#and i still love my mum

[solargeist]

i was thinking abt the tall roof grian has in his s10 bird house, and then thought abt it being a loft, and then thought abt xelqua living up there (his guest room)

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

my mum keeps responding to my covid precautions with “i get it, you’re not ready yet”. like no i just don’t do them anymore. i don’t really need to eat at restaurants or go to crowded places or be in public without an n95. i can watch the movie at home. i can get take out. an n95 is just uncomfortable sometimes but doesn’t stop me from doing anything. i love not getting sick

[aro-aizawa]

i like to think everyone has a colour associated with them, whether its just your fave colour or what you generally wear most of or what colour your bedroom walls are. i always associate the name sophie with dark blue, my mum is always a nice turquoise, i like to think my colour is a bright sunflower yellow.

if you have a specific shade pls tell me i adore when ppl have associated colours and tell me them, bc i think of them when i see that colour

[pharawee]

Joe, no matter whose body you're in, you're still you.

[thymelessink]

I'm nearly the last person to argue that RDJ!Holmes is a very faithful adaption (even though it's still more faithful than BBC and I won't argue on that either) but no other adaption was ever closer to portraying this sentence:

"I'm lost without my Boswell."

It's made very clear that Holmes is desperate to live with Watson and that he might go mad without him. We see a lot of Watsons depending on Holmes but not many Holmes depending on Watsons.

The adaption was also very good in showing the pain of Reichenbach Falls (even if only for a few seconds).

That scene really hurt. Especially after Moriarty reminds Holmes that he will find a painful end for Watson.

It's these two things that make this adaption still fairly dear to me, even if it lacks in many other regards. An adapation does a lot of things right as long as the relationship between Holmes and Watson is depicted as deep and loving.

[s0fter-sin]

ghost stares at the ceiling, chest heaving in a harsh pant; sweat ice on his clammy flesh and soaked into the sheet he restlessly kicks away.

ears still ringing, his fingertips blindly drift down to trail along his vivisection scar. he half-expects blood to smear in their wake. his own line of solomon, who ordered him split in twain; half of him given to a grieving mother and half left with the grieving to be.

just for both his broken halves to be rejected.

what did it make him that his mother grieved him more than she loved him? that she begged to be relieved of him more adamantly than she begged to receive him? why did his worth spill out with his drawn blood? why was his pain lesser than hers?

his hand flexes, digging into the raised scar like it’ll part beneath his fingertips to plunge into his mangled insides. no one knows the cruelty of reforming the halved; his name, his being, not nearly as important as his body when he was stripped from himself. no one knows the pain of healing and understanding losing pieces of yourself means losing your value along with them.

how many more pieces did he have to lose before he was halved once more? before his very presence incurred grief so strong it was better to be rid of him than cradle his bloodied remains?

did the infant fight himself? did he age always at odds with himself; his halves never truly whole? he hopes he wasn’t, that he was spared the loss of self; the fear that one may be welcomed over the other.

who will he lose when the inevitable comes? when he’s ripped apart again? simon? or ghost? is it better to be cursed with choice just like his mother or live with an aftermath chosen for him? does it matter if in the end, he convinces himself there was nothing of him left to lose?

his head lolls to the side and the wild buck of his chest slows. he watches johnny beside him, his face lax with the rare peace of sleep; his cheek squished against the pillow, his lips pursed as long breaths escape him.

johnny. soap. never torn asunder but two all the same.

he carefully reaches out and ghosts his fingers along the jagged scar on his chin. even in sleep, he presses into his bloodied touch. he’s never fled his half-flesh, never shies away from his gore as it spills unbidden from his cleaved torso. he holds on where his mother let him go; cups his stomach to hold his insides in place and never minds the blood that drips through his fingers.

simon will never let him become his own solomon and cannibalise himself. he will never let him question which half of him has more value; which pieces he can afford to lose before he’s cast aside.

ghost’s soap. simon’s johnny. his.

whole, in any incarnation.

[once-in-a-blue-moon-rising]

Rewatched s1e1 of Squid Game today, and was reminded that Gi-hun initially went into the games for Ga-yeong, and not for his mother. He went because she was moving to America, and his mum had said that when she did, Ga-yeong would forget all her Korean, and she and Gi-hun would become strangers who couldn't communicate. But, if he could prove he could support her, he might be able to get her back. Can you really live without her?

And this makes it so much more tragic that, post-victory, he literally couldn't bring himself to spend his money and go and live with her.

It's such a fascinating window into his character that even this, even his initial reason for entering the games, which would benefit not only him but his daughter too, he ultimately deemed to be less important than even the slimmest chance of stopping the games.

It is both breathtakingly selfless (his wants don't matter if he can't save people) and breathtakingly selfish at the same time (he'd rather take a chance on making a big change rather than take a smaller action that would definitely be positive) and LORD his characterisation is just absolutely impeccable.

Heart of gold x gambling addict my beloved.

[yakultii]

today went to a town where i spent a lot of my worst times in my sickest years and now my brain hurts plus seeing my current body made me want to end me felt like i was gonna vom but kinda over it now cos at least i bought this top and jorts and also 2 pairs of super soft comfy wide leg lounge pants yay

[lesbiancosmicowl]

something something thinking your mum's love is dependent on your good behaviour

[okkennymay]

It's been a very interesting year to say the least- those months still weren't 100% healthy but it was such a difference it was like living a different life, one not filled with constant dread and fear of the next monthly health episode.

It was unreal and I wish I'd made more use of of that time online while I had the chance, instead of being nervous of setting my body off and ruining a good thing going- but having past a new month my body completely imploding (only partially, which still sucks eggs), I can start to pick myself back up and keep going, hopeful once more! (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ)

To all of you who have watched fade in and out of existence since my return online, Thank you for always being so patient 💖 my god was my previous username ghost-chicky ironic as hell, s2g it would be more appropriate these days than anything 0w0"

[desastre-fag]

thinking about the years ive wasted putting medical/legal transition on hold in hopes my parents would come around to be there and support me for it just to not even be able to feel comfortable telling my dad im changing my name legally (soon!!!) and for my mum to say shes not gonna try to stop me but isnt actively supporting me. i waited for nothing and i dont think they'll ever change so i wish i didnt live with them but at the same time i dont have a job or a lot of friends so theyre kind of my only connections in life rn. something about your parents becoming weapons against you the moment you become something they werent hoping for.

[rosekasa]

creating for a fandom from teenage years to adulthood is so special because you can see where your subconscious was through the history of your works

[ambrosykim]

my rook is a mourn watcher necromancer and both endings would be such a good fit for her for different reasons. (read below!)

pros for lich emmrich:

the thought of her and their love being immortalised through him means so much to her (him remembering her for the rest of time…). she surrounds herself with skeletons (like her reanimated cat among others), so not only would she be comfortable with him being a lich she would also think it very hot. she has strong feelings on death, she usually wakes up and decides she would not die that day no matter what, so emmrich choosing to extend his life rather than live with the uncertainty is sg that she wholeheartedly supports. she wouldn't need to worry about being left alone after his death which helps with her abandonment issues and feeling like belonging to someone.

pros for human emmrich:

adalina has always felt abandoned by her parents (bc they left her at the necropolis, they clearly didn't want her), so having manfred as their son/ward would be so fulfilling for her (family unit…). having a joint coffin and tombstone would be the ultimate romance for her. she's that meme of dreamily sketching their joint tombstone. since emmrich would likely die before her, she dreams of being the one embalming him. she could then display his mummified body in her workshop/house, so he can still be a part of her everyday life until they're lowered in the ground together. she could detach one of his finger's digits and keep it with her whenever she's away from him.

[librosamarillos]

love the idea that Maegor is this creepy and unsettling kid ♥️

[isca-rambles]

Thanks for the tag @zadien and @midnight-canvas! Rules: without naming them, post a gif from ten of your favorite films and then tag ten people to do the same. (now to spend an hour trying to remember anything I like because the second someone asks, everything I've ever watched vanishes from my head)

(honestly so surprised there were even gifs of this one on here)

Special mention to the last two films here, which I have only watched a few of times (the last I've watched exactly twice and I'm not sure I can watch again) but are just utterly beautiful films. Devastating and very painful, the last especially so, but still beautifully done. Yes I know this isn't 10 I can't narrow anything down, especially when it comes to animated films. Had to exclude any animated Disney or I'd never be finished here. I'm already regretting some of the films I'm only now just remembering but this is a bit of a wider spread of my likes. Spent half an hour thinking of a single film and then I get to 10 and suddenly I remember ALL OF THEM! Anyway, tagging @silverskull, @moderatelydelusional, @sisterofficerlucychen, @chenfordsbee and whoever else wants to do it don't make me count again!

[louiisaa]

i miss the eras tour