#and im afraid

[eskiinox]

may i request a riot hanging out with walt doodle :'''

WALT AND RIOT!!! THEY ARE SO DEAR TO ME <3 love them so much

[bratpr1nce]

Cashapp: $amclain00

cw: this is probably my most negative post but i need to get it out and i need support. suicidal ideation, pondering existence, feeling pretty doomy about everything going on in america, death

the world is burning and people are dying and everyday im finding it harder and harder to convince myself that im worth the time. I just cant see how anything I'm doing matters wjen so many people I love are at risk.

I try to rebel in small ways because at the end of the day staying generally quiet is the only thing keeping me from homelessness right now. I always dreamed that I'd have my own house and be able to just cut off the side of my family that consistently sings praises to trump and musk. Just give them a big speech about why i think they are fucking dispicable ugly hateful people for supporting them and then just never talk to them again. But i put myself in a predicament trying to preserve my childhood home and now I have to fear that I will not be allowed to be here if I disagree with my dad.

In hindsight I probably should've gotten some sort of legally binding contract for the time being. But i was stupid and just trusted that he wouldn't treat me that way.. but now im not so sure. maybe it was the break i desperately needed of not having to pay rent... idk. I told myself when I moved that it'll be easy, just shut up and keep your head down til he sells you the property and you aren't depending on him anymore. But after the events since the election.... I dont know if I can do that. To hear him rave about how amazing the election results are and how hes so proud of trump and his team KNOWING that I'm poor and mentally ill and queer and vocal of my mexican heritage. And while my close friends and family are at serious risk of dying or being sent away for the same reasons.

And that's the part that really hurts... The love of my life, the man ive been living with for the past 3 years, my best friend, the man i plan to marry is a Type 1 diabetic and every morning I, an avid athiest for the past decade, sincerely pray to whatever/whoever coupd be listening that we don't lose his insurance and we can still afford his insulin. Hes already trying to ration it and it terrifies me that I'm going to lose him before we even get to start our life together.

It barely occurs to me that im close enough to my immigrant ancestors that my mothers side, my siblings, and i could potentially be targeted. I'm just so afraid right now and I feel like theres nothing I can do.

Anyway, I am actively not seeking therapy or medication becsuse i just flat out can't afford it and my partner is barely scraping by with his insulin so If you have the means to do so any help would be GREATLY appreciated.

[bunnakit]

I have been very excited to watch Kiseki: Dear to Me when it's done but after what I've seen on my dash I live in fear

[logicalampshade]

Might move here permanently depending on how i feel i need to learn how to properly reblog ppl ive been too scared-

[turniptitaness]

Okay I know you've don't really know friends, but I'm in the friends rabbit-hole so:

Guess what friends character I'm talking about 🎉

Tried to kiss their own cousin

Got slapped on the ass by their sibbling's fiancé

Dressed up as a cowboy for work

Kissed someone of the same gender in Atlantic City

Hired an assistant because they were cute

Dated the child of their ex-partner

If you get it all right I'll... write another politician fic (which I will also write if you don't get it all right)

I am so glad you will write it even if I don't get it right because I am just staring at all of these like

[lyriakisser]

oh right would you guys get mad if i disappeared for uhhhh at least one year? 🥺

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

[orfisheus]

A year later... can Tumblr bake a cake this time?

Choose, fools.

[sillystringpony]

the one where cheerilee knows

[ladywhistleballs]

This is exactly how I picture them after colin and pen married 😂

[divorcedtom]

INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE S2E07 "I Could Not Prevent It"

[evercelle]

pocky day without a pocky game...

[wusyanam3]

me when my mutuals !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[pastelshroomsbasement]

My favorite moment so far AHUWHAHA

[iclosedoors]

Hand me my shovel, I'm going in.

close up!!! :D

😂😂😂😂

[pansy-moon]

he can’t keep getting away with this

“AN*AL 😏” SIR?!?!

listen i know we need to stop babygirling 35 year old men but how can i not when he memes himself 😭😭