#and i know it wouldnt have bothered me at all
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umm what if we were sisters and we lived together and one day i got back from work and i was really exhausted (true story) and i was sleeping naked on my bed with the door open and you kept walking by and looking at my cunt, which just so happens to be perfectly presented for you, and at first you scold yourself for looking because thats your sister, but
eventually the blood rushes from your head to your cock and you falter a bit. "its not that big of a deal im just looking im not doing anything. is it really so bad that im turned on by seeing someone naked i mean cmon" i mean im sure lots of sisters have weird feelings about each other, you just dont talk about it, right? i mean seriously its not that big of a deal if you go in just to look. its fine. and honestly im not even awake so you can probably touch it too, i wont notice so no harm done. if i wake up you can just run out of the room and i wont even know. and if i dont even know you were touching me then who cares. i probably wouldnt notice if you slipped your shorts down and laid next to me, either. i mean i havent woken up so it mustve been a really long day, you could probably put a finger in me and i'd still be out cold. im getting all wet, so i probably like it. so really its not that bad or anything like seriously is it unethical if im obviously getting wet? if my cunt is dripping its probably because it needs to be fucked. well you cant go that far, thats just rape plain and simple, but if you rub your cock on me then its not really that bad. my body is literally asking you for it. just rub the head of your cock through the folds of my cunt, its probably fine. it feels really good and i'd want you to be happy right? so its fine. just keep grinding on me. im so warm and slick. if the tip slips in its not because you wanted it, if anything its my fault because im so damn wet. and if your cock is in me and im still not awake, then it must not bother me that much. so you should just keep going. dont go deeper than the tip, but stroke yourself while youre inside of your sisters cunt. stroke yourself and think of what a nasty big sis you are. you made so many excuses for yourself, but at the end of the day you're a pervert. you know it. you wanted to fuck your own sister, you freak. go on, moan while you feel how wet your sisters cunt is around the head of your cock. i cant believe youre actually doing this, this is so bad. this is so so bad. if anyone found out you'd be fucked. how do you think i'd feel if i woke up and saw you rutting into me like this? do you think i'd pretend im still asleep until you stop? do you think i'd ask you to fuck me? would i cry because my own sister defiled me? or would i push my hips back onto you? if i tried to protest would you come to your senses and stop or would you shove a sock in my mouth and tell me to take it? you've made it this far, you might as well push your whole length into me and spill your cum inside. let it all out.
#this is just a love letter to amos#long post#t4t nsft#trans nsft#t4t ns/fw#butch nsft#lesbian nsft#butch4butch#t4t#nsft kink#fauxc3st#fauxcest#cnc somno#cnc k!nk#cnc free use#somno k!nk#somno breeding#t4t siscon#siscon#1cky sister#lesbian ns/fw#butch lesbian#t4t sibcest#sibcon#big sis lil sis#t4t somno#t4t cnc
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So is Mountain allowed to get a little rough with Zephyr or is he too much of a good boy for that.........
for the most part, mountain is a very good boy for zephyr. always following their instructions, their guidance.
but imagine for me, if you will.
zephyr is really gettin' it this ritual. really laying on the wiggles and flourishing hand motions thick. mountain loves those, always. they all do.
but then we reach the cirice keytar solo.
zephyr is feelin' themselves. like. really feelin' it. and mountain cannot take his eyes off of them. the back of their hand on the neck of the keytar. the way their back arches, just a little. the way they roll their neck, casting him a sidelong glance.
mountain can see in their eyes through the mask that they're doing it for him.
mountain's blood starts to run hot. and stays hot throughout the entire rest of the show.
the earth ghoul corners zephyr after the show, pushing them into some alcove around the corner from the green room, just out of sight but certainly not private.
very forward of you, pet, zephyr smirks. what's got you so bothered, hm?
you know exactly what. mountain growls it against their sweaty neck feathers, masks discarded somewhere, teeth threatening to grow to their full sharpness. he's pressing his body fully against theirs, pinning them in place against the dirty hallway wall.
oh, do i? zephyr still has composure. mountain certainly wouldnt in their position.
uh huh. teasing me. showing off. mountain's hard against them, cock tenting out the bottom of his tunic, the wide head of it pressing right against the lowest part of zephyr's stomach. couldn't wait to get my hands on you.
zephyr just hums and arches into him. encouraging (they know exactly what they're doing). they reach a hand down between them, cradling mountain's cock through his clothes. and what will you do now that you have me?
mountain just groans. reaches under his tunic and his belt and pulls out his cock. then pulls at the snaps of zephyr's belt until they release, sash falling around their ankles. he rucks up their shirt, clutching it in one hand and maneuvering their pants slightly down with the other.
you wanted this, mountain growls, spotting the little lacy trim of the underwear zephyr apparently decided to wear this evening. his favorite pair on them. he can't start jerking off fast enough, shoving the head of his cock past that waistband and leaking inside. gonna give it to you.
yeah? zephyr's a little breathless now, twitching in interest as mountain's cock continues to brush against the base of theirs. tickling those downy feathers. show me what i do to you.
mountain makes the most gut-punched noise, latching onto the delicate skin underneath their jaw and forcing their head to thump against the wall with a gasp. it only takes a few moments before mountain is spilling inside of zephyr's underwear, groaning into their ear take it, take it. shaking out every last drop inside and patching them back up before putting himself back together.
you're mine later.
and honestly? zephyr can only gawk at him as he walks away.
#the band ghost#the band ghost fanfic#mountain ghoul#nameless ghouls#zephyr ghoul#mountain/zephyr#nameless ghoul fanfic#zephyr/mountain#>:)#crow caws#crow rambles#crow writes
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BTW if you haven't already please take a minute to look up what venomous snakes are local to you and familiarize yourself with them
#i joined a local snake ID group recently#before that i knew roughly how to spot a pit viper and hownto tell a coral from a scarlet snake#but i didnt really know how to identify specific species other than copperheads#and now im very confident in my ability to tell water snakes from cottonmouths etc#and it gives really nice peace of mind#like. ive seen so many people here in the us south that will freak out of Any snake#my mom once was yelling and crying trying to get help over a kingsnake on the sidewalk cuz she didnt know if it could kill the dogs#and people will kill snakes if they dont know [and often will anyway but knowing helps foster appreciation]#and now i can see a snake and say thats a coachwhip. isnt it pretty. and will gently grab the back end to look at it for just a second more#before letting it go hide#idk. i saw a rattlesnake in the woods today#and its the first time seeing one in the wild like that. and yea it was scary tbh#and i got a pic but booked it out once it noticed me and reacted#but i wish i had stopped and watched it longer cuz it was super pretty#and i know it wouldnt have bothered me at all#im just glad that we've seen two big full sized diamondbacks here in the past few months. and i know theyre two individuals#because eastern diamondbacks are declining and its good to know theres a population here#idk. im getting sentimental over snakes i just love them#but my main point is its so easy to indentify snakes at least where im at#and learning to id them comes with learning to respect them
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itll be alright
#it actually wont#💔#but hes just a baby. and she is his everything#the 3rd ep hurt me.....#but also thinking about how during the earlier times on the ark when he was much much younger#maria would be the only solace he would have#between the scientists treating him like a test and subjecting him to painful experiments just because he cant die#and the scorn of anyone else#the only place he can find warmth and love is in her light#shadow confused and lost not knowing his purpose well yet as hes forced to face all of it. like a scared animal#i know gerald would be decent to him but its never going to be more than firm kindness that wont ever take priority over his responsibility#they gave him his rings but in the early days they probably wouldnt be bothered to dress him and just let him go from the lab as is#hes doing it all for her but hes just small#god#im feeling a lot#shadow the hedgehog#maria robotnik#my art#shadria#not romantic in this case. just his most important person. taisetsuna hito. etc. they need to make a tag for them pls
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I said this in a whole reblog, but just copy-pasting to a separate post because I think it'll give some reading comprehension and reblogs don't show up in the search feature.. again, I'm reiterating what I said in another post.
Go check out @demidokuriya 's post for this; OP's post made me put this all down in like. 20 minutes. Mind went vroom vroom cuz HEY THEY'RE ONTO SOMETHING.
(They also reblogged the post with some hint to some behind the scenes of what led to the ideas if you wanna check that out)
Look below at how, when Mineta told AFO to spare Tokoyami, AFO specifically went "..."
He remembers Jirou and thinks, The braying howls of the weak...
He was going to take Tokoyami's Quirk. He took Hawks'. But after Mineta pleaded with him, AFO just straight-up left and didn't take anyone else's Quirk.
AFO saw Yoichi in Mineta.
These scenes are near-identical to each other.
Mineta and Yoichi (at that time) are both much smaller than the normal person at their age
They're both hurt, yet dragged themselves up from the ground to throw something at AFO, to get his attention and make their voice
Both are considered weak, even if they have a Quirk (Mineta's Pop-Off and Yoichi's undeveloped Factor)
The fact that Yoichi got AFO's attention here by throwing a can at him, while Mineta got his attention by throwing a Pop-Off ball; and it stuck.
Mineta's call for his attention landed and actually stuck to AFO. This is unlike when Yoichi and his can bounced off, and AFO kicked him, not listening to him; AFO listened to Mineta and left Tokoyami alone, technically doing what Mineta wanted—to not hurt this person.
AFO just went on to hurt more people away from Mineta's [Yoichi's] eyes so the small weakling wouldn't see.
Yoichi and Mineta both cried to AFO to not hurt in his ways, when AFO was intent on stealing people's Quirks
AFO even stole Hawks' Quirk during this time.
He had time to steal Hawks' Quirk, and though he could've tossed him to the side, he let Hawks stand in his way.
He had the energy. Right after this event, he flew off and left the scene. But he didn't go for Tokoyami immediately.
And this let Mineta play his part, and remind AFO of Yoichi.
"A putrid, festering Quirk Factor."
That sounds like Yoichi, AFO.
".. such garbage."
Hey hey hey, what did Yoichi throw at him when they were kids?
A discarded can. Garbage.
This chapter (385) where AFO listens to Mineta is literally called [A Youthful Urge].
Mineta told AFO to take his Pop-Off (hurt him) instead. But last time, AFO hurt Yoichi by kicking him; this time, AFO not only listened to Mineta to not hurt Tokoyami, but didn't touch Mineta at all.
Even though this time, Mineta [Yoichi] offered to take that place of suffering.
Yoichi didn't do that back then. AFO just turned on little Yoichi anyway.
Yoichi through his whole existence is literally [the braying howls of the weak]. AFO acknowledges he's weak and idealistic, yet he still loves him.
Side note about this panel, I think it's interesting that in this vision, this was the first time we saw Yoichi's eyes: when he was being defiant, despite being pushed down by someone much stronger than him.
Really characteristic of him, honestly. Yoichi's soft-spoken and frail, but it's always reiterated that Yoichi had a powerful will against his stronger big brother.
Mineta at this moment reminded him too much of Yoichi, because the two scenes are near-identical to each other. Parallels, really.
Reiterating something from OP's post that I reblogged this from;
"The reminder of his brother made him uncomfortable, so he hurried away."
AFO didn't want to hurt Yoichi again.
#i really dont mean to steal the post from op this fandoms reading comprehension just bothers me#cuz i see too many takes being that horikoshi is an IDIOT who DOESNT KNOW WHAT HES DOING and RUINED A GREAT STORY#and this should only be FEEL-GOOD-#ahahahaha NO.#horikoshi is a genius and him labeling the manga as shounen attributes to a worse-level-of-understanding from the audience#reblog#technically#mha#bnha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#yoichi shigaraki#minoru mineta#afo#all for one#ofa#one for all#spoilers#the reason i started posting bnha stuff was to add some of my own reading comprehension#horikoshi is really smart honestly#poor yoichi AFO saw him in mineta#minetas supposed to be likeable but hes creepy toward girls#but if mineta were tall and nothing else changed i bet some people would like him romantically#reblogs dont show unless its from someone you follow or in the fyp page and i go to the chapters of rewound afo a lot#cuz. cough. hes hot. why#hes an ugly baby and more western or greek(?)-looking as a grown man but between those ages? hes hot and looks like yoichi#im sorry im not trying to hijack anything i swear#im not very smart but i like psychoanalysis and foreshadowing#this was just my reblog adding onto what op said. check the og post for more context#i wouldnt have thought about this on my own. originally thought AFO sparing tokoyami was just for the series fans
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the bad: i have been raised without much warmth from my parents in childhood, but also pressured to conform to familial authority, doubt myself always, and value familial connections above all else (<- failed at this, and feel guilt about it.)
but also in experiencing this i have been so isolated from the entire rest of the world and others, that it will be nearly impossible to create my own "family" -> find safety and comfort in anybody else once my family is Gone. despite dis i find it really difficult to break away from the familiar, disobey and disappoint, because, well, why are my wishes more important than anybody else's. why would I cause upset and distress in anybody, and exert so much effort into my doubt filled half decisions, for my meaningless little Wishes. being away would also mean less time with these people who I'll never see again once they're gone. being raised this way is definitely paying off for those who did so.
the good: yaaaay adjacent inspiration for writing talon lore
#talkys#my dad scaring me but also giving me no advice on what to do instead only saying if i do this it will be the wrong choice leading#to more wrong choices well yep you got me i am scared. i am inept. i fear regret and punishment for wrong decisions.#i struggle to make decisions because i cant go back on them.#''ill never have savings again'' and ''you cant value friends over family they'll abandon you''#and ''living here is only a problem for you because you dont communicate. there is a way to work things out''#i wish i could work it out and stay i dont know why i cant work it out ! and what do i want#to leave so badly for... to continue to never have stable housing#never have savings again? be alone and in danger?#to be able to wear whatever i want and...buy things? really? that doesnt seem very worth it#nothing seems very worth it#im miserable here but maybe i'd be more miserable away...it is true#well at least the chances to leave are very slim. and will continue to get slimmer the more time passes.#but maybe its fine i dont want to ruin my life or be even more of a burden or reason for distress in someone else's#moving out wouldnt fix anything. wherever you go there you are.#my friend said i have to be a little selfish (positive) to push myself to leave. bt i dont want to be selfish. im ashamed of that as a trai#delete later#even now i feel immense guilt and stress when my dad does things that hurt or bother me bc i know ill miss him when he's gone.#(and ill have nobody after all of that. due to the being kept in a cage)#that sucks. why does everyone else always win. why am i always the weakest pliable one. i wish i had no emotions#my surgery is the only decision in my life ive been 100% sure on for years#and even then my parent's words had me crying and rapidly changing emotions daily until the day came#im not strong enough or sure enough about anything else to withstand More of that#<- and i know that tomorrow im gonna be like actually you know what who cares lets try to leave#and the next day ill be resigned to staying here forever#and the next day ill be like actually you know what who cares l
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Seeing allot of trans stuff lately. I don't do this but obviously trans people and all people of LGBTQ+ are welcome here!! If you are a terf or sick mf I will stomp on you till you die you are not welcome here.
Also merlot, frak and soma are trans! Allot of my ocs are of the queer skellies and my goobies alike so hehe :]
#just letting yallknow this is a safe space! obviously i PFNGNn it be funny if a ttans dudes blog eouldnt be but i wouldnt be surprised#with how some people are tbh. but JUST SAYING HERE IS SAFE THATS THE POINT IM MAKING SKSMG#but ye merlot is a genderfluid trans woman and frak is a trans man#soma is fem nb! im not picky about pronouns so yall can have fun but just wanted to point that out ^^#many of my ocs tend to fall down genderfluid trans categories cause that's how i see myself usually!#so no worries if you confuse pronouns or anything you can always ask it wont bother me!#trans#smoki rambles#also lesbians trans and cis alike are all welcome here and gay men trans and cis as well there is nO shame being cis and queer i just wanna#say that too cause i know thats not told allot when i mean everyone is welcome EVERYONE is welcome trans cis nb EVERYONE i love you all#i respect all people and everything cause however you are as a person that makes you happy makes me happy#i respect women i respect men i respect thems i respec everyone big huggems to all!
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...because any moment may be our last. everything is more beautiful because we're doomed.
#looking through my drafts and seeing this post unfinished and knowing in my core I'll probably never actually finish it .#but strangley enough i don't hate the way it looks with only those 2 panels ? beauty in simplicity or something idk#woe unfinished post be upon ye#honestly probably wouldnt even bother posting it were it not for the fact i was hit by a sudden wave of sadness#by being reminded out of the blue that alex really does just . lose nigel that night#enough deep level analysis my brain is all out i think . but just the simple fact that nigel dies that night#and alex has to go on for the rest of his life post-ending carrying that grief and loss with him#i know we talk about how nigel isn't truly 'gone' in the sense that they're one now and jack is supposed to be an amalgamation of the two#a product of their union and 'consummation' that night at the yard#but he's still gone . no matter how much alex might try and follow in nigel's footsteps#no matter how hard alex tries to tread that same path nigel did to feel close to him#he's gone . they will never have that moment beneath the house ever again . and alex has to go on living with that#anyway . normal again . imagine dropping a song rec like i used to. aha . go listen to sick like me by in this moment.#like minds#murderous intent#nigel colbie#alex forbes#nigel colbie x alex forbes#edit : THEY'LL NEVER HAVE THE MOMENT UNDER THE HOUSE AGAIN !!!!!#thinking about the moment where nigel sits across from alex after he shoots john#and the contrast to the scene in the crawlspace . nigel is trying to connect he is trying to get alex to see to understand#but now alex is closed off. something may be irreparable broken between them#do you think it was the moment where nigel starts to despair . to plead . realise that he needs to find a way to make alex truly see#i need to get some sleep
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You're sooo pretty
Can you stop?
I feel jealous now
BRO DON’T FEEL JEALOUS DA FUCK NOOOO BECAUSE I JUST KNOW YOU’RE SO BEAUTIFUL AND YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW IT BEAUTY IS INCOMPARABLE IT JUST IS AND YOU ARE
#ILY#AND KNOW I DONT FEEEEL PRETTY AT ALL BC IM ALWAYS COMPARING MYSELF TO PAST VERSIONS OF ME#AND SOMETIMES WE DONT EBER FEEL ENOUGH#EVEN WHEN WE ARE PERFECTLY ENOUGH#BC OUR JOB IS NOT TO LABEL BEAUTY AS THIS OR THAT BUT TO BE AND IF U CAN BE YOU ARE AND IF YOU ARE YOU LIVE AND IF#YOU LIVE YOU LOVE AND IF YOU LOVE YOU ARE SO PRETTY#AND ITS ALMOST 5AM HELO#HELP#BUT WHST#IM SAYING IS DONT FEEL JEALPIS#BECAUSE#ITS A WASTE OF UR ENERGY BC UR ALREASY SO BEAUTIFUL TO THE MAX U CANNOT BE MORE BESUTOFUL WE CANNO#BC IT IS THIS SOCIALLY CONSTRUCTED CONCEPT STEMMING THAT ONLY SERVES CAPITALISM AND UNLESS UR FINANCIALLY RICH I WOULDNT BOTHER#BC THEY WANT TO MAKE US POOR AND WE DONT HAVE TO BE#ILY ILY UR GORGEOUS ILY#I DID NO GOOD GRAMAMTICAL ENGLISJ JELP NOT GOOD IM NOT FIXING IT OK GOODNIGJT AND UR PERFECT GOOD DAY ILT
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me praying to get any kind of IT job and now just being so embarrassed that it happened because I DONT FUCKING KNOW ANYTHING? like you'd seriously think i would but i dont know a goddamn thing. a coworker watched me struggle to turn back on a monitor that went into sleep mode today. i couldnt find the fucking button on it. like i want to kill myself over that and i wish i was being funny but im being hilarious. they watch me fumble putting in my password on these 2000 goddamn websites i have to have accounts for for some reason AND they put me on the phone to squeak mousily at angry people who are calling for higher stakes problems than the library (but that part wasnt that bad bc most of them i got to just transfer the call)....i just want to SCREAM. i just want to scream because of the enormity of my incompetence. but its not even that serious. but it is. it is
#im making it sound hard but thats whats funny is it totally isnt. its so easy. its so easy im almost mad. its boring. ITS BORING!#and old guys keep telling me cutting my hair is 'part of growing up' i wanna gag.#and my coworker talks to me about 'guy stuff' that i wish i could have it in me to fucking care about. I HATE CARS!#i mean i do care about custom pcs. but IM STUPID!!!!!!!!!!! SO I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THAT DESPITE WANTING TO BUILD ONE.#im making it also sound like im having a miserable time but its complicated#and its giving me like a gender crisis but not like im not trans just like i cant stop feeling like a failure at all things gender#FTM as in failgirl to man this guy sucks#if i was more secure in myself at all i wouldnt let shit like that even bother me. but it dooooooooeeeeeeees#i attained no confidence and im starting to think thats impossible at my ripe young old age#is it ok if i have a crisis and blog it. do we still do that here
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I understand that the problem Linda would have in the hypothetical scenario where she catches Phineas and Ferb building some crazy shit is that its very dangerous for two kids to be caught up in something like that and it’s also just kinda an inconvenience like oh great now there’s this big ass roller coaster in the yard how the hell are we gonna clean this mess, I get it. But I just find it hard to believe that she wouldn’t be super impressed like my girl Linda loses her shit over the most mundane things so having her sons be these super geniuses capable of all this crazy shit would be awesome as hell she’d be proud
#the klock keeps ticking#THIS HAS JUST ALWAYS BOTHERED ME LIKE YOU. YOU HAVE SUPER GENIUS KIDS LINDA#i know a big point of the show is like how adults can be too wrapped up in minor shit that they ignore greatness#and just stifle kids creativity and imagination with their compulsive need to stick to the status quo#and in all the ‘what if’ episodes where the boys get busted theres always an intense focus on them being forced to deeply repress themselves#to fit into societys expectations of obedient children and theyre fucking miserable#but damn i just dont think Linda would be like that 😩#like yeah shed be worried about safety but she wouldnt like make the boys repress themselves like that :(((#SURELY WE CAN WORK THIS OUT LINDA
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Seeing what presents my baby sister gets and realising I really drew the short straw by being the firstborn
#Demon Spawn#+Extras#tell me why this three year old got a pet budgie for her birthday? she cant even spell yet#none of my siblings have ever had personal pets i wasnt allowed a hamster when i was 12 and neither was anyone else but the 3 year old??#she got her own heat pool for her birthday as well and a barbie dream house taller than her for Christmas#and what did i get childhood trauma perfectionism a fear of failure and anxiety#my mum always goes over the top with the youngest girl it happened with my middle sister in that 5 year gap before my mum got pregnant again#i didnt even make it 2 before my mum was pregnant so i never really got to reap the rewards of being the youngest#the lil ones get spoiled to hell and they get a mum with a fully developed frontal lobe and chiller parents#being the oldest sucks there are no benefits to it only responsibilities#btw im not mad at my sister or whatever its nice for her that she gets to have these things#but what do you mean i got the shtty childhood parents and i still have to argue to be allowed to bare minimal at 23 when the 3 year old#gets special treatment that the rest of us wouldnt even bother asking for cus we dont have all the things that came before that point#my issue is that the preferential treatment she gets is useless to her. she didnt ask for a barbie dreamhouse and she cant even play with it#because shes too short whe doesnt need her own pool because she cant even swim yet she doesnt need her own tablet she cant read yet#she shouldnt have her own pet when she cant understand what it means to own a living creature#especially when we dont currently have any other pets in the house#my issue is that the spoiling doesnt even make sense for her age she cant enjoy it cus it doesnt make sense yet doesnt mean anything to her#my mum wants to spoil her cus shes her littlest girl but shes had 7 kids before this she knows whats age appropriate and this isnt
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in usually pretty numb abt the lack of gifts bc its like Man Whatever but i accidentally hurt my feelings 😭😭 like i get buying stuff for a depressive with no desire is hard but damn...like no one even tried asking this year and thats crazy .. but also i get it bc i wouldnt have been able to answer rly! i can get games i want w.o asking and im not gonna try and explain japan proxy shipping for fandom merch to my familynendhfmd
but in passing i thought "idk itd be cool if someone bought me like, a cd of a band i like" and its like. damnnn its literally that easy. bc for how music based my family is ...like..idk. i guess its my fault in the end bc i know in the past ive been rly unreceptive of presents, like as a kid... but again...i was a rly depressed child 😭 so idk. its no ones fault or anything. AND its not like i got anyone gifts either. So damn. but ughhhh its just so ugh
#a mix of the fact tht no one asked#and also the fact that i know it wouldnt have mattered anyway#its like CHRISTTTT#ill get over it soon its just been bothering me all day#Girl what i want for christmas is functioning brain chemicals lets start there 🙏#at least the secret santa was fun. smiles
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Took my little brother to school with me and all he did was nibble my homework >:(
#howl's boring life#I'm not using twitter anymore but haven't bothered making a bsky bc i have smth wrong in my head where doing basic things is impossible#but i have so many things i want to share and I haven't made a personal post on tumblr in years#tags are the only place i feel comfortable#and my bestie is dealing w his fiance having a literal psychotic episode so I can't share my pointless shit w him#and even if no one reads a tweet or tags or whatever it feels helpful yknow?#anyway i just found out that I'll need to retake chem and bio to get into the vet tech program#and chem is already waitlisted for spring and wouldnt work w the other two classes and work#and the program only opens applications once a year so I'll have to wait until fall 2026 to start if i can't apply before this dec31#i had to miss work today bc of a cold w a fever and tomorrow is the holiday party :(#99% of my coworkers are great but there's a small little clique headed by a life sucking evil bitch#that makes me feel so stressed and bullied and awful#i mean the vitch has been outright hostile rude and unprofessional to me but like#im a pushover and also barely out of probationary period I can't just roll up with complaints about a three year employee#despite everyone else agreeing that she's fucking awful and they can't stand her and she's had a run in with every single one of them#man it's so hard when you get paid shit#i hope I can get promoted to assistant after my externship and stop being hamstrung like an idiot#I'm not allowed to draw up nemex??? hello??? it's harmless and i know how to read a syringe?#there's a lot going on in life and i want to cry all the time#but i do like my work at least. on days that vile woman isn't there#anyway here's mom's dog i took him to class w me a few weeks ago#and also yesterday he's a big hit#final's on thursday! certification exam is jan 10 so im this 🤏 close to being an approved veterinary assistant#I WANNA POKE SOME CRITTERS!!!!
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even though i feel like i can confidently tell when a piece of art is generative A/I, i really don't feel inclined or really even justified calling someone out for it due to the precedent it sets - especially when artists who DO make their own pieces get caught in the crossfire for being inexperienced or making the choice to be more free-form when it comes to character design / consistency...
#i can't even really put into words how I can Tell#other than like... random blurry details in areas that would not logically have those details blurred - for styles imitating digital art#what i mean by this is: you can kind of tell when and where a type of tool has been used when it comes to digital pieces#if it looks like an artist grabbed the smudge tool and used it in a small area surrounded by crisper details ... it seems like an arbitrary#- and thoughtless decision#especially when it comes to character design pieces#this blurriness is also present in a type of style that wouldn't see much reason to use the smudge tool at all .. such as a cell shaded -#- toon style with thick outlines#i think what bothers me about this whole debacle is how we're setting up an environment where people feel inclined to lie about using-#-generative tools... part of the problem is the foundation of a/i art to be using people's work without . permission. im sure a good amount#-of artists wouldnt have minded MAKING pieces to be used solely for these type of tools#since generative art has been used as an excuse to replace artists in an attempt to render their work unnecessary or obsolete ... it's -#- become politicized and viewed as anti-artist. which. fair enough. it was pitched and sold that way#but even if like... these initial problems were addressed i feel like there'd still be a lot of stigma associated with generative art#since a lot of people's beef with it is the fact that it feels soulless. and i feel like that has to do with how the generated works are -#- being passed off as completed full pieces and not have any transformative work done upon them#i always joke about like 'they should invent art that's easier to make' ... but i don't want the hard work on my end replaced#just some help really. or guidance on completing my own work. A/I could have -possibly- been used as another form of reference#(if it were more competent. i think it's sloppy as hell in its current state)#but before it was uh... hugely controversial and right when generative A/I got more competent? i actually saw it as a toy.#i wanted to play with it and see what would come out... im honestly just more-so frustrated that it's viewed as on-par or better than-#-work done by human beings. what makes something art to me is if it's been transformed by human intention and connection#and i don't get how it's snobby to dislike A/I art for that reason. why do y'all think artists love when people dissect and examine their-#-work ? art is about human connection. we have ancient monuments and abandoned cave paintings we know nothing about-#- but are captivated by because we want to know WHY they're there. WHO made them. and for what reason#and i think a/i art is a painful reminder for a lot of artists that to a lot of people art is only valued through aesthetic merit#no acknowledgement for an artist's hard work .. their life .. all the personal intention behind their work#it's the commodification being thrown back in our faces tenfold#another tag essay by me. shiloh
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does anyone have any advice on how to feel alive again
#me @ me: no one cares#sorry to keep depression posting i just dont know what to do#its hard to stay positive when everything feels so fucking bad all the time#covid shit is stressing me out. election shit sucks so bad. my health is bad my mental illnesses are mental illnessing#and if one more person at my stupid fucking job makes a fucking comment about my fucking mask im actually going to start killing#im so serious. i really cant do this anymore#why dont people care about other people it makes no sense#why are people so fucking horrible to each other. everything is so fucking horrible#one of my coworkers literally right now has covid and on our zoom call he was like well the vaccine wouldnt have done anything anyways#are you sure about that??? because you sound like you cant fucking breathe#idk i just feel hopeless and bitter and exhausted and like nothing will ever be okay ever again. and im At Work.#how are you supposed to combat this. what are you supposed to do.#no amount of cognitive fucking behavioral therapy is going to fix the fascism or the climate change or the pandemic or the or the or the#like literally why bother. it doesn't matter nothing matters!#i just want to go home#but then when i get home im like fuck. i really want to go home.
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