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question !!! can people you block interact with your blog ?
#camera talks#im so serious right now btw#very very genuine ask#i think this is a stupid stupid question#but i keep getting a ton of notifications/notes that dont show up (like 3 notes but if i look at who liked it i can only see 2 people)#and im a fucking paranoid guy#and i think im overreacting about it but i makes me super uncomfortable to think that a certain person i blocked Could look at my stuff#and its not the same as when people like then unlike btw. if they do that i can see in on my phone notifs but this doesnt show up there..#sorry guys. your local silly guy is spiraling sometimes#anyways. if yall actually know i'd kinda love an answer#love you guys <3
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PART OF A BIGGER DOODLE PAGE. WHEN ITS DONE ILL TUCK THE LINK INTO THIS LITTLE X RIGHT HERE ----> [X] I REALLY REALLY LOVE THE TOM N JERRY DYNAMIC W EMIZEL N VEX. IMAGINE BEING SO SO HAUNTED BY A LITTLE GUY THATS JUST SSSSOO FUCKING ANNOYING.
#CW GORE#HEHEEH WEEEEEE I LOVE THEEMEMM#VEX JUST HATES EMIZEL SO SO SO MUCH AND I LOOOOVE IT. EVEN WHEN WORKING TOGETHER EMIZEL JUST FINDS THE PERFECT WAY TO#GET UNDER THIS DUDES SKIN. A VAMPIRE WHOS BEEN AROUND A LONG LONG TIME.#A VAMPIRE WHOSE COMMITTED COUNTLESS ATROCITIES AND SEEN MANY MANY TERRIBLE THINGS W A SMILE ON HIS FACE#HES A PROFESSIONAL!! HES AN ARTIST! HES A GROWN MAN THAT CAN HANDLE A LITTLE MISTAKE HERE N THERE!!#BUT THEN THIS LITTLE FUCKIN. WEIRDO. W ITS ILLUSIONS. AND TRICKERY. AND STRANGENESS. AND EVERYTHING HE SAYS IS SO SO STUPID#HES WACKY. EVERYTHING HE SAYS MAKES NO SENSE AND YET. AND YET. HE HAS FOILED EVERY PLAN. CAUGHT YOU OFF EVERY GUARD#HE'S MADE YOU PARANOID!!! CAMERAS EVERYWHERE. WE CANT LET HIM GET THROUGH OUR DEFENSES. LEST HE FUCKS UP MORE SHIT#HES JUST A REGULAR BABY VAMPIRE. THERES NOTHING INSIDE OF HIM THAT GIVES ANY CLUE OF HIS STRANGE MAGICAL ABILITIES. SO WHAT THE FUCK??#HES LITERALLY A MOUSE. MAKING YOU SHRIEK EVERYTIME HE SKITTERS ACROSS THE CORNER OF THE ROOM W HIS AWFUL LITTLE PITTER PATTERING. FUCK!!#HES SO SMALL AND SO AVERAGE AND SO SO STUPID AND YET. AND YET HE HAS UNRAVELED EEEVERYTHING AND TOOK DOWN THE STRONGEST VAMP YOU KNOW#SO WHAT THE FUCK????#I LOVE IT WHEN A SCARY VILLANOUS CHARACTER IS REDUCED TO SOMEONE WHO JUST WANTS THE PROTAGONIST TO LEAVE THEM ALOOONE. TO GO AWAYYY. PLEASE#HEHEHE WEEE ILL POST THE FULL DOODLE PAGE LAT3RRRR I GOTTA FUCKIN UHHH FIGURE OUT WHEN IM CATCHING THIS STUPID GAY BUS#I ALSO NEED TO FIGURE OUT HHOW MUCH ALCAHOL IM WILLIN TA DRINK B4 I GO HOME. I HOPE YALL ENJOY THIS ONE. I LOVE U GUYS
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OOH YEAH BABY ITS THE SURGERY EPISODE BABY!!! ME AND THE HOMIES NEED SOME NEW FACES FOR OUR NEW PLAN, AND WHO BETTER TO GET THE JOB DONE THAN THE TWO MOST EVIL PEOPLE WE'VE EVER HAD THE MISFORTUNE OF HAVING OUR LIVES VIOLATED BY? I MEAN IT WOULD BE FUNNY. IT WOULD BE FUNNY.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#cw blood#cw gore#jrwi suckening#jrwi suckening spoilers#vex waylin#viv waylin#MY FAVORIT EP!! HAVNT SEEN IT IN FOREVER THO BC WELL. IM BUSY. SO BEAR W ME IM RUNNIN OFF ALOTTA MEMORY FUMES#ALSO EDIT BC FUUUCK I HADMORE TAGS BUT TUMBLR FUCKEN ATE EM. OH WELL. MY DMS R OPEN IF U WANNA UNLOCK RAMBLES.#I LOVE THE WAYLIN TWINS SSSOO FUCKING MUCH IM SO!!! CURIOUS ABOUT THEM!!! WHO WERE THEY WHEN THEY WERE HUMAN? HOW LONGVE THEY BEEN ARND?#I LOVE IT WHEN PPL SAY ITS LIKE THESE TWO WERE MADE FOR MMEE BC YES!! YES!! ITS EVERYTHING I COULD EVER WANT FROMA CHARACTER!!!#I LOVE THEIR RED WHITE N BLACK COLOR SCHEME. I LOVE HOW THEYRE BOTH SO INTELLIGENT AND GENIUS N YET THEYRE DUMB AS FUUUUCK#COOOMICAL SUPER VILLAINS. OOH ILL GET YOU NEXT TIME SHAMIA SHAMAI!!! HOW DARE YOU FOIL MY PLAN!! MY PLANS OF MUTILATING AWAKE N ALIVE PPL#COMICAL AND YET. GENUINELY HORRIFYING. VIV CAN MAKE UR BONES EXPLODE JUST BY THINKING ABOUT IT. VEX CAN BECOME SOUP#WHY DONT WE TALK ABOUT THAT MORE? THE TURNING INTO RED MEAT SLIME?? METAL AS FUUUCK. I ALSO LOVE HOW SCARED THEY GOT SO QUICKLY#THIS LIL FUCKEN RRRRRAT COMES IN. AND WELL. HES JUST LIKE ALL THE OTHERS. WE FUCK HIM UP N TOSS HIM INTO THE SUN N LET HIM BURN#SURE HE HAD ONE MORE TRICK OF REBELLION UP HIS SLEEVE BUT THE SUN HAS TAKEN HIM NOW. ITS FINE. WE'RE FINE. HEY IS THERE SMTH IN THE CEILING#OHHH WE KILLED HIM ONCE N HE CAME BACK. WE KILLED HIM AGAIN N TOOK HIM APART BUT THEN HES BACK?? HE GETS AWAY AND THEN. COMES BACK. AGAIN.#WE CANT GET RID OF HIM. THAT FOUL SHAMIA SHAMAI. A MOUSE IN OUR KITCHEN. FUUUUCK HES GONNA SPREAD DISEASE! KILL IT! KILL IT!! AAAUUGH FUCK!#I LOVE THAT THE WAYLIN TWINS AGREED TO HELP THE BLONDE TWINS MOSTLY ON THE BASIS OF 'IT WOULD BE FUNNY' BUT ALSO#OOHHH WE ARE SO CLOSE TO REACHING SOMETHING TO MAKE HIM NNEEVER FUCK WITH US AGAIN. HIS ILLUSIONS WILL HAUNT US NO LONGER#THEY WERE SSSOOO PARANOID W ALL THE CAMERAS AND BOMBING THEIR OWN LAB AND RUNNING AND RUNNING AND GETTING AWWAY FROM THIS FUCKEN! MOUSE!!!!#OHHHH I THINK IM RUNNIN OUTA ROOM so ill talk about da art real quick.BEEN WORKIN ON THIS FOR A WHIIILE.ALOTTA THESE were started when the#ep came out.so OLD!! BUT DONE!!and im very very happy w my colors n gore n EXPRESSIONS!! the top right corner comic keeps making me chuckle#I ALSO rly love the lil convo between arthur n viv.theyre SO CUTE TOGETHERR they should go ona museum date together or somethin#they need more time to just talk abt da World together.ALSO CAN I BE PETTY.I MADE ARTHUR UGLY CORRECT-STYLE#THESE BOYS KNOW NOTHING OF UGLY.I MADE THE VAMPIRIC FLESH EVOLVE N ROT N BLOSSOM AND THERE IS SQUIRMING WITHIN THE TENEBRAE#UHHH IEAH THIS GUY W A ROTTED N DISTORTED FACE WALKS INTO MY BIKE STORE IEAH IM SCREAAAMIN LIKE WADDA HELL!! MONSTOR!!!
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I'm a broken record about this but after so many years of being left with the Axolotl poem about Bill, it'd be so lame if Bill never did reincarnate, and it'd be just as disappointing if it ended up being something minor like a cicada (although it'd be hilarious if he reincarnated, immediately died and then reincarnated into something else).
And to me, the wording of the original Axolotl poem really does make it seem like the reincarnation itself is the 'redemption' and the deal is that Bill is basically passing responsibility to someone else, after he's done with therapy and like.... doesn't pass down all of his many issues.
(Plus I dunno if it's my understanding of reincarnation that's wrong but it feels that when Bill is like 'yeah let me use the reset button!!!', he's forgetting that its way different from using a continue and he's just gonna end up with the equivalent of a shoddy new game plus made for a wrong character/setting at best)
Meanwhile, we're left with Bill poem about Stan that's the same in execution (a cryptic message between space and time and by that I mean hidden on the internet lol), with the same purpose (an opening/lingering mystery for Alex to use when he wants to return to the series) with the same elements (fire, lies, redemption, home) and numerous comparisons to Bill's own philosophy on lies that's repeated again in the same website.
(Also been thinking about how amnesiac!Stan could sorta be thought of as a reincarnation of himself in terms of mind only. The same soul being hit with that reset gun button, a chance of a new self unburdened by the past, but via the power of love and family they went nope!!! we want you back!!!)
Either way, with the poem and the book's ending there's the obvious Bill+Stan connection that we're supposed to acknowledge!!!
#i've seen some folks oddly in denial about their parallels for some reason???#stanley pines#stan pines#bill cipher#same coin theory#book of bill#thisisnotawebsitedotcom#gf meta#two sides of the same dollar bill#but also im still thinking about how we got it confirmed that after stan got his memory back#that ford still was paranoid about bill being inside stan's mind#what was stan thinking when ford did test after test on his mind (did stan even let him go into his mindscape? is it still a mess?)#giving up his privacy and letting ford dig around so his brother would quit looking so scared at times#them finally finding some peace as they start prepping for their trip#only for that fucking book to appear and send ford spiraling again#basically hiding in his lab because hes so scared of his family being hurt#hiding because hes so ashamed of being tricked of being abused#what the hell is a guy supposed to think after all that?#still thinking about alex describing bill as a gambler at a tbob panel while he knew full well#that we were about to get further emphasis of stan being a gambler too....#also nomming on the idea of determinism and loops and the idea of split souls
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DATV Spoilers Just in Case!) I’ve seen a head canon floating around that when solas puts a mage!Rook in the regret prison, it tranquilizes them. What do you think Viago’s reaction to this happening to a Crow!Rook would be?
i think there's a small terrible part of viago that instinctively thinks it was a bad investment/solution to send rook off with varric, since he's lost one of his best assassins. and then of course he hates that this is his first reaction because rook is more than that to him, but he's been conditioned by their lives to worry about his power and the mission first. and then i think he throws himself into trying to prove that he is a better man than that by finding a cure, without being obvious about it, even if his worry actually makes him messier and obvious. a similar outward reaction to what i've seen people headcanon about how he feels when he gets the news that rook is stuck in the fade trap in general (anger, determination, frustration, etc)
the idea of viago as a man who clings to "i rose to this rank for a reason, above the other crows. i'm a killer but with my poisons, i'm cleaner. i'm royalty. i'm better." is so beautiful to me. who he wants by his side/publically allies with is made more interesting to me for that reason. rook and teia make a very short list, so for him to lose either of them (especially to a fate worse than death. like i know there's a cure but i'm not sure if that's common knowledge and it has rammys bro) will inevitably cause a crash out the likes of which thedas may have never seen before <3
#tho also i have no fucking clue. i love viago and his high strung freakish tendencies#but a lot of this is just me thinking of viago and not necessarily this specific ask. sorry anon#there are other people on here with a better grasp on vi#and i plan to keep it this way because the moment i have to think of him as a mentor figure#it pollutes my vision board for him. LOL#i don't think i'll ever play a de riva rook because i'll ruin my own experiment#this is my control variable. it's a wildlife documentary…#just because the baby crow is about to be cannibalised doesn't mean i'm going to stop it from happening#sorry. i know i said all that and im now saying 'but idk' but its true#my understanding of viago i think is mixed at best. i have not read the comics he is in and#8 little talons is very much a high stakes scenario where he hates literally everything thats happening#so that might not be a perfect judge of character. ive never seen this guy relaxed ever#tho saying this. this is probably his default state LOL#viago de riva#txt#anonymous#answered#it just feels a bit weird for me to enjoy 'the crows are morally grey' but then be like 'not my favorite talon viago tho'#i think viago should mistreat rook. for my sake. but then i would feel weird. which is why i shouldnt speak on it#i cannot be an unbiased party LOL. like im not saying he /directly/ abused rook#because i think w his age and timelines it just wouldnt be him. but i also dont think he's fucking speaking up and going#'NO MORE CORPORAL PUNISHMENT! I'LL PROTECT YOU ROOK!'#like be serious. thats a grown man near the top of the hierarchy. just another crow so used to abuse#and double crossing and violence that he takes it as a normal and given for his life/world#which obviously. like. creates issues in his personal life. whether thats with teia or with rook. lmfao.#especially with a guy this paranoid. he just strikes me as the guy to intentionally hurt rook so others dont recognise his weakness#'they need to see me punish you so that they won't kill you' <- totally normal thought to have viago you're so normal
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normal girl and her normal boyfriend. i imagine the not!them and all forged beings related to them are not perfect copies of people but rather weird flesh homunculi that others will always perceive as normal people
im only a bit into season 2 but not!sasha rapidly becoming one of my fav tma characters
#scribbles#sasha james#not!sasha#the magnus archives#tma fanart#tma#jonathan sims#johnsasha#for the under the cut doodles. guys im fucking obsessed w my rarepair vision#body horror#unsettling#someone please frolic with me in john x not!sasha. paranoid bastard who can only trust the doppelganger of his friend because#she doesnt have that pesky autonomy or opinions and so is a built in enabler and he can convince himself its about love for the real sasha#the potential drama. juice. yayay
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i was gonna make a whole seperate post about how context and art seems to imply that the ex boyfriend that got stephanie pregnant was at least 18, if not older, when she was 16/15, which is kinda squicky (i mean not if she's 16 really, but 15 yes) but in my journeys on the Stephanie Brown wiki (real and delightful thing that exists) i discovered the batman chronicles #22 where her UNCLE HITS ON HER???? i think that's what we're meant to get from it anyway the dialogue is subtle (the art is not imo). AND I. WAS NOT EXPECTING THAT. STEPHANIE YOU CAN START AS MANY GANG WARS AS YOU WANT WITH YOUR LIFE THE WAY IT IS WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK
#ramblings of a lunatic#dc comics#stephanie brown#SORRY AND COUPLED WITH ROBIN 1993 ISSUE 111 WHERE IT'S REVEALED HER DAD'S FRIEND TRIED TO ASSAULT HER WHEN SHE WAS A KID#STEPHANIE BABY IM SO SORRY YOUR LIFE IS LIKE THIS#god no wonder she was so insane about tim. simultaneously loving him and being paranoid he was gonna cheat or something#i mean a) he skirted close to it at times very early on in his robin run which is. weird to say the least. rip tim sorry they did that to u#but also b) every man in her life treats her like THIS (guy who got her pregnant also abandoned her) so yeah#no wonder she expects the worst from tim but also clings to him like glue. bc he hasnt done any of those things (yet. to stephs knowledge)#it's super unfair on tim but also ohhhhh my god. oh my god her life is awful her life is so awful#i know a lot of ppl resent bg 2009 for not going into how awful her life is and there's merit to that criticism#but also the book was explicitly trying to give her a fucking break from the hardship#and after reading this. i can get behind it. i could before too but doubly now#i need. so many hurt/comfort fics about stephs history with shitty guys. so badly
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Ricky and Jules, the LD Rangers’ own portable generators!
#ortega put those AWAY#HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FAVORITE FHR CHARACTER#i love you you obsessive secret-keeping paranoid lovely bastards <3#btw the colors are heavily inspired by @/cranitys go follow them pretty please#and im hoping you guys understand the pose because im sick of fucking with it#perspective kicks my ASS#cw eyestrain#maybe? just in case#fallen hero rebirth#fallen hero retribution#fallen hero revelations#fhr#ricardo ortega#julia ortega#my art
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It's hard being someone who does genuinely get infuriated with Ford's actions and acknowledges a lot of his flaws and the people he hurt, while also liking (and relating) to his character enough that I would like him to have nice things sometimes and don't believe he's satan
#hes not my favorite guy#but i keep having to defend him because every time people talk about him its like “YEAH HES A SHITBAG WHO WANTS TO WATCH HIS BROTHER DIE”#“HED PROBABLY LAUGH IN HIS FACE WHILE HE GETS MAULED BY TIGERS”#when i was reading the fanfic O Brother I too thought he was being overly cruel to poor Stanley (in a way that made sense not an ooc way)#but then he like found out the deity that was his entire life was lying to him and that he hurt people#and that he no longer can SLEEP because hell hurt people again#and he has to figure out the impossible answer of what to do while everyone is upset and untrusting of him#and his best and only friend barely can LOOK at him#and all the comments are like “YEAH THIS IS WHAT HE DESERVES!!! FUCK YOU STANFORD”#meanwhile im over here like “oh my god thats so fucking awful!!! i feel so bad!!!”#like he genuinely has NO ONE right then thats fucking awful#its Jonathan Sims all over again except even the AUDIENCE hates him and like?????? please hes just misguided he does NOT deserve this#stanford pines#ford pines#gravity falls#again let me clarify HES NOT EVEN MY FAVORITE GUY#i obsess over him occasionally but im a Stanley defender through and through AND YET#i keep having to say “guys. hes not as bad as you guys think. and Stan isn't as GOOD as you guys think. GUYS. PLEASE.”#it truly is interesting how different focuses on characters influence the audiences perspective of them SO MUCH#because ngl remember how i mentioned J Sims?#i really feel like Jon and Ford are similar#meddled with deities they didn’t understand. had paranoid tendencies. isolated themselves often. had selfish tendencies.#often rude and abrasive but also had a heart#and again the audience LOVES Jon and hates characters for disliking him#but this audience (which probably is the same people too lol) hate Ford and feel vindicated when characters dislike him
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Dons my 'Melanie King Defender 4 Lyfe' tshirt
#LISTEN TO ME#im not saying shes perfect or always did the 'right thing'#but shes just as fucked over by the circumstances as everyone else. leave her aloneee#shes just a little guy#real talk tho by the way some of the fandom talked about her i thought she would be way worse?? like when you compare it to the others shes#abt the same perhaps fewer atrocities when compared to some#i think bc the podcast is primarily framed around jon ppl get mad sometimes when people are mean to him or dont consider his feelings etc#and i get it! but like. lets be real jon spent most of his time hiding away or being paranoid or both. if i was working with him i wouldnt#trust him either! they dont know his personal struggles not really. all they see is the actions and behaviors he performs when theyre aroun#idk rambling but like. leave melanie aloneeee. and basira too.#tma#+ it speaks#melanie king
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google remove my fallopian tubes please
#fr tho i think im definitely going to get them removed#i already have the ok from my gyno i just got scared bc i heard about cases where scar tissue healed weird and resulted in chronic pain#but that’s not common at all and the guy i’ll go to for it is great#i just am so fucking scared with the way things afe#are going in this world rn#and i like having sex so i would like to continue without having to be paranoid about babies!#hhhhhhhhhaghdhshf#golly ollie
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i dont understand how u can fuck up misgendering me when my name is literatlly noah. like. how. do i need to change it back to adam?
idk how it can make it more obvious. (i live and exist as stealth trans. sort of? I don’t really talk bout being trans, but I’m open bout it when it comes up. Or i trust u. I can read vibes)
#snazum talks#like idk how u keep messin this up.#is it my stature? im just short. i’m a short guy. theres cis dudes my height.#ah wait i did use that one childhood photo of me for a presentation. so ig there?#like i said im not loud and proud but i don’t exactly stealth either#but like. idk i just chill and exist as a dude.#now im gettin paranoid that the others misgender me behind my back but like#i aint gonna start thinkin like that till i get proof#sorry im just like. mind boggled lmao. I wish I had the courage to correct people but like#I don’t have the energy or the backbone to so I just shrug. whatever#i’ll just think of you as stupid. and then also proceed to help u with ur project anyways lmao#or not even just stupid. like. i’ll give yah the benefit of the doubt and assume its a language thing? but also like.#i give people that benefit but then you’ll gender everyone else correctly so. idk. seems sort of targeted#even if it’s subconcious. which sucks. i’m sorry that you have those subconcious biases#cause I get it. me too. it takes a bit to learn and retrain.#but its a little annoying since i’ve just been living as a dude for years. like grahh. idk.#im not gonna drop my somewhat effeminate actions or whatever the fuck. i like to sound not like a dick online thanks#or like idk. i want to not seem threatening and hard to approach#not that i’m doing a great job at that but yeah idk sorry i’m exaughsted
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i feel like he is or he is going to be disappointed in how i look. like hes gonna think im ugly or unattractive. i know im not pretty like other girls but 😞 im still a person AND I DESERVE LOVE GOSH DARNIT.
By the way, he knows how i look, we facetime and everything but i feel like irl im gonna look worse ? i dont have nice clothes and my hair always gets messed up and my anxiety seeps out of my pores and makes me uglier i feel like
#Ik i seem so dramatic rn hut#a very real fear of mine#and its fucking stupid cuz i know i cant be completely ugly or unattractive??? guys irl have found me attractive before#and girls#soooo i know that im not like hideous the way im paranoid that i am. but im still paranoid????? bro am I mentally ill fr
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NO BUT thinking about Ray's self image and how it would be impacted after falling for Dan. Yes, he'd always felt like a freak, but as he grew up he became a natural at "ignoring" it - it was more of an inconvenient than anything, and since he never let anyone get close enough to him, he never really felt like his identity was threatened.
But then Dan came into his life, and he began falling for him, and suddenly it wasn't a mere inconvenience anymore and he had to plan around full moons because whoops, he somehow ended up dating him, and now there's a very real possibility that he could find out, and all those feelings of otherness and self-loathing he'd buried under a veneer of simple routine came back out with a vengeance. He felt like a freak again, like a monster, and more unlovable than ever. And honestly it's depressing to think that every one of those early moment he spent with Dan he originally though would be the last because he would either cut the relationship off to protect himself or he'd end up yielding and confessing his secret, which would inevitably end their relationship (and potentially his life if Dan ever outed him). After all, how would anyone love something like him? And he'd have to face those questions and insecurities once again after years of repression.
#THE ANXIETY.#I highkey wanna make Ray become so stressed because of this that he becomes paranoid and Dan obviously notices#Leading to Ray eventually going fuck it and confessing#oh yeah he's gonna be anxious 24/7 and then All his fears are going to be validated#(temporarily of course im not a monster)#Luke rants#[OC] Raymond Powell#[Story] ONMBiW#can you tell he's my fave guy rn
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might remake to a new account entirely and change the name i go by
#depresso rant incoming skipp all this if you dont wanna hear it#txt#el/ena might have to become a deadname for lack of a better word sjdhfg#putting the slash because im beyond paranoid now#nothing on this earth is sacred i feel like ive lost the only safe space i had left#would you guys call me some silly name if i asked :-( fuck#shit im so hurt this is the worst#trying to be positive so im not just a huge drag but im so isolated in my real life and as stupid as it sounds#tumblr was becoming a little home id carved out for myself#and i feel like im never going to feel safe here again#but in order to tell you guys about a new blog url ill have to post about it which means they might see it too and uagshfg#and god it doesnt even matter bc my arts out there anyway and a few random 10k+ note posts so theres a chance theyll find me no matter what#and shit i loved so many of my old urls but i cant ever reuse them and i feel like im seriously losing my fucking mind trying to hide#like tumblr and having you guys was the only thing keeping me going through all this shit and it feels like ive lost all of that comfort#this is gonna be the worst fucking birthday ever dude just for that extra cherry on top like i seriously have nothing going for me rn SJDHG#denver and a few lovely mutuals to keep me kicking but oughgf#i feel sick#feel like i need to shower and scrub my soul raw to get this vile ass feeling out#god im sorry to be negative i rlly am i try to keep things cheery round here but im styeadily reaching my limit#and i want to reblog stuff to comfort myself but i dont want to reblog anything in case theyre watching and fuck im so dfjsfgjksfjkgsfkdgh#i could really go for a hug right about now s'all
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i cant fucking shower theres too many bugs
#pretty sure you guys dony want to hear about how fucking awful my mom's house is so. i won't#im paranoid as fuck and theryre LITETALTU EVERYGEWERE#I ACCIDENTALLY STEPPED ON A HUGE FUCKING WOLF SPIDER AND HAD A PANIC ATTACK#AND THERES MORE#RHERES SO MANY#THETYRE FUCKINH EVERYWGERE#HELP
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