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batcastlesociety · 2 months

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Me when I have to bear witness to N!Trevor's 17-year-long mewing streak jawline once again:

But really why does he look like that. is he okay

Jesus fucking Christ my guy that jawline could do better damage then your morningstar

(original tumblr post here btw. didn't reblog it becauase i only wanted that first paragraph. idk man)

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akkivee · 11 days

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cute bad ass

#vee queued to fill the void #taking a moment away from the kuukou deep dive brainrot to do some kuukou simping instead lol #as always lol arb beat me to drawing kuukou feeding animals myself #but if kuukou feeds the elderly and has candy in his pockets for children (highkey for himself too lol)#you can bet your ass he’d feed the strays that visit his temple or share his sardines with froggies on the side of the road 😭😭😭😭#crying over that sudden scratch card where a new cat comes to visit his temple and kuukou can tell it was a new visitor 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#he doesn’t name them but i think it would be very funny if kuukou decided to name the cats visiting his temple after buddhist gods lol #orange tabby: *meows at kuukou for a snack*#kuukou: yooooo jogaishou bosatsu!!!!!!!!!! what’s up it’s been forever want some of my shitty dad’s tofu??????? :D #😌😌😌😌 and then on the flip side it’s page that haunts my every waking moment LOL #kuukou is so fcking COOL lol even when he loses you get the sense he never lost lol #i’m tempted to just start screaming for five straight tags but to quell that urge lmao #i’m going to make this about ichikuu lmao remember how ichiro in ohayo ikebukuro said he likes strong people who never lose lol????#they ended that bat vs mtr battle with the comment from jakurai i think that this battle didn’t feel like it was their victory #which means kuukou hasn’t truly lost so that makes him even more of ichiro’s type—

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bagea · 9 months

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@bugsodas pepperoni!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#my art #hiii dude for the longest time ive wanted to make art of your characters but yknow making fanart on scratch is like screaming into the void #nobody is gonna remember it and it isnt gonna last!!#also woaw first art of 2024 #i cant figure out if theyre a dog or a bunny or like a mouse #also the pizzas on the right side are just filler they arent looking at it btw #listen to polygonet/polynet commanders btw it makes you feel silly

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discoreptile · 2 months

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Beasties of Greenhollow soundtrack! Some tracks on this are from older projects like elphame but all of them have been reworked in some way. Most of them are entirely new. Enjoy!

#soundtrack #music #indiegamedev #Youtube #beasties of greenhollow #indiegame #chiptune #elphame #hey again gang. Another scream into the void #Things have been getting more interesting tbh #I'm starting therapy again. I have learned from this that my anxiety is in the very very high end.#And I guess the only thing that surprises me about that is that it's an abnormally high amount vs the average.#I've had more intrusive thoughts this week than in a long time. (I almost said ever but that was 2021 where they woke me up...)#It's mostly about my mistakes and ppl I've scared out of being in my life because of the actions based on my anxieties.#Like “if i could go back in time I could fix it”... girl you'd be going back in time like 100 times. At that point it's not fair lmao #I think I shouldn't talk about who I'm dating here anymore. Friends told me to stop seeing so many new people and I took that advice.#I'm exercising incredibly frequently; obsessively so. It really doesn't change much in my anxiety. I walk for like 3 hours a day.#My friend group is... difficult. One of us had a falling out with another and the dynamic is just so awkward for me now.#it just seems like everyone else has moved past it though but I still miss him. I don't think this can be reversed #we used to talk on my stream and play digimon cards n jackbox and d&d... But now they're only interested in d&d which I don't love #For god's sake I've published a game and moved to a nice new place. why aren't I happy hahahaha #work is no longer enjoyable since BoG was publised. our new project is in an iffy category but it's not my place to argue #I want to write music and animate but I have to do my hours for this new project before I can do anything like that...#I ended up siding with my current boss in that ethical dilemma I posted about and rn idk if that was the right decision.#Okay what can i talk about that's good? We moved to a nice place. I'm celebrating BoG's release with family tomorrow.#Graeme's playing Iconoclasts- one of my favourite games! He's also returning to work soon so it'll be less awkward to have a lady over #Thinking about good stuff going on just draws the mind to holidays I've had before. I treasure my memories!#Okay so I've complained for a long long time bc life doesn't feel great rn. But rest assured I already know this is 90% my fault hahaha #Oh another good thing that happened!!! My elestrals card was printed and ppl are really happy with it. I have a card in a real card game!!!#don't tell anyone but there's another one on the way. Anyway that will do for now. I'm sorry about my... self.

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charliespringverse · 1 year

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i partake in Literally Any Hobby Or Craft and my mother's immediate response is "you should find a way to monetise this"

#what if i don't want to jillian !!!!! what if i just want to enjoy things !!!!!!#like please i get that capitalism is at the root of everything in this godforsaken hellscape of a life but maybe i would like to ignore that #''i made a deeply personal and specific birthday card for my beloved close friend :)'' ''can you sell these'' LEAVE ME ALONE #what is it with mothers and wanting Everything to be a side hustle . i do not dream of labour #(btw my mother's name isn't jillian i'm not doxxing a 60 yr old woman)#jay screams into the void

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theswedishpajas · 4 months

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Man-

There are random people online and ones I’m mutuals with or random people I interact with more than others in discord servers and stuff who I want to like, befriend properly

But the way I interact with people doesn’t allow for me to really spend time with them enough to build a true friendship, especially because one-on-one messaging stresses me out and annoys me 99% of the time (unless I’m the one to initiate, which rarely happens)

I love talking in groups, puts less pressure on me, but it also allows me to just not pay proper attention to individuals as much as I’d like?

Idk, I just wanted to ramble a little here as a lil note that if we’ve ever interacted and it was positive, I really appreciate you and would most likely love to get to know you personally cus I just really like knowing people, but my brain is stinky and rude so I prolly won’t ever take a proper first step to approach you about it but you ARE in fact my friend in my heart.

#rambles #I think I’m too self-centered and that that’s why the only people I can call close friends -#- are all in a server where I have my own space to just scream into the void about whatever I’m up to #and then sometimes through the day they peek in to talk to me #and also share their own stuff in other spaces for me to glance at when I have spoons for it #I just wish I was easier to truly befriend #I’m so social and I love knowing people but I hate LEARNING about them #I hate the parts where I have to always act a way befitting my own standards #show whatever side of me I want to flaunt for each conversation #not just my good side - it changes with my mood (rapidly)#I’m too particular about how my interactions with others go #I know I deserve friendships and I know I’m a great person to be around - but it’s really hard to actively interact with me -#- in a way that I can enjoy properly #my memory only works when I’m not in a mood to talk or if I’m too anxious about trying to start something I can’t keep up with #blegh #not really a vent but also a lil bit-?#idk man #I just really like being friends with people when I can but my brain gets in the way #I’m extremely self-centered which is a big root of this problem too #most prolly wouldn’t think so from how likely I am to actively step in to help people and be nice to others #but I live for and focus on myself and how I’m percieved 90% of the time

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autumnalhalcyon · 4 months

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the rage just kinda never fully goes away, huh.

#im so tired.#but i needed to at least scream into the void first.#just really fucking sucks that a woman can entrap me. isolate me. coerce me into overeating (thus making me gain weight). sexually abuse me.#all of this. for at least 4 or so years. and yet.#if i wish death upon her for the damage she's done to my body and mind then suddenly im the monster.#i don't even want to be the one to do it. i don't have the stomach or lack of compassion for that. l #i just want her dead so she can't victimize anyone else ever again. she ran off to missouri with a new victim.#he doesnt have really anyone willing to wade into the mire like i did. the only way he's escaping is either on his own or when she's dead.#on a side tangent im convinced that she's a chubby chaser. her ex before deciding i was a suitable next victim was fat.#she fattened me up by forcing me to eat her food even if it meant me being ill and in pain afterward.#her new victim is also fairly stocky.#keep in mind. if this was a matter of just. time and actually getting enough to eat each day i wouldn't be in as much mentally agony over it #its the coercion. the very clear intent by my abuser. it reads like a constant reminder of the abuse.#anyway. i needed to scream abt it. ive mentioned the sa. i never really talk about the food-related abuse.#i also never really talk about being an angry vengeful flawed victim that wants my abuser to shuffle off the mortal coil #shut up maple #sa mention

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sunlightfeeling · 1 year

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gonna maybe be away for a lil bit (I say maybe because it really depends on my brain’s temperment)

currently fighting some darkness atm that won’t fucking stop (I’m okay, though, I swear, but its been all fucking day and I need to sleep and I can’t because thoughts)

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#i might stop in to like and reblog random things here and there #but ill probably stick to dash rather than digging through blogs like i usually do #anyway #autism adhd and c-ptsd is such a fucking shit hand like cash me tf out ON FUCKING-#like already have emotion regulation problems that gets worsened by it #(it being ptsd)#adhd already brings an endless monologue so ptsd goes ‘oh hey..gimme da aux for a bit’ and plays THE MOST VILE SHIT #ON REPEAT #also the impulsivity omfg #im already terrible and use it to distract whenever i can #but its like im also telling myself i need to because i need to get away from this #but instead of buying things i feel like i want to do something ‘worse’ and i…like actually don’t wanna #anyway idk im really sorry for all the negative posting lately #ibut also this is my home so :(#i started a side blog to actually scream in a void but its kind of odd still tbh and that’s a tangent anyways #im still holding myself to shipping things tho! so I will be reaching out to y’all when i get material wooo #(hopefully next week or the following~)#im hoping that this is just pmdd flaring my ptsd #because then its temporary #BUT OMG WHY WONT MY MEDICINE WORK I HATE YOU PMDD 😭#oh…yeah…sorry #beeeeep

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soulfire-of-void · 9 months

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does anyone know a way to get bruises to go away faster? i have the unfortunate combination of being clumsy as hell, having shit memory, and bruising easily, so my knees almost always have a bunch of nasty looking bruises all over them without me having any clue what caused them. i wouldn't really give a shit (they don't hurt much) but my mom worries whenever she sees a big one and i hate doing that to her

#void screaming #tw bruising #i just. she spots one and goes 'aww... baby...' with the most heartwrenching look on her face #and i legitimately did not notice the massive dark bruise until that moment #how do i make it look Less Awful and/or not take a full week to fade i dont want my mom to worry about what was probably just like #another collision with a side table or something

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thehecklingmouse · 1 year

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i have a mighty need for a kaveh fontaine skin

#do you see my vision #it could be for angst reasons or just normal reasons #like he wants to connect with his mom again so he dresses in the fontaine style #or it was an outfit he bought for her wedding #on the exact opposite side kaveh just wanted to try something new or he liked how the outfit looked #either way i need it #i need kaveh to get a skin at all actually #i would literally sell my kidneys for it #genshin kaveh #Kaveh #Bones screams into the void

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warrenwaskilledbyadeer · 1 year

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Sometimes I have a fear that I'm not actually aroace, that I'm just a super super "late bloomer" and those things are deep inside me waiting to trigger and then change who I am forever

And then I ask a question about something about romance that seems so inconsequential and dumb to me and have to be explained how important it really is because of how much you're in love with another person and

I shouldn't have feared 😅 it is absolutely incomprehensible to me, the whole romance/being in love shebang does not make a lick of sense and I will never understand it, because my brain just isn't wired to understand, that is not something that's a part of who I am when for the majority of other people it is

Phew glad for a little self-validation haha

#very happy for my allo friends who are in love!! i want them to be that's good for them!! :D #makes me happy to know they found somebody they can be happy being with the rest of their life #my brain just doesn't do that so i'm happy but from like the other side of a window haha #just me rambling #i scream into the void

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ridiculously-over-obsessed · 9 months

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You know this time next year, when I haven't spoken to mum in months and I'm not coming home for xmas, I hope she thinks back on days like today and is like "yeah that's probably the reason he went no contact"