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nobody understands how important catholic jason todd is to me
#and i mean as a current catholic#just because it resonates so hardddd#i have so many fucking thoughts about catholic jason todd :(#its so dear to me#for me religion is my own relationship with god and it has nothing to do with literally anyone else#trauma led me to my faith and i like to think it would jason#and also exploring jason as a queer catholic YES#urnghhhh#so many thoughts.... so many...#jason having daddy issues leading him to god the father#and him having mommy issues leading him to being a hardcore mother mary worshipper#we are the same!
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Got a little treat and tried on some dresses today ^-^
#photo diary#my post#it me#tomorrow i am spending time with my family wish me luck#and on sunday as well#my niece is having her confirmation so that means i had to find a church appropriate dress lol#the only dresses i currently own are ones i got for my last 2 birthdays and they are short little black dresses with hella cleavage lmao#not very church appropriate#and my niece said apparently the woman hosting the confirmation will kick out people not dressed appropriately š#fucking catholics
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I just discovered that in Roman Catholic Communion, gluten-free versions of the little crackers or bread aren't provided bc the Vatican has decided that it has to be wheat in order to be valid.
and while most people may just be able to have the wine or whatever and avoid the crackers, the priests have to have BOTH. even if they have fucking CELIAC'S.
which has resulted in the Church saying "maybe we shouldn't allow priests who can't have gluten and/or alcohol".
(which is ableist but I mean do we expect better from the Catholic Church)
I am so incredibly riled up over this and I'm not even Catholic.
#like. there are Issues with Catholic priests and I recognize that but also this is fucked up imo#as far as I'm concerned the bread or crackers aren't Jesus's flesh until something is done to them#what about wheat means only wheat counts as being Jesus's body???#also c'mon if one of the disciples had Celiac's Jesus would have given him gluten-free bread#and been like ''this is my body too here you go''#like Jesus was a considerate man#I think I'm riled up bc I am gluten-intolerant and currently on an elimination diet#so I'm just like. incredibly sensitive about dietary restriction issues rn#at least it's all right to be gluten-free in other Christian denominations#other Christian churches are like ''nah this bread is Jesus's flesh too even without the gluten''#speecher speaks
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First off, glad to see the DDDNE poll picking up speed in circles beyond my own.
Second, absolutely fascinated by the sheer variety of the nuanced explanations. (Idk what I expected, on this, the āmy opinion is slightly different from everyone elseāsā website.)
Third, Iām surprised and a little unsettled by the implied judgment in so many of the replies. Again, idk what I expected. Caveat that Iām both a linguist and a person from the USA, so sometimes my descriptivist training is at war with my stubborn āwords mean SPECIFIC THINGSā mentality.
Fourth, all signs so far point to the fact that the broad misunderstanding that the primary purpose of the tag is āto indicate a lack of in-text moral condemnationā comes STRAIGHT from the first paragraph of the Fanlore article as it appeared from mid-2020 to literally this week. (When I bumped the info about the conflicting meanings up into the bit that shows above the infobox on mobile.) I feel Some Kind Of Way about that, as it underlines how seriously we should take our Fanlore edits, as well as how few people actually read the whole dang article.
Fourth and a half, I can only find TWO sources (tweets) from before the mid-2020 Fanlore edit that indicate the speaker believes the most important aspect of the DDDNE tag is that it deals with āproblematicā or āmorally questionableā topics without condemning them in-text.
Fifth, I completely understand why that Fanlore editor framed it that way (it is a rephrasing of Mostlyvalidās original statement, after all) but seeing hundreds of tweets quote the statement verbatim without seeming to understand THE REST OF THE ARTICLE is alarming. And, imo, this phrase āmorally reprehensibleā has unintentionally contributed to the vitriol aimed at people who write fics tagged with DDDNE.
Sixth, the point, to me, is that the fic tagged with DDDNE may or may not explicitly address in-text the fact that its contents are (or could be considered) unpleasant, uncomfortable, disturbing, extreme, inappropriate, illegal, intense, āproblematicā, immoral, or taboo. The tag serves as a piece of metadata to send up a flag (outside the context of the story itself) that the reader should carefully consider if they want to read a story where the contents (whatever they may be) might be presented as something other than what they would be in reality. It does not mean the fic DEFINITELY āglorifies violenceā or āromanticizes necrophiliaā or whatever phrase the kids are using these days. (Which is what the fanlore statement about āmorally reprehensibleā implies, imo.) All it means is that the fic might not have a flashing sign saying āhey this is badā, so you-the-reader need to exercise your critical thinking skills and decide for yourself whether to read it at all, and whether the actions in the fic are something you should emulate in your daily life. Which, honestly, you should be using your critical thinking skills to assess this for every fic you read, regardless of the tags.
Finally, DDDNE is just the fic equivalent of the safety pop up on websites and applications saying āhey, did you really mean to do this? Are you fully aware of the consequences of sending this data packet to the server like this? Did you know you misspelled your own name? Are you sure you meant to type Wasingtn and not Washington? Do you understand what you are agreeing to? Did you read the tags so you know what to expect? You have unsaved changes, do you wish to exit without saving?ā
By opening a fic tagged DDDNE, you are saying: āI, the reader, understand that this fic tagged X (a thing most people would not want to be jumpscared by) will contain X, and the treatment of X may or may not be subverted, glossed over, or otherwise toned down to a skippable cutscene. I agree that this is a thing I want to read.ā
Itās hard to boil that down to a pithy statement that appears in the broad-strokes intro of a wiki article!!!!!!
#an aurora original#aurora is back on her bullshit#this is very rambly because I am currently waiting for my adhd meds to hit my system#how many tags before it no longer appears in the tag listing broadly?#fanlore#idk I also admit being Roman Catholic is influencing this#which sounds silly!!!#but tbh only god can judge so like#kinktomato my dudes#i donāt have a problem with it#if god does then heāll take it up with you in the afterlife#dead dove#DID YOU KNOW definitions are nuanced?#words and their meanings are context-dependent?#shades of meaning exist?#and yet#a fic tagged CNTW and DDDNE and nothing else screams WRONG to me#iām not perfect lmao#roryās dead dove poll
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I made a song recently (I actually mostly worked on it at night) The lyrics used to be darker before I had to tone it down haha
#music#electronic music#depression#mental health#indie music#independent music#I like to use religious imagery and metaphor the same way some jrpgs use latin to sound epic#like Sephiroth#by which i mean like the depth exists beyond my current understanding and ultimately it is mostly cus it sounds poetic#i mean maybe going to catholic sunday school during childhood also influenced my relationship with the concept of God and sin idk#Bandcamp
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the way that i am such staunchly atheist and actively anti-christian and yet i always find myself working for christians
By that i dont mean that my boss at some office will happen to be christian
I mean that i keep finding myself working for straight-up churches and christian organizations UVFJKVKJ
#in other news a receptionist job i just applied to is for a catholic school board#and its one i actually feel good about getting an interview for#listen theres. a certain amount of desperation that makes everyone turn to things they otherwise wouldnt#and my current job has become hostile enough that i will take it if it just means ill get out of this#better pay better benefits and a regular schedule sounds good enough to me#preach all you want at me ill take that trade off#its gotta be better than here#shut up dames
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i hate the catholic church genuinely fuck off
#āin certain circumstances we will allow trans people to be baptizedā#wonder what the circumstances are#also i love u if ur trans i am sorry but just dont fuck with the catholic church#u can find other faiths that will not hate u by default#i promise#they still completely oppose same sex marriage#and its just the current pope who is kind of progressive#the vatican is still deeply bigoted and once hes dead theyre gonna go right back to being as exclusive as possible#dont fall for their shit#my number one enemy is the catholic church sorry#it has completely destroyed multiple lives of my family members and friends#so i get to be mean#i lost my cousin who was my best friend to the church#like we do not speak at all anymore#and i grew up hating myself#bc of the church#OKAY WHATEVER just find a different faith thats all im saying
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#hey guys Iām about to go to work but Iāve seen so many lovely tag comments on my harp covers#I saw one saying āhow do you even end up in a position to be able to learn a harp!ā#and I wanted to reiterate. the classical music world is incredibly steeped in classism and racism. itās inherent#because most music is written by ethnic Europeans and stems from the origins of western music which is the Catholic Church#it was a major tool in colonialism and itās adoption as a means to validity in a white supremecist system can be seen echoing in Chinaās#current fascination with western orchestral music. but theyāre also subverting it by reimagining their own instruments in the orchestra#anyways thatās a rabbit trail but what Iām saying is#for some reason I asked to play the harp when I was three. my parents were working class and non musicians. my dad is Mexican. we used to#barter lessons for yard work and painting (thankfully my harp teacher was a wonderful woman who allowed that)#my dad took out a home equity loan to afford my first large harp#I got the one you see in the vids because a close friend of my teacher was dying of cancer and sold it at a loss to me#this is a field with SO many barriers#every single person I went to grad school with had money out their ears#I have a heap of student loans and currently no permanent harp job#I guess Iām saying. I wish access to instruments like mine was easier for everyone but itās rare because itās gatekept#so just keep that in mind. you could just have easily have been a harpist if the world were more equitable and fair#Iām always open to people reaching out and asking questions about the instrument and music in general#love u guys
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okay hi hello i'm here. school is tearing me apart and i feel like crying every single day but i am Here.
for context: something i discovered recently is the fact that i really do have some fixation on mythology that allows me to sorta.. vent my frustrations with religion. i grew up seventh-day adventist (just another one of the millions of christian denominations) and one of the biggest things that freaked me out as a kid was the fact that i had to fear god. i was supposed to have unending love and faith that this god was going to handle things on his own time -- that didn't bother me at the time. (it does now, though.) but what bothered me -- what terrified me -- was the fact that one wrong step or even one wrong thought could potentially damn me to hell.
and like... how fucked up is that, right? god punishes you for minor intrusive thoughts, works on his own time -- like fuck you and your needs and deadlines, god will get it done when he feels like it -- and any outcome is part of his plan? are you being fr? a close family friend lost her daughter in a freak accident two years ago. that woman was so devout; every other sentence was something about praising god. and her daughter was just like her mother. but she's just... gone. and you're telling me that was part of his plan? if god were as benevolent and gracious as you say he is, why isn't he doing anything to stop, oh i don't know, literally anything bad from happening.
so... that's the basis of this world, i suppose. let me explain:
the titans (yes, this is primarily greek mythology) created the world and mankind, but couldn't directly teach these humans what they needed to know to survive because their brilliance would overwhelm a human. so each titan consulted rhea, who is the mother of most of the olympian pantheon, to create messengers (or divine proxies) to teach the humans everything they needed to know. these divine proxies were simply the titans in a watered down divine form that mortals could tolerate and communicate with. but the proxies gained independence through faith. because the humans could only trust the divine beings that they could see and request help from, they began to worship these divine proxies (rhea's creations).
i like to think of faith as a power source for the divine. the titans don't necessarily need faith to sustain themselves and retain their divinity as they're fashioned out of pure cosmic energy. their power is infinite and eternal. but these divine proxies (henceforth called the pantheon) rely on faith to maintain their hold on mortals. without faith, worship, and devotion, they will inevitably wither away and die, or, if it's a minor niche deity, be absorbed into a larger deity's power.
and this is because in the real world, can god punish you for anything if you have no faith in him? not that you disparage him necessarily, but if you legitimately don't care/have never been introduced to god, how much hold can he really have on your life? all that "the end is nigh!" shit that doomer christians spew really doesn't concern you -- climate change does. i suppose this is a very epicurean take on things, but you get what i'm trying to say.
so anyways, the titanomachy occurs because the pantheon attempts to usurp the power of their creators. the titans can't really fight back without causing destruction on a cosmic level (i.e., wiping out every mortal in existence or changing the course of the stars), so they really have no choice but to sacrifice as much power as the pantheon can feasibly handle. after all, the pantheon is strengthened by the human's belief in their abilities. plus, like i mentioned earlier, the humans have no reason to believe that the gods of the pantheon aren't their real makers -- the titans could never interact with them without harming them, remember?
but as years, millienia, eons go by, the titans' abilities have decreased just enough for them to start using mortals as their proxies. as in, they choose a mortal who has the appropriate amount of energy to either withstand direct communication from the titan themself or house the titan's consciousness for a brief period to deliver messages or complete tasks. and because these mortal proxies exist, now the mortals have reason to believe that their true creators aren't the gods of the pantheon, but these cosmic beings who virtually exist on another plane.
so the world is split into different beliefs, basically. cults that revere the titans and churches that worship the gods.
(fun fact: the avrigian empire's imperial family actually have divine blood, as the god of the sun chooses a partner once every set number of years to maintain his hold on the people's faith. the xedian queendom, on the other hand, allows for the titan goddess of the moon to speak through the sitting ruler whenever she is summoned, allowing the ruler to be a titan's proxy and have the blessing of longevity, amongst other gifts. the two nations's primary source of conflict is religious, as xedians revere the titans while the avrigians revere the sitting pantheon.)
but, regardless of who you worship, neither divine being is willing to assist with the affliction. this affliction is essentially divine rage made into a physical miasma that poisons and kills any mortal being it comes into contact with. in its final stages, it blackens the appendages and kills someone. thaumaturges are meant to cleanse this by absorbing this divine hatred into their own bodies, cleansing it internally, and releasing the excess energy back into the world. however, if the affliction has progressed to the stage of limb darkening, the afflicted patient is likely beyond the point of saving. at that point, the disease must be cleansed lest the patient be revived by this otherworldly hatred and go on a rampage.
and i may or may not have a main antagonist who weaponizes this affliction to create an undead army and conduct human experiments on his wife and children first, then form a cult based on this. to him, the gods will never be happy, and the affliction is proof of that. they will forever maintain this rage, this hatred that poisons life -- wipes out entire ecosystems -- only for mortals to be the ones who are forced to suffer in their attempts to fix it. no amount of worship will save the mortals. your gods, titans, whoever you pray to will never listen. they want you dead. the point is to cause enough non-believers (or basically just kill enough people) to wipe out a major god of the pantheon. he and his supporters destabilize religious villages and revel in the destruction and death it causes with no regard for who it affects, man or god.
this cult is drawn to negativity, as they follow the stench of hatred. they try to infiltrate communities to incite violence amongst the people, inflict them with the scourge (the aforementioned affliction) and continue on the warpath of destruction. the goal is to cause the two biggest nations who have a long history of colonization and war (the avrigian empire and the xedian queendom) to go to war once more, as that could most certainly spell out doom for the entire world.
whew. i'm ngl, some of the stuff that i mentioned wasn't actually ever written down. revisions come to mind as i type, so i'm gonna be revising my notes once i finish my assigned reading for the day. (and start drafting a paper since it's due friday...)
#[ š ā thoughts. ]#š¦« anon#goodness gravy#but do you see what i mean when this is a very epicurean take#like the gods both in polytheistic/pagan times and the christian/catholic god has always been really... hostile#like you go to hell for killing yourself. which is why i think people think so poorly of those with depression and suicidal ideation#bc that's NOT selfish and it's not fair that you should be punished after death when you've had to suffer so much in life#i'm going on a tangent#(i'm reading dante's inferno rn and i'm currently on the seventh circle of hell in the second ring where suicide victims are punished lol)#my POINT is#how much stake can the gods/god have if you just stop caring#or if you decide to take matters into your own hands#if you stop relying so much on a faith that ends in hellfire with so much as a slight misstep#if you stop FEARING someone who allegedly is supposed to protect you and trust YOURSELF#what happens then?
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Oh this is fun because I was just reading about Sedevacantism and the Palmerian Church just the other week, and now I see this on my dash?
And I love how this started with "the church is cruelly trying to stifle these poor nuns so they can capitalism them :(" and then does a handbreak turn into "wait, no, actually the nuns have been infiltrated by a heretic cult who reject Vatican II and all subsequent Popes, and are currently committing several types of crime". Gotta respect the absolute balls of 1: accusing the Church of basically doing the entire thing they were trying to do and 2: trying to sue the Church for ā¬1.3M damages, because...the nuns couldn't pay the Church ā¬1.2M?? Like what even is the logic there?
And having an unordained bartender playing priest dressup as their public spokesman? And in PR shots? Absolutely wild. Like, I don't know if that's technically heresy but it can't be far off if it isn't.
(Why was I reading about Sedevacantism you ask? Why, for a stupid idea for a Lovecraftian short story I sent a friend on whatsapp, obviously...look, I just needed an example of a Catholic schismatic group that still used the Latin Mass, ok?)
Wait, some nuns of the order of St. Claire in OrduƱa have been asking the bishop for a licence to sell their pastries at the Derio monastery for 10 years, to no avail.
And they're so fed up they have officially rejected the Pope, archbishops, and bishops, and are now creating a schism inside their order because they're gonna sell those fucking pastries whether they like it or not.
WTF is this fantasy!!!!!
#religion#christianity#catholiscism#anyway so for those who can't be arse clicking the wiki link: Sedevacantism means something like ''vacant seat''#specifically that the seat of Pope is currently vacant because everything since uuuuh Pius the something? who started Vatican II#isn't *really* the Pope because no *real* Pope would have agreed to those reforms#so like TradCath Extreme Heretical Mint flavour#and the thing is what they're doing really is crimes because even if you don't like the Catholic Church (extremely valid)#they very much do own that convent and its purpose is to house Catholic nuns#if you decide to leave the church you don't just like get to keep living there and inherit the building#because you are no longer Catholic nuns - you don't get to live in the Catholic Nun House#but it's interesting because from the viewpoint of their heresy cult though that's not the case#they didn't leave the Catholic church - it left them#they're still the True Catholics and therefore have every right to the convent while the Church are the heretics who left it#also lol didn't know the Palmerian Church had its own schismatic cult out there#not surprising since I only heard about them last week or something
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LETS DO THIS YOU FUCKING GENTILE! ššš
They really think they did something there. And then, a 5 page rant on ancient history! Settler-colonialism is about the way the state dispossesses the people on the land it wants. It has nothing to do with who had the original claim! Don't apologize to this bully XD
But what if I wanna š„ŗ šš
#nah but i get what you mean#i just prefer to be clear af about my position so it's really hard not to correct someone who's misrepresenting my views so drastically x)#alas#also i agree with the original claim thing. i don't think any amount of prior persecution can justify the current persecution of others#never again means never again for anyone#and it was very... interesting? to see gentile used as a vehement insult? culty 1600s-catholic aesthetics 2/10 not sure i'd recommend#i am a heathen tho tis true āØ
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Reading Dan Brownās Angels and Demons rn, Iām pretty sure this guy did no research
#The current Catholic image of God the father as an old guy with a long flowing white beard comes fromā¦Zeus??????#what?#no#i mean yeah heās got a beard but heās generally depicted as young and his beard is not that long#at least from what iāve seen of images of him from antiquity#also cursory glance at wikipedia tells me that a) god wasnāt depicted until sometime around the italian renaissance#so after catholocism had been firmly established in europe#and b) the depiction is based off a verse in the bible#and yeah itās a fictional book it has no obligation to be based in fact#but come on here#also add the illuminati to conspiracies that turn out to be anti-semetic#boy this novel#like yeah it is kinda fun ridiculous fluff#but man you have to overlook a lot#book tag#personal
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#also when i was digging around genealogy earlier for that poll i came across the church my matrilineal great grandma was a matron/deacon at#and apparently at least their current congregation seems fairly decent? like having the progress flag as a ring around their logo#and frontpage 'all are welcome means all'? which is kinda super surprising tbh given how staunchly conservative grandma and uncle are#like they'll literally go on about how they're 'losing the culture war' and voted trump bc 'he's unchristian but we need the scotus spots#to repeal roe v wade'#but they've also long since left that congregation or even denomination tbf lol grandma i think is now Baptist and uncle Catholic#but yeah. interesting.
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narrows eyes. hwait a minute. relistening to stella spendens midnightburger... and the tenor/bass choir in the background of terric telling clementine about alchemy...... is NOT period accurate
#fucking CAUGHT u in my trap of 'i am currently taking music history class'#I HEAR COMPLEX CHORALE-STYLE FOUR-PART WRITING THEY DID NOT HAVE THAT YET IN THE 14TH CENTURY.#NICE TRY BUT EVEN SECULAR MUSIC DIDNT DO ANYTHING LIKE THAT STYLE OF POLYPHONY AT THIS POINT IN HISTORY#they didnt GIVE A SHIT ABOUT CHORDS YET#also this is for sure in minor by which i mean the aeolian mode. They didnt have that either at least not in the church#even if its catholics (as opposed to like protestants or whatever who literally banned instruments from church) who actually did like#stuff that wasnt just like the most basic shit on the planet. even for them this is just straight up too advanced#anyway im not actually nitpicking its just interesting and i have aoutism.#ari opinion hour
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filled this out the other day for these two cause idk felt like it. I referred to them as just friends with benefits but theyre in a weird spot where they might actually be dating but no ones sure not even them. I think maybe i don't work with these sorts of templates cause I feel the need to explain a lot i'm very prone to infodumping about my ocs
#i dont feel like tagging this since its just a template thing#allen's one day relationship was because he dated a guy and the next day found out the guy had just been broken up with#and allen was basically just a rebound#they both wanna date people but due to issues just have currently been avoidant of dating#so they basically just have each other to be intimate with#allen's dated a few people some of whom were friends and they couldnt go back to being friends after dating#errol grew up a pretty repressed catholic#errol avoids his family as much as possible but never really officially cut them off#the kind to just be like āoh i cant come over im busy that dayā when he's really not#allen's parents are homophobic but atheist his dad being very anti-religion#his dads belief is that gay people are mentally unwell and need to be fixed and that gay animals is just cause animals are stupid#and we're not animals so it doesnt even matter. kind of guy who tried to make his son play football as a kid so he wouldnt end up gay#and then sent him to military school#allen's mom is one of those ''im fine with gay people but why cant they do that in private i dont wanna see it''#allen has very much cut them off#also it should be noted for allen he doesnt feel awkward but a lot of conversations with him feel awkward because of just how he is#also the overprotective and chill going i was kinda ?#like when i say protective in a friend sense but i think maybe thats not what i mean#like if someones being ableist towards errol would absolutely jump in to defend him#via arguing/insulting/physical fighting#also for the pda i dont see allen being a super pda person in general (which is probably part of why his some of his relationships dont las#i think he does want to do pda but struggles with it cause of trauma i think he struggles with being emotionally stunted#and errol definitely does like playful jokey pda but anything more serious and he starts getting too flustered and shutting down#typing all this after saying im prone to infodumping#jack was right they should rediagnose me for free
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@ everyone in the notes talking about the origins of various holidaysāmy siblings in christ, you are missing the point. i donāt care where the holidays came from, I will be celebrating all of my cultureās holidays for Jesus
listen I donāt think easter was a pagan holiday but if it was then like, so what?? itās christian now?? letās do halloween next
#i know halloween came from a catholic holiday#that doesnāt change the fact that I was told as a kid that I couldnāt go trick or treating because it was satanic#i am reacting to that philosophy hdsljd#you can talk about holiday origins all you want but I didnāt forget about them I just donāt care I donāt think itās relevant at this point#itās like the etymological fallacy in defining a word#where the word came from does not control how it is used in current speechāand assuming that it does will mess up your dictionary#anyway donāt mean to yuck anybodyās yum carry on the discussion in the notes if you so desire#just felt like clarifying since some people seemed to be confused#cw christ#halloween#hey! griffin!
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