#Perhaps i will never be fully completely understood by anyone ..

[girlgen1us]

feel so stupidly horribly miserably painfully Bad . Lol

[tanfilms]

hii!! perhap write some argument between xavier and reader and then them making up?? could be over anything

FIGHTS N’ GROVELING . . . 🦪

CHARACTERS. xavier thorpe 𝒙 reader

GENRE & WARNINGS. fluff. romance. sexual tension and suggestive themes. friends-ish to lovers.

SYNOPSIS. you would do anything to prove your best friend was not the Hyde, even if it went against your own safety.

A/N. sorry this is short! i wanted to start our simple to test my writing style if anyone liked it etc. I hope you actually like it :)

PS — english is not my first language and I use a correction app for a lot of things so please be gentle on me 😭 esp if the pov suddenly changes because i can’t catch mistakes sometimes!!

Your heart was hammering against your ribs in a pathetically rapid manner. You hated confrontations, the said action always leading to heated arguments with the unfortunate way you manage to handle bubbling situations. But what else were you to do?

An entire event. Almost the entirety of the dance was of complete silence and harsh glares from Xavier’s end after he saw you laugh along the arms of Tyler. It was a misunderstanding to be fair. You’d fallen on the paint covered ground of the dance floor and he’d helped you up after cracking a joke. You know as the best friend of the boy he’d assaulted that you should’ve declined his help and looked for Xavier, but he’d been stressing about Wednesday for the past week that you’d entirely forgotten any sort of friendship had been formed between the both of you.

“Fine, ignore me all you will but don’t act like you haven’t abandoned me for the past three weeks since the beginning of the year Xav-”

He aggressively wiped down the faux blood from his eyes, staring at you with what you can only assume was growing hatred, “Y/n, I am currently being accused of being a deadly monster that hurt his own friends, forgive me for trying to figure out why an Addams of all people, would come to this conclusion.”

Your frown deepens. That he never told you, so you’d went on to assume that he’d harboured a crush on her — which to be fair, you’d understood but also didn’t appreciate. “You never told me that, why do you never tell me anything anymore?”

“Great, somehow this is my fault and I’m to blame for trying not to have you worry, thanks Y/n, wonderful speaking with you.” And with that, he’d stormed off to the direction of his dorm, leaving your mouth agape and speechless as students scurry off with dramatic screams and painted dresses.

You didn’t like the way the conversation had ended, your core sprinkled with guilt as you let the immature side of your heart take over you back then. Looking around with no other place on your mind, you follow a trail you’d left before to his shack. If there is a chance he could ever be locked up, you’d want to be the only person to decrease it. So while shuffling the bottom of your dress into your arms, you slip your heels off as you run into the darkening woods.

His knees shook violently on the side of the bed. The night had passed since your argument, and by now you would normally come knocking on his door with a batch of apology cookies from the store that you’d claimed to bake.

But it was stillness from your side, no calls, no Enid speaking on your behalf; and it distressed his mind endlessly. Xavier was aware that he wasn’t fully at fault; but still partly to blame for your own careless actions, and so his heart weighed heavy on his chest since your absence. With swift movement, he’d clutched his phone, drying his hair once more with a towel before leaving his dorm in hopes to catch up with you quickly.

Walking through the halls, eyes landed on him in oddly intense stares. He cleared his throat as he slid his way past multiple pupils. “What is it with everyone today,” he murmured to himself, light drops of sweat catching onto his eyebrows furiously as he spotted a weeping Enid being comforted by Yoko on the other end of the hall — with a straight-faced Wednesday staring with a perplexed look upon the two.

The blonde caught sight of him, jumping up from her position to have her hands land on the taller boy’s shoulders. “Oh Xavier I’m so sorry, she just left and didn’t tell any of us where she was going. But i promise she’s going to be okay, she’s Y/n she’ll be fine!”

A heavy sigh left him as he felt a headache sneaking up on him, and his breathing race quicker at the mention of your name in a depressing manner. He gulped, throat dry and hands clenching a fistful of the ends of his shirt. “What are you talking about? What happened to Y/n?”

At that, the vampire and werewolf had plastered similar expressions on all of their faces, and it frustrated him even more. Wednesday’s lips tugged upwards in a smirk, tilting her head agonisingly before speaking up. “Incredible. One would assume that you would be the first to know that your supposed ‘best friend’ was caught in the hands of the Hyde yesterday after the dance…was it not after a quarrel you two were having or am I wro-”

The words were cut off after Enid smacked her arm with a shriek and an alarmed face of shock, a frown on her lips as she watched Xavier’s mood shift from frustration to clear raging fear. It was his fault.

“She’s not dead,” Yoko spoke up, “She was in the infirmary with a couple face scratches and a past bleeding womb. It wasn’t bad enough for an urgent ride to the hospital, so she’s currently residing in her own dorm passed out from exhaustion.”

The Thorpe’s nods were faded as he was lost in his own head, horrible theory’s of your current well-being jumping one another in a consistent manner to assault his thoughts. Hands visibly shaking as quick as his ragged breaths, he uttered a low thank you to the trio before his feet were painfully dragging him to your direction.

Anger. Hurt. Confusion. All piled upon him like a sudden crashing wave when he’d reached your door. What do they mean you’re not left in a hospital? Did you not deserve better care? Better care than what he could’ve possibly offered? Too busy allowing his thoughts to consume him and wallowing in his own misery, he flinched when the door jiggled open — your tired yet bright figure gazing at him strangely.

“Y/n…” he whispered, your name igniting a fire in the pit of his stomach. Xavier’s pale hands were clutching the hot chocolate and food he’d picked up on his way here for you, hands burning but your presence numbing it all. You smiled teasingly, already knowing why he’s here before stepping backwards and letting him inside.

Licking your lips, you watched as he set the bag and cup on your desk table before your back softly hit the wall behind you in a sudden movement. Lavender engulfing your senses, your favourite, as his arms wrapped around you in a soothing matter; as if you were the most fragile thing left in this world right now, and in his eyes you most definitely were.

“Am I here to comfort you or is it the other way around Thorpe?” Your tone was light hearted, joking with him in hopes of forgetting what had occurred before hand but it brought him back to his senses. Xavier let you go swiftly and his lips curled up as yours were pursed. “Why are you stupid enough to leave out to the woods, almost in the middle of the night, with nothing to protect you?? Did you seriously not think that through?”

Sighing, you reached out for the mug of delicacy behind him, huffing before thinking carefully of your next words. “I did it on purpose asshole. My whole intention was to get hurt.”

“What?” He blinked once, then twice awaiting for your explanation that left him agitated in his spot but he couldn’t find it in himself to rush you as you consumed your drink and dug through the bag of food. You looked so weak at the moment, skin pale from the medication he spotted near your drawer — enhancing the glint trickling in your eyes and the soft colour of your lips. A rippling sense of calmness flooded his senses watching you eat, ignoring the bruises piled up near the end of your eyes for his own sake and sanity.

“Hmm sorry, i’m just hungry. They’ve fed me nothing but soup the whole day — yuck,” coughing, you continued, “You would never hurt me no matter how angry you are at me Xav. Even if i trashed your Art shed again — still immensely sorry about that — you’re nothing but gentle with me and I just wanted to show that you’re just as kind hearted with everyone else, that you’re not Hyde.”

It clicked in his brain. If he were Hyde you would not have seen a scratch trailing your body. Further connecting the dots he realised as to why Wednesday had not bothered him either by the time he woke up, she knew he was innocent. He wouldn’t be locked up anytime soon and it was all because of you. His gaze was soft as it trailed up and down your figure.

That had been the kindest thing anyone had ever bothered to do for him, and his suppressed feelings leapt with euphoria at your selfish act. He stepped closer his hands tracing the scratch above your lips.

Your mouth went dry, dropping the bagel back into the brown bag absentmindedly as you watched his eyes land on the scar remaining above your lips. “Xav, listen I really am sorry. I didn’t think about you and Tyler, and I didn’t think I’d have to go this far-”

Xavier ignored your apology, muttering a low ‘shut up’ before he found his lips atop of your own. His hands cradled your face tenderly, and the gentle action caused you to inwardly sigh and kiss him back, a train of butterflies exploding within your stomach. His hands traced circles on the side of your cheeks, a small smile adorning his lips when you’d returned the romantic action.

“I can’t kiss you back if you’re going to smile,” you said after pulling a way, a light giggle leaving your own lips when he let out a quiet laugh. “Sorry, my bad L/n,” he apologised, “It’s going to be serious from now on, no laughing matter.”

You nodded, going along with the joke. “Intimate actions are of utmost seriousness Xav!” You pointed a finger at his chest and poked him. “Oh absolutely,” he chuckled, his lips finding home near your own once more, before pecking the marks that were tainted on your skin.

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So the test wasn't able to be performed during the actual coupe, I don't think, but the Jade Emperor's surrender only serves to incite the court even more. After the coup, they DEFINITELY want that test done once its over, and they aren't going to take no for an answer no matter what their emperor says. Partially because he himself wants to know, for certain, if Azure's claim is true and also because of the sheer amount of stress the Celestial Court being in such chaos and disarray, all centered on him, was causing him. Wukong basically goes, "Alright, if it will make you happy and get you off my tail!" nd marches right into that council chamber to perform a test to his dao and compare it to some of the remaining bits of dao of Sonzi left in storage somewhere expressly for the purpose the verifying any heirs fully expecting it to be complete bullshit dreamt up by one of Azure's delusions... and it comes out as a positive match. And since Guanyin is already confirmed as Sonzi's reincarnation, that could only make Wukong a decendant.

Wukong is floored by the revelation because now he can't deny it and has to accept that he is somehow related to the Jade Emperor. His first reaction is to look up at his newly discovered grandfather and, quietly, ask (more like accuse) him if he had always known and ask why he hadn't told him.

See, what everyone except for Macaque had never known was that Wukong's lack of knowledge of his family history, not knowing his origins or his family, had always been a sore point for him. He'd always wanted to know who he was and where he came from... but was forced to accept that he would never truly know as the centuries pass. And now he if finally told that information was kept form him, perhaps to protect him, but he lacks the context to know that the person who had kept ot form him had only jsut found out themselves.

Prev.

It would be ultimately the pressure from the Celestial and Underworld courts after the coup that force the royal couple and Wukong to come forward with a Dao test. A simple but uncomfortable procedure performed by the Ten Kings taking a sample of Dao from both Wukong, Guanyin, and from a preserved item of Songzi. The test is done publically so the results can't be fudged.

The sheer indignation on Wukong's face when the Dao test comes out a match is immense. Excuse him?! How dare that be true!? Why didn't anyone tell him!?

Wukong: "This has to be a mistake!! I can be a celestial prince! I can't let Xiaotian be mixed up in all of this!!" Macaque: "Peaches, the only way this test could have a false negative is if you took a bite out of the Princess herself. And she's been gone since before the Heavenly Pillar collapsed."

Macaque was the one person Wukong told about his insecurity regarding his family (or lack-there-of). Something that Macaque himself understood and sympathised with, sharing his own origin of being found alone on the moon's surface by his sister. It was something that helped them bond in a way they couldn't with other demons who had families and known ancestors.

And of course now everyone is convinced that Wukong's induction as a Peach Orchard Attendant and his Havoc were the result of a failed coming-out party for the Emperor's grandson. Why else would some random monkey get a job so close to the Emperor's daughters? (ty @soniclozdplovesonic for the idea)

And when evidence of The Stone Matriarch/Shíhuā on Flower Fruit Mountain becomes public, along with the evidence that she pretty much gift-wrapped the Stone Palace for her child, it only convinces the Three Realms even more that Wukong's story was one of a lost heir that was cruelly rejected by his subjects.

The monkeys of FFM (The Stalwarts and those who moved to the mainland) instead argue that no matter the spiritual connection between Wukong and the Celestial Royal Family, he's still their King and rightful Heir to Shíhuā's throne, not the Jade Emperor.

Havoc in Heaven Part 2 is still ongoing with all the political unrest.

By the end of the day, Wukong just wants to cuddle his mate and his baby. Once Macaque takes a shower of course - he's been mucking the stables the last couple of weeks.

[666writingcafe]

The Road to Becoming a Sorcerer

Beel

Something's wrong with MC. They're less talkative than normal, which is strange, because I thought they'd be asking Solomon all sorts of questions about our activity today.

You see, a couple days ago, Solomon reached out to Lucifer and me, asking us to accompany him and MC to the Sorcerer's Society headquarters so that MC can get their license and begin the process of becoming a proper sorcerer. I assumed that Solomon told MC about this.

He, in fact, did not, which I learned this morning. MC initially looked absolutely confused when Lucifer told them about our plans for today.

Perhaps they've gotten used to Solomon springing things on them and learned to simply roll with it. But I feel something is weighing on MC's mind. Something that they don't feel like sharing right now.

In any case, the four of us arrive at the headquarters with little incident. According to MC, the castle we're looking at normally looks like a typical office building, which means the sorcerers have implemented an illusion to prevent random people from entering it.

The moment we step inside, however, people begin whispering and pointing at us. Some glare at Solomon, still upset over incidents that occurred many years ago, long before MC was even a thought in the universe.

I've never understood grudges. Why devote energy towards hating someone when you can simply focus on something else instead?

Then again, that may just be a "me" thing. My brothers hold grudges towards people that they feel have wronged them.

Like Lucifer towards Solomon. If it weren't for the fact that he genuinely likes MC, he wouldn't be going along with any of this. Historically, he's dismissed Solomon's apprentices as nothing but trouble.

Apparently, so does the receptionist. If it weren't for MC politely saying please, I don't think he would have helped us at all.

They have a way of getting others to do what they want, but I don't think they realize fully what that means. They could very easily weaponize their ability and potentially start a war. Not that I think they would, but the possibility exists.

Everyone is attracted to MC's soul, and they would do anything to even be in its orbit, let alone get close enough to it to bask in its glory.

"You must keep mini Lucifer safe for one full day." Oh right. The test. Solomon also talked to us about that. Something about a game? I kinda tuned out at that point in the conversation. I was getting hungry.

"Something that I've never been able to do consistently is to take control of another person's power. The one time I was successful was with Asmo, and that was a complete accident."

I remember now. Solomon enlisted the help of our brothers to administer this test for MC. Asmo has the pact with Solomon, Satan and Belphie like pulling pranks on Lucifer, and Mammon and Levi can easily be bribed into doing anyone's bidding.

And since Lucifer is literally too small to do anything, that means I am MC's only ally for the duration of the test.

This is going to be interesting.

[gt-abby]

Mar and Jake- chapter 7

Since you guys want it so bad, here it is, chapter seven!

Don't forget to reblog and comment what you think of the story so far (no pressure tho!)

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Mar froze. Then she remembered who it must be and she let herself relax. Jake got up rather quickly and looked through the peep hole just to make sure no one who shouldn’t would see his tiny friend, then opened the door with a relieved smile.

“Hey guys! I’m sorry I’m a bit late, got caught up.” Emily entered the apartment before Jake could offer her in. She then knelt down in front of Mar with a big smile and rubbed her head with a finger. Mar didn’t know how to react to that so she let her ruffle her hair, but she was in a bit of a shock. She still wasn’t used to anyone but Jake knowing about her situation. She still felt a few reservations about this, but she tried to reassure herself that Emily must be trustworthy. Jake quickly approached the two women and knelt down in front of Mar as well. That made her a bit uncomfortable- being surrounded by giant people that were looking down at her.

“So, you have to tell me, how come you can… shrink?” Jake just cut to the chase. He couldn’t wait any longer.

“Oh, I can grow, too.” Emily smirked and stood up, motioning for Jake to as well. Then, she slowly rose above him and touched the ceiling with her head. Jake and Mar were shell shocked, Mar more so than Jake. Now she was barely the size of Emily’s pinkie. This made her reservations about Emily grow, but as per usual she didn’t voice her concerns yet. She gulped, but Emily quickly shrunk back to regular human size.

Emily laughed, a rolling, contagious laugh. “Oh, this never gets old, your faces.” Jake returned a fake, nervous laughter. Mar didn’t.

“Anyway, to answer your question, I’ve always been able to do that. It took a few years to master it fully but now I’m a proper sizeshifter!” Emily exclaimed proudly. She then looked down at Mar and asked, “you can’t do that?” Mar shook her head. After meeting Emily for the first time, she tried commanding her body to grow back several times but nothing worked. Emily replied with a ponderous gaze.

“So your parents are… how did you call it .. ‘sizeshifers’ too?

“Oh no, they’re regular people. They know I can sizeshift, though. At first they thought it was a disease, but doctors have never found anything wrong with me, I was always perfectly healthy. But aside from me, no one that I know can do that, either.”

Mar wished Emily would shrink down to her size to keep her company and make her feel more comfortable, but she didn’t voice it. Emily didn’t seem to notice, and neither did Jake, that Mar was rather extremely uncomfortable at the moment.

Two giants were standing, towering above her, having a conversation between them as if she wasn’t there. If she were to speak up, would they even hear her? If she were to try to join in, would they even include her?

Those anxiety-driven thoughts plagued her mind as she spiraled into this deeply depressing mentality that she’s grown to feel weirdly comfortable with. She watched as the two titans sat down on the sofa and continued their conversation as if forgetting about her completely. She was invisible, non-existent perhaps.

“-Right, Mar?” she was pulled away from her thoughts by her name being called.

“Um, sorry what?” her voice broke, but it was so small she really hoped they didn’t hear it.

“Tell her what happened to you.”

“Oh, umm…” She hesitated, feeling embarrassed. But she sucked it up and retold the story again. No one interrupted her. She added her dream to it too, as to explain why it happened, but none of them actually understood exactly why. She ended up rambling for a few minutes, while Emily and Jake looked at each other as they listened. When Mar finally finished, she tried apologizing for talking so much, but the two reassured her that it was all okay.

“I’ve actually had a few dreams like what you’re describing, but I can barely remember them. I remember something, someone, who knew me, but I’ve never met before, appear in my dreams and to talk to me, but I can never remember what they were saying. I… think they were made out of a blue flame or something? I’m not 100% sure.” Emily became uncharacteristically quiet for a moment. Mar’s heart skipped a beat when Emily said she had those dreams too, but she was meekly disappointed to hear that she remembered none of it. How come she remembers but Emily doesn’t? Now she has more questions than answers. “Say, what’s it like being small all the time?” Emily asked Mar tactlessly, changing the subject. She then proceeded to jump onto the coffee table, shaking mar and almost making her fall in the process, while also shrinking back to her size and sitting, crosslegged, next to her. Emily saw the grim expression on Mar’s face and realized. “You don’t like it, huh, well I think it’s pretty cool, you get to be “babied” around, getting carried everywhere you want to go, and all the food I so huge you can eat all your favorites for forever!” She laughed, making Mar chuckle.

“Well, that’s one way of looking at it. But… it was so scary at first, I… I never wanted this to happen, all I’ve built up to in my life is now either useless or gone. My parents even didn’t take it well, so now I’m all on my own.” Mar felt bad about ruining the mood, but she felt like she had to let this feeling out.

“That’s not true, Mar, you have me,” Jake piped up. She looked up at him with a smile. He’s right. He’s been there for her at every turn. Even if she does’t fully feel comfortable leaning on him like that, but she certainly knows she can trust him.

“And me,” Emily exclaimed. “I know we don’t know each other all that well but I’m here for you, no matter what.” She rested her hand on Mar’s shoulder.

“Thanks, you guys,” Mar wiped away a tear. “I really needed that.” She let out a happy laugh of relief.

—

After a few more hours of the three of them hanging out, it was finally time for Emily to go home. Mar felt. Ted bit sad to see her go, her energy was contagious, but they all knew all fun times must come to an end. After Emily had left, Jake sighed heavily and held out his hand to Mar, indicating to her that he wanted her to come with him. He looked tired, and Mar guessed he wanted to go to sleep.

“So… what are we doing tomorrow?” She asked him while crawling onto his palm. “Am I coming with you or staying home?”

“I’ll… let you chose this time. I know I wasn’t the nicest towards you this morning, I wanna make up for that.”

“No, no, don’t worry about it. Umm I guess it’s best if I stay home, since we can risk someone else seeing me and anything bad can happen outside. I can’t move anywhere on my own right now so… I’d feel safest here.”

“Alright. Then Ill make sure to get you everything you need within reach before I leave. I’ll do my best to come back as soon as possible, but I do have work after class so I’ll still be back late.” Jake placed her on his nightstand carefully with a soft smile. Mar tucked herself in the sock he gave her as he went over to the bathroom to get ready. She had a bad feeling for some reason, but she couldn’t pinpoint where it was coming from or why. She drifted into sleep before she could hear the bathroom door open back up and Jake return to his room.

“You’re here again at last.” That familiar voice… it struck fear in Mar’s heart as it did before. She was dreaming again.

“What do you want now?” Mar asked the deity, already impatient.

“We have infinity to spend together now, must you be so hostile?” They replied mockingly. Mar scoffed. She had no intention of spending her lifetime connected to this condescending “god”. When she finds a “cure” for all of this, she’ll finally come back to her normal life. “Anyway, how have you been faring the past few days? Have your powers come to you?”

“No.”

“I see.”

Silence befell them in the void. The fire knew Mar wasn’t interested in a conversation, and any attempt at one would be shot down immediately. Mar herself didn’t know what the deity was capable of, but there wasn’t much they could do in the dreamscape. Her physical body wasn’t here so nothing bad could happen to her. So she turned away from the deity and sat on the ground, staring at the void until her eyes began creating shapes in her vision.

“Turn around.” Mar heard a voice from behind her, so cold it made her shiver. But she didn’t reply. Suddenly she felt heat coming from behind her and turning around she saw the fire being grow, bigger and bigger, until they were Jake’s size- hundreds of times her own. Mar was looking up at them, open mouthed, beginning to shake in fear. She felt as if she was first shrunk all over again- the size difference terrified her, especially when it was someone made entirely of flames. Regardless of whether she wasn’t going to be physically harmed, this was a petrifying sight.

Then, her worst fear happened. The deity reached down towards her with their hand, yet Mar was frozen in place. She couldn’t run, or hide, or do anything but stare in disbelief as the fiery palm got closer and bigger. She cowered, looking away, when she felt heat surround her and the giant hand close around her, so tight she felt her breath be taken away.

“No please”, she cried out, as she felt herself be raised from the ground so high up if she fell she could easily die.

“So you humans are just as easily scared as you were back when I last returned, I see.” Mar looked up to see the indifference in the deity’s voice also appear on their huge face. They looked disappointed, too. “I find that extremely pathetic. How did my host come to be this way..? You all have lived far too comfortably in the last millennia. Must I remind you of what I’m capable of? Your life is, quite literally, in my hands. So remember that when ever you plan on disrespecting me, young one.” Mar gulped. This was truly a nightmare. She felt her chest be crushed in the titan’s grip before being completely let go, and, as she fell screaming, she was woken up to Jake’s gigantic face peer upon her and his hand shaking her awake.

“Thank god, Mar, you scared the hell out of me.” He said, wiping away sweat from his brow. “You were screaming, did you know that?” yes, she could feel her throat was sore. “I-I’m sorry” she was breathing heavily, cold sweat pearls on her forehead.

“Look at me,” he pleaded with her, and when she did what he asked, his heart sank. Her eyes were in total shock, darting to everywhere on his face, wide and with tiny pupils. What could she have dreamt about that was so petrifying? “Are you okay? Breathe.”

She took a deep breath and let it all out, looking away from him. “Y-yeah… I’m not… dead so... I guess.”

“Now… please tell me, how the hell are you doing that?” he gestured to her body, and it took her a while to realize there was nothing underneath her. She let out a yelp thinking she was still falling, but she was actually hovering in place, the sock she was sleeping in already slipped off.

“What…?” she stood up in the air and looked around her. Nope, there was nothing underneath her that was holding her in place.

“Of course you wouldn’t know.” Jake sighed. “there’s something new about you every day, huh?”

“Why didn’t this happen like two days ago?!” Mar exclaimed in frustration. “I wouldn’t have broken my freaking leg!” She cried out, her emotions overwhelming her- first, the fire deity scaring her to oblivion, now this.

“Wow, wow, Mar, calm down, it’s okay, these things… happen.” Jake tried to calm her down, unsuccessfully. He resorted to his secret technique. He grabbed her as softly as he could and pressed her against his chest. Her heart was beating so fast he could even feel it. It was faint, but it was there. Slowly but surely, it began to deescalate and she took a deep breath and tapped the inside of the ball he created around her and he let her go. He uncapped his hands but she stayed laying there on one of them, looking up at her giant friend. She wiped away her tears and looked away. Jake took his other finger and used it to position her head so she would look at him, and he raised her to eye level. His eyes looked very concerned and not convinced that she was alright. The way he was looking at her made her eyes water again, so she sat up and looked down at the ground- well, Jake’s palm. He felt her tears falling down on it and his heart dropped some more.

“What… was the dream about this time?” He asked as softly as he could.

“T-they’re back…” Mar replied, still looking away from him. “I tried to ignore them so… they got mad-“ she wiped away the tears- “and became giant, like you, and held me tight. They threatened me and dropped me and then I woke up.”

“My god…” Jake gasped, “No wonder you were panicking.”

“Yeah…”

“W-well, you’re okay now, and I’m here for you- u-unless you need me to leave.” He added, scared he was contributing to her panic, since he was also a giant compared to her.

“No, no, please stay…” She grabbed his thumb and hugged it, finally looking up at him. Jake sighed in relief and his heart skipped a beat- he could not help how cute she looked to him as she hugged his thumb with her entire body. Her size could never stop looking so adorable to him, but he pushed those thoughts away- he didn’t want to dehumanize her like he did the day before.

“Okay.” He pressed her against his heart in an attempt at a hug and she reciprocated and spread her arms and hugged him back as much as she could.

“Thank you.” She whispered

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Black Beats Black - snippet chapter 7: Ambrosia

“Thank you,” she says with a last look at their friends before her intense viridian eyes fall on him. “Remus, I understand that you don't want to talk about it but I would rather be honest with you. I don't want you to be mad.”

Remus frowns at her, slowly getting more and more worried. “What do you mean?”

“I know.”

“What?” His lips can't help but tick with a bit of humor. 

She brazenly holds his gaze with a grim seriousness but he can't properly make sense of it. Her last words were about Sirius, looking for details, and Regulus but Remus is sure she has understood his point. He won't come near their relationship even if it hurts– without even considering Sirius choosing one of them.

“Remus, I know.”

It takes him a blink to fully grasp on what she says. Lily stops at his side with a conflicted expression. She tries to make it seem less grave but Remus is still slowly crushed at what she means. There aren't many options that don't make him feel sick. Her insistence about Sirius, their fight and his brother freezes him with a vague nausea.

“You…”

Remus knows well enough that she is smart and they are close enough for her to know how to read him. It's still a slap to his face that she might have figured out his feelings for Sirius– why would she insist otherwise? He had believed that outside of the dorm his thoughts and feelings were perfectly hidden.

“It's not that obvious,” she softly says but her encouragement falls flat. “You know how to cover your back, but I might care too much about you to ignore all the hints.”

“Does anyone else know?” Remus croaks out, feeling faint and he hastily starts walking to the castle to feel somewhat in control.

Lily follows him and, despite the distance between them two and the others, keeps her voice down.

“James confirmed-”

“Bloody-”

“But I was already sure of it myself,” Lily insists. “It was by accident that we talked about it. Nothing more. But Remus, it changes nothing. Alright? Nothing.”

“Do we really need to talk about it?”

“No, not really but– I want you to know that I'm on your side, Remus. Always will be.”

She carefully grabs his arm before slipping hers into its crook when he doesn't move away. Remus still refuses to meet her eyes, staring at Sirius from afar who chats with his brand-new friends.

He can't believe that he has been obvious even now, after everything that happened - the pain that Sirius caused to him when Remus had been feverishly believing that he found his people. Someone who doesn't mind his horrible curse and all the complications he brings onto the table.

“It changes everything,” he mutters because while he isn't afraid of the repercussions of being queer, he is terrified at the idea that his feelings get out, especially at this point when they make little sense. “Do you think Sirius knows?”

Lily is frighteningly silent for a few seconds. “What do you mean? Of course, he knows.”

Remus freezes. She stares at him in confusion but still holds on to him with a soft care in her fingers. He thought it couldn't get worse.

“No, he– that's impossible.”

Sirius would have said something, definitely a bad thing, just to reassure Remus that they will stay good friends but never more because that would be too much. Perhaps he would completely ignore it, Remus would prefer that option but only if he stayed ignorant; how does Sirius look at him if he knows that Remus loves him?

“What are you talking about? I know he has been helping you all these years. Just like James and Peter.”

Remus hysterically jerks away. Lily stumbles a step but saves herself with an astonished look that melts in worries. He clears his throat, too fast and too roughly but he can't breathe and feels like he should crawl away in the Forbidden Forest right now.

“What are you talking about?”

She purses her lips and exhales. “I'm talking about your lycanthropy.”

He is completely daft– it's even worse. That Sirius knows, naturally, and Lily has pieced together. James dared to also confirm it to her and now Remus’ shameful secret, one of but it is easily the worst he realises now, is out to one of the few people he wants to keep in his life.

[the-monkey-ruler]

I got an ask about Yellow Robe Demon to ask to clarify some things.

Yes, sadly that the children are half-yaoguai and conceived under questionable circumstances their deaths were to be considered non-issue. We only see Yellow Robe mourn them but I'm not sure if this was to imply that the children were already far gone under their father's influence that they could not be helped like how Red Boy was, or that it was punishment on Yellow Robe Demon himself for kidnapping his wife.

Wukong did say that he would give the boys back but at the same point, the Princess seemed more worried about their father's wrath than their safety. She pleads with Wukong against and against because she seems more worried that the Yellow Robe demon is going to hurt Wukong or those around him. I would like to thing she could care but it seems more like she is protesting out of fear than love.

She claims that she was taught to be a loyal and dutiful wife but Wukong reminds her that she is also a daughter and should go back home to the family that has been looking for her for 13 years. Being filial to one’s father and mother was something that was to be respected and while this isn’t always the case I think was trying to get her to see she doesn’t have to stay with a family that she didn’t have a choice in and go back to a family that does love her. The mother calls the children “his seed” showing perhaps she never really bonded with the kids or that even she was unable to.

It could be that they were still being cultivated and therefore were either old enough to have a human body or that they were only connected to their father. We see that the only example of a demon that is unable to speak within the story and that is the python yao, was said to be uncultivated. Because these are half-yaoguai children it is hard to say exactly how their biology works because there were so few examples.

We only have one other example of a half-yao demon and that is the White Snake child. But the White Snake child was seen to be a very normal baby with no complications and even came out fully human. This could be a case that perhaps a yao mother yields better results of a more cultivated child than a human mother but I have another idea why that could be.

Yellow Robe's children were never given any dialogue, and while we do read that they were shouting and screaming, they are never given a position where they’re able to communicate with anyone. And to me, this suggests that they are unable to communicate, or they are not meant to be understood as reaching the point of being a human. I am going to try to compare White Snake and Xiyouji and their half-born demons but these are very different stories, one being a romance and the other one being a fantasy journey. But we see how a union created with mutual love and respect is different from how a union created and kidnapping is to be perceived.

This could be a matter of earth-born demons versus demons that were fallen celestials. We see two different types of earth-born demons, one being the White snake boy that came out fully cultivated and completely human. The other is Red Boy who is said to have cultivated at least 300 years in order to reach the position where we meet him within the story. Red Boy could have taken longer due to himself being a full-born demon child. White Snake's son has a parent that has cultivated and another with natural cultivation therefore having a more accumulative.

But we have to look at how fallen celestials have children. And this could actually tie into why Heaven is so strict about celestials not having families when they already have positions due to how their offspring could come out.

Zhu Bajie was reborn as a pig but kept his Dao powers somehow, leading to him becoming a demon at birth. We see at the moment of his birth he was unable to think properly and had a more violent temper, he showed us by eating his siblings and his mother. It could be that fallen celestials, or any new life with fallen celestial cultivation becomes more volatile and unstable in both mind and body.

However, we see that not even celestial that has children is fallen as with Yuanhua and Sanseng Mu who were able to have normal human children and never lost their human forms. It is never said that they turned into Yao when they left heaven and this could be for many reasons that they were not punished by heaven by being banished or that they didn't eat humans when they left the heavens while Yellow Robe and other fallen celestials did fall into a hungry desire for power and started to eat mortals. This could suggest that a strange cocktail of both cultivated qi from good and bad sources leads to more unstable children if with a mortal.

We see that children born from celestials are very powerful with Erlang Shen and Liu Chenxiang being prime examples, but their mothers never were considered fallen despite breaking the law. The children of Yellow Robe are nowhere near as strong and this could be because they lack formal training but it could be that they are more cultivated from demon qi than their father's celestial qi and therefore would be weaker such as the case with White Snake. There could be a case that these children could have been as powerful without formal training similar to Red Boy but that is hard to say without ever seeing a case of this.

This is all to say that children born of fallen celestials are more unstable and need more cultivation similar to full demon children, unlike celestial children who have not fallen.

Another option that I find less possible is that these children were born of a mortal woman while we see other celestials having children with mortal men. Can't really see how that would change much but that is also a variable to be noted.

The last option is that these children were never to be considered 'characters' to say. While we see with other children born of celestial or yaoguai unions we get to explore who they are and what they can overcome. These children were sadly more extensions of Yellow Robe and his influence over the Princess. While that isn't the case in a more real-life setting, story-wise the symbolism is that the Princess is completely freed of Yellow Robe's presence and can return to her 'real' family. I may not be putting it eloquently but that could just be the case.

It could be the case of the Nine Generation law. Wukong's monkeys went through a similar thing and yes while most of them were fighting against heaven the law has it that the family member never even had to be directly involved in the crime of the criminal. So the children wouldn’t have to have been involved with Yellow Robes crime, like how White Face Vixen was with her adopted father, but been punished due to their affiliation with their father.

[tabitha42]

The Wizard's Apprentice - Chapter 7

Saffron is just a lowly apprentice with barely a successful firebolt to her name. So what chance does she have with the arch mage she's slowly falling in love with?

Gale x Tav, slow burn, eventual smut

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She woke to the feeling of a hand gently rubbing her shoulder. 

Groaning, she rolled over slightly to face the owner of the hand, squinting as she gradually opened her eyes. At first she wanted nothing more than to go back to sleep, but when she saw that familiar smile and warm, brown eyes, somehow getting up didn’t feel like such an impossible task. 

“Morning, Saff,” Gale said softly, giving her time to come round. “Mmmph… morning…” she groaned, summoning the strength to sit up. 

“How are you?” 

“Been better…” 

“Perhaps this will help.” 

He reached over and picked up a plate full of cooked meat, bread and fresh fruit, along with a glass of juice, courtesy of the grove. The smell alone was enough to bring a smile to her face. She thanked him as she took the plate and began eating. 

“The others will be heading off soon,” he informed her, glancing back out the tent. “They wanted to know you were alright before leaving.” 

She smiled to herself, appreciating their concern. 

“Give me a few minutes and I’ll be out.” 

He nodded and left the tent to rejoin the others. 

Gale had been right - the breakfast certainly had made her feel better. She was a bit light-headed perhaps, but mostly fine. She left the tent and found them armoured up and pretty much ready to go, just making a few last-minute preparations. 

“Ah, you’re awake,” Wyll said happily as she joined them. 

“There, you see? Told you she’d be fine,” Astarion said, ignoring the rolled eyes and slight glares from the others. He waited a moment to see if anyone else had anything to say to her, before heading over. 

“You are fine, aren’t you?” he asked, keeping his voice down so the others couldn’t hear. 

“I’ll live,” she answered with a small shrug. “And how are you? Still feeling… happy?”

“More than you know.” Before last night she wasn’t sure she’d ever seen him look genuine, but he certainly was being genuine now. 

“I… wanted to thank you. Not many would have been as understanding as you.” 

She looked at him sympathetically, seeing this more vulnerable side of him. 

“Why didn’t you tell us earlier?” 

“I thought you’d all be brandishing stakes if I did. Not many will accept a vampire spawn in their midsts.”

“I suppose you’re not wrong…” She wondered what life must be like for him, to be hunted by society. “So you’re a spawn, not a full vampire?” 

“Indeed. All of the drawbacks with few of the benefits.” 

“Is that why you’ve never fed on a human before?” 

“No. That would be because my master never allowed it,” he said, his voice thick with bitterness. 

“Your master?” she asked, and he grimaced at having to say the name.

“Cazador. A vampire lord in Baldur’s Gate. He saved my life by turning me, but after he did I became his plaything. Tortured for his amusement. And he would sooner see me feeding on putrid rats than humans.”

“Oh… gods…” she whispered in horror, her eyes widening. 200 years of torture? She had no idea his past was like this. Suddenly she understood why he’d never wanted to talk about himself much before. 

“But I’m free now,” he continued, not wanting to linger on the horrors of his past. “And I intend to make the most of that freedom while I can.” 

She looked at him and saw he was being completely truthful. He was finally given the chance to live after 200 years of torture, and he fully intended to use it. Her heart went out to him - she couldn’t even begin to imagine what he must have gone through. 

“Astarion…” she whispered sadly, wanting to offer her sympathies, but she knew he didn’t want to linger on his past, so she wouldn’t either. “Listen… if you ever need to feed and no one else will let you… come to me.” 

He looked rather surprised by that offer. 

“Are you sure? Given the others’ reactions that could be… quite often.” 

“I’m sure. I can handle a bit of a headache if it means you finally get to be happy after 200 years.” 

She saw in his expression not only how shocked he was by that offer, but how touched he was, too. 

“Thank you…” he said softly, genuinely. “This is a gift, you know. I won’t forget it.” 

She gave him a smile, holding his gaze for a moment, before suddenly remembering something. 

“Oh! And I wanted to ask. I know you don’t know exactly what’s going on, but… Gale’s blood…” 

“Oh, that,” he said, the old smirk coming back to his lips. “That was an unexpected turn of events, wasn’t it? Unfortunately as you say, I don’t know what’s going on, other than that there’s something wrong with him.” She looked visibly concerned by that. 

“Like, what? Do you think it could be a disease? A curse?”

“Perhaps, I suppose. But I’ve been a vampire for 200 years and I’ve never heard of anyone with blood like that before,” he replied, looking over at Gale, who was across the camp talking to Wyll. “I know this is rich coming from me, but darling… be careful of him.” 

The seriousness of his tone caught her off guard. 

“You… really think he could be dangerous?” she asked disbelievingly. 

“Anyone keeping secrets is dangerous.” 

“You kept secrets from us.” “And I’m very dangerous,” he said with a playful, maybe even flirty, smile. 

Behind them the others began to congregate and look towards Astarion. 

“Ah, I think it’s time to go,” he said, walking over to them. “Ta-ta, darlings.”

The others said their goodbyes and soon the group was on their way, leaving Saff and Gale alone. She watched them leave with a heavy heart, lingering long after the group had disappeared into the trees. 

“How do adventurers live like this every day…” she whispered, still watching the trees. “Watching their friends walk off, knowing they might never come back?” 

“You must have faith in them,” Gale said, walking over to her. “They can handle themselves, Saff. Don’t worry. Goblins are no match for them. Wyll is a seasoned adventurer, Lae’zel is a trained warrior, Shadowheart has the magic of her god flowing through her and Astarion… well, vampires are hard to kill.”

“Spawn,” she corrected. “Hm?”

“He’s a vampire spawn. Not a full vampire.” 

“Ah… well, that explains some of the questions I had. How do you know that?” 

“He told me.” 

She finally took her eyes off the trees and turned to Gale. 

“How much do you know about his past?” 

“Only what he said last night.”

She went quiet and looked back towards the trees, wondering whether or not to tell him what Astarion had told her. 

“Are you ok?” he asked, seeing the pain in her eyes. 

“Yes. He… told me some stuff earlier, about what had happened to him. He’s gone through a lot more than I realised. I would tell you, but… it’s not really my place.” “Of course, I understand,” he said, though he couldn’t help but wonder. Clearly whatever it was it had shaken her. 

“I… told him to come to me if no one else let him feed on them. That he could always feed on me if he needed to.” 

Gale looked just as surprised by that as Astarion had. 

“Are you quite sure you want to do that??”

“Yes,” she said firmly, looking over at him. “What’s a headache against his need to eat?” 

Gale went quiet and looked away slightly. 

“I… don’t begrudge him what he is. We all have our burdens, one way or the other…” he said quietly, more sympathetically than she’d expected. He then looked back to her. 

“Just be careful. Don’t let him take advantage of you.” 

“I won’t,” she said with a smile, appreciating his concern. 

“And make sure someone is always there. We don’t want him getting ‘swept up in the moment’ again.” 

“Please don’t be angry at him for that. It wasn’t his fault,” she asked, taking a step towards him. “He’d never fed on a human before. If I’d spent 200 years eating rotting meat and was finally given some real food, I think I’d find it hard to control myself too.” 

He sighed slightly, begrudgingly agreeing with her.

“I… understand why he reacted like that. Truly I do. I’m more angry at him for trying to bite you in the first place. If you hadn’t woken up and he’d had no one to stop him getting ‘swept up’...” 

He trailed off, leaving the rest unsaid, but she could see how much the thought worried him. She walked up to him and gently placed a hand on his arm. 

“Gale, it’s ok. I’m fine,” she said softly, giving him a reassuring smile. He looked at her, a look of fear in his deep, brown eyes… til he managed to return the smile.

“You’re right. And it doesn’t do to dwell on what could have been,” he decided, taking a deep breath to rid himself of those thoughts. Saff smiled, glad he wasn’t going to linger on that.

“Exactly! Now, if you’ll give me 10 minutes to get properly dressed, I’ll be ready for today’s lessons.”

He nodded and headed back to his tent as she headed off to get dressed. A small pile of books was beginning to grow outside his tent that he’d taken from the various places they’d been through, and he took the opportunity to start reading one. 

Normally he’d be annoyed if someone disturbed his reading, but this time he was more than happy about the interruption. 

“Ah, all ready?” he asked as he stood up. 

“I am indeed! So what’s today’s first lesson then, Mr…” she trailed off a bit as she realised she didn’t know his surname. “Mr… Of Waterdeep,” she settled on, prompting a hell of a laugh from him. “My surname,” he managed eventually, “is Dekarios.” 

“Ah, Mr Dekarios then,” she said, though he didn’t seem very happy with that. “Hmm… you know, I do hold several degrees. I’m pretty sure that should be Professor Dekarios.” 

“Oh! Should it now?” she half-gasped half-laughed. That might be the most pompous thing he’d ever said, and there was quite some competition there. “Really getting into the roleplay now, are we?” 

“Actually… I know someone who often calls me Mr Dekarios and, well… it feels a bit weird hearing it come from you,” he admitted. 

“Oh, I see,” she said, somewhat relieved he wasn’t quite as pompous as she’d thought he was. “Dare I ask who that is?” 

“My… companion, Tara,” he answered. She couldn’t help but notice the hesitation. 

“Your… companion?” she asked, hoping her face wasn’t giving away just how she felt upon hearing that. 

“Yes. She’s my oldest friend, my dearest confidant. She was my teacher for a long time, in fact, when I was younger. I owe a great deal of my magical knowledge to her,” he explained. 

Saff couldn’t help but notice how gushing he was about her, and tried not to feel uneasy about it. 

“I see. I’m surprised you’ve never mentioned her if she means that much to you…” she muttered, sounding just a tad more bitter than she intended. Luckily for her Gale didn’t seem to notice. 

“Actually, I think I did mention her, shortly after we first met.” 

She paused, wracking her brain to try to think of when he’d mentioned her. Then, her eyes widened. 

“Oh my god, are you… are you talking about your cat??” she gasped, laughing at the absurdity of it all. Had she truly been jealous of a cat? 

“She is not just any cat! She’s actually a tressym, I’ll have you know.” Her eyes widened even further. 

“You have a tressym?!” Gale couldn’t help but laugh at her reaction. “Why did you say she was a cat??” 

“Well, most people don’t know what a tressym is, so it’s easier just to say cat,” he said with a shrug. 

“And why did you awkwardly call her your ‘companion’?” she asked, still laughing slightly. 

“Because… most people think it’s a bit weird to have such respect for your pets,” he admitted, sounding a bit embarrassed. 

“Well most people are idiots,” she said bluntly, prompting another laugh from him. “I’ve always wanted to see a tressym in real life…” she mused longingly. She’d read about them, seen plenty of drawings, but never seen one in person.

“If we get out of this whole ordeal alive, I’d love for you to come meet Tara,” he said, a soft warmth in his voice that bought a smile to her lips. 

“Hmm, I suppose meeting a tressym would be worth going to Waterdeep for,” she teased, which made him laugh. 

“Indeed it would be, especially a tressym like Tara. Now, I think we’ve spent long enough talking, it’s about time we got on.” 

“Ah, yes! So, Professor Dekarios, what’s the first lesson?” 

The morning passed mostly practising cantrips, and by the end she’d got pretty good at them. They took a break while Gale made lunch (Saff did offer to help, but he insisted he didn’t need it and said she should rest instead), and come the afternoon they were ready to start on some 1st level spells.

“De-to-no,” Gale said, slowly and clearly. “De-to-no,” she repeated carefully. “Detono.” 

“Perfect. Now, the somatic component. Watch my movements carefully. Make sure you get the fingers right, it’s all in the details.”

She watched as he slowly replicated the required movement, then tried replicating it herself. 

“Arms higher, fingers out… good. Now, put it all together, and…” 

He turned to the three large sticks they’d wedged into the sand in front of him and raised his arms. 

“Detono!” 

The clap of thunder was joined with a gust of wind that tugged at her hair and clothes, even though she was well out of range of the spell. The three sticks went flying off into the river, along with a fairly significant amount of sand and stones. 

As the wind died down again, he turned to her. “Now you try.” 

She turned to the second set of sticks in the ground in front of her. Slowly she raised her hands and took a deep breath. “Detono!” 

Nothing happened. “Keep trying. No one gets a spell the first time. Except me, of course.” 

She scoffed and shook her head. 

“Are you always so full of yourself?” “Only when it’s warranted.” 

“You’re insufferable.” 

“You seem to have suffered me well enough so far.” 

“True, there was a lot of suffering.” 

He couldn’t even come up with a good response to that and just made a noise in objection. She flashed him a playful smile, then turned back to the sticks. “Detono!” 

A slight wind, a hint of static. “Yes! Keep going,” he encouraged, and she did so. Again, and again, and again. Each time the wind picked up more and gradually the static started to audibly crackle. 

A noise echoed in the distance. 

“What was tha-”

“Shh,” he hissed, listening out for it again. 

Once more it came, louder this time. A strange noise, like an animal, but not one either of them recognised. High pitched, a sort of whine or winnie… whatever it was, it was getting closer, and it didn’t sound friendly.

[practically-an-x-man]

— “not that i’m not enjoying being used as your pillow, but i think we’d be more comfortable in bed.”

Oooh alright! This is a really cute prompt (one of my favorites from the list tbh) so I'm struggling to pick out which couple I want to write this for. I'm thinking... hm, I'm still on that Eris and Rick kick, and they could use some fluff after that angst piece I wrote before, so let's go with that.

____ Late Nights

Word Count: 1.1k Content Warnings: none! (I guess a little swearing and teasing?) ____

It had been a difficult mission. No casualties, thank goodness, but it had been 72 continuous hours of crowded transit, drawn-out fights, and whining ex-cons. Blackguard alone was enough to drive them both half-mad, and it nearly earned him the point of Eris' spear. Rick had stopped her just in time, but... if she was going to lose her patience with anyone on the squad, he'd probably be missed the least. Insubordinate prick. Almost made Rick yearn for his military days.

But they'd all made it back safe, with ten years knocked off their sentences, and it meant Rick earned himself another night of semi-peaceful sleep.

Though he wasn't doing that just yet. The adrenaline of that last fight hadn't quite worn off, and it left him feeling too restless to sleep. They'd been caught by surprise right at the end of the mission, surrounded, and it would've meant the slaughter of the team if Eris hadn't pulled out their final stop.

Archaic magic. Shape-changing. He'd never fully understood it. But it saved the team, though it left Eris exhausted in the aftermath. Rick had almost had to carry him back to the plane - he was so drained his legs barely functioned.

From there she'd dozed: on the plane, on the bus to Belle Reve, in Rick's truck back to the apartment. Even here, now safe and sound in his living room, they lay half-covering his body, their face buried in his chest. The television droned on, some late-night sitcom rerun he'd flicked on just to fill the silence. Rick ran his fingers through Eris' hair, the touch just enough to make them sigh.

"Y'know, for the personification of strife, or whatever the hell you claim to be..." he murmured, "You're damn cute when you sleep."

"Mm. M'not cute." Eris mumbled, her voice almost lost against the fabric of his shirt. Rick almost chuckled.

"Right now y'are, darlin'."

"Could... could cut off your head... wouldn't even know it till you saw your body land next t'you," he responded, his voice still half-slurred with sleep. Rick wasn't even sure he knew what he was saying. He ran his hand over their back in slow circles, smiling when Eris burrowed in a little closer.

"I'm sure you could," Rick agreed, completely honest, "But you won't."

"Hm. Try me."

"Do it, then."

"Tomorrow." Eris sighed, "Just you wait. You're done for, Flag."

"Sure I am. Shame, too. I was gonna make French toast." he replied without moving an inch, "Guess you'll just have to steal the wallet off my dead body and go buy yourself breakfast instead."

"Maybe I could..." they drawled, the words punctuated by a yawn, "Save it for the afternoon. Lunchtime murder."

"I'll mark my calendar."

"S'yer own damn fault," Eris mumbled, just a few moments later, "You're the one who keeps bringing... fuckin'.... m'mortal metas home to bed with you. Some point you gotta, just... expect to get'cher head chopped off."

"Yeah, I know. Occupational hazard." he agreed, faintly amused at the whole conversation. His fingers traced idle patterns over Eris' bare back and shoulders, following the lines of a few old scars. Some of them, he knew, could have been older than he was - older than his whole family line, even. The thought bent strangely at his mind. Eris had always appeared his age, even a few years younger - younger in appearance at least, though their features had a strangely ancient quality to them. The closest he'd ever seen in the modern world was in Egypt, or perhaps Türkiye, and even that was a bit... shifted.

"Y've got... concerning taste." Eris' muffled voice pulled him from his thoughts, and this time Rick couldn't stifle the low laugh that rose in his chest.

"I'm aware."

" 'N I need to get your French toast recipe." she added the moment later, the words still dragging with sleep.

"It's just bread and eggs, babe."

" 'N vanilla. The good vanilla."

"Yeah, alright, and vanilla. And a little nutmeg n' cinnamon. And a couple other things." he explained, "I can show you how to make it tomorrow. Better not leave you hanging after I'm missin' my head and all."

"Hm. I won't make it as good as you," Eris protested, shifting a little in his grip. Rick rested his hand on the back of their head, scratching his nails lightly over their scalp. Eris hummed in contentment, a sound that almost reminded him of a purr.

"You will. It's not that hard."

"Shut up, Flag. 'M tryna save your life."

"Right. 'Course. Forget I said anything." he replied, amused. Eris' back hitched, and he realized a moment later that she was laughing. It made him smile. He imagined that this was what had drawn him in from the beginning. He'd met them out on the battlefield, of course - and they were just as terrifying there as they'd always been - but he'd asked them out for a drink in exchange for saving his life, and that was where he'd gotten to see this softer side for the first time.

And he still stood by his words. Eris was cute when he was sleepy. It was awfully disarming.

"Alright, well..." Rick muttered, stretching for the remote to shut off the television. It left the room dark and near-silent, and Eris grumbled his protest. Rick ran his fingers through his hair once again, savoring its soft curls. "Not that I'm not enjoying being used as your pillow, but I think we'd be more comfortable in bed."

"Mm. Stop chasing me away."

"I think I'm doing the opposite," he pointed out, shifting to sit up as he spoke, "Besides, weren't you the one who told me to stop putting metahumans in my bed?"

"Think I meant... stop putting succubi in your bed," Eris corrected, "M'not a succubus. Doesn't count."

Rick fought hard to bite back his smile. Eris, who would push and taunt and bite but at the end of the day really did want to be near him, who'd make up any sort of excuse to admit he didn't have that fondness, who insisted time and time again that he wasn't cute, he wasn't soft, that he'd most likely kill him in the morning...

"So a war god's safe to put in my bed? 'Cause I can just leave you here, if that's what you want..." Rick let his arms loosen around them, just enough for emphasis. Eris' fingers caught his bicep in an instant, holding him before he could get too far. Rick again bit back a smile.

"Discord. Not war." Eris muttered, tracing her finger along the tattoos on his bicep, " 'N I'm not a god, n' I'm not safe. But I'll... I'll make n'exception for you."

"I'm honored." he said, and lifted them into his arms, "Here we go, darlin'."

[quillusquillus]

I don't understand your ramble on the "extreme radfem beliefs" post. You said you mostly agreed with what it said yet went on and on as if it was a serial killer manifesto or something that you strongly disagreed with.

As someone who's been around radblr for years, there's no hidden agenda behind those statements like "trans people are predators" (along the lines of your comment).

Hello! No it sounds like you understood me very well actually! I do very strongly disagree with it. The emotions it causes in me are negative and it feels deeply threatening to me and my friends. But emotions are not the only way things should be read imo. I agree with the underlying sentiments on a far deeper level than the actual words, and I believe that the intentions behind them are the desire to enact good even if I strongly believe the "solutions" to the problems acknowledged are wrong.

For example: "Women are often left vulnerable by the patriarchal infrastructure inherent in most cultures worldwide and we still have a long way to go before we can fix that" is a statement I fully agree with and I think anyone who doesn't isn't paying attention to the world around them. However "therefore trans women are bad and aren't allowed to exist" is a conclusion I would never draw from that. I like to observe and base my conclusions on observations instead of emotions wherever possible, and my trans friends of any gender have never shown themselves to be anything other than completely normal people just living their lives.

I'm not sure I entirely understand the second part of your ask, sorry, but I'm going to guess that it's about my interpretations of the statements? My experience with the way radfem/terf circles articulate their beliefs leads me to "read into" them that way. Perhaps my interpretations are incorrect, but again, I'm basing it on prior experience and my understanding of the points they usually wish to make and the framing they use around those talking points.

I hope this answered your questions!

[divinetheatre]

what do you think of the argument hannibal doesn't love will for who he is, only for the reflection of himself he sees within him? i disagree but i cannot word an argument

i’ve answered an ask similar to this but the other way around. from hannibal’s pov, i think we must start off understanding that hannibal is capable valuing other people for their differences. i think sometimes we get hooked on the idea that hannibal is a total sociopath (not true), but hannibal loves studying humans. yes, he makes judgments, but he likes certain people!! not everyone is someone he wants to kill and eat right off the bat. yes, his self-preservation will come above them if pushed, but he genuinely likes alana, he likes margot, he likes jack, and he likes will (even before he's absolutely convinced will is capable of "seeing" him fully)! and he likes all of them for different reasons. conversely, he DOESN'T like tobias, someone who could arguably "understand" him more than these other people in terms of similar interests. people like gideon and bedelia who attempt and fail to understand him are/will be rewarded by sitting as his dinner table and eating themselves (quantifiably bitchy!!) will is singular, and hannibal loves that singularity.

when hannibal talks about will, he reveres him and his qualities:

hannibal admires will for who he is, the unflinching honesty of it. and yes, that comes with will understanding him, but like i said in the linked ask, it is here i think we must stop and realize how important it is to be understood fully without judgment, without having to explain yourself, without feeling you must modify your behavior around them. perhaps, if you've never met a person like this, you might not understand the intensity of that feeling or the rarity of it. to feel completely alone is to feel not entirely human. and while hannibal does view himself above other people, the fact remains that he IS just a man. he’s someone who had his sister, the closest person to him in the world, taken from him. he’s someone who is desperate for a family bc to him, family is a guarantee of love and acceptance. this cannot just be ANYONE.

in the same conversation with bedelia about their world views being different, bedelia adds “someone worthy of your friendship.” will doesn’t receive hannibal’s friendship — not to the level of love we see by s2 — simply by virtue of his empathy. will EARNS hannibal’s love through dangerous and rigorous testing of his self-will, his character, his beliefs, his physical and emotional strength… hannibal wasn’t ready to let down his walls just bc will could understand him. if will had failed any of these tests, he would not have been “worthy” of hannibal’s love and hannibal would have regretfully but certainly killed him. will’s ability to pass these tests says something about him, apart from his understanding hannibal. who will is as a person determines his place in hannibal’s regard. not just anyone would have been able to prove their worth to hannibal, and in this too, will is singular.

and this regard and singularity become so important that hannibal is willing to give up his own life for him. everything we know about hannibal’s self-preservation becomes increasingly wrong when applied to will as the show goes on right up to the impetus of their relationship. in twotl, hannibal realizes that will intends to let the dragon kill him, but he goes with him anyways. he could have escaped from the prison van, left will behind, and fled the country once more — but he doesn’t. he allows will to lead him to the slaughter, knowing that either he will die at will’s behest or they will kill the dragon together. either one ensures will’s becoming. as they prepare a final toast, hannibal says, “no greater love hath any man than this than to lay down his life for a friend.” hannibal will die to see will’s potential realized, and you cannot say that he would do this for anyone but will. being willing to die for someone means you value them over your own life. if that isn’t love, idk what is.

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This is a response to your anti james anon because as a James Lover it made me think. I do believe James changed because Lily wouldn’t have gotten with him otherwise, but they were right Remus and Sirius had bias with the “Snape never lost an opportunity to hex James” i dont think this was ever confirmed by anyone else was it🤔🤔 This makes me think that James changed and stopped bullying everyone else except Severus , which doesn’t make him look like he matured, but still … if James had been a master manipulator wouldnt we have known? Do I blame this one on JKR’s writing (😂)? Haha. Im glad it made think though. Have u ever thought about this?

I've definitely thought about it! It's completely true that Remus and Sirius were heavily biased and you absolutely have to read between the lines during their conversation with Harry.

It's not confirmed by anyone else, so I can see why people don't believe it, but I personally think it was mostly, though not fully, true. This is because we're shown that Snape, particularly as a child, had an aggressive, vengeful streak and often resorted to violence. To me it just makes sense for his character that he would want to get even with James during this period. I just can't believe that he would let the fact that James was dating Lily lie there 😂

That doesn't mean James wasn't at fault or that he wasn't instigating himself. So while Remus and Sirius make it seem (unconvincingly) like James was just innocently defending himself while Snape assailed him from all sides, I think it was really more of a back-and-forth. In my mind they had kind of a "shoot on sight" policy with each other during 7th year and it was just a matter of who saw who first, or who fired the first shot in any given confrontation.

I also think that you have to take into account that for years, Snape was the victim. That's still a factor, and so what he's doing is more along the lines of reactive violence and is more understandable. Perhaps if James had just walked away from the conflict and been the bigger person for once, it would have been better- but I also think it wasn't in either of their natures to walk away. As I've said before, at this point they're trapped in a cycle of violence that self-perpetuates.

So I think the truth is somewhere in between "James was just an innocent angel defending himself!!!!1" and "James was hunting down Snape behind Lily's back to torment him!!!!1" lol. I definitely believe these conflicts were more circumstantial than anything, like if they happened to run into each other in an empty corridor, exchange a few insults and then someone would start firing. But that's still a different dynamic than what we saw in SWM and it makes sense to me with both of their characters. James changing was likely an imperfect process, he's not going to go from a raging dickhead to champion of levelheaded benevolence in the space of a year. They're still two hotheaded teenage boys with a LOT of anger and hatred between them so obviously theyre gonna fight lmao.

Also, this is just my headcanon but I like to believe that Remus and Sirius weren't actually privy to the true motivations behind these fights, so they saw it simply as a continuation of what came before. In my mind, it was more of a Snape and James thing than ever, it was newly personal, and I think that's why James didn't share details with anyone. AKA, it was almost always about Lily. Sev believed that James had "tricked" Lily or was otherwise a danger to her, or was going to lead her into danger (the prank, for instance). James believed that Snape was a danger to Lily because of his associations with Death Eaters. Both are reasonable on some level, but ironically neither understood that they wanted the same thing above all else: to protect Lily.

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Good Omens Spoilers

Okay, wow. It's going to take me a while to fully process that, and I definitely won't until I've rewatched it at least once. It has a very different feel to series 1. There are fewer disparate characters, especially human characters, like Shadwell, Anathema, etc., which I did rather miss; the lack of a narrator weirdly changes the tone quite a lot in itself; and, perhaps most significantly, there’s a real mystery that the audience are not let in on, in contrast to us in series 1 watching Aziraphale and Crowley search for a boy we already know the identity of.

Maggie and Nina are nice, and I really enjoyed the obvious parallels to Aziraphale and Crowley (the line about sheltering under a downpour especially felt very relevant), but I’m also not sure they merited as much screentime as they got. I am really glad that their story didn’t end with them dramatically falling in love with each other, as I found the idea that Maggie was really in love with Nina a bit suspect - they’ve clearly barely talked before we meet them. The open ended question of their relationship obviously mirrors Aziraphale and Crowley too.

And now the elephant in the room: that ending was devastating. The end of series 1 is so effective and moving because we finally see Aziraphale and Crowley get to be together on their own terms. Here, it’s completely undone. I love the little subtleties of the Metatron’s look at Crowley as he leaves the bookshop with Aziraphale - he knew Crowley would never accept an offer to be an angel again.

On the one hand, I believe that Aziraphale would accept the offer, and that he would think Crowley would want to come with him, as he’s always been the one most hesitant to distance himself from the Heaven/Hell dichotomy, and to commit to his partnership with Crowley.

On the other hand, has he learnt nothing? I thought he understood by this point that Heaven did not always have the best of intentions. And he’s just seen what happened to Gabriel when he refused to toe the line, a punishment that the Metatron himself was involved with doling out. Does Aziraphale somehow think he’ll have more control? What will he do when he’s inevitably asked to do something that contradicts his own morals? He can’t think that won’t be a problem.

Like I say above, it’s not that it’s out of character for Aziraphale to accept the offer. It’s more that it’s a step backwards in character, and feels perhaps a little artificial. It’s the hand of the writer, putting in the equivalent of that beat in a romcom when the characters have a falling out. Our other mirrors for them, Gabriel and Beelzebub, get to run off happily together, so we can probably expect the stereotypical reunion too.

And we now of course have our context for The Spoiler. It’s a lot more devastating than I think anyone was expecting. I know there’s been a lot of Discourse around queerbaiting, and I have read perspectives on that that I can understand, but it’s never been queerbaiting in my opinion. I sometimes wish that things could be allowed (and I mean by the fandom crowd, not by the mainstream) to be subtle and achingly unspoken, to be queer in theme and context, and also perhaps to allow for non-normative manifestations of queer love (asexual/queerplatonic/etc.). 

However, the kiss changes none of that. I am glad that Aziraphale and Crowley are now queer in a way in which mainstream audiences can’t miss. I sort of wish it didn’t have to be that way but, after all, a kiss is not an inherent barrier to other queer readings, and it works so well in the context of the scene. It’s Crowley’s last-ditch attempt to demonstrate what they could be, without words, and it fails. It’s heart-breaking.

As to the future of the show and their relationship, we’ll have to wait and see. There’s a possibility that we won’t get a series 3 at all, in which case this is a dreadful place to end, and I really do hope that doesn’t happen. Ultimately, this series was a little unsatisfying, but Neil Gaiman always said that it was an intermediary, the lead up to the real next part of the story, and we’re just going to have to cope with that. Here’s hoping we don’t have to cope for too long!

Misc smaller things

I wasn’t sure about re-casting characters, but I actually loved the new actor for Beelzebub. Much as I adore Anna Maxwell Martin, I think she was perhaps slightly mis-cast originally. The visual effects and costuming around them were also much improved.

Miranda Richardson is amazing. Again, I wasn’t sure about her playing a totally different character, but she completely sells it. I love the clipped way she speaks, her mannerisms, all of it. She completely embodies Shax and not for a moment did she make me think of Madam Tracy.

I loved Muriel. Just very sweet and adorable and funny. No notes.

I also loved all the little references to things. The appearance of several Terry Pratchett books (The Colour of Magic and Good Omens specifically) and nods to his worlds - in particular, I got really excited about the seamstresses’ guild getting a wink. 

There were many, many Doctor Who references as well. I know they all had outrageous fun having Crowley referred to as “Doctor”, and that he got to use a Scottish accent (though a bit posher than David Tennant’s actual accent).

On that note, the extended flashbacks were wonderful. The Elspeth stuff was maybe a little on the nose, but I loved seeing them run around Georgian Edinburgh (which was so surreal, because it looks identical to modern Edinburgh). The stuff with Job was especially enjoyable, and I still can’t quite believe we got to see the aftermath of the church bombing.

[mmikmmik2]

So, regarding the Watching and Dreaming promo and Luz's Belos cosplay: it seems like the three options for why that's happening are (a) someone did a "your worst nightmare" thing with Luz and her brain invented the details (b) Belos did it (c) The Collector did it.

I'm not sure if I'm into the idea of it coming from Luz's subconscious. The show already did "your worst nightmare" with Grom and Gus's illusion magic and there were two separate mindscape episodes plus Eda's symbolic/informative nightmares. Like, the show has already gone to this well so many times. On the other hand, these narrative devices are delicious and I will never get bored of them, and it'd be fun to have a compare/contrast with regard to Luz's fears. Grom ended with Luz being unable to fully confront her fear of Camila being disgusted by the Boiling Isles, and it would be awesome to have a followup with Luz standing up to a new worse fear that she's like Belos/her friends would see her as being like Belos if they really understood her/whatever.

Plus, "subconscious made real" would let the show pack additional details about Luz's mental state into the background/symbolism, which would be really nice because it sucks that her character arc got truncated so badly. Although, I think even if the broad strokes of the "dream" or whatever it is are from someone else, it will be like Luz's subconscious is filling in some details. I mean, I'm not sure why anyone else would put Gus in his Grom formalwear (I don't think he wore that at any other point?), for example, so I assume that was just random noise from Luz's subconscious. (Doylist interpretation: possibly meant to emphasize the scene as a Grom "sequel" like I described above.)

Alternately, I really like the possibility that Belos constructed the main narrative of the "dream" (perhaps by stealing the Collector's power, or by giving the Collector suggestions for how to deal with Luz). If it's something Belos did and we get to see Luz reacting to/fighting, then we're getting both Belos and Luz's perspective on the similarities between the two of them. Also, iirc, Luz has never won a fight or even scored a point against Belos without having some kind of horrible loss or new trauma, and I want to see her really give him hell. I want an overwhelming victory. That could happen in a different scene, but it would be really tasty if it happened with her shutting down his justifications and manipulative "we're not so different" bullshit. He's gotten away with writing his own narrative for too long.

I'm sure the Collector is not completely incapable of cruel psychological warfare, but I can only imagine him putting Luz in Belos cosplay as like an incredibly basic "you're both humans and you're both HUGE JERKS WHO ARE RUINING MY LIFE" child-logic insult that completely accidentally 360 noscopes Luz's psychological weak points. Which is extremely funny and tbh I kind of support it.

[truthtoself]

Taurus Sun (ultimate thread) by @milkstrology

When the Sun ingresses into Taurus it is Venus-ruled. Meaning, that Taurus being ruled by Venus sees the world through rose-colored glasses. However, unlike its airy Libra counterpart - it is also a fixed earth sign. Meaning, Taurus suns' learn from an early age that good things don't usually just stumble into your lap - and much effort or even work is applied to achieve the things you hope to find/have in the first place.

However, because Taurus is heavily Venusian influenced, and the Sun is the lens of self-expression - A Taurus Sun person may appear artistic, creative, or quite luxurious. Taurus Suns naturally have an acute awareness of the arts, or in general, the finer things in life.

Yet, what sets them apart from your overwrought stereotypes and tropes on Taurus being materialistic - is that Taurus is an earth sign, anchored in the innate need to work and do everything - often - entirely on their own.

Their biggest hardship and at times downfall is their pride - however, what needs to clear and understood about a Taurus Sun - is that from an early age, they've learned they must simply do things on their own to have the life they want for themselves. It's not that they are incapable of asking for help, it's that they simply didn't (often) grow up in an environment that encouraged them to be able to. Material things and status for them isn't so much a symbol to prove their worth - but often to prove their ability to go after what they want.

You must learn when navigating a Taurus Sun person, the juxtaposition with them is that they enjoy and can spot the finer things in life - but they are not defined by them. They literally take the $100.00+ earrings off of them and hand them to a friend who complimented them. Taurus is often an enigmatic person who leaves people mystified with how they can outdress everyone in the room, but have the laidback and easygoing disposition to never actually make anyone feel less than. Unlike (more) stereotypes of them being stubborn bulls, they take much time and gentle care to truly sit back and learn or assess all of their information or resources. If they're getting to know certain people, they will spend many hours conversing with them, or many months - getting to know them, before they form an opinion.

Where people often confuse a Taurus's immovable stubbornness is perhaps after the Taurus Sun person has rolled up their sleeves and fully immersed themselves in the complete immersion of studying the ins and outs of a topic, person, or situation before they come to a conclusion. A Taurus Sun person's mind is truly fascinating, because not only is it incredibly important for them to make their OWN decisions/understandings about a situation. But, they need to have every receipt, fact, book, or statement on a situation before they speak.

However, once they've taken their TIME to fully assess or hear out all sides of an argument, or topic, or gain a true understanding of a person's character. Hell hath no fury like a Taurus Sun willing to speak their truth on the matter.

Taurus Suns are FIXED for a reason, meaning they are immovable once their mind has been made up. This is not to say they can be immovable after having made up their mind - but people are quick to trivialize why they stand on their beliefs and opinions so firmly.

Taurus Suns do their due diligence, and you will rarely see a Taurus Sun just jumping on a band wagon to post an immediate fleeting thought on a trending TikTok controversy. They'll either have a personal experience to attest to, or know the subject matter intimately.

I often think Taurus Suns (speculatively) are used to feeling overlooked or spoken over, either in their childhood or in social situations growing up. Because they are natural observers, this can be why they slowly grow into more passionate individuals. Taurus Sun people are incredibly sensitive and delicate individuals who don't always feel they have room to be treated this way - so as they gain more wisdom they may become more vocal or willing to stand up for themselves. But, this was not always the case for them.

So when navigating or encountering the complexities of a Taurus Sun person, keep in mind these are multilayered people, and you cannot pigeonhole them into one box so easily. They care deeply about the people and things that matter to them, because they take the TIME to understand the inner workings of the people/situations around them. All they hope is that people can take equal measure and care to reciprocate this level of devotion and patience they extend to quite literally everyone they cross paths with.

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Roosmav fic recs part 4: Favorite AUs

See my previous fic rec lists here.

This list is pretty short, and I know that there are more AU fics in the fandom besides those I have listed here. The fics on this list had to meet the following criteria: 1. the setting is either completely different from the movies, or it's a major canon divergence, and 2. it's a type of AU that I personally like. :D I guess what I'm trying to say is that these recs are, as always, reflecting my personal tastes and not meant to put other writers or works down.

no snow in december (because we're in space) by Lake 1.5k, G, no archive warnings apply space au, christmas fic, fluff

Christmas morning with the ship's crew.

Even though this is a short fic, I really fell in love with the worldbuilding in this. (For anyone looking at this post after Christmas: I definitely think that this is worth reading even outside the holiday season!)

Coffee Corner by Brenda 4.5k, T, no archive warnings apply coffee shop au, fluff and humor

"Wow." Bradley's future husband frowns — very attractively — as he grabs an apron and puts it on, deftly tying it in the back. "Wow?" "Shit, did I say...sorry." Bradley wants to sink right into the ground. "I'm not...you're real, right?" Because Bradley's pretty sure he's still asleep and having the best dream of his life.

The 'fluff and humor' tag is on point – this is a really fun read, and I love smitten idiot Bradley.

I can't promise you anything, but I can tell you I'll never leave by othersideofthis 6.5k, T, no archive warnings apply western au

“Didn’t think you’d show your face around here again,” is the first thing Pete says when Rooster turns up at the ranch. Not “hello,” not “how you doing.” Not “don’t you know it’s been 15 years and I’ve thought about you every day.” No.

Did I make this list just so I get a reason to rec this fic? Maybe. I love western AUs and this is Top Tier writing. Perfect example of how to include canon elements in an AU setting.

Linear Flight by Fuddlewuddle 6.5k, E, no archive warnings apply pre-tgm canon divergence, shifter au

Bradley comes across an injured Peregrine Falcon a couple of hours after he's told that Mav has gone MIA. Caring for the bird, he slowly realises a few home truths he'd never fully understood before. Though the Peregrine Falcon ends up being more than he initially thought. And perhaps Mav wasn't as missing as everyone assumed he was.

This is really soft and sweet. Mav as a peregrine falcon is just perfect, and I really love the classic hurt/comfort trope where physical healing mirrors the characters' emotional state.

out of the blue by Lake 7k, E, no archive warnings apply merman Mav, soulmates, (bottom Mav)

When Bradley's soulmark appeared, his grandmother cursed Maverick to the ocean to keep them apart. Years later: reunion!!

I enjoy a good mermaid AU, and this one is so lovely. Great worldbuilding and smut, so it's no surprise that I love this fic.