#and if its his

[every-dayiwakeup]

There is a significant time in our lives, in which others make decisions for us. The thing is, we don't have a say in those decisions, so they aren't ours. If these decisions end up hurting us, that is on them, not us.

But we often don't realize that.

In that time, we are completely at the mercy of those people and their decisions.

If we never know that those decision makers actually failed us, chances are we'll see ourselves as failures.

That is why abusers feel threatened when we start to question their behavior. When they see a victim becoming an individual, they are threatened. Because then we are taking back what has been rightfully ours since birth.

Now, some people who bring us into this world won't respect our rights. They will do anything to make sure we don't know the truth; that whatever they did was not our fault, that we deserve better, that we never should've had to fight for survival to begin with.

They keep us in the dark so they can control us. If no one turns on the light, sometimes we have to find a match. But if you don't know the light exists, if you aren't allowed to know, why would you look for a flicker?

If you are shown the worst sides of humanity, time and time again, the sides that abusers show you, either through hurting you or in an attempt to frighten you into thinking you need them.

The thing is, you do need them. You need them to make the right decisions. And that is how they take advantage of you; by keeping you from knowing right and wrong.

So they can continue to make the wrong decisions.

Who pays the price? Who carries the burdens, the crosses of all this guilt, all this pain? Not them. You.

That is what guilt is designed for in an abuser's hands. It's one of their most powerful and effective weapons.

As long as they have you believing you are problem, they have control.

One of my problems with Billy's ending?

He got control. He snatched it back. A crown, if you will, that was taken from him.

And then he loses his life. He's fucking killed.

Billy didn't know what I had the chance to figure out (and hell I'm still learning).

Do you know how I know?

Because his last words were an apology.

Other people's decisions, their wants, they brought him to the Mind Flayer. They drove him to his death.

And for someone like Billy, who has been forced to apologize for things that were not his fault in the past (the neil scene), to have his last words be a fucking apology...

He had no choice! He was dying, and if he'd had the time (like Brenner) he would've said more. He was cornered by Death from all sides.

His entire life was "I'm sorry". Those apologies weren't said to him. He was forced to say them to people who let him down. But he didn't know that. In his mind he let people down.

That is what abusers want. If you blame yourself, you won't have any blame to spare for them. As long as you believe that it's your fault, they are still in control.

Because of Billy, I have been able to see the truth in my own life. But I am still alive. I saw a chance at freedom, and I took it. I had to make that chance happen.

All I knew about my father, my first abuser, was that his actions hurt me. I didn't know they were wrong.

The same goes for damn near every adult who was supposed to fight for me. I see their decisions, their failures.

Because I am alive. Because I am away from my father. I am away from the Shadow, and even now the light is growing. It is not just a destination.

The real promised land is inside you.

Your promised land is the truth.

Everyone deserves to know the truth.

Especially when that truth can help free you.

That is why safe spaces are important when leaving a toxic environment. That safe space can be your place to help that flicker become a star to lead the way to your promised land.

The truth can be ugly.

It's a bitter pill to swallow when the people who are supposed to support you and help you grow are the ones hurting you.

Speaking from experience, although having people tell you ___ wasn't your fault does help, finding that out for yourself is important.

That's when I started to believe it. This belief is my knowledge, and knowledge is power.

I know what happened to me was not my fault. This is me taking my power back from those who have hurt me. Those who have failed me.

I want that for everyone. I think we deserve to see those we relate to in media not be demonized on and off screen.

So yes, Billy deserved to know of and live to see his promised land.

And if Billy deserves it, then we do, too.

That is what I choose to take from my time in this lovely corner of the fandom, and I'm not planning on abandoning it anytime soon.

Conversations with @local-redhead-bookworm and people who persistently show their ignorance and unwillingness to learn have brought me here.

[haunted-xander]

If you skip a meal Senshi will materialize next to you w/ food at the ready

[william-snekspeare]

alternate take on my other steve comic.

help me afford new socks

[baristabomb]

...weird amount of dunmeshi fans have been saying being a caretaker in a relationship is the worst thing ever..marcille must want to killl everyone soo bad because doing things for people suuuucks sooo muchh

it's an act of love, not just a job i promise. we all want someone who's willing to take care of us in some way, just like how senshi shows care for others by cooking for them :'|

[blueskittlesart]

TOTK - Eternal (part 1)

part 2 here

[rainboas]

my upstairs neighbor is so loud and annoying and all he does is yell and play video games but right now he's explaining the civil war and like the entire history of slavery and the prison industrial complex to some guy in overwatch voice chat so

[sinsydia]

Am i the only one who imagined the first meet like this?? *swooon*

[druid-for-hire]

[image id: a four-page comic. it is titled "immortality” after the poem by clare harner (more popularly known as “do not stand at my grave and weep”). the first page shows paleontologists digging up fossils at a dig. it reads, “do not stand at my grave and weep. i am not there. i do not sleep.” page two features several prehistoric creatures living in the wild. not featured but notable, each have modern descendants: horses, cetaceans, horsetail plants, and crocodilians. it reads, “i am a thousand winds that blow. i am the diamond glints on snow. i am the sunlight on ripened grain. i am the gentle autumn rain.” the third page shows archaeopteryx in the treetops and the skies, then a modern museum-goer reading the placard on a fossil display. it reads, “when you awaken in the morning’s hush, i am the swift uplifting rush, of quiet birds in circled flight. i am the soft stars that shine at night. do not stand at my grave and cry.” the fourth page shows a chicken in a field. it reads, “i am not there. i did not die” / end id]

a comic i made in about 15 hours for my school’s comic anthology. the theme was “evolution”

[martyrbat]

hate when a batman artist isn't committed to bruce's lame bat schtick... give that man a bat insignia on the bottom of his boots rn

[hinamie]

mentor

[bug-hearted]

bill likes to prank fiddleford sometimes. it gets very funny

[solarwreathe]

in another universe they could have been playing at the beach

[crowkip]

yeehaw, baby!

[blackbatest]

my most controversial batman opinion to date

[shhhhimwatchingthis]

My favourite underrated thing about Louis de Point du Lac is that he truly is the least curious vampire to ever be made and he does not give fuck about vampires despite being one.

Its Claudia who goes to libraries, reads the folklore, tries to learn as much as she can and pushes Lestat for answers about who made him and where the others are. Claudia says Vampire Pride and Louis says hmmm Vampire Tolerance.

And Louis...truly does not care about vampire history,law, culture. He's never even thought to ask. There are vampire laws?...ok...Lestat never cared about them and he's not going to either, lol. He's broken a few and he will continue to do so. Oh you have a coven? he's not gonna join it, he's gonna do his own thing. but good for you good for you.

the 500+ year old Coven Leader, he's gonna call Louis, Maitre, actually.

He has fire powers? thats kinda cool. he'll learn that but only cause it lets him vent his feelings about Lestat.

Lestat and Armand say the name of the vampire queen in front of him and Lestat straight up says, "Louis has no idea who that is" and do you think Louis cares, outside of the fact that for some reason it means he can't kill Lestat? No! Do you think in the 77 years he's been with Armand he ever took 5 minutes to ask a follow up question? No!

Do you think he will care about Akasha in season 3? Doubt it! Outside of her obsession with Lestat, who is the only person left on the planet he seems to be able to filter Caring About This Shit through

He blatantly breaks the 3rd law and publishes a book about being a vampire and when the other vampires get pissed not only does he not apologise he literally sends them his location and says 'you wanna fight? lmao don't miss'

I love him. Daniel Molloy is gonna need to bring his A game because Louis will not be solving a single mystery next season, nor would it even occur to him to try.

[jennrypan]

Dick: You use to be so cute and tiny..

Jason: And you use to be cool. We both changed.

Dick: Wha-?! I'm still cool!!

Jason: Okay, 'officer Grayson'. Cops aren't cool.

Dick: THAT WAS A LONG TIME AGO

Jason: STILL FRESH IN MY MIND, PIG!

Dick: LET IT GO!

Jason: NO. YOU WERE THE ONE WHO SAID FUCK THE POLICE! THOSE WERE WORDS I LIVED BY!

Dick: OH MY GOD. YOURE THE ONLY ONE THAT STILL REMEMBERS THAT!

Tim, walking into the living room: I remember it.

Duke, from another room: I heard about it! You've lost 1000 aura man!

Cassandra, poking her head in: I've also heard about it.

Dick: EVERYONE SHUT UP.

Jason: Just like a cop to order people around like that, shameless.

Dick, groans: Fuuuuck-!

Dick: All of you are going to make me age like milk!

Damian, popping up behind him: Is it wrong to say it's too late for that?

Dick, practically shaking: Damian..I swear to God.