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rubenesque-as-fuck · 2 years ago

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Worried that eventually I'm gonna get so stupid lonely and touchstarved that I'm gonna end up posting a sad personals ad on Fetlife or something ughhh 😫

#and immediately regret it of course #lonely touchstarved idiot brain #i used to fuck so much out of desperation to prove to myself that I was desirable #but it just made me feel worse to know that I ultimately had no value beyond being a wet hole to those hookups #feeling pathetic because I'm in love with someone who doesn't feel the same and probably never will so how do I get beyond that?#i am so tied of being alone and unloved and it feels like I am completely unlovable in a romantic context #which is maddening because it also feels like it's financially impossible to build a real life without a partner #so I'm just here unloved unfucked and unfulfilled with no hope of ever having a stable life #no family for me to lean on and all of my friends are in solid relationships of their own and happily building lives together #so how long until i give up and just go back to taking whatever scraps of physical contact I can get to feel something?#kinda hope I get hit by a bus before I get to that point honestly

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apeirophobia · 11 months ago

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#farleigh immediately regrets this moment of honesty!!!!!#also archie's ''mmhm'' 'uh huh'' ''of course'' in this scene is sooooo... his mind #saltburn #quickstart #real posts

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rainedroptalks · 4 months ago

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greta hayes deserves a solo where she's a cringefail college student who also leads souls to their afterlives on the side, and maybe she solves murders every now and then. i'm calling it dead girl detective- hey wait where are you going

#ramblings #raine does dc #dc comics #young justice #greta hayes #dc secret #they should just. give me greta hayes #like the character. she should be mine. if dc isn't gonna write anything for her then I should be allowed to #local cringefail sad pathetic college girl who cannot act like a normal human to save her life also sees ghosts. yep #jokes aside I do mean this. she should have this #greta figuring out how to be human while also helping spirits pass on #maybe she tries to make a big dramatic change by moving to a big city and then immediately regretting it #but she's already there and she slowly uncovers some kinda evil plot #while doing the worlds most random course. I'm thinking either literature or botany #her friends show up every now and then (especially Anita and cissie)#but it's mostly her trying to live again

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jack-the-fool · 1 year ago

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Baby Ambrosius meeting Ballister in class for the first time and IMMEDENTALY having a crush on him but he of course has no idea what to do with these feelings so he pulls the "get out of my school" note move but then Bal gets genuinely upset when he finds it and Ambrosius overcorrects hard when he tells him and is like "What? No. How dare they >:( If you find out who it let me know I'll beat them up >:((("

#bal: *oblivious* thanks ambrosius you're a great friend *leans his head on ambrosuis' shoulder*#ambrosius: *unsure if this is the worst or best moment of his life voice cracking all the hell* 'course bal :)) anytime :))))))#nimona movie #nimona #ballister boldheart #ambrosius goldenloin #goldenheart #ballister x ambrosius #babby brosius has a bully moment exactly once (1) and immediately regrets it #n ballister #n ambrosius #jack.txt

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marc--chilton · 1 month ago

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(mgv) for a not-so-insignificant portion of his life, house was terrified of being suggestible to the alpha voice as john wasn't afraid to supplement his punishments with them so house would be physically incapable of not complying.

the first time wilson used the voice on house in a fit of frustration after house's incessant needling regarding wilson's obvious lack of life fulfillment ("you're not happy, you're just married."), house was genuinely afraid. he avoided him for days. wilson, mortified by his own loss of control and desperate to apologize, did Not let this be what killed their friendship, effectively (accidentally) sabotaging his own marriage to bonnie by prioritizing his relationship with house over his relationship with her. again.

#house md #house mgv #mgv #of course house forgives him #he is physically incapable of being away from wilson for too long even if for a split second he was genuinely scared of him #even once they're going back to routine and house acts like nothing ever happened >#he still has subtle tells he's readjusting now that he Knows that wilson could easily weaponize the voice >#to hold power over him just as john did to him when he was a child. fidgeting when wilson's in a bad mood or >#tensing if he gets too close before he forces himself to relax. wilson notices of course but doesn't say anything even though it kills him #wilson promises house he'll never do it again. house knows he will. and he does #though because wilson DIDN'T take advantage of house that first time house subconsciously takes to these slip-ups as exposure therapy #like house flustering wilson with dirty lines to the point where wilson uses the voice when he tells him to shut up #which serves to prove to house he WAS getting more riled up than he let on #while also showing through wilson's immediate regret that he cares about him enough to never use it against him #no matter how much trouble house gets into wilson doesn't use it to control him like some bad alphas would #cuddy even gently suggests wilson use the voice on house when he needs to be wrangled #and wilson pushes back every time bc he doesn't need to betray house's trust to tame him #which is true!! he knows house well enough to play him without weaponizing biology most of the time

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martyrbat · 1 year ago

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detective comics #509

[ID: Bruce Wayne sleeping in his penthouse, his eyes squeezed shut as the narration reads, ‘Gordon's strained laugh sounds hollow, but it echos in the Batman's mind... and haunts his dreams...” Bruce awakens to a hand on his shoulder and before he can think, he's twisting it and holding it down. The panel expands, revealing the hand belongs to Alfred as he's almost toppling over! He cries out, “M-master Bruce—my arm!” as Bruce groggily realizes who it is. He lets go at once as Alfred moves to the end of the bed and holds his arm while stammering an apology, “S-sorry, s-sir... Sorry if I startled you.” Bruce looks at him with aghast as he cries out, “My god, Alfred—I almost broke your arm!” Alfred reasons, “You must have been having a nightmare, sir.” as Bruce sits up and puts his face in his hands. He weepily dismisses, “A nightmare—what kind of an excuse is that? Old friend... forgive me...” Alfred reassures, “Nothing to forgive, sir. Just bad nerves, sir.” END ID]

#THIS ONE !!!!#bruce and his neverending guilt complex #just immediately regretful and so apologetic as alfred is quick to reassure and dismiss it #holding his arm because of fucking course it still hurts but when bruce lifts his head he stops ....#always thinking of how he was a caretaker for bruce since he was a small child/infant and how many little things bruce does now will remind #alfred of those days #he likes his grilled cheese q certain way. he cries if he thinks he hurt someone. he blames himself for a lot. he gets bad nightmares #like so much has stayed the same as so much continues to change but the love and care thry have for each other is always there #(<- guy who is always number one in bruce is disabled and needs a caretaker but also in how the people around him know bruce loves and cares #about them. its not about not being loved its about how heavy his love is and how bruce will subconsciously use his love to harm himself #(from blaming himself to his parents murders and jason's future death to something as simple as this and how he'll beat himself up #for hurting alfred and not able to protect him as well from himself)#(like his mental illness is forever using his stupid bleeding heart against himself as a reason for why hes awful)#this is all fully sidetracked im just fucking wired today sorry lol #but while im talking and something more related to the panel itself::#after this line bruce looks up and says ‘the batman suffering from bad nerves? lets hope not. gordon can worry about the election but i #cannot afford to. still its not just the campaign. lately so many other things are pressuring me—mostly as bruce wayne’#and like !!!!#it wasn't about batman! it wasnt about his burdens and responsibilities!! alfred was telling HIM. BRUCE. that its okay #and bruce automatically ‘its not because batman cant behave like this’ like !!!!#batman is the priority in the sense of he thinks he needs it to protect people. even his family even alfred and every single stranger #he won't ever allow himself any grace even while sleeping because batman cannot afford those ‘slips’#just GOD 70s/80s batman makes me insane for forever and ever amen #c: detective comics | i: 509 #crypt's panels #bruce wayne #alfred pennyworth #alfred & bruce #‘awake or asleep—it scarcely matters anymore. the nightmare never seems to end.’#<- nightmare bruce tag <333

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tetrafelino · 14 days ago

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so I talked to The Guy. alone

#told a couple irl friends about this crush which I immediately regretted but what can you do #it was a very boring nothingconversation but #he said goodbye with a hug even though I had started to walk away which definitely put some worms in my brain #anyway. I was of course cool as a cucumber the whole time through but as soon as I left his line of sight my heart went 📈📈📈#miau⁴

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vaguely-concerned · 1 year ago

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that last scene in fatal journey where nie huaisang has to support nie mingjue for him to keep upright, harrowhark's arc in harrow the ninth*, and the 'O, let me not be mad, not mad, sweet heaven/Keep me in temper: I would not be mad' line from king lear all break my heart in exactly the same way. that precise thread of the ultimate, hopeless vulnerability and confusion that's at the heart of madness -- of realizing in glimpses that you won't even realize how far you've drifted from yourself and that you don't know how to stop it, you can't stop it. that's such a core part of nie mingjue to me, and I don't feel like I've seen a lot of real discussion around it considering how central I think it is to his character.

*also like harrow, nie mingjue is both 'mad' (im mentally ill. I'm reclaiming it. sometimes that does feel like exactly the right word for it) and also like. severely haunted. by a sword even lmao. they've even got the 'crushing weight of shouldering the responsibility of their entire house given to them at way too early an age under horrifically traumatizing circumstances' same hat/same hat! thing going on here. omg. nie mingjue is like if harrow was a big sensitive jock who cries at the drop of a hat and harrow is like if nie mingjue was a small wet ratwoman who does bones and catholic guilt. but the core is basically the same. I can't believe I'm right about this.

#and jin guangyao and ianthe doing the clasped hand meme over mercilessly gaslighting and generally making everything worse for them!#I have respect for ianthe's grift but not jin guangyao's I only regret nie huaisang could only kill him once </3 #the locked tomb #the untamed #nie mingjue #nie huaisang #nie bros #I wish everyone in this particular fandom overlap a very 'I've connected the dots' except in this case I think I actually did lol #I've always had a hard time explaining why I love nie mingjue SO MUCH despite the fact that he's probably the most doomed person #in the entirety of mdzs/the untamed and also of course his hands are not clean (no one's hands are clean in that world)#but my raw horrified sympathy for him in that element is probably really central to it #he tried so hard!! he tried so hard #it's so funny in my liveblog of the untamed way back when you can see me imprint on him hopelessly just like IMMEDIATELY haha #I chose pain

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vilelittlecritter · 3 months ago

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You ever sit in a fandom space for so long that now looking at it kind of makes you want to rip your nails off.

Yeah.

#feeling this with Omori #ill look at my recommended tags and see some shit and immediately think “thats enough for today.”#granted alot of the community is children so of course theres gunna be cringey posts and that's fine #but then theres times its just weird and i realise i am far to tired for this shit now #i wanted to try and get into fandom spaces to be myself more and open up but i have now just gotten tired #but ultimately this was also the point in my life i was having an identity crisis and i like to think i have changed alot over the last year #im tired of everyone being called out as a predator or twelve year olds fighting over stupid shit #id rather focus my energy into my real life problems and not the latest “blorboscimbosimp24” drama #christ sometimes i regret getting into omori which is sad because its a game near and dear to my heart #but everyday theres some new shit that happens that sends people fucking feral #and also omocat herself is just a whole can of worms i just cannot be assed with.#that's not to say i hate everything about fandoms. ive met and talked to some really nice people and i enjoy their stuff #but still i have so little patience for peoples bullshit #sorry for ranting but im done with everyones horseshit and people being predators and wether or not omocat is a creep #i dont know i sort of dont care because god knows i have far more pressing matters in my personal life that need my attention #also this doesn't mean im not talking or posting about omori. i still like it but fuck man sometimes it feels awkward saying i like it #rant #random rambles

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courageisneverforgotten · 3 months ago

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snow white looks bad this, moana 2 that. the real question is who in the world wanted a live action mufasa or lilo and stitch movie

#i’m going to bed but i’m going to complain on the internet first and immediately regret it. But like #the mufasa thing just makes me mad. no one asked and it makes no sense to do this.#but STITCH???#one of the Staples of childhood and one of the best animated d*sney movies imo #nothing will top those opening scenes for me. the music! the colors! then the storyyy #but the thing that makes me angry about this one is that live action stitch IS really cute. so diss knee can be like Hell yeah we’re -#raking in our coin with merchandise like we always do!!!! Who cares if our movies are good look at this creature!! You love him and more -#importantly your kids will recognize him on shelves heehee aren’t we so cool!!!!#the state of art and entertainment and capitalizing on recognizable IP is depressing me this fine evening #i think we should do more of what the fall guy did. that was so frickin good. an adaptation of a classic show but a fresh take -#AND jody was adapting a low budget sci fi movie from the 80s to match her wild and silly and spectacular vision #like THAT’S entertainment to me!! we can recognize stories that made us and have all these influences and still make something -#with depth and nuance that isn’t a slap in the face to viewers and that succeeds anyway because of course it will #Anyway ! no one cares to read this probably but i actually am happy that i ended up circling back to the fall guy. i wasn’t planning to LMA #let’s go fall guy my beloved the fall guy #jess.txt #i’m stressed and tired okay let me have this

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orcelito · 4 months ago

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Honestly tho it's the "I don't love you" and "every time I said it was just automatic impulse" that's got me the most messed up. Like u couldn't even let me down softly by saying it just wasn't working out? You had to essentially tell me the whole thing was a lie??? After I TOLD you I had trust issues and felt like everyone is just going to leave me in the end???

Way to make me feel unlovable lol