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hey babe okay so I saw the first episode and let me tell u u thirsting about helly r (or helen? im guessing that's her outside name) is soo valid and justified she's very pretty and she's banging on doors screaming to get out and throwing things so I obviously admire her lol also this scout guy omg I cannot take him seriously he was a joke character in the good place it was so funny I keep thinking of him but except for that hmmm it's kinda interesting but I fell asleep like 5 times😭 why is it so slow vio why do they show stupid things like him walking through a white hallway and tying his shoelaces i guess am just used to sitcoms i cannot watch these slowpokes I hope i didn't miss anything important my favourite scene yet from just ep1 was scout sobbing in his car before going to work (haha been there done that) and also helly's video she's so animated corporates will truly kill us all this concept is wild tho but like. it's. i thought that wow i can't keep you're giving away one third of your life to a corporation and you're not even going to remember it like how can you waste it lifeis sooo precious. but then I think about all the precious hours i spent in my office formatting idiotic word documents because my seniors said the font looks bad the spacing is incorrect and how tired I was that I just came home and fell asleep and I'm like oh. i loved that line the boss lady said that humans imagined hell but it doesn't exist but the scary part is that what humans can imagine, they can create. so we all gonna die. but anyway yes that's my review of the first episode.i think i definitely missed some important things like i remember seeing some very old guy talking and suddenly he's like I'm petey and I'm like wait YOU'RE petey? where did u come from? but I'll figure it out lol maybe I didn't sleep enough last night
you'll only fall more and more in love with helly lol (also try not to get spoiled by my posts here because i need to see you react to everything a hundred percent authentic). okay in show's defence it's trying to show and not tell, that's why the first episode might seem a bit boring and slow but trust me it'll speed up by end of 2nd episode. the walking thing is show you the shift in his mannersims how outside he seemed depressed and crying while when his innie (aka the severed self) had absolutely no idea at all (the puzzled look at the wet tissue paper and throwing it) the changing of shoes because he isn't allowed to wear outside ones inside it'd have probably make his innie wonder why they're wet (i am realising this as we speak tbh, because his innie has no idea about sky sun snow weather etc) and give him a chance okay forget his previous characters RIGHTTTT it seems like a fucked up concept but if it was possible i am sure soo many companies would take advantage of it to prey on depressed/naive people. like it sounds nice as a concept but (you'll realise this as you watch) in fact is inhuman to that the other part of yourself that is consistently working. lmao that's miss cobel for you, tell me more about how you feel about her as you go on. also get some sleep and try not to be too worried about catching all the symbolism you'll get them as you go plus we have tumblr to discuss anyways mwah
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headcanon asks for Bradley: 1 and 19?
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1: holiday headcanon
christmas was always one of bradley's favorite holidays, all throughout his childhood. every adult in young bradley's life, all with varying backgrounds and types of childhoods of their own, could come together to agree on one thing: bradley's christmases should be magical. carole, trying to keep the magic of those first three christmases with everyone all together alive; mav, trying to give bradley the kind of happy memories he never had; ice and slider, woven into the family by carole's steady hand, determined to give this little makeshift family what it needs. bradley remembers holiday baking with mom, learning about the traditions of ice's family, so different from theirs; neatly-wrapped gifts from santa, much lumpier gifts that were also "from santa", supposedly, but he knew those ones were from uncle mav- it would be fair to say bradley was a little spoiled when it came to the holiday season.
after carole is gone, and it's just he and mav, those years are empty and feel meaningless, but they try. they try for carole's memory, for each other, and for ice and the others. bradley's eventual disillusionment with the holiday doesn't start there- no, it starts after.
once he and mav have their falling out, it's like someone has flipped the light switch. the last few chrismases were quiet ones, lonely without mom, sure- but he and mav got thru them together. after losing mav, too, though, it's radio silence. bradley goes from loving and enjoying the christmas season to hating it, overnight. the first christmas after is bleak. a long december and a somehow even longer december 25th. the only accompaniment that he has for the next four years of college are the cards and the letters he doesn't open. he spends it in the dorms alone while everyone else goes back to their families.
once he meets phoenix in flight school, things start to look up, just a little. she has a lively, bustling family full of extended relatives and family friends, and they're happy to fold in one more. it still doesn't feel right. it doesn't make him feel at home. for all their effort and kindness, phoenix's mom is nothing like carole and phoenix's dad is is nothing like goose- and as much as he hates himself for thinking it, more importantly, is nothing like mav- and the traditions and energy are all so different that it just feels unfamiliar. though it tugs painfully on his emotional aches and pains, he is grateful to have somewhere to go and happy to be included, even if it only exemplifies to him how alone he really is, and how he really doesn't seem to belong anywhere.
post-mission, post-reconciliation, bradley isn't sure what to expect. he imagines that mav would have built a life without him in it by now and is dismayed to learn this is not the case. he isn't sure if mav will want him around for the holidays after everything he's done and said. phoenix pushes him, telling him that of course he's welcome at the trace family table again this year, but you really ought to stick around and sort this shit out. through much hesitation, bradley does.
the post-reconciliation christmas is not lively or bright or boisterous like the christmases of old. it'll never be the same, without mom, without uncle ice, when the other flyboys have families of their own to worry about now. but mav welcomes him, wants him to be there, and it's more at home than bradley has felt in fifteen long years. it's not about the food or the gifts or the decorations. it's about the people- person, actually. it's about being invited into mav's life and heart even when he knows he can never deserve to be in those places again. at the end of the day, the old christmases were always about family and love and connection, and even though they're quite different on the surface, the new christmas is about all those things, too.
19. favorite photograph headcanon
photos were and are such an important part of the bradshaw-mitchell family. bradley knows it- and it's a part of why, when he leaves, he doesn't take the photos of himself and mav. he knows that to mav, that will say something, loud and clear, and he wants to be hurtful- he wants his emotions to be heard and understood. instead, he takes with him only the photos of his mom and dad, and a couple with the flyboys that mav took, and subsequently was not in; but bradley tells himself that he doesn't need the pieces of a relationship that there's no point in trying to salvage, so he leaves all of those pieces behind.
except for one.
it's a somewhat dilapidated polaroid, taken with his dad's old camera, snapped by carole as she'd stood on the back porch of the little bungalow house that bradley grew up in. in it, a six-year-old bradley sits in mav's arms, held up at eye-level in one strong arm as mav points up with the other. bradley has one hand fisted into mav's shirt, and his gaze and rapt attention are locked overhead. mav always used to tell little bradley to look up at the stars if he missed him, because it's the same stars- they always have that between them, at least. in the photo, mav points out the constellations they share even when apart, and bradley listens intently, trying to commit the names to memory. when he became old enough to have one, bradley used to keep it in his wallet.
eventually, when it's all fallen apart and those connections between them have been severed, bradley gives a new photo the place of honor in his wallet, a photo of he and mom- but he can't just throw out the old picture, no matter how angry he feels when he looks at it, no matter how badly he wants to. it goes into the box with everything else, with letters and cards and artifacts that mav sends him or that he can't bring himself to throw away. sometimes on a quiet, lonely night aboard a carrier or on leave, floating adrift in the world with no anchors to speak of, he thinks about it. he looks at the stars and he sees that image in his mind's eye and he remembers being six years old and thinking mav would always be there, and he wonders sometimes in the most empty moments if the old man still remembers all that shit about the stars. if he ever still looks at them, still thinks of it, of bradley, if he ever wonders anything about bradley the way bradley wonders about him. deep down inside, he knows that he mustn't. deep down inside, he tells himself that there's no chance in hell mav does. because, if he does, it means bradley threw away something that was still alive. it's a fate he cannot bring himself to accept.
when they've reconciled, bradley will find that old beat-up picture in the box. he'll show it to mav. i never forgot, he'll quietly admit. i always thought about it. i- i guess i thought that you probably didn't even care to look at them anymore. i just- i thought it was over. mav will take the photo, tattered and much-handled, from bradley's outstretched hand, studying it with a reverence that bowls bradley right over. i looked at 'em every night, baby goose, he'll admit. always hoped you might be looking, too.
tysm for this ask !!! and for your infinite patience in my disastrous ability to reply 😭😭but i loved answering this ask sm !!! and i definitely did not answer it in longhand at my job and i also definitely did not accidentally write so much about the christmas thing that i had to chop it way down for this ask because it accidentally kind of became a chapter of something lol. i am a disaster. but thank u so much and i hope u enjoy and are well!! <3<3<3
#star unasks#top gun maverick#top gun#brambleberrycottage#bradley rooster bradshaw#ON A RELATED NOTE ABT THE PHOTO I JUST FOUND OUT LIKE V RECENTLY THAT I GUESS IN THE ORIGINAL SCRIPT#BRADLEY IS SUPPOSED TO BE STARING AT A PHOTO OF HIM AND MAV IN THE READY ROOM BEFORE HE HAS HIS FIGHT W MAV????#and im screaming crying throwing up about it#if i had known that when i wrote ttnp i swear to god. i would have exploited the HELL out of that#im so sad i didnt#😭😭#FINALLY APPROACHING 80K ON THE WIP BTW😭😭#so i have taken a break to try and answer some asks lol#also also: just found out this year is the last sicktember and i am torn bc i rly wanted to do it sometime but this would be my last chance#and im just like. i dont think i can write 63k words in one month kids. i dont think i have it in me. akdjfkfhfjg#so i am very very torn lol#stars scribbles
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do u think they knew
it was gonna be forever
#dies. BADLY#screaming crying throwing up#im sorry im soooooooo#emo about them ;-;#i love them so much#dnp#dan and phil#phan#15 years <3#💜🖤#cat and bear save the world#tit tour#it’s literally the anniversary of this photo I feel sickkkkk#daniel howell#phil lester
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saw this
and you KNOW it had me mind body and soul
pov: they’re at your house
+bonus! kendall and kendall undercover
#thought i’d share these doodles#succession#succession art#also their detective company is ROY & ROY DETECTIVE AGENCY#they have never arrested the right person and they wont start now#my art#traditional art#ALSO ALSO kendall roy is so hard to draw and im screaming crying throwing up about it#roman roy#kendall roy#succession fanart#sorry about the lighting i have not figured out how to make it look good yet#succession detective au
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KYLE GALLNER as EMMETT Mother, May I? | 2023
#filmedit#filmgifs#horroredit#horrorgifs#kyle gallner#mother may i#emmett#*#rip freud you wouldve loved this#he looks so good in this movie im about to scream and cry and throw up
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I'm all for viktor manhandling jayce, but let's be real. Jayce is LUCKY viktor chose that path
Had viktor approached jayce in human form, hugged/cradled him, held his face, and soothed him with sweet nothings, that man would have FOLDED like a lawn chair
After months of torture? HIM??? He would not survive
#we already know jayce likes using peoples laps as a head rest LMFAO he would be BROKEN#also i havent finished season 2 yet this is all what i got from spoilers. thanks guys <- guy who ruined his own life#im a good ending for everyone truther but also. a scene like this but with the same ending?? could have been BRUTAL#i want that man BROKEN i want that man GIVING UP for a moment#i want that man almost falling for it because he just went through months of hell and he just wants a hug and a break dammit#screaming crying throwing up etc#having a breakdown while hextor is smiling thinkin about how he won and hes gonna get his partner on his beep boop shit#arcane#jayvik#arcane season 2#arcane spoilers#jayce talis#viktor arcane#viktor cult#when youve had such a shit day you can ignore your ex being a cult leader who wants to assimilate you#edging whump w this one boys#yappersville
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The fact that Viktor saves Jayce in every timeline even knowing it will always lead to the creation of hextech and that timeline's destruction. The fact that Vi and Caitlyn are literal soulmates and one can't exist in a universe without the other. The fact that Ekko fell in love with every single version of Powder/Jinx he met even when they were actively enemies.
#screaming crying throwing up#this makes me physically ill#no one talk to me#im having a moment#arcane was always about love#arcane#arcane season 1#arcane season 2#arcane viktor#arcane jayce#viktor#jayce#jayvik#arcane vi#arcane caitlyn#caitvi#vi#caitlyn#arcane ekko#ekko#arcane powder#arcane jinx#powder#jinx#timebomb#arcane timebomb#arcane brainrot#im hyperfixating again
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#froyo#rottmnt#utmv#rottmnt au#character design#rottmnt donnie fanart#rottmnt mikey fanart#rottmnt leo#rottmnt donatello#IM SO NERVOUS ABOUT STARTING TO POST HIS STOTY I FEEL SO CRINGE#Froyo....hes silly guys I swear#i’m screaming and crying and throwing up#comic
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#mine#aftg#kevin day#andrew minyard#cc#andrew hated it when drunk kevin got like this#screaming crying throwing things panicking. thats the kevin he can handle#but quiet drunk kevin.#the one that stares reverently up at him when he slots his hand against the back of kev's neck#the one that looks at him like a saviour#like he hung the moon and the stars all for kevin#the one that calls him things like 'talented' and 'amazing'#the one that clings to him like a lifeline#thats the drunk kevin andrew couldnt stand#not because he hated him for it#far from it#but because andrew was only a man#his self control could only take him so far when all he wanted to do#was hold kevins face and press their foreheads together and tell him how stupid he was#to share the same air as the drunken prodigy sitting in front of him#leaning close and breathing each other in.#to trace the contours of kevins pretty crying face with more than just his gaze#anyways ANYWAYS sorry if its ooc im tired and wanted kandrew#kandreil is my bread and butter my pride and joy i love it in every form. but.#something about kandrew.#something something projecting#something something saviour complex#dont look at me
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After everything, eomer finding eowyn's body on the battlefield will always make me cry. Imagine, when you're 11 years old your father is killed and your mother dies of grief shortly after and there was nothing you could do to save either of them, but you train to fight and protect your younger sister, because you have to at least keep her safe. You warn her of the dangers in the world, you do everything in your power to make sure no harm comes to her. You know that she longs to defend what she loves, to fight just as much as you do. Despite this, you would never be able to stand it if you lost her, too. So you tell her she has to stay behind, you do your best to build a cage around her like a safety net. You believe maybe she will understand, maybe she will stay behind. Maybe she will stay safe. You have done everything you can. You go to battle thinking it will most likely be your last, but at least your sister will be safe. Your uncle, who took you in when your parents died and treated you like a son, dies during this battle. You see his body. You have lost another parent. It is a blow you haven't felt since you were young, despite the battles you've been in since. But then you see a face that is all too familiar, all to similar to your own. Your sister's body, laying defeated next to your uncle's, when she should have been safe in your home. Her body, curled on the ground in a way it should never be. You were making the world safe for her. You see now, though, that it didn't work. She's dead, and you are once again an 11 year old by, who still cannot save those you love.
anyway yeah i'm doing great👍
#screaming crying sobbing throwing up#gnawing on drywall#somebody sedate me#please im begging#i'm deep in the brainrot trenches#having too many thoughts about a fictional man#eomer eadig#eomer#eowyn#lotr#lord of the rings
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i think i hauve covud
#marvel rivals#snap chats#now i know to only ever say respectful things about women. and so im gonna explode jalkJlKKLJVEKLAVJ CHAT#CHATCHATHCAT....#whats so funny is that twitter was losing their mind about this skin cause for a while#the only leak there was of it was where she was pasty as hell AND NOW WE GET TO SEE THE FULL.#OH SHE'S SO BEAUTIFUL SHE'S SO GORGEOUS IM GONNA SCREAM AND THROW UP#telling myself over and over i do not play wanda nearly enough to justify getting this skin.... she's so beautiful...#praying i get wandas in my games with this skin so i can at least look at it from afar#more reasons to bubble my teammate i fear .....#every day i wake up and thank the universe for wanda maximoff CRYING#CRYING FOREVER#anyways. cant wait for this season to end so blade gets added to the game vejLKJALK#ok bye im gonna ignore the soap opera happening in my kitchen !!!!
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BACHELOR ROUTE INFO?????? CHAT IS THIS REAL???
#pathologic#daniil dankovsky#carissa speaks#IF WE GET NEW DANIIL DANKOVSKY CONTENT. OF ANY FORM. IN THE YEAR 2024#I AM GOING TO ACTUALLY CRY#PLEASE ICE PICK PLEASE#LET MY BABYGIRL RETURN FROM THE WAR#IM SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP I NEED IT TO BE THE SEVENTH NOW#I mean. I am sooo normal ahaha I can be trusted to be normal about this information
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THIS POST IS LITERALLY ARMAND CODED
If we don’t get more of a look into his identity issues in season 3 I’ll throw up
#amc interview with the vampire#interview with the vampire#armand iwtv#iwtv meme#iwtv crack#please please im begging#screaming crying throwing up#the vampire armand#iwtv#i’m so normal about vampires
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I'm so in love with the conversation Juno and Nureyev had on the beach- Nureyev's fear of Juno rejecting him, then being reassured immediately by Juno saying "I love you so much that I followed you, and I love you so much that I'll let you go."
In a season that was all about the potential for eternal life Juno really said: we don't have all the time in the world, but I'm willing to give every bit of time I do have to loving you the right way.
#the penumbra podcast#juno steel#peter nureyev#tpp#tpp s5#jupeter#tpp nureyev#tpp spoilers#ruby 7#podcast#im so not okay about them you don't understand#the layers to their relationship#screaming crying throwing up#juno is way too good for Nureyev
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OH ITS SO ON ATHENA DNT PLAY ABOUT HER MAN MOTHER IS ABOUT TO GO OFF🫨🫨🫨
#911#911 abc#911 spoilers#7.08#athena grant#bobby nash#bathena#AJDJDDJKKF CRYING SCREAMING YELLING THROWING UP!!!!!!#HER IN ALL BLACK GUN IN HAND OH MOTHER IS ABOUT TO MOTHET SO HARD#IM LITERALLY SHAKING GOING INSANE THIS EP IS ABOUT TO HE SO GOOD#AND SHES LOOKING SO HOT SO GOOD🥵🥵🥵
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Newest smosh Instagram post.... so I'm normal...
In general that whole Instagram reel was super cute I loved every second of that minute long video
#amangela#angela giarratana#amanda lehan canto#smosh#im so not normal about this#screaming crying throwing up
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