#and i dont rly think too deep abt shows

[eiichiro]

About NGE, do you think Rei is aware that she's actually Lilith? Do you think she has memories of her past life (when she landed on Earth and created humans)? Since Kaworu is Adam, he seems aware of what's going on, and he probably remembers his past life as Adam, too...

honestly idk why i keep getting these kinds of asks when im only here to make gifs AJKSHF but ur in luck bc i have a good friend who knows a LOT about nge. alright so here's what she said:

"with rei she's aware. as for her past life, not sure. it's more like instinct. she knows she's not supposed to be trapped in a human body esp since she doesn't retain her memories from prev iterations of rei as well. she wants to dissolve but knows gendo wont let her."

[phagodyke]

i keep getting irrationally miffed at ppl 😐😐

[fairytypingg]

fuck it we're doing this

RAGEON HCS!!!!!

Velvet;

19

leo(i think thats what i am, idk a lot abt astrology)

7 minutes older and takes it way too seriously

overplans for everything

screams cries crumbles if she doesn't have 100% control over any situation

plays a lot into appearances but is actually a chronic workaholic(gets it from her uncle)

she and veneer were raaised by their uncle actually!!

velvet has a love hate relationship with the music industry, before and after the events of the movie

TRUST. ISSUES.

cannot ever talk about her feelings she'll explode

bottles everything up like im so serious

"i'll keep all my emotions right here. and then one day, i'll die."

she vents frustration by talking mad shit in cs:go lobbies

she's really good at the game

scary good aim because of it, and that DOES transfer to real life

has 97 mental illnesses and is banned from most public spaces/ref

"i inhereted severe generational trauma and all i got was borderline personality disorder"

someone help her

she needs therapy

also autistic <3

Veneer;

19

also a leo

7 minutes younger but only remembers bcs velvet will not let him forget

he seems chill in comparison because velvet is so high strung but he is the most dramatic bitch ever

says really out of pocket shit without thinking

"yeah that's why your parents dont call you then haha- what why are you looking at me like that what did i say"

he's the epitome of unmedicated adhd

probably needs glasses

the only one of the twins with a drivers license

was very outgoing growing up because velvet hated talking to people, so someone had to do it

doesn't rly understand velvet being depressed and thinks shes a drama queen like him

"im tragically doomed by the narrative" "drink water dumbass"

hes morosexual

"if a man can locate mount rageous on a map that man is not my type"

dumb fucking ass

love him, hes just kinda stupid.

Kid Ritz:

20

idk any other zodiac signs use ur imagination

every personality disorder you can think of

emotional manipulation is a sport and he is bringing home the gold

whats wrong with him

the answer is mommy issues. and rampant childhood neglect. also when you're raised as rich as he was you're gonna come out weird

struggled to understand the concept of lying as a child so when be finally got it he retaliated by lying for sport and then never stopped doing that

prefers machines to people

hes one of those "there is a minimum iq requirement to talk to me" guys

not just a talk show host!!

he's well trained to take over his father's political position when the old man retires

current director of public security

he's known as a purveyor of gossip for a reason

the saying goes that nothing happens in the city without his knowledge

hyperintelligent

like genius iq, reading at a college level by age 5, etc

actual child prodigy in every conceivable way

notorious for being "perfect"

he's the face of Ritzworth Media Corp for a reason

evil genius

also lonely

his father is grossly neglectful and his mother is a deadbeat

did i mention he has mommy issues

never met his mom and has devoted a lot of his energy to forming an intelligence network dedicated to finding her

hates people

like very antisocial

struggles HEAVILY with empathy

his interviews are notoriously difficult since he entertains himself by making his interviewees squirm

casual sadist in every conceivable way

What's Wrong With Him/aff

Orchid;

18

use ur imagination again im not gonna look it up

rebelling against common characterization here stay with me

secretive about her past but obviously hiding something

a chameleon type of person, can change her behavior, mannerisms, and even accent at the drop of a hat

carries a deep grief with her

distrusting and calculating

she'll "befriend" you but it takes a lot of effort to actually gain her trust

she WILL discard you if she's even slightly suspicious

nobody is sure what her goal is, but she has an agenda

orchid might not be her real name either

very mysterious

generally presents as kind and friendly but it's noticibly fake

cannot stress how much she is hiding something

capable of murder and not afraid to resort to such to protect her secret

dont look in her closet

she has participated in her fair share of underage drinking and can hold her liquor pretty well, but if you manage to get her drunk enough you may be able to pry some answers out of her

has a distaste for celebrities she doesn't see as beneficial to know

gives like. really good advice

identity issues <3

the song Phony is perfect for her

she moves as if she's used to her hair being longer than it is

what is she hiding?

[possibilistfanfiction]

What are your favorite Ava headcanons that you dont have the Chance to talk about?

lmao the way i was truly so relieved this wasn't an ask abt taylor swift

anyway i love that ava is So smart & so feeling? not to be too serious or whatnot but i'm so heartened by student movements happening rn, especially across universities in the US, that are rooted in both deep history & deep care. i think ava in p much any au (also in canon but that's kind of harder lol) would LOVE organizing in community. would LOVE a protest or an encampment but would also be willing to do the (honestly very boring) work of planning those things with comrades, of learning & creating political education, etc. she's one of my favorites bc she rly does believe in a better world, & she rly does believe that her place in that is actionable. in canon it gets fucked up in translation bc... it's a show abt supernatural catholic lore lol. but i think in our world there are lots of avas! ppl are being so brave rn! that's probably what i've been thinking abt most w her lately, as a comfort

[baekhvuns]

HIIII BAEKSSSSS I missed you 😔 how are you? Wsp? How's everything?

Man, I've been pretty peaceful I'd say..kinda idk. Maybe the calm before the storm but that's besides the point. I miss your work so so so much 🥹🥹🥹 like rlly, not wanting to pressurise you just GIRL RLLY MADE 2022 SUCH A GOOD EXPERIENCE.

Anyways I've been watching a ton of stuff ofc, found a new pakistani drama 😈😈 well it's kind of the same plot as u wld guess, but I like this one it's like if not a lot then a bit diff frm the same ass dynamic. It's like a first daughter x youngest son the fun part is it was supposed to be, first daughter x first son but he was a jerk and a red flag. So yes...it'd be fun, it's a silly dynamic imo ik for sure there are going to be a ton banters.

ALSO dude these asmr Rps be getting Outta hand 😭 Nah cz i cried. I CRIED. THE ANGST OHHHHH. Some asmr artists are just so fucking good like alanakamakwk i felt like I was in a movie.

Lemme tell u a bit abt it, so the concept was basically, an old bsf comes back into the listener's life not in a bad way or anything just cz the bsf lived farrrrr away.

"do you wanna see the new tattoo i got?"

LIKE OKAY and then we did trace them too and a while later the convo goes deep "i got this tattoo bcz u told me seven years ago, what you don't rmr?" And then he sort of reminisces over the old times

"and that day..I went home, and texted you how much I liked you. And wanted to hang out with you a bunch.."

"that didn't happen I never texted you."

BRO OMG OMG ONWKWJWKW IM TELLING YOU THE FREAKIN TENSION BW ME AND MY HEADPHONES.

And then the best part was the listeners bf calls who also used to be friends with the bsf, and goes "i love you."

In hopes of hearing it frm us too. "Dear...?" Silence.

NO CUZ IMAGINE STANDING IN FRONT OF SOMEONE U ACTUALLY LOVE AND U GOTTA SAY ILY TO YOUR BF WHAT??? OMG.

And then when he comes out to go run errands he talks to the bsf AKA THE ASMR ARTIST I TELL U HIS VOICE *melts*

"we'll see you right?"

"... farewell"

That's the visual representation of me I'm not even kidding. And....he just leaves. LIKE THAT?? WHAT ABOUT US AHHHH *dies*

Nah but yes, I've been obsessed now. At least it makes me feel something 😮‍💨

Ok also no way my old Bollywood obsession is dying anytime soon *listens to bol na halke halke*

Anyways bye bye baeks MAKE SURE TO TELL ME ABT YOURSELF HOW U DOING AND STUFF OK?? OK MWAH ILY 🤭

YOU SENT THIS LAST WEEK AND I JUST KIND OF LOGGED INFBWNDBSK SO SORRY

i hope you’re doing well!! i���m currently sick bc of a heatwave i caught at a wedding 🥰🥰

i’m glad you’re feeling peaceful! AND DHSKDHKW DONT MENTION IT FNDMSKC ITS BEEN 2 YEARS 😭😭😭 maybe my writing bug just dimmed LMFAOOOO haven’t been on here or read anything, ive been in my drafts just giggling and reading but never like posting or writing fbdndb but ive kind of, maybe wanting to write something for fall time which i’m not sure ill post but it’s got me smiling a bit!

WHAT IS THE SHOW TELL ME 🔫

omg i can never get behind asmr, i have this thing called misophonia, i just despise the way the arm sounds make my ears feel fmandksb i just feel triggered BUT U CRIED BC OF IT WHY 😭😭

u gotta send me the link of it bc the voice actor u say… 👁

does our bollywood obsession rly die 😭😭 the new tauba tauba got me going a bit crazy,,, heard the jannat bgm but sad version and iM OBSESSED WITH IT, it lowkey inspired me to think and write <3 got me giggling and imaging stuff <3 in my pillow fbwndbsj

[canneddolts]

hello

i need to talk abt my stupid playlist

ignore that its youtube i dont like spotify. its songs that remind me of the half lifers so not really a character playlist but i have Reasons that id like to expadn on (under the cut its so long)

goinog from bottom to top oldest to newest (ill probably edit this later on..muhahaha) (PS every barney here is blue shift exclusive idk a thing abt hl2 guy...)

more than a feeling: i found my first ever boston song on guitar hero arcade and i feel like gordon would be rly into guitar hero. this is repeated many times. also it j reminds me of them

dont you forget abt me: ok im starting to kinda hate this song but it was the original them song too......i forgot why (it was also in one of my gmods i think)

take a chance on me: i posted this stupid barney image to this song & it stuck so much also PLEASE banrey JUST ONE CHANCE GIVE M

ok next 3 (true & the sun always shines on tv & i want to know what love is) theyre all just them songs too.....i posted them to those songs too when i was Just Getting Into Halflifing and idk

OH ALSO ALSO the sun shines on tv reminds me of the truman show & i saw a lot of parallels btwn him and gordons whole Thing so therefore. gordon song. ALSO I LOVE THIS MOVIE SO BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UUUGHGHHHHH its so pretty and so good and such a good story and AARGH

mud on the tires: dont look at m

italian medley: I HAVE NO IDEA!!!!!????!?

cant fight this feeling: i heard it on the radio during driving lessons while i was at the Point where everything reminded me of barney. so..i could do some deep analysis (same w half this playlist but i feel silly doing so)

bulls on parade: bwaowo ptch waowao THE MICROPHONE EXPLODE (i had a video idea w gordon) (ALSO another guitar hero song for mr freeman)

owner of a lonely heart: they are losers

call me: guh. i like this song

ogrodu serce: again.....i heard it on the radio in my barney stage. i also hc'd him with a super thick southern polish accent for a while (?) i was gonna put oczy zielone bc Ha! Gordon freeman green eyes but i dont like that song

007 WOAH why were the numbers so big??!!!: i really haveno idea....something something security guard

somebodys watching me: THAT ONE FUCKING HALF LIFE FANART ILL REBLOG IT AGAINAGAINAGAINAGAIN AFTER THIS POST I LOVE IT SO BAD!!!!!!! its so good and so ppgpfhddbdhbbhjbhjbhjvbhjdbhjbhj AAAAGH i like thsi song too but its always gonna remind me of mr freeman

unwritten: dude Idk. barney though

arthur intro idk: the video w gman singing it to alyx....so real so true idk much abt her but im getting hl2 from the library soon MUUAAAAHAHAHAHAAAA (this is one of the half life specific songs)

just the way you are: hey you guys remember the video of barney;s va as the gecko singing dont goooo changinnnah. its also a gordon song bc it was in my gordon stasis gmod vid

the picard video: barney has a star wars voiceline ("Have you seen the new IG-88?" (the droid)) and i think hed like sci fi in general....idk anything abt either franchises though spare me

out of touch: i had a vision of them luckystar dancing to this song while eating cereal

lay all your love on me: i like this song & barney is very abba fan to me

even the nights are better: again again...i heard it on the radio

waiting for tonight: this video of the american idol gba game was stuck in my head for days & i feel like barney would be a bad singer. his voice acter is super good at singing cough go to mike shapiro soundcloud NOW cough so i think the opposite would be funny

escape (the pina colada song): barney.. if you like pina coladaaas

baby come back: uuurrggggh gordon freeman 20 year stasis uuurrrr

cheri cheri lady: another gman singing this video also i like this song!!!!!

the sign: real

[odysseys-blood]

This is literally the first time ever ill do one of these after being tagged in ig bc i always forgot! anyways got tagged by @taketheringtolohac for a "9 people you want to get to know better" game!

Last Song: Sway - A Trak & AJ Christou ft. Duckwrth

i luv duckwrth and this song is super wavy someone come dance to it with me

Favorite color: Idk what to call it like a wine purple? this thang and similar shades

i also rly like deep reds too. if u ever notice i accidentally tend to use mainly the red-blue portion of the color wheel in art and its not a concious decision either it just kinda happens and i try to steer away from it every once in a while and it never sticks.

Currently Watching: nothing rly!

it takes me forever to start watching things and get through them. The last series i finished I think were Witchblade and Link Click abt a month or so ago. I was also planning to watch yuri kuma sometime soon bc i remembered ppl posting about it but i never watched it while it was airing, as well as a rewatch of banana fish bc my brother brought it up bc he was using it as a topic for his paper recently????? i dont even know why he knows it but oh. well i guess. was also gonna watch mignon but the art style is getting me and my city hunter plans have been dashed by the sheer volume of episodes scaring me for now

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: i like them all!

not sure i rly prefer one over the others but i like to bake so maybe sweet. did you know my baking enemy is cookies idk what it is but if im making my own from scratch somehow they always turn out wrong. fav thing to bake is cinnamon rolls i just havent done any in a while bc they take so long (also bc i wanna do peach cobbler style cinnamon rolls which ive done before! but that takes extra long bc of the extra toppings you have to make)

Relationship Status: who want me

Current Obsession: ok prefacing this with these r not good games and im gonna censor the names so they dont show up in tags

i got into some eroge gacha named wh*t in hell is bad back in october and it has not let up since. i filled an entire sketchbook almost w/ doodles of my mc. also replayed through nu c*rnival recently bc they added voice overs for almost the entire game for the second anniversary (ive been playing since maybe 3 months after its release). everything is on the backburner to me rn besides these games and maybe the everyday maintenance of shinozaki bc im thinking abt finishing it bc i love it. anyways forget abt those last two and look at shinozaki

Last Thing You Searched: list of mythical weapons

this was not for anything important except that i rly wanna get a black cat and name it excalibur (nicknamed cali for short). however excalibur is exclusively for if i get the litte black kitty of my dreams but if i get a cat w/ another coat eventually i have to pick a different name so i was brainstorming.

i didnt think this was so long (///￣ ￣///)

anyways ill tag @meicheesecake @feluka @beepiiboop @nil-number @theunstablejester @luminousrabbittt @scamoosh @tilapiamafia and im forgetting names but if u wanna do one then tag ur it ☆〜（ゝ。∂ )

[roakkaliha]

It's rather weird to me too when people include Bluey with the likes of TOH, SU, Gravity Falls, etc. Like I'll fully admit, I do once in a while watch Bluey (I actually watch an episode or two when I'm waiting for pain meds to kick in to keep the misery ™ at bay) and it's pretty funny when you see the bits for the adults, but it's very much a little kid's show, man. The other series have wild long stories and handle pretty deep topics and have arguably done great things for the queer kids watching them. It's a cute little show that can offer a pick me up but it's not anymore than that for an older audience.

yea its like... i think that there could easily be two different (but very much closely related) discussions abt how adults who only watch childrens shows tend to hype them up as better n deeper than adult shows that theyve never watched, seperating stuff like toh thats definitely a disney cartoon for kids but still has darker things in it, and stuff like bluey thats literally just a toddler cartoon. note that im not super involved in those convos so they could already be like this, but u know. i dont rly have a dog in this race i think.

[pensiveabstraction]

jetara for the ask game?

i do not ship it

1- why dont i ship it? hmm not sure rly. i think it might be bc theyre introduced in a ship-ish context within the show itself in a way thats screwed up, with the whole jet manipulating katara thing. maybe its some kinda deep-seated psychological parallel im unaware of to a real life relationship. maybe its just that this moment is the single most amount of thought ive genuinely put towards them as a ship so i just havent even given it a chance.

2- what would have made me like it? honestly, probably just coming across a fic with them as a side couple written in slightly more depth than most side couples. like thinking about them as a ship currently my feelings abt it are pretty much just 'meh i guess if other people like that good for them' but who knows, ive been converted to obscurer ships through the well written side couple process

3- despite not shipping it, do i have anything positive to say about it? erm i havent rly given it much thought but ig they could be a pretty neat vigilantism duo couple performing epic acts of rebellion and ecoterrorism provided they came to some kind of moral compromise abt how far is too far n shit. also they both have a lot of passion which can always make for an interesting n entertainingly written fic even if its not necessarily always how youd want your own irl relationship to be like

[sorikkung]

where do i even START with this one. my god. this one gave me so many feelings i can't confine them to the tags i know tag limit will get my ass again

ok im going for a reread here so i dont miss anything from my first reaction but ok why is san so angry damn is it bc of how wooyo comforted him then left him in the morning before or did it start after that. like is san just sick of woo being a flaky little shit with commitment issues or what. SHKFDKHSKDFHD

If it weren’t for the way it currently feels as if he’s suffocating, Wooyoung would have the urge to smile too.

god i love the way you write woo especially from his pov. how he's just so fond, like he's a grumpy asshole and a shit but he cares so so so so much abt san, and to some extent that i dont know how deep, seonghwa as well, like it's these little details that are like. yeah he acts so tough but it rly is guarding an emotional interior </3

ok now i fucking LOVE this scene between woo and the mc. "He gets it, that helplessness. The realization of what horrors you are capable of. The fear that you would do it again." sets up what follows so well, the buildup throughout this chapter is slow and steady but not too slow, its perfect, [chefs kiss] i wish i could do pacing like you do

He doesn’t want to answer it, but he isn’t surprised by it. He also believes the answer is something you should hear. “I have,” he replies. “But sometimes people are monsters too.”

SUCH good lines here ugh. i think its a testament to woo's character that he knows he doesn't owe mc any comfort or any answer, but he believes she needs to hear this, and she definitely does, and i feel like him choosing to talk about it shows a lot of unsaid respect he has for her as a person. like he obviously doesnt Like her, but moreso he doesn't Want to like her - reasonably so, like he Is literally right - but i like these little moments of respect towards her. it makes him very likeable as a character.

now i need to copy paste this entire section bc i LOVE it.

But Seonghwa wouldn’t get this, and San wouldn’t either. Neither of them have killed from fury, from unbridled anger and vengeance. Seonghwa doesn’t even kill the beasts they hunt, merely wounds them with his arrows. San does, but not humanoid beasts. Nothing that can speak to him. San had offered for them to kill the mimic yesterday morning, but Wooyoung knows that he would have been the one to do it. He would have been the only one who could.

firstly this part is already fascinating, as now we know that the bandits each have their own very different lines they refuse to cross. it definitely tracks w their characterisations of hwa being soft, woo being rough around the edges, and san being somewhere in between. it's been a good and consistent dichotomy there since the start but i like how we see it in more ways like this! though the wording of neither of them killing from fury does make me wonder if theyve crossed their own lines to kill out of necessity before 👀

Well, other than you. You did it, and you did it with a thirst. Passionate hatred, followed by agony. And for the first time - not only on this trip, but in the years since the orphanage - Wooyoung saw himself in somebody. The darkest part of himself that he pretends does not exist, the part that would burn Jay alive if he had the chance, that sadistically screamed with a vengeance on that fateful night so many years ago. The part that haunts him with the horrors of what he has done, that keeps him awake on nights such as this one, he saw it in you. It scares him to know that something so dark resides in you. A rich and pampered girl from Kuroku, who has known little of the danger they have all faced, whose mind is somehow a home to a fury so horrid. It scares him equally as much how it comforts him to know that he is not alone.

NOW THIIIIIIIIIIIIIS. THIS I AM EATING THIS SHIT UP i think this might be my favourite part of the chapter because ???? woo, who has been so hostile towards her from the start, SEEING A MIRROR IN HER.... im obsessed w that, i love it when enemies or otherwise hostile dynamics see parallels in each other, and i love how in this instance its very specifically feeling almost Seen in those similarities, even comforted, because finally he isn't alone in those dark, horrid feelings of his. like its not seeing the good in him reflected in her and being like huh maybe we can get along after all no its seeing all the fucked up parts and going huh, you're just like me. i am OBSESSEDDDD!!!! establishing that almost kinship i feel like just opens such a tantalising door for where their relationship leads. like theyve been my favourite pair to watch from the start but this development just cements that, the dynamic is so TASTY!! also just bonus points for letting the mc be fucked up a lil. like YES, let women harbour horrors beyond comprehension, let them hold a rage so morbid, let the pampered princess want to commit horrifying acts of violence!!!! let the broody rogue and ""helpless"" royal see eye to eye on the darkness they carry in their minds!! let them be comforted and confronted by it!!! we love to see it!!!! like fr i could ramble abt this paragraph for ages.

However, his avoidance also has to do with the fact that he doesn’t think San or Seonghwa would understand. They don’t carry that darkness with them, that same thirst for vengeance that he does. Seonghwa longs for his home in a way that reminds Wooyoung of a sailor, dreaming for a past land even though the sea carries him in the opposite direction. Even San, who has been wronged in the most horrific and deprecating of ways does not talk of killing Jay, only escaping him.

now this is another delicious look into the trio's psyche. seonghwa, who's clinging to the past, vs san, who's trying to escape it in the present, vs wooyoung, who's driving towards vengeance in his future. honestly all these comparisons make me like wooyoung more and more as i do relate to him the most, being distrustful and vengeful about my shit rather than avoidant or... whatever copium hwa's taking FHKSDFHKDF for lack of better wording. but yeah i really like that out of all the characters woo finds that similarity in, its mc, despite probably having a lot more in common w sanhwa in terms of lifestyle and past. its just so ugh. chefs kiss

“No,” you begin, hesitant. He’s not sure why, but the statement seems to strike you deeply, as your frown worsens. When you speak, your tone is almost defensive. “They don’t make orphanages strictly for elementals.”

ahahahah hooo boy. i also do enjoy mc's journey to unpack her privilege LMFAO and the horrors her family took part in. what an awakening that must be.

ok this is getting quite long im gonna try do less copy pasting n just referring to the part i wanna talk abt like i usually do in tag rambles SDFKHSDFHK but as soon as he said the way yeonjuns clothes fit him made his cheeks warm i was already like oh theyre in love. thats not going to end well is it. SDFHKSDFHKSDF ahh my beloved yeonjun. my poor boy. it was nice to see him in this story tho i def was not expecting it cause i forgot you liked txt as well LOL

it's incredibly sad how wooyoung is only thirteen here and yet has already deduced that they are not here to be cared for, but to be disciplined into soldiers. like, get the kids young enough and they probably couldve manipulated and gaslit them into thinking they were loved and this is just what theyre supposed to do, or something, brainwash them into mindless pawns, but it seems like they didnt even care enough to grant them that tiny mercy. evidently, they didn't need to, cause they managed to get what they wanted without it more often than not, it seems.

"She’s trying to be kind, but Wooyoung just feels patronized." god yeah i really be kinning natgig wooyo here SDFDFHKd i know the feel of being bad at smth and people tryna be nice abt it in a way that does not feel great All Too Well, thats too real. honestly it became Really easy to insert myself into woo's shoes this chapter in general.

He’s not ashamed of it, if anything, he’s proud. They can’t break him, he hasn’t let them. He will never let them.

LOVE that resolve there, this kind of thing will ALWAYS makes a favourite character for me - the proud problem child. the problem child who knows their a problem and continues to do so on purpose bc they know the whole system is bullshit, i feel so represented in this chilis, so gorgeously put too. and “All praise, I’m sure.”? the fucking AUDACITY. obsessed. i love him

me immediately lighting up at the off-handed mention of felix like 👀👀👀 ayo thats my baby hiii 👀👀👀 i do wonder how wooyo ended up in the elemental orphanage if he was so bad at it that he could barely light a candle on a good day like surely at that point just be like uhhh freak accident lol not me :) or something SKJGHSKDGF yeah yeonjun good at everything canon. giving bighit legendary trainee teas

god warden is absolutely infuriating i wish i could bring him back from the dead just to light him on fire Again and watch him burn but slower this time <3 like he really came at a 13 year old with a sword thats fucked UP. yeonjun is so me

this part were woo comments abt how easy itd be for yeonjun to take out wardens makes me wonder how this place runs if the wardens arent elementals too like. yeonjuns death was a freak accident wasnt it or just really well timed and lucky, if yeonjun and winter couldve taken down as many wardens as they did, what was stopping more of the kids banding together and having an uprising?? or is that just not plot relevant KFDSHKSDKFHK

the kiss </3333 the whole awkward but wholesome young love of it all 🥺🥺 "But now, as Yeonjun places his hand on Wooyoung’s shoulder in order to pull him closer, he guesses it sort of makes sense." love that line “It’s that I can’t stand the thought of being left here without you.” and if i sob

“You better not get us all killed.” AHAHAHA. I LOVE. FORESHADOWING. AHAHA HA. HA. [said loudly through tears and gritted teeth]

"Carter. It’s strange, that’s the first time Wooyoung has heard one of their real names. It almost feels too human." something abt this is just so heartbreaking.

"They were just kids, trying to play a grown-up game. Now they’ve lost." i wish i cute use my discore emojis like normal ones. have the pngs instead

"Then she clenches her fist, and it all rushes towards them, like a terrifying blizzard limited to only a few seconds. And Yeonjun does not waste a single one of them." something abt this is so BADASS like i could Feel the movement there, the rush, like ooooh bitch shits goin DOWN now. "Yeonjun has never gone full out in the Assessment Day duels, he’s never had to." the sheer POWER this radiates??

Leaning forward, he connects his lips with the boy’s own, hoping that somehow it may breathe life back into him. That the gods may see two of their supposed “gifted” suffering, and grant them a second chance. A chance to live outside of the walls of the orphanage, as something other than a machine created for slaughter. To go to a real school, to eat a real meal. To love one another freely.

LITERALLY FUCKING HEARTBREAKING. COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY HEARTBREAKING. I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO SAY I AM JUST VERY SAD AND SUEING YOU FOR THE EMOTIONAL DAMAGES, MY LAWYER WILL BE IN CONTACT.

got the ending of that scene man the way you write is so moody and powerful i love it, those last three lines, ugh DELICIOUS. extremely seeing visions.

mannn this is even more heartbreaking i know it makes sense for winter to blame wooyoung in this situation hes the most logical target to direct her grief to and it basically IS his fault but he was right to try!! he tried his best he didnt Mean for any of this he doesnt deserve all the blame for wanting a better life for them 😭😭😭 man im so mfuckin SAD. they were a little family and it went so so wrong it was already sad enough that they were all each other had but now 😭😭😭 MAN. I CANT BELIEVE YOUVE DONE THIS.

"It’s the moment she gave up on him. The moment she stopped loving him." DO YOU HEAR. THE SOUND OF MY HEART SHATTERING INTO A MILLION PIECES. JESUS CHRIST WOMAN THIS LINE SHOULD BE FUCKING ILLEGAL I AM TAKING YOU TO JAIL 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

gloria... and thats where it all begins, i guess. have we been thru how/when woosan met in much detail yet or did i just forget. sDHFKHSKDF

mm yep here comes the shock and horror right on cue, have fun wrestling w that one mc SDFKHSDF cant wait to see this torment her and eat her up from the inside. hope one day she just fuckin snaps.

i think its very realistic that wooyoung still blames himself for what happened to yeonjun n winter but doesnt regret killing everyone. like despite the very heavy handed themes of wrestling w guilt for ending lives, clearly showing its morally wrong and not something any of the characters think is a good thing inherently, he still knows he was justified in it, and would do it again. i like that. the line about guilt tho. ooooooooooft.

and there we go, the reason why he goes by woo :') oh my got that is utterly devastating. and the guilt part. hooo boy. i will say i didnt expect mc to be the first person he tells all this too, i figured at least san would know by now, but it makes sense why he didn't. im seeing that despite how close the trio - especially woosan in particular - seems, there is still a very big distance between them they've all been too guarded to cross.

"Yet, while he may expect that to make you pity him, it only makes you respect him far more than you ever had." THE MUTUAL RESPECT BAYBEE. continuing to snort this dynamic like crack

THIS NEXT SCENE OHHHHHHHHHH MY GODDDDDD I WILL BE THINKING ABT THIS ONE FOR A WHILE. HIM OPENING UP AND ADMITTING DEFEAT. I WAS WRONG ABOUT YOU. I WAS WRONG NOT TO TRUST YOU. IM SORRY. OH MY GOD. SWEET BABY YOU ARE RIGHT AND THAT MIGHT JUST BREAK YOU. HE LITERALLY HAS SUCH BAD TRUST ISSUES AND THIS IS GONNA MAKE THEM SO MUCH WORSE WOOYOUNG BABY IM SORRY 😭😭😭😭

"His reward for such vulnerability? A horrible betrayal that will prove he was right about you to begin with." PAIN. PAIN AND SADNESS AND AGONY. "Woo is right, guilt really is the heaviest thing a person can carry." ABSOLUTE SUCKER PUNCH OF A CALLBACK AND AN ENDING LINE, ABSOLUTELY HAUNTING, 10/10 WOULD READ AGAIN BUT ID ALSO LAUNCH YOU OUT A WINDOW IF I COULD.

in conclusion. i both feel like i owe you all my money but also i deserve financial compensation for what you just put me through. i need to give you a solid hi five but also a handshake w those hand taser buttons. cant wait for the next chapter. im going to go eat sheet metal <3

Not all that Glitters is Gold -> 07

series pairing: (fem) princess!reader x seonghwa x san x wooyoung. eventual polyamory.

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Part Seven: an orphanage, an elemental, and comfort

series rating: 16+

series genre: action and adventure. romance. angst. fluff. suggestive. fantasy au.

series warnings: character death, blood and violence, weaponry, injury, suggestive content, mxm content, elements of misogyny, language, monsters. (will only be using chapter specific warnings for things not included on this list.)

summary: as a princess fleeing a royal assassination attempt, you have no choice but to put your trust in a band of three thieves in order to reach the kingdom of kuroku alive. however, amongst magic, deceit, and the bounty hunters that are hot on your trail, you realize that you might have stumbled upon a relationship far more complicated than what meets the eye.

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[phagodyke]

also not my flatmate earlier being like wow I forgot u were into scifi....... girl. like sorry for not being into star trek/star wars I guess but????

[toruro]

ship game!! 🙀🙀

hopefully i didnt read it wrong and its open 💔💔 but i was curious so id like to try! sorry if its too long :(

i'm introverted around people i dont know and dont tend to initiate conversation unless im comfortable enough with you, but im usually quite energetic and 🆙🆙 around my friends! im internally not as hyper as i show however, and i actually unexpectedly love deep conversations and i value someone who can have fun with me and yet also have some maturity when needed :) BONUS if theyre passionate about what they do its so attractive

- anon 😼 (yes im going with the cat 💔💔 the 🐯 was out of habit... guess who my bias is fr 😭😭)

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ahhh i ship u chan. take this as an extreme compliment bc i am very serious abt gatekeeping him and hao and this is slightly paining me to type but as i was reading what u wrote i was immediately drawn to him. specifically bc i was thinking abt him in the svt x game caterers vids ... chan was so thoughtful abt including wonwoo, a quieter member, and getting him to participate and i feel like u and him would just mesh rly well together! chan also definitely has both a fun side to him but also a side that is obviously very serious and dedicated to his work and :[ sobs i love him so much but ya! i hope this makes sense ^^

[chisatowo]

Gm I forgot to take my melatonin supplements last night and as a consequence I now have deep backstory hcs for deep cut. And by that I mean for Shiver, Frye and Big man had pretty normal lives fkgndjd

[cheswirls]

also its still weird on me to reflect back on the influence tether has had?? started the outline in september 2018 and published it all feb-mar 2019. its been out for a HOT minute. i dont think ppl realize how many elements that featured in tether are so mainstream when considering op aus in a pkmn verse. or, a better way to word that: i don't think ppl realize how many "common" ideas come from this one long fic posted over five years ago.

sabo getting ace's starter pkmn after ace dies is from tetherverse. i'm so glad ppl like it enough to carry it on for this long but lmao that's where it comes from. that's shit i completely made up for a one-off lawlu fic!! it's so euphoric like i am in no way upset tether's legacy has outlived the hype abt the fic itself. it's just funny (and endearing!) for me to see pkmn au headcanons for luffy or sabo or law or whoever and very starkly be able to point out which came from tetherverse.

i had the basics of ace and sabo's travels established while i was still outlining part one of tether. some of these ideas that will be in the sequel are ideas i've had for OVER five years now. ace dying in a freak accident and sabo claiming ownership over his charizard. striker being the one to give sabo all his burns so their relationship is tense but when they do eventually fully trust each other they're able to mega evolve into mega x (contrasting ace's mega y to show that striker is now 100% sabo's pokemon). them living near mt. ember and ace dying at the base of mt. silver and the whole "call of moltres" that causes so much more fiasco than necessary. sabo's starter dying while him and ace are abroad and sabo morphing into a fire-type trainer after ace dies and sabo having to fight and fight and fight to solve the mystery behind his brother's murder because the world will not let him just die already. it's taken so long for him to recover, to get used to ace no longer being around to support him, and now he has to feel that same raw pain of loss for every time he's almost killed when venturing too deep into something bigger than he is or ever will be.

when the sequel comes out i rly want tetherverse to be thrust into the limelight again no matter how shortly. it's not like i need acknowledgement but i think it would be so cool for ppl to connect the dots and go 'oh!! so that's where that came from!!!'

thinkin abt tetherverse yet again

[sunagakures]

skfjskfkskf!!!!!!! 😭

[lustbile]

ah yes my presence has been requested but like…… do u wanna know sexually, romatically or just in general???? jaehyun is…. smthin else LOL like he gives me idgaf vibes but also gives me like ultimate form of romance vibes….. maybe its bc hes an aqua sun but has a taurus moon and pisces rising…. but he also has an aqua venus so likely he would make u chase him lol. def the type to pretend he isnt THAT interested and in all realness probably thinks that open affection and trusting others doesnt seem that safe…. like on one hand hes rly a romantic guy but can also be detached and/or unpredictable!! he has a leo lillith which is insane to me and tells me alot abt him actually, very provocative and visually and sexually appealing (as we all know LOL what a man) hes an aqua stellium which literally just means Emotionally Stunted and Hates Everyone and hes actually rly introverted and easily annoyed by ppl, does not like talking abt how hes feeling (wow an aquarius not liking their own feelings??? shocker) his taurus moon and pisces rising combo r what make him a romantic, w his taurus moon in the second house he tends to only rly entertain/make the first move in a relationship only if hes sure the other party likes him first lol. hes actually very dependant on positive feedback and often looks for admiration but hes also very capable and loyal which is so sweet :,) on the neg side tho w his moon square venus his emotional and romantic needs can actually cause tensions,, and he may not know what he wants. bc of his auqa venus he can come off as stand-offish, is threatened by restrictions of any kind, and will also need his own space. unfortunately, (this is NOT a reflection of him at all, just an observation of this placement in his chart.) he could have affairs, as it is hard for him to define his own boundaries and can get hurt in love very easily. marraige may not be for him, tbh. long distance relationships may seem more attainable or desirable to him tho!! v uncomfortable w grand shows of emotions. hes honestly very open-minded and sees the world the way he wants,, n both his appearances and mannerisms make him quite intriguing to others. (bc of his pisces rising!! honestly not surprised that hes a pisces rising bc he has a v piscean/water sign face/look) sexually hes actually rly more likely to be more into unconventional things, i think. in sex i dont THINK he has a chance of being submissive, if at all. he’s dominant for sure, but not in the way johnny or yuta are. jaehyun idealizes sexuality and love, but hes actually rly rly passionate. i def think hes into your basic rougher kinks: choking, biting, scratching, etc. probably enjoys a bit of slapping, maybe degradation too. could probably into pet play. (puppy moreso than kitten, imo) following on that, probably is elated to let other nct members see you like that. would probably have you sit at his feet in lingerie w your tail and ears, a pretty collar and leash attached to your neck while he has company. it brings out that obsessive need for him to control, and absolutely drives him nuts (especially knowing in the back of his mind that you love and trust him so much that you would let yourself be put in this situation in the first place and enjoy it just as much as he does). i dont think he would ever share, tho, or let anyone watch him fuck you. he seems more like someone who would enjoy sir and master more than daddy when it comes to titles. wants to hear you vocalize everything. affirmations, answering his questions, dissatisfactions, everything. i dont think he’s loud. probably more likely to grunt and growl, and maybe youll get a deep, languide moan when he cums. i do think he’s into somnophilia, the idea of you giving him that level of control, letting him use you like a fleshlight probably rly, rly gets him going. a TEASE. im not a jae bias, but thinking abt him pressing you into the matress w his hand on the back of ur neck and just lowley telling u how bad he wants you, teasing abt how needy u are for his dick. (continuing in another ask lol rip)-🪐

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is probably into non-con and honestly, more likely to be into dubcon as hes probably a horny ass bitch. could be into period sex, knife play, and asphyxiation play. would absolutely be the typa man to push your face into his pelvis while you suck him off and plug your nose. thrives off the choking noises you make and the whimper you let out when you pull off his dick and he gives u a lil slap on the face. i feel like jae is on another level when it omes to being freaky, you just have to drag it out of him. theres alot of layers to this man and honestly if you want a relationship w him be prepared to put in WORK lol bc (based on his chart, ffs dont attack me for saying this) any type of insecurities where you get jealous/defensive will probably make him vanish into thin air. will probably let problems sit and rot before confronting them. will be more likely to walk out than to fix things unless hes like RLY in love with you. like i said, be prepared to put in work lol. jaehyun is an enigma but he has such potential to be an incredible partner, lover, and best friend. (also this is the first time im ~actually~ looking at his chart lol dont @ me if some things r wrong or off!!!)