pics are always surfacing, and even wilder stories in gossip mags. They go from being relatively famous to bonafide celebrity status.

There's going to be a biopic of them at some point probably.

Roman at an Adult Film Con with Kelly + Danielle

First of all, Roman’s busy and has about at least 10 other things he’d rather do at any given time than go to one of these cons. He ends up going, but only because Danielle is also going and he can pretend he’s doing it as a favour to her. In reality, he’s keeping an eye on Kelly’s trifling ass.

He does look out for Danielle a little too, though. He’s going to treat her as if she were one of his best actresses, which means real star treatment. Being seen in the company of Roman Bridger is going to ensure Danielle and Kelly are the main attractions at the con.

As much attention as Kelly and Danielle get, Roman gets the most of it. This means there are a lot of men and women flocking to him, and a lot of them get a little too comfortable.

It was never much of a concern to Kelly in the past with any of his stars/previous partners. This is just the sort of thing you come to expect in his line of business. Everyone wants to sample the merch and he did it often enough himself. But he was trying to be a good boy now and keep his hands to himself, and that meant everyone else had better keep their damn hands to themselves as well.

Roman isn’t impressed by all this fawning and is a bit of an arrogant prick to basically everyone there, since this really isn’t his crowd or his scene. Kelly’s absolutely eating it up, especially when Hugo Posh comes around with his "crisp air" talk. "I don’t know what that means, but I’m not interested."

nsfw! under the cut

They flip a coin to decide who tops. Kelly tries to use a double-sided coin once, but Roman figures it out and gets to do whatever he wants to him.

Kelly can make anything sexual. He can be reading out a list of groceries and turn it into something depraved.

Many conversations devolve into sex talk because of this, especially over the phone. Roman is really good at phone sex and has a great voice for it.

Kelly will try almost anything once, and he will if he can get Roman to agree to it.

He’s dtf anytime/anywhere. It’s not really an exhibitionism kink so much as it’s just him doing what he wants without concern for public decency. Roman might go along with it if there’s at least a modicum of privacy.

Kelly will sexualize everything about Roman. His lips and glasses, especially.

Buys him vaguely phallic shaped foods just to watch him eat them. "I got something else for you to put in your mouth."

Wants him to wear his glasses in bed so he can come on them. Roman complains, but if he's feeling generous, he'll indulge him sometimes. Then makes Kelly buy him new glasses to replace them after.

Kelly is heavily into roleplay, and he’ll bring all sorts of toys and costumes home for them to use.

He finds a weird sparkly ghost(?) costume while snooping in Roman’s things and doesn’t even question it, just puts it on. Asks Roman to get him one too. Roman: *criminal offensive side eye*

Roman is into a lot of the same stuff as Kelly,,,,he just doesn't want to admit it. His way of asking to try a certain kink or scene is to bring it up and talk about how odd/offputting it is, and then wait for Kelly to suggest they try it so he can "begrudgingly accept" under the pretense that it was Kelly's idea.

The idea of a sex tape comes up but is promptly shot down. .

[lyon-amore]

What if…? Duskwood Chapter 16

Chapter 15 ————————————————————————————-  

*Macie POV*

 While I'm working, I get notification from the group. Dan has returned. I'm so happy when I see him, even though I'm mad at him for taking the car while he was drunk. If he could write, then he was perfect. Well, inside what it means to be perfect.

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 Lilly Were you really drinking? Dan That wasn’t even worth mentioning Jessie 😠 Dan For real it was barely anyhing Macie You were completely wasted Lilly And how exactly do you happen to know that? Were you at the Black Swan with him? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

 I control myself not to yell at the screen. Seriously, what's Lilly's problem with me? Right now I haven't said anything that seems suspicious, why does she hate me so much?

 I frown, annoyed. Do she always have to make my days bitter? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

 Macie No, we were chatting Dan I love being the center of attention in your argument but I need some sleep. My head feels like it’s gonna explode Lilly Hold up Dan Dan Oh yeah, the vote ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

 << Really, Lilly? Dan just woke up and that's the first thing on your mind?>> I would make me bite my phone if it weren't for the fact that I would seem crazy, how can she do this to him? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

 Macie I totally forgot about this vote Dan My vote is always the deciding factor 👌 Mmmmmmh Mh Mh Mh… Richy 😩 Dan Macie stays Jessy 🙂 Macie Haha too bad for you Lilly Lilly Dan, fid you read the entire chat? Dan Of course Lilly Then why are you voting against me? Dan I really don't need the drama right now. I am going to explain it to you once I slept ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

 I watch as Lilly disconnects and I laugh.    "That's what you get for being childish." I say, looking at my phone.    "Who is childish?" Aiden asks me.    "Nobody important." I stretch out in the chair, with a smile "How good it feels when things go well!"    "I'm glad to see you happy."    "You know? I feel that from now on everything can go well." I continue writing a few last words in the chat when Thomas connects and I continue with Aiden ", I think today is the big day, I feel it."    "I can feel it too," he says with a laugh, "I think tomorrow will be my lucky day."     Ah yes, tomorrow is the anniversary. I still don't know what to do, with all this research and the fact that I don't really feel like going to the party —and even less with Aiden—, I haven't even had time to choose a dress, would it be bad if I chose one that I already had instead to buy a new one? It's not like I have to buy one, I'm still saving for the one I saw.

 Wow... Truly, my life was much more boring than before now that I'm back in action. I barely remembered all the things I did before the whole Hannah thing. The only problem is that years ago I didn't have as many responsibilities as I do now.    "By the way, why does Lian look so happy?"    "From what she has told me, Brian arrived last night, he brought up the day of his arrival so he could spend more time with her," I answered, watching from a distance how Lian emanates that aura of love everywhere. They rarely see each other, Brian's job keeps him busy all the time.    "I hope they catch that guy as soon as possible so that she's happy then." He looks at Lian, who doesn't stop sending messages on the phone. "It's better when she's like this than when she's bossy and gossiping."    "Yeah." I laugh, happy to see my friend happy.     I remember when she said that she had dinner with him and that I was invited, but I think something happened because she didn't mention it again. Poor Brian, the guy they're looking for is really giving him a headache, he must be pretty good at running from the authorities.    << Paranoid, worried, he doesn't say anything about himself, attentive to the computer... It would be too much of a coincidence, right? >>     I try to push that thought away. It is not good for me to talk about this and my suspicions…    "Well, I'm going to get ready, I have to do a live show soon." Aiden moves away a bit "Will you let me know then?"    "Yeah, I'll see what I have tomorrow." I replied, putting on a fake smile.As he walks away, I get a text from Jake. Was he listening or did he just happen to talk to me after Aiden left?

As he walks away, I get a text from Jake. Was he listening or did he just happen to talk to me after Aiden left?

I go to the bathroom to write to him, locking myself in a cubicle. Every time I feel that everyone is aware of what I do with my phone. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

 Jake I came across something really interesting. Macie Perfect! I already wanted to know about some new clue! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

 I’m very curious to know what the doctor has in store for us. I hope that clears up this mystery a bit. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

 Macie You haven't heard anything through the microphone by any chance, have you Jake I'm a hacker investigating a kidnapping. Not your private life. You don't have to worry about it. Macie That is a yes to what can be done? 🤔 Jake Hmm… I will leave that to your intuition, Detective Connors. ;) Macie Omg! You've done it! Jake Haha. No, not really, don't worry. But I did read the group chat. It's a good thing Dan decided you should stay. Macie Would you make another appearance if he votes against me? Jake No, I think they've learned the rest of the lesson by now. Macie It would have been great Jake Do not get used. Macie Not even a small apparition? 🥺 Jake … I guess so, just to be sure. Macie 🤭 Jake Well, enough talking, I'm entertaining you and it's not your break time yet. Macie Should I be honored that you know my schedule or scared that maybe I'm talking to a personal stalker? Jake I already told you: I pay attention to everything you do. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

 Is just me or is the temperature starting to rise? I just remembered how he looked at me when he told me. I can tell, but he's holding back for some reason. It's what hurts me the most, because it seems that he still doesn't trust me even though he said yes. I take a breath reading his words. I have to relax or when I get out of here, everyone will think badly of me. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

 Macie That's not an exact answer Jake I think it says it all. See you later. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

    “ ’I think it says it all’?“ I don't know whether to laugh sarcastically, feel happy to read them or it's just what he does, pay attention to everything I do just because I'm investigating.     God Jake…Give me a reason so I don't think you're playing with my feelings to find Hannah, I'm only asking for that, then I'll continue to help you, but don't make me feel like I'm just a means to find her like the rest of the group. 

I leave the cubicle after flushing, in case someone is there. I also don't want them to think badly of me. I could reach the floor with my eyes closed or to make it more secure, with a blindfold. My feet are already alone. Before entering, I see the cats standing in the street and I can't help but greet them.    "You're here again, Salem and Mary." I nuzzle the black and gray and watch a white one approach. "You are new, right?" I ask when I take her in my arms "What do you think of 'Angela'? Because you look like a little angel." The cat meows and I leave her on the ground.     I notice that they have a couple of plates with food and water and I look up. Could it have been Jake who left it here?    "At least you're well taken care of." I tell them before entering the building. 

I was going to knock but Jake opens the door for me again. I see that he has a smile.    “Entertaining with the cats?” he asks me, letting me pass.    "I couldn't help it, it's a good distraction trap" I commented, going through the same ritual each time I entered. ". Besides, there's a new cat, I was curious about her."    "You mean Leia?"    "'Leia'?" I arch an eyebrow, confused "Did you name her?     He looked to the other side, embarrassed.    "I remembered that you called the other two Salem and Mary" he answers awkwardly, ",I thought it wasn't bad that the cat also had one..."      I let out a small laugh. Leia. All right. So I won't call her Angela. I really likes to see when he gets nervous, he is adorable, charming… And he is good with animals. I'm sure that if he left them that food, it's because they didn't stop meowing.    “Okay, I'm ready to see what we have to see.” I say, placing my hands on my hips, almost in a heroic pose.    “Rather, we have to listen.”     Jake walks over to the computer and I sit in my chair. This time I want to be focused, this clue is something important, Hannah may have told Dr. Ulric something that can help us.

 I tuck my hair behind my ears, like I want to have a good hearing of what I'm going to hear even if I don't have to. They are a thing that I have since I helped my father that I thought were not going to return. Jake clicks his mouse on it and the audio plays.    "What would you like to talk about today, Hannah?" It's the doctor's voice. He sounds curious, as if Hannah had told him something earlier to come together for this conversation "Hannah, are you listening?"    "Yes, I'm sorry, Dr. Barrett..." It's the first time I've heard Hannah's voice.     I look at Jake to see his reaction. I can see him worried, rubbing his hands a lot impatiently. I put my hand close to his to try to calm him down. I smile at him pronouncing the word calm with my lips and he nods, lowering his hands to leave them on the table. But when I go to pull my hand away, he takes it, like he needs support. He squeezed it lovingly, continuing to listen to the audio.    “No need to apologize, Hannah. We have all the time in the world,” he advises. "I just make to be sure that you are with me."     That makes me think that she must have been absent that day, immersed in her thoughts. The next thing we hear makes us look at each other at Hannah's words.    "I been follow."    "You let told me something similar last time."     I feel Jake's hand tighten around me. Although he doesn't show it, I see that he is angry. How long would he be following her? The doctor said that she had already told him, why didn't he do anything?    "But this time it's different," Hannah defends herself. "I… I… I just know it. "     I listen carefully to Hannah's voice. She seems nervous. Well, I can't blame her, although I wonder what the difference between then and now is.    "Does this have something to do with your past? " Past? "Is this person watching you. This stranger... In any way connected to what happen that day in the forest? "     I pay attention to every detail I hear. So according to the kidnapper, it's true, everything he show us is about something related to the forest. Hannah sighs before continuing.    "I know you don't believe me."    "I never said that."     << She already told you once… >>    “He was standing right there in the forest, watching us,” Hannah recounts. I still haven't let go of Jake's hand. ”I wasn't sure then, but I am today.”     Isn't she referring to The Man Without a Face? I mean… He's a legend, so he must be the one behind Hannah's disappearance.    "I think it would be a good idea if you tell me what happened back then in the forest." Barret asks.    "I have ready told you a hundred times." Hannah's voice sounds tired here, like she's sick of saying the same thing all the time. There doesn't seem to be any new detail, maybe?    "But maybe you are going to tell me the story differently today" from the doctor's words, I think they haven't made any progress in that story, maybe there's something Hannah keeps to herself? ”Hannah, you guys were children-”    "Jennifer was the same age as I am today." Hearing those words, the image of a cold Hannah appears in my head, compared to the photo I had found of her, smiling. A Hannah who had been through something difficult, but she smiled. Only maybe it wasn't a real smile. She was hiding her suffering "did you know that?"    "I think we should take a little break." Barret answers nervously.     The audio ends and I notice Jake lost in thought of him after the audio. I bite my lip, thinking of what to say so he'll relax first. When he gets tense, he completely changes and shuts down. I need him calm.    "You were able to find something too for a change." I tell him, trying to find some relaxation before starting work.     Jake looks at me confused.    "That isn’t the first time that I am finding something?" He asks me as he looks at me with a frown.    "Either way, you haven’t found your sense of humor yet." I teased, with a mischievous smile. His serious expression doesn't change. "Do you know what having fun looks like?"    "At least I've heard of it." To my surprise, he sticks his tongue out at me.     I answer him doing the same and he laughs. 

I hear him let out a more relaxed sigh and until now I haven't realized that we were still holding hands. We separate our hands and both focus.     "Enough funny business," he clears his throat, settling back in his chair. "Can we talk about the voice recording?"     “Sure.” I reply, feeling much better to see Jake calm down.     "Wait, I'm going to send it to you so you can keep it in your files." He moves the mouse quickly and I immediately receive the audio. Perfect because I'd like to get to hear it later in case we find out anything regarding the details. "Okay, let's get started: Hannah was being stalked. "     "And she had told the doctor about it once before." I remember from the beginning, how angry he made me feel.     "That's true." Jake stands up at the same time as me, to point on the board. "I think it’s safe that this stalker later turned into her kidnapper."     "That seems likely. The doctor didn’t seem to believe her."      I glance at Jake, who seems upset with what he said. I also imagine that he didn’t like his words.     "Yes, even if he didn't specifically admit it." I look down at his hand, which he squeezes tightly again. "Hannah was sure, that he didn't believe her that she was being stalked" I can see how worried he is about Hannah. This time I put my feelings aside, we have something important on our hands to be jealous of Hannah now. "The doctor asked her, if the stalker had something to do with the incident back then" while he is narrating, I write down everything under Hannah's photo "Do you still remember her diary find from Hannah's cloud?"     "Sure I remember."     "Very good." He stands next to me and crosses his arms. "One of the things we found out that Hannah was visiting a family and that she had feelings of guilt towards that family."      I remember the note. She had gone to talk to a woman named Iris, for something we don't know yet.     "You think that there is a connection there?" I ask, suspecting the same thing.     "Yes." I see him squeeze his arm. I thought that he would be fine. It's proving too hard for him. "It appears that in both cases the incident was weighing very heavy on Hannah’s mind.” I notice hardness in his tone of voice when he says the word 'heavy'. "To the point, where she felt that she had to talk to a psychiatrist, who, as we found out some time ago, prescribed her antidepressants."     "This incident is the same."     "Exactly." He looks at me and although I try to hide it, I see too many emotions in him. Analyzing gives me a headache, there are too many things that I can't follow" What else did we find out?"

     I put my hand to my head, remembering everything I've heard.    “Hannah was still a child during the first” I says, looking at him determinedly. ”The doctor is even referring to children.”    "Really?" It seems that at some point Jake must have been thinking of something else when he heard the audio. "Hold on." He quickly goes to the computer and plays the audio, moving forward until he hears Ulric's words. "You are right! So there was at least one other child.” He looks up from the computer, looking at me. "I hadn't noticed me."    "Where would you be without me?" I ask with a smile.    "Definitely not as far as I am now." he incorporates, approaching again.    "Do you want to listen to the voice recording one more time?"    "No, that’s not necessary. But thank you."     I'm sure the distraction was listening to Hannah tell her story. Maybe she never told him any of this.    "Maybe we can find out who the other child was."    "That would be very good." He scratches the back of his neck, looking at the whiteboard. "However, currently I can’t think of a way to make that happen."    "I could ask the others?" I suggest." Maybe it was one of them."    “No, it would only lead to unnecessary questions."    “You're right."     They would want to know how we discovered this information and maybe Lilly would accuse us even more, which wouldn't be good for us. Enough with her stupid voting.    "Give me a little time, okay? I'll try to think of another way that we shouldn't directly involve others" He sounds a little stressed. We've gotten too much information today. "Ok, back to the voice recording. Again it is the forest is playing a primary role" I point it under Hannah, threading it with the video of the kidnapper "Have you noticed?"    "Yes, of course. "    "And that's also where Hannah’s stalker first appeared." Again, I erase and point as he talks. "In the end Hannah suddenly mentions someone with the name of Jennifer."     I put Jennifer's name under Iris's, on the side of people we don't have information on yet.    “She is definitely not the second child” I say, remembering the audio. ". According to Hannah she was already an adult back. "    “You paid good attention."     We move away from the whiteboard, reading all the information we have so far. I think we've gotten too much information out today for future clues.    “Macie?” Hearing his broken voice calling my name makes my soul break into thousands of little pieces. I had never heard that tone of voice from him before. "Do you think that Hannah did something terrible?"     I try to remember everything we have collected. To my point of view, it’s seemed like she felt guilty.    "I am afraid so, yes" I reply, but in a whisper.     I feel Jake's hand reaching for mine, holding it tight. I feel that he seeks support. I'm the only one who can give it to him. I accept his hand and try to calm him down, tracing circles on his back with my thumb. Or I try, because his hand is bigger than mine, I almost didn't get to do it.    "At least we have a name now." I answered, a little tired from all we've accomplished.     The truth is that after obtaining this information I don't feel like going back to work. I want to be able to reanalyze all the information and stay a little longer.    "Yes." Slowly, he walks away from me, already calmer. "You can relax a little bit. I have asked a lot of you recently. "     I keep looking at him. He should rest. Whenever I look at him he seems much more tired than before. I don't think he should worry about me, but about himself.    "When did you last sleep?" I ask, approaching him with concern.     I hear him let out a slack laugh.    "Last fall?" He answers looking into my eyes. He seems to be joking, but he is serious.     Since we've now stopped talking about the research, my brain goes back into relaxation mode.

I still feel the warmth of his in my hand. We are too close. So close that I hope he can't hear my heart beating so fast.    "Hey Jake..."     I don't realize my voice sounds sad. The thought of him leaving as soon as he finds Hannah terrifies me.    "Yes Macie?" Jake's voice is soft, calm. He must have noticed.      I takes his hand and he corresponds. We intertwine our fingers and my whole body trembles.    "I…" I moisten my lips, they're dry from nerves, "I don't want you to go." I finally admit, almost begging him.     I see how he starts to blush. I see him restless, trying to figure out what to say. I bring my free hand to his face, finally daring to touch it. This time he doesn't pull me away from him, but he does look at me with desire.    "What are you afraid of?" I ask him and I see that he doubts.     He takes his free hand to mine, caressing it lovingly. We both have high body temperatures, and the silence in the room makes it easier to hear our breathing.    “Jake, I really meant it” I start to say, not hiding “, I like you."     In his green eyes I see a bit of hope that I didn't see before.    <<Please tell me something, anything.>>     Jake sighs, relaxing his shoulders.    “Do you think I don’t feel the same?" Hearing him say those words, my body trembles more. Good thing he has me holding my hands, because I would drop myself right now. "Before you leave, I just want to hold you and stay with me." I slowly lean back as he walks towards me, until I touch my back against the wall. It's as if he knew I was going to fall, is it so noticeable that I'm shaking? ". Throughout the day I think about you a lot more than I would like, reproducing all yours smiles in my head despite all the times I have treated you coldly, you keep smiling at me. I open up to you, even though I usually never give anyone any information about myself.” He leans his forehead against mine. It's hot. "My behavior towards you just doesn’t make any sense."    "It doesn't have to make sense if it feels right." It's hard for me to speak after his words.     Jake finally manages to touch my face, caressing me gently. I closed my eyes as I felt his skin against mine. He even goes so far as to brush his thumb across my lips. 

By the time I feel his lips close to mine, he jerks away letting out a throaty growl. He turns his back to me leaning on the table. I approach him wanting to put a hand on his shoulder.    "But it isn’t right!" He yells and I get scared, throwing myself back "And it's dangerous" he turns and I see his eyes red, tired ", for me just much as for you."    "You can't decide if it's dangerous when I can't say in my decision!" I scream too, but not angry, just confused "Tell me and maybe we can solve it" I approach him placing my hands on his face, caressing him carefully ". Together."     Jake runs his tongue over his lips, hesitating. He takes my hands and lowers them, then takes my things and puts them in my arms.    "That's the problem, I don't want you to end up suffering because of me." He pushes me towards the door and opens it. "I am sorry Macie."     He pulls me off the floor and I start to cry.    "Jake," I knock on the door, waiting for him to open. "Jake please, tell me what it is, I'm not going to judge you." I call again louder "Jake! I just want to help you! Please open me!"     I've seen it in his eyes when he kicked me out: fear, despair, tiredness... And above all, worry.    "Why don't you trust me?" I don't want to believe that I'm still talking to a door, I want to believe that he's listening to me.     This is not going to work is it? No matter how much I beg him, he won't come out. 

I turn around, wiping away tears.

It really hurts not to understand the reason for his behavior. I want to understand him. Knowing what is so dangerous that we are not together. But he hasn't even let me decide if it would really be dangerous for me or not. 

I go downstairs while putting on my sweatshirt. Shit… I have to get back to work now… And like this…    "Dangerous..." I pronounce in a low voice "It's dangerous..."     It is then when I stop crying and let the anger flood me. What is dangerous? Why? Why does he say it? He hasn't let me know the truth! How will I know that he is dangerous?! Even though I still like him—much to my chagrin—I can't help feeling angry now. I pick up my phone and instead of texting to avoid Jake seeing it, I make a phone call. He picks it up on the second ring.    "Hey Aiden, can we talk about the party tomorrow when I get to work?" *Jake POV* 

I hear Macie from behind the door, crying and pleading. I control myself for not opening it and apologize. I have to at least make her hate me so that she only thinks that the only thing that matters in our relationship is Hannah's investigation.    "Why don't you trust me?" I hear her say, still crying.     I do trust you Macie, I really do. And it is precisely for this reason that I am taking you away from me, so that the same thing that happened to me does not happen to you. So you don't run my same fate so unfortunate. Because if something happens to you, then I couldn't forgive myself for getting you into my troubles. 

As soon as I hear her walk away, I can finally let the anger I feel out of me.    “SHIT!” I slam my chair against the wall, angry with myself.     I know this is better for both of us, even if I don't feel proud. I want to put her safety first, make her forget about me, even if I can't. I know I've been a jerk after coming out, but before my safety comes Macie's. 

I lean against the wall sliding down it until I sit on the floor. Resting my hands on my head. Powerless.    “Forgive me... Someday you'll understand... I promise you Macie... But please... For now I need you to hate me like I hate myself right now...”

Chapter 17

[sagigirlie]

Moon in the signs

Aries moon ❤️‍🔥

I’ve noticed these people are very independent usually. They don’t like being told what to do. They like doing things their own way. Can be quite bossy and irritable. Can get angry easily or be childish at times. Loves attention and can be self absorbed/selfish. If they don’t get attention they will act out so people notice them. Loves compliments and feeling desired and sexy. Confident energy. Can be goal-oriented. Very competitive, even if they won’t admit, which might lead to insecurities. Passionate about the things/people they love and cherish. Can have a fierce look.

Taurus moon 🌷

very sensual and serious energy. Elegant aura. Good at taking care of others. Very loving people. Closed off at first and don’t trust easily, they don’t let just anyone in- they have to feel a real connection for that. Really loves food lmao. It can be their coping mechanism or comfort them for anything . Artistic. Creative souls. Loves art & culture. Loves animals. Grounded. Loves being in nature. Can love the more natural look. Needs to feel secured, whether with material possessions/ money, strong relationships etc. comfortable around women for both sexes. Can be very stubborn and it can be hard for them to admit when they’re wrong or change their ways.

Gemini moon 🎭

intelligent, sarcastic. Memes and Netflix as a coping mechanism lmao. All over the place. In their heads a lot. Overanalyze & overthinks Which can cause them anxiety and depression. Can worry a lot sometimes. Anxious energy. Can actually have social anxiety at times. Good sense of humor. Loves making others laugh. Funny. Loves music & parties. Natural acting skills or can be quite good at lying. Theatrical personality. Many known and funny actors/actresses have this placement. Youthful & cute smiles. Can give crazy energy/vibe haha. They don’t always feel comfortable showing their more vulnerable side so they use sarcasm instead, more closed off emotionally. Either that or they overshare lmao no in between. Can actually feel like they have a few totally different people inside of them which makes them at times feel confused or lost and seem unpredictable like u don’t know what mood ur gonna get (that’s me yay) hard to feel stable. Irritable. The mom can be a best friend. They can consult her about everything and like hearing her opinion. Though it’s more of a rational relationship rather than emotional. Can be prone to gossip as they’re very curious people.

Cancer moon 🧸

sensitive. closed off with people they don’t know or don’t feel comfortable with. Can be shy but don’t like looking that way. Can have their guards up with people. gives more feminine energy to both sexes. holds grudges. Can get hurt easily. Loyal to people close to them. Cares about people they love and likes taking care of them somehow and feeling like people depend on them. Can find it hard to let go. Might act manipulatively to make things go the way they want or make people depend on them. Takes things personally. Gets deeply attached to things and people. Can be insecure.

Leo moon 🎁

loves attention A LOT. Needs it for their well being haha. Especially from people close to them. Theatrical in their personalities. Funny. Can act crazy to draw attention. Can be loud and/or obnoxious. Can create drama without even noticing they started it cause they are drown to it with their intense persona. Can be envious of others. competitive. Can give Mean Girls vibes haha. They have big hearts though. Can look fancy. Loves luxury & fashion.

Virgo moon 🧿

very critical of themselves. Cares about how people view them. Polite and good mannered. Can be very insecure but don’t like showing it. Hard workers. Can be people pleasers due to insecurities. Loves satisfying the people they love. Can suffer from anxieties and nervousness or depression. Can find it hard to accept themselves so they always want to feel accepted by others somehow, wether for their looks, intelligence, personality etc. might feel inadequate somehow & try to compensate for that. Can have eating disorders due to self esteem issues or be overly body-conscious to the point they overwork their bodies. overall they do seem to take interest in healthy lifestyles & workout regimes. It’s either that or they don’t care at all to the point of neglecting their health, I guess maybe if underdeveloped they don’t have a good balance when it comes to that. Can give a fox-like look to the face. Also needs to have a somewhat clean and neat environment for their mental health lmao (that’s my mom).

Libra moon 🦋

They seem to have balance issues. If underdeveloped they’re either focused on keeping the peace at all cost in a need to be liked and accepted, or the opposite- attract and are attracted to drama and violence, and act aggressively themselves as a self- sabotage mechanism. They seem to have dealt with some type of mental issue at least at one point in their life. Can over-think and analyze situations and people, or if people like them or not. Probably have to be with their childhood. Gives some detached aura to the personality. Rationalize their emotions. Charming. Might flirt or use their charm to get the things they want. Can be manipulative and/or self-destructive in relationships. Naturally Attracted to relationships though. Can have co-dependence issues which brings me back to the unbalance thing- they’re either too afraid to lose their independence so they stay alone for a while until they mature (mainly for guys) or they feel incomplete and insecure without a partner, to the point of being overly dependent on them and depending on them for their overall well being or mental wellness. Might have had issues with unstable childhood or a disconnect from mother/parents (they might not be so present all the time) that caused them to look for a family or stability outside from their homes. They either look for friends for that or romantic partners, or other figures. They would still, even if had issues with the mother consciously or not, always talk nicely about her and view her in a graceful & kind light. Are quite artistic & creative and like aesthetically pleasing surroundings & people.

Scorpio moon 🌚

Gives intense aura and gaze. They seem like deep people. Not showing a lot of their true self to the public, only people they trust. Don’t trust or let others in easily. Very Selective of their surrounding. Look powerful on the outside. closed off aura. Can have deep insecurities, some derived from their childhood. Although when they grow or are more developed, they can be very mature and have a lot of recuperating powers, can handle a lot of hardships. Might have suffered from trauma but it’s their source of strength. Very wise. Can be very manipulative when they want and can be good liars. Magnetic aura. Tbh they can look crazy sometimes lmao don’t know why something in their eyes or gaze, if you look closely enough you’ll see it. Their eyes are usually very prominent & distinctive somehow. Can attract, consciously or not, drama into their life, or just intense experiences. Are attracted to intensity. Possessive in love and can have stalker tendencies sometimes haha.

Sagittarius moon 🎠

Jokes and sarcasm as a coping mechanism. Loves people that can make them laugh or making others laugh. Vibrant energy. When underdeveloped can act wildly and irresponsibly and have self-distractive tendencies. Loves being around people. Can have some sort of disconnection from the mother from what I’ve noticed. Can hold her grudges or feel neglected or detached from her from a young age (either mom or other care giver) or was given too much independence and lack of structure, or just overall have some issues & disagreements with her/them. Therefore the child might feel lost and alone or neglected or still feel like that when they grow up so they look for some stability maybe outside.

Capricorn moon 👔

As I’ve said before, cap moons might have had to grow fast due to a missing parent from a young age or had heavy demands from parents, or had to work from a young age, many times willingly so. Was forced to grow up fast in their younger years which might give the opposite affect in later years and cause them to act out. Might feel alone or like the black sheep inside, but doesn’t like to show it. Guarded. Doesn’t like showing too much emotions on the outside, especially not crying in front of people. They give off a stable/grounded or sometimes a bit Indifferent energy. Looks at money as a security blanket. Aspires to have materialistic possessions. Ambitious and hard workers. Self-sufficient. Needs to feel like they are productive to feel stable mentally & emotionally. Can have suffered from anxieties/breakdowns/ depression without anybody else knowing. Good at concealing it. Can have a very well-developed & dry sense of humor.

Aquarius moon 🧊

Can have Calculated, Detached aura, or quite quirky and goofy in personality (especially if they feel comfortable around u). Might try to give a more serious self impression at first, but are goofballs inside. Intelligent. Independent. Good at small talk and communicating with strangers. Loves traveling and meeting new people and places. Adventurers. Might feel detached or somehow distant from the mother, she might have been more rational & practical and the person grew up being more independent and introverted bc of it. Might not feel too comfortable with too many intense emotions or feels awkward expressing or sharing them. The type to suffer in silence. Can be insecure inside but seem confident outside. Can have poker faces. In their heads a lot and can over think & analyze things. Can be good at reading others bc of that. Likes doing things their own way and doesn’t like feeling too strict by others. Might have a complex relationship with siblings, especially sisters from what I’ve noticed (for the guys especially), which might affect the way they view or treat women in general (together with the relationship with the mother).

Pisces moon ⚓️

As I’ve mentioned before, Pisces moon can be very deceiving or manipulative when they want, especially when young or underdeveloped. They might suffer from pathological lying disorder at some point , but that’s in extreme cases. They twist reality as they want to see it and can be delusional and disconnected or unrealistic. Can have a victim complex, putting their own faults or blames on others or refusing to see other sides than their own. Very sensitive and can be very close to the mother. Ethereal look especially the eyes, can be very hypnotic, deep and doe-like. You can really get lost in them. Gives soft/angelic features or look , even with harder placements. Usually spiritual somehow or believes in faith or the greater good, or that everything happens for a reason. Can be very giving and loving or selfless with people they love. Can be flaky and unstable emotionally. If underdeveloped might actually use people for their own interest and be quite self-absorbed and/or narcissistic. Can have very big aspirations for themselves. Can seek the spotlight and the glitz & glamour life (Neptune ruler).

[moxfirefly]

i was wondering what type of person/girl would each turtle be attracted to? like,,, do they like rock n' roll, or would they like reading? those type of stuff.... thank u, and i love ur work !! 🤍

Hey there! Let’s see…

⚔️Leo⚔️

I feel Leo would be somewhat picky but it’s more so because of his nature to want to have some control over things. He’s kinda independent if you ask me so an s/o who’s somewhat independent themselves would be great. Doesn’t mean they can’t depend on each other though.

He’d like someone who enjoy literature, so they can discuss books and have some cute moments because they would read the same thing together and talk about it for hours. Someone to give him books recs and someone who would love to hear his recs for them.

Sporty or homebody he doesn’t mind. He likes energy though, you can be energetic in your own ways but he appreciates it.

Boy likes to show off so somebody who cheers him own during training would make him all sorts of fuzzy.

For bedroom fun he’d be very happy with someone who is naturally submissive but he does indulge in be a total sub himself every now and then so vers s/o would be great.

Give this man a weeb s/o too, he’ll be a giddy mess if he can sit and binge an anime with them.

Cool and collected but sure of themselves. He won’t say it but he loves an s/o who can handle themselves with a bit of an attitude.

Lowkey (more high key) somebody to baby him.

🥊Raph👹

Loves them pretty fem ngl, like he loves all that make up shit and skirts and heels, but honestly would high key vibe with a tomboy.

Somebody confident but somebody who isn’t afraid to be vulnerable (because homeboy is a crybaby let’s be real)

Which goes without saying, he does need somebody who isn’t judgmental. He’s sensitive you know, he’ll appreciate you being real with him but don’t hurt my boy 🥲

For the seriously big ol brat that he is, he loves to goof around so he’ll for sure be a boyfriend who loves to prank you and pick on you (in a sweet way) so y’all can get into it. He’ll call you a bossy princess and you can call him a green boulder but still kiss ya know.

He likes opposites attracts so you don’t gotta love everything he loves but he doesn’t appreciate you trying. Same he does with you.

Wants somebody he can gossip with. Raph loves gossip and he will deny until his dying breath but homie is a gossipy hoe. Bring forth all the work tea, friend tea, relationship tea, family tea.

High key loves to show off and loves it when it affects you 🥴

With all the body issues he wouldn’t mind someone who’s openly into ogling him, calling him handsome and their big strong man. Gas him up pls.

Sweet but raunchy. Oh how that combo would kill him. He wants to hold your hand in public but fold you like laundry in private.

🍕Mikey🛹

Sporty, fem, masc, non-binary, anything whatever. Have a pulse he’s easy.

Mikey boy just wants somebody he can have fun with you know? Stay up late and play video games type of love. Share memes and inside jokes type of love. Bake at 3am because the munchies hit hard after banging type of love.

Chill s/o, doesn’t have to be as chill as he is cause you need to sometimes get his ass into gear but he doesn’t want someone bossy or demanding.

I hope you’re ready for the embodiment of love language is physical touch, because he will have a hand or part of him on you. So somebody who enjoys that’s would be aces.

Creative type too, if you paint or draw. Or if you like being a model for him to paint or draw better yet. Music junkie, make him a playlist and he’s yours.

Stealer of clothes and accessories. At some point he’ll be wearing more of your stuff and you of his.

Vers because as much as he wants to fold you over any piece of furniture within sight, he wants you to do the same. You can literally peg him, it’s on his bucket list.

💻Donnie👾

Like minded individual for this one. He’s not opposed to an opposites attract but it’s gotta be like right you know? He loves challenges and he loves anybody who can challenge him but a like minded s/o would be nice.

So somebody who’s into robotics and science and mechanics etc. cause he would love to bounce ideas off of you. You don’t have to be a genius trust me he loves teaching all this shit and explaining more than anything but if you’ve got some knowledge in the fields he’ll be stoked.

Acts of service is his language so expect him to wanna help fix or do stuff for you. Somebody who doesn’t mind this would be great for him. Which kinda goes without saying, he would be really into taking the lead in stuff.

Conversations, boy loves to talk which is something he values in a future s/o. Whatever the topic he’s down for long conversations.

He’s a vers by nature, has his days where he’s more vers top than anything but he does enjoy being at your mercy so be ready to enjoy that and have the reigns handed to you when he’s feeling more subby.

[hyenahunt]

Obbligato: The Baptism of Jun Sazanami - 6

Writer: Akira

Season: Spring, three years ago

Characters: Tatsumi, Jun

Proofreading: 310mc + Remi (JP) & honeyspades (ENG)

Translation: hyenahunt & Peace

Jun: Yeah? I'm the son of a loser who got his ass kicked and erased from showbiz by Super Idol Jin Sagami — what of it?

Location: Reimei Academy’s dormitory for Non-Special Students, nicknamed the “Labour Camp”

Time: Several minutes later.

Tatsumi: (Drinking...♪ )

Ah, what delicious tea.

That truly woke me up. It was a good idea to brew it a little stronger than normal.

Jun: A Special Student drinking tea... that he brewed by himself...

Tatsumi: Hm? Special Students are humans just like yourself, so is it unusual that I would drink tea as well?

Jun: That's not what I meant. I mean, you guys usually force all these chores like preparing tea on us. The worst offenders even make us change their clothes for them, y'know?

What are we, slaves for some bossy nobles? They're all just shitheads.

Tatsumi: Yes, it is rather strange, isn't it? If you brew it yourself, you’re able to be more precise about steeping it to the temperature and flavor you prefer.

Jun: I bet they just wanna get off on their superiority complex from bossing us around.

Tatsumi: Hm... I would be happy if others did things for me, I won't deny that.

But if you allow others to do everything for you, then you'll lose what makes you human to begin with.

Jun: That's just it, isn't it? This ain't any school for training idols — it's just a factory churning out useless people instead.

Tatsumi: Haha. You're not wrong, that's a perfect way to describe it.

Ah... By the way, these tea leaves are ones I brought from home, where they were grown by my family.

Jun: It's cool, I didn't think you'd stolen anyone's personal stuff or anything.

Tatsumi: Haha... if you'd like, you may have some as well. I've made too much, you see, and it would be wrong to waste water.

Jun: Well then, um, don't mind if I do.

Tatsumi: Please, be my guest.

Jun: .....

Tatsumi: .....

Jun: ...Um—

Tatsumi: Yes? We can speak once you're finished with your tea, it's bad manners to talk with your mouth full.

Jun: Right, thanks. Sorry 'bout that. I wasn't raised too well.

Tatsumi: There's no need to apologize. Even if you did spit tea on my face, I wouldn’t find it unpleasant. I'd simply wash it off afterward, you see?

Jun: You're kinda weird, you know that?

Tatsumi: So I've been told. By the way, what is your name?

It's a little troubling that you know mine and I don't know yours, isn't it? I’d appreciate you sharing it, if you don't mind.

Jun: Oh, the name's... my name is Jun Sazanami.

Tatsumi: Ah, Sazanami, is it? I feel as if I've heard that name before.

Jun: Have there been that many rumours about me?

Tatsumi: No, no, though it is rather unusual for a student to immediately find themselves suspended from the school they're newly enrolled in.

I'm afraid to say that Special Students simply don't have a bit of interest in you all.

At most, they just gossip over tea about you all, but otherwise, there's no condemnation of such an "impertinent newcomer".

Jun: ...

......

Tatsumi: Ah, that's right, I remember now. Sazanami was the name of an idol in days past.

I remember coming across the name during Reimei's lessons detailing idol history.

Jun: In your Special Student lessons, you mean. We break our backs from dawn to dusk doing all our odd jobs, and straight up don't get any proper lessons at all.

And the ones we do get are just the typical stuff taught in any old school. Call this an idol training school? I call bullshit.

But well, since we Non-Specials aren't gonna become idols anyway, maybe it's to save us some trouble when we go out into the real world or something.

Tatsumi: That’s an issue as well, in my opinion... Due to the fact they ensure you all don't have trouble finding work in the future, it's hard to truly criticise their actions — in other words, they use this "justification" as a loophole for their behavior.

However, allow me to ask again. Are you by chance the son of the famed Sazanami-shi?

Your face reminds me a little of a picture of him one of our textbooks included.

Jun: So what if I am?

Tatsumi: There's nothing wrong with that. It only makes various things about you clear to me.

Jun: Yeah? I'm the son of a loser who got his ass kicked and erased from showbiz by Super Idol Jin Sagami — what of it?

Tatsumi: I don't think anything of it. Though, the teachers seemed rather worried about it themselves.

Jun: Whaddya mean by that...?

Tatsumi: Reimei's... No, CosPro's higher-ups are terrified of scandals more than anything else. They’re afraid of damaging their brand.

Your father, forced into a hopeless rivalry against that Super Idol, was scorned for his loss. Being his son would naturally be a heavy blow for your reputation.

They may think that due to you being the son of someone they held in such disdain, that it would be fine if they treated you just the same.

Jun: ...But that shouldn't have anything to do with my parents.

Tatsumi: Unfortunately, not everyone agrees. In fact, the majority of the world would simply assume that the apple wouldn't fall too far from the tree.

A child reaps what their parent sows; while your father had never done anything as terrible as "that Akehoshi" had, truthfully...

They may see you as a failure, as the same sort of underwhelming idol your father had been in their eyes due to your name, and therefore label you as a disgrace they simply can't ignore.

Jun: The hell's up with that... I don't get this shit at all.

Tatsumi: It's unreasonable, isn't it? To put it simply, idols like ourselves are put in a position in which complete strangers are able to judge our very beings.

Fans, in other words the public, thoroughly dissect and judge every good and bad thing we've done, which is why we idols must bear in mind our own merits and faults—

Jun: ...Haha ♪

Tatsumi: What's the matter? Did I say something amusing?

Jun: Nah, sorry 'bout that. I mean just now, you said 'we idols', didn't you?

And I was like... damn, that's the first time I've ever been treated like an idol since I set foot in this school. The thought of that just made me laugh, I guess.

Tatsumi: .....

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[sitp-recs]

Do you know of any fics under 10k that aren’t too angsty? ❤️

Hi anon, I most certainly do! Thanks so much for sending this ask, I was super excited when I saw it because I’m always happy to celebrate short fics - they could use more appreciation! I’ve wanted to do a proper shorts reclist for a while so I indulged myself and went big, hope you don’t mind! Putting this together was quite hard - going through my bookmarks I realized that I usually go for angsty shorts 💀 so I tried my best not to include anything too extreme, I hope these are okay!

This became a lil monster with 40 recs (and I have lots more hehe) so I decided to sort them by genre - the last category includes light angst (more on the contemplative side) because I can’t help myself. Shout-out to @tackytigerfic for giving me a 2nd opinion and helping me polish this - and for being a darling in general. Happy readings!

ROMANCE/COMFORT

1. Sun Stroke by @peachpety (2020, E, 3k)

Warm, sexy and wholesome, this fic makes my heart soar with the magical beach setting, amazing friendship dynamics and the sweet get together with a delicious side of smut!

2. oxygen [Fic & Art] by @maesterchill (2020, T, 4k)

Tentative acquaintances become something more over a shared smoke at the balcony. Sexy, mature, deliciously atmospheric and full of promise - plus Healer Draco is always a treat!

3. Catch the Snitch (No, Catch My Heart) by @prolix- (2020, E, 4.5k)

Gorgeous bath fic where Harry and Draco just... take care of each other. The raw emotion packed here! Lush and vivid build up with stunning body worship, hot and intimate and breathtaking.

4. Thermodynamic Equilibrium by DorthyAnn (2017, T, 5k)

This quiet comfort fic gives our boys some well deserved healing through physical touching and late night companionship. Love the 8th year atmosphere, soothing and familiar.

5. Blue Sky Is Living Here Today by ignatiustrout (2018, G, 5k)

The loveliest kid fic you’ll see today - real characters, gentle longing, soft understanding. It’s a joy to watch dad Draco through Harry’s smitten eyes, as he realizes there’s no rush to live that love.

6. Gravity Centered by @carpemermaidtales (2019, E, 6.7k)

Possibly my favorite Quidditch fic, this has an original premise and amazing Drarry dynamics, casual and organic, sassy and familiar, with a perfect lil twist at the end!

7. Up The by @shiftylinguini (2018, E, 7.5k)

One of the funniest PWPs I’ve ever read, clever and charming with easy banter and delicious smut. A sweet and sexy glimpse into the Drarry married life! Cw Mpreg

8. And a Malfoy in a Pear Tree by lauren3210 (2015, E, 8k)

Sweet sweet coffee shop Christmas romance! Love the light and fun atmosphere, the easy banter and cute wooing while supportive Ron cheers in the background, what a treat!

9. Ice Snakes, Glow-worms and Wolverine Stew by khalulu (2015, M, 8.4k)

Khalulu writes the softest Drarry, it never fails to put a smile on my face. This has a gentle and sweet get together, with lovely slow burn, a gorgeous San Francisco setting and matchmaker Kreacher 💗

10. Life goes not backward by @shealwaysreads (2020, T, 8.8k)

This delicate comfort fic has a special way to tug at my heartstrings - a gorgeous tale about found family and the unexpected wonders of life. Gentle, magical and breathtaking in its simplicity.

HUMOUR

11. in charge by @bonesliketambourines (2020, E, 2.4k)

The ultimate brat Draco, bossy and confident and absolutely gorgeous with his long hair and impossible snark. Charming and funny, this packs so much character and domestic bliss under 3k! Perfect spoiled Draco is perfect.

12. The Morning After by birdsofshore, capitu (2015, M, 5.3k)

This is hysterical and so delightfully creative - Draco exploring Harry’s kitchen and charming a prudish appliance is the kind of cute, silly endeavor I need with my morning coffee!

13. The Spoiling of Sex From Enthusiastic Ignorance by @cibeewastaken (2020, E, 6k)

I’m impossibly enamored with Cibee’s drama queen Draco and his passionate missions! This time he’s decided to get some good diq, and the dialogue and mutual pining will make you smile from beginning to end.

14. All Tied Up by MyNameIsThunder (2020, M, 6k)

This is a secret relationship delight! Sneaking around gets so much better when dramatic Blaise is losing his shit to protect the Council of Serpents’ integrity! A+ faux-drama, super fun and sweet.

15. Luckiest Fucking Size Queen Alive by @l0vegl0wsinthedark (2016, E, 6.2k)

My favorite brand of thirsty and chaotic Draco; being inside his mind is such a crazy ride and you won’t stop laughing for a second. Amazing dialogue and insanely scorching smut as per loveglows’ usual 🤤

16. Sex Ed for Aurors by curiouslyfic (2010, M, 8.7k)

This is a Harry triumph, so fun and charming! Here he’s the one chaotic and thirsty, for a change - I’m obsessed with his internal ranting under the lust potion. Brilliant narrative and top notch characterization, a classic!

17. Ferocious Determination, Insufficient Deliberation, and a Slightly Wrong Destination by Faith Wood (2012, E, 9.5k)

Drunk Draco has never been so absurd and I LOVE it! This goes from hilarious to vulnerable and sweet in a heartbeat; pining Draco is a precious thing and Harry’s gentle persistence made my heart swell.

18. Stand Back: I'm About to Perform Archaeology by Blowfish_Diaries (2018, E, 9.7k)

This fic could definitely use more appreciation - I had a blast with Draco’s hilarious voice and their cute married banter! The plot is quite original and I love the 8th year domestic vibes.

19. The Full Monty by @magpiefngrl (2017, E, 9.8k)

The calendar fic we deserve 👏🏻 this is ultimate thirsty Draco being completely obliterated by Harry’s casual attractiveness but mostly by his kind heart and big smile. One of my favorite comfort reads, hilarious, sweet and so damn sexy, the full monty combo is here!

20. Aural Gratification by birdsofshore (2014, E, 10k)

This fic is a classic, charming and hysterical with an adorable Harry thirsting over Draco’s smooth voice. Such an original concept and engaging read, not to mention the rewarding shade of smut!

SMUT

21. Tense by Faith Wood (2013, E, 3k)

Me, reading smut for the dialogue? It’s more likely than you think 😂 this fic is hilarious and hot all at once, with perfect banter and clever dialogue, really a smut triumph!

22. Under Your Skin by @p1013 (2020, Explicit, 4k)

Great premise and the sexiest build up, ugh so much teasing and anticipation as pierced Draco takes Auror Harry’s control away 🔥kudos at the A+ twist and promising ending!

23. The Slytherin Urn by @icmezzo (2015, E, 4.6k)

This fic’s geniality slaps me in the face, what a fascinating concept! Redemption kink and magical theory walk together as Harry loses his mind over competent Draco doing some badass curse-breaking ritual.

24. Once Bitten by Frayach (2012, E, 5.6k)

Still one of the hottest things I’ve ever read, lush and raw and absolutely breathtaking. Dark and tender at once, it explores biting kink with unapologetic precision and I love that!

25. Matched Set by astolat (2016, E, 5.7k)

One of my faves by the genius astolat, this is a perfect mix of hot size kink, A+ dirty talk and a brilliant and nuanced plot showing how Harry navigates his post-war reality. A must-read!

26. Teeth by @amelior8or (2020, E, 6k)

This fic is an emotional rollercoaster and goes from light-hearted and casual to vulnerable and tender in a second. Hot and intimate feat scorching wall sex, gut-punching lines and enthusiastic consent🔥

27. Born Slippy by @dracoladon (2020, E, 8.3k)

My favorite clubbing fic ever, clever and sensual, a master class in UST including the drunk haze confusion and panty kink as a treat! I can’t even talk about this fic without blushing 😳

28. The Page Eleven Wars by fireflavored (2010, E, 8.5k)

Competitive boys fighting for dominance both in bed and at the gossip column’s first page This is peak enemies to lovers: witty banter, hot smut screaming switching rights and feisty stubborn idiots finally getting over their asses.

29. The Things They Never Say by @bixgirl1 (2017, E, 9k)

Angry porn with (many) feels, this feels like a punch to the solar plexus. The explosive Drarry chemistry gives way to something quieter and gentler and full of longing, ugh but it aches so good. Absolutely exquisite!

30. Sweet Indulgence by @the-sinking-ship (2020, E, 10k)

The title says it all; this is a lush and charming read, with chaotic but nuanced Draco pining over authoritative, edgy Harry 😳 steaming pent up tension that culminates in glorious semi-public smut, is your body ready?

CONTEMPLATIVE/SOFT ANGST

31. Sharing a Pack by sugar_screw (2016, E, 2.7k)

A fully fleshed-out love story in less than 3k, with complex characters and powerful feels. Raw, poignant and unbelievably romantic.

32. Still Life by orphan_account (2019, M, 3k)

A superb and gut-punching story where Harry realizes all the little things that make Draco so very different from him - and falls in love anyway. Powerful in its simplicity and concise elegance.

33. Harmony (Left-Handed Melody Remix) by mindabbles (2010, M, 5.8k)

Draco finds his way post-war and Harry meets him in the middle. Aching and bittersweet but also hopeful, with a delicious side of coconut cake, Harry in black robes and Romeo & Juliet as soundtrack.

34. Let Me Have You and I'll Let You Save Me by Frayach (2012, M, 6k)

Enemies to lovers deluxe version! Come and feast on this original narrative, amazingly clever, rich and detailed, telling us an unlikely but inevitable love story.

35. A Pain of Our Choosing by @lqtraintracks (2020, E, 6k)

Broken boys fucking through their issues and healing together during the post-war is so my jam! A+ LQT goodness, this fic is evocative and quietly devastating, but full of feels and hope.

36. Our Little Life by @tackytigerfic (2020, M, 7k)

I’ve screamed about this brilliant fic recently; inventive, poignant and utterly romantic, this fic shows all the ways in which Harry and Draco find each other across space and time.

37. the keys to your kingdom by thistle_verse (2016, E, 7.5k)

A beautiful love story packing an impressive amount of character, conflict and emotion. We are invited to witness as work partners Harry and Draco finally take a leap of faith and grow out of their casual arrangement.

38. Clear As Mud by scoradh (2005, M, 9.8k)

Subtle and heart-wrenching, the sharp and clever narrative creates fascinating dynamics between this brilliantly written Draco and poor oblivious Harry trying to make sense out of it. An all-time fave. Cw: infidelity (not Drarry).

39. fine i'll hold my breath / til i forget it's complicated by teatrolley (2015, E, 10k)

Fucks buddies gone wrong but make it soft so we get to watch as pining Draco patiently waits for Harry to get the memo. Sweet and intimate, with lots of late night talks and comfortable silence.

40. Tidings of Comfort series by @blamebrampton (2012, G, 10k)

Quietly cathartic and atmospheric, this fic is a poignant balm to the soul; such a beautiful tone, such lovely interactions! A must-read for those who enjoy church settings, honest talks and redeemed Draco. All-time fave.

[rosesastrology]

ASTROLOGY 101 GUIDE (MASTERPOST)

This took a long time to make so I hope it's useful to someone out there c:

The signs

Aries: passionate, childlike (not childish), finds their own way, knows what they want, optimistic, go-getter, bold, stands up for what they believe in, courageous, leaders, energetic, easily influenced, bad at controlling their anger, tend to have short tempers, naivety, can come across as foolish, egotistical or selfish

Taurus: Loyal, patient, generous to this they love, can seem materialistic, romantic, treasure their loved ones, argumentative, opinionated, self-indulgent tendencies, steady, reliable, resistant to change, possessive, stubborn, realistic, can be jealous, dependable, predictable

Gemini: misunderstood, funny, witty, good with words (no matter if they're introvert or extrovert), informative, often have a lot of general knowledge and know a lot of weird facts, adaptable, fast thinkers, inconsistent, curious, restless, logical, easily distracted, charming, resourceful, can seem as though they don't have emotions

Cancer: sensitive, sweet, cares for their family or loved ones/friends, empathic, intuitive, spiritual, artistic, introverted, avoid drama, moody, have a hard exterior and a soft core, family orientated, homebodies, contrary to popular beliefs they don't like to show off their emotions, romantic, maternal, domestic, rarely get angry, protective, psychic, patient, healers

Leo: bold, confident, the center of attention (if they want to be), multitalented, often very beautiful, position of fame or wealth/success, stubborn, selfish, defensive, hasty, impatient, generous, judgemental, creative, entertaining, determined, charismatic, bossy, dramatic, sulky, brave, protective, can be manipulative, performers

Virgo: giving, reliable, smart, overthinkers, worriers, logical, organized, tidy, witty, clean, analytical, modest, perfectionists, humble, precise, self-righteous, nagging, demanding, never satisfied, selfless, shy, helpful, diligent, observant, skeptical, laid-back, unemotional, anxious, fussy, hard on themselves, health orientated

Libra: balanced, communicative, all-rounders, relationship orientated, charming, clever, selfless, creative, bossy, fair, superficial, very honest, seek peace and harmony, advisers, objective, diplomatic, gossip, idealistic, sincere, loving, social, melodramatic, manipulative, sharing, they know your weaknesses and will use them against you if they see it as necessary

Scorpio: intense, emotional, brooding, introverted, mysterious (to strangers and those they don't want to let close), are actually very soft and emotional, sexual, interested in taboo topics, magnetic, can seem intimidating, detectives, vengeful, deep, overthinkers, intuitive, powerful, leaders, dominant, stubborn, moody, worriers, negative, forceful

Sagittarius: adventurous, philosophical, usually have a talent for languages, interested in different cultures, travelers, restless, anxious, aloof, outspoken, blunt, lucky, optimistic (once developed), can be negative if their thoughts take over, open-minded, independent, skilled, ambitious, determined, courageous, witty, genuine, real

Capricorn: work orientated, stable, reliable, passionate about their career, smart, sophisticated, resourceful, careful, grounded, cold, seek status, anxious, skeptical, realistic, greedy, cynical, unsatisfied, hard on themselves, driven, patient, ruthless, disciplined, practical, overachievers, societal

Aquarius: humanitarian, funny, witty, good with words, independent, selective about their friends, smart, thrives in group environments, friendly, creative, tolerant, loyal, idealistic, original, distant, seemingly unreachable, daydreamers, want to make a change in the world, contradictory, rebellious, unconventional, don't follow the rules

Pisces: imaginative, sensitive, moody, highly creative, easily addicted to substances, manipulative, passive aggressive, self-pitying, absent, daydreamers, overthinkers, empathetic, emotional, intuitive, give good advice, sweet, extremely selfless, often give into false hope, don't put their dreams into plans, compassionate, soft, magical, accepting, lazy, escapists

Planets

SUN: THE SELF - the Sun represents the self, direct energy, father/mother energy (usually father), career, the ego, consciousness, stamina, the body, exercise, vitality, heart, confidence, radiance, personality, masculinity, your drive

MOON: THE HIDDEN SELF - the Moon represents the hidden self, emotions, substance use, the subconscious, the mother, your needs, wants, instincts, passivity, reactions, femininity, habits

MERCURY: THE MIND - Mercury represents the mind, communication, social media, conversations, news, newspapers, games, technology, science, books, intellect, reasons, messages, interactions, languages, intelligence

VENUS: LOVE - Venus represents love, marriage, engagement, stability, honeymoons, beauty, fashion, clothes, gifts, food, attraction, art, values, wants and needs, discrimination, relatability, culture, charm, jewellery, style, sociability, luxury, chances

MARS: DRIVE AND ANGER - Mars represents your drive and anger, passion, sex, boldness, argumentativeness, energy, primal instincts, aggression, action, desire, competition, courage, fights, war, frustration, violence

JUPITER: EXPANSION AND LUCK - Jupiter rules expansion and luck, traveling, fortune, growth, healing, optimism, understanding, accepting, education, school, university, reasoning, distance, foreign countries, religion, leisure time, indulgence, good fortune, the world, prosperity

URANUS: CHANGE - Uranus rules change, science, rebellion, unpredictability, instability, rebirth, reformation, insight, breakthroughs, innovation, psychology, originality, revolution, natural disasters, astrology, unique, unusual, accidents, taboo

SATURN: STRUCTURE. Saturn rules structure, life lessons, hard lessons, the father, masculinity, work, education, society, social order, society, working class, law, restrictions, limitations, responsibility, growth, obligation, law, wisdom, aging, career, hard work, strength, ambition

NEPTUNE: THE SUBCONSCIOUS - Neptune rules the subconscious, illusions, drugs, substance use, idealism, dreams, delusions, mystics, myths, intuition, spirituality, mystery, (false) hopes, faith, religion, romance, escapism, skepticism, deception, confusion, anxiety, suicide

PLUTO: TRANSFORMATION AND TABOO - Pluto rules transformation and taboo, sex, tarot, mysteries, rebirth, legends, myths, religion, ego death, astrology, witches, psychology, disorders, power, birth and death, evolution, intensity, violence, INNER change, growth, obsession, crime, subversion, hard reality, underworld, fears phobias, abuse, self-harm, everything that's hidden

THE HOUSES

Your astrological chart is made up off of twelve parts, these twelve parts are called HOUSES. A PLANET is both in a SIGN and in a HOUSE. If you have more than 3 planets in a HOUSE or SIGN it is called a STELLIUM. This means this sign or house is extremely intense in your life. You can also have EMPTY houses, which means there's no planet or luminary in that house. If this is the case, it means that this area of your life is less intense than other areas and there may be a lack of that house in your life. Strong planetary influences can counter an empty house (see NATURAL RULERS, a well-aspected Jupiter could counter an empty 9th house for example).

1st house: self, appearance, beginnings, first impressions, basic personality, the conscious, the body, dominant traits

2nd house: possessions, money, food, wealth, values, relationships, habits, career, work ethic

3rd house: communication, intellect, intelligence, humor, messages, siblings, education, news, neighbors, sociability, events

4th house: the past, family, parents, home life, childhood, emotions, foundation, roots, mother, children, women, femininity

5th house: play, relationships, chances, opportunity, romance, self-expression, creativity, art, entertainment, joy, romance, affairs, drama

6th house: health, volunteering, selflessness, generosity, fitness, exercise, pets, service, organization, critical mind, critique, perfectionism, analytics

7th house: marriage, engagement, true love, relationships, contracts, friendships, equality, balance, give and take

8th house: Sex, intimacy, resources, finance gain or loss, taboo, mystery, deception, substance, obsession, passion, abuse

9th house: Expansion, luck, traveling, education, philosophy, culture, languages, prosperity, ethics, learning, law, religion, beliefs

10th house: career, work ethic, structure, status, long-term plans or goals, stability, reputation, masculinity, men, fathers, respectability, reliability, limits, life lessons

11th house: friendship, friends, awareness, technology, humanitarianism, the future, hopes and wishes

12th house: the hidden, endings, healing, closure, spiritualism, solitude, karma, old age, subconscious, afterlife, limiting beliefs

ELEMENTS

Every sign and planet is naturally ruled by one of the four elements (earth, fire, water and air) which you can find more about here. Elements are fixed and not subjected to change.

FIRE

Keywords: active, passionate, extroverted, hotheaded, bold, spontaneous, impulsive, creative, reactive, masculine

Signs: ARIES, LEO, SAGITTARIUS

Planets: MARS, SUN, JUPITER

Houses: 1, 5, 9

WATER

Keywords: emotional, fluid, go with the flow, feminine, intuitive, sensitive, empathic, moody, negative

Signs: PISCES, CANCER, SCORPIO

Planets: NEPTUNE, MOON, MARS/PLUTO

Houses: 12, 4, 8

EARTH

Keywords: stable, reliable, structural, respectable, smart, hard workers, practical

Signs: TAURUS, VIRGO, CAPRICORN

Planets: VENUS, MERCURY, SATURN

Houses: 2, 6, 10

AIR

Keywords: communication, humor, society, idealism, justice, thoughts, messages, education

Signs: GEMINI, LIBRA, AQUARIUS

Planets: MERCURY, VENUS, URANUS

Houses: 3, 7, 11

QUALITIES/MODALITIES

In astrology every sign has a natural unchangeable quality. They are also called modalities. There are three of them: cardinal, fixed or mutable.

CARDINAL: Adaptable, versatile, changeable, dynamic, tackles obstacles head on, initiating, need the issue to be resolved, action orientated. Bad at the follow through. Blunt.

CARDINAL SIGNS: Aries, Cancer, Libra, Capricorn

FIXED: unchangeable, stubborn, resistant, stable, organized, attached, likes routine, tackles problems slowly and often gets stuck. Do follow through. Disciplined.

FIXED SIGNS: Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, Aquarius

MUTABLE: escapism, avoid the problem or issue, negotiators, compromise it, adaptable, changeable

MUTABLE SIGNS: Gemini, Virgo, Sagittarius, Pisces

YIN YANG

There's a natural Yin and Yang in astrology.

Yin: feminine, introvert, passive, emotive, reaction based

Signs: Gemini, Virgo, Cancer, Aquarius, Sagittarius, Libra

Yang: masculine, extrovert, active, social, action based

Signs: Aries, Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, Capricorn, Pisces

POLARITY

Polarity refers to signs or houses that are opposite of each other.

Aries (the self) vs Libra (partnership)

Taurus (personal possessions, pleasure) vs Scorpio (shared possessions, pleasure)

Gemini (detail orientated) vs Sagittarius (focused on expansion, the big picture)

Cancer (the home life) vs Capricorn (the public life, society)

Leo (generosity, entertainment and personal pleasure) vs Aquarius (individualism and humanitarian goals)

Virgo (work, discipline) vs Pisces (dreams, addiction)

NATURAL RULERS:

Every sign has a natural ruler. A natural ruling planet, house, element, quality and yin/yang.

Aries

Natural ruling planet: Mars

Element: Fire

Quality: Cardinal

House: 1

Yin/yang

Taurus

Planet: Venus

Element: earth

Quality: fixed

House: 2

Yin/yang

Gemini

Planet: Mercury

Element: air

Quality: mutable

House: 3

Yin/yang

Cancer

Planet: Moon

Element: water

Quality: cardinal

House: 4

Yin/yang

Leo

Planet: Sun

Element: fire

Quality: fixed

House: 5

Yin/yang

Virgo

Planet: Mercury

Element: earth

Quality: mutable

House: 6

Yin/yang

Libra

Planet: Venus

Element: air

Quality: cardinal

House: 7

Yin/yang

Scorpio

Planet: Pluto and Mars

Element: air

Quality: fixed

House: 8

Yin/yang

Sagittarius

Planet: Jupiter

Element: fire

Quality: mutable

House: 9

Yin/yang

Capricorn

Planet: Saturn

Element: earth

Quality: cardinal

House: 10

Yin/yang

Aquarius

Planet: Uranus and Jupiter

Element: air

Quality: fixed

House: 11

Yin/yang

Pisces

Planet: Neptune and Jupiter

Element: water

Quality: mutable

House: 12

Yin/yang

[writer-of-various]

New Obsession

The Trickster/Nancy Wheeler

Overhearing two killers talk about a survivor he never encountered before, Ji-Woon sets out to seek this survivor. He is thrilled to know that Nancy Wheeler is his newest obsession.

Ji-Woon awoke to the incoherent grunts from Bubba and Max. It was like this every other estimated week and all the other survivors, excluding him, have gotten used to it. He was still "new" and therefore got agitated easily when ut comes to the other killers distrupting his sleep. He usually got around six hours of sleep and he usually woke up energized, ready to bathe in those pesky survivors' blood and relinquish in their cries and screams. So he ignored the bickering two and arose from his surprisingly comfortable single bed and went to get ready. He wanted to look the best for his audience, as always.

Ji-Woon chose his black trench coat, one side plain and the other decorated with dots. He laced up his black boots and grabbed his bladed bat, the only with a dark blue and green colour pattern. Deeming his hair good enough, he left his cabin that he thankfully doesn't need to share and went to the campfire. He saw Sally, Evan, Phillip, Max, Bubba, Amanda, and Danny stationed around the fire, talking to one another. Well, once again, arguing for Bubba and Max. Rin, Adiris, and Anna were attempting to communicate with one another. The Blight was scribbling on a small patch of dirt near his cabin, making grunts and weird hissing noises once in while. The Legion were talking amongst themselves. The rest of the killers were no where to be found.

"Hmm, they are probably in their "homes". Or cabins. Whatever." Ji-Woon thought, walking over to what he considers his friends. Amanda Young and Danny Johnson. He liked Amanda because of her bossy yet calm attitude, and also because she is quite the pretty one. He liked Danny because of stealthy and intelligent he is, seeking interest in his stories from the real world.

"Hello my good friends. What are you talking about?" Ji-Woon greets with a smug smile, sending a wink over to Amanda who rolled her eyes.

"Well we were talking about a survivor. But I don't know if we should tell you about them" Amanda says haughtly, sitting down on a log. Danny nodded, his mask on and barely off his face. Ji-Woon kept telling himself he'll take care of that soon.

"Aw, why not? I heard most stories of my audience. What's so special about this one?" He whined, but never begged. Danny sighed, seeming to be annoyed.

"You never had a trial with her, surprisingly" Danny says lowly, voice never muffled from the mask. Ji-Woon perked up, eyes sparkling.

"So it's a she? What's her name. What does she look like? Is she beautiful? How does she sound?" "God you're a creep..." Amanda cut in, glaring at Ji-Woon with a warning glance.

"Nancy Wheeler" once the name was said, Frank Morrison arrived in a heartbeat, standing beside Ji-Woon and ignoring the shouts of complaint from the other Legion members. He glared at the three, shoulders squared and bandaged hands clenched into fists. Ji-Woon hummed, a playful smile forming.

"If he weren't small I would probably back off. But he's just too adorable" 

"Why are you talking about her?" Frank barks out, crossing his arms over his chest. Danny made a sound and walked over to Frank, wrapping a arm around the younger boy's shoulders.

"And why do you care so much, Franky?" Danny growled out, causing shivers to run down everyone's backs. Frank scoffed, pushing Danny away and moving more towards Amanda, who had stood up. Ji-Woon sighed, swinging his bat and coughing to get the attention back on him.

"Excuse me but I was asking. I have never had a trial with this Nancy and I am curious to know why Danny and Amanda are gossiping about her. What's so special?" Evan seemed to hear because he walked over menacingly. He stationed himself between Frank and Amanda, his breathing deep yet hitched. Like he was...scared.

"The day Nancy Wheeler came to the realm is the day the Fighters were formed. The Fighters consist of Meg, Nea, Tapp, Yui, Jane, Bill, Steve, and Nancy. Meg and Nea were mostly the leaders and the ones who faught the fifiercest prior to the arrival of Nancy and Steve. God, I dont know who's worst. Both are bodyguards, sneaky, and bitchy to us killers. But Meg has more respect to Sally and Amanda, for some odd reason. Anyways, when Nancy came with her little...perks as we call them, she also came with a fearless attitude. She is strong and stubborn, always seeking to bring justice and avenge her friends who have fallen. Now those three run the group. Nancy has gotten better with tricking us and has brought her team to victory many times. God, she's small but fucking scary" Evan explained, shuddering at the end. Ji-Woon was perked up with interest, wanting more, to hear more stories. He loved a fight. He loved a strong woman.

Soon enough, the fog thickened and darkened and Ji-Woon grinned with anticipation. He had a wonderful feeling in his gut and he knew he'll meet Nancy Wheeler soon enough.

Lampkin Lane

Ji-Woon awoke as the Trickster in the turf of Michael Myers' home. He let out a breathy laugh and began his patrol on the generators, starting with the closest to him. He searched around corners and went inside the empty homes. No sight of his temporary audience.

He made his way to the farthest generator and as he got closer, the sounds of the generator being repaired caught his attention. He jogged over, giggling at the sight of the country girl, Kate Denson. She stood and made a gesture, running off. He saw three other figures run off but couldn't catch a glimpse of their faces.

"Aw well, Kate is quite an easy target"

Ji-Woon was correct. Kate seemed to be slacking in energy, since he downed her barely a minute in the chase. She quietly cried out when he lifted her up and threw her on a hook. When she looked at him, he saw the dark bags under her eyes. But he was merciless and hummed an old tune at her misfortune.

He went off to the main house, swinging his bat as Jake jumped from the upper floor window. He heard the generator being repaired still and ignored Jake, going inside and up the creaky stairs. Thankfully they were silenced by the generator and Ji-Woon was surpsied to see a new survivor. Her back was to him and she was wearing a pink cardigan and black pants. He took a step towards her but was overcome with surprise when she stood and pushed past him, jumping from the window in the other room. Ji-Woon growled and followed suit, taking out his blades and began to throw them at her, with half attaching to the target. He laughed at the sight of Jake unhooking Kate and that brawler, David, running over with a first aid kit. He threw the remaining of his blades at the three, putting Jake in a dying state and David into a injured state. Kate managed ro run off.

"Ha, stupid girl" he whispered, grabbing Jake. He threw him on the same hook that previously held Kate and left the hanging man, following the fainting blood trails. He heard low grunts and feminine whimpers and seeked them out. He ended up not finding the two and Jake was unhooked. He knew they were all healed and he was angry. Ji-Woon stormed over to a locker and grabbed two handfuls of his neon blades, grinning and stuffing them into the holsters hidden by his coat. Two loud chimes went off and Ji-Woon immediately went to work looking for the four survivors. He wasn't going to let her get away.

Two more repaired generators later and Ji-Woon had sacrificed both Kate and Jake. David and was he presumed Nancy were the only two left and they were sneaking around. He was getting agitated, searching the lockers and houses and basement. No sign on the two. He patrolled the remaining three generators, each never having a single process on them. This went on for what seemed like hours until Ji-Woon caught sight of a black faded jacket.

"David King..." Ji-Woon mentally prided himself on as he jogged over to David, unleashing his blades and began throwing them. David growled, attempting to run off. Blades piecered and bounced off his back and arms and legs, each sting and slice. He became injured and it thrilled Ji-Woon into his Main Event. The blades flew quicker and harder and in a few seconds, David fell to his knees in defeat. Ji-Woon laughed hysterically, lifting up David and grabbing a spare blade. He dug it into the man's spine, eliciting a loud, painful scream from his victim. He dragged David to a hook, tossing the more well built man onto the bloody hook. David screamed once more, his cries making Ji-Woon sigh contently. He walked off when the Entity's "spider legs" were summoned, chuckling at the grunts of David's struggling. He than watched from the house across, grinning when he saw Nancy catiously walk over. Curtain call.

He vaulted over the window and made his way over in a run, managing to grab Nancy from the back of her pink cardigan. She yelped in surprise, kicking her feet wildly. David gasped out a feeble, 

"Bugger off, ye piece of shit!" But it only applied more adrenaline to Ji-Woon, who threw Nancy to the ground. She stared up at in both awe and fear, her pretty eyes wide and full of broken youth. He both loved and despised it.

"You must be Nancy, huh?" Ji-Woon spoke, kneeling down to her current height. Nancy raised her leg and kicked Ji-Woon right in the jaw, earning a growl from said man and a final, choked laugh from David, who was than taken.

"Last survivor. Hatch." Was what ran through Nancy's mind as she stood up in a flash and took off in a sprint faster than her own. She has to thank Meg again.

Ji-Woon laughed, recovering from the stunt and following the young girl, taking out his blades and reluctantly began throwing them at Nancy. He will never regret it. Her voice was literal music to his ears. Her shrieks and whimpers and small grunts. He entered his Main Event for the third time this trial and with his last blade, he knocked down Nancy. His strides over to her were rushed, falling to her side and turning her over, minding the attached blades.

"I don't want to hurt you, Nancy. But you ran away. You won't do that no more in our next encounters," the whispers of the hatch nearby caughy both their attention, "Don't disobey me and you'll be treated with more respect, my angel." Ji-Woon lifted up Nancy, cradling her to his chest like she was the princess and he the prince. He led her to the hatch, helping her down. She was quite shorter than him, about five inches. It was an only chance...

Ji-Woon leaned down and captured Nancy's lips in a chaste kiss. He stepped away and nodded, watching as the dazed girl jumped through the hatch.

"Goodbye, Nancy Wheeler..."

...

When Nancy arrived back to the campfire, David and Steve both rushed over, the former grabbing Nancy by her shoulders.

"God lass, ye okay?" David questioned. Steve pushed him aside and engulfed Nancy into a tight embrace. Nancy forced a smile, wishing for her mind to return to it's numb state. She didn't like the rushing thoughts and unanswered questions.

"I'm okay Steve. I'm going to walk around for a bit, okay?" Nancy says softly, pulling away from the comforting warmth of her best friend and ex. Steve looked unsure but nodded, letting David led him back to the makeshift seats around the fire. Nancy watched them, tears rising than falling. She didn't like this new killer and her gut was warning her of something. Just what?

"Goodbye for now...you damn Trickster" 

[oksana-moods]

Ghost of you - Part 9

Summary: Ghost realizes that, no matter how hard she tries, she can't run away from her past. When Carol's presence do more harm than good, the only way to come clean is to take a dive. A/N: Thank you again for all the support, and to let you know that we reached the point where things start to change. Starting for the song theme. Now we’ll go with ‘Writings on the wall’ from Sam Smith. We’re halfway through, lovelies. Trigger Warnings: Violence, language (a bit too much, I believe), mentions of death… if you find others, let me know. Oh, sort of WandaVision spoiler. Angst. “I've spent a lifetime running, and I always get away”

With my hands involuntarily clutching the tag, I’m sitting at the roof watching the sun slowly but inexorably going down in the horizon. Once, I heard that this is what life feels like. We born just like the sun raises, we reach our greatest point then we start to set till night embraces us. Death, just like the sunset, is inevitable. I find myself agreeing with this metaphor.

It’s been a few months since our futile attempt to overturn Thanos’s snap. And now, each one of us went different ways to try to cope with this catastrophe.

Steve, Natasha and I were still living at the compound we had nowhere else to go so we’re pretending that we were taking care of things, that we’re moving on.

Tony and Pepper are about to get married and, honestly, I hope they find happiness. While Bruce went missing again, Thor went to New Asgard, he lost everything but still had a Realm to rule; Rhodey was working for the Government in a high position, or so I heard. Wakanda lost all the royal family but Okoye was holding on, as best as she could. Rocket and Nebula stayed a bit but returned to space with promises of visiting whenever they could.

Oddly, the logo ‘Avengers’ was scattered all over the universe. We were broken, but we would still protect whom needed protection.

And there is The Avenger, the original one. Carol barely touched the ground coming back from Garden and took-off claiming she needed to check on Skrulls. Not even three weeks later she was back, and that caught me off guard. I’ve never expected for her to return, not that quickly, at least.

She’s been trying to talk to me, but I dodged all of her attempts.

Until now.

 “Hey, Mav.” I close my eyes when her voice reaches my ears. “The view from here is amazing.”

I was sitting at the edge of the roof and Carol was leaning with her elbows at the rampart.

“Yes. It is.” I answer. “What do you want, Carol?” We both know she’s not here for the view.

“To talk.”

“There’s nothing to talk about.” I got up from my seat, I’m standing in the roof starting to make my way to the door. I flinch away when her hand touches my metal arm. I shoot an outrageous look at her.

“Please.” Her eyes are so soft against my gaze that something inside me stirs. “You’ve been avoiding me. Natasha told me that you lost most part of your memories.” Her brows are so furrowed that is clear she’s upset. Why is she? I turn away from her, I’m looking at the horizon once more. Her gaze was too overwhelming, right now.

“What do you want to know?” I shove my hands inside my pockets. Damn, why am I so nervous? “Most of my memories are gone. The last four years is all I have without gaps. Wanda…” I close my eyes, still hurts to think about her. I think it always will. “She helped me to unbury whatever she could.” I saw Carol leaning at the rampart. She was trying to get closer, but I needed distance.

“I crashed after your crash.” She nodded, of course she knew this. “Whatever happened to you with the tesseract, spattered in me too. That’s why I haven’t changed, just like you.” I could feel my hands shaking inside my pockets, I was uneasy. Something about her was pulling me to the edge.

“But, what about…” She hesitated “What about your arm?”  Why is she pretending to be concerned? She’s getting under my skin and I’m feeling cornered. So, I do what every cornered animal do. They attack.

“Will you fucking stop beating the bush? Ask me what you fucking want to ask.” Oh and so she did, she was exasperated with me acting like an idiot. What was she expecting?

“I came to earth around 2007. I went to Maria’s and she told me you were at war but never make it back. I… I saw your stone. I… I…” She ran a hand through her hair. “I thought you were dead.” Her voice was a whisper but that made something burst inside me. I grieved her, even when I knew she was alive. She chose to go away and wanna play the broken-hearted role?

“You and me both!” My voice was harsh and loud, but I wasn’t yelling yet. Yet. “What do you expect me to say, huh? That I am sorry someone lied to you? That I am sorry you were sad?” The setting sun illuminating her face, making her look gorgeous than ever, made me hate her even more. “Well, news flash for you, hon. YOU’RE NOT THE ONLY ONE! I still see you die every time I fucking close my eyes.” I yelled. I couldn’t take this anymore. “I SAW YOU DIE OVER AND OVER AND OVER.” Her eyes were glossy, there was something shining inside them that I couldn’t decipher. And, Fuck. It hurt so bad. They hurt me so bad. She hurt me.

“I… Lara, I am so, so sorry they did this to you” She whispered again. She didn’t want to fight, but all I know is fight. And I only stop when I see blood.

“When I was taken by Hydra, they made me watch you die, they made me watch you leaving." My voice was low and hard, this time. "So no, I can’t stand this. Hydra took everything from me. They beat me and oh, they hit me hard. They cut off every single piece of me, and they put me through hell. But you Carol, you broke me first.”

I turned in my heels and left the roof. Each step my feet tried to betray me, make me to look back, but I kept going til reach the door. I knew I was far too harsh, my words probably cut her, but if she was bleeding so was I.

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 Days went by and I didn’t see Carol since that day in the roof. Steve told me she took a room for her at the compound, she’d be staying a bit longer. Of course she is. Like I didn’t have a lot to deal with already. Since there weren’t any assignments going on, all the workout in the world couldn’t help to ease my mind. Or heart.

  I park my motorcycle at the parking lot and pick up the flowers from inside my jacket. I check it to see if they still look good. I shrug, they’re good enough.

I walked inside the Hospital and expertly made my way to my friend’s room. It pained me to know she was sick, but she was too strong to give in that easy to cancer. She was a fighter. She inspired me. If she could go on even with her decease and losing her child, so could I.

“Buying flowers became a struggle nowadays.” I said with a smile.

Her smile lit up the whole room. “Good thing you’re not going out on dates, then.” My laugh filed the room.

“Please Maria, you’re too old to be that sassy.”

“You’re just as old as I am. The difference is just that you still look good.”

“You still look good, Ma. I’d take you out on a date.” And it was true, she was around her sixties but still look beautiful. Few lines near the eyes, but only complimented her.

“Awn, you flatter me” She put a hand on her chest, faking innocence. “I don’t go out with women, hon. But I’d definitely accept the invitation, I’m craving real food, not whatever this hospital calls food.” Instantly, this blows the air out of my lungs and I’m forced to face reality. My friends are gone and soon, Maria will be gone too. Carol told me once that her biggest fear was to bury all her friends. Fuck. I understand what she meant now.

“Geez, Mav. It was only a joke. Next time, don’t bring me flowers unless you’re bringing fries too.”

I forced a smile at her.

After the whole ordeal with the ‘Accords’ I was arrested alongside Clint, Scott and Sam. Cap came and rescued us, but I went on the road since I was an outlaw too, so my visits to Maria and Monica stopped despite keeping in touch. I wouldn’t forgive myself for the time I lost.

“Carol came to visit me yesterday.” That’s the Maria I came to know, never holding back her words. “Apparently, you’ve been giving her a hard time.”

“Oh. Did she come to cry on your shoulder?” Every time Carol’s name was brought up, I felt my brain short-circuiting. I don’t know why, but I hated it.

“Naa. I was just gossiping around, I’m an old lady, after all.” She laughed lighting up the mood. “Does it feel better to yell, to be a bitch with her?”

“What?”

“C’mon, Mav. You changed a lot, but I can still see through you. You need to vent whatever is stuck in your chest; you need to put it out.” I was frowning at the floor. “That’s the only way both of you will move on.”

“I hate her, Maria. Seeing her makes me feel like my wounds are cutting open once again. I don’t see how we can move past this, how I can forgive her.”

“If that’s true,” She pointed at my chest, and I knew what she was going to say. “Why do you still wear her tag and yours together?” All of a sudden, the Tag was heavy in my chest. Tons and tons of unspoken words, feelings, and pain weighting too much.

“I… I don’t know. It kinda feels right.” God, I’m so confused. Is it possible to be friends with Carol Danvers again? Will I, one day, forget everything Hydra made me feel with those memories? I wonder if that hopeless feeling will ever go away. Because right now, all I can think of is that, at any moment, she’ll turn her back on me or she’ll die. It’s hard to look at someone expecting, waiting for the pain that usually comes with their face.

“I know it does.” And she changed her tone to her bossy one. “So, stop acting like you have a stick shoved inside your ass and talk to her. Promise me you will.”

“All right. I promise.” I answered, it was no use try to avoid this. Maria wouldn’t drop this.

“That’s better.” She had that look like she knew that I’d comply with her request.

“Doesn’t upset you? That she left and forgot about us?” I was looking out of the window, looking at the cars outside, people were, slowly, trying to find their bearings. Trying to figure out what should be normal now. They were trying. Should I try, too?

Maria’s voice made me look at her when she replied. “It used to hurt, yes. But I’m dying, Mav, I don’t have time or patience to fight anymore.”

 After Maria scolded me enough for not talking to Carol, our conversation was lighter. She complained about the overprotective nurse, she complained that tv never had good things to watch, gossiped about other patients, and when I said my goodbyes, she made me promise to sneak some food for my next visit.

However, all the way home I kept overthinking these things I’ve been building up inside me. Something about Carol made me uneasy, like I’m exposed in a field filled with enemies, with nowhere to hide. And I don’t like it on bit. There’s something about her eyes, and I hate the intensity in them when she looks at me, it’s like they can pierce your soul, see what’s underneath… And I’m way too afraid of all the terrors that she might discover. I’m not Lara anymore, I’m not who she thinks I am, no. I’m someone else.

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 “You stole my spot.” I said as I reached the roof. The woman who I was addressing to, turned her head to look at me.

She was wearing a simple jeans with a blue t-shirt and her hair was framing her flawless face, how this woman could be so beautiful even with so common clothes was beyond me.

She gave me a tide smile that never reached her eyes, they were somewhat tired.

“Oh. It wasn’t my intention; I’ll leave you to be.”  Yes please, leave me alone. I thought to me myself, but then my conversation with Maria from last week came to my mind. Fuck. I hate making promises. She was preparing to leave when I spoke.

“There’s room enough for both of us, though.” I said with a shrug, pretending that I was okay with her company, pretending that I wasn’t uncomfortable with this proximity. Her head snapped at me, she looked at me like I had grown two heads.

“Okay.” Her voice was so soft that immediately put me on edge. I felt exposed again. What was happening with me?

 We stayed there for a while with a heavy silence between us. The tension was so thick that I’m sure we couldn’t move, that’s probably why none of us left the roof yet. There was a sea of unspoken words and as much as I hated it, we couldn’t ignore this anymore. If she’s going to stay, we’ll have to dive into this. We’ll have to work together at some point, this wouldn’t be healthy during even the simplest mission.

“You know, I’ve been in a lot of places, but none of them had such a beautiful sunset.” Her voice startled me; I wasn’t expecting at all.

“Well, it does have something peaceful, doesn’t it?” She seemed to ponder what I just said.

“One may say that this might be a spell. That there are a lot of beautiful places out there, but nothing compares to home.”

“Is it?”

“What?” She looked at me, confusion written all over her face.

“Is Earth you home?” At this, she frowned.

“Look, I know what you’re implying. I… I don’t know how much you remember from… before.” She seemed nervous. “What do you recall?”

And that’s it. There’s no turning back now, I needed to dive into this sea and hopefully I’ll reach the other side alive.

I looked forward; eyes set at the setting sun. I couldn’t deal with this and look at her at the same time. My hands started to shake so I wriggle them together to stop them, somehow.

“I remember us.” I felt a pang in my chest. Shit. What is this? “I remember you were always going back and forth to Earth. I remember when you went for good, ‘we’re too good at goodbyes’, yeah?!”

She signed heavily. “While helping Talos, I realized that a lot of people needed help. I wanted to stay, but I just couldn’t ignore innocent people dying.”

“People were dying here too.” She was frustrated, she threw her arms around impatient, but I continued before she could speak. “I know, I know you wanted to bring peace to whoever you could. And Earth already had its saviors.”  

“It’s not just like that, I…” She turned to fully look at me. “After I found out about your… death,” She struggled with the word, it fell heavily from her tongue. “I felt so helpless, so stupid for wasting away the time I could’ve had with you, I…” She was staring at me, eyes locked, and I felt myself being dragged inside. “I couldn’t forgive myself for loosing you for good.” She half whispered as if afraid of this becoming true. Like I could turn into a mirage, out of blue.

She was diving in the sea of what was left unsaid too, there’s no going back. “And when you died, part of me died too. Then Earth wasn’t home without you on it anymore, that’s why I never came back after. But then I received Fury’s emergency call, only to learn about Thanos… only to find out that you were alive this whole time.” Her eyes were glowing with such intensity, that my feet were glued to the ground. I felt a hand wrapping around mine. “I wanted to come back, back then. After I went through your door, I regretted at the very same instant, Lara.” Her voice was so soft when she spoke my name, it was like her tongue was made of velvet and it took the air out of my lungs. “After all, I wanted… I wanted so damn hard to be happy… with you. But I couldn’t find my way back, it didn’t seem right. I didn’t want to hurt you. I’d only do more damage than I already had. And I’m so, so sorry for hurting you.”

I was so entranced in her eyes while she was speaking that up until now, I hadn’t realized how close she was, or even that her hand was gripping my flesh hand. She’s so close that I could see the fading sunlight brightening her freckles. She was so, so close that my brain was at loss.

I didn’t know if the sun was illuminating her face or if it was the other way around, but such perfection made something inside me stir, I felt strange. I felt an urge to reached out and touch her face, like I needed to feel her skin under my touch just as much as I needed oxygen.   “Why are you here now, Carol?” My voice was so soft that felt foreign, almost like a whisper. “My heart is at Earth.” She whispered back, like she was afraid of breaking this spell, this trance that was keeping both of us from moving away.

[practicalmagicintuitions]

HC+DG business relationship, career reading

DISCLAIMER: If you will send me an Anon, I will answer in the same tone as your ask, opinion is written.

All information and statements made in this reading or any other post of mine are all alleged until proven to be fact and for entertainment purposes & usage only. All information stated is based on my intuition and my tarot cards. Opinion only. The readings have no intention to cause any harm to the individuals, people featured in it.

Disclaimer 2 : I always always want to give you insightful, detailed readings but I had to be short with this because it’s a sad reading. I hope you will… well… enjoy or appreciate it and if you have questions go on, but I physically and mentally couldn’t go deeper in this.

The foundation of the relationship?

6 of Pentacles, 7 of Swords, The Magician.

Let’s start with the Magician. The Magician is the first numbered Major Arcana card (the Fool is the 0). This is the manifesting, the I am doing card. On the card, the Magician is raising his one hand to heaven and with the other hand, he points to the ground, to earth. This refers to the Wiccan prayer “As above so below”  This means mind and matter are reflections of each other. We are part of the universe and the universe is inside us. The Magician creates a future with a word. Words and acts should match.

As a career choice, he is someone who is self-employed, who is on the stage, who wants applause, who wants to perform…

This card is also about to reveal, like a magic trick. 

7ofS is trickery, mind game, lying, walking on eggshells, sneaking. 

The foundation of this relationship is codependency. The promise that they will do something huge and meaningful, build a new future together, but this is not true. That promise is not honest, there are lies and sneaky things beneath the surface. 7ofS has a meaning that someone doesn't want to lie but he has to. On the card the figure holds 5 swords and 2 are in the ground, he looks at those. This could mean he wants honesty but he cannot know how.  (I have a few unpublished readings and this card is coming up more and more frequently). 

What keeps them together?

3 of cups rx, 8 of cups rx, 4 of wands rx 

What keeps them together? The fact that he basically feels he has no option. He cannot go right or left because the options are horrible everywhere for different reasons. He fears change. 8ofCrx is fear of abandonment, emotional weakness. On one hand, he lost touch with his friends(3ofCrx) or they just grew apart, but they are not actively in each other's life. It could mean he is left out from their former friends’ group or they are not happy for his success. So he is lacking that friendly, supportive energy. (disclaimer: this is such a sad row in this spread, I am trying hard, but I am struggling to write what I feel and see, I hope you will understand what I want to say). This also could mean false friends, who are gossiping and bitching. I do not think he genuinely feels friendship towards DG or her towards him.

In my previous reading, I repeatedly got cards that mean one certain thing, but I chose to ignore that meaning, because, Nah, it’s not important. But this card(3ofCrx) means it so strong, I have to mention. And do not put words in my mouth, I am not stating anything but I have to mention it now. This card very strongly suggests some problems with alcohol and over partying. I am NOT saying he is an alcoholic, I am NOT saying that. What I am saying is that he perhaps has a tendency to drink more than he should and more often than he should. And if this becomes habitual… could be a problem. I’ve gotten this since I’ve started reading on him, and this is the point where I have to mention it. 

And top of that…. the 4 of Wands rx also mean he feels himself cast out - or just not belonging-  on the home front. Think about it… all of his brothers have their own family. And probably his parents are feeling good themselves too. I mean my parents have been living such a full, exciting life since I grew up and I seriously started my own life separately. It doesn’t mean they don’t love him, but he could feel left out nevertheless. 

So what I am getting at is that he is sticking to her, because he is emotionally immature and just doesn't want to change because of fear. He feels he doesn’t have a supporting family background. He cannot go back home emotionally for support, he chose to stay in a false friendship because he feels he is cast out from the warmth of the home and from real friendships. There is no business or project card in this spread… What keeps them together is not really work or business-related. 

Where is his career heading?

Fool, The Emperor rx, 5 of Pentacles

( I just want to sob, this whole reading is so depressing…. I cannot….)

He has new options, directions in his life but with the Emperor rx he almost has a tyrannical approach to them, and I think this behaviour will cost him a lot. Cost him roles, investments and money. Those new opportunities will go away, and he won’t change, just continue this behaviour.  

The Fool not necessarily mean foolish behaviour but here… I think he believes in himself too much, he thinks the new opportunities gave him a right to be controlling, overly authoritative, bossy, demanding( Emprx). He is also someone who is not taking responsibility for his actions. On the card the Emperor sits on his throne, but because it’s rx he falls off from it ( or he was pushed). He lost his kingdom, the love of his people etc. This is the tyrant who is weak card. Overly judgmental. Probably he will always find something in the new offers, beginnings which are not good enough for him.

And this will lead us to the 5 of Pentacles card. This card is a very negative change mostly financially, but I said before, pentacles are about resources. For now, I will describe the money part of it. 

On the card, you see 2 baggers, one of them is hurt, it’s winter, outside of a church. They are poor, have nothing, the walls of the church don’t protect them.

I think his behaviour, how he sees the new offers and his roles and involvement in them, how he wants to control everything will lead here. He won’t be a literal bagger, but he will suffer dearly. Doors will be slammed into his face. Maybe he couldn’t keep his lifestyle at the level he used to. As an investment, it means bad decisions, bankruptcy, etc. 

In the spread, the 5ofP is under the 4ofWrx. Both mean that you are cast out, left out, and don't belong. 

On a very concrete level 4 of W rx and 5 of P together could mean some serious money loss because of a real estate deal or because of renovation, etc. 

I also have to mention that both the Emperor rx both the 5ofP means you are lacking spiritual growth and overly focus on material things.

How does he see his career?

8 of Pentacles, 6 of Swords, Wheel of Fortune rx

Normally 6 of S is leaving behind some troublesome time, situation and seeking a safe harbour somewhere else. When I saw this card in the row I felt this, moving away not his decision, something which is forced on him, but this is just an intuition.

8 of P is the success card and he leaves this behind for some reason, maybe seeking an even bigger success, but he is heading towards the reversed Wheel which is usually the bad turn of events. The bad luck. 

8ofP is total focus on your task which needs time to bloom, but this card is very still. And the 6ofSw is a moving card. It could mean he wants something more exciting, to make things move, not just stand or sit still and focus. Maybe he doesn’t realise lack of movements doesn’t mean things are not evolving, and he wants to leave this aspect behind. This seemingly stagnation period. Problem is, it seems, he abandoned success to take a risk. Maybe part of this already happened and he knows now he has to rely on luck now. I think he felt he needs to push himself more and this won’t have the desirable outcome. Good thing is the Wheel is as life itself is in constant motion. Up, down, up again. It’s up to him how to react to this. 

Look, I get it, now it seems, he has oh, so many offers, roles, opportunities… his name has been circulating a lot lately.  But this reading had a very stable energy. It’s not a what will happen in the next few months reading. I will still check on him and NV, like a monthly spread, but for a while this is my last bigger reading on him. I will do short readings on others and I want to write about tarot in general a little bit, but I am still open to conversations and I won’t close my asks. 

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birth chart reading for @m4gn3tic

hello! welcome to your reading. I’m gonna give you a quick overview of what I’m going to analyze about your natal chart. feel free to ask me anything if something isn’t clear, of course. you’ll find out your dominants’ influence on your persona, your physical appearance, impression on others and the way you approach the world; your ego, identity, the real you; your reactions, your desires, inner emotions; your way of expressing your feelings, your mind and ideas; your desires and approach to love; your energy tank, instincts and temperament; in-depth analysis of each house with their rulers and analysis of heavy aspects; love life + soulmates/karmic partners interpretation; your relationship with your friends; your family life; your approach to career and work in general + possible jobs suggestion; your style, fashion sense analysis; life purpose and past life description; basic transits’ analysis to describe your current mood and, last but not least, your secret skills, how to make the most out of your soul and manifest what you desire based on your birth chart.

🦋 chart shape, dominants

your chart is a seesaw shape. your life focuses on different ideals and interests, often constrasting between each other. from one side, this gives you the ability to be adaptable and find solutions easily. on the other hand, you may struggle with balance; for example, you might find yourself dedicating your life to your relationships, neglecting your ego or viceversa. you need to learn how to harmonize these energies.

your dominant planets are venus, the moon and the sun. you are definitely a very creative individual, you have an eye for aesthetics and you're probably very artsy as well. you are confident and you have a very charismatic personality, people usually look up to you, even though you could sometimes be quite stubborn and sensitive to criticism.

your dominant sign is taurus. you're a chill person, you prefer staying at home instead of going out and partying. you are quite stubborn, but that's because you're passionate about your ideas and beliefs. you prefer trying and take action, even if you risk to hurt yourself, instead of just standing still and observing. you find comfort helping others; it's a way to feel satisfied both with others and yourself, as you like proving your skills and talents.

your dominant element is fire. you have a warm heart, even though it may be covered by your confidence and independence. in fact, you always strive for the first place. people may be intimidated by your presence, as you're a serious competitor. thanks to this competitive nature of yours you may be very positive and optimistic, making you a good and supportive friend/partner.

🌎 ascendant in sagittarius, 22° / 3rd decan ruled by jupiter and the sun

you see the world as an adventure. I feel like you typically don’t relate to sagittarius ascendant stereotypes; sag risings are usually very happy-go-lucky, they smile often, but pluto being conjunct to it may change things a bit. you’re more of a loner, you’re not as extroverted as other sagittariuses. you may relate more to scorpio rising, actually. ironically, you often look sad or angry. you have a knack for philosophy, and your favourite is most probably ‘you only live once’. you tame dying before making the amount of experiences you want to have in your life, hence you could even be impulsive sometimes. you’re the type to always be up to crack a joke or anything that can make you and others smile, yet when someone gets against you, it’s over for them. you have quite of a sharp tongue, you’re pretty blunt and straight-forward. in fact, you may often get in troubles due to your impulsiveness, which may be misunderstood. you have an incredible charm to you; it’s not like taurus’ or libra’s, those are more related to physical traits. sagittarius people, on the other hand, are surely very talented at something; maybe, at school you were one of the best students, and everyone recognized it and appreciated you for that; people understand your potential, and you may often receive compliments for your skills. basically, your personality is charismatic. due to pluto being conjunct the ascendant, I feel like you may even struggle too much with pessimism during your first years, but in case you are, you shouldn’t be. jupiter is also your dominant planet, and it’s willing to give you the best of luck if you respect its themes. hence, you need to have faith in the universe and be optimistic. try to look more at the positive sides in life and even in people. physically, sagittarius is all about abundance, hence you may have trouble losing weight. you could have big bones, or at least something bigger on your body that doesn’t make you look like a model. you’re more on the thick side, in fact you probably have a wide bone structure, with wider hips and/or thick thighs. you could also have wide shoulders, and something big and memorable on your face as well. maybe you have a very distinctive nose, or perhaps your eyes are almond-shaped. your forehead and lips could be pretty wide as well. I’ve also noticed that sagittarius people have a very lively sparkle in their eyes, even though they may be very dark. it’s like having two/three tiny diamonds at the centre of each of your eyes. last but not least, you may have freckles and very curly, or at least thick, hair. you may also have very dark hair / features in general, and perhaps you have long limbs too.

gemini venus opposite sagittarius ascendant: this aspect makes you more sociable and prone to interact with people. you’re also most probably very attractive, people are naturally drawn to you. the downside of this placement is that you may suffer from self-esteem issues, as you really care about others’ impression of you. maybe you’re a little bit clumsy too. it’s easy for you to gain popularity, but be careful as it’s not always good. popularity brings scandals too, so people you see in your everyday life could possibly start gossips around you. the good thing about this aspect is that you emanate loyalty, so you usually choose loyal and trust-worthy partners. this placement may also bring issues and problems in marriage with your future partner, even though I don’t think it’s your case. your venus is well-placed, so I don’t think there’ll be serious problems.

sagittarius ascendant square virgo jupiter: you probably learn a lot from people around you. you're most likely surrounded by wise, spiritual and possibly foreign individuals in your life. they help you to grow up, both spiritually and mentally. this placement also softens your introverted plutonian image, making you look more outgoing and approachable. you're also very open-minded, and you rarely have prejudices. the downside to this placement is that you may be depend too much on your friends or lovers, especially when it comes to your beliefs. you're easy to influence, and you may change your mind often if others disagree with you. you could possibly have high expectations from others, creating a false idea of those who surround you. at least, you're aware of your abilities and you have the potential to make the most out of them, but you're modest about it. you don't come off as bossy, as other jupiter - asc aspects would.

sagittarius ascendant conjunct sagittarius pluto: pluto, combined with your sagittarius rising makes you look a little bit naive. people may try to take advantage of you, and to defend yourself you tend to become bossy. you’re really competitive, and feel the constant need to prove others’ wrong, even though it’s not the best way to do it. in your life, you could encounter lots of enemies that may try to stop you from transforming yourself. or maybe, your grandfather is an authoritative figure in your life and in your family’s in general, and his influence has a big impact on your life. also, something I’ve noticed about pluto conjunct ascendant individuals is that they may feel unhappy when they’re young. as time goes by, they transform and become as they want, which makes them feel more satisfied with themselves.

🌞 sun in leo, 14° / 2nd decan ruled by the sun and jupiter

just like the sun, you shine brightly. you're confident, independent, brave and friendly. you're the only who can handle your life, no one can tell you who you are, what you want or what you need. sometimes you can get insecure, as you feel pressured to always be perfect. you try to be nice and kind to everyone, as you don't wanna be seen as someone unpleasant to be with. even though you may be into gossip and rumors, you try to avoid being involved with them at every cost. the thing with leo is, you're either loved or hated. no inbetween. some may admire your confidence, assertiveness and determination, others may be jealous of you. you have celebrity-like presence, you don't go overlooked. you're most probably the life of the party, and you enjoy living a life full of fun and amusement. you're also amazingly creative. with your heavy leo influence, you have the potential to do and achieve whatever you want, you're very resolute. even though you look very open to getting to know new people, you're secretly very picky about who you call your friends, or even when choosing a partner. you always try to be perfect, and hence you want someone that looks and tries just like you do.

🌙 moon in taurus, 4° / 1st decan ruled by venus

the moon is exalted in taurus, so it's definitely a good placement! you're very peaceful, you try to avoid conflicts when you can. this placement makes you crave stability, whether it's financial, in love etc. you must be very stubborn, as taurus is a fixed sign. this placement, paired with your imaginative leo energy, makes you settle on making your ideas concrete, and it's very beneficial. it makes you capable of achieving any goals in your life. you're also very artsy, and you may fancy particular art styles. you have a good eye for aesthetics, and you care a lot about the looks of your house, body, clothes etc. you have excellent concentration, and that is another thing that helps you achieve your goals and make your ideas concrete. last but not least, you're amazingly patient, and that makes you a great friend. probably, they vent a lot of their worries to you, as you're also a great listener.

🗣 mercury in virgo, 8° / 1st decan ruled by mercury

you have a very logical, pragmatic mind. ironically, this creates contrast with your leo energy, confusing you as you may act differently in different situations. you try to be as well-spoken as possible, especially with strangers, but when people get on your nerves you can’t help but kill them with your words. before expressing your opinion on a certain matter, you like making sure that your thought actually has proof to be supported. you’re very analytical, and hence you also overthink a lot. especially when it comes to people you care, you start overthinking so much about little things like late replies to messages that you create a variety of hollywood-worthy scenarios in your head. you also pay lots of attention to details, and you can’t tolerate typos and grammar mistakes. you always try to speak and write in the most correct and polite way as possible. you may have an elegant, yet neat handwriting. your voice probably sounds very calm and collected, yet you don’t have any problems speaking at a louder tone.

❤️ venus in gemini, 29° / 3rd decan ruled by mercury and uranus

this is the flirtiest, most romantic gemini decan, but also the flakiest and most indecisive. your flirting style most probably includes jokes, teasing… things like that. even though you may seem flaky, as you like experiencing romance with different types of people, you’re actually quite picky. in fact, in order to fall for someone, you need to feel mentally attracted to them, not just physically. someone ignorant and stubborn that doesn’t care about learning something most definitely isn’t for you. you’re not the type to be super romantic and sweet with your partner or just people in general. you show your affection for example by sending them memes, making ironic jokes about them etc. also, when you’re into someone, you probably get very talkative! you start asking them simple questions about their life, even things like 'did you have lunch?’. also, you talk about them with all of your friends, and you find yourself thinking costantly about them. you’re very curious of nature, but you’re only interested in getting to know what catches your eye.

gemini venus square virgo jupiter: you come off as a very positive, happy-go-lucky person. you're extremely friendly, and this makes you be good at social relationships. you may have lots of friends, or at least you have the potential to make many if you opened up and talked to them. yet, while this energy gives you positive vibes, some people may take advantage of that, as you could easily be mistaken for naive. people can try to dominate you unconsciously (sometimes even on purpose) not only in relationships but even in friendships. aside from that, I don't think this placement causes you many problems. you may have the tendency to procrastinate and not work. you could be quite lazy and get easily distracted, as you're constantly with your head in the clouds.

💥 mars in leo, 27° / 3rd decan ruled by the sun and mars

praise and success are what motivate you the most. your main goal in life is being praised for achieving your goals, you wouldn't feel motivated without compliments. therefore, you put energy in things that make you feel confident and noticed, as you enjoy being seen. for example, if you feel confident being well-dressed, you could spend hours in the closet to look how you want. you are very creative, you get an energy boost through creative outlets, and hence your hobbies (reading, writing, dancing, singing, drawing, etc.) recharge your battery. this placement also makes you very extra, especially with people you're close to. you may gesticulate a lot, you could as well enjoy mimicking others' voices. you're basically very dramatic, you look like an actor when you react, but at least you're very fun and entertaining to watch and listen. this placement, it gives you a strong charisma that, and combined with your sagittarius rising, it makes it impossible not to notice you. you could overreact from time to time, and you may also be particularly pessimistic, but above all you appear as someone very bold and strong-minded.

🏡 houses

your 1st house is in sagittarius, with also chiron placed there. you come off as someone very sympathetic and bold, you're probably the fun one in the family or in your group of friends, even though pluto's presence conjunct the ascendant may delay this energy. you are very charismatic, you have a witty sense of humor and people are always pleased to have you around, as you're able to light up the room. people always see you as someone easy to talk to, someone trustworthy. you probably have great problem-solving skills or, otherwise, you just ignore your problems and wait for time to heal. you're also quite spiritual, you may be sensitive to higher entities and you could possibly also be religious. chiron is also here: your deepest insecurity is your appearance, your identity. it may be that when you were younger, you used to struggle a lot with your appearance. you could have been bullied, or perhaps you could have suffered from an eating disorder. luckily, this placement can get better. in fact, you can gain wisdom from this wound of yours; you can heal others who have self-worth issues once you start loving yourself.

your 2nd house is in aquarius. neptune and uranus are also placed there. your relationship with money isn’t stable at all. you may often go from periods where you earn a lot of money and possessions, to other times where you lose all of them all of a sudden. same thing goes for your self-esteem, it fluctuates a lot. you find beauty and aesthetic in material things; you most probably love clothes, art, music… anything that isn’t exactly a priority in life, but that allows you to express your personal taste, which is very refined. this placement makes you very creative, and hence you could make money out of your creativity. it would be a great way to find a job and become successful, but also to increase your security and confidence. you could even be a very innovative person, and with your leo sun you would make an excellent leader / boss. you could also make money through internet or with technology in general.

your 3rd house is in pisces. when it comes to speech, you’re most likely more introspective. you may not be much talkative, and most of the time you keep your ideas and thoughts to yourself, but actually it's hard for you to hide them. you may be secretive, but you're easy to read. you learn the best when you’re close to creativity or imagination, you’re very intuitive and hence it's easier for you to learn new topics. while you're very empathetic and you're able to properly convey your thoughts and feelings in your speech, you may also come off as sensitive or even insecure. you may have a quiet voice, and hence you could come off as shy. on the other hand, you may have the tendency to lie, or just being confusing in any way. you may not always express what you want crystal clear, as you want to able to modify the story just in case you encounter some hardships. also, you never truly express your feelings, probably out of fear. you’re always vague, and you keep your private matters for yourself. pisces is a mutable sign, so you may also find yourself changing ideas often, your mind wanders from one thought to another.

your 4th house is in aries. while outside you may appear as very polite, when you feel comfortable you actually become way more fiery. you’re very impulsive in your home environment, you could have been some sort of warrior in your childhood. maybe you used to argue a lot with your parents, perhaps because they were too overprotective. yet, I don't see any kind of trauma. you may have a very strong emotional bond with your family, even though you may argue often as you're all pretty sensitive and impulsive. you could be particularly attached to your mother, even though you used to argue a lot. the moon is also sitting in this house: your privacy and security are the centre of your life. you need to be and feel emotionally stable to fully take advantage of all of your skills; for example, if you argue with a loved one of yours, especially if it's someone from your family, you could get very unmotivated to do anything. you need to feel complete to function correctly, and when you can't, you rely on material goods; e.g you may overeat, buy a lot of useless things out of stress, drink... anything that apparently helps you to cope. on the other hand, you're very affectionate, even clingy at times, but your feelings are very pure. because of that, you may also be extremely sensitive, you could be afriad of others' judgment for example.

your 5th house is in taurus. you are a very creative, artistic person. you’re able to relax by watching netflix, eating, writing, painting… anything that can be done at home. you’re not the type to hang out too often or party all night, you’re more of a homebody. you could also love sleeping in, just being able to stay in bed all day wearing comfy clothes is a vacation for you. you always try to be at your best state, and you want those who surround you to be perfect too. it's hard for you to fall for someone, as you take everything in consideration: personality, physical appearance, fashion sense... it may look like it is too much, but once you find the right one that truly satisfies your standards, you're in for a long ride. you'll want to travel, live your life in the best way possible with the person you love.

your 6th house is in gemini. in your daily routine, especially at work, you have to communicate a lot. you come in contact with lots of people, or maybe you write stuff like blogs or books. generally, you have a very hectic schedule, as you have different hobbies and appointments that you can’t abandon. this placement indicates that you may be prone to overwork yourself, as you put a lot energy in your job. you could be quite superficial in a certain sense, and you’d risk to waste your potential with as you may take your job as a challenge, for example, you need to feel mentally stimulated to like it. in fact, your ideal career has to include something that allows you to express your personal taste, ideas and interests. in this way, it won’t feel too heavy to you, and you’ll find pleasure in working. as for your health, you may have problems with your lungs. you may suffer from anxiety or asthma, for instance, or anything that doesn't allow you to breath properly.

your 7th house is in gemini. saturn and venus are also placed there. in a partner, you seek someone intelligent that is able to keep up with your rhythm. you don’t have time to nurture someone, you want them to fully understand you. in fact, you may be more attracted to older partners, as they’re supposed to be more mature. I don’t see many issues arising in your marriage life, it will probably be very peaceful, but it may take you a while to find someone you like. you’re a picky person when it comes to love, you want someone hard-working and responsible with a big brain, yet they should also be quite outgoing and funny. you need mental stimulation, someone that is a constant adventure for you and that is worth exploring. maybe, you're actually afraid of falling in love; or perhaps, it's the opposite: your risk-taker sagittarius energy made you jump into relationships, even if they weren't actually your priority. it may be hard for you to fall for someone, but once you do, you're totally invested in them. you're quite of a traditionalist when it comes to love; you may the type that prefers being courted, rather than court yourself. you're also quite into clichés, and you're looking for a polite and ambitious partner. someone who has a stable job, and is also wealthy. basically, someone that looks (and possibly is) rich and noble. you may also have the tendency to date people that are older than you, and possibly also soulmates from your past lives. in fact, you attract many karmic partners that are here to teach you lessons. your relationships may be quite painful, or at least they're so intense that they are hard to forget. with this placement, it's also recommended to get married after your saturn return, hence after your 28-29 years old, to avoid any kind of challenges.

your 8th house is in leo, with also your sun, mercury and mars sitting there. you have the potential to become a very successful individual, with a great amount of charisma. yet, since the 8th house is related to pluto, the malefic planet of transformation, there are some hardships to this placement. in fact, you may have the tendency to look down on people that aren’t as open-minded as you are. I have the same placement, so I understand that it’s not easy at all, but you should learn to accept respectful people’s opinions. if you do that, you’ll finally be able to glow brightly. you’re very curious when it comes to taboo topics, you like learning about them. you’re probably into conspiracy theories, as well as matters like astrology, tarots, horror, tragedies, mystery... you can use them to transform yourself and grow up, so you could definitely use this birth chart reading to improve yourself. 8th house is also the house of karma, and yours is kind of strange. you may often feel like you’re right about something, e.g the sky is blue. you’re very proud of your observation, but then it turns out to be different. it’s like the universe is constantly teaching you new things. luckily, this is something that gets better with time. you’re an extremely goal-oriented person. you want to be the best at everything you do, not only to be better than others but also the best for yourself. you’re very astute, it’s impossible to trick you, and you always find a way to be in charge and get what you want. yet, you can get quite obsessed about your goals, that you could do extreme things to get what you want. in fact, people with this placement can even manipulate others, as they’re totally capable of doing that. in addition, your sun being in leo makes you extremely charming. people are naturally attracted to you, you have a way with words, and hence you’re always able to convince others into giving you what you want. but luckily, this doesn’t turn into manipulation, you probably don’t even realize this skill of yours, and hence you don’t use it to damage others. you are very persuasive, but you don't do it on purpose, you could actually be a little naive. when you get angry, you could actually get scary, though. your emotions are very intense, it’s hard to calm you down.

your 9th house is in virgo. at school you were a very diligent student; you were practical, precise and organized, you enjoyed studying at being the best in class. yet, you could be quite bossy at times, as you could come off as a bit too arrogant but you're just very dedicated. on the other hand, you're also very intelligent and open-minded above all, you could feel particularly drawn to foreign cultures and languages and you could be naturally skilled. you may also get to travel a lot or even move abroad at a certain point in your life, you're definitely a citizen of the world and you hardly ever have prejudices.

your 10th house is in libra. you have an eye for aesthetics, and you want to have a reputation for looking classy and mannered. basically a lady, but that knows how to stand up for herself. in your ideal career you need something that makes you express your need for beauty, possibly even justice. you may have a passion for poetry and literature in general, or maybe you could be particularly skilled at fashion. you have a natural talent to match colours with undertones, body shapes, vibes etc., and you could make this particular ability of yours a job. you’re also a charismatic, strong-willed speaker, hence you could also do well as a lawyer, a politician, an activist etc.

your 11th house is in scorpio. you are extremely picky with your friends. you have trust issues, probably caused by your karmic issues again, that make you secretive around your friends. you may close yourself in your shell, or maybe you actually know a lot of people, yet you only consider a few of them your friends. most of the time, you may also befriend people that try to take advantage of you, people may betray you often. or perhaps, since there’s a possibility that you understand that, you could be the one who leads the group and acts quite bossy. this is something that gets naturally better with time; actually, your friends will be of great help for you to grow up. you may have big dreams for your future, yet you may feel intimidated as they’re very intense, and hence hard to make come true. you need to pay your karmic debts in order to finally feel comfortable with others and have the motivation to achieve your long-term goals.

your 12th house is in sagittarius, and pluto is also sitting there. you're particularly interested in religion and higher beliefs, hence meditation would be effective for you. yet, you need to get enough sleep, or you could not be able to fully embrace the spirituality of this placement. you may also be able to have prophetic dreams, or at least they have a strong moral beyond them. possibly, you could make lots of good dreams, even though you do have many nightmares as well. perhaps, your dreams could bring you luck; for instance, you may dream about the winning numbers of the lottery, or maybe they may warn you about certain people or events in your life that could harm, you are strongly connected to your higher self.

❤️ love life, soulmates

in love you attract gemini, aquarius, libra, capricorn and taurus. your future spouse will most probably have capricorn, aquarius and libra placements, hence they’ll be very hard-working, intelligent and witty, but also very sarcastic and a bit moody. it may be love at first sight, and you may find them very attractive. you may also meet at work, or you're going to be introduced to them by your family or friends. you'll most likely also meet them abroad, they may be foreign or at least they have a different cultural background from yours. or perhaps, you're going to marry someone older than you, and you meet them later in your life, around your 27s/28s and so on. your children will be heavy in taurus and libra placements, hence they’ll be very creative and quite lazy too, they'll probably love eating and they will like playing around. yet, they could be a bit too stubborn and sometimes materialistic.

👶🏻 family life

your mother is a very fiery person, with a short-temper. she could have sometimes even been quite violent with you during your childhood, and she might have a bit of a childish behaviour. deep down, she’s actually kind of insecure with her role as a mother. she may have aries, libra or cancer placements in her chart. your father, on the other hand, is more submissive. he’s a peaceful person, even though he most probably has a passive-aggressive behaviour. you could actually have a better relationship with him rather than with your mother, or at least he understands your needs better. he may have libra, cancer or scorpio, as well as aries in his chart. if you have siblings, they most probably have pisces, capricorn or aquarius placements in their chart. you have a great relationship with them, even though it could have been a while for you to get along. overall, your relationship with them was peaceful.

📊 career

you could do well at a variety of jobs to be honest! with your gemini in the 6th house you could actually work in different fields before sticking to one career, hence you’re pretty experienced. I certainly see you being successful in your career, you will most likely work alone and you'll most likely be a boss or even famous. you're very hard-working, so I can see you having your own business for example. otherwise, you may also do well in an aesthetic field, you probably have great creative talent. you may be an artist, a creative director, a screenwriter, a writer, a singer, a musician... or even more practical jobs like lawyer, judge, possibly also a therapist or psychologist. you'll settle down on a career that will make you feel emotionally fulfilled, you'll truly enjoy what you do. you may possibly also work with other people, you may have to interact with others for your future job. you could work in a field related to public relations, or perhaps you may even work abroad or with people of different cultures from yours.

👕 fashion sense, style analysis

I imagine you put a lot of effort into your outifts, yet you don’t show it. you want to look effortlessly good, you don’t want to give the impression that you tried. your style may be quite minimalistic and simple, with lots of jeans, sweatshirts, plain t-shirts… I see you being more into natural shades, like white, grey, beige etc. you’re also not very fond of using too many accessories, you’re stylish but still very simple. you have this natural charm to you, hence you still look good even though your outfits may not be too complex.

👁 past life, life purpose

in your past life, you were very career-oriented. you were probably extremely successful at work, it was your priority. you could have even been someone important for your career, who knows. yet, this lifetime you don't need to focus on work anymore, you're already a master at it. now, you need to solve your issues with your family and create a family of your own to fully accomplish your life purpose. there may be some ups and downs, but this is what your soul has to learn in this lifetime.

🤔 major transits analysis / august 24

transit virgo sun is currently conjunct your natal leo mars in the 8th house: you may be feeling a bit impulsive these days, you could argue easily with others so be careful with what you do or say. these arguments could be particularly painful for you, so try to avoid them. also, with transit jupiter in your 2nd house conjunct your uranus, you may come across unexpected luck in these days, so pay attention to any signs! they were most likely meant to be.

🧿 manifest what you want, secret skills

the best way for you to manifest is idealizing and acting at the same time. you have both energies combined in your chart, which is great actually! I’d suggest you to first picture what you want in your life, and then do something concrete to manifest it. for example, let’s suppose you want this gucci bag; first, think about it deeply. then, you could try going into a gucci shop and just walk around, maybe even touch that bag. you’ll get results if you believe it! it’s also great to write and read/listen your own positive affirmations, such as 'I love my gucci bag’, 'the gucci bag my mom gave me is amazing’ and so on.

and this is it! thank you again for booking a reading, hope it resonated with you :)

- libramc xx

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C A T S (i saw you already did a so give me another pairing or talk some more about them. u know who)

C - A ship you have never liked and probably absolutely never will. 

Oh man. There are too many to name them all (I might be slow to warm up to a ship, but once my embers of hatred are set aflame, they never go out). 

Duncan x Veronica (Veronica Mars): Setting aside the “he thought she was his sister and sexed her anyway” element, which that is a wild statement to write, he’s just such a slice of American cheese trying to convince the world he’s brie. SHUT UP, DUNCAN! YOU’RE NOT A SLICE OF BRIE! I WOULD NEVER HAVE YOU WITH HONEY AND APPLES. 

Jane x Rafael (Jane the Virgin): This one is tricky for me, man, because I have a hard time explaining why it didn’t work for me. I think I resented the way the writers setup a false equivocation between Michael and Rafe - that Michael was the fun safe one and that Rafael was the passionate edgy one. I think it did a big disservice to both Rafael and Michael. 

Chuck x Blair (Gossip Girl): Back when Gossip Girl came out, my friend was a big fan, I’d never seen it, and she had the first season on DVD. We had a girls weekend in Portland and ordered room service and watched the first several episodes of s1 and I hated Chuck on sight and kept hating him. And my friend kept telling me he got better and I kept waiting and kept hating him. So...I do not want to see his marble mouth face on my TV and I do not want to see him messing with my girl Blair who might be one of the greatest TV characters from the past 15 years. No further questions. 

Others include Katniss x Gale (The Hunger Games), Dawson x Joey (Dawson’s Creek), Ted x Robin (How I Met Your Mother), Cristina x Owen (Grey’s Anatomy), Dan x Vanessa (Gossip Girl),  Fez x Jackie (That 70s Show), Josh x Donna (The West Wing, just going to sneak this one in and hope no one notices), etc. etc. etc. 

A - Ships that you currently like a lot. (They don’t have to be OTPs because not everyone has OTPs.) Friendships, pairings, threesomes, etc. are allowed. 

Alright. I know what you want. To quote one of the Olsen twins in the cinematic masterpiece It Takes Two, “I can see right through!” 

Let’s talk Will Cooper and Angie D’Amato from the cancelled too soon show Single Parents (I have gotten 3 people hooked on this show and I will not rest until my reign of terror widens). 

There’s a blithers fic for Will x Angie (that you, @thelillykane absolutely need to read!!!) that includes an incredible description of who Will is from Angie’s POV: 

Will isn’t the type of guy she’s normally into. He isn’t some tall skinny dude with amazing hair and/or the ability to scream-sing his feelings into an unfeeling world. Will is a big old goofball of a dad, dependable and kind and sometimes manic, with undercurrents of a real weirdness that Angie gets such a kick out of every time she taps into them. Will is intense about the things he cares about, but he doesn’t write cryptic songs about his repressed man-emotions or play guitar while looking soulful about it or anything awesome like that. Will acts on his feelings. He organizes and works and makes life better for the people he cares about.

And it’s that undercurrent of weirdness that Angie sees in Will and that Will sees in Angie that unites them and that I love. Yes, Angie is predisposed to think the worst of people and Will is predisposed to see the best. But! they are both giant weirdos who absolutely are like “yes, when one has transgressed in friendship, the thing one buys to make up for it are giant turkey legs.” 

I think the series focuses more on how Will’s labradoodleness betters Angie’s life, but I also see so many ways that Angie’s skepticism of the world would be good for Will - “not everything always works out, dude, and you have to find a way to be okay when it doesn’t.” And also, like, Will gets Angie. I think from the Pilot episode, he sees that her bossiness and meanness and zero tolerance for nonsense is how she cares. Most importantly! It works for Will to have that in his life! Because otherwise he never would have stopped wearing zip-off short cargo pants. He would still be carrying that mermaid bag around. He might have convinced himself to give his marriage with Mia another shot, etc. etc. etc. 

Anyway, I probably just need to write my fic about them to get my feelings out. 

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending? 

Not really, I’m afraid. So utterly boring, I know. Idk, man, send me an example of a headcanon you’d die defending? I feel like the things I get heated about are when I feel canon is interpreted in a way I don’t agree with. 

S - Show us an example of your personal headcanon (prompts optional but encouraged)

Single Parents: You and I have talked about this, but Will does not remember what he said to Angie. There’s no possible way. And Angie absolutely rides out the summer in Barstow because there’s no way she’s confronting her complicated feelings head on. Hell no. 

Veronica Mars: This one’s for you, girl, but Lilly Kane would have been fine if she’d lived past 16-years old. I don’t think she would have been a forever giant hedonist or super destructive, because her acting out had a very clear origin. And I think her getting out of that house, getting away from her parents, getting away from Duncan, a lot of that chaos would have cleared in her mind. Yes, she might have always struggled with this feeling of inferiority, but I think she would have been okay. 

Once Upon a Time: This is a small silly thing, but I like to think that the reason Emma was never adopted or found a stable foster family was because Regina’s curse reached into the Land Without Magic. Later seasons establish (I think??? I basically haven’t watched 3 seasons of the show) that there is magic in the real world, but it’s dormant and hidden because people don’t believe. Regina’s curse took away the happy endings, and so doesn’t it make sense that it would follow Emma to ensure she also didn’t get her happy ending even separated from her family? I have a premise for a fic in my head where the family she lived with felt this need to return her to the foster care system. That there was a pressing on their chests, a squeezing of their hearts if you will, a voice in their ear whispering to send her back. Instead of listening to it, though, they fight against it. And that’s one of the first moments, right from the start, the love of these adopted parents weakening the curse.