#and i do in fact don’t like anybody
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“i don’t like men like that, i just wanna have what they had”
and it’s laurens and hamilton
“i’m not a horse girl, but he’s just like me fr”
and it’s richard kidder “fastest rider, only one to consistently have more than one horse at a time during his time as an aide” meade
“i’m not british at heart”
AND STILL I DRINK OVER 2 LITERS OF VARIOUS TEAS A DAY
#calling myself out here#i in fact to like men like that#in a gay way#and i do in fact like women that way#in a lesbian way#and i do in fact don’t like anybody#in an aroace spec way#and i am in fact a horse girl#in an autistic way#and i have a little british in my soul#in a tea-drinker way
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The Bridgerton boys really are all hoes.
Anthony - the ‘so intense it makes him stupid’ hoe
Benedict - the ‘hoe for a good cause’
Colin - the ‘self-absorbed, dumb of ass’ hoe
#in this rewatch my oldest sibling senses light up like a fucking christmas tree every time Colin opens his mouth#like honey you need to be taken down a peg or six and I volunteer to do the honors#benedict’s hoe-ness just makes him sweet#like yeah you funky lil bisexual sweetheart embrace your hoe ass#i sympathize with (but do not excuse) anthony bc the weight of being the one chaotic sexy to rule them all truly is a calling#anthony bridgerton is everything chaotic bisexual eldest children strive to be:#filled with YearningTM and RAGE#but literally most of anthony’s decisions got me muttering ‘hoe don’t do it’ and then me suffering as i watch the hoe in fact do it#colin’s currently (circa early S2) just a fucking douche canoe bc he is still a teenage boy#he just needs someone to take him out at the kneecaps#and again I’m volunteering#benedict’s hoe-ness does no harm to anybody and mostly manifests as an adorable ‘clueless but ready to learn’ himbo air#Colin’s ignorant and anthony’s just comprised of rage and spite at this point#bridgerton#bridgerton brothers#no comment on gregory bc while I’m sure he’ll develop his own strain of hoe-ness I won’t make assumptions#anthony bridgerton#benedict bridgerton#colin bridgerton#bridgerton siblings
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my romantic self-esteem is just absolutely rock-solid. for whatever reason!
#I’m a catch!#and I’m so not interested in anybody who wouldn’t demonstrably make my life better in every way#and that involves not being afraid of me or the idea of romance/marriage in general#and if you are afraid it just isn’t interesting or attractive enough for me#there was a boy a few years ago and tbh I think he liked me#and I liked him! he was cute he was intense in an endearing way#and he was smart#we argued about Taylor and then the next time I saw him he was like Christmas tree farm is a good song#(it had just come out)#and he never did anything about it and then he moved away and that is totally fine#and I wish him well.#but the crush was killed by the simple fact that he never liked me enough to say it#like truly and with all (non-romantic) love; go with God#at that point lol#that said I have never wanted marriage or children as an abstract concept#so it makes it much easier to think along these lines#it would be so devastating to want it so badly and not get it!#but I can’t even imagine summoning the desire for it in an abstract sense#I’ll meet someone and love them and then that will lead to marriage and possibly children#or I won’t#but both roads look about the same to me in terms of desire#or any desire big enough worth mentioning#not talking about the whispers or the daydreams that do sometimes intrude#but yeah I don’t think full desire would come until there was a person#and there might not be! I cannot conjure them from the deeps lol#anyway I’ll stop talking about it because I know it can be sensitive/delicate to talk about#in a public setting
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sometimes it’s just… ‘oh had so much fun on vacation!’ ‘went to a cool concert!’ ‘had a fun day out with my friends!’ cool??? don’t remember what the fuck that’s like since i’m constantly the one forced to be in charge of everything ever.
#ooc. o kaptain.#[i have a car? of COURSE I must be the ride if anybody wants to do anything. that’s my fucking JOB. birthday? figure out my own plans. can’t#exactly make them because Mia’s sick. have a devastatingly depressing birthday in my house trying not to cry all day. vacation??? lmfao I#haven’t gone anywhere in three fucking years what’s that like??? I am absolutely bitter and exhausted and fucking angry. I have no family#left because they all died. and the last person I DO have is so sick the only enrichment I can receive is taking care of her. until#hopefully she gets better. but when is THAT guaranteed in my shithole fucking life??? I love spiraling with no way to remedy the issue#because I literally live with the fucking issue and she’s the last thing I have. basically: fuck life and fuck this. I don’t even know what#it’s like. I don’t even know how to fucking enjoy anything anymore because I CANT. THERE IS NO OPPORTUNITY TO. I DO NOT HAVE ONE. In fact I#have to do MODULES FOR WORK. THAT. THAT is the most FUCKING stimulation I can get. whatever. I fucking hate everything. I fucking hate#everything everything everything. and this is purposeless because it ain’t gonna stop! anytime soon! ever!]#medical /#negativity /#negative /
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okay clown moment i didn’t see the yuta rant page but that doesn’t make it better does it.
#this shit has me in shambles man WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNNNNNN#so not only do i get to grapple with the fact that gojo’s body is still being used as a weapon even post mortem#i ALSO have to sit here and think about how we’re probably also losing yuta. good fucking bye#AND that this is a full circle moment for him as in becoming like the man he despises to save his friends#against his will. just like he cursed rika against his will and started this whole campaign shit#*gouges my eyes out and throws them on the floor* i don’t need those anymore NIGHT FOLKSSSS#should’ve just stayed my ass asleep smh#jjk#jjk 261#jjk manga spoilers#yuta okkotsu#in 2 chapters we’ll find out that megumi has also been dead the whole time and then it’s wraps#we’ll not have anybody left by the end of this. fuck all that#GEGE LEMME SEE YOU PUSH A teee
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I think it’s true that educational institutions are not set up to support people with ADHD and other forms of disabilities and I would never judge someone else for failing out of college but it’s still hard for me to apply that to myself when I feel like it’s still true that I could be trying harder and if I were a better person I would just force myself to focus, and I don’t feel like I have no control over it because sometimes I have been able to do that. And even with extensions I don’t turn things in on time these days, I feel like I need time pressure to have any hope of getting things done so I don’t know what kind of accommodation would even help at this point
#intellectually I believe that ‘laziness’ is largely not real#but I can’t help but feel like I’m lazy#although I comfort myself by the fact that when it comes to jobs that don’t require focus and organizing your own time#I do work hard#even though I don’t think going overboard for a company that doesn’t care about you is a badge of honor#idk I just hate myself for my uselessness in school but it never seems to sufficiently motivate me#no matter how mad at myself I am#and right now I find it really hard to focus on anything because of everything that’s going on in the world#even though I know that failing out of school over it won’t help anybody#personal
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not been a good day today fellas
#i miss my ex i have no irl friends that i hang out with anymore because of that#cant believe i used to be happy!! lol!!!#thee suicidal thoughts have come back#lost the good old self harm battle 14 days into 2024#i want to die!!! lol!!!! lmao!!!!!!!!#vent#get me out of here fr this shit fucking sucks#i don’t want to work at this job i have no friends i have no prospects#im scared of driving even tho i just got my permit again a couple days ago#i feel like im never going to do anything productive with my life#i hate the way i look i hate this fucking body i was born into#i hate god etc etc#i cant ever have confidence in a relationship again because im afraid they’re not really attracted to me#and they’re doing it for a joke or something#surely there’s a word for that#idk! i feel like i will never fit in with anybody because of the way i am#(homeschooled autistic idiot raised jehovah’s witness)#not to mention the fact that im queer#god!! i fucking hate everything right now myself most of all#im so sick of this i wish i had a different life#why couldn’t i have been born a skinny dude.#maybe then i’d want to kill myself slightly less#also pls don’t comment on this im going to bed#ill be fine eventually i dont have an actual way to do anything
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also this barely even needs saying because y’all have been 99.9% little toilet angels and very sportsmanlike overall during this tournament
but I just wanted to remind everyone not to be actively rude/negative towards the competition of whoever you’re voting for
I haven’t seen anything too severe, and l love the playful banter of course (keep it up)! just be mindful of your fellow voters <3
#that kind of negativity always puts me off when I’m following tournaments tbh#like I’ll see posts like that say#i just want (character/media I don’t like) to lose#and stuff like that. and it’s like… obviously they have many genuine fans rooting for them and they don’t want to see that here#i don’t think it’s gonna win anybody to your side and in fact it usually makes me do the opposite lmao#but either way that’s barely applicable here because I’ve only seen 1 or 2 things this whole time that seemed *possible* borderline rude#I just wanted to make it clear here because I’ve seen some things in other tournaments and I don’t want it here#thank you everyone for making this such a pleasant tournament to run so far ❤️❤️❤️
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It’s amazing how quickly you can go from being someones friend to their most hated enemy. From daily messages to blocked on every platform. It’s amazing how little your friends actually need you, how easy it is for them to move on without you. It’s amazing, how little you really matter to anyone that isn’t you.
#Anyone that isn’t you can and will live without you if you fuck up even ONCE. You don’t matter to them. You are replaceable to them.#And you’re sitting here like I don’t feel that way about my friends! And like neither do I#But in my experience#this is how humans are. They can and will leave you#instantaneously#And then just... never fucking think about you again. Like none of it ever mattered. Like you didn’t spend years like brothers.#You don’t matter to anybody like they matter to you#And unfortunately that’s just the facts#Sorry to be a doomer. It’s probably gonna b like this for a while around here#Gonna be like my old da account. New status update! Soul crushing vent#I was gonna be higher and better than that on this account but that was before I got hit with another gut punch loss in January#Soooo nvm
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I know i’m functionally a gay DARE officer at this point but I do in fact feel some sort of way about Cocaine being back in vogue. Surely I sound like a square + narc and I’ll concede ok do whatever you want, nobody can materially stop another person from using drugs if they really want to 🤷🏻 I don’t really care that it’s hip to do party drugs, moreso I want to articulate a general level of caution and concern that I never see a sidecar of harm reduction and safe using practices along with the commonplace clips of people straight up snorting coke I’ve seen for “brat summer!!!1!!”
You 🫵 are not immune to ingesting fentanyl or any number of other additives. Do you think drugs at the gay club are different than the drugs people are taking under bridges and in gutters? I promise they’re not! So if you want to use drugs and continue being alive, do your part to be safe. Protecting yourself protects others and your community.
Do not accept drugs from strangers. Test your drugs with fentanyl test strips. Carry narcan and know how to administer it. Never use alone. Have an exit strategy if you’re using drugs in a public space. Know the contact information for your local harm reduction groups, overdose emergency hotline, and if you need/want it, addiction treatment orgs. This is all the bare minimum for community care if you intend to be out in the world using drugs. Mainly I encourage you all to be buzzkills if it means you don’t have to die of an accidental overdose. Overdose is the leading cause of death for Americans under 40. I have a whole lot of social workers in my network and however bad you think the synthetic opioid crisis is, it’s worse. The war stories I’ve heard from my people on the ground are… The shit of nightmares. Don’t let it be you or anybody you love.
If you live in the state of Georgia, DM me for a longer list of resources.
Fentanyl information (harm reduction.org)
Get Narcan
How to use fentanyl test strips
Call 311 to find out where to get Narcan in your community at no cost to you
#rtxt#addiction#harm reduction#My mutuals who post about using drugs I’m peering at you like a little creeper!#This is ok to reblog!
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(singing) oooohhhh babyyyyy i want to bash my head innnnn toniiiiiight <33333333
#i want to kill my seeeelf….oooooh#it’s so fucking frustrating because i KNOW it’s stupid and i KNOW it’s illogical and i KNOW it’s beyond my control#and i would never ever judge someone else for it#but like i’ve said a million times. when *i* want it it’s bad and wrong#jeeesus i should really just go to a club and get it over with#but it’s hard. i’m so disgusted with myself all the time it makes me sick to my stomach#and i’m scared#i’m scared i’m going to like it too much#im scared im goigg to hurt someone#and it’s so STUPID because OBVIOUSLY i’m not going to hurt anybody people do this all the time#but i’ve spent the past ten years tying these things together in my head and placing them so high up#that even just looking at them makes me dizzy imagining the fall#and i KNOW it’s normal and i KNOW it’s fine but it doesn’t FEEL fine#i FEEL like a corned coyote and i’m snarling and snapping and trying to tell them to fuck OFF but they won’t LISTEN#and it’s like! what is wrong with me! why am i like this!#and then on the other hand obviously there’s the fact that i’m also the worlds biggest prude and also a coward and every time someone tries#to get close to me i run away#so i’ll never work through anything. el oh el 💖#whooo wants to love me and let me dangle them by the string forever and tease them and hurt them and make them cry and be sooo sorry after#call now for a personalized free trial of heartbreak and despair!#for someone who wasn’t raised religious i sure have a hell of a lot of existential guilt#not to mention i literally joke about it all the time and no one bats an eye so i don’t know what im working myself up about#because! again! normal human adult thing!#but i knowww i could hurt people and i know i would like it. i would love every sick second of it#i get drunk on the power because i always do and it feels so good to be powerful and it feels so good to be feared#and i remember how good it felt to just keep going and see the blood and keep going and im so fucked up im serious i think there’s something#really wrong with me#single For Your Safety and im not kidding#World’s Guiltiest Sadist Contemplates Suicide for Twelfth Time This Week: Will She Really Do It This Time?#The Answer As Always Is No
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Okay I’m adding two more resolutions for 2025. I am exclusively mood-reading books, which means no TBR and no regimented planned reading, and I am also refusing to wear anything I don’t want to wear
#my mum asked if i’m dressing up for new year’s dinner and i was like actually no i’m really not#in past years i would’ve put on something slightly uncomfortable and non-temperature appropriate just to look nice#and yeah it’s a nice-ish restaurant we’re going to. but there’s no dress code or anything#what i’m wearing right now is clean; comfortable; fitted; i’m warm in it; i feel like i can move in it and eat a three course meal#(it’s basically stretchy jeggings and a cotton jumper)#i was thinking about putting on tights and a dress but i was like you know what fuck that#we’re not being uncomfortable in 2025#like i MIGHT put boots on instead of wearing my running trainers to the nice restaurant but you’ll have to be satisfied with that i’m afraid#i’m also not ingesting anything i do not want to ingest. meaning no i will not be having wine with dinner#i don’t feel like it. i might not be drinking anything other than water for the foreseeable in fact#the book thing might not make sense to anybody. basically i really like joining reading challenges/readathons because sometimes i genuinely#do not know what i want to read; and it gives me a sense of accomplishment when i complete stuff#but too many of them have really specific prompts that lead to me creating a really regimented tbr of like 6 specific books#i ‘have’ to read in THIS specific order and like…… we’re not doing it anymore#truly i’m embarrassed that it’s taken me this long to have this epiphany but genuinely#if your reading challenge doesn’t allow me to freestyle a bit i am simply not doing it. or i’ll make my own or simply not do one that month#idk. either way i did find one with some pretty broad general prompts and there’s no specific order at all so i printed that one out#my problem right now is there are too many books i want to read LOL#i want to finish butter but i want to start the next whyborne and griffin book but i want to read lolita and i also want to read mars house-#help.#personal
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I love going through the tags of a post about cute-ifying toxic horror style couples, and seeing people list children’s media. God forbid people are silly about children’s media.
#nvm the fact that wouldn’t a lot of the people being silly#be themselves children???#most exhausting part of liking said toxic horror style couples is being surrounded by 2010 edgelords#nvm that it’s simply more embarrassing to be pretentious about being edgy with a show for children#like I don’t even think it says anything wrong with you if you’re into a show for kids#but like… Be Aware that you do look foolish#trying to talk down to anybody about it
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ok i need to be very kind to myself and acknowledge that i had a good day regardless of how it ended but i did find out that my other best friend (no.4) is asking someone out meaning nearly every person i know is either at that stage or in a relationship and i’m wondering at what point do i start ramping up my insanity in hopes of finding any kind of love
#i’m hot these days (none of y’all liked my selfies though :/) but like. i was way more attractive#based on pure statistics when i was crazy fucking insane so like. i think that’s the strat.#i know this sounds horrible but i’m slowly going to lose my mind over this#i genuinely have no idea what i’m doing wrong i’ll fall in love with ANYBODY#it’s not even that i’m asexual strangers don’t know that that might be a moot point anyway!#people just don’t get drawn to me and it’s really fucking getting to me#because i don’t want to be like. wingman person anymore. i don’t WANT to date#but like i also need to. i need to be desired even if it really unsettles me#because i do want romance in general and if not right now then when?#i need to burn something down to be really honest because this is just.scary.#i’m watching everyone knowing they’ll leave me and i have no leverage or control#there’s nothing stopping them and if i had a lover maybe i could#i just can’t figure out what i’m doing wrong this is so fucking terrifying to me#i am starting to hate my appearance bc like should i? but i’m really pretty also?#and like maybe i’m not funny or cool enough. do i not know enough people?#do i just need to flirt with everyone? honestly i’ve tried that#do i need to lie and say i’m not a lesbian? do i need to stop talking? talk more?#i don’t understand why anybody likes me but i want to be loved forever so fucking bad#it’s killing me it’s KILLING ME. i don’t understand the dating scene i don’t get it#but i can be beautiful and funny and i can make it work but maybe i’m not good enough#i don’t know how to be a better person i’m so scared people will leave#maybe i stop saying i’m asexual and maybe that will make it work#i can’t tell if saying you’re asexual is a turn on or off i get really mixed reactions.#i don’t know. never listen to me about anything.#but look at my selfies i’m kind of going fucking insane about those too. but like idc#maybe i’m a hollow rotten person that seems about right. i mean. it’s a known fact that i can’t love. not really
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feel so stupidly horribly miserably painfully Bad . Lol
#Perhaps i am a secretly uniquely horrible person ..#Perhaps i will never be fully completely understood by anyone ..#Perhaps i should rot in my hole until i wither away ..#not even my dab pen is saving me . Shit is quite bad!!!!!#Wditing to continue to ramble in tags as i do not want to make another post. Thank u : been crying all fuckin day and spiraling a tiny bit#and it feels extra dumb because i NEED to be doing job apps. and i haven’t don’t any in like a week ?? my dad had a bad health scare and it#just kind of shook me up but also maybe i’m using that as an excuse for why i’ve been lazy. Lol . who knows . just mad and tired of myself#Also have been daydreaming of getting a Tender hug and Kiss on the head and Loving eyes . does anybody know when it all ends#Ok sorry last thing . i got my period a couple days ago and usually i get super depressed right before and then it wanes. However. it is#getting Worse. and that simple fact is making me even more sick n tired. ok goodnight all#Ok editing again to tack on more sorry but i think things will feel a bit better when i go back 2 my apartment. been at home and Lol#was visibly very sad down around my family and they get like. Mad. disdainful. ok sorry!!!!! What!!!!!
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(nsfw, 18+)
gojo hates the fact that you go on dates.
he despises it whenever you bring another guy over, wants to jam a pencil into his ears whenever he hears you moan (horribly) when the guy fails to make you come.
but he loves it whenever you come sulking back to him.
“mmh, f-fuck, ‘toru slow down!” you cry around his fat cock, your fingers digging into his shoulder has your legs lock around his waist.
“you know you love it,” he seethes, his hair flipping into his face as sweat dots at his forehead. you look gorgeous like this; the makeup you so carefully did earlier smudged and running down your face as tears streak down your cheeks.
“y-yeah, but…” you trail off into a loud whine when he drops his hand down to rub at your clit, squeezing your eyes shut at the feeling.
“but what?” he presses, dropping his face down to suck at your neck and chest, leaving behind dark marks in their wake, knowing anybody who saw you would see them.
“you’re usually, fuck, you’re usually not this…” you think about the right word in the midst of his relentless pounding, biting in your lip as he pinches your nipple a between two fingers, tugging at it harshly as you cry out again, “a-aggressive.”
the grin he gives you is toothy, eyes blazing a dark blue as he pulls at your bottom lip, nipping at it as his dick prods at the gummy spot deep within you.
“just need to give you a reminder sweetheart.” he says, nudging at your jaw as you tilt your head towards, giving him room to plant wet and messy kisses on your neck. his hips pick up pace as he feels you clenching more around him, the dim light from his lamp highlighting the way your essence shines around his length, mixing with his pre.
“need a, f-fuck! need a reminder for what?” you pout, your eyes so sweet yet your body so fucking tempting as you pull him closer to you, your nails digging into his back, sure to leave some red lines.
“that, shit,” he takes in a deep breath, his eyes rolling back as he feels himself about to come, “that nobody can fuck you the way i do.”
his thumb on your clit moved faster as your whines and moans fill with his groans, your back arching, tits pressing into his chest as you feel him come inside you, your orgasm following his as you see white. you feel like your about to pass out with the way he continue to pump his dick and and out of you, making sure that you don’t waste his cum.
he slows to a stop, dropping his massive build on top of you as you let him.
“see?” he says after a beat, and despite the fact that he’s cocky and too full of himself, he’s right.
“yeah,” you heave a sigh, giving up as you tug on some of his hairs in annoyance, “you’re my best fuck by far.”
#gojo x reader#gojo x reader smut#gojo x you#gojo x you smut#jjk x reader#jjk x reader smut#gojo smut#satoru x reader#satoru x reader smut#jjk smut#gojo drabble#jujutsu Kaisen
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