#and i was feeling a bit discouraged
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"Your heart was in the right place. Don't blame your earnestness and efforts for their lack of understanding—the right people will appreciate your heart."
EDIT: i mention this in the tags already, but please don't copy my vent tags in your reblogs. thanks for understanding.
#fnaf eclipse#fnaf dca#dca fandom#crab art#traditional art#bright colours#self-insert#my OC Esther#nearly didn't colour this because i was really happy with the lines#but i'm glad i did#please don't copy these tags i'm just going to vent a bit#sigh i've been really feeling it lately#just very discouraged when my efforts to help are dismissed#i know i'm a people pleaser and i just want people to like me#but like#sometimes we just don't click#and it's not worth trying to work myself to the bone to convince people to give me a chance#and it's not fair to blame myself for the friendships that never came to be#they're on their own journey and i'm simply not a part of that journey#just as they are not a part of mine#and that's fine#it's easy to forget when we can connect with so many people online#that we have a limit to how many quality relationships we can realistically maintain#what does it matter if you have so many friends who “like” you#but have no one close enough for you to be open and honest with?#so i will save my heart for those who appreciate it#for friends who will celebrate with me as i celebrate their achievements#who i feel comfortable enough with sharing our troubles and sorrows and supporting each other through it#those are the friends who are worth my heart
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Omg. I'm absolutely stunned. @angryandanonymous, how do I even begin to thank you for this stunning gift?? Never in my wildest imagination would I dream up that such a talented artist would be inspired to bring my fic to life like this. Thank you thank you thank you. Everything about this is PERFECT. I am so moved by your kind words and your stunning skills. You've perfectly captured the softness of this moment (before it all went sideways, lol) and your Tony looks straight out of the comic pages.
Wow wow wow wow.
Thank you thank you thank you ❤️❤️❤️
@jewishclarkkent I’ve been reading ‘There’s a Science to Walking Through Windows’ since I subscribed to it a while ago and I love it so so much. I’m hoping to draw more scenes from it but I had to do this one first because even though it was only a few lines from the fic it was just too adorable and grabbed my sketching hand and wouldn’t let go. I hope you like it
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“They all turn toward the new voice. Tony rubs his eyes as he enters the room, giving a lazy yawn. He hasn’t bothered to change out of his bed-rumpled pyjamas, his feet bare against the dark carpet. Even with the shoulder sling, it’s the most relaxed and well-rested he has looked in a long, long time. The sight of him makes Steve’s heart lurch and he attempts a small smile when their eyes meet. When Tony responds by looking away and clearing his throat, Steve is instantly reminded of his transparent behaviour at the gym, his cheeks flushing with embarrassment.
“What has three superheroes looking so glum?” Tony asks light-heartedly. “Please don’t tell me I have to put on the suit, it’s too early—””
#tony stark#iron man#fanart#i truly cannot believe this#like#i think as a fic writer this is the highest compliment you can ever receive#for someone to be inspired to draw your fic#and to do it so STUNNINGLY#wow wow wow#i'm truly speechless#i feel like i have no words to express how meaningful this is to me and how grateful i am#but please just know that i am beyond awed#and you are incredibly talented wow wow wow#<3333333333#doctor stark fic#i can't believe this#like i know i abandoned this fic for years lol so i really didn't think anyone still cared#and i was feeling a bit discouraged#and then this??? i could cry
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Gently kisses you like you’re my greatest treasure, my most precious partner
bonus for top right doodle:
#late Valentine’s Day thing maybe?!#idk I got a little withered away from metadede because I started feeling self conscious about being too ‘cringe’#cringe is maybe not the right word I just felt a bit discouraged or something. like I was being annoying? a self-made insecurity.#silly right?? it was just a phase tho. so here is some gently crafted fluff that soothed my soul <3#gonna keep drawing what makes me happy!#metadede#king dedede#meta knight#art#kirby series
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Huh, I just noticed something. The majority it seems, at least according to the characters mentioned in the notes and tags of that post, to be headcanoned to be trans (the gender they are in canon) are characters who are guys in canon being headcanoned as transmasc. And now come think of it, I dont remember the last time I saw a character that isn't a guy in canon be headcanoned as a trans guy. Meanwhile trans fem headcanons are a lot of the time appled to characters who are guys in canon (not always! Trans Noelle Holiday comes to mind), so that's a thought. Not sure what it means or if my observations are even correct, but it's something.
i think you made a good observation, it's just a matter of what angle you approach it with: characters with contested trans headcanons (male AND female) tend to be men in the source material because statistically those are the characters that get the most fandom attention
#if you're a woman in the canon you're less likely to be popular ie less likely to have hc about you in general#to expand a bit it's common for people who favor male characters to just not give a shit about the women in the cast. completely ignore them#if someone has transfem headcanons about a character they are already someone who evidently engages with female characters#so statistically it makes sense for the hc to distribute more evenly between male and female characters in the base material#you won't find someone who doesn't care about women in the ''type of woman'' hc brigade#from a more sympathetic angle i guess people feel discouraged to hc girls as tmasc eggs because it feels like ''stealing representation''#once again from a statistical perspective female characters are fewer in the overall cast of their source material#but as a phenomenon it very much still exists. shout-out to transman claire from supernatural#tldr: sexism and transmisogynistic biases#answered asks
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so did seemingly every other spirk fan get assigned a spirk bestie to rant and be pals with when they got on this website or am I just awfully lonely?
#star trek#spirk#K/S#I'm just feeling unbearably lonely and sad tonight please ignore me lmao#I just see everyone around here has friends they work together with on their art and writing and darn if I'm not a bit lonely#and discouraged and bad at this website I don't know how to even use it#ugh
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hi first glove anon here. i feel like i started something LMAO i’m glad you all share my vision
anyway i have more thoughts. specifically about medfet wesker… wooooo!!
wesker who insists on “examinations” in the medical supply room, dons his blue vinyl gloves and pries your lips apart to look at your teeth and depresses your tongue with his fingers to watch your face take on a subtle expression of confusion. he moves onto your throat and makes palpitations there, across your chest (bonus for lingering touches on an ftm reader with top surgery scars!!) and down to your waist, pressing into your hip dips just a little too hard so that you wince and/or have some bruising later from where he was slightly rough about it.
and, if you’re being pliant enough, he might just have to look in some other areas, hmm? examine your thighs and calves for “injuries,” just taking the time to casually feel you up. never taking it as far as you’d like so that the rest of the team doesn’t get suspicious. URGHHH I COOKED HERE.
anon i can't believe you made me learn this about myself just now lmAOOO (/positive)
ALSO YOU HAD ME AT THE BIT ABOUT CHEST SCARS HALLELUJAH
no but i NEED to see a super detailed close up of his hands in exam gloves in the absolute worst way now. any color, but green in particular i feel would really accentuate the details of his hands very nicely, especially the bumps of his knuckles and maybe even a vein or two
#ask#anon#albert wesker#albert wesker x reader#albert wesker x you#resident evil#can i just say i appreciate endlessly the mention of the chest scars bit#i'm involved in another fandom that neglects trans readers/characters pretty heavily and it always warms my heart when we get to be include#small tangent that is kind of irrelevant to the point but:#a big reason why i do different pick-your-anatomy versions of fics is because i want so badly for everyone to feel like there's -#-something out there for them in the space of the fandom bc i'm in a fandom where i feel like i have nothing unless i make it#which is fine yk i'm not entitled to peoples' work but it just gets discouraging and makes me feel othered#same for why i make pick your preferred terminology and such (good boy/good girl/etc) fics#idk i'm just so thrilled you included that part that it has me feeling schmoopy#schmoopy is a word now#but yeah i've felt more inclusion in this fandom as a trans dude than i have in the other(s) i'm in and i'm so endlessly grateful for that
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"oh my old art was so cringe it looks so bad" SHUT UP ALL youre doing with that self deprecating talk is telling artists who aren't as far into their art journey and whose art may look similarly that they suck. When if you had never drawn the way you're criticizing now, you wouldn't be where you are now. The art you consider shit is also part of the way
#and its usually just- normal art#are people make when they start making art#everyone needs to shut up so bad#like im not proud of all my drawings i made when i was younger or when i was getting serious about art#but i know i was proud of them at the moment and if someone had discouraged me then maybe i wouldnt be drawing the stuff i can draw today#also again the stuff people call cringe is just normal stuff it pisses me off so much#i fucking hate the word cringe you should all purge it from your brains#also i have no idea what happening with the grammar in this post whatever lmao#sorry i got pissed offffffffff#like if someone put my old ass art in front of me id probably feel a bit embarrassed but like DONT DEVALUE IT
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Thank you for writing the (messy but neccessary) farcille breakdown. You handled it so wonderfully aaaaaaaah!! Like the other anon I was wondering how far "rock bottom" could get (because chapter 4 already felt pretty rock bottom) but. Yeah. That's pretty rock bottom, huh. The tragedy of loving someone but the other person not understanding <- this applies to both of them.
I think it was really neat how you flipped the question on who's reaching out to who with the academy flashback and the final scene with Namari, because... Marcille clinging onto Falin really is just a reversal of their academy days, isn't it? To everyone who met them after they reunited, it was always Marcille chasing after Falin, but to those who were at the magic academy, it was Falin chasing after Marcille. From picking flowers and berries to eat together, inviting Marcille out to see a play, and generally monopolizing her free time... I'm sure any of them would say the same thing as Namari, but in reverse. No wonder everyone thinks Marcille is just another friend to Falin. They weren't there to witness her pining /j. Idk!! I was rereading the chapter and the academy flashback girl was like "why do you hang off of Marcille so much" and I screamed to myself, "hey wait. HEY WAIT."
#asks#a little creature#im SO glad you pointed out how falin was the first to pine and chase but was discouraged#its a very very important part#i think a really common wlw experience is to internalize that first rejection forever#whether it came from the object of your affections or an outside observer#the first time you encounter disgust for what felt like just happiness and affection#it stays with you. it can turn into a cage for the rest of your life but what you dont realize is that#at some point youre strong enough to open the door for yourself and you have to be able to do it#ironically ive only been the perpetrator of this platonically#pushing away my friends and hurting them bc i didnt think that i mattered enough to affect them#romantically ive been mostly on the other end just begging a girl to meet me in the middle at the very least#because even if they feel intensely as i do its not fun to chase and chase and get nothing bc someone else in their past was cruel#so it dhsjjd shows up in my writing a lot#self loathing as a queer experience is almost universal. but are you able to stand up and grow beyond it? because you need to.#staying locked in your own head and never looking outwards is just another kind of selfishness#i dont always try to do it but lmao my writing almost always touches on this at least a little bit in various degrees as like#maybe my best attempt at a compassionate way of portraying this self-erasure as a kind of selfishness that needs to be addressed
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I jusstfeelsomesortofway
#forgot to post on here#sorry I was discouraged#supernatural#procreate#spn#supernatural family#supernatural art#supernatural fanart#fanart#honey cas#castiel#i actually dislike that we used to call this cas crazy cas#as someone who has been in mental hospitals it just feels a bit weird to even call a fictional character that#but maybe that's just me#anyway#meg masters#doodles
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can i just hear some or one of youre favorite experiences with Lord Lucifer <3
#feeling a bit down :/#haven’t made contact with Him yet#and i’m feeling a bit discouraged#not His fault just my own issues <3#so i thought this would help motivate me#pagan#paganism#deity work#deity worship#polytheism#polytheist#lucifer#luciferian#witch#disabled witch
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Anyone else have the problem where they feel discouraged about a certain self ship or f/o of yours that you end up jumping to a different f/o or announce a new one to focus on for awhile to distract yourself?
#sorry if this is a bit negative sounding#or if this is something that is normal to do#I’m just curious because I noticed I been doing this a lot by jumping through ships a lot#also I been feeling very discouraged lately#hell in the past I dropped an old main because of this shit#and because of embarrassment#ventish#vent#💬 chy chatter 💬#again sorry
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A message is sent out to Sinostra students from Romeo!
ATTN: SINOSTRA HOUSE STUDENTS
There is currently a large(30+) number of unidentified anomalies approaching the rear of the ship. Presumptive class C, as a precaution.
Have your weapons ready in the event that these anomalies are a threat. DO NOT ENGAGE UNTIL ORDERED TO DO SO OR THREATENED. REMEMBER THAT ANOMALIES ARE TO BE CAPTURED, NOT KILLED, UNLESS STRICTLY NECESSARY FOR PRESERVATION OF LIFE.
Right now I'm testing to see if they can be encouraged back into the desert without harming them, however I will be attempting to capture one. You may hear explosions or see bright lights if you're in the vicinity of the stern of the ship. These are FLARES. They are not a threat! At most they will temporarily afflict flash blindness.
Casino guards, reassure non-Sinostra staff and guests in the unlikely event they hear noises, but be prepared to evacuate them through the front onto campus if necessary.
IF THIS ANOMALY IS SPOTTED WITHIN THE BOUNDARIES OF THE SHIP, CAPTURE IT AND CONTACT ME. IF IT POSES A THREAT OF CLASS B OR ABOVE, ALERT A GHOUL STUDENT IMMEDIATELY.
REMINDER: STRANGE NOISES ARE ONLY A THREAT IF YOU FEEL PHYSICAL PAIN, LIGHTHEADEDNESS, CONFUSION, COMPULSION, LOSS OF CONTROL, OR OTHER SYMPTOMS OF PSYCHOLOGICAL ATTACK IN RESPONSE.
BOSS UNLESS YOU'RE GOING TO HELP ME CAPTURE THIS THING I DON'T WANT YOU "HELPING" UNLESS THEY START ATTACKING. DO NOT COME OUTSIDE.
#life in darkwick: romeo#((i took sleepy pills which i haven't taken for a few days so hopefully tomorrow i won't feel avoidant of all the things i haven't been#((responding to. sorry about the delays! i may hold off on new tags for a little bit until i can get my tags and asks answered lol))#((anyway enjoy some silliness!))#((also romeo inadvertently being very discouraging to taiga haha))#((i wonder why they have this 'mutually pining idiots' relationship right now it's a mystery to us all))
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i'm going on exam season lockdown as of today, which means no more gifs/edits/anything else because i spend way too much time on them for an engineering student in the trenches lmao. posting this not because i think anybody will notice or care, but so i can hold myself accountable and get embarrassed if i break the pledge. see you on june 3rd for a ghovie creativity extravaganza
edit: besides the ghovie trailer 😭 i cant restrain myself from that one
#actually june 4th because i will be drinking on june 3rd from the moment i close my semiconductors paper#cold turkey on gif making KHBJDGVSCDH RIP#genuinely its such a relaxing thing to do that i find myself prioritising it#and unlike other chill activities it gives me the illusion of productivity#i really need to be getting that from my work and not silly bands#anyway. see u#also in my 4 years of making edits like this in many different circles i've never once felt the need to mention a like/reblog ratio#and i'm fully of the opinion that people can do whatever the hell they like and i never expect interaction#i'm grateful for what i do have#but what primarily motivates me to do this is people sharing their love for whatever is on the post#in the tags or elsewhere#i'm not talking praise or thanks or anything to me i mean 'i love this song' or 'papa looks great here' skdcvkdgvs#'this is my favourite band' u know? it's sharing passion with other people and having them share theirs with me#and in all the 4 years and many many fandoms this (ghost/st) is by far the worst for interaction like that#i'd say ghost especially skhjcsd#and this tag rant isn't a request or a 'please interact more!' or anything like that it's just#a reason as to why i'm a bit discouraged that i'm chatting about to nobody#oh yeah and especially seeing photos posted with no source and no edits get 5x the notes you'd get#the quantity of notes doesn't matter to me but the discussion and tags do#just checked my notes in the middle of typing this and someone rbed some papa ii gifs with#'hope he's steady on his feet the way i would run into him'#KDSGKDSD that's what i'm on about 😭😭😭😭😭#makes me smile knowing something i posted made somebody feel joy abt a silly band and then shared that with me through the tags#i'm aware i've been here for just over one month so shouldn't be making judgements just yet#but sometimes i wish there was more of that
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I feel like being mutuals means so much less than everyone makes it seem
You literally just follow each other, that's it
Most of my mutuals probably don't even remember who I am after I stopped drawing for them
Edit: the rant in the tags is more about being annoyed with people who tell me they like my art and follow me, but that's it, no art support at all
#the tags are gonna be a bit of a vent bc I think about this a lot#maybe it's because most of my mutuals only ever interacted with my post when it was art for them#I don't get notifications that they liked my art but they tell me they like seeing my art#I see them reblogging bigger artists than me and it's a little discouraging in a way#they talk big about my art on discord before following me for emphasis#but then they never liked any of it#they sometimes reblog my reblogs#but that's it#it just feels gross to me to act like you support and love someone's art so so much and they're “cool” to you#but then it stops at just words in a server#actions speak louder than words#I don't want to sound entitled or spoiled#I just feel a little deceived that they said they like my stuff but I get no evidence of that#ofc I love seeing my mutuals that do like my stuff more than anything#I do have regulars that do support me and I try to support them as much as I can#but I can't help but feel weird trying to support someone who doesn't even look at what I do as they talk about liking it#They don't need to say any of that but they do and it feels like lies#ofc this is all so whiny and I know it's so stupid#I'm probably going to delete this later#I just wanted to say it finally#vent#tw vent#vent tw#vent posting
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not my masc-looking ass getting into misgendering kink and expecting to feel desirable as a girl lol 💔
#idk it's just a bit hard to constantly run into posts that are for pre-op and pre-t dudes#like im neither. i like looking masc and i get assumed a cis guy regularly#but i also want a space where i can just fully indulge funny gender vibes/be girl and stuff#and it's like. idk. discouraging to see people thinking someone like me can't be the fakeboy in this scenario#feels rly stupid to say ngl lol but like my gender is more complex than the binary y'know#this is affirming in a way too! but a lot of the time it doesn't feel that way#bc im not a smooth twink with big naturals or whatever#sorry for ventingggg it probably won't happen again tho ❤️
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❛ starlustrance ❜ ✦ ad ﹔#stelaellustro · all my bygone wishes still dream.
#lumdam#sága#nox void kháos#stars#astronomy#art#illustration#aesthetic#drawing#twt is discouraging with algo but tmblr i feel a bit more comf with
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